My Abusive Father Died || Complicated Experience with Death of an Abusive Parent || Autumn Beckman

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My Abusive Father Died || Complicated Experience with Death of an Abusive Parent || Autumn Beckman
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@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Full disclosure, I filmed this video a few days after my father died but am posting it a year later. Emotions were high at the time and I didn't want to post such sensitive content while in the middle of that. A year out, with time to process and more clarity, I hope sharing my experience will help others who are going through something similar...a very complicated mix of emotions for a situation not often discussed.

@valerieblouch5409 3 ай бұрын

Full disclosure. I also had a difficult childhood. My father had anger management issues and a violent temper. My mom was bi-polar. There were 4 kids, of which I was the second oldest. As the oldest daughter I was required to become my parent's caretakers and 'mom' for my siblings. I did mountains of laundry, cleaned the house, got groceries, planned & cooked meals and washed stacks of dishes. My Dad was a good provider, so we didn't have to deal with poverty. We did however deal with never measuring up and non existent emotional support. Thankfully my parents lived long enough for me to process, accept and own my reality. I stopped being ashamed of where I came from. I was proud of who I had become. A Phoenix rising from the ashes of chaos. Stories like ours are hard to live through and even harder to share. So proud of you. 💞

@Diane574 3 ай бұрын

♥️

@tiamarnie7323 3 ай бұрын

❤

@Intuition_malnutrition 3 ай бұрын

❤

@Millie-R.0731 3 ай бұрын

@@valerieblouch5409❤

@irishmarie9892 3 ай бұрын

Girl….the fact that you managed to deal with all that and still remain YOU is a testament to your character and will. You’re an inspiration, know that. 😊

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Thank you. I appreciate that. ❤️

@user-ws2td1fd1n 3 ай бұрын

You have dealt with this whole situation in a very brave and intelligent way. Respect!

@roziongjoco-gomez3258 3 ай бұрын

You are so eloquent in explaining the whole situation. Although I have lost both my parents over 30 years ago, this video will be so helpful to others.. thank you

@Dancemom-hw2jt 2 ай бұрын

Dealing with a narcissistic parent can be so difficult! You are such a strong woman.

@christineshugrue6601 3 ай бұрын

No matter what your current job … you are still a teacher .. teaching all of us about the hard choices and more

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

True. Education has always been one of my biggest interests. I started this channel to help educate people about bags they couldn't always see in person. Didn't realize I'd also end up talking about things like this. ❤️

@Jo-Mag 2 ай бұрын

Agree!

@maikehudson333 3 ай бұрын

Sometimes relief is the only possible response to a person’s passing.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Indeed.

@DianeRS66 3 ай бұрын

My husband is an ER doctor. This situation is quite common (weekly). Many relatives choose to immediately refuse to do anything, and have the hospital take it to a judge. Hospitals have a lawyer for that and I am sorry that the social worker pressured you into this situation. You are a good and thoughtful person and every emotion you felt was that of a strong and stable person. I’m glad this chapter has closed for you and your mother and sister.

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

I'm not surprised that this is common. There was definitely pressure for me to make decisions instead of leaving it to the hospital. I don't know why they didn't offer a lawyer like you're saying. Thank you for your kind words. ❤️

@Diane574 3 ай бұрын

I tried to get away from her once, ran out the door, got halfway down the driveway but she was a lot bigger and stronger and she grabbed me by my clothes and dragged me back. My friends outside called the police, the police came and told me I was a “wayward girl.” In truth I was a goody two shoes. Thank goodness the authorities know more now than they did then. I was terrified of her, didn’t think I’d grow up to adulthood bc I was sure she would one day kill me. I made it out alive bc I ran away…long story. We, here, are so brave!

