Why Can't Addicts Stop Using? | How the Cycle of Addiction Works

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Taylor Dean Vlogs

Taylor Dean Vlogs

4 жыл бұрын

in this video i'll be discussing the cycle of addiction, why addicts/alcoholics start to use or drink in the first place, why they can't stop, even when they start to lose everything, and if they DO stop, why relapses most commonly happen. I'm basically taking u through the way an addict and/or alcoholic's brain works and responds to stress in life. BUT, this won't be the scientific way, using medical terminology or going into brain chemistry and the reward pathway, this will just be a simple flow chart to get comfortable!
** I'm using a model in this video that I first learned during doctor's lectures at La Hacienda Treatment Center in Hunt, Texas. I always liked the model, and was re-presented it at the LaHacienda intensive outpatient program in Austin, and again at an IOP that isn't associated with LaHacienda in San Antonio, Texas (name kept private for my own safety reasons).
This is NOT my own theory or concept, just one that helped me that I am resharing.
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In one part of this video, I do discuss the debate over what I meant when I once said "only 15% of people have addiction". Some people decided that I meant 85% of people can safely use heroin, which absolutely is NOT what I meant. I only went into detail about that in this video to clear things up. I genuinely think that is the least important part. While I do think it's an interesting fact that helps in proving that it IS a distinguishable illness; in the grand scheme of things, I don't care if you believe there's a difference between the two or you think it's all the same. Either way, you deserve help and you deserve a better life and you're valid. The only reason that I EVER have found it important to state the 15% statistic, is because people often try to say addiction is 100% a choice and doesn't stem from any illness whatsoever. I think the fact that doctors have found that there is genuinely a unique enough brain chemistry found in all addicts way before they ever even pick up drugs or alcohol, proving it is more than just a bad choice, is something amazing.
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I think we all can agree that using drugs is a bad choice, and no addict is trying to ever say it wasn't. But we all have vices to cope with our pain, and when we have an illness that pushes one way of coping, it can make it extremely hard to fight if we don't take care of our mental health associated with it. Similar in ways to those with eating disorders, who are aware that they would be hurting their body to start those behaviors again when they are doing well. but, when they are in the pit of their illness, they very often have trouble seeing just how unhealthy they really are.
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-Here's a very good video about how opiates work in the brain for ALL people. It's promoted by harvard and nat geo, and clearly states in the video that some people will have a different experience getting off of opiates due to having the genetics/brain chemistry that make them deal with addiction differently than others. This video still focuses on how highly addictive opiates are for ALL people who consume them, which is why they're so dangerous, but doesn't overlook the fact that there are people who will deal with that situation slightly differently due to having clinical addiction.
*How opiates work in the brain: • This Is What Happens t...
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Rather you believe all of this about how addiction works in the brain or not, I am only repeating it because it's what helped me get sober. But when I treat addiction like it's a mental illness like this, and treat the problems before my brain can start the obsessive cycle, I succeed in staying sober. When I stop getting help, stop opening up, and begin to just think everything's fine since I've put down the drugs... suddenly a few weeks later I'm struggling so hard to not pick up, even though I know it'll ruin my life. So regardless of if you don't accept all the science out there that proves it's an illness as valid, just know I'm not speaking solely from believing a doctor, I'm speaking from my own personal experience that I lived through and felt in my own body. My main goal in all of this is to help other addicts who are struggling to understand themselves and struggling to get help understand that there are ways to get better,
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Remember if you have a loved one battling addiction, that Al-Anon is there to help YOU with the emotional issues that puts onto you. It helps you learn your responsibility in it all, when to healthily distance yourself, how to find peace with your situation, and just how much you can really help your loved one while still staying sane yourself.
It's fully anonymous, and open for all ages all over the united states.

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@taylordeanvlogs7088
@taylordeanvlogs7088 4 жыл бұрын
decided to pin that there are two different debates about what causes this cycle of addiction. there's the debate that it's caused by the disordered thinking that comes with having this illness, and there's the debate that picking up drugs CREATES this pattern of thinking due to the way drugs stimulate the reward pathway. I personally have been taught that there are people who react to drugs differently than another group of people, and that some people will feel none of this cycle when trying drugs. I've been taught that someone may use drugs for pleasure over and over, and then become addicted, while people with this illness and disordered way of thinking can pick up once and feel immediately as if they absolutely need more and their life immediately starts to revolve around drugs. in my rehab, some of the doctors lectures even contained brain scans and studies that document the difference between an addict brain and a non-addict brain. Due to this being the knowledge that helped me discover sobriety, it's currently the way I go about repeating the information to others. when i have a doctor on, i plan to ask him all these questions personally. i want to do these occasional videos where i share what i learn in rehab and IOP, but i like to stick more to stories of my own recovery as much as possible since there's so many different studies out there going against one another about how addiction works. Regardless of if this pattern stems from illness or stems from the drugs, it's a very real cycle that people do experience, and is worth understanding if you know that you have a problem with drugs or alcohol yourself. This way, you can pay attention to where you believe you are mentally on this cycle, and try to avoid crossing the line over to where you lose control.
@ZombieMiezz
@ZombieMiezz 4 жыл бұрын
Keep it up Taylor! You go girl! "You have to chase sobriety like you chased addiction" - Jessica Kent
@nicole9107
@nicole9107 4 жыл бұрын
A good friend of mine just died, from heroin overdose, 2 nights ago. I just randomly found your video today, and I just wanted to let you know I really appreciate you posting this. I know you said you aren't 100% perfect at the whole addict thing (I am not either, but luckily, as of now, am a year sober) but this video really did help me process some things in my mind that I have not even been able to think about. Thank you! Love you and I love your videos and I really hope you are able to stay well! You deserve it!!!!! 💜
@petlives5034
@petlives5034 4 жыл бұрын
4:23, would those questions just have to be about drug and alcohol addiction or could they be about self harm addiction?
@HulklingsBoyfriend
@HulklingsBoyfriend 4 жыл бұрын
"there's the debate that it's caused by the disordered thinking that comes with having this illness," False. Enlarged receptors only allow for more deleterious effects, they do not cause the disordered thinking in themselves. Please provide [citations] from primary research articles.
@livbissanti2224
@livbissanti2224 4 жыл бұрын
I feel like you've misunderstood. A normal brain vs an addict brain is not "someone whos addicted but doesnt have the addiction 'illness' vs someone who has the addiction illness and is an addict" the brain of someone addicted to drugs will look the same in a scan as anyone else addicted to drugs. this whole "someone who has this cycle of thinking after one drink is an addict" argument is completely unfounded. Do you realize that?
@ElissnaH
@ElissnaH 4 жыл бұрын
I truly feel like this should be taught in depth like this in schools instead of the DARE program. Personally when I was taught the DARE program I was young and all I remember them telling me that drugs were bad and dont do them.
