My sister just tried to break my arm over a plate. I'm scared and crying. I don't like my sister anymore. Update: it's been a while now and I think I've mainly moved past it, I don't particularly feel safe around her entirely but it's better now, she visited again yesterday but nothing too bad happened, I'm celebrating my 14th birthday soon so I'm trying to keep positive about things! About venting on this vent; it's perfectly fine if you do but the amount of support you'd want from others will be lessened, make your own comment to get the most support available, reach out to your local authorities and providers before it's too late, sincerely your fellow internet Venter!

My dad yells at me for everything but the only thing he doesn't understand is he's caused me trust issues and now i tear up when ever someone raises their voice at me

Today, I called my mom to pick me up from camp and she couldn’t so I started crying. I tore apart my sharpener trying to get the razor out because of one thing she said: “You need to learn how to cope like the rest of the world” So that’s great

1:18 if anyone struggling with this, get a weighted blanket!!! I struggle with anxiety and I feel lonely a lot and these are really good for thinking someone’s there. Hope this helps :)

Best friend cancelled our meet up, I’m half sensitive. I needed this.

i heard wilburs voice twice in this video, that is a huge comfort for me right now

Your paying for my therapy pills more than my parents even would

Vent: I've been struggling big time with derealization, have been for 2 years now. Caused me to completely disconnect from how I feel and act, and not have a care for anything to happen to me, and I would just shove it away and not be able to take in what happened. But now I am back in reality, and derealization hasn't affected me for 2 weeks. It's a blessing from the Lord to be able to feel reality and have a new sense of joy in my life. At the same time, it's a curse, cause not only do I have to process big memories I have shoved down that have not been good, but I'm way more stressed and anxious and fearful. Idk what to do rn, but I'm just glad i can cry and understand I'm crying. Keep up the good fight my beautiful people, may the Lord bless ur paths and bring peace again.

Vent: I wanted to come out to my mom tomorrow and I told my cousin thinking he would have my back when I came to my mom.He didn’t and cared more about what the church would think and what my grandmother would think and said that I shouldn’t do it because people would hate me for it and I wouldn’t be the prodigy that they want me to be.I am currently crying my eyes out because of it.I don’t like my cousin.

This summer I’ve been stuck in an endless loop of staying up till 11 watching stupid videos, barely falling asleep, having nightmares and sleeping in till 12, and lumbering around refusing to do anything all day. Then in the evening I’ll go get in the shower and just sit under the water balled up crying about stupid things. I have a best friend who means the world to me but lately we have barely talked and I feel so bad when we do because we have nothing to talk about unless I vent but I’m scared that I’ll burden them if I vent so I keep my mouth shut and every night I’ll just listen to depressing music, cry my eyes out and get so upset for no reason. I’ve been sh free for 26 days now but the only reason I have is because I know I have a doctors app soon and I’m worried that if I have scars she’ll see and I’ll get in trouble so I’ve just stopped even though I have wanted to so badly. My mother gaslights and manipulates me and my dad is so busy all the time. My grandmother is visiting this last week and she’s Christian and me (the most atheist person you’ll meet) am so uncomfortable around her because she’ll call me her pretty granddaughter and I go by they/them pronouns and it just makes me so mad and then I’ll go silent and she’ll ask “are you ok?” YES IM FINE. like I just can’t seem to be happy with her. Tomorrow we leave for Alabama and I’m scared because it’s going to be so hot. The heat really makes me vulnerable because it makes me really nauseous. Im getting better on my ED but I still feel really bad about eating again. I don’t know what I should do with myself right now. All I am is a pain to everyone around me and I can’t even cry anymore ive become immune to myself at this point and I’m scared I won’t be able to drag myself out of this cycle. I really don’t know.

vent: i hate it when people tell me that you should always forgive people because that's what god would do and forgiveness means you are no longer hurting from what happened and you've moved on. shut up. what happens if i never stop hurting? if what they have done will always stay with me. i'm not gonna forgive them just because you don't undersand how it feels to see their face, smell their perfume, hear their voice and god forbid hear their laugh. you'll never know how it feels to miss someone in a sick and twisted way and you can't even stand looking at them.

