So who trafficked you and how did that happen? Why did your parents not protect you?

Who trafficked you and how? Why did your parents not protect you?

@@anistristan1202 most kids are trafficked by their family, or are runaways/abandoned from abusive and neglectful households.

@@britsaunders2151 That's so awful. I'm so sorry that happened to you.

@@britsaunders2151 Seems strange that one's own family would traffick them? What would make a family do this?

I’m doing significantly better in that regard now. I’ve made a lot of progress.

Thank you.

I hope your main priority in life is getting extensive therapy for many years to come. That's a lot of trauma.

Yup never really seen it common in persons with aspd I'm diagnosed with aspd and don't got an Ed neither have never met any other person with aspd that had an ed

Yup. Somatization

Unempathetic like she is?

you do realize that she herself is more un-empathetic than we ever will be right?😂

​@@discardedlotus1014 That's kind of an unempathetic statement to brag about how much more empathetic you are than others.

ASPD + NPD + Sadistic tendencies and terrible and abusive behavior in her relationships as she described herself, by definition entails a lack of a CAPACITY for empathy. The vulnerability you are imagining is just that, your imagination, your projection of something in you, that does not actually exist in her. What this is, is a call for volunteers to sacrifice themselves in an attempt to save her. If you fall for that, it's your own narcissism that convinces you that can fix someone else.

@@JimBillyRayBob ok, BillyRayBob... I dont think I can save anyone, I'm not God...I believe in compassion, I'm not stupid and two wrongs don't make a right. Is that simple enough for ya...clearly with your lengthy reply and need to straighten me out it's your own narcissism 😉👌🤔

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Sounds like malignant narcissism. Basically someone who cannot be part of society at this point. Scary.

@@Liz-wz8dh to some extent, but not really because malignant narcissists need society to get narcissistic suplay on any means, borderline is more emotionally disrrgulated and construct narcissistic defense to deel with this constant emotional disregulation but can also make maglinant from of it as means to obtain certain ways of emotional projection and emotional regulation through establishing grandiosity upon others weaknesses that can be real provoked or projected. Real malignant narcissist is much less instable emotional state and have very rigid behavioral patterns constantly rationalizing own position in regard to others for obtaining narcissistic suplay on any means with total disregard of how their behavior impact others which can be very similar how borderline behave when is emotionally disrrgulated. It's much more complex mental construct then people tend to think on behalf of common understanding of this conditions. Covert narcissist can collapse and behave as borderline and in prolonged and constant collapsing become malignant narcissist but doesn't behave so obviously emotionally disrrgulated when adopt malignant narcissistic self state, hence why in first place is covert. While overt narcissist in my opinion is early in childhood borderline adopted overt narcissism and can become malignant when rationalization gives him ability to regulate acomulated emotional disregulation through malignant narcissistic action state so no more as just defense of borderline emotional disregulation but as means of action towards obtaining emotional or impuls regulations.

Sam Vaknin recently had a video on how BPD and NPD can interact within a person. What’s scary when you think of it, she can say she’s blaming others etc and self aware but she’s only concerned about the consequences to her, not the damage she’s causing to others.

@@chamuuemura5314 that's defense of grandiosity where here emotional regulation became more important than others because of constant disregulation in interaction with others. It's provoked learned patterns of behavior as narcissistic defense because of lack of impulse and emotional control. Narcissists does also blame others, borderline blame first self and in prolonged self blame and various failed tactics for overcoming this self blame and various acting out through psychopathic state borderline learn to project not just emotional states to others but also this self blame so in a way she blame others for reason she blame self is last line if defense because of self destructive self blame. She is aware of this not like narcissist who is not aware because all construct is about elevated sense of self above others, but she because of this awareness constantly decompesate and become even more impulsive and emotionally disregulated and aquire sociopathic calculated behavior and rationalization of own behavior but still without even hint of rationalization of own emotional state.

@@Liz-wz8dh yes, I have malignant NPD and ASPD.

Not genuine love I don’t think but I do care for her and want to be able to properly love her one day

@@dammitdelta how do you know the difference between what you experience w your partner and real love?

​@@dammitdeltaabuser

​@@OFFICIALHappy97bro...💀

@@qazumi_ just being honest...

There's no such thing as studying correlations between made up crap and psychiatric issues in good faith. Science and bullshit don't mix.

malignant narcissists is what I use

@@punk86 yes I have studied that also. Most malignant narcs go to jail.

PHP is partial hospitalization program. It’s where you go to residential during the day but get to go home at night. So it’s a step down from residential :)

She probably has a hard time falling asleep...

