People Don't Fake Depression, They Fake Being Okay.

Please, please, please don’t listen to the haters. They are aiming their own problems at you. You are amazing, hard working, brave, pioneering and beautiful people. Lee was also all those things and she also deserved only love and admiration. Say your prayers, send your love and take care of each other. We love you very much! 💕💕

*_"It's often not wanting to die, but not knowing how to live."_* ~Unknown

Thank you both for sharing with us today. I am a grandfather of 75, and for several years now I have been following the adventures of so many wonderful young adventurers, like yourselves, doing and visiting so many amazing things and places, and although have never actually met any of you, I feel like I know you as friends. Lee and Max were one of the couples I found on youtube several years ago. As Max was a fellow Aussie, it just made the connection a little more special. When I got the news a few days ago I was stunned, and extremely saddened, firstly for the loss of a beautiful and wonderful young person, but also for the impact such news would have on all you adventurers out there. Like so many people, I am constantly angered by the totally unnecessary bullying by the trolls of the social media world, and also their followers who give them the air to continue their cruel actions. I say to you both, take strength from knowing that you have so many more followers who support you, love you and what you are doing, than the small few who may choose to bully you. Take care, give each other lots of hugs. And keep doing whatever gives you pleasure, and look forward to the arrival of your first little bubs !!! Cheers folks....Happy Easter

Lee’s death hit hard... it’s amazing how much emotion you can have for someone you never met... as a supporter you feel like you know them. Love & prayers to her and her family and friends! Rest in the sweetest peace Lee.. ❤️🙏

You guys, I hadn't heard... until I saw this video. I have followed Lee for years - with Max and since their split. It almost feels odd because I sometimes feel like assuming grief that belongs to someone else is just ... not right. But I have so much grief. How I have been feeling since early today when I watched your wonderful and respectful video here, has almost surprised me. I'm heartbroken. I can't quite get past the tragedy of this. I'm nearly 60 years old. So much of what I am feeling is that, when I look at Lee, and Max, and Trent and Allie, and Eamon & Bec, so many others, and almost especially in you two beautiful souls, I see .... unrestrained promise. The idea that Lee could no longer see that in her life is devastating to me. There is a social media dynamic here that cannot be ignored. As a community, as humans clinging to a sense of decency that is rapidly vanishing, we need to start making certain demands of one and other. Cruelty has become a spectator sport on social media and the cost of that vicious sport is too high. Those of us who could never delight in the pain of others have to be willing to publicly shun those who do. The more that happens, the more socially unacceptable the behavior will become. We won't get anywhere with bureaucracy - laws or YT policies; the power behind that is too busy making money. This has to be handled in the public square. Those people earning a living from hurting people *will* eventually vanish under the glaring disdain of the larger community. We already know... evil triumphs when good men do nothing. I hope (the collective) we stop doing nothing.

Lost my Dad like this - there are always so many unanswered questions and no perfect answers. You need to recall how a person lived not how they passed. Lee was blessed with an attractive, loving personality - Lee's unconditional love never passed - it lives on forever.

KZfaq creators are brave in putting themselves out there. Be kind to one another y’all.

I am 70 and walk with the help of canes, and you towo are one of the highlights of my day! I tell my wife that I'm going to visit my kids in Panama! You mean slot to me, and I'm sure many others. Please ignore the haters as there are many more of us out here that love you!

People tend to lash out because they themselves are broken.we need to do our best for ourselves. Try not to judge yourselves, your videos for me help me to stay positive and move forward. YOU ALL help me. Tragedies like Lee's is a moment in life that humbles us and brings us to center. Much love to you all and to all who loved Lee 🙏🙏🙏

God bless you two for remembering Lee, she was a beautiful woman! ❤🙏🏼

I am so happy you two dedicated a video to Lee. I have followed her since day 1 and she was such a beautiful soul. When I heard of this news I was devastated. She tried so hard. She will definitely be missed. #speakupforlee ♥️✨

Sending so much love and positive vibes to everyone hurting from the loss of Lee ❤️❤️

Thank You Kaylee and Jordan for this tribute. You are both Such Wonderful Assets to this world.

You two are wonderful, I love watching you grow your farm and helping so many people and animals. RIP Lee

The thing about bullies is that they almost always act out of jealousy. I'm saddened by the loss of this young, beautiful, creative and talented woman.