Vent: I really hate when I cry over something and then my mum says something like “your crying because you know your wrong” or when I’m sobbing quietly in my room and I realise that worse things are happening to other people in the world and I’m crying over something stupid, I just hate it, and it sucks, then I say to myself that “I’m pathetic for crying over this” but I’m okay, I’m not being abused or anything bad, sometimes I just get sad over something stupid (mostly related to my mum) and I always have the comfort of art.

Tried being brave today and tell my mom about my depleting mental health, I couldn’t control any emotions, she got mad then started lashing out at everyone. This is why I bottle up everything and I’m not trying to seek attention I genuinely don’t want my own problems to spill into someone’s else life.

me: uses these types of videos for therapy and feeling relatable. Others: watch videos cause we all have problems. 🤷 Has anyone gotten kicked out of the house twice and parents come looking for you?

I hate one of my so called “friend” she literally said send a emoji of ur current mood (😑) and one of my other friends asked what happend o make me feel like that so I said nothing has to happen I just feel like it lol and then the other “friend” was defending her she LIKE bro she doesn’t need defending I know what she man’s wtf

The feeling when you realized you said too much, were too enthusiastic & happy about something "stupid", now feel stupid and fear that you're "not normal" and annoying

{feel free to vent in replies:)} Also I hope you all are doing okay, and i give you all whos reading this a virtual hug! And if you don’t want a hug, I’ll give you a smile :)

3:53 Too relatable. As being a boy you have way more expectations than girls and if you don't meet them people often poke fun at you. Or try to hurt it into you. Fix you thinking your broken. All because your not good enough for them.

When you see a vent and it’s your best friends tik took about you… Well….here we are again.

I am crying bc of my trauma Also because I got the last of the ice cream and then spilt it down my white shirt when it’s bright green(the ice cream is mint choc chip)

vent: there was a person i used to know last year, and they were very popular throughout the school. they were a huge role model for me as we were both trans, however i am not yet out of the closet. I eventually came out to them and we started talking sometimes, however i noticed it was always i that said hi first. always i that said "howre you doing?". never once they started a conversation with me, and didnt even try to carry the conversation when we did talk over text or just talking. often times, they would ignore my texts for up to a month. eventually i just stopped talking to them and they havnt even tried to text me or anything. its kind of sad. i just wanted to be thier friend. ty for reading this and have a nice day.

Here’s something useful , you can make everyone love/like you but you can never make yourself love you (found it out the hard way) you don’t have to agree also I don’t understand why people complain about someone being skinny I mean like, they tried for you shouldn’t you be a little proud

I used to have trouble sleeping because it was too hot, my position didn’t feel right etc. then my mom came home from target with various things and a 2 foot tall pink bunny. The bunny is a squishmellow. I saw the bunny and I just started hugging it for some reason and felt less sad. So I asked my mom if it was for anyone specific. She said something like that she got it for her but she said I could have it if I wanted because she didn’t really want it. I tried hugging the bunny to try and sleep and suddenly I didn’t have a lot of trouble sleeping anymore. So I kept spooning it to sleep and after a few days I renamed her to Rina. And I’ve had her for over 3 months and I haven’t had any sleep problems since.

I grew up thinking “if you cry your weak and attention seeking!” So I was never able to cry and if I did I would feel ashamed to be me. I thought everything was my fault. My old friend took advantage of this and said “if you don’t do this for us we won’t be your friend!” I was super shy and could talk to anyone else so I did what they said. Gave them my toys, take the blame for them, i was really sad. To this day, I feel like I did something wrong that made them like that. Maybe they hated me and wanted to take revenge. Maybe I made them like that. I want to hate them but I can’t. I act like I’m tough and strong, but I the weakest most useless person on earth. Out of everyone, all 7 billion people I’m the most worthless one. I mean nothing to anyone.

2:03 ... same thing actually happened to me...always happens

“I’ll know when I’m getting better when I stop relating to these.” - Me 2022.

vent: when i was little, my parents , my brother and i moved. it was hard as that year my hamster died near my birthday, my youngest guinea pig died while i was in holiday and my other guinea pig died on christmas eve. it was really hard for me as people body shamed me in my old school and it's just gotten worse over the years and i'm 11 now and i don't have the energy to do anything. i binge eat and i want to stop but i can't. ive had a hard life but i hate when i vent as people tend to think i'm over dramatic .even if that's just in my head it still feels like it.

