For me chalk outline refers to dead inside feeling you get after depression and anxiety meds. Like a zombie. A floating chalk outline. ❤

Chinchilla is a great rabbit hole to go down. Her live performance of fingers is freaking amazing, she is a powerhouse

Believe it or not, How to Be Me is an equally captivating collaboration they did together. Chinchilla is awe inspiring on her own as well. Little Girl Gone, and Fingers are definitely worth hearing! Great reaction Aileen (as always) and thank you for all your hard work and dedication in bringing all of us with you on this incredible journey!! 😊

The "I'm scarred of being ok, cause all things change" line is rough. You get comfortable with your depression and then the thought of being ok scares the crap out of you because you know it won't last.

I'm a 49yr old man an this one broke me down. Such a beautiful song, these two are amazing. Great reaction ❤

When Ren and Chinchilla duet it's so much more than 2 people singing. It is 2 souls connecting and dancing around so beautifully in song. It feels like an honor to witness.

8:32 You explained the chalk outlines yourself, Aileen. When you talked about your own experience taking medication and you not feeling yourself, looking from the outside, feeling like a zombie of some sort... you walked inside your own floating chalk outline. You felt absent, almost dead, not in touch with the world. Truly touching reaction, thank you for your emotions. You're an angel.

This song kills me. "Such a perfect day ... take it just in case" ... "I'm scared of being OK because all things change" Their voices are incredible, when independent ... but together they are at a whole new level. Their harmonies touch your soul. They are both so imperfectly perfect. It would be worthwhile to go down a mini rabbit hole and look into Chinchilla. She recently became independent and released "Little Girl Gone". Her performance of "Fingers - Live" shows her raw power.

As someone with mental health issues, this song is lifesaving. Ren's ability to resonate with us really helps to dry up the feeling of being completely alone in the universe. And Chinchilla's voice?? DAMN. It hurts in all the right places. How is this song not absolutely everywhere yet?? Oh, that's right, because Ren has integrity on top of everything else.

For me the chalk outline reference means living as a zombie, a living dead when on antidepressants since they take away most feelings and energy one has. "Still here in this bed that I crawled in." "Take this one, wash it down and you'll be fine. The feeling goes and you draw a chalk outline." That's how I understand it anyway, don't know if that's how Ren meant it. And as always, thanks for the reaction.

Chinchilla - Fingers (Live for HungerTV) would be a great reaction.

The next one has to be How to be me. With Chinchilla. Great job

You said exactly what chalk outlines were. You stated the lines marked a body of the dead. You had said when you took the pills you felt as if you were floating above your own body as if you were a guardian angel looking down on your body going through life. You raised yourself in these floating chalk outline.

This song grips your soul, "How to be me" by them breaks your heart

Hi Aileen, another great reaction👏 . They also perform How To Be Me live, which I think is even better

I'm living in the south of Germany, 2 hours to Austria, Switzerland, Italy and the Netherlands, 1 hour to France and every day surrounded by people from all over the world. I know that has nothing to do with music reactions, but you're one of the most beautiful women i've ever seen... and the fact that you're smart adds tons to it. Very impressive! Thx for your reactions! 😘🔥❤️

It really is an masterpiece I love REN✨& chinchilla 💫there magic 🥰 music is life ! 🎶 Music heals the soul ❤️‍🩹

REN and CHINCHILLA are perfect together .

If you want to see another side of Ren, I recommend The Big Push - I Shot the Sheriff/Road to Zion/Hip Hop. What a great performance!

Such a heartfelt reaction Aileen. This one hits hard. The fantastic chemistry and harmonies between Ren and Chinchilla really lift this one to another level. "How to be me" (Live) is another fantastic collaboration between the two of them.

How to be me live....but prepare yourself, its emotional and magnificent

I can't remember hearing such a powerful duet ever, simply love their chemistry. "How to be Me" by them is as emotional , if not more due to the subject. Chinchilla's Fingers Live is Stunning as well. Love your reactions so much.

When you talked about the feeling of being an NPC in life while on meds I felt that. It's the reason I struggle with taking meds for my issues. I battle with wanting to be okay and wanting to feel my emotions full force. It's my own personal bugbear.

