Drudgery and boredom is actually a good thing. No news is good news. Be grateful things are going smooth. Go with the flow. Drama will kill you in the end. Stress does kill.

As a 8 year old boy, surviving my satanic mothers abuse, truth equaled certain death, lies and deception equalled peace and safety, and from that point forward, authenticity vanished from my life journey, recovery has been unlearning for one, learned or conditioned helplessness, and despair. Thanks for making this video, your articulating and putting a voice to very dark painful fearful and paralyslzing facts of my life journey, emotionally paralyzed at age 8, from that time forward survival was all that mattered

Two forms of lies, gaslighting and projection are major problems in our modern society. There is this cultist mentality to not be yourself and adopt the group's belief system in politics, science, religion, food, clothing, entertainment, etc.

The whole time i thought I was dumb, gullible, stupid, slow, WEAK. Thank you for explaining WHY or at least PART of why my life took the turns it did. Thank You for helping me realize that im.not INFERIOR or D AMAGED. Im.not stupid either. I'm easily manipulated because I keep thinking its all.based on luck. I always kept trying and I didn't give up, though I wanted to. My expectations were unrealistic. Im glad I stayed for The Christian Part!

You always have the answers I need when I can't even come up with the question. Thank you so much for the time and effort you put into fitting the pieces together for us.

The adjectives to describe my appreciation for your insight and validation may not yet have been created, so a 'thank you' will have to suffice for now. Bless you.

I use food . I dont do drugs or use alcohol

Thank you do much for the work you do. My journey has been built and is being fortified by your teachings. I am learning so much about me and my life through your lessons. It took 61 years to find you. God’s timing is mysterious for sure.

I love your stuff ! However sometimes it gets to overwhelming because you hit so hard at so many places I have to take breaks to process everything ! However your videos have helped me more than therapist ever could . It feels so liberating when I'm apply to apply your teaching to my life and use them . U have helped me more than u will ever know❤❤

I must say that you have great intellect on this complex situation pastor Tim and I know you are helping many people. Thank you!

This channel has been eye opening to say the least. I don't know how to stop hating my own existence from how I was mistreated growing up. I see to late how everything I was taught was wrong; there's no do-overs or a reset button to fix my faulty blueprint. What little validation I recieved was from doing stuff for others, if I'm not making someone else's life easier/better by not having any needs, I'm worthless. I wished I grew up in a loving family then maybe everything wouldn't hurt so bad. I'm still being punished everyday for having/showing emotions; I don't see a light at the end of this tunnel.

That's very accurate about core shame. It's one of the most devastating lies my parents have ingrained in me. Whenever someone express any genuine fondness to me, I immediately get scared and sometimes repulsed by the person. I have pushed good people away all my life because I was told not to trust them and chased after anyone who rejected me and was all around bad news. Another lie that is affecting my life till now is that I'm an academic failure and I'll never amount to anything and that my sisters are both smarter than I'll ever be. I would get punished sometimes for having better grades than my older sister whether by her or by my father, I wasn't allowed to say that math was enjoyable or learning another language is actually fun that would mean I'm just gloating and lieing. It also didn't help that school wasn't exactly a pleasant experience. I stopped doing good in school and ended up dropping out of 4 different programs because I could never comprehend what any of the lecturers were saying and I just went on to believe for 11 years that I seriously have brain damage and I even went to a neurologist 2 years ago who confirmed that there is nothing wrong with my brain. Whenever I start any program I'm paralyzed by fear and I ruin it for myself. I would allow myself to display ability but then bail as soon as I feel like I got the hang of it. I never allow myself anything good and I wasn't even slightly aware that I've doing this consistently for years untill recently. I'm honestly scared of what I'm still oblivious to.

As always thank you Pastor Tim.

Thank you Pastor, finally I know that what I'm going through in this recovery process is normal!! God bless you and your Ministry!

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Love this work Tim. So in depth and insightful.

thank you for you pod cast . Iv learned much about CPTSD thank you for sharing ❤

When we lie to someone, we are totally disrespecting that person. Remember that..in the end, the Liar disrespects themselves.

Lies .lies..my guardians were liars. I lied easily growing up and into adulthood ...truthful people were never in my circles. I used to avoid them but even when I lied my gut always told me that's not good.

I think a Wise Brain needs a well maintained moral.compass, to help guide the judgement and consequences Part of Life..

Powerful korero thankyou

I just found out today that complex ptsd came in force for the World Health Organization on January first 2022 under the criteria stated in the International Disease Classification 11 but it is not in the DSM-5 yet. Maybe it might sounds irrelevant but I think is not, it's important because it means there's not much awarement about complex trauma which usually comes from childhood trauma. For me that means too many people prefer looking at their kids like long life property.

The longer I live the more certain I become in the truth that "god" is not at all what we want or believed him to be. That god is actually not real, just a fictional character that we want to believe in. If he was real then he is actually the epitome of true evil in this world. A being powerful enough to create life, orchestrate this world, and create the situations in it... who obviously chooses to torture some of us, beginning in infancy through death. While simultaneously rewarding those who perpetrate evil upon the innocent. A real "nice" guy... these biblical stories just further illustrate how truly evil this world and therefore "god" is.

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