Vent: I feel like a terrible person. I’m constantly thought as someone who’s just an idiot without a care in a world, and/or someone who’s heartless and is rude/mean. All because a few years back I thought the only way to have friends was to be a mean person who made fun of people. I got my friends. I lost my open kindness. I want to change. I really want to. I’m so desperate because I feel like I might lose friends if I continue. One of my close friends and mom say I’m a good and smart person, but eventually I think overtime, as I’ve been called lazy, dumb, mean, heartless, it’s hard to believe I’m good. I try my hardest. I tried my hardest this year in school. And yet only three were proud. It seems selfish that I want more to be happy for me, but I feel like at least more of my friend group should be proud of me. I spent this whole year feeling exhausted, sometimes so tired where I felt like my arms couldn’t hold my head up on my desk during class. Sometimes I wanted to collapse, and yet I rarely napped during class. I never napped. Even at home I waited till night. At this point, I don’t know how I made it through. I felt comfortable to put this in the comments because it’s I guess anonymous. But to whoever reads, thank you for listening (or ig reading) to me ramble about my thoughts. - A random person on the internet

Vent: At my work there is someone 3-4 yrs older than me that hugs me and stuff. But they like me and have said 'mine' towards me and stuff. I'm a minor and I feel forced to let it happen. Plus the fact that I can't grasp the idea of platonic vs romantic. So I don't understand if they are trying to be friendly or push me into something romantic that I don't like. And so the days that I work are my least favorite days now.

I had almost lost a friend. She had waited a month to tell me that she was tired of being the therapist friend, and I totally understand why and I apologized to her. I kinda wished that she told me earlier and it made me kinda sad, I felt kind like I thought she just didn't wanna be friends anymore. I don't have enough money or time to get a therapist and my mother thinks I don't need one. I really just wanna feel important so I don't get replaced again.

One argument and “i” ended a friendship because of my insecurity and I made it about “myself and acted like I was the only one who had insecurities” ….wow that hurts.

I scratch my mosquito bites as sometimes everybody does, but I scratch them till they bleed and when they do I wipe the blood off and keep scratching. And I have hurt myself once on my finger tip when nobody was looking (on purpose) and I always make my parents fight I freaking hate myself but I have friends and I still want to live I don’t feel like it’s ok for me to have depression because I’ve got friends and I feel happy when I am with them. Everybody says: I have no friends, or, my friends are toxic, but I love my friends and when I feel sad I feel like I don’t deserve it. I don’t know if this is depression but I’m thinking badly about myself a lot. It’s sort of getting better though.

first one is so relatable omg

1:25 I tend to have a habit of doing this too

hey! i hope you're taking care of yourself! you deserve more than you think you do, you're worth more than you say you are.

I'm so done with my life, each and everytime I meet someone we get in fights right away and they always replace me, no one ever listens to me accept my family.

(A very not poggers vent) 1:46 this hits way to close to home for me. Almost everyone I talk to does this, even my boyfriend. I’ve gotten to the point of just not saying anything unless I think it’s big, but even then nobody cares, so I just stopped. I try not to think it’s my fault, and that it’s just me, and I know part of it is. I just have to pretend to like some things and I genuinely like some of those things, but I’m just tired of it. I’m close to breaking up with my bf because of that and other reasons even tho I absolutely love him, and don’t want to let him go.

Vent: I forgot to wash out a thermos that i accedentally left in my lunchkit over the weekend, when i went to make my lunch, my mom saw it and at first i didnt realize what she was talking abt when she asked me if it was mine so i just said no... After a few minutes she says that she talked to everyone in the house and everyone said it wasent theirs, i then realize what shes talking abt and i start apologizing... She says that she think that i "knew damn well" what she was talking abt... I didnt and she yelled at me for a few minutes... For an honest mistake... My mom does stuff like this and worse a lot, i dont think she ever stops to think about how i feel, only yells at me to think about how she feels... I try my best most of the time but she just says thats an excuse and i need to stop playing dumb, she says that i know what im doing or whatever... I cant make mistakes while she says sruff about how mistakes are how we learn or whatever... Like a week ago she ignored me for a day and a half because i told her to sign a permission form for school faster... Damn thats a lot longer than i ment it to be and now my hands hurt... Okay i think im done now feel free to vent in the replies ig