200 Views of Chalk Outlines and the Emotion still Brings Goosebumps and tears Ren And Chinchoilla Kick you in the chest every time . You really Need to Watch the Live version of How to be me. now

Beautiful reaction Aileen. This song always gives me goosebumps and it throws my emotions all over the place. Incredible duet, they both have phenomenal voices.

Believe it or not, How to Be Me is an equally captivating collaboration they did together.

It's so very healing. I think many of us has felt that way & he gave us words for it. So many times I have felt like that. The frustration of just being so confused with everything. You're sick & they give you meds. Then they quit giving you meds but the problem hasn't been solved so you end up turning towards the wrong kind of meds. cause that's all you can get & you think the street meds are helping but they're not. Then they tell you your wrong for taking meds. Nothing helps & you just get caught in a viscous cycle. Some don't come out of it. My son didn't. I found out REN has Lyme disease & was misdiagnosed for years. Looking through everything I remembered when my son was around 5 we had to take him to the ER to have a tic dug out of him. He got really sick & was sick & suffering for so long & we not once thought he could have had Lyme disease. It has helped me though because I know he's not suffering anymore. He'd been in & out of jail but had started to turn his life around when a neighbor called the police on him & they took him in on a warrant that was 61/2 yrs. old. Off paper at 7. In his cell within 61/2 hrs. in June. He would have loved REN & I feel a closeness to him through REN. I feel like I taught my children well & now I don't have either one of them. If it wasn't for The Good Lord I would have joined them but He has me here for something & I know I'll be with them again. They suffer no more. I think you're a beautiful young lady. I love people's reactions & I think REN does watch people's reactions. I find it so freeing to know that I'm not alone in those feelings. So many of us suffer them & can relate. Music is so healing.

Both have an extreme amount of talent , Chinchilla's voice is very angelic and when she sings with Ren its quite something, i hope they do more collabs in the future

The chalk outline analogy is exactly that out of body experience you talked about when being medicated. You feel like you are already dead. A walking corpse, hence the floating chalk outline around you. Like a reverse halo. Or that is how I perceive it.

As soon as those 3 notes started, your heart rate dropped, shows you a lot about what key notes calms you.

Lovely, passionate reaction. Another good song to react to is Ren - Humble

Perfect reaction and you are right, Ren is a gift to us all, he unapologetically shares is health and mental issues in a raw but relatable way for the benefit of others to share hope and not beg sympathy, a rare talent that touches all that have found him.

Beautiful reaction Hun. If this makes you emotional, you have to watch & listen to "Crutch" I warn you though, have tissues nearby 😢 it's heartbreaking and Beautiful. His ex-girlfriend is in it with him. It was made 7years ago when he was at his worst health wise. He was in so much physical and mental pain. 😢 So the fact that he could still create such a stunning piece of art is testament to his resilience and genius. I look forward to seeing you react. You are obviously a beautiful soul yourself. Take care. Sending love from the UK 💕

Lovely and relatable reaction, Aileen. It's hauntingly beautiful. As a happy timeline cleanse and a chance to admire Ren's brilliant guitaring, his busking I shot the Sheriff/Road to Zion/Hip Hop with his former band, the Big Push. He does busking with Chinchilla too but an absolute masterpiece is their live How to Be Me. That'll be a box of tissues number!

I've seen this 20 times...? 50 times? I don't know but it still chokes me up. And although I don't have experience with it, I think you summed up exactly what the song is referring to when they talk about "Chalk Outlines". One of the main points is walking around in a chalk outline - not being present - not really living, just a walking dead shadow of yourself because of the medication they put people on. My wife deals with depression and she has told me about medications that they had put her on that made her empty, running red lights without a care about the consequences or what could happen. "Walking around in a floating chalk outline..."

Oh, and I can't speak to anyone else's interpretation, but for me the "floating chalk outlines" refer to the feeling of deading ones emotions and concealing how one feels all in order to function in the daily life happening around oneself..

If that hit you then listen to them do How To Be Me (live) absolutely fantastic

Always Love your Reactions Aileen, another Song of them together, How to be me Live is just as Epic

You need to watch How to be me by Ren. X Chinchilla and Sick Boi by Ren

Entertainment is entertaining. Art is felt. This has all the feels.