No fr! Super scary.

came here to comment this

are you psychic? maybe she's on meds. Don't draw conclusion about someone you don't know

yeah they do. as a narc she hates every second of admitting her abusive tendencies but shes telling her story and thats enough as is

Not everyone is going to do the “non-blinking “ all the time. ( I don’t expect. )

Can you not say this insane shit pls

No, I went to Timberline Knolls, the Emily Program, and Eating Recovery Center

That's actually part of the disorder. ASPD causes more reptilian eyes and many have to remind themselves to blink more frequently while interacting with people. It's a thing, lol.

@@ClandestineGirl16XNot true that’s just false stigma this girl just wants attention by exaggerating her disorder.

​@@FreeLock808really? How do you know? Im curious

hahahahahaha she cant break character ;););) Shes so cringe...poor girl

@@ClandestineGirl16X y'all are so easy to fool xD

people come from different backgrounds brutha. Clearly yours lead you to a very judgmental mindset

She want therapy and you don’t want the therapist to know about the things she think you did/do wrong?! Narcissism and other personally disorders develops in childhood, so maybe you have been a part of the problem? And then you don’t want to seek therapy with her… You sound like a bad parent…..

@@vibra1562 We didn't generally talk about childhood conflict. There was plenty to talk about from more recent conflict. And everyone else was willing to take responsibility. She was not. She would generally shut down, explode in rage, or just leave when someone managed to get through her manipulation tactics to talk about what she had done, or when he therapist pointed out that she wasn't doing what she expected of others. She wanted validation of her emotions, but refused to do the same.

@@matthewbrown8679narcissism in an individual is also caused by invalidation in childhood, the wounds can grow deep and long, and you don’t sound like you have any experience validating her experiences at all. you sound like one of those exes/parents who has narcissistic traits themselves and then springs to put them on anyone in their lives you don’t talk anymore because she wanted to heal her wounds in therapy? good for her.

@@fatymah1138 My daughter had what I now recognize as narcissistic tendencies as a child and teenager. But she wasn't someone with a pathological degree of vulnerable narcissism. I watched without initially knowing what I was watching as her marriage to a vulnerable narcissist changed her. I saw her abandon her vote values just to try to make her relationship work. Those core values were largely what had protected her from her own tendencies in the past. I watched as she first accepted his victim mentality as reality, enabled that victim mentality, and developed a victim mentality of her own. I watched as she lost her empathy, as she began treating perfect strangers in hateful ways, as she lost all ability at first to acknowledge her husband's responsibility for his actions, then lost all willingness to take responsibility for her own actions. Her siblings and I have in various combinations tried to do therapy with her with similar results. Whether in therapy or out her need for validation became a bottomless pit that she was desperate to fill, but no amount of validation would fill it. Do you seriously think we didn't try? There comes a point when continued validation is enabling self victimization.

@@fatymah1138 You might want to consider the possibility that you can't divine the universe from a few brief comments. You have no idea what kind of relationships she had with her family growing up, where her self image issues originated, and what might have aggravated manageable issues into deeply pathological problems. I do. I watched as her relationship with a narcissistic husband pulled her into her own narcissistic pit. I've watched her lose all ability to take moral responsibility for her own actions, transition from a deeply empathetic and spiritual person into an empty husk that no amount of validation can fill. I've seen how she manipulated people and situations, and tried to use therapy as a manipulation tool. When others resisted and insisted on anything resembling mutualism in those sessions rather than a one way, unreciprocated validation firehouse pointing her way things generally went badly. It was her last therapy session with her mother that led to complete estrangement. Now by this anyone following this thread will be able to make a great guess as to your own level of narcissism. Are you going to take personal responsibility for making judgements with nothing resembling the knowledge necessary, or are you going to argue your uninformed point?

Off and on yes. I have a chronic illness.

Am I the only one that noticed in her older content she was blinking more and now she isn't?

@@kitkatherine0177 yup I noticed too

@@kitkatherine0177 there’s a reason for that. I moved out of a moldy and allergen heavy environment that was causing me several issues and has had lasting impact on my health. I don’t really see why everyone is so concerned about my blinking. If anything, it’s from the DID and not even related to my personality disorders.

Yes, just choose not to talk about it much

They suffer due to them not wanting to change, so they end up living life and being a reflection of her abusers, then play victim and never do anything about it.

@@punk86 While I don’t want to invalidate you personally (wrong is wrong), I would like to open your mind to the idea that psychology is not fully understood in our modern society. If I were you, I wouldn’t put so much weight into the idea that people with narcissistic personality disorder are as evil as 2023 pop culture would have you believe. My main point is the brain is not fully understood so how could narcissistic brains be fully understood.