@laura987123
@laura987123 4 жыл бұрын
Same here. I remember being shown the absolute worst case scenarios of what addiction looks like and it was very mean spirited like "look at these mug shots of yucky meth addicts, that's going to be you if you so much as look at drugs of any kind". It was extremely dehumanizing and looking back I feel bad for the people who's photo's were shared, I don't imagine they consented and were real human beings who didn't deserve to be humiliated and shamed like that. I've met a lot of addicts who don't "look like" or "seem like" addicts and are/were so ashamed to ask for help because of the shame and stereotypes associated with addiction that are only perpetuated by the DARE program in schools. I really wish they'd understand that guilt and shame are the fuel to the fire that is addiction, let's teach kindness, compassion and understanding instead and teach some useful knowledge.
@jbee851
@jbee851 4 жыл бұрын
Same here, except my program was called CHAMPS
@adriennesosa1441
@adriennesosa1441 4 жыл бұрын
Unfortunately they don’t do dare anymore thanks to all the parents complaining , just like they don’t do scared straight programs by taking kids to prisons to scare them. Again why? Thanks to all the parents complaining. It’s a good idea and I agree being sober for almost 10 yrs in October but it won’t happen.Thank u complaining parents. (Being totally sarcastic)
@daif8562
@daif8562 4 жыл бұрын
The hate comments are seemingly out to trigger your relapse and downfall. Stay above it. The better you do, the harder they'll come. See it as a sign of your growth. Misery loves company. Congratulations on your success! Xxx
@annac9534
@annac9534 4 жыл бұрын
D F this comment is important
@henryhunt5846
@henryhunt5846 4 жыл бұрын
Just remember how great the drugs make you feel.
@xclusive5420
@xclusive5420 4 жыл бұрын
@@henryhunt5846 Your parents must be so proud of having bred something like you.
@henryhunt5846
@henryhunt5846 4 жыл бұрын
Anna jensen I’m sure her parent are proud of making some shooting up junkie too.
@taryn9850
@taryn9850 4 жыл бұрын
Theres a difference between hate comments, and asking someone to be accountable for their actions first before telling others how to recover, especially when they haven't even been in recovery for a year. The #1 rule in NA as a newcomer is to sit down & shut up, she needs it!
@christinaarandall
@christinaarandall 4 жыл бұрын
Awwww I’m so glad you’re doing this girlfriend ❤️🖤
@nemeseax7123
@nemeseax7123 4 жыл бұрын
Christina Randall you are such a great supportive person, Grandma ❤️
@naylasworld2351
@naylasworld2351 4 жыл бұрын
I am glad you are here supporting another great youtuber love you Grandma Christina♥️♥️
@xantana543
@xantana543 4 жыл бұрын
So supportive I love your videos ily grandma❤💛💚
@sherjens
@sherjens 4 жыл бұрын
Taylor and Christina???? My two favorites
@isabellabass5346
@isabellabass5346 4 жыл бұрын
Love you guys! You guys should collab
@TuberoseKisser
@TuberoseKisser 4 жыл бұрын
Nice to know that I'm not the only one who uses the magnet as an eraser when there wasn't one.
@bobbiegrind69
@bobbiegrind69 4 жыл бұрын
I’m not an addict, but I can’t stop watching this “series”
@blondieYorkie
@blondieYorkie 4 жыл бұрын
????
@kennie727
@kennie727 4 жыл бұрын
same, I find it more informative and a way to almost relate it to other mental illnesses... I’ve definitely gone and found help for my mental illnesses since Taylor’s come out and started talking about her experiences with addiction and hearing her actively going though everything it makes it feel like I’m not alone
@brisac8748
@brisac8748 4 жыл бұрын
@@blondieYorkie Same, it is important to know how it happens and how to avoid getting into it
@ThomasIsBored
@ThomasIsBored 4 жыл бұрын
Me too. I think more people need to understand that addiction is more than a choice
@aurelia5776
@aurelia5776 4 жыл бұрын
i myself am not an addict but my uncle was and he passed away from an overdose. learning more on this topic has given me an idea on how he felt even though i can’t feel it myself. when my grandma was looking through his stuff she found pictures of me and journals on how he felt. i wish i could’ve read them in order to feel connected to him even more but i couldn’t get it. now, i can’t stop watching or reading about addiction in order to know more information on this topic to help others even when i myself am not an addict.
@Aymehhh
@Aymehhh 4 жыл бұрын
I love how when she messed up on the stick figure instead of erasing it she turned it into a snow man. An adaptable queen.
@distortedname13
@distortedname13 4 жыл бұрын
I did outpatient Had to do weekly counseling I refused group meetings because most people were court ordered to go and weren’t trying to be sober and I didn’t want to put myself in that situation of having access because I could smell the heroin on their clothes and perspiration My counselor told me 1 out of 100 addicts will get sober and stay sober 1! Out of 100! That stuck in my mind to help me and I’ve been 14 years sober from all opiates as well as losing my fiancé at the time to addiction had put my life into being important and to actually live and get sober
@MissHairAndNails101
@MissHairAndNails101 4 жыл бұрын
Lmao the people saying “mouthwash can’t be a trigger” don’t know what they are talking about. I work on an inpatient psych unit and see addiction all the time. We can’t have hand sanitizer on the unit because people dealing with withdrawal/addiction would actually drink it
@MyGoldgirl
@MyGoldgirl 4 жыл бұрын
Yep i can confirm this. I work at an in/ outpatient program.
@sarahwoodward4453
@sarahwoodward4453 4 жыл бұрын
I’ve heard about people drinking PERFUME!
@MyGoldgirl
@MyGoldgirl 4 жыл бұрын
@@sarahwoodward4453 yep. Its so sad
@laura987123
@laura987123 4 жыл бұрын
@@sarahwoodward4453 When my bestie went to rehab they took anything and everything with alcohol from peoples luggage, perfume, aftershave, hand sanitizer, so I think it must be a thing if they're that concerned. If that doesn't prove addiction is a real mental illness I don't know what does.
@ashrpblond
@ashrpblond 4 жыл бұрын
yes mouthwash can be a trigger my friend works in mailibu i forget what its called but its way expensive
@isa9355
@isa9355 4 жыл бұрын
my crickets heard your crickets and- well, guess what happened
@sheebs3752
@sheebs3752 4 жыл бұрын
Isa _ your icon is freddie mercury... i love you and respect you ❤️🥺
@sunbox4700
@sunbox4700 4 жыл бұрын
I thought it was a child sound...but crickets make more sense!
