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*"Depression has clipped my wings yet anxiety expects me to fly "*

*"Sadly, I cannot walk away from myself".* I just discovered that i've suffered from depression or anxiety.

Yesterday my dad asked if something was wrong. I said I was tired, because "I feel bad for being here, watching days that quickly pass near me, waiting for a thing that will never arrive" would be weird

"somehow I managed to dissapoint myself even though I didn't have any expectations in the frist place" wow....that's me

“...im forced into existence..” yep

I’m Troy and I’m 17. I’m struggling with social anxiety and depression at the same time rn, and I just want to say thank you that your videos really help me a lot, like really a lot.

Your voice is soothing and I can listen to it for hours without getting bored.

you are speaking for all of us, the people who lost their voice. your unexpected comeback made me feel happier. I wish you to have all the peace and joy that you deserve for the art that you do

Sometimes I feel like a living corpse

i live in london, and know where a lot of these scenes were shot. i’ve gone in circles around some of these train and tube stations, just riding them because i have nothing else to do- makes me feel like i’m going somewhere even thought i’m not. london is a depressed city.

it frustrates me to see other people's lives get into place so easily and u just look at yours like -_-

“No wonder they left... I would do...” - yes.

'i'm forced into existence watching people handle life so effortlessly while i fall apart at 2 PM' - so very deep and so very true unfortunately . I tried many years to handle life so easily like others ,they are so enthusiast about everything but i cannot . I'm at the opposite side .The voice in the back of my head says is not true and that is just me ,just an illusion and that is all good .But the way it feels says something else. I wonder if the 'normal' is being like them or being like me. Lovely imagery and words tho

Can we all put our hands together and be fine?

1:07 can we just appreciate this beautiful shot

*depression has clipped my wings yet anxiety expects me to fly*

I lost myself for a minute there, felt like an eternity. The voice over is incredibly poignant and very eloquent, well done!

„It hurts even more when you realise that you are not as strong as you thought. When you realise that darkness hurts, that everything hurts." -me

“But what I got instead were a thousand disappointments” 💔

*The days go by so quick that I don't even care what I am rn.*

As someone who has gone through depression (and I guess it does continue to linger in the background even after treatment) this does ring quite true. The production quality is truly lovely and fits your narrative seamlessly. There is a certain neo-noir-esque tone to it which is quite resonant with depression and melancholy in general. But there’s self examination and introspection in those nightly hours that is hard to capture, so bravo for making this video and succeeding in doing just that. I really hope you will continue to do these videos, not just to please ‘us’, the viewers, but also as a sustainable way for you to create what *you* want to express. I wish you all the best in 2020 and thank you for bringing attention to mental health. It will be more and more need for that.

“I’m forced into existence”. I love that line

how to get help when everything makes you feel empty ...

Sometimes I just wish I could go to sleep and never wake up again

We are not scared to die We are scared of the process

I finished college, I came back to my home city, I live in my mum's house because I couldn't find a job, I have no friends here and I spent the days in my room. I have lost my hope. My life has no meaning, I wake up and go to sleep every single day without social interaction, spending the whole day in a room. I feel useless all the time. I am so unstable emotionally and mentally!! Some days I feel depressed and others angry.. (2:22 a.m)

This the content KZfaq needs, good job on the cinematography Kat, I'm impressed, keep going!

I have never been able to find the right words to verbalize what it’s like living with this disorder, yet you described it so simply and perfectly

“At this point in my life l feel as though the parts of my life are finally falling into place but l’m not here to enjoy”thats me🥺

I'm so glad that you're truely back! The work you must've put into this is impressive. And as someone who has survived deprsssion I can say that your video is really accurate. Colors, sounds and the whole concept is just soo true. Thank you for everything you're doing. You don't even know how much these videos mean to me.

Watching this as I sit in front of my mirror realising how much I am drowning and not even trying to grasp onto something because I don’t see point

I miss her other vids, they help with my problems. They make me feel seen, cimforted, guided etc. I don't understand what happened kat, but I thank you for what we got. Truly a hidden gem.

I love these videos. Simply because I can recognize my daily life in them...