Thank you for not monetizing this. Very sorry for your loss and I just want you two to know you are absolutely amazing people. We have been long time subscribers. Thank you for sharing your life with us. ❤️

It brought tears when I heard that she had become a victim of mental health. It's definitely sad that people can't keep negative opinions to themselves. She was such a smart, talented and beautiful person.

I am 52 years old..I followed her and Maz and then found you guys through them...I am truly DEVASTATED..I am no where near what her Family must be Feeling..Such a Beautiful Girl and a Bright Soul!! So sad and I am a total ASSHOLE for watching those break up videos.. I always posted NICE THINGS to her .. She was truly a wonderful person

Thank you so much for being so genuine and heartfelt in this; as someone who has lived through this in my family I thank you for everything that you've said here. I wanted to let you know that you two are the couple that I am using to rebuild trust in relationships within myself after an extremely abusive childhood and a number of tumultuous relationships- I watch the love, care and respect between the two of you and I'm using it to build my own interior structure of healthy relating and things that I'd like to experience. I am so joyful that this little individual you are growing together is going to have a degree of love, care and support that I could never even begin to imagine being possible as a child- you are both putting such beautiful things out into the world and I'm so appreciative of it.

It’s ok not to be ok. RIP Lee. Thanks guys for helping to share her story.

Lee was a very special person. The cyber bullying has got to stop! Thank you for addressing this issue!

When someone is going through with depression one cannot handle negative energy - people should be kinder with words... - RIP Lee I really love watching her. Sending love & light🙏

You care and kindness for people is a blessing. Thank you for sharing.

Thank you for this tribute video. I lost my aunt to suicide 4 years ago and hearing about Lee brought up all of those hard emotions. I’m praying for everyone that had a personal relationship with her and those who haven’t but are affected by it. To all those who need help cry out to God in your darkest moments he will truly bring the light. ❤️💕🙏

We all need to take this lesson and understand how badly words can affect someone. Its SO sad that Lee felt there was only a permanent solution to the pain she was feeling. Sending love to her family and to this beautiful community that we share with Jordan, Kaylie, and all of Lola's farm. To whomever is reading this please know you are loved and valued and it will be ok 💚🙏✌

Thank you for opening up this way. It’s amazing how I didn’t know Lee personally, but it has put me in a head space I didn’t expect. I relate heavily to what you talk about here. You’ve allowed me to see the darker comments hidden from your channel, and while I’ve not received the same amount of negativity being a smaller channel, I’ve received the same level of negativity. The very worst thing anyone has said to me in my whole 40 years on this planet came from a KZfaq comment, and that stays with you. It’s important to understand that we all have our battles and should treat each other as companions on the same planet, and not enemies. ❤️

My heart goes out to you both for the loss of your friend, Lee. Never doubt that you two are wonderful, caring people. It shows in all you do.

Trent and Allie spoke about Lee in their last video. Extremely saddened hearing about the worlds loss not having this person in it. I’m always shocked at how cruel people can be.

R.I.P. sweet angel. Depression affects so many of us. Fly high, be free. Thank you for all you shared on this Earth 🌻

We have watched the two of you do SO MUCH GOOD and spread SO MUCH LOVE to so many on screen. What you DON'T see is the impact that you have on those of us that watch EVERY EPISODE - each one giving us a smile, a laugh and just a little but of hope that things can get better. For those of us that have depression - particularly for long periods of time - we get good at hiding it. You are helping people whether you know it or not. Keep doing what you do. ❤

I’ve shed tears and struggling with thinking about Lee when I lay down to sleep at night ever since I found out last Monday. My heart sunk and I still haven’t got it back. Hugs to all ♥️

I can’t believe Lee is gone... I have struggled with depression most of my life and still to this day. But just knowing how people feel once they lost you, is something keeps me moving forward. Once you’ve lost someone. The thoughts of “what could I have done” Or “you don’t know what you have until it’s gone...’’ rings through your head. It is not that.- Same as you Jord and Kaylee It is also important to understand everyone is living their own life... they won’t know what is going on in your life. So many times I think about the fact that you are different to every person you meet. Most who are struggling, including myself, don’t show that side of them. - Please just love those around you and appreciate them for what they do. You never know what they are going through. If you would not say something to someone’s face, don’t comment it. Not only that. If you are having those thoughts, take a look at yourself.None of us are perfect and if you are watching/enjoying someone’s content. Support them. Helpful advise and constructive criticism is important for growth, but just understand everyone is still learning. Day by day. Stay strong and keep moving forward

