tWitch's widow opens up on how she explains his loss to their kids

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In a TODAY exclusive, Allison Holker sits down with Hoda Kotb and opens up about the months since her husband, Stephen ‘tWitch’ Boss, took his own life a few weeks before Christmas. “No one's ready for that moment and there's no one that saw this coming. No one. And that also breaks my heart, too,” she says.
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@susandickerman4939 Жыл бұрын

I feel so bad for Allison. She had so much negative press after twitch passed. Social media is the worst. I really admire her strength. In public. What goes on in the privacy of her home. She's human. With 3 children. I can't imagine.

@jmlw3 Жыл бұрын

Oh my, I didn’t see anything negative. What could possibly be said that’s unkind?!

@ceecee4491 Жыл бұрын

@@jmlw3 people love to blame wives for their husband's actions :( it's messed up, but I'm glad to see most of the comments here empathizing with her and understanding

@Sophya7 Жыл бұрын

@@jmlw3at the beginning some people were saying she put a hit on him and crazy stuff like that... it was bad

@tertersha8796 Жыл бұрын

People are just wicked minded 😞

@susandickerman4939 Жыл бұрын

@@Sophya7 awful in the beginning. I don't understand. On social media these days. It's the trend. Even when someone passes away. I don't understand it. It's so cruel. Just because you don't know rhat person. They think it's okay. Which i think so worse. Because you have no clue as to what that person is going through.

@KimmyR12 Жыл бұрын

You can tell she is still very much in pain, I pray she gets through it for her kids and heal. It's so heartbreaking

@karenkimber8374 Жыл бұрын

She playing with you guys emotion.She help delete her husband for money

@eringuthrie7380 Жыл бұрын

Karen stop ✋️

@karenkimber8374 Жыл бұрын

@@eringuthrie7380 No the truth hurt

@karenkimber8374 Жыл бұрын

@@eringuthrie7380✋🏾No

@ISCARI0T Жыл бұрын

@@karenkimber8374 KAREN MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

@vanessapote7093 Жыл бұрын

My oldest son is 25 going through alot with mental health, we talk everyday, im aways checking on him, im glad he came back home to live for now, he reached out for help to our dr and now talks to a counsellor, im so proud of my oldest son for reaching out and talking to me as his mum, we are very close me and my 3 sons ❤❤❤

@user-iz1bz4pz9j Жыл бұрын

You're an excellent parent. I wish I had that kind of relationships in my life. Thank you for doing what you're doing for your kids

@manaona3730 Жыл бұрын

Bless you and your sons. And I’m so happy he felt the self permission to reach out for help!!

@brendadickson9583 Жыл бұрын

Thank God he opened up ❤keep on praying n being for him.

@bbthree8886 Жыл бұрын

Thank you for welcoming back home. I’m 23 and experienced a lot of mental health battles as a kid and teen and am trying everything to repair all of that as an adult and my parents allowing me to live at home is a huge blessing for it. So again, thank you on your son’s behalf for doing that for him.

@stephenmarkovic878 Жыл бұрын

Get off social media get rid of your cell phones and start living like it’s the 80s in you will see your mental health of your children disappear

@Lovesimplicity_livesimply Жыл бұрын

My dad suddenly passed when I was 10... took his own life. It was the most devastating thing for us kiddos (3 of us too all under 10) and our mom that literally went from being a stay at home mom to working full time immediately to support us all. All while handling this loss... I am 39 now and that day/night is still fresh in my mind. God bless this family and Lord be with them

@thelibrarian894 Жыл бұрын

So sorry for your loss and you had to experience this. I hope life is treating you well. Can I ask how is your mum doing, how did she cope from such a big change for her?

@swimmingturtle00 Жыл бұрын

My condolences 💕💐Thank you for sharing. I can relate in a similar manner. Our hearts will always carry on sometimes lighter sometimes heavier but our loved one will forever be part of us.☮️✌️

@Lovesimplicity_livesimply Жыл бұрын

@@swimmingturtle00 I am so sorry you are able to relate in a similar manner😭😭😭😭💔 they will always live on. I lost my dad as a kiddo then lost a family friend that I considered a brother and he considered us his family as well, LaVar Washington. It is very important to me these people are not forgotten. I still share stories with people about them both whether they knew them or not🧡🧡🧡🧡

@BlessedTruly2014 Жыл бұрын

So sorry for your loss & God bless your strong momma!!

@Mimi_moon Жыл бұрын

Please take care of your mom if she's still with you. What a strong lioness taking care of her cubs.