Small vent :) , I feel like I’m losing my mind and I feel like I wanna kill myself everything weighs pressure on me and I feel like I don’t have rights sometimes. my cat drives me to the point where I’m crazy and crying in my bed. I have had extreme anxiety for a lot of my life and most of my friends don’t care or always talk about themselves, as I’m always the therapist 😒. And I’ve had a hard time sleeping for awhile (though possibly because of my horrid schedule) :) sorry if it was hard to understand, I’m tired.

Vent: I'm sick of being the only one in this family who gets yelled at and hit I'm the cycling willing tool just last night my sister was yelling at my mom I tried helping my mom but I ended up getting it turned one me and then my mom said "at least I font take a blade to my skin evry time I get mad" that shit hurt.My mom has a history of doing shit like that.I'm struggling with my mental health and

I have a caring dad and caring friends. Sure, my mom may not have always treated me the best throughout my life but its nothing for me to cry over. It's honeslt pathetic for me whenever I act like it's SO bad, but "Alot of people would probably wish to have my life instead." It's so disgusting that I act like this to where I've come to realize why people prefer others over me. I'm even sick of myself.

2:24 that my brother right there but actually my brother

i feel like if I vent, people will judge me

My grandfather used to yell when he was drunk now I'm the same and break down when someone raises there voice

2:24 I feel bad I was not expecting lovejoy music in this video and just broke into singing and dancing lmao

2:03 literally me 💀

Kinda vent I relate to 1:56 so much, whenever I try to say anything I like I am always ignored, I know im not very liked,but I do try to socialize, but it happens each time or people quickly change the subject, I know so many hyper fixations that im not allowed to express apparently, I cant even express hyperness I just stop and feel shitty and sad about myself, because I was always told to stfu and calm down, not even nicely, literal "stfu" it sucks it really does, so whenever im interested in something or someone shares the same interest I just wish I can add onto it so bad

2:23 Nothing to say here, except for LOVEJOYYY You got the same eyes as ur father, and u carry the same kinda temper too! WELL WHAT A DHAME FOR THE PEOPLE OF UR COMMUNITY!!!!

I got a B and I thought it was good. My mom said I really need to improve. I have really bad anxiety and I just broke down crying. She told my dad and they lectured me for like 10 minutes to talk to them and to improve my grades. But I know they will get mad at me at what I’m gonna tell them. So I’m best to be silent for now. Plus, if I tell anyone they’ll just tell everyone. So I like to stay silent.

3:29 relatable 😔

“I’m quiet, I hear everything.” I didn’t really realize what that meant until it happened to me. I knew all along what he was on, I knew what he really did, & what they called him in such a cruel manner. I know what people would say about me. I know deep secrets. I was too young, if I were to meet my younger self, I’d hug them & break down in tears.

I still see a bit of him in others eyes, I wish I could hide in my room and never think about him again.

My dad is a manipulating person he cause me lots of pain because all his and his ex girlfriend would do is fight, I would be the one taking care of their kids and making sure that they wouldn’t hear the fighting. He always treated his step daughters for as his kids than me and it hurt a lot, after the two of the finally broke up my dad said that they were “trying to stay together for the kids” but that really didn’t work. I was told by the doctor that I had (GAD) he didn’t believe that and cared for my mental health very little. He soon started to baby my brother and started getting him whatever he wanted but when it came to me I was completely shut out from his world. Now my brother is a spoiled brat who tells me that “no one cares about my life” and that has led to many things of me doing.. anyway I now have trust issues, GAD, depression, and personality disorders.