@nicolecourtney8688
@nicolecourtney8688 4 жыл бұрын
Lol
@Claudia-gu3jf
@Claudia-gu3jf 4 жыл бұрын
I’m watching this right now and absorbing every bit of information like a sponge
@taylordeanvlogs7088
@taylordeanvlogs7088 4 жыл бұрын
Thank u for listening 🥺🥺❤️
@margarethe3677
@margarethe3677 4 жыл бұрын
My mom is a psychologist and she got her PhD specializing in addiction treatment, specifically for heroin use! You’re one of the only influencers she likes, and I agree. You know what you’re talking about, you don’t bullshit, it’s amazing!! So glad you’re putting truths out there, so many influencer “advocates” spread false information and it hurts my soul. I’m cheering for you xx
@majmalton9343
@majmalton9343 3 жыл бұрын
Octavia F. You and your mum are exceptional human beings. Much love to you both.
@leadanelle7449
@leadanelle7449 4 жыл бұрын
You’re such a good teacher. This is your purpose in life. To help others who are going through the same thing you went through/are going through. I’m so proud of you Taylor🖤
@taylordeanvlogs7088
@taylordeanvlogs7088 4 жыл бұрын
Lea Danelle thank you so much angel 🥺 this is my first video trying to come from an educational stance on all of this so this means so much to me ❤️
@themelissaeileen
@themelissaeileen 4 жыл бұрын
@@taylordeanvlogs7088 incredible video! Excellent work, TY! ❤️
@linkyloo1370
@linkyloo1370 4 жыл бұрын
Lea Danelle agree 100%
@lian7092
@lian7092 4 жыл бұрын
Taylor Dean Vlogs you're the teach everyone needs in their lifes , sensei no jutsu 👍🐢🐱🐝👏👍❤️💜😂💙💚❤️💝❣️💛💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
@beccab1006
@beccab1006 4 жыл бұрын
You know most of the things presented as 'fact' in this video are false right? This is not how addiction works.
@kaylamoore1551
@kaylamoore1551 4 жыл бұрын
your story is partly what inspired me to get clean, and now I’m 45 days sober. so please keep making & sharing these type of videos! they really do help people. Ignore the trolls, baby!
@taylordeanvlogs7088
@taylordeanvlogs7088 4 жыл бұрын
that makes me so happy, truly!! it means so much to me to hear that i've been able to help other people struggling by sharing my story, but my story being enough to inspire you to actually get sober??? that's absolutely amazing. don't ever ignore for a fact that even though my story helped inspire it, that it was you who had the strength to say "i've had enough" and get help, that takes absolutely amazing strength from within!! I hope life continues to look up for you, just keep taking it a day at a time and keep fighting for your life and I know it will. :') Thank you again for your support, it means so much.
@ryanm7249
@ryanm7249 4 жыл бұрын
Congratulations! This comment was 2 months ago, so how are you doing now? I hope you are still sober and getting some help. Praying for the best for you!
@majmalton9343
@majmalton9343 3 жыл бұрын
Hey Kayla, how are you? Much love to you
@moryartsy
@moryartsy 4 жыл бұрын
Crickets are like the trolls of the pet youtuber world. lol
@sjbowman1173
@sjbowman1173 4 жыл бұрын
I was actually diagnosed with OCD and an anxiety disorder. It's really interesting to see how much they have in common with addiction. You also do an amazing job talking about mental illness
@MiniBLK.
@MiniBLK. 4 жыл бұрын
Me during the intro: *trying to read along to Taylor speaking and realizes she’s not reading, then gets confused again at the freshly sober part then realizes again shes not reading from it* *is lost*
@jesznails
@jesznails 4 жыл бұрын
This really helped me understand my mom’s alcohol addiction. Thank you
@ryanm7249
@ryanm7249 4 жыл бұрын
So sorry to hear your mother has that issue. I pray and hope she can get help and reover well.
@moldyer7551
@moldyer7551 4 жыл бұрын
I am a recovering heroin addict of 7 years now, I also smoke weed that's all I do I don't drink now with that being said I would NEVER advise someone who's newly clean ever touch anything including weed, I didn't use anything for my first year about and that's not a guideline I'm just sharing this, I knew I was at a point where I could trust myself and had a support system to watch me very closely. However when I smoked after being freshly clean once it made me obsess to the point of having a panic attack, took a xanx trying to just aviod opiates, blacked out and came to using heroin on my couch. Do not push anything on anyone ever and anyone who has under a year clean is so fragile anything could push them over the edge just don't do it. Anyways I just thought to share this, proud of u taylor keep it up!
@heavydirtysoul4783
@heavydirtysoul4783 4 жыл бұрын
I think once you're and addict for one drug or alcohol and have used for a long time you end up becoming addicted to almost everything. I was addicted to heroin back a long time ago but anyway went through withdraws on a 3 day bus ride from Jersey to Texas. I ended up getting a job at a restaurant pretty quickly and started drinking. And I think with heroin when you stop using there is an emptiness inside you, but anyway I became a bartender and dealt with alcohol addiction for 12 years. I've been sober for 6 years now, I wish I could smoke weed without getting paranoid but it's always done that to me. It's funny she is talking about everything I am writing as I'm listening.
@abbiesclover1814
@abbiesclover1814 4 жыл бұрын
I was so worried because you didnt post for a while im happy you posted
@Sarah-ko3mx
@Sarah-ko3mx 4 жыл бұрын
Same I was worried too, I'm so glad she uploaded!!
@abbiesclover1814
@abbiesclover1814 4 жыл бұрын
Spooky Spooky I know right im glad she is staying sober
@abbiesclover1814
@abbiesclover1814 4 жыл бұрын
Earthling1984 i meant heroine
@abbiesclover1814
@abbiesclover1814 4 жыл бұрын
Earthling1984 if she gets back on that then she has to start all over she is doing better not the best but better which is good also were are your sources
@abbiesclover1814
@abbiesclover1814 4 жыл бұрын
Earthling1984 hmm I checked it....i dont see anything do you have a date?
@morganvalentine6692
@morganvalentine6692 4 жыл бұрын
Whoever is hating you and saying that you are bragging about being in a “special group” are insane. You went through so much, and finally got help. I don’t know how someone can say those things to someone, knowing or not knowing your story. You are so strong, we are so proud of you!
@angelsmokee
@angelsmokee 4 жыл бұрын
I know right? I even saw a video (accidentally) that said she is dangerous towards teens especially and commented on that sentence,they really love taking things out of context!
@booooo6387
@booooo6387 4 жыл бұрын
Exactly just think about it this way. They are basically jealous of you bc you were addicted to something and even though they are not clinically insane they clearly got issues so stick to being you girl
@sassyitalian3157
@sassyitalian3157 3 жыл бұрын
Yeah that’s totally ridiculous! I’m apart of a recovery group and it makes a huge difference and it really helps a lot! Anyone against it are just jealous or sick in their own mind!
@sharimagnetti3257
@sharimagnetti3257 2 жыл бұрын
I have had people say the same thing but I own it Yes I am special I chose to save myself!!