Hey guys, you people are one of the yt creators who has helped me to deal with my depression and anxiety.i m the person who's bullied and humiliated by my relatives.only because of my daughter I'm alive. Create a community in which people with depression and anxiety can talk out easily.its getting bad everyday.love you guys...❤️❤️❤️

As much as you were compelled to make this video, I'm sure it was difficult to do. I, and so many others around the world who have been so profoundly impacted by Lee's death, deeply appreciate you guys doing this. Her death is the 2nd one I've dealt with in 2 weeks and I've been absolutely beside myself since I learned the horrible news. We all as a people have to do better to really make sure that we let others know that we are truly there for them. Not just in words so that the person in need doesn't feel embarrassed or burdensome. This pandemic has forced us to be so physically isolated from everyone. That means, we have to be that much more creative in how we positively reach out to one another. I hope with all my heart that that is at least the one thing good that comes out of this widely felt tragedy.

I’m so sorry for your loss!!! Sending healing prayers and blessings!!!

Thank you so much for this. It’s hit so many of us in the audience hard. I feel broken for her friends, family, Max, Jordan, lord I’ve even cried for occy! We all need to do better, to allow people to make mistakes, to cancel cancel culture itself, embrace humanity and support each other so much more. Thank you guys for speaking out. Sending love and healing to all closer to this than us out here watching but also to us watching too. And lee know you were so so loved ❤️💔

I've never had any connection to Lee other than watching her on KZfaq, instagram and listening to her on Eamon and Bec's podcast where she delved into her struggle with depression. Yet, her death affected me on a deep level. She had such a beautiful essence and it's so hard to believe that she is no longer in the world. People probably felt a lot of jealousy of her beauty and her perfect life portrayed on social media. I'm so sad they affected her so deeply. But I do believe her depression goes much deeper than that after hearing the podcast earlier this year.

Her passing has been so heartbreaking, I've been thinking of her everyday. ❤ Thank you guys for sharing this video.

You guys are amazing! I admire your hard work, determination, and overwhelming positivity. It's always sad to hear something like this, and it never gets any easier. Wishing you and everyone the best!

She was such an amazing person. We are all gonna miss her. It breaks my heart that she went through so much! 💔

Definitely the down side to social media. A good reminder that "If you can't say something nice, don't say nothin' at all".

RIP Lee. I’ve been following them, Trent/Allie and y’all for years and have seen how much y’all have grown. Depression is sadly taking so many lives. Mental health needs to be addressed more. Thank you for sharing 🙏🏼

I want to thank you both for sharing your lives via KZfaq. I really enjoy watching your lives from afar and experiencing things I would otherwise never get a chance to experience. Please continue to share and let me and others experience life through you.

It’s nice for the community to come together and talk about this. How one wishes for a different outcome. Sending hugs to everyone grieving.

RIP Lee Macmillan...She will be missed greatly.

it's so beautiful that you are talking about this with everyone.

Thanks so much for your love and light in this community. Love is our guide♥️

It's sad another beautiful human inside & out lost to suicide. If only our love could save them. 😢♥️

I got to "know" her in Eamon and Bec's vlogs. So sad to learn of her passing. She was very vibrant. RIP Lee. 🥺

My prayers go out to Lee's family to bring them peace through this hard time. I want to express my apology for negatively commenting on the heavy shelf above the workspace, I worded my concern in a rude way and I am sorry. I actually got backlash from a commenter and I felt bad about posting it. So far, you all have done such a great job at building and learning as you go and I enjoy your channel and everyone that is involved in your world because you are so genuinely good to one another. R.I.P. Lee

You each make a great team full of love and respect and fun. Many more blessings for you both. You are a great example what light and leadership is. With love, from Shrewsbury, Massachusetts.

So sorry for your loss. Prayers for her family 🙏🏽 Social media can definitely be a contributor to depression & anxiety. Don’t forget to power off and take breaks when needed 🙏🏽

Very brave to come on and talk about this guys, well done .... Many of us in Shock with Lee's passing, just so sad .. RIP beutiful soul Lee

Thank you for addressing the huge challenge of depression and anxiety. It takes courage to make yourself vulnerable and I admire that. You’re right - it’s important for us to have the backs of those who are being bullied online. Your transparency, kindness and compassion are part of why I love you two!

Yall are strong, and with each other you can do great things. I see that in the tasks that you take on. God bless yall. Keep supporting each other and the community. Yall are loved.

