Hey rosy, i havnt seen a therapist but i know for a fact this is what im suffering from. Your always sad, upset, have feelings of lonliness and hopelessness but your as quiet as a mouce. Im currently battling a drug addiction that no one knows about. Not my friends, family, work mates no one! You feel as though there is no support for you abd that your invisible. Just wanna say rosy that i could see your beautiful soul radiate throughout this whole video. Keep up the fight and never give up!

Relationships, freinds and people I would like to know how BPd people deal with their relationships cz i heard so many different stuffs about borderline not getting to deal with relationship and being so vulnerable and having boundaries ..is it the same towards family members I mean parents and siblings living with u so..plz try to explain more about this .

You did great sweetheart! 👌💜 keep up the good work with mental health videos 😉 it really helped a lot listening to you. You have such a beautiful soul 💗 you gave me comfort and validated my pain, as a fellow trauma survivor with BPD. I can see that I have had quiet BPD for many years and now in relationship with my boyfriend that is a safe person, I get more aggressive and split on him from time to time, When I get triggered. Can anyone relate to this?

Thank you and take good care~ I appreciate you. Shout out from Rhode Island, USA. ❤

@@cant_touchthis69 Lols everyone always says that about me that im super quiet. People are like she never gets mad, haha its like its good u dont see me mad, i wouldnt want you too haha. I never was diagnosed, but I grew up with a severally mental ill parent, due to that, or idk, I have like no confidence in myself. I always felt like something was slightly different about me always, but growing up, I have always been my worst enemy and have very little confidence that constantly changes. Well, it wasn't until I fall in love with a person I worked with, who everyone else hated, who had Borderline Personality, the outward type. But for some reason I felt really connected to this person despite their extreme responses and really felt like I could understand this persons feelings, triggers etc. When I got into a relationship with them kind of, I sometimes acted as badly as they did, when I was thinking about it, as I really researched the disorder, I often wondered why I felt so connected to this person. So researching the disorder, as my mom is bipolar probably a NPD, and she is so different then the person I fell in love with that had BPD even though they had some similarities. So researching the disorder I found discouraged or quiet bpd, and I was like geezzzz that sounds like me?? Like I bottle things up, often times my mom blamed everyone for everything, no one could handle her, so I was always super fearful of failure, hurting anyone, or causing problems, so I blame myself for everything. So, I could be really stressed and upset for a long time and just bottle it up, until I eventually just explode, sometimes its just like Stop Leave me Alone, then I with drawl. ANything that goes wrong I just beat myself up, both physically and mentally all the time, when things go well I am fine, I start to become confident but as soon as something goes wrong I feel myself unravel inside and start to crumble in a downward spiral and I feel I loose control of myself inside, but no one else ever notices cuz I do the samething I do everyday. So, I noticed I was always fearful he would leave, or anyone. Like I can notice the slightest mood change or subtle body langauge whether I am just paranoid or simply seeing true fact. I will open up, but if I feel people won't accept me or I feel I let someone down, I just retreat back inward to myself. I will hold stuff in for a long time then randomly blab stuff out of no where and binge message, just because I feel like I have so much to say, and feel so much but can never express it. I really struggle verbally expressing myself, and even in tests and counseling, people ask are you okay, I say I am fine, most disorder tests seem so vague, like do u hate urself, ill say no, but do I like myself most of the time Absolutely not. Idk. Like I am my own worst enemy, I often feel really misunderstood, and like so when I get stressed out, lashing out is usually my last resort, accept lately I have been so stressed that I have been lashing out at little things which is unusual for me, but lashing out is usually a last resort, but like even when I get stressed out I just mentally completely shut down and no one ever understands, its so frustrating and embarrressing, I feel so terrible, but it just happens, usually when I am stressed or bored I just zone out, because growing up in a really dramatic enviroment my only way to escape was to zone out, idk if thats dissocation but i think thats how I do. Yet, no one thinks I change, but everyday I smile and look the same but inside I could feel real confident about myself and the next minute the confidence is completely gone its constantly change, the more positive things that happen the more I forget that I am any different from anyone else and I start to feel normal, then something happens people used to say grow thicker skin, its frustrating, when negative things happen, then it just triggers things that people wouldn't understand, unless they were me growing up in my childhood. Or like for instance, my love for like most bpd people, my love for my partner if I have one, I never go from loving them to hating them ever, but I do constantly change in my self confidence of their love especially without consistant affirmation I need consistant little reassurances otherwise i become pretty paranoid and its come out on my patterns, so I never go from hating to loving someone, its more like one minute im sure they love me and the next I don't think they really love me anymore, I constantly doubt how people feel about me, and I feel like it can change just in an instance, once people have seen some of my negative or explosive behavior that rarely comes out but does especially when things go bad, then I realize i can trust them more because they seen my weak side, but I am soo fearful of making friends or opening up to anyone because I don't want people to see my ugly self, that I feel I am totally incompetent. Like, I am so afraid to be left, but so afraid of hurting someone or failure. I look like I am feeling a 7 out of 10, when I could actually be a 3 emotionally but no one knows it. Now rarely if I get pushed far enough I will beat myself up or punish myself by either destroying something I love or by removing something such as food for instance, if I am upset I cannot feel physical pleasure because I feel horribly guilty and selfish and some how I have to punish myself for it. Even when I get mad at people it eventually eats me alive inside.

