The Body Keeps The Score. And my body is half-wrecked. But I'm healing myself with what's left and that's enough. My mind has been too loud lately to do silent meditation so I'm listening to Jeff Warren's "Daily Trip". I like him. Then I listen to a sleep story to distract my mind and focus on details in the story. I almost never stay awake to the end. Oh yeah! The best worst thing happened to me a little over a year ago. I fell backwards over boxes stacked in a grocery store and brained myself on an ice storage freezer, then on the floor. I have a little trouble with attention span, a little aphasia, a little forgetfulness, but it's all worth it because it knocked the severe depression I've had for 42 years right out of me. And reduced my anxiety by half, at least. Apparently that's unusual. It feels like I destroyed the pathways to it. I think there was a moment I could have rebuilt them but just ... didn't. Freaking awesome! Now I know how it feels to be sad, which is amazing. It's so much lighter than depression. It feels immediate, and real. It's like when I finally got migraines under control, and I freaked out because I had an actual headache for what felt like the first time. I told a coworker "It hurts on top of my head. What is this?" She said "Probably a tension headache." So I said "What do I do!?" and she answered "Take an advil?" TBH I have had brief moments of depression that lasted 5-10 minutes, but now my mind pretty quickly goes to "No, let's think of this another way," and it's gone. So my life, seen from the outside, objectively sucks. And I've never been happier!

When you spoke about not having free decisions, it reminded me of a teaching story in one of Thich Hanh's books(I haven't been able to find it again😢) but the students were asking the teacher "how do you know the right thing to do and the right time to do it? The master told a story of two people traveling and getting lost, making "wrong" decisions, not having correct timing, then stumbling upon a master, a leader or king who had sustained a severe injury and they, by making all the "wrong" decisions and "choices" ended up at the( as you said "perfect" place and "perfect time to save that persons life. Master said there is no "right thing" to do or "no right time" to do it. Wherever your are the time, the now is where you were meant to be.😊 I miss teacher Hanh I learned surrender from him.❤ 44:31

I kinda love how this channel evolved!

So glad you enjoyed and shared the Tara Brach video. It's a soothing balm for the world. ❤

Covid was such a traumatic experience for me an Acute Care Charge Nurse for 37 years Med/Surg/ Tele. Forced to retire from Covid. Still working and killing it at 72. The first trauma was being a caregiver for 37 years there was literally no care for me when I needed it. . It was work related so it became Work Comp. I was so sick I wanted to die. The second trauma/ grief was loss of self. All that shadow identity that I thought was me was a longer their and this was a harder grieving period of time than losing my husband of 42 years( because I still had me). As a Charge Nurse my priority was always my nurses. I couldn't take of each 30 patients. But I could take of my nurses, be their resource. If my nurses were not drowning only then could the give safe effective care to the patients. I worked through I acknowledged the grief, felt. I know the lives I saved, the young nurses I mentored and taught and take comfort, and hav3 surrendered to this new " shadow identify". The real me only exists in the now.😊❤

Hey Doc. You look so happy. Love the energy.

Beautiful video. And I'll watch Tara Brach's video soon. One of my very minor traumas: in grade school, I was humming in class and I didn't realize it. My teacher asked who was humming, and made me stand in the corner. It was rather humiliating, as I never got into trouble in school. I kept singing though, and do it now, walking to the health food store, in the shower, with students at school (sometimes they sing along), driving, everywhere really, even if my voice isn't great. Yours is stellar! 😻💖

U r selling yourself short- amazing voice-creative being! The joy u have elicited in me watching and hearing your music videos or when u break into song is Pricelesa!!Please - be kind to and free to be YOu! Love u Z !Jersey-represent!

Today I woke at 430am to go work in the cath lab, turned on the TV/YT and this video was my first in the q. I have been a fan for many years as the content is not only informative but also entertaining. I've enjoyed both the videos of Doc Vader and the music videos are truly clever and well done. I joined today. I did not know this video would be so damn personal for me. I'm not a 60 yo victim but sometimes feel like I'm still the 9 or 12 yo girl I once was when , well, you know. The tears are flowing now as I type, and I feel unsure and unsafe of my footing. Thanks for caring to post this video. I'll watch Tara's video. The secrets I've buried deep have been my go to response and I thought that was the way to deal with it, but maybe I was wrong.

Love your work. This was a really good episode. I had a major awakening/shift almost 30 years ago and had no idea what it was, what it meant or who to talk to about it. At first I searched every book I could find but I had either no understanding to “get” it or there was so much woo woo, as you call it, that I didn’t read the whole thing. Something has shifted in the universe for me and it’s wonderful to not feel alone. What a wonderful thing for you to share your experiences and insights with us

My daughter got her driver’s license the year after both she and her little brother were almost killed by a truck driver who had “just a few beers.” He wanted to go on her first licensed drive but he was still recovering from emergency brain surgery due to Mr “few beers”. So I made him wear his hockey helmet. Embarrassed teenage girl? Sure. But I felt better!!

Just donated $ to your site. This particular video really touched me! I have struggled from childhood trauma. I never heard these ways of body/mind meditations. I so appreciate your tells on the kids vaping and the lost Audi missing keys. Just know you're helping so many people!