@spikesgirl04 3 ай бұрын

This is the call I’ve been expecting my 3 adult kids to get when their biological father finally drinks himself to death or OD’s. We haven’t seen or heard from him in almost 20 years. I know exactly the emotional response you are having and I understand completely your handling of the situation. I’m proud of you Autumn ♥️

@narelleparsons6745 2 ай бұрын

@@AutumnBeckmanIn Australia we have what's called the Guardianship Act to represent the impaired etc that cannot make decisions for themselves. The problem is the process takes time and by the sounds your dad's condition regarding treatment such as a filter was relatively urgent. Social workers are generally aware of how time crucial decisions need to be made. Our Medical Teams meet with Allied Health in circumstances like yours. As a nurse of several decades, I have witnessed the pressures that families go through. However, no one gets a practice run as to how to deal with these types of decisions. It is never easy as each situation will likely be different. You have handled the situation amazingly well.

@annied3315 3 ай бұрын

I hope the year since his death has brought you peace and healing. The demons and lasting hurts of our childhood are brutal.

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Thank you. ❤️ Those little demons pop up when you least expect them sometimes. Jerks.

@terrifromm5085 3 ай бұрын

Your father was your parent biologically and you owed him nothing. You had every right to turn your back on him. You have risen above this chapter and I commend you on your bravery and willingness to make a video about your father. I applaud you.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. :)

@shamrockgirl6595 2 ай бұрын

A nursing home called me as the firstborn when my abusive [sexually, physically, emotionally & spiritually] father was placed there. I understand completely what youve shared Autumn. My role became harder as his health declined. I was happy too when he passed.

@SethInNYC 3 ай бұрын

Thank you for bravely sharing your experience. ❤ I think everyone, including those with stable and healthy childhoods, can learn so much from you.

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Thank you, Seth. I appreciate that and I hope so. ❤️

@erzebetb 2 ай бұрын

YES! i understand completely. i left my toxic family 25 yrs ago and it saved my life. a freedom like no other. take care. warm hugs.

@rot_10_dogs 3 ай бұрын

I had a similar situation. I wasn’t happy about it but was relieved I didn’t have to deal with him ever again. And I did grieve. I grieved the life that should have been. Thank you for sharing this.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

I'm sorry you went through something similar.

@dawnlovescouture2644 3 ай бұрын

You made the best decision all around. No child should have endured what you had to. Put your mind at ease, Autumn. I’m glad no one is suffering anymore.

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Thank you, Dawn. You know, it's strange...growing up in that I didn't realize how far from normal it was because it was normal to me. I mean, I knew it wasn't normal (now I'm not making sense!) but it's taken decades to realize how really messed up and abusive his decisions and their consequences were to us all. And to this day, I have trouble recognizing if someone is on drugs because that behavior was completely normal to me.

@dawnlovescouture2644 3 ай бұрын

@@AutumnBeckman I understand. Working with kids from these kinds of home situations has made me see how it can be seen as normal because it’s all the kids have known.

@vickenator 2 ай бұрын

@@AutumnBeckman It's interesting what we normalize based on what we see every day at home. I though it was normal that parents didn't hug or kiss each other, that the father would drop the landline phone on the ground after his call while he sat on the couch with the expectation that someone else would pick it up and hang it on the hook on the wall... that the father would toss the newspapers on the floor as he finished reading them, with the expectation that someone else will pick them up off the floor for us. That being praised by other adults for being so "well behaved" wasn't because we were just good kids, though we were, but was mainly borne of the fact that we knew not to piss our father off, that we were ingrained with fear about misbehaving. Normal is very funny word.

@lschultz3022 2 ай бұрын

I hope you have slept peacefully every night of the year between filming and posting this. You do not seem cold and callous, in fact your compassion for your mother, sister, self, and even him shines through. I never saw your 3 part video about your past but now I even further understand your love for beautiful things and the healthy, fanciful bit of escape that a love of luxury offers. Be happy.

@ShopStylebyme 3 ай бұрын

I am in awe of your courage. I thank you for sharing because it will help a lot of other people open up and not feel alone💐

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. :)

@johnle3389 3 ай бұрын

Now THIS is a conversation that needs to be had. Thanks for using your platform and your voice!