Yes it's exactly like that for me

I like this, it is like a doublr edge sword

Wow, didn't think about it this way, but this feels accurate from my own experiences. Thank you.

From personal experience, I believe this inward harm comes from not being able to show those around you what you're experiencing. For me, its because my mom would gaslight me if I ever experienced emotions outwardly I had this attachment with my mother as a child where i would act out, until I was abused into not doing so and realized the emotional hurt I felt and tried to show for attention from her got me no where, but physically hurt or just more hurt emotionally because she wouldn't care if I told her I was upset. She would just ignore me and let me cry and wonder (narcissistic). Eventually, at 7 I took this pain inward and really would want to harm myself (I didn't though because I knew she would be mad and inwardly blame herself)

And it's also like that for me

Omg that makes so much sence

duuude, you spoke my mind.

Me

also what?

@@BlackLabelSlushie CW is considered a covert (quiet) narcissist and sociopath. Most people with BPD and Narcissism don't murder and dispose of their pregnant wife and children in such cold and heartless ways. Apparently we are all on the narcissist/empath spectrum. Check out Live Abuse Free hosted by a well qualified psychologist analysing the Chris Watss trial and narcissism et al. kzfaq.infovideos I learn't a lot.

I reconize that

This is something I do oh so often that I wish I could just vanish within myself. I'm always being told this and would like to share it with you. You may have heard it many times, however, from me to you, learn to be kind to yourself,NO, it's not easy, but the more you try it the less worst you will feel about yourself. Over time I promise you, it will get better, try not to get consumed by it. Tell yourself (even if you don't feel it) I am a survivor. Sry I find myself sharing when I just want to say I understand you and been there and still there at times.

oh wow. That is so sad! I hope you can outgrow it.

@Julie Sprik There are varying opinions on that. You might want to research more on CPTSD, too. Also the 9 symptoms criteria of BPD. About the 9 symptoms, Dr. Grande has recently produced a wonderful video on them, and tells us of research breaking those symptoms into 3 categories of symptoms versus (possibly) the cause. Having had 15 years experience now with a BPD I tend to disagree with you. In fact I believe some of the symptoms can be outgrown, and if the primary cause becomes addressed this can make the world of difference. Of course my own project still is in the research phase but I am expecting soon to have a one confirmation this is right.

I am reading a really good book that I highly recommend... "Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving" by Pete walker

Yeah I think the people you date might say otherwise but I do understand that this is something you deal with all the time and not simply for months or a couple years. Definitely wanted to kill myself for a long time after my two quiet BPD relationships. So confusing and surreal and horrific and devastating. You never have any idea what’s around the bend but the pain in the end is almost insurmountable. Completely dissolves any semblance of self-worth or hope for the future. Mind just plays the same things every minute of every day for months and months. Can’t eat, can’t sleep, you’re a chore to be around. I lost twenty pounds in a month and have probably permanently scarred my military track record. I really hope there comes a time when people learn how to adequately address these disorders. For everyone’s sake.

It turns into absolute hatred of yourself if you don't get some form of help.