I don’t why people think that I am amazing I have an perfect life because I am smart I don’t, I get fat shamed by my own family I think that if I fail I will get nowhere in life I am working hard just so I get praised by my parents but all they do is compare me to other I know I don’t fit your standards but at least treat me nice…I am tired I wish I was perfect

1:48 this kinda happened to me yesterday, I was tryna talk to one of my really good friends and I actually asked if he wanted to listen and he said “no not really” then continued to make his sculpture. I was kinda bummed because I was really excited to tell him about it

Bro my grandma told me to get over my trama like tf

Vent space right here

I keep trying to not eat but then I'm forced and that's a reason I can't wait to go back to school to skip eating

Is it just me or when you find one of your interests in these videos you just repeat that part of the video for comfort

0:58 I just wanna say I relate to this one

Vent: TW:abuse, absence, bullying, homophobia hi there! im Jaime, a transboy from america:) my parents honestly drink and fight a LOT. i sometimes wish they divorced cause it gets so bad. my twin sister abuses and bullies me a lot, and threatens to kill me. my other 3 siblings are absent a lot, and so are my parents with work. theyre extremely transphobic and im scared i might get kicked out if i tell them im trans. heck, they might abuse me. it doesnt stop there. im homeschooled, always have been, so i have no friends and no one to vent to. the kids i meet treat me poorly, and make fun of me. i now think of self-harm, i cant handle my family’s drunk, high, abusive(physically and emotionally), neglective and toxic family.

I wish I had some friends but they're very hard for me to make because I'm horrible at talking to new people and I sometimes come off as rude because I sometimes don't answer people when I'm not sure what to say or get really anxious. And I'd really like to have friends before I'm an adult because I don't want to be lonely then and where would I even find friends as an adult. I still have 4 years left to make some friends but it's hard because along with being quiet and nervous I do online school and I'm always at home. I've tried making friends online but idk It's just hard for me. I guess I just need a friend that's the same as me and can just chill with me even if we don't talk at all. Like just sitting with someone and watching a show or reading or doing nothing Is what I need. Or an online friend that I can play games with. I wish I had a friend that I could just go on walks with at night and watch stars, and have deep conversations about things we believe in and things we don't. Just someone to trust and be comfortable around. I need that.

0:06 really just explained my childhood trauma

I’m 13 and started feeling depressed when I was 12 I told my mother and of course she cared for one day then left it alone. My friends don’t help they just say sorry. They always ignore me and come to me with their problems. My father and mother talked to me a few days ago and again only care for on day then went back to bossing me around. My mom said “be careful what u say around her it might get in her head” that got in my head all my dad did was call me a jughead which is just a nickname. Hardly anyone knows ab it

2:23 hits hard considering that I feel like I'm becoming my dad, who I hate

"never trick your kids on Presents but its actually their phobias they Will get trust issues" "Or do we dont care" [AS]

Seven I can really relate to I just want someone to love and someone to love me

My cousin had been my best friend for years and i loved her. I bought her a lot of things, took her to places so she could have fun. Today she told me she wouldn't want to talk to me anymore because i had an argument with her mom. My aunt spread lies about me and i don't believe them so i called her out on her bs. I tried to stand for myself for once. What makes me sad is that when she was having problems with her mom, i immediately called her and made sure she was ok. I'm just wondering, how can people cut other people so easily ? i should've know i couldn't trust anyone, i feel like the only true peace i can get is when id die. ... but i'm used to people betraying me. At least, there are still lots of reasons to stay alive, like good music, warm cookies and hot chocolate in winter, using aesthetics to study, going to the movies even alone. So, i'm struggling a lot with my self image and with my family, but i just want to tell yall that like me, you can find things that make you happy and give you comfort and even small things can give you a little fuel to live more. Even if everyone insults you or make you the vilain of the family, drink hot tea, take a warm bath, take care of your broken inner child. Love you all, take things slow and get some rest. We're all beautiful people.

Vent. So basically tomorrow is the last day of school before the summer holidays. Most of my friends are going to the same school as me but the friends that actually care about me and that i feel comfortable around most of them are going to a different school and i need their support to help me stay away from my more toxic friends and i’m just really upset and worried that i’ll be stuck with them.