It’s not just about the negative comments or how people treat you. Unfortunately if you have depression, the sunniest of days are rainy, the best food is bland, and all the love you receive still leaves you feeling cold and alone. Depression is so cruel. The only solace that can be taken from this now is that lee has no more pain. Sleep tight princess❤️

Lee has had a great impact on my life. You guys putting your live out for us all to see. You’re all so so brave. A big thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️

You and your lovely community are so amazing and help me every week, thank you! Don’t let them win! Lots of love xxx

Another touching tribute to Lee, it's heartbreaking to hear of her passing 💔💔 She was so brave speaking out about her battle with mental health - Depression is a serious illness that effects so many people, I lost a close friend a few weeks ago, and I am struggling to come to terms with it. If you can be anything, be kind. Cyber Bullying needs to be addressed, it's just not acceptable!! Take care guys and take the time you need to grieve. RIP Lee #speakupforlee

My brother took his life and yes I will always think " I wished I could have done something before it happened "

I just listened to her on E&B podcast.. she really sounded like she had worked thru it all.. she had so much insight and said all the right things... I feel like she just lost her place and she couldn't get back in it. Plus the added online opinions. I just feel so bad for eamon and bec. And her parents.. they all thought she was doing better.. God life sucks sometimes. Hope you guys keep it heads up.

You guys are both amazing, amazing care you show to so many.

Thank you for posting. Have been looking for a conversation and connection around this loss. Such a collective loss.💜

Oh. I’m so sorry to hear this. I was so excited that she was moving forward with a new build. I’ve watched some van couples and people struggle with negative commentary. What I learned is if you watch someone’s videos, you should offer something positive and like it. Because nobody is obligated to share these clips, and they are sweet, and helpful and uplifting. I’ve appreciated how honest you all are about your struggles as well as victories. Thank you for sharing this. We all struggle as human beings.

I'm so sorry with your loss. She was a amazing soul.

I could hear and feel how much this has impacted you two. Holding space for your grief. 🙏🏻 May her legacy love on in those who knew and loved her .♾

Sending all our love your way. Lee was the first introduction we had into van life a few years ago. She was an inspiration. This week was shocking and hard for the whole community. Making sure to send love and positivity through the internet to counter act the bad. It’s horrible that one negative comment outweighs 300 positive ones. You both are a light! Thanks for sharing your life with us ❤️

Guys, I can hear the pain in your voices. Lee was a very special girl & this is heartbreaking. Humans can be cruel to each other, it’s a confusing trait, because we’re taught to treat others how you would wish to be treated, but many people don’t aspire to that. It’s also heartbreaking to hear that you’ve been brought low by comments on your videos. Your videos are a light in so many people’s lives, please never underestimate the good you are doing for the world, just by being yourselves & letting us follow along with your day to day. Your relationship is ‘goals’, as they say, not many couples could live & work together, yet get on as well as you do. I’m sure there are some not-so-great-times behind the scenes, no relationship is all roses!, but no one could fake the love, respect & joy between the two of you. You are building a beautiful life & you are going to be amazing parents. I don’t know you, but I have a lot of affection for you both & your little Lola’s farm community. Sending love 💕

We loved Lee and we love you both. 💜

I've followed Lee for years. God bless both of you for your tribute. I didn't check her comments, just enjoyed her posts. I've been sending prayers out for dear Lee. I lost a former girlfriend to mental illness, I did speak to her the day before. Prayers gave me a message back; she sent that it wasn't because she didn't know Ioved her. 🙏💔

Lee was a special light. RIP Depression is so hard for those who suffer from mental illness, I lost a friend and family from depression. Thank you as always this is tough. Blessings

Rest in power Lee. Love to her friends and family during this most difficult time ❤️❤️❤️

*I only pray that Lee has found the peace she that she sought...* 🙏🏻

Thank you

You two are Aamazing!! May Lee r.i.h and find her resting place in paradise. ❤

So so sad thinking of all Lee’s family and friends 💗💗💗💗

You did a beautiful job with your message🙏 A lot of us feel we wish we could have done something to help her. I wish I had watched her channel more. She was a lovely woman and will be missed. This past year has taken a toll on us, and many of our KZfaq families don’t always understand how you are helping us...

Thank you for the heartfelt, honest, forthright and beautiful video. Thank you for the taking the time and energy and yes, courage, to do all this. Blessings and love your way.

💚 Thank you so much for openly communicating!