I’ve known a couple of people who were seriously traumatised by their relationships with pwBPD… And yes I understand pwBPD can’t help it and feel awful for doing what they do (when they’re in the state of mind to be), but saying the shit they inflict on others isn’t as bad as what they inflict on themselves, just 1. Devalues the trauma they inflict on others 2. Shift blame 3. Compete for victimhood 4. Excuse their actions.

not all BPD ppl hurt others. Some do, yeah, and I'm not justifying their behavior. But some people act like people with BPD have no feelings and do not care who they hurt, which isn't the case. @@dedclownsRfunny

Holy fuck holy fuck wow you just described my whole life. I’m confident, but I also overanalyze everything I do.

It's a gift and a curse.

I think it was Jesus

“I swear to you gentlemen, that to be overly conscious is a sickness, a real, thorough sickness.” ― Fyodor Dostoevsky

Why is it a sickness? I disagree.

Yeah me too

YES SAME i think its not worth complaining about bc there are ppl that are seemingly worse

I started self harming at 9 years old, in discreet ways like you, but by 18 I gave in and started cutting. For the first time in my life, people believed me. My own parents stopped pretending nothing was wrong and finally got me help. I thought cutting was the best decision I ever made, but it wasn’t. It turned into a bad addiction very quickly. I try to stop but then I relapse after a few weeks or months. It fucking sucks. Physical scars don’t validate the years of anguish and suffering. Your experiences and journey with mental health do. If people can’t see that and try to invalidate you for it, fuck em.

Somewhat similarly, when I started cutting I always would hate on myself saying it was just for attention, even when I would do everything to hide them. It even made me feel like I was a faker.

Is that a tiktok DID? Or is it real? At what age did these other people in your head develop?

I feel you so much!!!

Sending love. Diagnosed with bpd and ptsd a month ago. We can do this

Exactly! Really i am overwhelmed. Relieved. Also terrified. But more relieved.

Me right now lol 🥲

uv.vibes awwww 🥺💖💖

Please do

We're craving for love and care . At the same time we're pushing and pulling away everyone who gives us love.😩

I’m sat here crying I feel like I need this hug 🤗💕

Thanks, I needed this sm + I'm almost crying

Wow that is a perfect description. Sounds like you have your fair share of difficulties though too. I think DID must be quite scary and it's widely misunderstood. I hope you're doing well

Wait so... Not everyone experiences emotions that way? Oh... Now this is making sense. 😅 Just finding out now at age 27 that I have BPD. I thought I was just so weak anytime my emotions took over me.. I just became even more resilient and strong in response... and so good at hiding my pain... But having some clarity on this really helps ease some weight on my shoulders. 💓

Holy shit. You just described my life. I have quite BPD, and something that a lot of people don’t know is that most of the time you’re extremely numb and empty and you feel nothing. Like I feel nothing. No happiness, no sadness. Except for those small bouts of emotion that are emotions x100. But people who suffer with BPD (including myself), most of the time feel nothing. Even regarding my trauma. I was human trafficked at age 14, and thinking back to it, as odd as this sounds, I don’t care. I don’t fucking care. I have no feelings regarding it, I never cry thinking about it. I don’t care because it feels like it didn’t happen to me and it happened to a character in a movie that I watched. With BPD (especially QBPD) you are so fucking dissociated from life. I’ve tried so hard to feel stuff regarding my trauma, and I can’t. I’m extremely apathetic, until I have those short bursts of emotions where it feels like my life is ending. Thank you for this comment, most people make people with BPD out to be monsters and abusers. Which is funny because I was in an abusive relationship. But I wasn’t the abuser, I was the abused. Of course some people with BPD can be abusive, but most people just say “people with BPD are abusive and monsters” as a blanket statement. Nothing in life is so black and white. Which is something I’m working on in therapy, because seeing everything in black and white is part of BPD. But thank you for being so lovely. I know that the only way to get DID is through extreme trauma, so I’m sorry for whatever you’ve gone through. At my rehab (I’m a recovering meth and fentanyl addict) there was a woman with DID. God… I’m not going to get into her life because I don’t want to trigger you or myself. But goddamn, I’ve never heard of such a tragic life. I hope you’re doing well, I really do. Sending love your way from Canada❤️❤️❤️

​@@MsLaurenPandai've not been diagnosed yet but all of this experiences and things you guys talk about seem literally like what I go trough. It feels nice to see other people like me, finally.

graphicnovellife this sounds so much like me!!

