" Are you okay ? " " Are you really okay ? " Sometimes saying something twice makes a huge difference .

why is this a universal feeling? i feel like literally EVERYONE isn't happy. this is not the adulthood i envisioned when i was a child.

"Just cause your life falls apart, doesn't mean you have to lose your desire to live it. " Damn right, Anna.

that laugh after taking her deep breath 😂😂😂

There's a dark humour in relating to something this much

Your life is falling apart and here you are, trying to help others deal with their lives. You are a good person, Anna.

This is actually the most comforting thing I have ever seen. I feel so much less alone in this world. Thank you, earnestly.

“text friends and family” what if they’re the reason my life’s falling apart?

It's so saddening to see us all relating on this depressing level. We need a big group hug. Come here. We're all so sad.

Your life can't fall apart if you don't have one.

Hey Anna, I don't know if you'll ever see this comment but i just wanna say regardless of what happened in your private life (brad, friend, family, whatever related) it isn't our business. i just want to say I have been watching your videos quite regularly for several years. I have taken great inspiration from you in a number of your reactions to life. I am proud of you for looking for your support system and healthy things to be distracted with. I have had plenty of traumatizing life experiences make me just as hopeless and I think you getting up and deciding to keep going each day (even if you aren't happy even if it's not easy) is very strong of you and I want you to know that while I don't know know you , I do have a lot of respect for you , your brand of art , your humor, and in general being a role model. You are one of the few you tubers I'd encourage a younger person to look up to. I am 21 and have gone all through high school and college watching your videos and I just wanted to send love and encouragement. Cuddle all your sweet cats and keep making art !

Hey someone made a documentary about my life!

I see a lot of comments regarding whether she brokeup or not. You know... I have the good luck of having a supportive partner, and you can still feel like your life is falling apart. Sometimes that's me. Just know that having a partner or not is neither a solution nor a cause. Even when someone breaks up with you, it is very likely that it's because some parts of your life have been quite messy already. It's more of a nail in the coffin rather than the cause. The moral of the story, guys, happiness can only come from oneself. No one else is going yo give it to you.

I think they broke up :/ stay strong Anna we love you💕

COVID 2020 led me here.

Her life is falling apart but her makeup looks good

Perfect timing for this. I feel like it is never gonna get better

I honor you for being so open to such a wide audience. Love (hope it helps). xx

This could not have come at a better (worse?) time. Feelin' this right now. Hugs to everyone who wants hugs.

Honestly, at this point I've gone past wanting to be happy and just decided to strive for whatever Anna's got going on. Something like controlled despair and having fun when it's possible?

that's when you know things are REALLY fucked up, when you just start laughing about it all. like if i'll ever be in a plane crash i'll probably initially freak out and then just start hysterically laughing. cause losing everything you held dear and valued... well that's the biggest joke of all.

i relate to this with every mitochondria i have

So... what if... you don't have friends? Or a support group?

This is me right now

Relate to this on spiritual level

+Anna Akana: Stop the drinking. Best advice I can give you. The Alcohol's gonna' creep up on you, and before you know it you'll start needing it.

I love how she uses classical music in the background of her videos, it’s somehow very fitting

When she cackled after the deep breath is literally me all the time.

I've been broken inside since I was a kid. i keep gluing the parts together since then. I like what i made of myself... some sort of a Frankenstein Monster of bad decisions. Sometimes it looks like it... but deep inside i don't regret anything. Every single scar its unique and make me who i am today. I'm not the best i can be... but i've learned to love myself the way i am. I'm ready for the next adventure, bring it on life! You haven't seen the best and worst of me.

*sending a virtual hug* , *virtual hug send*

As my life has fallen apart starting two months ago. I’m slowly dragging myself out of the despair phase. And your videos help me to get a little further out of the pit. Thank you so much you’re awesome!

I've been rewatching so many of your videos lately. Life is definitely falling apart, or rather it has been falling apart for months now, and I never reached the rebuilding part. Your videos have always inspired or motivated me to want to be better, so this is me trying.

What is going on in her life?? i love her so much i hope she is well :(

"Just because your life falls apart doesn't mean you have to lose the desire to live it". Anna Akana, thank you.

I really needed this. thank you so much💓

I hope that your heart heals up real soon, you have a great sense of humor and the way you face the negative parts of life is very rad. :)

My boyfreind through three years just broke up, this is almost too relateble

Geez. This came at the right time for me. Dissolving my marriage that I feel became toxic and he didn't want to work on it until I left.

"But at least you're at the strip club" Somehow, never having been to a strip club, this hit home real hard.

This is so relatable. My hole life has been pretty much a mess and most people know that, but whenever I talk about my problems I automatically smile so it doesn’t look like it’s hurting me, while I’m really struggling with stuff.. You really are a great person Anna for helping other people while struggling yourself

Sorry Anna. You'll get through it. When my life is falling apart, I listen to "instructions for a bad day" this always seems to help me.

