Jose Treviño same! Always “the Void”

Sameee

Yes and others just don't understand

Same.

I literally looked up this video after going through just this. I want this to go away. I feel like ill never know what happiness feels like I'm older and ice been depressed all 37 years of life

@smolkittenuwu it do indeed be like that

yes

@@winonaponcespeaks yes

I literally had a psychotic break at the age of 28

It's usually when self-harm starts. It's too painful to be in my body.

Yes! Stuck in Purgatory is exactly correct!

As someone else with quiet bpd, purgatory is the best analogy I’ve ever heard for it

I have quite bpd too, I came out of a 22 year relationship over a years ago, still raw like it was last month, it never ends and SO done with it i

hi, I have been doing research on this disorder for a while and I think I might have. what do you mean don't draw attention to ourselves. I like to express myself. wear weird clothes, hairstyles/colours, makeup, etc. would this be bad for my mental health? I'm sorry, I'm just curious.

@@maemaefaefae3396 Think she meant to make sure who we share our diagnosis with.

do you mean dont have a public meltdown?? not sure what you mean..

Well yeah, anything you do is a gamble (just how life works). Why I hate sharing grief stuff, hell I hate sharing personal details to most people in general actually. Not their place to judge, as most people tend to do. Or they're just nosy and don't truly care... But just saying, better to say too little than too much. Whatever you air in public/ to others, most people feel (even if automatically) "oh he/she said that, so it's free game to judge or tear it apart" when in reality ... Everyone knows their truths, hard to put some stuff into words of course

@@ceeceevee shes probably manic at the moment.

I’ve found that the happiness is fleeting

I feel like the only "happiness" I feel is when I am distracted by external things (i.e. I make some money, I meet a new friend or partner, I play a cool video game, etc) On my own I'm not sure if I've ever felt truly happy with myself.

Lol Just bc we have BPD doesn’t give us a free pass to be a douche or license to be a cunt. We’re still responsible for our actions and how we make others feel. A BPD diagnosis does not excuse nor justify our bullshit behavior. A diagnosis does not absolve us, a diagnosis is to give us understanding of what we’re experiencing so that we can treat it. Hate to break it to ya brother, but being called selfish is MEANT to make you feel disparaged and invalidated, as it should.

Anyone else have emotions and can feel pain. We are all human beings. We are all responsible for our behavior towards others. And borderlines tend to be selfish and ruthless. It's your job to recognize it and not do it if you want people to love you. Not telling others how to treat you when you treat them badly. BPD is an obstacle, not an excuse. My ex told me "i need to protect myself" after she caused the drama and I was in pain and she was still mean to me.. Disparaging is blaming others for your own actions and playing the victim for getting validation.

It’s not selfish.

Ypur comment is literally you not taking responsibility for your actions as someone with BPD. If you are being cruel, abusive or selfish....then dont be surprised when you are called on it. This is the issue with BPDs...no accountability and it's why yall lash out and get really cruel,and heartless and soulless....because that's how you will act. Own up to it. Dont blame others for how you are acting

It’s really hard because as an outsider looking in, one can never truly understand the human experience unless they have lived it. It can be so hard with this disorder because a lot of people claim That people with BPD do not take accountability for their actions when more often than not it is quite the opposite. It’s such a tremendous difficulty. My heart goes out to everyone trying to live day by day and do the best they can. It’s important to never give up, and realize that you always have a network of support. Perhaps there will be people that don’t understand, but keep doing your best. You are here for a purpose.☀️

Sooo...poor y0u for having guilt for going off on your loved ones for trying g to help u? See this is the problem with you people, no accountability. You are responsible for what u say and do. No one else. Take some fricken responsibility for crying out loud

​​@@mr.fettesq.7705her guilt IS her taking responsibility and owning her actions. Our outward displays of anger rage etc then invert onto ourselves and borderlines will often be overwhelmed by guilt shame disgust worthlessness regret to the point of wanting to commit suicide. Please be kind.. if you cannot there's no need to tell this girl what I assure you she already feels.

Yes self control is difficult lately I've become numb and just prefer to thank those around me rather than release my thinking of their actions or words. Love to you x

I just got called a psycho. I was told It's no excuse but it kinda is. So many times I wanted to take my own life. I'm just tired of being misunderstood.

