I am genuinely sorry for the people who seem fixated on trying to tear you down in the comments. I don't think they realize how ironic it is to go out of their way to /bully/ a person on the internet sharing their story, and consider themselves "not abusers". Aside from this, thank you for sharing! It's a pretty rare opportunity to hear about someone's inner world this way.

I really appreciate this video. You rarely see videos on sociopaths and narcissists admitting that they are actually narcissistic so the fact that you openly accept and acknowledge your diagnosis is huge. Thank you for educating us on how you perceive things.

The lil smile after mentioning the bond with your cats 😊

This was an extremely analytical, on-point and useful breakdown. I've never seen anyone self-analyse their ASPD this way and people (including mental health and psychiatry professionals) would gain much from viewing it. Amazing work.

That was incredibly interesting for me, thank you, I subscribed. I have BPD and NPD, but no longer meet the diagnostic criteria for NPD.

Please be kind people. She’s clearly doing the work 😊

What I find fascinating is how your face lights up just for a second and there's a tiny little smile when you mentioned your cats.

I feel kind of bad for you delta, you got a sorry look in your eyes. If that was feigned, you got me with it

I really appreciate these videos. I've known a couple sociopaths in my life, and have watched videos describing the condition, but there's nothing like hearing about what it's like, first hand, to help me understand the behaviour and mindset of those people I knew. Thank you.

A sociopath is basically a super angry person who is usually angry all the time. (anger brings out the worst in people).

You are brave for doing this. It’s very insightful and I hope you are going to heal the bad patterns.

Thanks for sharing so much of yourself with us.

If I had a pound for every time you blink... I WOULD HAVE NOTHING!

Blessings to you on your journey Delta, thank you for sharing xo

She's a hurt repressor as she can feel anger but the hurt bubbles underneath it so that needs to be accessed more.

Thank you for sharing. I worry about what might happen if your one and only human connection struggles in any way. It might be useful to discuss this in a calm thoughtful manner. It's good to be prepared for all eventualities. Good on you for working on yourself. I hope you are able to start feeling some of the prosocial emotions one day. I'm also glad to see more content like this online. It's important that everyone is represented and able to see themselves mirrored. You exist exactly the way you are for a reason. 😊

You should get a job as a Human Resources officer.

Do you experience social hyerarchical emotions? Humiliation, respect, adoration, pride?

How to spot a sociopath: the stare at you an never blink

Thank you for sharing that with us. I can relate to this very much and thought it made me a bad person that I only care about myself and my happiness. I rarely care about others feelings or how my lack of emotion make them feel.

One of the most interesting videos on this topic I’ve seen, thank you for breaking it down and explaining! I don’t know if you read comments, or ever consider video requests…but if you do and are open, I am really interested to understand how bonding works for you, like what makes you feel safe/like you don’t have to shut down, and what it would take for people to genuinely accommodate that.

Thank you for sharing this Delta!

Thank you for being brave and sharing this! Mental health disorders have terrible stigma based off people's ignorance and unwillingness to understand anything outside of themselves...and they see themselves as different somehow. Ironic. ❤

I forgot her name but you oddly sounds and talks very similar to an Australian woman who also was diagnosed ASPD, BPD and NPD. The way they talk, very monotone, no facial expressions. Thank you for sharing this.

Classical psychopath. Its not a shame, its just how some people are. we just need to be aware of that so we can better manage our relationships with others!

Thank you this was interesting. I also follow Kanika Batra who has aspd diagnosed, so, there really are differences , a lot. I have always read and heard that if a person has aspd, they cannot experience any kind of anxiety or panic attacks, so interesting that you have.

A brave video.

Positive comment hair looks good

Thank you for sharing this.

That’s interesting she doesn’t get not only 1st but 2nd hand embarrassment…. That’s actually SO cool lolll

I like the way you explain how different you are.

Do people with ASPD (especially narcissistic ones) ever self-sabotage/destruct when they feel out of control?