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. :)

@Diane574 3 ай бұрын

Good for you for being honest. I left my abusive mother as soon as I could and never regretted staying away from her and keeping my kids away. In this day and age she’d go to jail for a long time. I’m relieved she’s not around anymore. I applaud you. ♥️

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Thank you. And good for you for having the strength and wisdom to do that for yourself and your children! ❤️

@Diane574 3 ай бұрын

@@AutumnBeckman ♥️♥️♥️♥️

@charchar9085 2 ай бұрын

You're such a great story teller. My mom had a very difficult relationship with her mother who had a lot of mental health issues and attempted suicide many times before she eventually succeeded. 31yrs later and my mom still feels like her death is a relief.

@rosieschweebie 3 ай бұрын

Autumn, thank you for sharing your story . I told my mother that I was not sure if I will be going to my father's funeral once he dies. My mom raised all 6 of us by herself. The last time I saw my father was in 2015. I have forgiven him for abandoning us, but it is not good or healthy for me to continue to have any type of relationship with him. I do wish him well, and hopes he gets the professional help he needs.

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

I get it. Even when you want to reach out to be sure they're okay or to share something with them, you have to stop yourself because you know it won't end well for you. It stinks that their decisions take so much from us. I hope your father gets whatever help he needs, too, and that your mother understands how you feel and supports your choices.

@JustMonica402 3 ай бұрын

Autumn, I commend your courage to share your story. From what I am reading (through the comments) I see there are a lot of us who had abusive fathers/parents. I am one of them too. My father claimed to love me while he kept me from my Mother who wanted me, hid me with several relatives, couch hopped with him, witnessed his cocaine binges, drove with him on the wrong side of the freeway, tried leaving me in Tijuana after being distraught over losing his gf, watched him physically beat and verbally abuse my mother, and on and on. So, my father may not have physically abused me, but he certainly emotionally abused me. I say all of this to say, your story impacted me and makes me feel less guilty walking away from my own father who I haven’t had a relationship with since I was 11 years old. I did this most recently and for the life of me I cannot understand why he still plays the victim. So, thank you for sharing with us. I am glad you are at peace with everything and free from the burden of an abusive being. ❤

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing your story. I'm so sorry you went through that but glad you survived. It sounds incredibly difficult. It also sounds like you're 100% justified in cutting ties with him. The playing the victim routine is an attempt to manipulate you. He likely knows he's in the wrong.

@1971Brena Ай бұрын

15:15 ....you were just protecting yourself ❤🙏🏾

@sharonsmith583 3 ай бұрын

I'm so sorry! You are a strong lady!

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Thank you, Sharon. ❤️

@BarbC1 3 ай бұрын

Autumn: I watched the videos about your father when I first discovered your channel. I remember the video that you disclosed his death. I think the fact that you didn't hang up on the hospital and block the number shows great compassion. The best relationships are complicated but abusive situations by a person who is supposed to love you unconditionally is incomprehensible to me. You are so strong to have risen above such a difficult childhood to become the wonderful person you are today. I'm happy that you, your mom and your sister seem to have built successful, happy lives. It was brave of you to share the whole story from beginning to end. I have no doubt it will help many people. Warm Regards and Deep Respect.

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Thank you. I do hope there are people who find it helpful. I did try to avoid the situation but ultimately I suppose I'm glad I agreed to make decisions. Thank you for your kind words. ❤️

@Laurenlilly902 2 ай бұрын

your story is similar to mine and I'm sure a lot of people. fortunately for me, he died thousands of miles away in another country and not a burden to me or any of my siblings. your feelings are valid!

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

I'm glad you didn't have that burden. I hope you're doing well.

@accessorygirlnyc 3 ай бұрын

I’m so sorry for your nightmare. No one should have a parent like that. You are entitled to feel however you feel about his death. No one else has lived your life, so no one can speak for you.