@Freeuniverse777 Жыл бұрын

To anyone who is feeling like giving up and in that brink of taking their lives, remember this - When the world seems to have abandoned you, DO NOT abandon yourself. You are hurt because you have ao much love in you, give that love back to yourself. ❤

@raquelsbutterfliestorres2299 Жыл бұрын

😢😢😢 thanks

@lashandrabanks4001 Жыл бұрын

This is beautiful. God bless you

@smileandsaycheese44 Жыл бұрын

You are what’s wrong with this world.

@brendadickson9583 Жыл бұрын

Thank you so much

@lorrainemcdonald7982 Жыл бұрын

🙏🏾

@Sassyglbeauty Жыл бұрын

Oh man. I’m bawling. So hard to imagine this man struggling and not reaching out to his wife. My heart goes out to her and her kids.

@belllynbaysraysbrielleeant374 Жыл бұрын

Gianna Miranda and Charli Hill putted peanit butter inside..

@RobinaB530 Жыл бұрын

Me too--big time.

@RobinaB530 Жыл бұрын

@@rm742

@msmiami212 Жыл бұрын

People mostly don’t realise they have THE depression. Or that they’re ‘struggling’ with anything worth talking about. They feel fine. Which is why ‘just talk to someone’ is rarely effective. You really never stop trusting your brain, the one you make all your decisions with, that has protected you and gotten you this far. Ideas like his grow little at a time, discarded as ridiculous, then start to make more sense. There is bravery, sadness, terror, also practicality wrapped up in how they feel. I just pray for us all that our calibration of reality always stays accurate.

@user-ib9op9kq2k Жыл бұрын

Maybe he didn't know he was struggling probably operated on autopilot

@terraalbritton6405 Жыл бұрын

She says she feels sadness and anger but doesn't stay there. I admire that so much! I am so proud of her. I love that she still talks to him and teaches their kids to talk to him, too. That communication really helped me when my dad suddenly passed.

@nesq4104 Жыл бұрын

She's a witch

@celestesimeon-wilfling5278 Жыл бұрын

" If I'm feeling this much pain, it's because I've had so much Love." That part hit deep however gave a beautiful understanding about life BALANCE 💜

@cece8095 Жыл бұрын

I swear, I love Hoda. She was literally crying with her. She is one the VERY few sensitive journalists we have left. Her, Savannah Guthrie, Anderson Cooper.. that’s about it. They are all we & these people are on large platforms have left. And God bless Allison & her family. With these things you don’t have words.

@diaryofafreebitch Жыл бұрын

She is so perfect for this job. 💗🙌🏻

@marcus3567 Жыл бұрын

I agree with Hoda but I'd add Robin Roberts on that list too.

@belllynbaysraysbrielleeant374 Жыл бұрын

Gianna Miranda and Charli Hill putted peanit butter inside..

@anneredmoon Жыл бұрын

I feel what you are saying, but there are actually a lot of caring journalists out there, in my opinion.

@tvs9978 Жыл бұрын

I think for this particular atory, EVERYONE, EVERYONE who was interviewing her would cry. Twitch's death hit everyone hard

@pkcollins8300 Жыл бұрын

Oh man......I just want to reach through this screen and give her a hug. I cannot imagine the pain and emptiness. I wish a big beautiful life for all of them.

@belllynbaysraysbrielleeant374 Жыл бұрын

Gianna Miranda and Charli Hill putted peanit butter inside..

@SammyJunior1994 Жыл бұрын

Until you find out how she talked to him daily...expo is coming.

@southernborn1358 10 ай бұрын

The death of a spouse is literally the most devastating loss of my life. It was sudden, unexpected, unnecessary-1 year and 4 months later, I’m still on my knees, humbled.

@ImaginationStationAI 10 ай бұрын

Hugs and kisses to you❤. Death is painful.

@rhondabrown3550 10 ай бұрын

Me too🙏🏽 hugs!

@amysmith3247 10 ай бұрын

I agree to a point. But trust me most devastating loss is the loss of a child!!!! Period

@simple_naildesigns 9 ай бұрын

So sorry for your loss 🙏🏽

@sarastewart9437 8 ай бұрын

@@amysmith3247100%

@rebekahwhitcomb2396 Жыл бұрын

What sucks about mental illness is what people say after a person that’s committed suicide. They say, “why didn’t he say something? If you need to talk to someone… I’m always there.” Let’s understand that it takes a huge amount of trust and vulnerability to share with people what you’re going through. When someone is ready to open and share what they are going through, people tend to give them unsolicited advice or try to figure out a solution. They don’t really sit there and actively listen. Also, another reason why far too many people don’t feel like opening about their struggles is because people are quick to ridicule and discourage the person more for feeling that way. In order to have a serious conversation about mental health problems, we need to recognize that it takes a huge amount of trust to do that.