New to this channel & haven’t seen any other videos yet, but a genuine question I have would be -how do you deal with impulse control? Like in the sense it seems it’s often stated that the apathy and or mind numbing boredom of aspd is one of the most challenging aspects of it as it’s pretty much always present?.. So in that case, it seems often times someone struggling with that experience will eventually also struggle with impulse control specifically in regard to making an attempt (or feeling an urge) to break out of that feeling, even if only for a while. How do you handle this post getting help??

Thank you for creating this content, to help people better understand what it feels like to have ASPD and NPD. Your lack of ability to feel prosocial emotions is possibly due to a genetic variation in your body’s oxytocin receptors. Read “Moral Molecule” by Paul Zak for more info. I’m curious, if you could take a medication to feel all emotions like a “neurotypical” feels, would you want to take the medication?

I'd sell my soul to never feel anxiety or panic. Pisses me off and runs in my family on both sides.

I can't read you at all, looking into your eyes leads me nowhere, it's a really unsual feeling. Hope you heal well, you're doing great!

I honestly think life would be so much better without sone emotions. Some emotions are seriously outdated.

Do you *want* to feel more joy/happiness? Like is it something you feel is missing, or long to experience more of? Or does the apathy mean it doesn't matter to you exactly how you feel (as long as it's not particularly unpleasant)?

Interesting thank you!

Hardly any depression or anxiety? Sounds nice, I guess the trade off being anger, boredom, disregard?

hey Delta !, questions for you: do you experience "your set of emotions" as a handicap ? - or do you rather feel superior by that ? - when in your life did you realize that you are differing in your emotional capacity and range ? - thank you for your openess.....

this was very interesting

that was awesome '

Very interesting

Thank you for the channel. I have people in my life who have NPD and this helps with my radical acceptance to keep them in my life. I’m curious, have you ever been screened for Autism? I have Autism and sometimes you just remind me of someone who also has Autism. I know a lot of people with ASD get diagnosed NPD beforehand because some of the symptoms can overlap just they come from different places.

Is this numbness and low prosocial emotions the result of trauma? Since you have been able to bond with safe people e.g. fiance seems like a defensive response to feel apathetic or low care for others rather than pure low arousal antisocial traits. Those kinds never feel any bond with others and would never even when young have anxiety or shame

Is there any evidence that absent pro social emotions can grow for people with ASPD?

I also feel a lot of annoyance, anger and boredom and general apathy but the former need to be triggered, otherwise i'm pretty peaceful. Can't get attached to people, i barely even miss anyone and don't genuinely care about people, which frustrates me a lot. But strangely with all this apathy, i feel so much shame, guilt and empathy when something that triggers it happens. It's so confusing, like What am i?

Is the staring a feature? Does that translate to people?

I have 2/3 insecure attachments according to a test and my mental health disorders. I hope that further research is underway. I did my part. One of the things it makes me think is that every personality disorder have at least 2 subtypes. For ASPD, it would be the dismissive and anxious subtypes. Please pay attention to the authors and don't mix up the results!

How do you manage not to blink?

The point is.. what do you feel?

you experience all that

Do you feel empty?

That’d be interesting if there was a reverse psychopathy, like you only felt the inverse emotions that she does…. Just only felt good all the time lol how come there’s not????

Are you reading? Sounds robotic. 😢

Guess I´m a sociopath lol

You should be in politics.

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Juu kissa on ainoa

Why do you consider yourself a sociopath and not a psychopath? Is it the lack of prosocial behaviors?

but why don’t you blink?

How rubbish would that be

Wenigstens ist sie ehrlich. Trotzdem macht das sie mir nicht sympathisch. Sie ist irgendwie gruselig.

Why would anyone believe pathological liar?

You should try riding a motorcycle. I bet you will feel a lot of emotion. 100%

🙄🙄

You don’t have a bond with your family?

Why? Why algorithm, FUH KING WUH EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

Instead of dying your hair red, you should paint your ceiling red instead! 😁

1:54 you are an abuser. I hope your current partner realizes before it's too late.

You just want attention