I feel exactly the same but I no longer attach myself to anyone trying to show kindness. I know it's a pleasant but short lived respite I chose to emotionally isolate myself now as I cannot mentally deal with the challenges a friendship or relationship holds.

damn mane we all suffering

Take responsibility and get yourself some treatment then...can u not see yourself blaming everyone else for how YOU feel inside. Jesus....this comment thread is chalk full of people like u claiming zero accountability

@@mr.fettesq.7705 you when you find out mentally ill people are mentally ill: 😱 Look. I’m sorry you’ve had bad experiences with bpd. But firstly you need to acknowledge that not everyone can afford 500$ of therapy on top of the medicine that may be needed to regulate bpd. I agree there are many people with the mental illness who cannot take accountability but you can’t expect people with BPD to automatically process the world exactly like you do.

@@DoormanSoorman taking accountability costs zero money. You know what else costs nothing but is worth everything...? Kindness. Not being abusive. These 2 simple things I listed are 2 of the worst things about people with BPD. It's u derstandable to be suffering and not know where to turn. I have so much empathy for people with any sort of disorder. But that does not mean it's OK to use your disorder as excuse to be cruel and abuse people. Which is something people with BPD tend to do. It doesn't always talke therapy to understand that. Most people know when they are being abusive yet do it anyways. And that kind of crap is never OK. And thas where accountability is most important. A mental illness isn't a get out of jail free pass for acting however you want to. If you do nothing...nothing gets done. Make all the excuses you want.

Yep...I was married to one. And the abuse they levied on me was inhumane. People with BPD d9nt k ow how to love because they dont even know what it means to love. Shoot they dont even know themselves. No sense of it. They have zero accountability and everything is your fault. Everytime theh do or say somethingg cruel to you, if you call em on it . They say somethn lie "Its not offensive...if you feel offended maybe that's on you." Rediculous. People with BPD should never be in relationships. Ever ever ever. All they cause is pain.

@@mr.fettesq.7705 Wow that is crazy. As somebody that is very self aware and has bpd, people with BPD are not monsters.I have the full ability to love someone & know myself WITH guidance and support.

@@mr.fettesq.7705 I find myself in a relationship with someone I suspect has this looking for answers and you describe how I feel. EVERYTHING is my fault. I don't knock on doors right. I dont look at them right. I find myself trying to talk in a monotone voice because my tone is wrong. It is making me feel crazy and I'm trying to be supportive but the more I try the more wrong I am.

Wow this is insanely accurate

Thanks for watching!

I though I had biopolar but then someone said I had borderline or think I got it. I think I just got a mood problem and I don't fit anywhere

Paige Kohlman I have both as well

macey cluster b disorders are commonly misdiagnosed as chemical imbalances or even PTSD! It takes a long period pf time for a doctor to observe the underlying narcissism/sociopathy behibd the persons actions! Also most BPD's have family members that are codependent enablers . In less they come from a big sick family like mine where they actually made fun of my BPD mom and call her "the crazy aunt everyone hates" lol If you saw my mother's behavior you would understand how sick It is to laugh. It's far from funny. She should have been commiitted and sterilized years ago!

Same

@@kendrabennett5041 so sorry to hear that

I had the same problem. And they are responsible yea. People with BPD can be utterly broken and hurt you to the very ground. However, I took a lot of digging into both studies about the disorder and the consequences for themselves and people around them, and now I just cant feel anything else but sorry for them. I went from a happy healthy person to someone damaged to the core of his soul, but we can change and live our lifes. I feel as great as ever now. DBT helps a lot for people with BPD I have heard, but it won't get rid of the disorder. They will have this for life, and we should really be helpful with them. I do not want to see my ex gf ever again, she is currently smearing me that I have abused her and all, but I am not mad. I try to ignore it, realise it is not personal but her stupid way of dealing with her emotions, which will trigger a lot of shame later. Be happy it is over, you deserve better. So do people with borderline. It is just how much people (including BPD) are willing to see their flaws and willing to change (and I know this is incredibly difficult for someone with any disorder). Blamers on their disorder will always use it against you, and those types do not deserve anyone. But those with BPD, that know what they do, that are in therapy for example, and want to make their life better, deserve loves the most out of anyone. Hope you do better now matey.