Wow, they laughed at you about it. Sounds exactly like the kind of invalidating environment that causes BPD.

Me too

Are you handicapped? No? Then quit whining and live life. Stop the excuses

@@sabserab lol

I especially loved the pigeon noises at the end 😍

Awww lovely said !

Alicia Marie lol, that was a whole hearted laugh 😆. Very sweet comment

I agree with this so much!!!! I find myself telling myself that Im stupid to bring up something that upsets me because it feels like im just making a bigger deal than it is and im just trying to make myself out to be the victim or something

I explained the best that I could to my bf early on that I have borderline traits, but it was only just the other day, 8 months into our relationship, that I really unleashed and split on him, and he was the recipient of the traits and behaviors I explained to him. The idea of it is one thing, but the actual behavior is another entirely. I feel horrible about it, but it was a matter of time before he saw that dark side of me.

❤️❤️❤️❤️

@War Dog Dude fuck off with gaps diet bs, I am aware that a healthy gut promotes endorphins and dopamine and what not but this is a lot more complicated than gut health, you don't know what you're talking about so stfu. Now to the OP, I feel ya man, we are rare to have this as men, even worse stigma than usual. It's a nightmare with no easy cure, a lifetime of vigilance to keep this bs at bay, not some stupid gaps diet FFS!

I hope you will feel good enough. I believe my ex had quiet bpd (or vulnerable narcissm...) and I thought he was wonderful and skilful and handsome and I loved him to death but I guess he didnt believe me... idk it was really difficult to understand him sometimes but when i asked what he felt or thought he was just responding ,,dont look into my head'' ... I felt very confused, it ended up in him rejecting me for another girl :< I still love him though and I just wish one day he understands how much I loved him all this time

Amen !!!

Thank you for taking the time to share your story. Like you, I could write a book with all the dumb shit I've somehow survived. Best of luck to you.

Im so so sorry for everything you’ve experienced. I couldn’t imagine going through all that you’ve gone through. I just want to tell you that Jesus loves you more than you could ever imagine, and even though there is darkness and evil in the world because of the enemy, Jesus always gives us a safe place and peace beyond any understanding when we give Him a chance to see Him move in your life, He has literally changed everything in my life. I was sexually abused at the age of 5 and a ton of other trauma and issues that caused me to binge out on drugs like weed every day, drinking every few days, Molly/ecstasy every weekend or other weekend, cocaine every night for about 8 months, sleeping with endless amounts of people i didn’t know.... but when Jesus came into my life it changed EVERYTHING. I just wanted to tell you that He wants so desperately to have a relationship with you. You could never even begin to grasp how much He loves you. And if you ask Him to show Himself in your life to show you He’s real, He will and He will blow your mind. The peace and rest that you find in His presence is unlike anything in the entire world, you can not find it anywhere else. I just want you to know how much He loves you

and may i ask what happened to your kids ?

That describes my experience too. If only people could see those inner implosions they might realise how much effort we are putting in for the outside appearance

It's constant hell inside. It's just a matter of what gets released when, and to what extent, if at all. I implode until I can't take it, and then I explode.

I have the same exact issue, with my sister finally being diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I felt the need to hold everything in stronger because she already acted out so much. She knew I was ill too, and resented me for containing everything, and she still resents me to this day. I'm not diagnosed yet. I made the appointment today to finally get help. I hope when I come back to this video I'll be diagnosed and in treatment. Thank you for sharing. It's really a comfort to know someone else has gone through something similar, though I wish you hadn't suffered. No one deserves to go through that. I know.