@ruthmclean5116 3 ай бұрын

My God Autumn! Your life reads like a made for tv movie only it’s real people that are involved, not actors. I have such respect for the way you handled this entire ordeal. Where you were able to find your strength is unimaginable but somehow you managed to find it. Two quotes come to mind: “Don’t worry about people God removed from your life. He heard conversations you didn’t. He saw things you couldn’t. He made moves you wouldn’t”. And… “I would rather adjust my life to your absence, then adjust my boundaries to accommodate your disrespect “. ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Fantastic quotes. Thank you. 🥰

@ponayotadoufexis-lammon7712 3 ай бұрын

Very brave Autumn to share this story. I remember when he died and I think you were wise to give this some time. I think this video will help many people. XOXO

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Thank you, Yota. I hope it does. ❤️

@sumis8096 3 ай бұрын

I feel I want to go back in time and give Little Autumn a big hug! I admire your strength so much 💛 thank you for sharing!

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Aww. Thank you.

@bbhdd6181 3 ай бұрын

You are freaking awesome honestly. I'm currently caring for my wonderful mum who has cancer, but my dad is doing absolutely nothing (and they are divorcing due to his abuse escalating when she was diagnosed and he is doing everything in his power to strip her of all her finances (which he explicitly told me)). It feels sadistic of me that when he gets ill, I am glad I won't be there for him in the same way after the lifetime of abuse he put the two of us through. It's difficult to admit but, it is what it is. I appreciate you so much for uploading this because it is such a taboo subject and I've never really discussed it with anyone before.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

I helped care for my grandparents toward the end of their lives. Care giving is tough. I hope you're doing okay and have outlets to take breaks from it.

@lorrilewis2178 3 ай бұрын

It's all about feeling RELIEF.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Indeed.

@RhondaReally 3 ай бұрын

I've been through a similar situation with my mother, without the drug abuse, and I'm with you on all of this. Life and death decisions for someone that didn't value us. But, like you, I did all the right things, I have zero regrets, and I finally feel free from the threat. Atta girl. Let us move on!

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

I'm sorry you had to deal with this, too. It sounds like you came out stronger on the other side. Thank you for sharing. ❤️

@g.pp.712 3 ай бұрын

Wow.. my father was an orphan he was abandoned as a baby on the steps of the church which he was named after, he had a hard childhood but he always swore that his children would never go through what he had been through and he was the most amazing father and my role model. It’s hard for me to understand how a father like yours could be this way .. kudos to you to be the person you are today, no thanks to your dad.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

I'm sorry to hear that but glad he turned out so well and was able to provide you with what he didn't have. :)

@bsk6707 3 ай бұрын

Thank you Autumn. What an incredible story. Worthy of a novel in my opinion. I too had to deal with the same issues with my Mom at the end of her life. The only difference was I loved her and she was a special woman. However, the horrendous responsibility of those end of life decisions were sole twisting. I so respect your integrity and compassion. Thank you for sharing with us.

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

It really is! I wasn't expecting that. At least now I feel more prepared if I find myself having to make those decisions for my mom or Paul. I'm sorry for your loss and that you also had to go through some of those difficult decisions. ❤️

@bsk6707 3 ай бұрын

I meant Soul twisting! 🩷

@kathygadler6234 3 ай бұрын

I am an MSN RN Hospice and Palliative Care Nurse. I can not count the times I have intracted wth family members who were estranged, but were put in the decision seat. And I fully understand your lack of grief or feeling of loss. You lost your father years ago. I wish you peace and a new beginning.

@ELloyd 3 ай бұрын

You hit it on the nail. We grieved the loss of our father years ago. It was just official that he was gone. We now don’t have to worry that we will see him on the street, or he will just show up on our door step. We’re not waiting for that call. We can all be at peace and focus on our lives without worry.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing that, Kathy. And thank you for the well wishes.

@Jp22524 3 ай бұрын

I am so sorry you went through a terrible childhood! No child should ever have to go through those abusive experiences. You are strong, and must be blessed by God to have the support of your mom and sister. God bless you always ❤❤❤

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. :)

@donnamosley7658 3 ай бұрын

Autumn, I truly understand what you went through and how you feel. I was thrown into paying for a funeral and handling all the business of a family member I was estranged from for over 10 years.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

I'm sorry to hear that.