I don’t know when this came out, but I’m confident I’m waking up, and since there is no such thing as time, I’m glad I’m here:)

My 23 year old knows all the oldies and has since he was 10! I didn’t even know he knew this stuff.

😊 Best investment ever was to sign my kids up for drivers Ed. After they finished those sessions I could actually get into a car with them.

just love your free thought flow. Love the image of keyless squatting vapers

As someone who has just spent 2 years turning inward and processing all my trauma, i have been able to heal my chronic illnesses and free myself from my past ❤ this is the new medicine

Still dealing with childhood trauma at age 60. I am tired of having to do that…..

This is exactly my view on free will!

I appologise for commenting while i watch without watching the whole video to the end, but it just feels so much more real...Whean you said you felt the collective suffering of humanity. When you realise it you can never forget it. That everything has lead the world to where you are right now, has been paid with the blood, sweat, and tears of people (and animals), with a profound sensitivity of what is happening to them...And you really feel it, because the copes probably didnt help them all the way and most of them were hurled into a world of pain, abuse and torture, without anyone considering their experience of it....its just overwhelming, one almost wants to condemn the human species to extinction, and yet...if you won't realise the horrifity of the situation wer'e in, who will? Its safe to assume we are the first sentient, sensible ,sensual life to ever exist in this universe...why are we afraid of taking a stance against the bestial attitudes that got us here? They had their place in time but now...? Can't we see they are no longer provisional and benefical to us as a whole and to each of us individually? Does it matter whether God made us in his image or we made Him in our image? (gnoring the ignored part of ourselves) Is this distinction more valuable than the decision to hurt or not hurt another person?

love loving love: love it ;)

Thank you

as the high guy looking for his things you sir doubt my ability to remember where things were dropped. Thanks

De La Soul “ Three Feet High and Rising” that’s my jam!

You have a nice voice!!

This just has me thinking of that Ben Folds Five song, Smoke. Also, I still kinda want a chimi. ...maybe the Allsup's brisket chimi after midnight. Shifting to Stephen's Last Night In Town.

I’m so interested in intergenerational trauma and how the hurt our grandparents suffered affects their children and grandchildren

Magical brown man teaching white delinquents a lesson 🤣 Your Indian accent is amazing 👏 I giggled man. You were pure light and a disembodied voice for part of their story too 😂🙌

Inter generational trauma is evident in immigrant families. My grandparent came from Switzerland through Ellis Island while my grandmother was pregnant with my mother. I feel like she passed on a certain insecurity in me.

Haha. Love the Napoleon Dynamite reference. And yeah, so true:)

How and where do we sign up?

what does sorrow feel like? it feels like regret, cpompounded over decades, maybe even centuries sometimes./. Thats how it feels like. but would it feel like that if there werent the stigma of feeling sorrow or sadness?

Moving out! Billy Joel "Stanger" album?

Hate the commercials when I miss the live and watch later. Ugh

I sing when I ride my bicycles.

"Paying your coffee and listening to you 3x is cheaper than Therapy" (Anonymous, 2023). 😛😛 Side note: Honestly Dr. Zdogg, you stopped for a min. and I thought my video froze. You are that in control.

I’ll teach you the singing, Z. It’s all about being, lol.

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Great video!

just one more comment because i'm gettin obnoxious. Isaac Asimov's "The machine that won the war" illustrated what you're getting at, as much as "Devs" did. I still loved it i just wasn't hyped about it pointing at the question. It seemed it was the only current media that did point to it until i realised that more other current media (shows, books) was essentially questions pointing at the same thing.

Now I wanna listen to Billy Joel, lol

So do we not have any choice to heal from trauma? Meaning, we only heal if we were presetermined to do so? So does that mean that some people are doomed to live in trauma their whole lives? I do believe that God/Brahma/Jesus/Osiris/Consciousness/higherself, can make good things come from bad things, but I cannot understand them why to do anything if there is no choice?

Maybe we can go behind the definition of true nature, even that is a definition that can make you think you have a true nature.. This aliveness includes it all: the thoughts, the movement the stillness it's all one appearance, all at once.

He lives with mr. Catchetory down on Sullivan street... And that's all we'll say about that...

Long time no contact. I had to unsubscribe because I was entering retirement in the midst of covid so the finances were kind of up in the air. Now that things are sort of calmed, at least as much as they can be in this country or on this planet, I'll become a member again. So it does seem that the powers that be (aka the man) have really ramped up the trauma globally. Do you believe in collective insanity?

you seem to still be holding on to the thought of the importance of personal responsibility/accounbtability. I mean it's what's demanded by our society, but it doesn't really come without contemplation and experience. Hell i found a few guys passed out drunk on the sidewalk many times but, i only stole their phone half of the times (eastern europe, please excuse). So its a nice thing to return the keys.

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Gabor Maté

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You don't suck

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Of course you have free will, you have no choice.

So was it racist when Grandma said make yourself a dang quesadiLa? 😂

can't get past own daily trauma, sorry

Zooooob

Dude, are you stoned? 🤣