This is crap.

Does she have bpd? These lyrics hit home

Perfect

I love that so much success followed her after this

"THE GRUESOME BEAUTY OF YOUR FACE IN EVERYONE I MEET" that's it I'm done. i love julien so much.

i love this woman. raw emotion in every song. brutally honest and insightful lyrics that dropkick the heart

Julien you have some power. This wrecked me

this is one of her best songs, hands down. i love the style she has with it

I was looking for something else, and three years later, this came back into my life. The universe gives you exactly what you need when you need it.

Its the mercy i cant take.

Theres so glory in love, drag me away in the dark.

hardest thing i have ever tried to learn on guitar lmaooo im stuck at 1:50

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Purple 💜 4 uuu

Live and heavy is the best way to hear this

More sick guitar licks thats what we all need more of!!!!!!!❤

Pure talent for the ages

This song is the reason I'm still trying

Love love love this video. How appropriate for the times we live in, the relentlessness of human nature and slow crawl of evolution. What a beautiful and equally devastating time to be alive. "Faith healer come put your hands on me, snake oil dealer I'll believe you if you make me feel something."

Julien Baker's music is some of the most honest and beautiful songwriting I've ever heard.

Brilliant. I can't stop listening to this song. An all-time favorite.

Incredible lyrics! They are so relatable

I'm a 36 year old straight man and I have a crush on Julien. I wish I could be the woman of her dreams. 😆

The live versions of her songs hit so good

Ok this was fire

She Is so fucking good.

Wow ... After seeing the Grammys I have been listening to all three of you .. what an amazing talent level you all have. Just beautiful music. I'm blessed to have found it.

This song makes me cry against my will

Man, the drums in this song are soo good!

Limping like a prodigal son Someone got my head in the slums And everything I do makes it worse Human nature, call it a curse Tired of collecting the scars And stories at the parties and bars Trying to find a reason to fight But someone's got my head in a ziptie Oh, good God When're You gonna call it off Climb down off of the cross And change Your mind? Catch me on the enemy line Hocking all the gold in my teeth Oh, I was disappointed to find out How much everybody looks like me Oh, good God When're You gonna call it off Climb down off of the cross And change Your mind? Good God When're You gonna call it off Climb down off of the cross And change Your mind?

Passed out in the back of a cab Could you pull over? I think that I'm trapped Caught underwater, I beat on the glass Gnawing my arm at the shoulder Would you help me get out? Ooh, it's a highlight reel Tell me how you feel, hmm Pulling down a projector Scratched in the back of my eyes Hovering over Tangled in the power lines Ooh, it's a highlight reel Tell me how to feel Tell me what snuffed out the wick in your eye Pumping your chest to make sure you're alive When it dies, you can tell me how much was a lie I guess that's for me to decide When it dies, you can tell me how much was a lie Well, I guess, well, I guess, well, I guess that's for me to decide

Ocean of strip malls I help you swim across To the other side Of the truck stop light When the drugs wear off Will the love kick in Would you stay out long enough Start again? On and on and on I chase your form across the bed Leave it up to me Until you come to turn it in Say I miss you like a mantra 'Til I forget what it means Doesn't matter what you tell me I just need to hear you speak All my greatest fears turn out to be The gift of prophecy All my nightmares coming true Come do my outline in the street While every night I re-enact the same recurring dream Now I'm stuck inside a vision that repeats Repeats, repeats, repeats, repeats, repeats Repeats, repeats, repeats, repeats, repeats Repeats, repeats

I wish that I drank because of you And not only because of me Then I could blame something painful enough Not to make me look any more weak When you heard my name You could be angry and have a good reason to be Then when I say a horrible drunken parade of my worst thoughts I'd say "Give me no sympathy" It's the mercy I can't take I wish you'd come over Not to stay, just tell me that I was your biggest mistake to my face And then leave me alone in an empty apartment Face down in the carpet I wish you'd hurt me It's the mercy I can't take

Beat myself until I'm bloody And I'll give you a ringside seat You say that it's embarrassing I'm sorry that you had to see me like that So you could either watch me drown Or try to save me while I drag you down Want to fix it but I don't know how It isn't fair to make you wait around While all your friends are going out So Jesus, can you help me now Trade me in, oh, for a briar crown Is there anybody coming back for me If they ever were, they are not now So what's there left to talk about I'm holding on Just like a scratch off ticket How I dig my nails into your skin Honey, I'm not stupid I know no one wins this kind of thing It's just another way to kill an hour Wishing I was different Nobody deserves a second chance But honey, I keep getting them Like a scratch off ticket How you dig your nails into my skin Honey, I'm not stupid I know no one wins this kind of thing It's just another way to kill an hour Wishing I were different Nobody deserves a second chance But I keep giving them