You are so real and honest Anna Akana. I wish more people had the courage you do. All of us hit that lonely dark area of our lives at time and feel so alone when it happens. Because most people hide that and almost never share it we never see that side of people and think it is a shameful thing. It is something we need to embrace. Wish I could help you more but the world is a better place because you are in it!

You have helped my friends and I sooooo much with you insightful videos ! You really deserve every award out there for your craft and for spreading your knowledge, you are a true queen !!!!! WE LOVE YOU !

i just found this channel and im already loving you. I feel like we're meant to be, you are so relatable girl *cries in the corner*

Don't drink alcohol, so much. Instead become a connoisseur of bottled water. Much healthier. In fact, take the time to become a connoisseur of anything you like. Meet people that like the same things. Try not to repeat the same mistakes. Lather, rinse repeat until you're in a good place. Good luck.

WAIT BUT IF THEY BROKE UP CAN SHE KEEP ALL HER 6 CATS

It's awesome how even when your life is falling appart you make videos for your viewers and give them advice ❤️ I usually relate sooo much with your videos (about death, religion...) but for once I don't relate and I'm very very happy about it when I see how many people relate 💔 I hope you will get better all of you ❤️❤️

Thank you, Anna. You are very relatable. Your videos are very consoling. Makes me feel that I'm not alone.

Hey Anna! I'm really sorry to hear that everything is pretty shitty :( but I know you can get through it and grow from the experience even if it does take some time. You gotta keep going because one day when everything is alright you will look back and realise that you survived and maybe at certain bits you might even laugh as something silly got way out of hand. I don't know your situation but I hope that with time you will be alright. Love from one of your loving fans! Stay strong cat lady :)

My life is so depressing I have no friends and have never really had any. I'm not even close with my family my sister lives abroad and I don't get along with my brother. I can't open up to my parents because they are old fashioned and I know they will judge me and I'll feel embarrassed. I'm starting University in September but I'm not really looking forward to it. I don't really know what career I want to pursue and I pretty much only chose to study the course that I'm going to study because my brother and sister studied it and it's popular where I live. I look around at my classmates and all of them have a group of close friends, are looking forward to Prom, are looking forward to summer holidays abroad with their friends and family, have a clear idea of what career they want, always have plans and just seem to be enjoying life but all my life consists of is going to school and coming home. I never go out because I have no one to go out with and I just feel like I'm wasting my life. Life is so precious and I want to make the most of it and enjoy it as much as I can but I can't because I'm a loner. I used to keep telling myself that I'll eventually make friends and not to worry about it but years later I still have no friends and am still wasting my youth. I'm missing out on so many experiences and it makes me so depressed.

ahahahahaha *starts crying*

Okay but I love your brutal honesty so much and you always frame it in such a helpful way 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻

Your face is gorgeous.

I understand that soooooo much. At the end of this spiral of destruction, my boyfriend broke up with me saying he found another girl and he couldn't handle me anymore. And he blamed me for everything. So I started going to the gym, focusing on my job, my studies, building another support group (the one person I had was my ex-boyfriend), traveling A LOT... I'm still working on ignoring the flames around me and "focusing on the things I know I can fix" (step by step). Thank you for sharing yourself.

Always had a lot of respect for you Anna, these videos always put things in perspective for me. Great to know that you recognize what needs to be done. Keep on keeping on.

This has been the worst start of a year so far and I’ve been binging your videos on end - I don’t know why I haven’t watched you before, but I’m so so grateful for you because I needed your advice so badly. I needed someone to tell me that eventually, everything will be okay again. Thank you Anna, so much.

Wow this is exactly how I feel. I feel like I have no friends, or at least the ones I do have probably secretly don't like me. My grades are falling apart. The guy I like will never like me back because I'm obviously incapable of being loved due to my looks and intolerable personality. My life has no purpose, and I'm smart enough to know that I will never be smart enough to fulfill the expectations of this purpose that I have set for myself. And this repetitive cycle of depression has led to me getting no sleep, which is only intensifying the pain.

Take care of yourself Anna! You have 6 cats who look up to you! No but seriously feel better.

what if you don't have friends

You just reminded me of why I love you so much. You're a strong soul Anna, Shine on ! A lot of us can relate to what you're going through, baby steps towards positive and healthy habits shall do it for us. Thanks again. :*

goddamnit, Akana! Why do you post too relatable videos!?!?

Keep your head up Anna, the girl who I wanted to marry left me after 4 years saying she doesn't feel the same and she started dating someone new and it's killing me. The best advice I can give you is keep moving forward do what you have to do to cope but keep moving forward and try your best to appreciate all the good in your life

I needed this tonight, thank you for being up with me until 3 am Anna, you're the best!

So relatable to me right now... I'm pregnant and I've had to cut out my parents recently because they've been making my depression worse. I'm also not even sure I want to be with the baby's father but I feel trapped without help from my family. Hope you start feeling better, Anna. That goes to anyone going through a rough time - try to stay positive even though we might not want to. XOXO

don't worry Anna, you have plenty of great guys lining up to be with you and love cats!