What I enjoyed is that this was an actual reaction video. No cut every 30' to tell me what I have seen. loved it. I watch videos like these to feel like I'm not the only one to feel.

Such a beautiful song and reaction. This songs means so much to so many people.

Rens colabs are great. How to be me with Chinchilla and Crutch with Bibi are both amazing.

The way your Heartbeat went down in the beginning of the Song... i felt that.. because it slowed me down physically. The lyrics and sound kick deep... almost ripping open forgotten scars to heal properly this time, than being hastily patched.

love seeing Ren and Chinchilla bring the emotion out in people. Thanks for the great heartfelt reaction! Its super relatable for me personally, I have PTSD, and drowning it out with pills and substances sometimes makes life bearable, but in the end you just end up feeling like a chalkoutline. Avoid, avoid, avoid....

Have you done the live version of “how to be me” yet by these two?

How to Be Me (live) is another powerful duo by these two.

Great reaction! Ren and Chinchilla in this song are both so incredible and this song hits me in the heart every single time!

I’ve been blubbering for days listening to this song. She has so much power in her voice.

I'm not sure if they have expounded on the chalk outline thing however I read is as you live in the "floating" chalk outline. As in: it's drawn around you from the moment you're effectively made numb from the pills. They turn you from a human into just a husk that knows how to walk. Well worth Exploring Chinchilla too, she is phenomenal. My personal favourite of the biggies that get a lot of reacts is Elements, that's got a bass sound to die for and some gorgeous vocal layers, all done by her. They're all good though, I love the video for Fingers, the song has moments of quite intense brutality and the pulsing music in the studio version just adds so much depth, and menace, to the horrific descriptions. The live version is good but it's just sung over piano so you lose the music but gain Chinchilla's goosebump raising performance. She is incredible.

Chinchilla held NOTHING back in the last parts.. their harmony was beautiful.. the message was/is so important. Aileen, I am SO VERY GLAD you got to this side of your struggle. PLEASE keep up the great work... I have no shame saying my eyes weren't dry either. Peace, Love and Amazing music to all.

Aileen, you *need* to watch "How to be me (live) - RenXChinchilla" as hard hitting as this one, if not more.

Ren X Chinchilla How to Be Me (live version), very emotional, beautiful. Loving your reactions. Peace.

Thanks for sharing , the line I’m ´I’m scared of being ok ‘ resonates so strongly, in HI Ren the line y’´you gotta kill you if you wanna kill me ‘ lines up with that . That said it’s not surprising we hold onto our pain and suffering we do it with physical injuries as well .

Wonderful reaction. Ren and Chinchilla are both incredibly talented. Ren's new track, Su*cide is dropping today. It's going to be a gut punch 💛

What a powerful reaction, Aileen! I'm so glad you got to this song. It's one of my all-time favourites. As a few others have said, the 'Chalk Outlines' is generally taken to mean that exact feeling you described of not feeling like yourself when you were on medication. "Walk around in a floating chalk outline"... the meds stop you feeling almost anything, you're just a shell, an outline of yourself, walking around like a zombie. There's also a hint of self-medicating with other things.. "push it back down with an new habit", but that can also mean just trying a second med to counteract the side effects of the first one, then a third and so on and so on, chasing something - anything - to make you feel ok. And yet being scared of feeling ok, because you know it doesn't last and you'll just get hurt again if you allow yourself to be happy for a moment. Or at least, that's my take on it. I loved when you pointed upwards and waved your finger in the air a few times when Chinchilla hit the high notes during the bridge! I do exactly the same every time - it's exhilarating listening to her voice dance around up there. I'd highly recommend their other duet "How to be me" (the live version). They take the harmonies and emotion up to a whole new level in that. It's honestly breathtakingly good. But again, it's desperately sad, so have the tissues handy. I'd also encourage you to have a peek into the Chinchilla rabbit hole - Fingers (Live for Hunger TV) is an astonishing live performance. Seriously, Chinchilla is a powerhouse and deserves all the love she has been getting lately.