You're making a difference in so many lives. So sorry for the loss of your friend. You're honoring her by lifting her up and addressing the bullying online, and anywhere. Blessings to you both and truly, love is all there is🙏🕉

My heart aches this morning for my KZfaq friends and Lee's loved ones. Please know you are in my prayers. And . . . just a note for the haters out there that leave their hateful words. Please seek some help for yourselves, because it is your words that could haunt you, for the rest of your life. R.I.P. Lee. Rest now, In Peace.

Having an open heart brings highly receptive and sensitive emotions. It makes it very difficult to face negative feedback. Learning how to control emotions helps. Been there. Be kind to yourself and know that many more people love you than not. Love and appreciate you guys! 💕🙏🏼

thnks so much for posting this.i ve been dealing with depression and its been getting worse.thnk god ive reached out for help now.i miss lee so much it hurts.you keep doing what your doing ok.huggs from canada

Guys I can feel your pain and sadness in more ways than one. The feeling you could have done something is awful. My sister attempted the same just a few days ago and I didn’t do anything when I felt her messages were a bit strange before she did it. Luckily she survived but that guilt will remain with me. So much love to you both. Please look after yourselves 💕xx

Lee was a beautiful soul and so full of life. I only knew her through Eamon & Bec’s channel, and yet her passing brought me to my knees. It’s heartbreaking to hear the emotion in your voices. Please take care of each other. ❤️

You guys have a positive impact on so many peoples lives, including myself! Love your channel and your upbeat personalities. Keep your chins up!Love you guys!!

Lovely tribute to a beautiful soul. Take care of yourselves 💙💚💛 sending love and hugs. Peace be with you.

Lee was a beautiful soul and will be missed so much, her smile could make you smile and make you feel like an old friend (even those of us who only knew her from youtube). The internet can be a wonderful thing, but some of the evil people who use it can destroy people's lives and families. Please STOP and remember your words are a weapon! My prayers and hugs go out to all of Lee's family, friends, and love ones!

I got you. Your videos are very uplifting. Like you, I don’t read the other comments when I leave one. Beautiful tribute from a great and meaningful friendship. Rest in ❤️Lee and you guys.....what an amazing journey you are on. Love you!!!!!

You guys are so amazing.. my favorite travel/homesteading people on social media. I follow a quite a few others and you guys are the most down to earth, community minded, and thoughtful of them all. Keep up the amazing work and life you are pursuing so hard!

So sorry to hear of Lee's passing. Luved seeing her with Eamon and Bec. Praying for you all and her family. 😥💜

I hear your pain, knowing that she was struggling and wishing you had done something. It was a beautiful tribute and advocating for better behavior is an important way to honor her memory. Take care of yourselves.

You guys...You did such a great job of expressing your thoughts. Negativity can drain the soul. I could your sadness. May Lee’s family find peace and you guys as well. Hang in there.🙏🏾💖

I waited until today to watch your video. I hurt with you all, even I never met Lee in person. I started watching van life with max and Lee and then the others followed. Jordan you are a wonderful young men (I have 5 kids, oldest 31 yrs, 28,25,22 and 16) and it shows how much you care about people. Kayle you are amazing and so brave. I love watching your journey. May God continue to bless you both (three).

I never met her but have followed her for years. You feel like you know them and the sting of their finality is deep. My heart and love to you guys and her family ❤️

I suffer from major depression and with an anxiety disorder and panic attacks.. every day is a struggle.. when I heard about Lee I just cried.. because I know that pain inside and the thoughts.. I fight this disease everyday.. excepting it was the best thing I ever did.. I learned so many tools that help.. and my mantra is tomorrow is a new day.. thank you for making this video for lee.. and about depression and anxiety.. so many people suffer from it.. some in silence and some like myself openly.. thank you again.. I hope you both have a relaxing week off.. peace always

Hearing Lee's story is heart breaking. I suffer from depression too, thank you for sharing. Its so easy to put comments on social media however we don't always think how it affects people will never see face to face. Please think twice before posting comments.

Glad your for doing this , she was a bright lite in the room . the brightest of lites ...

How kind of you both to take the time to share about Lee. A couple years ago, i started following a few different channels with van-lifers to get ideas as a someday retirement plan to do with my husband. Thats when i found Max & Lees channel. I would check in from time to time and it was today I learned about Lee. I too, never met her, but her loss has left me so sad. Im so sorry that there are such thoughtless people out there that feel its their obligation to hurt others. We can’t take away the tragedy of Lee’s passing, but if we can learn to be kinder, that would be something, wouldn’t it? Stay safe & Bless you 💜