@emilyr123 Жыл бұрын

This is a fantastic point - and in addition, often when people reach out there aren't sufficient resources to truly help them, or the resources that are available are overwhelmed and backlogged. There are so many obstacles and barriers when it comes to not only sharing your mental health struggles, but getting adequate and effective help and support. It is never as simple as just saying something.

@jbaux84 Жыл бұрын

I know for me, I feel like on top of what you said, I also feel like I’d be a burden. People already have their own worries and problems, so who am I to dump on them? Thankfully I do have a therapist I can open up to and I’m in some Facebook support groups. I also have a cousin I’m close to and we both share our struggles openly, no judgement. I’m honestly lucky to have these outlets.

@RussManK3 Жыл бұрын

So well said.

@ElizaAlmanza Жыл бұрын

Seriously I’ve opened up to so many people about things just to get rejected basically. Its hard.

@bellavita3097 Жыл бұрын

Yes Plus when you’re sick you’re not in your right mind to go for the help I lost my dad and my uncle from this disease it is a disease just like diabetes just like heart disease and we must start testing from elementary middle school high school, and adulthood for this disease. So we can help people. There are seven signs of depression that everyone should know.

@M.M.424 Жыл бұрын

This just breaks my heart. I saw him once on a subway. He was impeccably dressed in tweed, small wire rimmed glasses and book in his lap. He radiated class and manners. I watched them fall in love. It's so crazy... and so so sad.

@Ava2969ny Жыл бұрын

@ M M -- I wish he would have thought for one second that day about how much he was loved. My guess is that he was deeply sensitive, most creative people are; his pain must have been unbearable because not even the love of his wife and children was enough to keep him here.

@rose.g. Жыл бұрын

Manners? That's an odd thing to mention. Of course he had manners, most people do.

@tl6932 Жыл бұрын

@@rose.g. I think "manners" paints a clear picture because some people are rude or do not notice others.

@M.M.424 Жыл бұрын

@@rose.g. in NYC... right

@M.M.424 Жыл бұрын

@@tl6932 no man spreading... to me that equated to manners on a crowded morning subway. He was a sweet soul

@michelleramirez2921 Жыл бұрын

This poor woman is still in shock. I am so deeply saddened by this just like everyone. The children have a wonderful mommy. Much love and peace to Allison and her family. ❤

@karenkimber8374 Жыл бұрын

Oh, please she play with your emotions twitch did not delete himself. Allison know that she had something to do with it.

@tonyamartin1425 10 ай бұрын

she is not in shock how dumb are you people?

@brendabrunner2308 10 ай бұрын

@@karenkimber8374who the ….do you think you?You have no right to make such horrible accusations! You continue to make this accusation over and over. You sound like the devil himself ! Get a life and stop trying to change people’s perceptions because you’re only making a fool of yourself! You disgust me!

@tonyamartin1425 10 ай бұрын

no she isn't that is not what shock from grief looks like

@Bearschick43 Жыл бұрын

I never met him but was devastated to hear of his passing. I fell in love with his beautiful smile and soul watching Ellen. I'm sorry for his wife and children 😢 RIP Stephen

@Cupcake4me Жыл бұрын

My heart goes out to Allison. She’s in so much pain and shock. Yet shes gotta stay strong for her kids and for the world. I wish her well….the pain must be unbearable ❤️

@tonyamartin1425 10 ай бұрын

no she is not you have eyes but cannot see

@taroman7100 4 ай бұрын

No one will know what was going on there.

@Therezumee92 Жыл бұрын

It's a shock even if you see it coming. My grandmother talked about it for years, we tried to do as much you can, but it still blindsided everyone the morning we found her. We just never think that someone close will ever go to that dark place... It's heartbreaking how much he was hurting, not being able to hold on even for his babies.

@belllynbaysraysbrielleeant374 Жыл бұрын

Gianna Miranda and Charli Hill putted peanit butter inside..