@eliexotic212
@eliexotic212 4 жыл бұрын
"i guess some cocktails have straws we idk we stan a fancy alcoholic" i- lmaooo
@Firenzell01
@Firenzell01 4 жыл бұрын
I'm really loving these addiction/recovery videos, you always seem so passionate about the subject and I enjoy you teaching me about a topic that I don't know much about ❤
@ryanm7249
@ryanm7249 4 жыл бұрын
I have learned lots as well in case I ever decide to go into counseling.
@marichavez9276
@marichavez9276 4 жыл бұрын
the vibe you're throwing out to try and help so many people with the illness of addiction is positive energy that will return to you, those people that really need to send out condescending hateful immature stuff about you...guess what energy will return to them... keep up the videos, i really gain alot from them thank you, bless you :)))))
@Yanicandraw
@Yanicandraw 4 жыл бұрын
Amén!
@marichavez9276
@marichavez9276 4 жыл бұрын
@@JohnDoe-mv2be okay whether thats right or wrong, that excuses people for being rude and negative towards her for atleast trying to help? that logic is the funniest ish i can witness from people who are bitter
@iloveyou29118
@iloveyou29118 4 жыл бұрын
@@JohnDoe-mv2be what has she said that is leading anyone astray????
@grayonthewater
@grayonthewater 4 жыл бұрын
“Shame doesn’t help” ooh girl that applies to sooo much in life 🙌
@peteypositive2783
@peteypositive2783 4 жыл бұрын
I would so much rather hear this information from someone who has experienced the cycle, like you, than from someone who hasn’t. Experience makes you a better teacher imo. Thank you for spreading the information about this.
@majmalton9343
@majmalton9343 3 жыл бұрын
Empathy far outweighs the sympathy in this instance. Empathetic people usually do make the best teachers in life
@kdaze10
@kdaze10 4 жыл бұрын
I've been "sober" (I've been in methadone treatment for 13 months) for 4 months....it took me awhile to stop using opiates completely even when on methadone. Anyways, the "hole" analogy makes so much sense. I have had that since I was in my teens...and the only thing that ever came close to "closing/filling" it was opiates...it's definitely been a huge struggle for me...and the thought of the future when I eventually will need to get off methadone, is terrifying...I just hope that by then I will have the tools I need to stay clean...
@courtneypitts526
@courtneypitts526 4 жыл бұрын
I was a heroung addict for almost 8 years and now I've been clean for nearly two, with the help of methadone maintenance. If you are living a healthy lifestyle, going to therapy(because lets face it, ALL addicts can use therapy and treating addiction without treating your mental health leads to failure) and just overall functioning without the old junky nad habits then you're clean in my book. I taper off of the methadone every week, one or two mgs at a time. Do it slowly and you'll get there. Right now I'm at an AMAZING clinic that offers free methadone, and they blind dose you. So, they dont tell you what mg you're at and taper you without letting you know. Genius right? Completely eliminates the whole mental part of tapering off of it. You can do it. I swear that if I was able to, then anyone can. I have faith that people can recover and make better changes.
@melissadolezal8811
@melissadolezal8811 4 жыл бұрын
Thank you for using your platform to educate people about addiction!! I wish more people would speak out about addiction to end the stigma! I have been clean since June 2nd and rehab saved my life!!
@katelynbyrnes1486
@katelynbyrnes1486 4 жыл бұрын
When I was deep in meth I never understood when I'd ask people if they could get on for me if they would say "Oh nah I don't do it anymore", I'd always think 'I didn't ask you to do it, I asked you to get it'. But now that I've stopped I understand it so deeply... You can't get it, because seeing someone else doing it makes you think "I can do it just this time", but you can't. I can't start because I won't stop.
@sweetpotato822
@sweetpotato822 4 жыл бұрын
i think everyone has a hole and everyone deals w it differently to make it feel better like shopping or excersizing but some people get other things like drugs and alcohol to numb it which is why i think people hating on addicts is so dumb bc everyone numbs the pain or ignores it one way or another so why would you hate on someone who does it another way than yours?
@blondieYorkie
@blondieYorkie 4 жыл бұрын
We all do something in excess. It's hard to do everything in moderation. We want to feel good. We don't want to feel pain or sadness. It's hard to live 100% perfectly.
@jeanettedeaver3894
@jeanettedeaver3894 4 жыл бұрын
Her point was that for some of us, it’s an allergy
@tricia3710
@tricia3710 4 жыл бұрын
I think too some people might have a small hole whereas addicts have a bigger hold
@vanessavandinha
@vanessavandinha 4 жыл бұрын
It's absolutely baffling to me that people who claim they're "worried" about addiction and recovering addicts come at one of these recovering addicts with such "sweet" words of criticism and "collaborate" so much for their mental health...
@Ericacruz422
@Ericacruz422 4 жыл бұрын
You’re making it easier for me to understand my husband. He just relapsed again and it absolutely broke me. I don’t know what my role is in this, how to help him as his wife. It’s obviously not my job to fix it. But I want to be supportive and not part of the problem pushing him towards relapse. But hearing a lot of this helped me understand it’s not always a choice.
@sassyitalian3157
@sassyitalian3157 3 жыл бұрын
At least you are sober ! Stay sober too that will help! I lost my relationship because we both were addicts and we were co dependent! Just be there for him but do not enable!
@Ericacruz422
@Ericacruz422 3 жыл бұрын
@@sassyitalian3157 I ended up leaving him. I caught him smoking fentanyl in the room with our door locked when he was supposed to be watching our kids while I worked. I was the only one working and he couldn’t even look after our kids.
@sophiecockrell4767
@sophiecockrell4767 4 жыл бұрын
Thank u for posting this it’s helped me understand my addiction in the past. I’m 9 months clean from iv heroin. And this video made me realize I still need to get help and support through this. I thought I could do sobriety on my own but I still have my big black hole. Btw you’re doing great! So happy for you that you’re sober. 🖤🖤💜🤘🏻
@taylordeanvlogs7088
@taylordeanvlogs7088 4 жыл бұрын
that makes me so happy to know that you're open to seeking some extra help! my therapist told me that she knows of people who made it sober for even a year before relapsing that didn't receive any help. Basically they were successful until something pushed their "black hole" over the edge and they immediately picked up where they left off a year ago. So that's why it's important to try to get help even if we feel like we're doing ok on our own. It doesn't have to be anything major, just some therapy or even simply going to meetings or something to help you talk about your personal "black hole" and help it get smaller. Regardless, 9 months is absolutely amazing and I hope life continues to look up for you!