Wtf this is my life

Often the ones who are consistently quiet and enduring will end up having it the worst as life goes on. You can end up spending multiple decades "being strong" only to seemingly lose that "ability" one day, *never* get it back. The problem is that the supposed "strength" was really more of a naive fortitude. You suffered *worse* than those who couldn't "hold it in" without even realizing it, and when "it" was suddenly "out", those who always saw you as a strong person expected "better" from you and never were able to give you the sympathy, empathy, or help that you've truly needed. This is an unfortunately common life situation, yet individual instances are usually spread out just far enough to make it difficult for those individuals to be able to reach out to one another and provide the support that only a person with shared experience can provide. Even with the internet, we're still struggling to find each other and help each other. Even with access to the internet, I spent years thinking I just "broke" one day and that there would be no fixing me, only a continued effort to adapt, hide, and pretend to be capable and functional. I now understand that I have always been this way. Psychological and biological maturity can bring with them all sorts of mental and chemical changes, including ones that drastically alter how you must cope with things that you may have previously been more-or-less automatically coping with. It still fascinates me how my immature mind and younger body held up automatically in ways that are simply impossible with my current greater self-awareness, more developed brain, and continually maturing body chemistry. While the diagnosis can always differ from person to person, I think this particular pattern of similar life experience is something more people should be aware of, and I'm glad to see others speaking out about it more and more.

And my life. ❤️

Destiny Carte I relate to this so much ❤️ My sisters and mother were bat shit crazy and I have spent my whole life trying to be perfect and keep it all together even though on the inside I felt like my brain was falling apart. Thank goodness for my recent diagnosis and all the mental health support I’m not receiving 🙏🏼😇 Best of luck to you friend

You are brave to post this. Hope you try meditation... people say it saved their lives. I am quiet BPD as well. We have a lot of good company!

Thank you, Rosy for making this video. I was told I had "traits of BPD" when I was in therapy years ago, but now I feel maybe what I had and maybe still have, is quiet BPD, unsure what else to do but to keep moving on and just see what happens, but I really am grateful that you've took the time to make this video, so thank you so much. x

Thank you for the heart, Rosy. I truly appreciate it. I hope you're having a lovely day. And if you need someone to talk to, I'm sorry if it may seem odd... but I'm here if you ever need someone to listen.

Baby come back

Are you making more videos in the future

Same

@MEanME get lost you shitstain

@Virginia Poimboeuf tell that to them. They're acting like that the OP commentor and all people with BPD are living in falsehood. They think our pain is a lie.

Meanme lol pot kettle black!

I also never tell anyone how it affects me, it fucks me up though :/

I can relate. And PSTD. I would love to watch a video with BPD and PSTD mixed with addiction etc. My mother has been a full blown sociopath with BPD. She has abused me in every form since probably before I can even capable of remembering. She has done so many hurtful, cruel, and downright rotten evil things to me, her own mother, and has burned every bridge in relationships. And the most painful thing about having a mother like this is that she still even after this last mania episode with her, she still doesnt realize at all the harm or fault she has placed in turning peoples lives completely upside down. It is like she THRIVES on making people miserable. And she will go to great lengths to destroy everyone and everything she is near. I have never seen my mother cry. I have never seen my mother show any emotion other than mainly anger/bitterness. Or extreme depression & extreme grandiose behavior. She has a severe shopping addiction as well. My sister is a legitimate hoarder. I have kind of severe OCD but just in the senses I really thrive better being organized and clean. I'm at such a loss as to what to do for my family. It has completely destroyed our family. My mothers BPD needs helped and I am open to suggestions to anyone reading this. I pray for anyone reading this or watching this video who has to deal with untreated people of this disorder. Another thing that needs to be spoken about is the effects of growing up in a household of someone who has extreme BPD with extreme anger and how they can cope. I have actually tried to commit suicide from one of her episodes when I was probably about 12 years ago or so. But have thought about it way more than one time during childhood bc of the lack of empathy and stability my mother has. So i guess what i am trying to say is please know the signs and educate yourselves on mental health illnesses. Maybe you could save a life or a life of someone else. Especially a precious neive child. God bless you all

Sis.. My mom is more like "victim mentality" narcissistic she needs all the pity and wont care about what i felt and saying i dont love her because after all the things she did for me (which what every parent should do) i still feeling sad/depressed.

@@sanccaconcalves totally my mother too. Wow.

@@lysemmy what is up with our mother

Maybe you should look into cPTSD too? They’re often linked and sometimes confused, I have cPTSD which causes some bpd symptoms due to a narcissistic mother too, you’re not alone 💙

Yeah thats because they literally have no intentions, so you cant see any so you cant talk🤷‍♂️

I feel the opposite I always know what’s gonna happen, I can sense it, I can sense straight away when someone’s no right just by my gut feeling, and it’s never proven me wrong when I’ve had that feeling,

DontDoSadness91 Awh I’m really happy to hear that! Good luck😊

Rain Red and?