@alexisangel5581 Жыл бұрын

I can relate to this! I empathize with you. My grandmother took her own life a little over two years ago and the grief still hits hard for us. She always had a dark sense of humor but it got darker after my step grandfather died from kidney cancer in 2017. My sister and I were always paranoid that she would harm herself eventually but my mom was completely blindsided by it. She was the one who found her and she has PTSD now due to it. Mental health is super important including in the older generation. I truly believe the older generations get overlooked regarding mental health and the impacts of it. I’m so sorry for your loss. Prayers, love, and support for you ❤️🙏🏻

@jonfreeman9682 Жыл бұрын

Well it's not adding up. I can't help but suspect maybe there's more like homicide and a setup to look like that.

@jackiebenjamin8772 Жыл бұрын

Freeman, it's because you have no idea about mental health.

@JC-du6sn Жыл бұрын

Look up Within Heaven's Gates by Rebecca Springer 😇

@chicagokat8 Жыл бұрын

I am also a widow and having to break the news to my son who was 8 at the time...was the very worst day of my life. Thank you for sharing your pain and loss, Allison. I watched your love story unfold, I once met tWitch in Austin at SXSW, I am still saddened by your loss. He's watching over you and your family. Thank you for bringing awareness to mental health. It's so hard to ask for help.

@jennaarmstrong2570 Жыл бұрын

Bless your precious heart.

@MK-gy1ug Жыл бұрын

So sorry for your loss.. ❤️

@jodivanbibber7481 Жыл бұрын

So sorry for your loss. You’ve got this

@katejohnson3598 Жыл бұрын

Sending you so much love ❤

@Mammaj1963 Жыл бұрын

So sorry for your loss 😢

@gratitude3673 Жыл бұрын

No one should ever blame the wife. Most "extremely happy people" do not show how they truly feel inside. Every body still expect them to be happy and feel that they don't have worries, these people just give off so much of themselves and as the wife says, they want to be there, they feel responsible for every other person and keep their feelings to themselves. I pray she continues to receive support, she truly needs it

@AnnMarieXOXO Жыл бұрын

When my brother passed I always thought that when he was in so much pain God finally said “it’s ok to come home”. He was such a sensitive soul. He showed more compassion for others than what you see today. He was a light. It just became too hard for him. The coulda, woulda, shoulda can never be changed, but as they say hindsight is 20/20. It was never more true after he passed. He was in so much pain at the end. It will take years to get back to your “new normal” but my heart is with you and your beautiful family. We are all here for you.❤🙏🏼

@imsuchanocfan Жыл бұрын

My heart goes out to Allison and their 3 children. She needs all the support and positive energy more than ever now. I hope and believe she will be OK and so will the kids - of course it will be a long journey but she seems to have a support group behind her.

@belllynbaysraysbrielleeant374 Жыл бұрын

Gianna Miranda and Charli Hill putted peanit butter inside..

@suzanne296 Жыл бұрын

This man put a smile on my face in worst of days. I am so sorry he was hurting and gave up. Love from Illinois gal 🙏

@augustmoon9973 Жыл бұрын

It's devastating to see the weight that both her and him had to carry separately and at different times. He carried the weight of the world, and she has to carry the weight of such an incredible loss. Even as a complete stranger looking in, I get a lump in my throat and a knot in my stomach just thinking about how this loss impacted his loved ones. Sending good thoughts & love to anyone effected with mental health concerns. ❤

@RayG.L Жыл бұрын

Talking about feeling so much pain because there was so much love… that got me.

@jacquelinesolomon4530 Жыл бұрын

Allison, I am so very, very sorry. So grateful that you were blessed to love each other. Praying over you and the kids. Much love.

@lisabelle7553 Жыл бұрын

As a big SYTYCD fan, I got to know them both on the show, and I remember learning they were a couple, I was overjoyed. I'm so heartbroken for her and their children. I pray for their strength and peace to continue to get through this.

@joannebrazier7003 Жыл бұрын

I am so sorry 4 her and children

@authorkodyboye 10 ай бұрын

As someone who's coming on the third anniversary of losing someone to their mental illness, I want to stress how important it is to take time to allow yourself to heal. While there is never any "right way" to heal, just as there is never any right way "to grieve," please remember that your feelings are valid, and that you are allowed to feel every bump of the rollercoaster that comes after experiencing something like this. Thank you, Hoda, for taking the time to talk with Allison, and to bring awareness to mental health traumas that affect so many people.

@Sedgies Жыл бұрын

Much love to Allison and her family. He was such a light to the world. ❤

@squaregangster Жыл бұрын

People say they want your positive energy only but don't realize how detrimental that can be to someone who needs to feel all their emotions

@XFonti-ik3ql Жыл бұрын

Sooooo true ! Well said ! Thank You for knowledging such a strong reality !