@lesliecraven3087 3 ай бұрын

This helped me. I was in an abusive marriage for 18 years. I have always struggled with these feelings about my son’s father. My feelings are validated. Thank you

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Your feelings are definitely valid. I'm sorry you went through that.

@DaylesAddiction 3 ай бұрын

I think this is a great video Autumn, what a tough period to go through with such strength and stoicism!

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Thank you, Dayle. It was also right at the end of the most stressful school year of my life. I'm doing a video next week where I discuss some of that. Last year was piles and piles of difficult things and this was an especially tough (and unexpected) one to end that period.

@danielintheantipodes6741 3 ай бұрын

I had my own struggles in life but nothing that even remotely approaches such a situation. I feel for you. Glad you are able to know that none of this will ever happen again. Thank you for the video.

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Thank you, Daniel. There is a lot of relief in knowing we'll never have to deal with his antics again, though I do still get phone calls about him sometimes (like creditors looking for him) which is a little jarring.

@THE_Lena 3 ай бұрын

I was estranged from my father. I recently found out he passed away and the first emotion that came over me was relief.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

I get it. Sorry you had a bad relationship with him.

@pasitheathanatosasmr488 2 ай бұрын

I can’t watch this because it’s hard for me personally, but I liked it and skipped to the end in the hopes that it helps your algorithm. Thanks

@user-ft3pj1nr6c 27 күн бұрын

I hope this is okay to say. I also had a rough childhood with poverty and hurtful adults. I often feel like I am imposing on communities when I enter a space like the luxury space. People like me don’t go here. I really appreciate you sharing your stories and making the luxury space feel like a space that anyone can join

@chrissyaltman984 23 күн бұрын

I can relate. Thank you.

@sheritee7328 3 ай бұрын

I'm sorry for what you and your family had to go thru Autumn. Hopefully he is also in a better place now. May God be with you and yours and may he finally rest in peace!

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you.

@vickyl1010 2 ай бұрын

You are so mature. I'm proud of your growth. No judgement. Thank you for talking about this.💕

@AliciaDeLaTorrefilmteacher 3 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing. Many of us have similar stories and complicated emotions.

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

I'm sorry that do many people do but knowing that is why I made this video. Thank you. ❤️

@ms_cartographer 2 ай бұрын

I really admire your strength and your resilience. You are thriving, and I am so thrilled! ❤

@OSheaPunk 3 ай бұрын

Not an easy thing to talk about; but thank you. You are helping people, for sure :)

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. :)

@shelleystevens3731 3 ай бұрын

You are an intelligent and well-spoken woman who has exhibited courage throughout your life. You’re going to be okay 👍

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. :)

@DaniOchannel 3 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing such personal details. It must be so relieving for yourself and your family, Autumn. Take care.❤

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Indeed. Thank you.

@VividlyValerie 3 ай бұрын

Autumn, I hope that you, your mom and sister will have a sense of peace. You handled a very, very difficult situation with grace and selflessness. Blessings to you all.

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Thank you, Valerie. I appreciate it. ❤️

@jenny881283 2 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing this. You are definitely a better daughter than I would of been to a father like that. Who knows whats his demons were but I hope he is resting in peace. I'm so happy that you, your sister and mom can finally have some peace. I wish you all peace, happiness, health and long lives. ❤

@Elle-pq3qi 3 ай бұрын

Autumn, i really admire your strength and wisdom in this very difficult situation. Thanks for sharing.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. :)

@DeeDee_Bean 3 ай бұрын

Autumn, I’m so proud of the bravery you have shown and the selfless acts you chose to do for him. I hope in time the inner child in you can find some relief and guilt free peace of all the decisions you had to make that no child should have to make after enduring such a difficult childhood. Thank you for for brave and being true to you. Blessing Dee Dee

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you, DeeDee. :)

@thurayyakey9504 2 ай бұрын

Wow🥺I completely understand. I, from the bottom of my heart, thank you so much for sharing your story. I never watched your channel before and this popped up on my feed. I always secretly felt like a monster for feeling relief that I didn’t have to be afraid anymore.❤

@rhondamarcelissen2919 3 ай бұрын

I’m so sorry you went through all of this. I’m sure it was difficult. Sending you big hugs

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you.

