what has been going on with me! (dealing with depression)

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9 жыл бұрын

This is what has been going on, not every single detail but enough for you to understand. This is very very difficult to talk about to say the least but I hope it might help someone else having problems out there. I have to try and find a positive somewhere, and trust me I will! I know things will work out in the end but it doesn't change what I feel I have lost, things are new and raw right now! but I will use this a opportunity to achieve the things I still want to do!
I hope people appreciate the balls and strength of character it takes to talk about this so openly and honestly! but I am using this as my lowest point how I felt while making this video that will be my low point! it's all uphill from here! it will be the fuel for the fires to make what I want a reality!
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@chaseontwowheels 9 жыл бұрын

To hell with watching the video...Spicy is BACK!!!!

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@Oddball176 9 жыл бұрын

You are a strong, wise man Spicy. Don't stop the fight.

@Bimble 9 жыл бұрын

Broken crows always have the best personalities, and far more interesting lives.

@superskidmarkz 9 жыл бұрын

Exercise is good for depression. Sign up for next years London marathon so you have a goal. It may be an old saying, but that doesn't make it any less true. Healthy body, healthy mind.

@milkyjoemoto 9 жыл бұрын

I went through the exact same situation this time last year and things only got better, put as many miles into Derek as humanly possible and just enjoy life. I hope I bump into you again, just somewhere a bit more glamorous than Tesco's ;)

@jakepocock1616 9 жыл бұрын

I feel for you Spice.

@InsaneFurball 9 жыл бұрын

I had a feeling this was the issue. When you posted your videos saying that 'something' was wrong, your mannerisms just screamed 'break up' to me. I know this, cause I went through the exact same thing almost 12 months ago to the day. Although my situation was a bit different, I came home from work to a half empty house... and I was devastated to say the least. I could say "chin up, mate" and all that jazz, but it won't help. The only thing that helps is time, and getting on with life. So instead, I'll come back in a bit when some time has past, and say well done for getting on with it, and I hope things are starting to improve for you. :)

@MotoDragon 9 жыл бұрын

Very sorry to hear man! You know yourself that it will all get better soon so hold onto that hope, however small it may seem. I've been down that mucky road not too long ago and trust me, if I didn't hold onto the bit of hope I had I would of been gone. Here for you !

@chrisj1909 9 жыл бұрын

I really do feel for you mate and I seriously respect that you've decided to open up and talk about it, I've had several mental illnesses in the past years and it does suck but you have to keep looking on the positive side, as hard as it can be it will all sort itself out. What helped me was exercise, it helps to clear the head:)

@RoboNinja300 7 жыл бұрын

I'm glad I came across this video again. literally at this moment in time im going through exactly everything you went through,

@daviesjack12 8 жыл бұрын

spicy. You deserve a medal for speaking out openly. iv read to description and yes. I really understand now. iv Been through depression my self and to even speak about it to 1 person is hard enough. but to 35000+ wow. Hope times get better for you ( which they will)

@Augustuz91 9 жыл бұрын

Been lurking watching your videos for months and you've had your ups and downs, you just make me realise what I have! Keep your chin up lad!

@Racing_Is_Not_An_Addiction 9 жыл бұрын

Please stay strong, spicy! The same exact thing happened to me about 2 days ago, you're not alone in this. You have the support of not only myself but all of your subscribers!

@ModzRidesAround 9 жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry to hear about that buddy. I've been through the same thing with the mother of my two kiddies and it was the harshest thing that's ever happened to me. Keep on fighting Spicy and things will pan out for the best. I know it's hard to take in but there is better things yet to come, just keep going. You are a real diamond for letting her go mate, it takes a real man to do something like that and you should be proud of yourself for how you have reacted. Hats off to you for coming onto KZfaq and updating us all with the bad news. Keep your head up buddy, the internet needs you, we need you ;)

@Gavinprior1 9 жыл бұрын

I feel you spicy, well done for making it so far as you have done yet. your doing great, i know the depression myself and how it drags you down, i felt so bad about 5 years ago now and ive been alot better and thought i was doing better, thought once i get a job and stuff il be good and the anxiety will go away and the depression will be fully gone, but ive been working about 8 months and realized, its still all the same. im still the same, stuggleing to deal with that. but thats just how it goes.

@chrisschreiber4194 8 жыл бұрын

This is one of the most well spoken vlogs I have ever seen. Thank you for making this. Youve gained a new loyal subscriber! Keep your chin up friend!

@RabidWolfe 9 жыл бұрын

Its a long road to recovery Spicy regarding depression and things will get better, just believe, been on a similar road myself for a long while now and i also suffer from PTSD. Good on you for standing up and talking about it, be brave and look to the future, take it easy buddy and good to see another video from you.

@kalvaxus 9 жыл бұрын

Spicy, I love you. I'm really glad you speak from your heart and share your life, warts and all. That's really brave.

@-Dash- 9 жыл бұрын

Sorry to hear things are down at the moment Spicy, but it was good to see a vlog from you anyway, youre def a big man in my eyes for being able to talk about it all and I think its a good sign you can deal with it. You dont need me to tell you what to do as you know already, focus on the positive things and let the bad stuff go etc... I will just say look at all these comments, we all genuinely wish you well and want you to be happy, and I reckon things will pick up when you are least expecting it. Also maybe you can visit your mate when he goes to OZ? You will love all the wildlife! (I didnt, it scared the shit out of me, but you will lol)