I will forever despise the people at my church for treating me the way they did. I'll never forgive them and I'll never forget.

help my irl bestie became way more popular than me and made multiple close online friends and now she’s forgetting me and everyone is saying that they are the best and they’re amazing together

Vent? Bad grammar I am not diagnosing myself I sometimes cry in the night, bec There's alot of things repeating on my brain/head. Its rlly annoying when my classmates complain alot with somthing that hurts. I would just stay quiet. When its too loud, I will panic because I will feel like in a dream or everythings feels fake. I have alot of insecurities and have a fear of failure. They won't sometimes understand me and compare me to themselves or other people better than me, I will loose motivation in everything, I just smile and act like nothing happened.

I hope whoever reads this finds something that makes th happy today. Even if it's one moment or smile from someone, anything to treasure throughout the day

0:41 yeh lol sometimes they don't like you and you don't like them but there something stopping you both from leaving. Its a cruel scycal

When you wanna vent in the comments but you think they will judge you but they won't but you think they will:😕😐😓😄👍😅🙂

I don't even have bad parents or trauma or a toxic friend or a mental disorder I'm just broken and without a personality, I can't make friends, I can't tell anyone anything personal and I'm shitty overall and all I have to blame is myself because no one didn't this to me I have done it to myself.

I have started to do this thing where something will happen to me like a previous experience my bf cheated on me and I pretend like it was totally fine and I was totally fine when I actually wasn’t. Now I’ve done that for every small thing that hurts me in some way so now I find it difficult to help other people when they show their emotions because I can’t help because I can’t relate. Idk what to do anymore… I really dont

Watching other ppls sadness isn't gonna help you stop-

These couple of days have kept me awake from 3 to 6 , I'm tired, I'm lost and I feel like I'm drowning, get me out.

the first two hit much harder then when my dad hit me cause he saw I was cutting

I have a lot of things I don’t want to talk about but I have no one talk to so I just go to my bed and cry quietly and just talk to my cat and I have a secret book and it’s about vent so I just doodle in it soooo welll bye

I am both physically and mentally disabled, yet instead of comfort I get “someone’s got it worse that you!”. Well guess what, I have it worse than most people..

Vent: I had a best friend who I had met back in kindergarten but then became closest at 2020. She was my savior. My angel. My therapy. I tried to be hers too, but I guess it’s just not enough anymore. We made a promise that we’d be together when we grew up. But that’s been broken. I’m still ashamed of myself for giving her all those second chances. But she didn’t only hurt me, she hurt the whole friend group. Yea we were in a friend group. First target shot was my friend Mia. When she was kicked for swearing she yelled swear words at her and called her a f@gg0t. Then she sent an 18+ video to my other friend who was literally NINE. I did everything for her. WE did everything for her. But it’s just not good enough. All that effort of love and care all for nothing. I gave her everything. And she gave me nothing. I comforted her when her other best friend decided to leave her. And she gave me nothing in return. That’s not fair.. what happened to “be kind. Kindness will always come back to you in return.” Or something. It’s just never true. It’s just not fair. She got love. I got depression and anxiety. She needed “therapy” she said. But she’s been saying that forever and she still hasn’t got any. Now she calls my life “normal”? How could she call any of our lives normal? As if she forgot all the vents I said to her. All the torture SHE’S put in us. I hate her. It’s like she’s put a curse on me. I can’t stop thinking about her. Not in a romantic way obviously. In an angry way. It seems she’s not very aware that her every move and actions have consequences. Well At least we do.

I remember when I was a child I was like 5 or 6 everyone around me called me a crybaby but then when I turned 9 I stopped crying and when I was 10 they kept telling me to cry more??? I mean its been 10 years I'm used to it I cant cry infront of anyone anymore... and sometimes I ask myself ''is that normal?''