❤❤ I loved your reaction. So heart-felt. You explained chaulk outlines without realizing. When you recalled feeling of being out of body thats it. Taking the medication and making you feel not like yourself. The real you is like the walking dead. Or a floating chaulk outline going through the motions but it's not you it what the medication made you feel - most times nothing, dead. And by taking the medication you draw your chaulk outline. And what the medication does to you erases you in the chaulk outline. So you had it. Keep up the amazing work.

I think the chalk outline represents walking around feeling dead or zombie like from the medication side effects or even just from the symptoms of different mental illnesses. Like the mental fog, etc It's such a beautiful song filled with so many truths around taking these medicines that are supposed to help us but sometimes they make us worse or create new problems for us. It can be interpreted so many different ways, that's just the beauty of music & art! ❤

His voice in this song reminds me of a young age Johnny Cash. So much emotions. So much experience in life. Eyes that have seen more then they should. Results in true wisdom. And she is the perfect twin for him.

100% do a reaction to How To Be Me by these, live version again 👌 the Ren rabbit hole is truly a blessing and Chinchilla has an equally powerful voice, both physically and metaphorically

You have such a beautiful soul! Your reactions are so heartfelt.

Ren has some great duets. Crutch, with Bibi. How to be me with chinchilla. Ocean and humble with Eden Nash. Blind eyed with Sam thomkins..and all his pig push stuff.

The beautiful waves coming out of there voices sounds so so magnificent I’m adding this to my playlist I love it 100% and all the messages and meanings I resonate with it aswell

How To Be Me LIVE is another haunting but fantastic duo by these 2. Deep to say the least but it's amazingly raw and heartfelt. ❤ Love your honesty on your reactions. Hugs from Scotland

You should do Fingers Live as it’s awesome, also can’t wait for reaction to How to be Me - another REN and Chinchilla live collab - warning tissues maybe required

Aileen is gonna get teary eyed

Seeing Ren alive and in person (chinchilla too) is on my bucket list ❤

In a world of so many reactors, your reaction stood out for me! Your empathy, sincerity, appreciation of art and music, and your expression in your description of what you took away from this song, felt extremely genuine. I second many many other comments and highly recommend How To Be Me, the LIVE version with Ren & Chinchilla. I also recommend FIRE from Rens Freckled Angel album, released in 2015. It's an album that is only now being highlighted by many reactors, who are working their way backward through Ren's catalogue of songs. FIRE kzfaq.info/get/bejne/g8CinJRl1KuYc6M.html

Chinchilla live versions of Fingers & Cold water are master pieces. We need to blow her up on her own. Just like her Ren stuff it’s just great. Let’s blow her up like Ren. These 2 are artist of artist. Unique greatness!!

Another great collaboration - Ren with Eden Nash "Humble"

They are so beautiful together, forever in tune xx they have so much love and respect for each other xx

I’d have to say that Ren is the Mozart of our time. The way he arranges music is so intricate and his voice is incredible and the harmonies between him and Chinchilla are awesome. And this could have gone wrong because they both have such powerful voices but they found the right balance

You are looking so awesome today amazing video love your reaction to this video thank you so much for sharing this video with us love it Aileen.🌹🌹🌹❤️❤️👍

I love your reactions. You can see that you're absolutely feeling every second, it's a joy to watch. You have many layers of beauty, not just the way you look - you're also so real and so emotive and in tune with the world around you. Get it! Wishing you all the best.

You explained your experience exquisitely. I liked your explanation as much as I love their song.

Now I'm crying at work, Damn This one just absolutely crushes me, the lyricism here is untouchable!! Related all too well, beautiful reaction!! Would love to see you do Ren- Diazepam

This (you) is the reason I watch reaction videos. ❤your soul.

Fantastic reaction love and respect from the UK 👍👍👍👍👍👍🌟😀😀 amazing channel 👍

Ren gets you right in the feelz. He is such an amazing lyricist, drawing from his own experiences. He speaks for so many people going through their own struggles. Great reaction!