@anjakersten Жыл бұрын

Thanks for making that point, it’s so important!

@amyhenningsgard8618 Жыл бұрын

That reminds me of the old saying “laugh, and the world will laugh with you. Cry, and you’ll cry alone.”

@Andypandieful Жыл бұрын

Bingo. It tanks then down further. Suppression is a lie. It has to be felt to work it out. Toxic positivity is an actual issue.

@seaofsolace Жыл бұрын

The level of pain this woman has to live with and the burden she has to carry should be illegal. It makes me so mad and sooo sad. We live in a very cruel world. My heart goes out to her. I hope she and her children make it to the other side of this tragedy and find a sense of normalcy again. It breaks my heart. I can only imagine what it did to hers. ❤

@kettlebellyogini Жыл бұрын

I’m still so heartbroken for her and her kids. What a lovely lovely woman! I can’t imagine her loss.

@katrin896 Жыл бұрын

Honestly can't imagine what she's going through. I've been with my husband for 11 years and I am more in love with him now than when we first met. I don't know what I would do if I'd lose him like this, I certainly wouldn't be as strong as Allison. All my love to her

@ro.3645 Жыл бұрын

I lost my dad at 31. When I think about how hard it was for me to process as an adult, I can’t imagine how confusing this must be for children to process who loose a parent, especially an active and present parent. Please y’all. Always check in on your loved ones, you just really never ever know.

@belllynbaysraysbrielleeant374 Жыл бұрын

Gianna Miranda and Charli Hill putted peanit butter inside..

@meeky0420 Жыл бұрын

Agree! Lost my parents at 20 and it was devastating! I ended up ok so far 😂 hope they are ok.

@KRP-tq8hh Жыл бұрын

Lost my dad at 22, almost 22yrs ago. I miss him every single day and cannot imagine how these babies are coping not having the language yet to express their pain.

@JC-du6sn Жыл бұрын

Look up Within Heaven's Gates by Rebecca Springer 😇

@luckydominic4862 Жыл бұрын

A man should never open up to his wife or children. He went out like a man. If he would’ve talked about his feelings he would’ve lost respect forever. He did the right

@realworkoutsforrealpeople5041 Жыл бұрын

He was so loved, by so many, strangers and friends and kin alike. I am still hurting all these months later and I only knew his public persona so I can't imagine what it is like for his wife and kids. Here is a cyber hug for you, Allison.

@adelamoravcova9452 11 ай бұрын

This one is still hard to believe. It’s honestly just heartbreaking.

@heather_doestruecrime Жыл бұрын

Rest In Peace to this man who has a beautiful soul and struggled until he couldn’t anymore. Sending SO much love to her and their children.

@a_2502 Жыл бұрын

It's so insanely sad knowing how well people can hide their pain.... A lot of us don't know the answer but a lot of us do want to help. Life is so hard and complicated and I hope that we can be there for each other more. Healthy human interaction is so important. Be well out there everyone ❤

@brendadickson9583 Жыл бұрын

In a public taxi crying cause I am tired of it all I know God will answer one day but honestly am tired and I am always there for others n now am afraid to open up to them cause they always assume am okay n am not, Sorry long right up just saw your words n just needed to say something to release a bit. Thank you

@a_2502 10 ай бұрын

@@brendadickson9583 I hope that you find the person that you can open up to and will listen to you. They are out there. Peace and blessings!

@skatingcanuck9837 Жыл бұрын

Such composure and strength in the face of utter tragedy. Sending condolences and love to this beautiful family.

@Mila-Nova Жыл бұрын

My heart goes out to her and her kids. I cannot fathom that kind of loss. Absolutely heartbreaking

@lissetsanchez5316 Жыл бұрын

I wish I could just embrace her. This is one of the toughest things to have to endure. I have a friend who's son took his life. He was only 22. This was 4 years ago. I make sure to check on her frequently. She is so brave to want to help others in her grief.

@why6795 Жыл бұрын

You are a great friend❤

@rejectedheartsclub Жыл бұрын

Heartbreaking. She was kind to do this interview. Sending all the love 💛

@leabrowning8256 10 ай бұрын

His smile was to make us feel better. I wished we knew so we could have all helped him. God bless his children & Allison, & his mom & dad. This shook me. He was a beautiful light. ❤❤❤❤

@kristinecrowley8321 Жыл бұрын

He had such warm, positive energy. I’m so sorry for his wife and kids. I wish he could have seen what a tremendous loss this would be to his family and fans. His heart was just too good for this world.