I have depression social anxiety and epilepsy, and all I ever feel is trapped and low feelings not wanting to talk to people and if I do I’m scared to talk to you, if people compliment me I can’t except it due to trauma and past experiences. Then I feel low as I’m twenty four still at home have a disability and no jobs constantly judged a lot , so yes I get this video totally

Depression feels like u really wanna go home, so fucking much, but u are already in home..

I love watching these bc so i know someone knows how it feels the one thing i hate that depression pushed me down to (anxiety,numb,tired,stressed,unhappiness, saying “fine” everyday if someone asks me if im okay but really its just a mask

am I the only one who got so used to people invalidating my feelings that despite the fact that I feel the way she describes it here, I just try to convince myself that maybe i’m exaggerating and that it doesn’t matter bc some people got through worst

This struck so close to my heart. I've never been able to put how I feel into words when I'm explaining to people about depression and anxiety and you've represented it in such an accurate way. I love this.

I honestly think that u'll be a theater actress one day

I love the way this vid describes depression. It is material like this that can help reduce the stigma. I know what it is like to feel so far from myself like a hawk from the moon. Press on you and everyone 👍❤

I love your way of filming, the beautiful poetic words that you use to describe the raw and real feelings of depression. I can totally relate. Thank you so much for doing this series. Absolutely beautiful work that you do. So inspiring!

You make the best videos of internet about how do you fell when you have depression or anxiety. Thank you for that, so much.

What exactly I feel everyday.

wow this is so beautiful and painfully true. especially"how can i ever feel content when i dont know whats missing"

The way you make cinema truly inspires me. Thank you! Your job is amazing!

I run , is the only thing that makes me feels alive & in control of my mind and body . Stay strong lots of hugs ❤️

You represent all my thoughts, visions, and ideas that pop-up in my head. You keep doing a great job! Z

i’m so happy you’re back, i’m dealing with depression and anxiety

I felt every word. Thank you for this accurate depiction of how depression feels. 💗🙏

I'm excited for this new series ! You manage to create a new different vibe everytime and the result is simply amazing

Watching this being at work and can't stop crying. I had to stop the video in the middle and I'll continue when I'm back home. It's so real. Even if Im in a better mood rignt now, watching stuff like that still is triggering. Thank you for this. People must understand. This can't be tabu any more.

I love your soothing voice and how you exactly describe the feeling inside of me.

*My anxiety explaining to my depression that I can’t commit suicide because I don’t know what happens after you die*

Thank you for this. It is how I've felt several times throughout my life

no production has ever come close to capturing this feeling besides yours. Thank you kat, much love x

‘ At this present moment I feel as tho all the pieces of my life are falling into place it’s just that I’m not there to enjoy it’ I had so many dreams and expectations of myself when I was younger imagining myself as someone who felt amazing But once I had what I wanted I didn’t feel anything, and I realised being able to feel things must have felt better then it does now. Now I never feel anything I find it hard, to be myself and feel I have lost myself to society, I have to act a certain way I have to do everything a certain way, I’m just sick of having to live in a perfect way. Depression isn’t an aesthetic or something you can just self diagnose, I have different days and more anxiety, I find counselling is sometimes a last resort, it might not heal you but it will help you realise your actions and sometimes turn them around.

every time i feel like 'mi going back to dark, i come back to your videos. and it comforts me so much

Your creativity flying high. I love this so much. You are one talented filmmaker and i love your writing, this one has to be my favorite

Wreszcie, kocham te filmy, one są takie prawdziwe. Pomagają mi wiele rzeczy zrozumieć i nadać sensu mojemu życiu❤️❤️

gosh this is beautiful as all of your short films you are brilliant

the same thoughts travel between my ears. it comes in waves, some tiny ripples, others crashing tsunamis. glad you have this outlet to let others hear you. keep up the good fight. and so will we.

I seriously have so much respect for you. Thank you so much Kat

This is such a beautiful and intriguing video. Just like all of your others. Your words are so beautifully written and i find such comfort in listening to your voice. These videos make me feel like there’s somewhere I belong like I’m not too strange and not too different from others. Thank you so much for sharing your story and these videos. Your video on OCD was the one I showed my parents to get them to understand what I was going through. I thought it was the best accurate portrayal of how I felt. You have the ability to give people like me a voice, and I thank you so dearly for that. Keep making more of these amazing videos and stay healthy!!!! xo

Thank you for your videos, they help me realise that I am not the only one thinking exactly what you’ve shown and it makes me less scared that it’s going to stick with me throughout my life

This is such a beautifully made video; the music and the rhythm of your words are perfect. Everything is so well said it's inspiring. Thank you!