Tha Stan helps the creator know where their views are coming from.

Same.

same

Rain Red how would you know...

It's not worth holding yourself back against peoe that abused you, either find a peaceful way to move on and get passed it, or tell them and let the pieces fall where they will. Just don't hold it in fore er and hurt yourself to tip toe around someone's feelings that abused you. 🤷‍♂️. Possibly spectrum and Quiet bpd here that grew up with lame parents and inside of a cult.

About to be 20? You are a kid! Im sorry you dont get clarity just yet, you are gonna have to wait

@@estefaniaboujon6830 I don't think that comment is helpful or kind. I suffered with mental ill health from childhood and by 20 I felt exhausted. Its not about being old enough to deserve it. Im in my 30s now and if I had more help earlier it could have saved a lot of suffering and loss

I hear you. Anyone who is suffering deserves help. (See my reply to another comment below also). At 20 I did my own research and decided I needed hospital and went in voluntarily. Best thing I ever did. I found some clarity and peace for the first time in my life. Keeping a journal and sharing parts with professionals can be helpful to get taken seriously. It took years for my parents to see their own stuff before they could notice mine. Don't wait for others in case it doesnt happen. Look after you and making a fulfilled life. If today is awful and you want to die, this is what helps me.... to keep going moment by moment, minute by minute, hour by hour Xx

@@obssoyo luckily I am no longer in contact with my abusive father now and my symptoms have alleviated slightly because of it.

Same here... i think we really need to go and see a psychiatrist.

So I’m in the mental hospital and have officially been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder.

Kayla Is Undead Are you okay? How are you feeling about this?

I have BPD (clinically diagnosed) and I personally have no problem with people self-diagnosing initially. Because the reality is that it’s not people going “well this sounds like me so I’m going to use it for clout or attention” but actually “wow can there be a name for how I’m feeling? Are other people out there like me? Does this mean I can get help?” and the curiosity/hope encourages them to take a chance. You are proof that when people share, other people get the help and answers they need 💕

@War Dog bro shut UP NO ONE CARES AND YOU don’t KNOW ANYTHING

This makes me so excited to be starting dbt in a week 🥺🥺🥺 i can’t wait to have answers and not feel like im just crazy

same

Who is Rosy What's the best way to support someone with quiet BPD? Or tips on being in a relationship with someone who has quiet BPD?

I feel like I'm being misdiagnosed with Avoidant Personality Disorder but I'm scared to push it

Charlotte Gelly You can have both Avoidant Personality Disorder and BPD! It's actually pretty common for quiet borderlines to also have APD.

@@georgerobins4110 Thank you 🙏

Hi Rosy, I feel I might have BPD but I’m scared of receiving help since I’ve received tons of help already. I feel I should be better by now but it feels like I am still stuck. Do you have any advice?

Masking is so painful. People fall for the mask and miss what's hiding beneath.

Me too and what is good is that now mental health services are seeing binging as a form of self harm and not simply over eating. Do point that out. All adds to the picture. Good Luck.

All hope is not lost dear. All you have to do is to call Jesus. He will save and help you because He loved you so much that He died for you and resurrected on the third day just save you from sin, death and eternal damnation. For the Bible says, the devil came to steal, kill and to destroy but Jesus Christ has come to give us abundant life. All these are the works of the enemy but Jesus is there to save so there is an immense Hope for you. All you need is to do is to believe then you will behold the manifestation of the glory of God. The bible says again that 'whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved'. That's just it. Just believe. Shout the name Jesus and cry unto Him and He will save you. If you are already a believer know that God will never forsake you. The word of God says without faith it is impossible to please God. Have faith dear and He will heal you. Pray and read the bible. Cos if we being wicked give good things to our children, how much more will our heavenly Father give good gifts to those that ask Him. By the Stripes of our Lord Jesus Christ wAll hope is not lost dear. All you have to do is to call Jesus. He will save and help you because He loved you so much that He died for you and resurrected on the third day just save you from sin, death and eternal damnation. For the Bible says, the devil came to steal, kill and to destroy but Jesus Christ has come to give us abundant life. All these are the works of the enemy but Jesus is there to save so there is an immense Hope for you. All you need is to believe then you will behold the manifestation of the glory of God. The bible says again that 'whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved'. That's just it. Just believe. Shout the name Jesus and cry unto Him and He will save you. If you are already a believer know that God will never forsake you. The word of God says without faith it is impossible to please God. Have faith dear and He will heal you. Pray and read the bible. Cos if we being wicked give good things to our children, how much more will our heavenly Father give good gifts to those that ask Him. By the Stripes of our Lord Jesus Christ we are Healed. I pray that God will deliver you in Jesus name. Amene are Healed. I pray that God will deliver you in Jesus name. Amen