1:24 I feel incredibly called out rn

Vent: It's summer and my friends aren't even trying to talk to me, I have to text them but most of the time they don't even answer. I feel so lonely right now. My dad causes most of my anxiety and stress, whenever he yells my name or ever calls me I feel my heart skip a beat and start beating faster. I feel like i'm in trouble and he's going to yell at me again. He blames me for stuff that I didn't even do, and I know that if I told him I wanted to cut my hair short and become a boy then he would surely scold me, and make me watch a bunch of religious videos. It's not fair, he doesn't let me be who I want. He asks how i'm doing but I tell him "good" i'm pretty sure he thinks I'm depressed and he's absolutely right. Being honest he has a horrible temper, whenever he gets mad he yells, or hits things. That's why I get angry so easily, and that's why I hate him. I hate that I get so mad over the littlest things. I hate that I can't talk to anybody because i'm afraid that they won't like me/ talk to me! I hate how he makes me feel! One time when I was in 5th grade I lost my temper and I wrote "I hate Mrs._____" on my desk with erasable marker. But she saw it and I gor in trouble. At first she was just talking to my mom and I didn't care, because my mom won't yell at me or hit me. I'm not scared of her like I am my dad. So I didn't care but then my dad came over and I couldn't meet his eyes I just stared at the ground. Mind you my mom and dad aren't together, I was supposed to go to my dads house that day but we lied to him earlier that day and said we were going to my grandmother's house. So when my teacher explained what happened he said "you were supposed to go to your moms today?" (Talking to my mom) " yeah that's not happening" then he grabbed my wrist and said lets go. But for the first time I said no... I was crying and barely made out the words "No I don't want to because you're gonna get mad at me and yell at me and I don't want you too." That's what I said, but you could barely hear me, and I pulled back away from him. My mom is much nicer so she held me while I cried and they fought..... In front of my teacher. The only reason he came to my school that day was to pick up my sister, lets call her Olivia. So his house is like 7 minutes away from the school so he could walk where as my mom had to take her car because we were going to her work after school. So my dad went to get Olivia and my mom and I walked to her car. (My dad doesn't have a car because of his suspended license, he got arrested 2 times for driving on a suspended license and the second time he tried to lie about it) My dad came to my moms car with Olivia and my mom and dad started bickering. My sister is my age btw, only 22 days older than me. In the end I wen't with my mom to her work and I told her to go in while I stayed in the car. (It was Friday and on Sunday I was going to my dads, I was terrified) She told me to come in, in a few minutes. I said okay and she went inside. When I saw she was gone I had the longest mental breakdown I have ever had in my entire life. I wad screaming and crying. My sister texted me asking if I was okay and I said yeah. She asked for a picture and I wiped my eyes and sent one, once we were done texting, I continued crying. I was suicidal for two days because of that, I was prepared to kill myself rather than go to my dads house. But as you can see I'm still alive. Fast forward to now, I just asked my mom to play a board game and she said no because she is going to watch a movie with my brother... I'm so alone. If you read that entire thing, I'm sorry to have bothered you, but thank you for reading my monstrosity comment. I hope good things come to you, and I hope you are a little more happier then I at the moment, but i'll get over it.🙂🙂☺☺☺

Vent: I hate my body, I want to change myself to make others happy. I hate it, I hate myself that I WANT to make everyone happy. Why do I do this to myself?? Why? I want my mom to understand but I know she’ll switch it to her. To her emotions. It’s like she’s telling me that my emotions don’t matter to her and that hers is important. I don’t want to continue living but I can’t because I made a promise to some people that I hold dear to me. Im not living for myself, im living for them. Because I know that I have nothing to live for but if I promise someone, then I have a reason to live.. I hate it here, I need help. I need to know if this is serious or im just doing it for attention. Because it feels like, im doing this for attention but then again I know I’m not. I hate the people that used me. I hate my so called “best friend “ for touching me without my constant. I hate him. I wish I could have done something or say something. But I was just a scared little girl.

1:46 yeah I really like tornadoes and stranger things recently and those are all the things I talk about and then someone says this.

1:18 glad to know im not the only one......

I have my own way to vent, so here it is: Me:Struggling with depression, anxiety, trauma, communication lack, internet addiction, dysphoria, etc. Decides to tell parents what he’s going trough What do you think my parents did? A) Sing him to therapy B) Talk to him C) Ignore it D) Yell at him The correct answer is D and C Congrats if you guessed right I’m Broken