I can see myself inside your bloodshot eyes Wondering if you can see yourself in mine Or do you just see me? And of me what you want to see? Middle of the night, all I can see are stars Pulled 'em from my eyes and your ex-lover's arms Throw hook after hook, and if I were you After all that I did, I'd have done it to me, too Isn't like I did it on purpose I just forget the second I learned it Everything I get, I deserve You whisper to me, "Don't you like it when it hurts?" (oh, mhmm) Five days out from the initial event It takes two kinds of pills to uncleanch my fists It's too kind of you to say you can help But there's no one around who can save me from myself Isn't like I do this on purpose I just forget the second I learned it Looking for little oblivions I'd do anything knowing you would forgive me Oh, there is no glory in love Only the gore of our hearts Oh, let it come for my throat Take me and tear me apart Ooh, there is no glory in love Only the gore of our hearts Ooh, let it come for my throat Take me and tear me apart Drag me away in the dark Take me and tear me apart

Day-one chip on your dresser Get loaded at your house I ask if you remember You say "I don't know what you're talking about" Swallow the truth Push the charcoal down my throat Finally come to Maybe I'll have something to show It's the first day of the new year All the visitors went home I found out what I thought was Just a pretty trick of smoke Couldn't stand the thought of Having everything to lose So I tied a knot 'Cause I'm not crying wolf I'm out here Looking for them In the morning when I wake up Naked in their den I'll swear off all the things I thought That got me here In the evening I'll come back again 'Cause I'm not crying wolf I'm out here Looking for them In the morning when I wake up Naked in their den Ooh, I'm out here Looking for them In the morning when I wake up Naked in their den And I swear off all the things I thought That got me here In the evening I'll come back again

Midnight, you could see me dangling Glow like a cherry falling Now it's a downpour You could see me racing the rain to the ground floor You're the only thing I'll wait around for Maybe when you get off of work could you meet me We could go barreling down on the main street You could try watching while I run through the high-beams 'Cause if I didn't have a mean bone in my body I'd find some other way to cause you pain I won't bother telling you I'm sorry For something that I'm gonna do again When I could spend the weekend out on a bender Do I get callous or do I stay tender Which of these is worse And which is better? Dying to myself virtually, a massacre A character of somebody's invention A martyr in another passion play I guess I don't mind losing my conviction If it's all relative fiction anyway 'Cause I don't need a savior I need you to take me home I don't need your help I need you to leave me alone I'm out with the drunks at the bar Talk over the band I try to express I can't understand I beat at the keys I bloody my hands 'Til you hear me I've got no business praying I'm finished being good Now I can finally be okay And not the way I thought I should, mm

Ooh, I miss it high How it dulled the terror and the beauty And now I see everything in startling intensity Oh, what I wouldn't give If it would take away the sting a minute Everything I love, I trade it in To feel it rush into my chest The smoke alarm's been going off for weeks No one showed up And half the time it isn't what you think of Faith healer come put your hands on me A snake oil dealer I'll believe you if you make me feel something Oh, faith healer come put your hands all over me A snake oil dealer I'll believe you if you make me feel something

Shell of an engine, unexplained Burst to fire engulfed in flames Breathing exhaust, a heatwave mirage Nothing to lose 'til everything's really gone It's worse than death, than life compressed To fill a page in the Sunday paper I had the shuddering thought "This was gonna make me late for work" Biting a chain, free like a lame Oh, can you be healed? Scratch my knees on the gravel Say it's all part of the deal Covered in scars a canyon deep It's not like what I thought it'd be The gruesome beauty of your face in everyone I meet I was on a long spiral down Before I make it to the ground I'll wrap Orion's belt around my neck And kick the chair out On a long spiral down Before I make it to the ground I'll wrap Orion's belt around my neck And kick the chair out And I'll kick the chair out Kick the chair out

Blacked out on a weekday Still, something that I'm trying to avoid Start asking for forgiveness in advance For all the future things I will destroy That way I can ruin everything When I do, you don't get to act surprised When it finally gets to be too much I always told you, you could leave at any time Until then I'll split the difference Between medicine and poison Take what I can get away with While it burns right through my stomach I'm telling my own fortune Something I cannot escape I can see where this is going But I can't find the brake Knocked out on a weekend Would you hit me this hard if I were a boy? See, I don't need you to defend me 'Cause it's just the sort of thing that I enjoy Took the fallout, draw a hard line When I cross it, it's the third time Say my own name in the mirror And when nobody appears Say it's not so cut and dry Oh, it isn't black and white What if it's all black, baby? All the time Oh, all the time Oh, all the time Oh, all the time

I'm so addicted to this

I love her so much

This whole album hits just so hard 😢😢

Pedazo de voz…el vídeo…no tanto🤣; Grande Julien!!!

This is the first song I've heard from Julien Baker solo and oh my god. Ludicrously good.

what an awesome performance 🙌 I am very happy and grateful that I recently (more or less by chance) discovered her music 🙏

One of the best songs I´ve ever hard, for sure

Preciosa canción…!!!

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