no problem! wishing you well x

I can understand you so much!!! I was diagnosed one week ago with bpd, the quiet one but before that everyone kept telling me that I was sick because I wanted to be or because “some people have it worse” and you know why? Because my best friend had an eating disorder. I hate this kind of comparisons. 1) nobody experience pain the same way!!! 2) AM I FUCKIN ALLOWED TO FEEL DEPRESSED OR FRUSTRATED TOO? like when you tell someone “I slept just 4 hours tonight, I’m so tired” and maybe they are like “oh well I’m the past few days I slept one hour in total how can you feel tired?” LIKE BITCH CAN K BE TIRED OR DO I NEED YOUR PERMISSION.

All hope is not lost dear. All you have to do is to call Jesus. He will save and help you because He loved you so much that He died for you and resurrected on the third day just save you from sin, death and eternal damnation. For the Bible says, the devil came to steal, kill and to destroy but Jesus Christ has come to give us abundant life. All these are the works of the enemy but Jesus is there to save so there is an immense Hope for you. All you need is to believe then you will behold the manifestation of the glory of God. The bible says again that 'whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved'. That's just it. Just believe. Shout the name Jesus and cry unto Him and He will save you. If you are already a believer know that God will never forsake you. The word of God says without faith it is impossible to please God. Have faith dear and He will heal you. Pray and read the bible. Cos if we being wicked give good things to our children, how much more will our heavenly Father give good gifts to those that ask Him. By the Stripes of our Lord Jesus Christ we are Healed. I pray that God will deliver you in Jesus name. Amen

@@gracemawulikatakiti2300 shut up

I'm not sure where you are but in the UK in Devon where I live there is a programme called The Change Programme it's a 8 week course for people with BPD www.dpt.nhs.uk/download/givOuoCZJD You might want to check it out and see if there is anything similar in your area? You work with a mental health professional over 8 sessions to understand the BPD and how you can best manage your condition and life and so live a better happier life. Alas it's not available on line. Good Luck.

Exactly

@An anonymous girl bringing tears to my eyes. Hugs back at ya

:) Hx

Thanks for information about Change Programme for people with BPD and link for download. I am of your age , but I suffer of anorexia :) Diagnosed two decades ago ad BDP after years of diagnosis of depression and anxiety. Regards from Europe

BPD and Autism get misdiagnosed for each other an awful lot. However, they are known to be comorbid, so you can absolutely have both and they make each other worse and that isn't uncommon either.

But isn’t it possible to have both? My Canadian friend has both and she’s a lot like me.

@@izzylandyt yes, as I just stated : they can be comorbid. Meaning that you can have both and they make each other worse.

Rebecca Downey oh yeah I missed that part sorry. Yeah autism is also an amplifier. So any comorbid disability or mental will be strengthen twofold.

I think the aspie systematizing part of my brain balances against what would be the polarized thinking. I think the quiet BPD part of me gives me emotional intelligence that overrides the aspie lack of it. I hate being alone. I’ll do anything not to be alone. But I’m rational enough to see when a relationship is not good for me-and I bottle up all the hurt and frustration and please and placate and shape shift-and when I finally get the courage to leave it (or if they leave me), the alternative seems worse: I completely self-destruct. Drugs, sex, reckless behavior, self harm, feelings of emptiness, meaninglessness, depression, crying fits, thoughts of putting a gun in my mouth, jumping off a cliff, walking in front of a bus. I pile into the next relationship as quickly as possible. It’s euphoria at first. The problems stop completely. But then I will endure just about anything not to be alone. Rinse and repeat.