I guess this is a safe place to vent, yeah? So I guess I'll add my own. But you can ignore this one! It doesn't matter as much as the others. So I guess I'm stuck on a tightrope between wanting to die and wanting to live. my mental health is going on a rollercoaster. Mostly down tbh. There's days where I feel like nobody cares about me. But I feel selfish for thinking that, because my friends have told me multiple times that they care about me, and that they would miss me if I died. But sometimes I can't help feeling that they're lying, even though I know they're not. And I know theyre probably annoyed by that. Ive already vented to them twice, and I feel selfish for burdening them with my stupid little problems that should just be pushed down. But then again sometimes I really want to talk to someone. But I can't most of the time. Besides that, I'm scared at how good I am at hiding my feelings. Or, more like how people can't realise how upset I am. Let me give you an example: Let's say I went to school, all happy. Then one of my friends (they are different friends to the ones I talked about before, because those ones live abroad) said something mean. I'm fine. I don't feel like eating. I'm still fine. I get yelled at, I'm fine!! Then all these problems pile up, and eventually I'm not fine. But that's okay, because I have a degree in acting! I can pretend I'm fine!! And I get home, and I'm still "fine" and then I go in the bathroom (only place with a lock), and I cry. And cry. And cry more. Basically have a mental breakdown! Isn't that nice! And then I get out of the bathroom, and suddenly, guess what? I'm fine again!!! Totally. Fine. Amazing life, right? I absolutely love it. It's not like the only things keeping me alive are the internet and my friends! Totally not! And I absolutely love having a mental breakdown every day, sometimes a panic attack, feeling useless and like a burden, not eating, and wanting to- y'know! I love myself so much! Dont worry about me alright? I'm just fine. I'm okay.

2:03 I had a similar experience my dad at the time kept screaming at me and then hit me with his shirt

Vent I'm scared of not getting a job and being unable to move out and live alone. Even though I'm an introvert I hate being completely alone. I feel financially insecure. Can I really move out and get a job and live in peace :^)

Vent? Idk I just saw one in here that was like “I always forgive but never forget” and what I’d do is never forgive but forget Someone hurt me not even 30 min later. That’s why I don’t care if people hurt me cause I’m just going to forget in the end 🤗

Alternate title: ✨sushi for free haircuts✨ (It’s a reference to a standup comedy show)

I just wanna be little all the time.

HELP MY PARENTS CAUGHT ME WATCHING THIS!

Vent I'm doing... I don't even know to be honest. It's all kinds hazy, I've been so tired and bored. School starts again in 8 days and I have no idea what to do with my life. I have no idea how I'm going to face my classmates/friends, what am I supposed to say? That my summer was awesome? That my depression and anxiety are getting worse? Do I just lie or will I be honest? I don't wanna burden them, especially now that we'll graduate next year. I don't want to make them care about me when they'll never see me again just a year from now... I hate, this, the only thing I have to look forward to is my time after college, when I can move in with my girlfriend and get a dog and birds. I have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing with the time I have, all of it seems so pointless

It's kind of funny how I had to take therapy to stop. Hugging people and I realize now i'm just pretty f***** u* doing sh alot ha ha

Vent: Starting to hate my anger issues bc if I lash out it reminds me of my stepdad. He yells at my mom alot. And me sometimes. Hes called me a fucking brat, and has asked me if he wants me to go around telling everyone how stupid his "daughter" is. Hes made jokes about hitting my with a baseball bat coverd in nails(the sharp metal thingys). He once said he was gonna hang me to the ceiling fan and I asked why and he said bc it would be good for him. He screamed at me back in March and now I almost cry being in a room with him. One time he said as a 'joke' that every peeler bead he found on the ground, he would cut off one of my fingers. I told him he cant do that and he said that ik his kid and he can do whatever he wants to me(I still refuse to accept hes my stepdad). At my dads I have a loving family there but I dont see them a whole ton (every other weekend in the school year). Whenever I get angry and lash out it makes me feel like I'm becoming like him And I dont want to be anything like him. I dont want to yell at people or insult them. But I feel like I'm gonna become him regardless. One time my 2yr sister threw a block at me and I lashed out at her by accident and she started crying. I kept apologizing and I just kept getting reminded of my stepdad. I felt so bad I used to take all my anger out on object bc my stepdad would get mad if I was angry (hes told me he doesnt care about my feelings. Later he took back what he said and just said he didnt want to hear about my feelings.). So I started hitting objects and it's getting bad bc hitting objects reminds me of my stepdad when he got angry at me for being crabby and he took a chair and slammed it against the floor and yelled at me to go to my room, so now I hit my legs. My legs might bruise but idgaf