@tinabica-demers9205 Жыл бұрын

My husband died suddenly 2021. As the family I knew imploded, I had to figure out the best to do for my 16 and 11-year-olds, all the while I was shattered. Along that came failures, bumps in the road and so many tears. I learned what "lean into the grief" really meant. I had to push away the toxic people who wanted nothing more than the spotlight of the loss we were living every single second of every day. I don't think he knew he wouldn't wake up, and I pray he didn't feel pain when the angels took away the center of our world, the compass in our life all in my days. Mike is guiding me and I hope I never let him down. He taught me how to love , and be loved. I hope that I give our babies just that...all of that. His memory and light are eternal.

@ImQuiteGay Жыл бұрын

I’m sorry for your loss ❤

@rb43 Жыл бұрын

I am so sorry for your loss. Having three children myself, I cannot imagine the strain you must have experienced. I was moved to tears by your comment. Wishing you and your family the best!

@ashdallis6701 Жыл бұрын

beautifully spoken. Praying for your healing..

@christineshultz7615 Жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry for your loss. My son passed in his sleep from a brain aneurysm we were unaware existed. We look at living completely differently now.

@offthewallbts4697 Жыл бұрын

I’m sorry for your loss 🤍 did he just suddenly die in his sleep?

@kathleen4376 Жыл бұрын

I am rooting for you and your kids Allison! Proud of your communication efforts and supporting your kids deal with this tragic loss.

@ImaginationStationAI 10 ай бұрын

This is one celebrity death that really hurt. Stephen made us all so happy and he was carrying around all this hurt.

@mojavewolf1 Жыл бұрын

Sweet Allison , my husband died by suicide in 2007 . I know the feelings and it is a hard road for us survivors, you will become anew . Much love and Hugs ❤

@chrissss2005 Жыл бұрын

you will become WHAT??

@stephaniehopkins2999 Жыл бұрын

The biggest problem I had was asking for help, never thought asking for help was a solution. TBH asking for help wasn’t on my list, I didn’t want anyone to feel sorry for me, look at me different, or tell me I was stupid for feeling a certain way. I thought I could figure things out on my own without anyone getting involved but that back fired when my “attempt” was interrupted and then EVERYONE knew what was up. That was 20 years ago and I’m ashamed to admit that those thoughts and feelings have never truly gone away. Life is sure complicated isn’t it?

@ziona9259 Жыл бұрын

I totally agree with you. Sometimes I don’t wanna tell people how empty I’m feeling when it comes to not being able to bring my friends together. I mean I understand they have families and other stuff to do, of course. The thing is, I don’t want to make it seem like that I’m trying to control people or force them cuz I’m not like that. They can say I can’t do stuff like that and that I should be careful to who I put trust towards but it makes me feel shame because it’s like I’m becoming a victim yet I’m treated as if I’m the problem to myself. That’s why I didn’t need anyone to teach me things that are hard for me to cope with so I only push myself to do better without having to rely on anyone. So sometimes it sucks to not being able to tell how you feel without feeling ashamed.

@courtr1588 Жыл бұрын

I hope you know that you have nothing to be ashamed about. I'm sorry to hear that you're still struggling. You are amazing to keep fighting though. Your life matters.

@Crystal_1992 Жыл бұрын

I tried to get help and no one cared 😢im doing ok now though

@BbGun-lw5vi Жыл бұрын

@@Crystal_1992 I’m really sorry you were dismissed. Is it possible some of those people just didn’t know what to say to you so it seemed like they didn’t care? Sometimes people have no idea what to say. Kind of like when a person loses a loved one and people don’t reach out because they’re afraid. I’m glad that you’re doing better now. I hope you find a friend who you can share your troubles and joys with.

@ziona9259 Жыл бұрын

@@courtr1588 appreciate it

@myhobbies9230 Жыл бұрын

I saw a quote once that said: Grief is Love with no where to go. It sticks with me for when I am overwhelmed by grief.

@BerrybooX 11 ай бұрын

She’s a remarkable woman.. sending you prayers for strength!! Rip twitch

@weenazic5180 Жыл бұрын

I myself is a widow. I lost my husband on 11/04/22, due to suicide. I didn’t see it coming either. The worst day of my life. We have a 16 year old daughter and both still processing. I’m trying to be strong and positive for my daughter. We were married for 19 1/2 years together. I missed him everyday. I appreciate Allison bringing awareness of this mental illness. It’s so difficult to understand.