@sophiecockrell4767
@sophiecockrell4767 4 жыл бұрын
Taylor Dean Vlogs 💜😊😊
@kaitlynpalmer
@kaitlynpalmer 4 жыл бұрын
i just made it 6 years and just relapsed. i definitely think the fact that i didn’t get help and just used subs for a month with zero therapy or groups ended up being my downfall. i didn’t learn any coping skills, and i was still allowing myself to drink/ do other things because “it wasn’t my DOC” i’m now in an IOP for my regular mental health, and a special program for my substance abuse, along with suboxone therapy. i feel much stronger than i ever have and i’m ready to kick this. having a stable support system is key, even if you don’t think it is. it took me 6 years to understand that. i’m so proud of you both!
@baemto
@baemto 4 жыл бұрын
Girlll the fact that people are upset about you saying that certain people can do a drug and not become addicted while others do it and will become addicted is wild!! It's a literal fact!! Like when people are prescribed opioids -- for some people, taking it makes them feel sick and they hate it; for some, it doesn't do anything other than treat their pain; and for others, it makes them feel really good, and they crave that euphoria and continue to seek out the drug so they can feel that high again. Drugs literally affect different people differently. People really be out here getting angry at you for sharing facts?? Screw that lmao. Please continue spreading your knowledge! It's so valuable!!
@clarallandrs7799
@clarallandrs7799 4 жыл бұрын
Girl you’re going from strength to strength. You got this! (The girl who left her addict fiancée and is living a happier life now cause of the strength and hope you gave me) xxxx
@irismilagros8349
@irismilagros8349 4 жыл бұрын
for the people that still dont understand: Anyone can become addicted to a substance yes, but not everyone is born with the mental illness of addiction
@AnnaPlaysViolin
@AnnaPlaysViolin 4 жыл бұрын
Uhhh no that's not how it works
@ambervirtue9323
@ambervirtue9323 4 жыл бұрын
@@AnnaPlaysViolin how so?
@majmalton9343
@majmalton9343 3 жыл бұрын
Isn't that a contradiction? The whole point of someone being addicted to a substance means they have an addictive personality which is a mental thing that someone is born with?
@irismilagros8349
@irismilagros8349 3 жыл бұрын
Anyone can develope a drug dependence simply for misusing even a prescribed drug, example my father a veteran was put on a pill for anxiety and PTSD, they discontinued that pill a few months after he began taking them, he has to stop taking them cold turkey which caused his whole body to react and he began to have withdraws, chills, fever, vomiting, dizzynes etc. He has never been a drug addict, he does not look for drugs or feel the want to try them or feel the attraction for it, he takes them because he medically needs them and still he had developed a dependence. That being said, if you do some more digging and read, when I say not everyone is born with this mental illness that is addiction I mean that for example fetal alcohol syndrome, or neonatal abstinence syndrome, these are addictions a baby is born with and are then at higher risk of when they are older having a drug addiction if they ever try any substance, there have been studies that show that there are predisposed hereditary genes that can make a person more likely to be a addict then others, yes both are something caused by chemical changes to the brain, but some people are mentally already born with the nature of becoming dependent of a substance while others are not but develope it WITH use of drugs whether that be prescribed or just "for fun".
@amysmith7998
@amysmith7998 3 жыл бұрын
I would correct the original statement to say that anyone can become physically dependent on a drug or substance but not everyone will become addicted. Addiction is a process, it has a cycle and there's massive mental aspect to it. Dependence is mostly physical. When you begin using drugs/substances to numb/cope/hide/deal with pain and trauma that is when you step into addiction territory. Using percocet to manage a broken leg isnt an addiction, etc.
@catlathram1143
@catlathram1143 4 жыл бұрын
I’m so happy you’re opening up about this, I’ve followed you for a while and I’m going through the same thing Edit: yeah mouthwash can definitely be a trigger- I ended up chugging mouthwash because of that
@GetNumbbb
@GetNumbbb 4 жыл бұрын
cat lathram stay strong, friend. you can do it, I believe in you! 💕
@ryanm7249
@ryanm7249 4 жыл бұрын
I pray you remain strong and that you have a full recovery!
@booooo6387
@booooo6387 4 жыл бұрын
It definitely can be. I don’t struggle with addiction but I do want to know lots about it. I am a very curious person and I want to be a surgeon. And I know that has nothing to do with anything I knowing how the human brain works is actually really helpful that is why you can’t have mouthwash or hand sanitizer or things like that when in early stages of recovery. Let me know if this is true. I read somewhere that addicts can’t use bubbles bc they will try to drink it
@onyaaaaah
@onyaaaaah 4 жыл бұрын
I would go to Maine with my parents some weekends and that would be my “dry time” but then I would obsess and look for drugs there. Couldn’t find any and would get high as soon I came home. I did this soooo many times, the cycle is so real.
@isabellaalvares3159
@isabellaalvares3159 4 жыл бұрын
I love how this is explained in a way for anyone to understand. I hope people won’t try to put u down by saying its not accurate information or that u are not the right person to be explaining that. Thank u so much for the engaging video as always ♥️
@booooo6387
@booooo6387 4 жыл бұрын
If anything she is the perfect person do share this info bc it was professionally taught to her AND she had her own experience
@Sirlie08
@Sirlie08 4 жыл бұрын
Am I the only one that is really proud of her? 😭
@ryanm7249
@ryanm7249 4 жыл бұрын
I am so proud of her and how far she has come! I listened to her previous video about recovering and how she goes toIOP and it sounds like she is getting a great amount of help! It takes courage and will power to do that.
@booooo6387
@booooo6387 4 жыл бұрын
Definitely not
@kelseyjohnson4609
@kelseyjohnson4609 4 жыл бұрын
I am soo proud of her
@kpwxx
@kpwxx 4 жыл бұрын
The last time I wore a strapless bra it was so awful that it finally pushed me to try bralets and they are now all I wear. I'm now all like, F bras. They're hassle.
@sarahmyers60
@sarahmyers60 4 жыл бұрын
Strapless bras are the devil
@vermillion36
@vermillion36 4 жыл бұрын
But bralets also aren't strapless?
@camilab1121
@camilab1121 4 жыл бұрын
Kim Wheeler S A M E
@Boutys_mom
@Boutys_mom 4 жыл бұрын
What is a bralet? I Googled it but it looks like a ....bra.
@kpwxx
@kpwxx 4 жыл бұрын
@@Boutys_mom well it sort of is. I guess it's a name for a type of bra really. I'd say the definition is that is has a straight elastic band at the bottom, going all the way round & no wire. As opposed to other bras which usually just have the elastic at the back and then are shaped at the front, with cups, often padded, and usually with wires. Bralets are similar to a sports bra but they squash your boobs in less. They are sooo much more comfy than the underwired t-shirt, push up or strapless bras that I used to wear!
@maxhydekyle2425
@maxhydekyle2425 4 жыл бұрын
My sister talked about Dr. Boone a lot after she went to La Ha, really looking forward to him being on your channel if y'all can work it out.