​​@@MyraMabryA to the fkin men. We haven't fully understood the brain. Even experts can't figure ppl out with all the time they spend diagnosing ppl and/or learning about the mind Sometimes randos think they figured it out by reading some bs on the internet that's not how it works

It's an act

She has aspd what do you expect

It's not polite to comment on other people's looks, especially when they're sharing such a personal story

Think that's something that sociopaths do. I've noticed that a lot. 😮

​@@saskiaehlers5273 So the eyes of people with ADPD don't get dry? Blinking normally has nothing to do with anxiety.

thank you for mansplaining and clarifying your empathy, i would have mistaken it for a middle aged white man pretending to care but then preceding to make it obscenely and un-neededly sexual

​​ @MisMadison Huh..? Just by using the term mansplaining, you have discredited yourself. All that means is a woman can't handle the truth. Given your self-disqualification, i have no need or desire to respond to anything else you say.

What a weird comment... what do you gain?

​@@Anonymous-mp5mtrespect he gains respect

who gives a fuck if shes lying or tellin the truth, a hope she feels better for herself & others

​@@pinchpancake1093 you his mom?

No one gives a fuck about your shit guy.

You listed a whole lot of things and not one was "qualifications."

@@SLYKM You didn't list a single crime that you had ever committed. That tells me you don't have ASPD. It's been awhile since I did any drunk driving or visited prostitutes. I've never been diagnosed with ASPD, nor do I claim to have it. You said I have no credentials but didn't deny my point. That's called the ad hominem fallacy.

@@smokyquartz5817 I'll bet you are her using a different name and liking your own comment. That's why I can't see this response on my other account. My whole point was that you are a fake because you have never broken the law. It's part of the diagnostic criteria for antisocial personality disorder. Getting a few traffic tickets, smoking weed, or shoplifting once doesn't count.

@@smokyquartz5817 At least I did shit, gal. You didn't do a thing.

Don't invalidate someone doing the work you don't want to do. It's a difficult journey that takes a lot of strength and support. I hope you can find those and make a better life for yourself.

@@mom.left.me.at.michaels9951 BS, there’s nothing to it.

Is this satire cause there's nothing funny, people with cluster be went through a lot of trauma and their a survivor that's why they have disorders hope this helps 🤗

​@@neromachiavelli5670The fact that you, a mere random internet stranger watching a few minutes of her videos, think you know better than certified professionals who watched and interacted with her 24/7 for months is telling of your grandiosity.

@@YesPlease1 cry more

Brother

@@nathan4599 🤷‍♂️🫡🇺🇸🇮🇱🇬🇧

I definitely believe her but I do study psychology,

@@tonrobert3391 then you are aware of the tapestry. Every lie and manipulation has a bit of truth. What does she get by posting videos? Better treatment by professionals and girlfriend stays. Acting. Faking Lying. Taking. What can prove her mind is healing? Not even words matching actions can do that. A mask of a different color is still a mask. Kudos to her for trying. If she can fake a decent mask to where people will enjoy her, good for her. That’s still a win. Until one day she pulls off that mask just to rip out someone’s soul.

ong she cappin

I see it in her eyes.

I agree. her older stuff she was blinking in. Kanika says sociopaths dont blink as much and now she doesn't blink. She claimed to have DID in the past when it was popular. Now being a narcissist and a sociopath is popular and trendy. Think she has Münchausen syndrome instead.

😂

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@@fatymah1138 Please read the passage. She had a chance to get saved but rejected it. She wasn't born this way, but it's too late for her now 🔥☠️🔥

@@fatymah1138 She wasn't born this way. She had a chance. She blew it.

You are an idiot. Bible also tells us “in all things have understanding.” Shame on you for being a jerk.

That's not how it works. Women can have NPD and ASPD too. Not only BPD. Also, say WOMEN, not FEMALES.

BPD is more common but NPD and ASPD in women is also common. Having known a few folks with NPD with antisocial traits I can tell you Delta is DEFINITELY more towards the ASPD spectrum. Theres research that says that cluster B goes in and out of the different types. My mother is HPD and she can look like she has full blown NPD when she gets angry however her baseline really isn't as manipulative as someone with full blown NPD or ASPD...Men can and do have BPD as well. Its a complex and very interesting topic.

@@nateo200 it is interesting, for a while. Until you learn several of the commonalities, learn to spot them, and realize the only sane thing to do is to stay away from them and that trying to understand is part of tbe trap. Then all the particular DSM distinctions become essentially irrelevant, meaningless categories in a psychology book written by academics. Just as a lifeguard is trained that a drowning person is likely to drown you when you try to save them, so it is with all of the people that fit into these various categories like NPD and BPD.

@@Brxwn9 a woman is an adult human female, and it's debatable in my opinion whether these people possess all the fundamental characteristics of what we consider to be a human being, like say empathy, or the ability to recognize another person as having their own wants, needs, desires and values that are equally as valid as their own. They certainly to not qualify as what we think of as an adult. So female works for me.

Huh???

Thank you. I am on tiktok as dammitdelta

Tiktok is profitable?

Could be borderline. Aspd are usually more calm