My life has exploded as well, and social anxiety has gotten so bad I have had to quit rocking climbing. (witch I have been doing for 5 years) i hope you get though what ever your going, and that things will be ok!

ok.....the meme was fire.....lol

I'm so sorry this is happening to you, and i hope things get better. I know they will. I am going through the same or similar things and i have been since i left high school. When you get up something brings you back down. Just stay you and stay vocal about it. We love you!

HERE'S A LITTLE SONG I WROTE...

I'm so sorry to hear that things aren't going well for you Anna :( sending you my best wishes! Things will get better eventually. You're intelligent, successful, and driven! You got this.

This is so relatable. I almost feel like my life periodically falls apart.

Um, here's a weird question completely out of the blue: What's worse, having a large number of friends who want you to lean on them and trust them but you just can't and still feel lonely and you feel guilty and mad at yourself for not being able to trust them , or not have any friends?

You've been such an inspiration to me. You take as much time as you need to feel better because you deserve to but remember we as a team (your followers) are here any time you need something.

Therapy.....AHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA LOOK AT MY WALLET GUESS WHAT IT'S EMPTY AHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I find your videos really therapeutic. Thank you, Anna!

Thank u for being so honest about ur pain. It's very comforting and inspiring. You're really pretty and funny & ur vids r awesome! Good luck 👍💓

Love you, Anna. Always channeling what's going on in your life into your work and helping others cope with theirs. Thank you for all that you do for everyone's mental health.

Did they break up???????

You have no idea how much your videos help me Anna!!

Stay strong Anna. Your videos are relatable and inspirational. You got this.

Please let's make this a safe space to share. Stay supportive people! It's probably what you would want if you were going through something.

It is not rare for KZfaqrs to make videos about their life falling apart, but Anna yours is the coolest one yet I think. Thank you for being awesome.

I am in love with all the music you use in your videos.

i. having problems i my own life, and I came here for the breath of positivity that i normally have from you videos, But i think this helped me more. I think i really needed to hear that it is ok to feel hopeless and feel like your world is falling apart, and how hard it is to put in the work to get better. Just, thank you so much for putting all this stuff out there, it is really helping a lot of people. i hope things turn around for you. ❤️

naw, did she break up with her bf?

Thanks Anna! You're an inspiration, been here since the beginning. Love ya

So I've gone through different phases of who I subscribe to on KZfaq & I've stayed subscribed to you for I think now 3 years & I never get bored from watching your videos and you're just so amazing & I want you to succeed so damn much ❤

Recently got in car accident and things are not great. Not super bad but still enough to cause the feeling to stay with me for a week now. Your videos always seem to cover all of life. Every situation. You also look at these issues objectively and are able to make these videos for everyone too!

Alcohol is a depressant. Drink when happy, feed ducks when sad. ;O)-

2020: we need a part 2 that's called "what to do when the WORLD falls apart"

Literally me right now. I LOVE YOU for this Anna. Thanks for sharing and letting us know we’re not alone 😭😺😹

That smudge at the end.😥 that got me sooo good😂well played Anna...

My husband and I just lost yet another pregnancy. It's the first time we conceived since losing our twins at 18 weeks almost a year ago. So I completely understand the feeling of life feeling like it's falling apart. Another helpful tip: take those mental health days. It really helps when you just have to take care of yourself. Always remember that it will get better eventually.

Whatever you are going through...please know that life gets better, it just takes time. Stay strong and you will get through this.

Anna, your videos mean the world to me. You have a gift of being able to express yourself well and your videos ARE therapy for me. Someone out there gets it. Stay awesome human

You are awesome, my first blood cousin took her life this morning. She was like a sister to me, at first I felt so guilty about watching videos that would make me laugh or distract me. But as I went on looking for info on the web I revisited your story and your videos and they are definitely helping out right now.

When you said you were bouldering for a moment I thought you were actually pushing a boulder around. Kind of like that Greek story of a guy who was sentenced to push a boulder up a hill only to have it roll back down once he got to the top. For all eternity...

A couple of people I care about have either passed on or are currently in hospital, unlikely to walk out alive recently and it's understandable to say, I am VERY depressed at the moment. It's been three months since it all began and despite my best to keep exercising and eating decently (mostly), I've been having constant panic attacks and have even developed a pretty severe fear of death and dying. But like you were talking about, while I know I'm clearly far from okay at the moment, I know I will be. I've made plans to see a councillor, I'm volunteering at my local animal shelter, I'm donating blood, getting back into painting, the works! I'm determined to be happy again. I know it won't happen overnight and I have a lot of inner conflict to work out, but I'll be okay. And to anyone else that happens to be reading this, you will be too.

Damn Anna, all of the feels and dark humour. Take as long as you need to get through this. Hope you feel better soon.

Awesome vid Anna. I love your honesty & insight!!