Thanks Aileen..Have you thought about reaching out to interview some of these artists? Bet it would go well for all parties. All the best x

That "E" will always be a part of you and Benny(s). B&E is something bigger than even you now Bo. I've lost 2 friends to themselves, 2 from OD and my best friend coded 2 different times but managed to live. We feel you. The Bennys love you. Folks may leave us but they are not forgotten. They live in us, through us. You can have Benny without both B AND E. Much love big B, PLP!!

Empathy just pours from you. Big hearts. I wish I could feel the way you do, you're like a full empath, and in a weird way watching you experience these things echoes whatever feelings are so very much in my basement. It helps me to see an empath doing their thing... It helps me to calibrate toward the middle ground. @RenMakesMusic

I love your facial emotions. Reminds me of my own.

Loved writing this with them! Can’t wait to play this with them in July if they can make it to Minnesota!

watching your reaction was so beautiful and affirming.. when that song ends i'm never ready. I'm always so caught up in the desperation and intensity that I can't believe it's over. Thank you for sharing that with me @Aileensenpai ..

This song never fails to make me cry, I'm glad you hit this one next. This one hits so hard in the gut but it's also so catchy and perfect that you find yourself singing it. Walking around in a floating chalk outline is such a hard line.

Aileen, make sure you check out How To Be Me(live). It’s a song Ren wrote when a friend of his took his own life. Very powerful duet.

Ren and Chinchilla are both amazing on there own, but together, fuck me. They compliment eachother so well. Definitely go down the Chinchilla rabbithole. Check out "How to be me" with Ren and "Fingers live" by Chinchilla. Also "Littlle girl gone", "Elements", theres so many.

This was shot live and in 1 take

I really do not think Ren has made a bad song and somehow every live version seems to be even better than the recorded versions. But I think this has to be my favourite so far and can not get enough of it. So glad the You tube algorithm pushed Hi Ren to me on Xmas day last year. It spoke to me deeply and hit like a sledgehammer. I was lucky enough to hear him before the reaction boom hit for him and I do not think there have been many independent artists, if any, that has both been pushed soo well by and for the reaction community. And he is humble enough to realise and appreciate that fact. There have been very few days since hearing Hi Ren that I have not listened to one of his songs. A once in a generation talent IMO.

Yeeessss!!! Please do How to be Me by them it's their other collaboration! Also Chinchilla's live version of Fingers is AMAZING!

Since discovering him (thanks for reacting to Hi Ren, that's where it started for me) i fell down a massive Ren rabbithole...love his music - your reaction to this song was pretty much the same as mine, and no matter how many times i've heard it i still tear up by the end... Chalk Outlines is about, imho, the medical system just pushing pills at you for everything instead of figuring out what's actually wrong and fixing it - to the point that you're on so many pills you're pretty much dead inside and are a "walking chalk outline", as well as how it affects your mental health - "such a perfect day, take it just in case, scared of being ok cos all things change..." And as fantastic as the harmonies are here, they're even better on "How To Be Me (live)" - stunningly heartbreaking. Other Ren tunes to check out are Fire, Money Game 1+2 (3 is on the way soon), Crutch, The Hunger, Blind Eyed (The Live version is great and kinda amusing too), the Love Music trilogy, Diazepam, Ocean, 1990's and Freckled Angels. Then there's his busking video's which are fantastic to watch and listen to... Also loving Chinchilla as well, i recommend Fingers (Live) and Little Girl Gone (Which a couple wks ago was #1 in the US streaming charts ;) )

This song is a rare gem! So beautiful!

Such and beautiful and expressive song. Chills.

I'm walking talking and breathing, but am I truly living? Or am I just walking around with this chalk out line!

Ren: "Do you believe". And Ren Ft Bibi: "Crutch". Are 2 good ones 👍ps....Ren and his old band "The Big Push" do a great version of "I shot the sheriff' "Road to Zion" and "Hip Hop" all in one song where he plays Electric Guitar....make sure it is the version where he is wearing Red Suspenders.

My favorite Ren singing is The Big Push Englishman in New York. So underrated

This is one of my favourites! Thankyou for reaching to this one, but its crazy i love watching your reactions you seem to feel every word & take them in fully ❤... i do the same! 🤦‍♂️ lol So keep reacting & ill keep warching x

It’s the eye contact during the chorus for me ❤

love how you just watched and waited for them to finish then give your opinion