@wens525 2 ай бұрын

Dear Autumn, thank you so much for sharing this story. You are an amazing woman, you are inspirational and courageous. Ps I love all your videos. ❤

@nexx1 3 ай бұрын

Congratulations for surviving that time in your life. ❤not all of us do. You absolutely did not kill your father. He was homeless and chose drugs he walk in that direction himself against the tide.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. :)

@SuzWhat 3 ай бұрын

You are very brave and strong. Peace and Love...Suz What ☮️💛

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Thank you, Suz. ❤️

@malaikamillions Ай бұрын

WOW and Thank You for sharing. I’m currently in a circumstance somewhat similar. It’s so difficult to simply give myself permission to Not give into pressure to go attend his death. He’s not cogent, so what’s the point. The trigger damage simply outweighs any chances of catharsis. It took me a week of roiling in guilt and grief before I could plainly state such fact (two days ago). So I am now just awaiting updates, in angst ridden anticipation of whatever emotional weather may roll in with the news of his passing. - I’ve had years to accept the disfunction, and let go, and “let bless”. It’s letting go of hope to restore some idealization that can be the greatest grief. I know that I’ll step on that rake of lack of resolution from time to time, but I also feel confident that I made every effort to act with dignity. - I feel so normal human by experiencing this video testimony. It’s the greatest gift. 🎁 ❤

@lindawright1028 2 ай бұрын

Dear Autumn, it’s amazing to me, listening to your story, how a man like your father could’ve ever produced a wonderful human being like you. The polar opposite of his existence is everything you are. I know you only from watching countless videos, but I can tell by the look in your face, that you have a level of compassion regardless of his abuse. Thank you for sharing, 🩷

@Grigore360 3 ай бұрын

Thank you so much for sharing your story and honest thoughts/feelings about this.

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Thank you. ❤️

@diannewi 3 ай бұрын

Thank you, Autumn. You've shared a powerful message that will help many.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. :)

@kathleenklein4231 3 ай бұрын

Totally understand, you are human in being relieved.

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Thank you, Kathleen. ❤️

@kathiegoldsmith1457 3 ай бұрын

Well Autumn, that is that. Glad you are all able to move on.

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

That is that, indeed. Thank you. ❤️

@MasterYoda55555 3 ай бұрын

Very proud of you Autumn. Thanks for sharing your story and journey !

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Thank you. ❤️

@Flowcasso 2 ай бұрын

You are a strong, resilient, compassionate woman. You made it out of that incredibly difficult time in your life, and instead of closing the final chapter and moving on, you’ve decided to open up your life story; To help others who may be going through similar challenges. I can tell this was difficult for you, but it truly shows your heart. My hope for you is that you are truly able to move on and to live your absolute best life. You deserve all the wonderful things in store for you. ❤

@paulis5531 3 ай бұрын

You are a very strong lady. Thank you for sharing. It takes a lot of courage to deal with all that stuff. I appreciate your candor and willingness to always help. You have shown more compassion than I can imagine. I find your understanding amazing. We all make our choices based on personal experiences and consultation with others. You are still teaching us the real life issues that we may encounter, but also you are a life coach. Your explanations be it purses 👛 accessories and life are very complete and helpful.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. I appreciate that.

@blktauna 3 ай бұрын

I'm so happy for you and your freedom. Congratulations!

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Thank you. I appreciate it. ❤️

@alishiawalker8703 2 ай бұрын

🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾 Thank you for sharing your experience with your father. Your choice was a personal one based on your experience. I am sure that someone will be able to process, heal and get some clarity from your strength in sharing with us your journey.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you.