@taylordeanvlogs7088
@taylordeanvlogs7088 4 жыл бұрын
he seemed to have so much wisdom! I'm excited to get this planned out :)
@aliputnam203
@aliputnam203 4 жыл бұрын
Wow this is such a great explanation. I'm a therapist and am sober myself. This is a really great perspective and so brave of you to share.
@delaneyeve9306
@delaneyeve9306 4 жыл бұрын
Addiction has caused so much hurt in my family and I’ve been exposed to the reality of addicts at a young age. I’m not sure when but I became really interested in the functions of addiction so it helps me emphasize with those in my family that have gone through it, this helps a bunch thank you sm!!
@insaneclownpossum4495
@insaneclownpossum4495 4 жыл бұрын
Taylor, thank you for videos like this. My brother’s an addict and has been most of my life. He’s been in and out of rehab 4 times and i’ve found him overdosing 3 times. It’s probably the most traumatizing thing i’ve ever seen. We’re still working on our relationship and he’s learning how he needs to apologize and take responsibility for what he put us through. It’s been hard to try and understand and take a step back to realize he never did that on purpose. These videos really help understand his brain more and why he does the things he does. It doesn’t excuse any of the manipulation of trauma he put us through but it is at least a bit easier to handle when i can understand his brain a little more. Love you and keep up the great videos 💖❤️
@taylordeanvlogs7088
@taylordeanvlogs7088 4 жыл бұрын
I'm glad that while this can help you in a way begin to understand some of how his brain works, that you still know it doesn't excuse the trauma, because it absolutely doesn't. Once an addict gets better, if they decide to work the steps, one of the 12 steps is making amends to all those you've hurt and wronged during your addiction. It's crucial for an addict to face their wrongs and make them right, or at least acknowledge and apologize for the pain they've caused. You deserve healing, and I hope you can find support systems that can help you discover some peace with that situation. I hope the best for you and your family, thank you for leaving a nice comment and being open to understanding such a sensitive topic in your life!
@LauraaC
@LauraaC 4 жыл бұрын
Not sure if you’ll ever read this BUT I want to come out here and say THANK YOU for using your platform to educate and spread awareness. Even if people/professionals debate addiction and its causes, you are doing the right thing by removing the taboo from this topic. Keep doing you and know that so many people appreciate you and what you are doing. I have been affected by addiction and I can personally say I am so thankful for what you do and am continually impressed by your relentlessness and passion to educate others. Sending love always!
@sophiegraceoliviasalter2633
@sophiegraceoliviasalter2633 4 жыл бұрын
I never comment on videos but this “series” is amazing, it’s so eye opening and I don’t understand how people can hate on someone who’s only trying to get better and is using their personal experience to help others, which is also extremely brave !!!
@christophersbass
@christophersbass 4 жыл бұрын
So happy that you’re over 5 months strong with fighting your addiction♥️♥️♥️ I’m always sending my love and thinking about you‼️‼️
@chelseyfaye8778
@chelseyfaye8778 4 жыл бұрын
Thank you for talking on this❤ Im currently 4 years clean off of morphine and other opiates❤ im so proud of you and your recovery!
@heavydirtysoul4783
@heavydirtysoul4783 4 жыл бұрын
How did they finally get you off all the opiate pain meds? Did they just ween you off, or did they replace it with other medications?
@kalievesely3200
@kalievesely3200 4 жыл бұрын
this helped me understand SO MUCH about what i'm going through. thank you so much Taylor. you are so genuine and kind. also you apologize so much and that makes me know you're not trying to offend anyone.. I love your honesty.
@RP_76
@RP_76 4 жыл бұрын
That is sick that there are people who are saying stuff like that about you. Some people have no idea what addiction TRULY is😩 Love you and proud of you as always 🥳😘
@Kaileestewart123
@Kaileestewart123 4 жыл бұрын
I’ve been watching KZfaq since before I’ve dealt with addiction, but this is the first time I’ve been so excited and happy about watching a channel. I have been somewhat emotionally involved in channels but this is something I relate to so much that i feel like will change my life.
@angelab4105
@angelab4105 4 жыл бұрын
I’m really proud of you for being on this journey and for putting this out there. I wish you never had to go through any of this but it’s amazing and wonderful that you’re turning this into such a positive for everyone, yourself included. I’m here with you on this journey, you are not alone ❤️
@Takertantrum2000
@Takertantrum2000 4 жыл бұрын
the queen uploaded, I have no choice but to stan
@siennaburge2273
@siennaburge2273 4 жыл бұрын
Love the light you've brought on the subject of addiction. It's so important that people learn
@omglol4451
@omglol4451 4 жыл бұрын
i adore you please keep your head above water and ignore those idiots. you’re ALLOWED to avoid those negative websites. i know how frustrating it is seeing thousands of people twist your words, but honestly it’s not worth justifying yourself to people who won’t listen. your true followers will always be here for you- you don’t owe anything to anyone! keep up the good work love
@ebonyyy
@ebonyyy 4 жыл бұрын
Ah! I’ve been waiting on these kinds of videos. I’ve been so interested and i’m super glad you’re opening up !!❤️
@samichmachine
@samichmachine 4 жыл бұрын
thank you for trusting us with your views and experiences on such a sensitive and personal topic. we love you so much, support you so much, and are so excited to see you grow and fllourish. You're a titan, babe.
@phoeberose4729
@phoeberose4729 4 жыл бұрын
the amount of education i’m getting from this video is crazy. thank you for educating me on a topic i knew very little about. and i’m so glad you’re doing better
@annabrand743
@annabrand743 4 жыл бұрын
I'm so proud of you Taylor! I've experienced minor addiction problems, but seeing your progress is so awesome! Already you seem so much better and happier!
@Jennytrocki
@Jennytrocki 4 жыл бұрын
I’m so glad you made this. I used it as a way to explain addiction to my boyfriend and when though I’m sober i want it
@DavisLensch
@DavisLensch 4 жыл бұрын
My mom was one of the first people to ever study suboxone
@booooo6387
@booooo6387 4 жыл бұрын
Wow that is really cool
@paulinevanchhawng9185
@paulinevanchhawng9185 3 жыл бұрын
That's amazing!
@chloenicole6110
@chloenicole6110 4 жыл бұрын
I can’t even put into words just how proud I am of you!! By using your voice and being so open about your experience with addiction you are helping so many people!! Keep on the path of sobriety ✌🏻🤍 you’re amazing💙
@mckensieross842
@mckensieross842 4 жыл бұрын
Please please don't stop making these videos, you have been so encouraging and inspiring, I'm recovering myself and it feels so good to see someone making content on these matters. Your amazing girl ❤
@ilovechristmasok
@ilovechristmasok 4 жыл бұрын
You are a natural born educator. I believe greatness comes out of the darkest times in ones life and I believe you had to go through this to help so many others.