for me, something can trigger me, like something will happen to make me uncomfortable in my own skin and i become so triggered and full of rage towards those around me, mainly my family who i'm most comfortable to act out in that way in front of, i kind of let myself get out of control and become verbally abusive, and sometimes have acted out physically. my ex boyfriend, who was my favorite person, i didnt want him to see that side of me so the reactions manifested in different ways. when he would tell me he was tired and couldnt talk to me anymore, or had to leave to do something else or hang out with other people, i would take things like that incredibly personally and act like a bitch, act out, get angry and short and unresponsive, make him feel like a piece of shit for normal stuff like that. then once he broke up w me, i went ballistic, didnt want to be left or abandoned, screamed and cried and tried to hurt myself in front of him. its really embarrassing but i wasnt aware of my disorder at the time and i simply could NOT get my emotions under control.

Hi. You can find a lot of information about borderline personality disorder here: www.healthyplace.com/personality-disorders/borderline-personality-disorder/what-is-borderline-personality-disorder-bpd

Like dissociation

Its not about moving through emotions its going through unexpected intense mood swings

I want to know about this too. Please share if anyone knows how to

You might want to go to a therapist/psychiatrist to get the diagnosis. It took me a few different meetings with 2 different psychiatrists to get diagnosed with BPD because my Dr. Originally thought I could have Bi polar

Im late as fuck.. But hi

Omg so sorry about that.its sad to have known you spent your whole life feeling you was unwanted by someone that you can call mum

Did she have BPD? My mum did & our relationship was very strained. She took a photo of me next to a poster saying 'nobody loves me'- a cute dog chained up.

@@Andromeda8181 no just evil witch

@@Sameoldfitup oh sorry 😔

Then be thankful

@@Mac-dy3su that was a stupid thing to say

For someone with BPD, their partner represents their mother. She neglected them when they were dependent on her. That's why they still miss it. They could not grow up emotionally so they don't have full empathy and are controlled by defense mechanisms. Such as splitting. She sees you just 100% good. Or 100% Bad. The reasons can only be in her mind. And they lie even to themselves. They can't admit a mistake. Because they want to be loved so much and they are afraid that their mother (you) will leave them again.

@@matej1987 now, it's turnout i am 100% a badguy.. 😭😭😭😭😭

Also there is no follow up video😂 thank you so much I nolonger have bpd

Yep. I think some people think it's a character flaw/ subtly manipulating people, oh no no. They have no Idea the battles we have to go thru constantly Daily to want to stay alive, let alone hold a job, get up in the morning, etc... keep up the good fight and enjoying life somehow 👍

stop projecting your one experience with bpd onto everyone with bpd, we're not all the same

That's subjective, but Yes it will be Exponentially harder, very sanity bending and if not traumatic for the other party. Require a lot of patience and persistence. Otherwise, is you want easy stressfree life just move on, yes. Being absolutely in love with someone with bpd likely as much if not more than having bpd, I could imagine most likely

A personality disorder is just that, a disorder, a filter, they may not see it as wrong because of triggers hindering the view, or they 'rectify' it some way in their rationalisation, or they are afraid to open up because of the repercussions they have experienced which their brain now is protecting them from. Their brain is in another mode, beeping constantly.

Kendra Bennett borderlines are not bad people...

the supreme you must have not grown up with a borderline parent that tried to kill you multiple times!😂 People that are "raised" by borderlines would never write this. We survive years of horrendous abuse and borderlines are the worst as far as gaslighting out of ALL the cluster b's due to the mood swings, crying , violence, and psychotic episodes! But have a blessed day!😇💩

Kendra Bennett I did actually and I have bpd myself that’s why I’m saying this. Some borderlines CAN be shitty people but all of us aren’t like that. It’s not ok to generalize just because you’ve had one bad experience. Not everyone experiences bpd symptoms the same way

Its sad that you feel this way. You’re very ignorant though. Not everyone’s mental illness is the same. Not all BPD are abusive and violent. I feel sorry for you. My brother is very mean and abusive and I don’t talk to him but I’ve learned to just let it go. I hope that one day you’re able to just let the pain go. Like I said, I feel really sorry for you and your family but do you really want to claim and feel all that pain and then go in all these groups and bash other BPD? Is that what’s going to make you happy at night? I really do hope you can let that pain go and feel a peace and calmness.

So ya'll hate every person with BPD, just because you know one shitty person with BPD..?