@pinkmagnolia921 2 ай бұрын

It sounds like you've found inner peace, which is all that matters ❤

@barbborja1910 13 күн бұрын

I don’t think that you can truly understand the emotional roller coaster that you are going through unless you have grown up with an abusive and addicted parent. While I’m relatively sure my mother has died by now (I haven’t heard from her since shortly after my grandmother-her mom- passed away 25 years ago), I can’t imagine the shock and stress that you went through during this time. Just thinking about this happening, it’s making me incredibly anxious. I’m glad that you are able to finally sleep peacefully knowing he would never traumatize you again.

@arlettevanhoesel1181 3 ай бұрын

Proud of you!Lots of love from Holland ❤❤❤❤❤

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. :)

@Giannas1096 3 ай бұрын

You did the right thing. You are successful in your adult life despite his abuse. I hope your video helps others who have been abused.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. :)

@luvlyleo2836 3 ай бұрын

I pray you and your family are able to finally have peace ❤

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. :)

@devonneshort4749 2 ай бұрын

Autumn you are so strong to deal with your dad and look how well you are doing in your life now🥰.Talking about it always helps it makes you stronger🙂

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. :)

@_LikePersephone 3 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing your story. I wish you nothing but happiness and healing.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. :)

@mimijoy100 3 ай бұрын

Hi Autumn, thank you for your video. As a wife and mother of adult children that are also dealing with a similar situation I appreciate your sharing this story. Sounds like you showed as much compassion as necessary in your situation. May God bless you and keep you strong.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. :) I'm sorry you're dealing with something similar.

@hrh_nurseady 3 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing this, Autumn. We have a very very similar situation. This is what I needed to hear, that I am not alone.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

I'm sorry you're going through something like this, too.

@marilynrich 3 ай бұрын

I’m glad you are well. Hugs ❤

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Thank you. ❤️

@LifeAccordingtoMaria 3 ай бұрын

Autumn, you are such a strong person. What a story. To have you "climb out" of this type of situation into the sunshine and have a positive life is a testament to your strength. There are so many children of abusive and drug addict parents that end up the same way, on drugs and homeless and of course blame their parents for their own demise. To see that you went the opposite way and gave your Father the "finger" and said hell no, I am not going to be dragged down by you is again a testament to your will power. You did everything right and made the decisions that the social worker said you could live with and sleep at night about. What a nightmare to have to deal with someone as poisonous as your Father. Bless you and your family.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. I appreciate it.

@nickjsne 2 ай бұрын

Your strength and resolve are incredible Autumn ! Thank you for sharing and for being so open with us ❤️

@marlenewagner4365 3 ай бұрын

Hugs to you Autumn for sharing this story with us! There will be many of us who can relate to what you have shared. There should be no guilt or shame in purging ourselves from the toxic people in our lives. You and your family are now completely free and the relief of knowing that you made it to the other side is worth celebrating. Kudos to you, your sister and mom for having the strength to make the hard decisions along the way for your own sanity and survival. Thank you for being vulnerable enough to take us on this journey with you-it will help others along the way for sure!

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. I appreciate it. :)

@euriditia 2 ай бұрын

This is going to be me someday... And I'm not sure how I will deal with it. Having abusive parents is something that no one should have to experience, yet many do.

@valrice817 3 ай бұрын

Autumn, thank you for sharing your story! ❤

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Thank you. ❤️

@carolynwilson7806 2 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing your story because I believe it will help a lot of people, either directly or indirectly. You are incredibly strong and intelligent and deserve peace.

@MsGlamazon 3 ай бұрын

Autumn you are a very brave young lady ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. :)

@lovelacole 3 ай бұрын

Thank you for making this video! ❤

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Thanks for watching. ❤️

@corikay 3 ай бұрын

Wow! I remember watching those original videos and was always so impressed that you truly made such a wonderful life for yourself! And now to hear the story of the recent events makes me even more excited and proud for you and your attitude. While I am blessed that I am not affected by these issues, I absolutely know that your voice and video will help someone!!! I feel very fortunate to be subscribed to your channel!!!!🥰💖

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. :)

@phooongtion 14 күн бұрын

damn thank you for sharing this...Im dealing with the death of my abusive father right now.