@ashleyburns95
@ashleyburns95 4 жыл бұрын
Keep doing these videos! I love them, congrats on your sober time. I just celebrated 1 year of sobriety the other day. It's so awesome to see more and more people on KZfaq talking about addiction ❤❤ love you lots and so proud of you!
@taylordeanvlogs7088
@taylordeanvlogs7088 4 жыл бұрын
one year is so amazing! thank you so much, keep taking it one day at a time. I'm so happy when I hear success stories, you all inspire me so much :')
@gm-yb1qp
@gm-yb1qp 4 жыл бұрын
The whole part about crossing over from the help side of the line to the no control made perfect sense! I’ve never heard someone explain or put it into words so well and you got it perfectly ❤️
@katmoon8080
@katmoon8080 4 жыл бұрын
Thank you Taylor!! I love how you put everything. I’ll be showing this to my husband for him to better understand how things really work and go down. This can be for many addictions and that’s one of the things I love about this video. I was addicted to meth and cutting for 6 years and no one understood why I kept relapsing. Thank you so much for this 🖤
@savannahshults4098
@savannahshults4098 4 жыл бұрын
The “yuck” is considered “Spiritual Malady”
@taylordeanvlogs7088
@taylordeanvlogs7088 4 жыл бұрын
yes! I thought that term might confuse people that don't go to AA, so I just didn't touch on it to begin with and then completely forgot to ever mention it.
@booooo6387
@booooo6387 4 жыл бұрын
Taylor Dean Vlogs you is so smart. Don’t let anyone else tell you otherwise
@Jette...
@Jette... 4 жыл бұрын
I genuinely learn so much from these videos and you seem so passionate about it. I'm really proud of you
@noelle9082
@noelle9082 4 жыл бұрын
My best friend had a huge opiate/heroin problem that started from coke sort of similar to you and this video truly made me understand so many aspects of his addiction that i never understood. He overdosed and died about 2 years ago, and i couldnt help but feel guilty about not helping him more, but videos like this are so eye opening and comforting. thank you so much! keep it up, you are so strong beautiful and loved.
@lizziekarma
@lizziekarma 4 жыл бұрын
the depression comparison really helped me to better understand, thank you
@AshleyG1fire
@AshleyG1fire 4 жыл бұрын
this is an amazing video Taylor. really insightful. people are always gonna try and twist your words just keep going 🖤
@InTheNameOfLife1
@InTheNameOfLife1 4 жыл бұрын
You are a wonderful person and I am grateful for your willingness to share this side of yourself. I can't speak for others, but you talking about this is helping me with my own alcohol abuse. No, I can't recover because of a youtuber, but your openness and others' coming forward like this help those of us that have been stuck in this lonely spiral. At least for me. This is amazing information. I have been teetering on the edge of a very dangerous place for a while now. Please never ever ever let anyone tell you that you are less than amazing. Those people are so beyond ignorant to the truth of addiction, and they are very lucky for that.
@cindybriggs2725
@cindybriggs2725 4 жыл бұрын
Im really new congrats on 5 months im also in recovery been clean since 2004 your doing a great job keep the videos coming u are helping so many people
@martehustvedt5046
@martehustvedt5046 4 жыл бұрын
Im not addicted to drugs or alcohol nor have I ever been, but i have and still are addicted to self injury, its not the same way as drug use probably but i can relate to a lot in this video. And yes self injury is an actual addiction. And i guess using drugs is self injury but ya get meee
@brandiwohl279
@brandiwohl279 4 жыл бұрын
I completely agree. I've been a self injurer since i was 12 and i am now 29. Its something I've used to numb myself that I've felt shame from that compleatly derailed parts of my life because i felt like without self injury at least twice a day i could not function or continue to live period. I hid it. I felt like my self injury alienated me from family and peers. I've been in and out of therapies and hospitals and out patient clinics and have tried so many anti psychotic meds and depression meds and mood stabilizers and anxiety drugs that I've lost track of what o have tried or which combos ive tried to control this monster. I am currently at 2 months self injury free and i a currently use other addictions to distract from my self injury. The shame and disappointed faces of family and my husband and friends when i am actively self injuring is utterly heart breaking and after all these years just once I'd like to say i made it a whole year without it. I am so mad at myself and so guilty feeling and down and just bad when ive relapsed. Self injury addiction is scary.
@ponsipi8492
@ponsipi8492 4 жыл бұрын
I do that too, I’m so proud to be a few months clean of it but god it’s so hard sometimes
@BexMcInulty
@BexMcInulty 4 жыл бұрын
This is completely true. The only 'drug' I'm addicted to is nicotine and I only smoke like 3 cigarettes a day (that's addiction still tho). Alcohol, Weed, harder Drugs I don't care for at all. But I have a VERY addictive personality when it comes to food and being in love. I used to self harm aswell for almost a decade but for some reason I grew out of that. I relapsed not even a handful of times in the past 5 years but I see myself as clean. It's a legit addiction. It fills up a void - or takes away your feelings and pressure because it redirects your focus.
@booooo6387
@booooo6387 4 жыл бұрын
I completely understand you. I am 2 months clean from self harm and I stand with you.
@booooo6387
@booooo6387 4 жыл бұрын
Brandi Wohl please don’t put all the blame on yourself it is extremely hard I have though about self harm at least twice today and I just try to keep going. Something that really helps me is reading or listening to other people’s hardships with addiction or self harm and how they got through it. All you can do is try and try again this is the longest I have been clean in two years so trust me the fact that you are even able to make it almost a year without self harm is outstanding.
@ensaladadecol
@ensaladadecol 4 жыл бұрын
I'm so grateful for what you are doing! 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟 Thank you for sharing your experience, strength and hope! ❤️
@olawlasiuk242
@olawlasiuk242 4 жыл бұрын
I watched you for years. I'm so happy to see you smiling, laughing again. You look like you fell in love with life again and I'm proud. I'm personally not an addict but I love learning about addiction. Please don't ever quit trying to raise awareness about mental issues and addiction! I'm sending you soooo much hugs and love as it can be imaginable!
@briannaschmidt1635
@briannaschmidt1635 4 жыл бұрын
Hey taylor I came across a video of yours on vice and wanted to say I know exactly what you went thru with addiction and how proud you should be of yourself to be clean and I know your strong enough to stay away for good! Long story short I was clean for almost 2 yrs and due to a horrible break up I ended up relapsing and struggled getting clean again. I am back on methadone and getting clean again and one day soon I'll be able to completely enjoy my life with heroin again. I just want to say thanks for making these videos and talking about this subject and letting people know that it's not an easy thing to get thru. Thank you taylor :) stay strong girl!! Btw I love all your pets!!!