@louisar4227 Жыл бұрын

Praying for you 🙏🏼

@Kristen71 11 ай бұрын

I’m so sorry 🙏🕊💔

@1122Jules 10 ай бұрын

It’s still so heartbreaking, God Bless you Alison and your children

@maddynavarro77 Жыл бұрын

My heart and prayers go out to you, your babies and family. Praying for peace in this grief. 🙏🏽❤️

@loisnoble9139 Жыл бұрын

My heart breaks for her and her children. I still can't believe he's no longer here with us. RIP Twitch may your soul rest in perfect peace. Alison I'm crying with you may you find peace. You and your children will always be in our thoughts and prayers.

@J_Khodabaks Жыл бұрын

Just because he was full of joy and happiness doesn’t mean he wasn’t hurting Behind every smile there’s a broken heart 💔

@The5425177 Жыл бұрын

I saw sadness in his eyes behind the smile always. It’s so heartbreaking 💔. I pray for their hope and healing ❤️‍🩹.

@serveriamanning6313 Жыл бұрын

Omg. Praying for Allison and her kids. Prayers to his mother and family as well. Depression is a real issue and unfortunately in the BLACK community you're told to pray it away. I'm happy Allison is part of the mental health program raising awareness. ❤ Twitch ..RIH😢😢❤❤

@JE-ws7zu Жыл бұрын

This one was so heartbreaking as his family couldn’t even see his pain. My heart goes out to them. I pray she finds peace and happiness 💕

@donnawood3505 Жыл бұрын

his wife is still so graceful. it’s a shock to her and her kids.

@italove1986 Жыл бұрын

Allison you are resilient! ❤ You have an incredible heart that will illuminate your husband's legacy.

@coreygarnett5826 Жыл бұрын

This was the saddest thing about 2022..I hope they stay strong 💪🏾 and keep their ❤’s open.

@aishasavon Жыл бұрын

Been fans of both of them since they were on SYTYCD and watched them blossom into a beautiful family and spread so much love throughout the world. I pray for her and her family's strength and healing and all of Twitch's family. This loss truly struck everyone. The press was so horrible to her and it was disgusting to see all the hate towards her. You TRULY never know what someone you love or are close to is going through. The world needs to be more kind.

@paganharris8594 Жыл бұрын

Bless her for doing this. The amount of strength this had to have taken…. Everyone be kind to one another because we really never know what we’re all going through behind closed doors. We’re all just trying our best. Love you Boss family💝

@HeatherSC02 Жыл бұрын

Still so hard to imagine he’s gone. He was such a beautiful soul. Allison is doing a great job. I can’t imagine how difficult it must be for all of them. He’s alive within those sweet babies. They have their daddy’s smile and joy.

@wonderfulpets3828 Жыл бұрын

I've been a fan of Allison since she was on SYTYCD, and I was so happy to see her and Twitch together for many years. They were such a beautiful couple with an obvious love for each other and their kids. It's still so shocking that this happened to him. As Allison said, I hope that this tragedy opens up conversations and that somebody gets the help they need because of his story.

@evaisaiahhall 10 ай бұрын

I have watched them literally since day one on so you think you can dance. They are were the perfect couple. I cried when they got engaged, I cried when they had babies, I cried when we lost him. I love her so much and I'm praying for them all and whoever feels you are alone you aren't! We love you too speak up let someone know you can't take it anymore someone will be there please don't give up

@laurasopalca8433 Жыл бұрын

This really made me cry , Stephen was an amazing man , I wish we could take away your pain 😔💔

@moniquebowens9524 Жыл бұрын

You just never know what someone is going through in silence.continous prayers for his family

@yvonnetengen158 Жыл бұрын

My heart goes out to Allison! Much love and blessings to her and family for strength peace and hope!

@vickilockeby3172 9 ай бұрын

People search for their true love for a lifetime….so this breaks my heart because ik they loved each other so much! I am 48 and still searching for my soulmate

@ericahall1781 Жыл бұрын

I feel that he became depressed when his show (The Ellen Show where he was one of the producers) got canceled. Rest in peace, Stephen ❤

@contessalouannec8064 Жыл бұрын

Thank Goodness he was in our lives. Bless her and her family.

@thedogzoo Жыл бұрын

I think of this family so much. I lost my husband 2 years ago. I was lucky to have him 31 years. I talk to him everyday. I can't even begin to know what you are going through. You're so strong.