After years of mental health struggle, meditation showed me that the more I practice being in the present moment, in the now, out of my head and in my body, focused on my breath, all you feel then is peace within. Peace comes from not striving forward, and not looking back, but being here and now. Realizing that every memory, every moment, happens in the now. It comes and goes.

I watched this high and this was a little bit trippy,the voice and scenes that are breathtaking. AMAZING!!!😍😍😍😍

This brought me to tears. I feel... Understood. Finally, someone gets it

thank you, Kat! I enjoy you and your work so much!

I loved the old mental health series and I'm sure the new one is gonna be just as good or even better. The work you do is amazing, your style and videography have something very special and unique to it and your voice is out of this world. Thank you so much for the content!

Sad to say I was afraid to click on this video.. as someone who understands n knows what it feels like. You always articulate your words well, and the quality of your videos has always touched me because you portray them well on your channel. These are the words I can’t even explain to those around me because I don’t even understand myself as well. It’s not that I asked to feel this way, to be this way, to think this way. So thank you for making these videos. ❤️

i just need a good friend to talk to thats all.

This is beautifully filmed and produced. You are so talented

This feels like an intro to a really good song

Great photography with creative words ....just waaw...and thank you very much cause you helping me very well

Thank you, truly thank you. I'm experiencing depression and I think to myself that at least there is someone out there understand

Wow... This is art, masterpiece. I'm waiting for other episodes right now. Thank's.

This is so relatable. I have so many people in my life but i don’t know who to turn to anymore. It really feels like no one understands me, when i myself don’t even understand what’s going on. I hope everyone here who feels the same way has gotten the help i’ve been avoiding and i hope those who are just like me will eventually face our demons and accept it.

I love your work, thank you!

Your videos give e such a good feeling. I can't explain... this is pure art and I'm so glad we have you back here

I’m so glad the mental health series is coming back! 💕

I lie about being sick sometimes because people understand if you have a cold but not if you have depression.

To jest kapitalneee! I jeszcze ta ścieżka dźwiękowa tak idealnie pasująca... naprawdę to coś pięknego:)

Being Sad is meant for me, my life is nothing and it might never be, Life is just hard living in this environment

Its the loneliness of it all, the inward trajectory and the low-key panic at the sense of loss of love and time that should have and could be spent better. How this path is not one that comes with a map and that the ones that survive, barring a select few, dont ever tell. The surreality of meeting someone else who feels this way is one of the very few things that make me feel excited. Living in the hope of better days.

What an amazing vedio! May your efforts pay u back.. Loved it😍

I love so much your videos, they always inspire me so much, I wish someday I'll be as good as you are with you videos.

"Everyone who kept their fingers crossed for me has long quit as though they got tired of waiting." That hit painfully true 😓 Thank you for your videos!

I’ve struggeled with depression for as long as I can remember and I’ve always felt something I couldn’t name. Now I know, I managed to dissapoint myself even though I had no expectations in the first place. That’s it. Thank you, I feel a lot better knowing how to describe it. Depression is a total dick, hang in there all my depressed fellows 🖤

Depression has clipped my wings yet anxiety expects me to fly

I can't thank you enough for this video. Describing my feelings better than me. So beautiful video

I couldn't touch its true nature... or grasp it...nor mine....! THIS LINE💔

amazing videos on this. I think it can help especially with staff that helping in the mental health industry should watch it to understand better their patients.

Beautiful video great description I love your videos

It's so very well made ! It's exactly how it is, it's such a hard condition to explain because it all comes down to the perception of things. It's so strange how the world completely shifts around to an angle so dark and bland. I hope I never fall back, but sometimes I get scared because I've worked so hard for the past year. I wouldn't wish that upon anyone

You've spoken what depress people wants to say, thank you 🙂

love it, this is a masterpiece!!! i feel this each day!

Very well put together video I love the way you put together a whole storyline in your videos that's relatable

I think this is the best depiction of what I've been feeling