@jessycafriesell7962
@jessycafriesell7962 4 жыл бұрын
You are very blessed Taylor. I’ve been wanting to do a channel like this to explain addiction and talks about my experience but I didn’t have any sort of a following or anything( I know that takes time and hard work that I just don’t have time for) but with your awesome animal channel you were able to transition into this channel and share some amazing things. Maybe this is why you had to go thru heroin addiction, so you are able to teach others about addiction. I used heroin for 5 years and now I work at a rehab and I am going to school to be a counselor(of course because everyone who gets cleans does haha) I just think what you are doing is very cool. Once I understood the pharmacology and physiology behind addiction and how my brain reacts made sooooo much more sense to me. I like how you explained all of this is simple terms. You did great!
@courtneypitts526
@courtneypitts526 4 жыл бұрын
You're so right. She did so well at explaining all of this so simply. I too am a recovering addict, I used for nearly 8 years and I'm celebrating 2 yrs clean in February. And you're SO freaking right about recovering then wanting to become a councelor haha I want to help other addicts as well. Taylor is extremely blessed and is using her platform for so much good.
@jessycafriesell7962
@jessycafriesell7962 4 жыл бұрын
Courtney Pitts congrats on your clean time! That’s amazing! Haha yeah I love working at a rehab not being a counselor and seeing everything that being a counselor entails is aaaalooooot so I’m going thru the motions of school but still deciding if I want to work in a rehab or not.
@carolineduff2123
@carolineduff2123 4 жыл бұрын
A close family member of mine struggles with alcohol addiction. I really value your inside knowledge of the subject from an addicts brain. It would be amazing if you could talk about how to help an addict that doesn't want help 🙈
@mattdavis1149
@mattdavis1149 4 жыл бұрын
Taylor it makes me sick that people choose to attack you when you are trying to help others while helping yourself. I have experience with addiction counseling and understand that helping others gives you a sense of purpose. That is why I do it. The major lesson that I learned is that you can't save everyone. I say this because of your haters. Before I accepted that I wasn't personally responsible for other's failures, I was able to help more people. Also people should understand that interventions or treatments are like diets, you have to find the one that works best for you. Love you. Keep your head up
@jacquelinebenson__
@jacquelinebenson__ 4 жыл бұрын
I love that you are making vids like this and speaking out. This is SO similar to my experience with bulimia and anorexia. I've always thought of EDs as similar to addiction and hearing this just made that feel so much more real. Love you the most
@ashleydiane5328
@ashleydiane5328 4 жыл бұрын
It bothers me that your beanie piercing isn’t centered😭😭
@michimelody4036
@michimelody4036 4 жыл бұрын
Or that it makes her look like she had a unibrow. I didn't realize it was part of her damn hat until half way through the video. 🤦 I'm very happy it's on her hat lol.
@themachfivepets997
@themachfivepets997 4 жыл бұрын
Oh lawd... LOL
@themachfivepets997
@themachfivepets997 4 жыл бұрын
I was confused for too long. I heard her say beanie piercing.. But I still thought it was on her actual face. Didn't know HOW it went on there. LOL. What a silly hat!
@booooo6387
@booooo6387 4 жыл бұрын
I don’t really think it is supposed to be bc whenever she wears that beanie it isnt
@booooo6387
@booooo6387 4 жыл бұрын
Plus I like it like that
@lyndseyceline1684
@lyndseyceline1684 4 жыл бұрын
Lighting wasn’t that bad 😂🙈 I remember when your lighting was just a fish light behind your camera 😂😂
@themachfivepets997
@themachfivepets997 4 жыл бұрын
Lighting was totally fine! I thought it was gonna be way worse! LOL
@mandywaller4802
@mandywaller4802 4 жыл бұрын
As a sister to 2 brothers who battle/battled addiction (we lost our baby brother to an overdose 5yrs ago) I Absolutely love what you are doing. Thank you for sharing your journey as well as your info/advice. Sending Lots of Love & Positivity your way sweetie. Your doing AMAZING things. ❤
@emmaphipps8037
@emmaphipps8037 4 жыл бұрын
this is a super interesting video, thank you for making it! i'm glad you're taking care of yourself and being patient with yourself through your recovery - i wish and hope everyone will be kind to you as you grow and move on from this part of your life!
@brandyyybabyyy436
@brandyyybabyyy436 4 жыл бұрын
I’m also a heroin addict. Please keep making these videos.
@jenninaughton2670
@jenninaughton2670 4 жыл бұрын
Straight up didn't even know there were crickets in the background of your video until I read the comments because the ones I use for feeding in my room are SO LOUD
@elijah7430
@elijah7430 4 жыл бұрын
I have severe OCD and that was a really real reference for me and I got really emotional. It wasn't until now I actually realized why an addict can't put down. I thought I understood but this made me understand as much as I possibly can.. I am so impressed and proud of you for getting clean
@isabellerodriguez8199
@isabellerodriguez8199 4 жыл бұрын
great vid taylor. proud of u every single day, not only bc of ur sobriety but bc ur choosing to speak up and give others hope that sobriety is possible
@alicesewnsew2413
@alicesewnsew2413 4 жыл бұрын
Is one of those comments ‘wannabe junkie’? Wtf does that even mean. Anyway, you’re not any of those things, you’re a good egg that’s had a hard hard time. And I’ve been there but I’m also a good egg 🥚 great video, stay safe and stay sober ❤️❤️❤️🥚🥚🥚
@alexandramorris6344
@alexandramorris6344 4 жыл бұрын
Taylor Dean the Science Queen
@ashleyc7287
@ashleyc7287 4 жыл бұрын
Move over Bill Nye!!
@falynnshaw8583
@falynnshaw8583 4 жыл бұрын
I love how KZfaq works...I'm glad i found you. I'm glad you started this vlog. You have a beautiful soul and you are making an important impact on other people's lives.
@mikeenz2436
@mikeenz2436 4 жыл бұрын
I just want you to know, just by watching this video (I watched one of your prior videos and subscribed), and that was a very effective way of describing the process of addiction, and I think you are terrific! I went through this with alcohol, and felt all of this.....now 5+ years totally sober! You are doing great things Taylor.
@amandahall1914
@amandahall1914 4 жыл бұрын
I heard a description of how a craving feels. It was take a box of laxatives and try to not go to the bathroom for two days.
@kassandragibson1507
@kassandragibson1507 4 жыл бұрын
You seem like you’d be an amazing sponsor to someone one day. ❤️
@xydgxoli
@xydgxoli 4 жыл бұрын
Taylor I can’t even begin to explain how much you’ve helped. White knuckling has been the hardest shit I’ve done and you being open about your addiction and educating people (myself included) has helped in ways you can’t even imagine. Thank you.
@jayvance1314
@jayvance1314 3 жыл бұрын
I've been around recover for about 8 years now and you are very educated for being fairly new to recovery! Keep it up!
@willturnbull463
@willturnbull463 4 жыл бұрын
"we stan a fancy alcoholic" omg Taylor!!😂😂😂
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