@TheStayh21 Жыл бұрын

I watch this, and I am still in shock 😢 breaks my heart. Literally, when I see this 💔 I feel the pain 💔

@linhquy2913 10 ай бұрын

What a strong soul you are, Allison! Sending you love, support, and encouragement. This interview made me tear up in so many ways. ❤❤❤

@angelwolfe6728 Жыл бұрын

Sending so much love to Allison and children 🫶✨💞

@nvegasgrl Жыл бұрын

Heartbreaking! I'm still praying for you and the kids, Allison! I thank you for highlighting mental health awareness while you're going through your own time of sorrow. It matters! Y'all have been such bright lights in my life! Me & my 6 yr old grandson danced with y'all often on Boss Family Workouts. I pray God continues to shine on you! RIP tWitch! ❤

@holly_kalae Жыл бұрын

This woman is so strong, god bless her. Still in total shock, if anyone would tell me this was going to happen I never would believe it he was someone I associated with so much happiness and love and positivity but just goes to show you never know what someone is going through. Sending so much love and light to the family ❤🕊

@sabrinadixon6227 9 ай бұрын

My heart aches for her!! Please don’t apologize for feeling and crying…

@patriciajohnson6101 Жыл бұрын

So sorry for this loss to your family 🕊

@allegrarivera5383 Жыл бұрын

My heart just breaks for her and their kids I can’t imagine the pain they have had to endure. 🙏🏻💜

@makamurphy Жыл бұрын

Really sad, I pray they continue to find peace and joy, it's hard losing someone you love so much!

@evelynnegron8160 6 ай бұрын

You will always love him. I am so sorry you and the kids have lost your Rock.

@brendy0807 Жыл бұрын

My father took his own life when I was 5. It takes a long time to get through that. Thinking of his family 💜

@millim408 Жыл бұрын

I pray for her and her babies 😢 I saw them both on So You Think You Can Dance such beautiful dancers, people.. may he RIP ❤

@leonip9142 9 ай бұрын

So sad, heartbreaking. May he rest in peace and I hope his beautiful family will be able to work together through this heartache.

@dmarkey4360 Жыл бұрын

He radiate happiness and joy and sunny. You couldn’t not smile when he started to talk or dance. He smiled and looked so happy when dancing. A shining light that was so bright. I wish him and his family peace of mind and soul. I have been touch also by someone that committed suicide and left 4 small children behind. I heart break is beyond measure. 🙏❤️

@jennifersteele7036 Жыл бұрын

I lost my dad to cancer at 23 and this story made me sob, uncontrollably.

@BriaBarrows Жыл бұрын

🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾 Virtual hug

@ThePortalTheory Жыл бұрын

So so sorry for your loss sweetie. You are strong and not alone. ❤

@jalysegail1557 Жыл бұрын

Very sorry for your loss! Praying for you 🙏🏽❤

@oneblessedchic2618 Жыл бұрын

🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

@jennifersteele7036 Жыл бұрын

Thank you all so much for the kind words. Love to you all❤️

@Flower13022 Жыл бұрын

I feel so bad for Allison and her kids. I wish we, or anyone could’ve helped Twitch so he’d be here. Sending love and prayers for this family 💕

@furlycee 10 ай бұрын

I can't imagine how much pain she's in. To have your loved one hurt that much and not tell you and decide to do something like that? Earth-Shattering.

@sdh42 Жыл бұрын

This is the first celebrity death that really shook me. I still can't believe it. My heart goes out to Allison and her babies.

@daisytyson Жыл бұрын

So heartbreaking still. I wish her and her family peace and much love 💕

@valentinaelizabeth9462 Жыл бұрын

This interview made me cry , the kids are so hurt. I feel it for them . God bless her and her kids . Twitch we miss you so much, I still can't believe it.xx

@nancykingsbury5552 10 ай бұрын

I still miss Twitch and think of him so very often. I wish nothing but the best for his family moving forward.

@dandv428 10 ай бұрын

It is so confusing but makes so much sense all at the same time.

@rajammajohn6060 Жыл бұрын

Its actually very easy to act so happy around other people when you are depressed no one will ever know how much you are struggling

@rebeccas7366 Жыл бұрын

How did she get through this interview and speak so eloquently, I would be a mess, a strong woman, I hope she finds healing one day.

@NatalieBoat111 Жыл бұрын

To anyone out there struggling please STAY! We lost my little brother at 29- Everyone has a devine purpose here on earth even if it's just to add small moments of joy others lives, you are here for a REASON. Please stay & please reach out for help.

@leelee2925 10 ай бұрын

He exuded a special light about him. You could tell how real he was. It is so sad how this happened I feel so awful for the kids and Allison. God bless them