@onlyme9978 2 ай бұрын

Life is a never ending “University” and their are times we fail in the most horrific ways. The beauty of life is that we can learn how to love and forgive in order to be at peace and conveying a challenging and yet beautiful lesson to be learned. You are such an amazing teacher 💖

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

That's a great perspective about life being a university. Thank you. :)

@QuietlyPeaceful 3 ай бұрын

I hardly post on your videos though I'm a handbag lover like yourself. But you've given me a lot of value in this one that I hope I'd remember for if/when i might have to deal with such. It's remarkable how calm and composed you remain, though you filmed this only a few days after his death. God bless you and your family, Autumn. Lots of love from India. ❤🙏🏻✨

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. :)

@genellenugent9994 2 ай бұрын

This was a good video to watch. All the best to you. You've done everything you could. You seem to have dealt with abuse too which is commendable and speaks to your mental health being so good. Be at peace now and try not to think about him. xxx

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. :)

@thegoodnightgracie 3 ай бұрын

I’m sorry for your loss Autumn. I appreciate your honesty and completely understand it. If your experience of a person was mainly as abusive, it’s hard to know how to feel, and there’s a lot of relief. I think it’s important to be honest about the relationship and not re-write history just because the person has passed on. I think it’s normal to be-relieved. Just be aware so much anger can well up, now that it’s safe to feel that anger.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Agreed. Thank you.

@fulviavizzutti9863 2 ай бұрын

I think that all you have done was absolutely right and very brave; he missed many occasions to be saved, in spite of the harm he did to his family, and there is not anything else to say. Good life 🌈😍🛍️

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you.

@janmauro282 3 ай бұрын

Hi Autumn. I totally understand, we all have difficult times occur throughout our lifetime. I believe you did everything the best you could, because that is who you are. Thank you for trying to help others who may also dealing with difficult decisions. Jan.

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Everyone definitely has their own struggles. Mine are worse than some but much less than many others. The cards life deals us can be really unfair but everyone has choices on what to do afterward.

@kaitlinbeste 3 ай бұрын

I'm glad you're talking about this. And I'm sorry you had to go through that. I

@AutumnBeckman 3 ай бұрын

Thank you, Kaitlin. ❤️

@carlosperaltamx 3 ай бұрын

damn.... Im going through a very similar situation and I understand you. thank you for sharing

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

I'm sorry you're going through something like this, too.

@deborahconkle6822 Ай бұрын

My story isn’t all the same as yours. That said I am so appreciative that you have shared it. My childhood was turbulent,although I don’t think quite the same as yours. I am going to say I am sorry you went through all that came your way. I can say that because I appreciate when those I love acknowledge me. I remember when my dad passed I happened to be at the hospital and it was both a peaceful time and a confusing moment. I won’t go into the details.(my writing is rambled). The thing I remember the most is wanting to see and hold my Dad’s hand. I remember saying to him,I love you Dad and wish things were different. The thing is,they weren’t. I pray peace to all who had or are having a hard time in childhood and carrying the baggage that can be really heavy. I do want to say that the next Father’s Day was surprisingly easy. And not because I didn’t love my dad,but because I didn’t have to say things I didn’t feel in all the greeting cards. Sad,but freeing. Thank you for making this video. ❤

@PurpleBeesKnees 3 ай бұрын

Thank you for sharing something so difficult and personal in an effort to help and comfort others. I'm sorry you and your sister and your mother went through all that you did. You have accomplished so much in your life -- you are well-educated, a teacher who positively affected children, happily married despite what you witnessed as a child, and now a youtuber who brings people a lot of pleasure through your videos. I hope you feel pride in your accomplishments and continue to be a source of positivity in the world. 💜

@AutumnBeckman 2 ай бұрын

Thank you. It's taken longer than it does for the average person but I have come a very long way from where I started and I do take time every now and then to reflect on that. I always want to push myself farther, though. :)