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@k1ll5rshark653 ай бұрын
the biggest sign is having icky on your recommended
@Tekashi1173 ай бұрын
No way! Still cis >.>
@_taku__3 ай бұрын
I‘ve Seen every Single icky and finnster Video…I‘m Not Trans tho🙅♂️🙅♂️🙅♂️🙈🙈🙈🙄🙄(Not a chaser either)(fr)
@Mastermind89083 ай бұрын
Oh no. That's for a different reason 😍
@averythebirateking83473 ай бұрын
im just a really committed ally i swear!
@ReginaTrans_3 ай бұрын
I love her but I’m not sure if she’s someone I can relate to as she’s dating another fem person and to be honest I’m not totally sure if transbians are really trans like dude, if you were into girls then you’re a straight or bi man, you don’t have gender dysphoria, it kinda sucks cause we go through a lot to now have straight men becoming trans doing things that we don’t and now that represents us?
@comradefriendship3 ай бұрын
2:43 If you dissociate, it doesn't mean you're trans, it means you're a soluble compound obviously
@hammerth14213 ай бұрын
Any chemical bond can dissociate, it's just a matter of how much energy you violently ram into it.
@pedroff_13 ай бұрын
@@hammerth1421I think the chemistry name is different when you have to actually destroy bonds, and dissociation is only when stuff is together through ionic bonds or intermolecular forces
@hammerth14213 ай бұрын
@@pedroff_1 I study chemistry. Dissociation is correct. High school chemistry hides a lot of complexity behind white lies.
@ReginaTrans_3 ай бұрын
She is trans but she was a bisexual man before transition, not a gay guy!!!! And what’s the point of becoming trans if you’re not 1000% gay !!!!! You’re wasting your time and you will regret, now the majority of transgenders used to be straight men and that’s supposed to represent us….. now everyone thinks we all wanna date women and that we transition to date other trans and be closer to other trans and biological women !!!! And no !!!! A real trans is only into men, period
@8lec_R3 ай бұрын
@@hammerth1421i used to hate white lies. When I went from grade 9 to 10. I remember all my previous concepts get shattered in front of my eyes. That was for biology. For chemistry I could not understand anything in grade 9, I got a better teacher in grade 10 and started to enjoy the subject.
@MtCAela3 ай бұрын
Time for my 85th day of watching “How to know you’re trans” videos even though I’ve been on HRT for…85 days.
@bakerfx49683 ай бұрын
I think you’re about 5 days behind me! Hope it’s going well!
@samanthalouise6413 ай бұрын
Isn’t it fucking amazing?
@8lec_R3 ай бұрын
Coming in with the cringe comment. Brace yourselves 😂 Slay Queen 💅🏽💅🏽💅🏽
@djutmose3 ай бұрын
I binged on those videos for like the first year of my transition. I think that's pretty normal for newly cracked eggs.
@samanthalouise6413 ай бұрын
I just hit my three year HRT mark but it’s fun to see stuff I missed and it helps support awesome creators.
@wet0wl3 ай бұрын
“If I’m not a woman, at least I’ll have a female body” Wow… that hit close to home.
@DirtbagLexi3 ай бұрын
Literally me_irl
@tungstenanderson59913 ай бұрын
But he won't.
@dulunis3 ай бұрын
Same. Also, I know this is a stereotype, but what if this is actually just a fetish or something? I definitely like girls, so maybe wanting to have a female body is some weird sex thing?
@ceebailz3 ай бұрын
@tungstenanderson5991 why are you here 🤨
@billder73043 ай бұрын
@@dulunis If it's only in a sexual setting that these thoughts/feelings happen then you may be right, but if it happens often outside of that setting or place then I don't think you can dismiss it as "just a sex thing" and should put the time and effort to delve deeper into why you're having these thoughts. Hope this helps 🙂
@StopItStephanie3 ай бұрын
“Becoming a person” is EXACTLY how I described my feelings when I started HRT. I’d had enough of being an automaton that walked the path of least resistance and obediently swallowed all of the pain.
@bethebig_2 ай бұрын
Kinda feel the same about not feeling like a person, for very different reasons, I'm not trans, I'm just a kid, but i still don't really feel like i have much control over my own life if that's what you were trying to say.
@y2kmisha3 ай бұрын
the advice i give ppl, as a trans woman who questioned for a long time: it was so much more productive to ask myself the practical questions like "do i want to take hormones?" and "what pronouns feel affirming for me?" than the bigger picture abstract questions like "am i trans?" or "am i a woman?" realizing that was a big turning point for me so i really relate to "well even if i'm not a woman at least i'll have a female body"
@chillsgaming190020 сағат бұрын
Just to make sure I fully understand you, you're saying to ask if I want to do the small transition steps and use that to see if I really want to be a woman?
@MaidLucy3 ай бұрын
I was in a relationship with someone who used my female name, used she/her pronouns consistently, called me her girlfriend in front of her friends. Even her parents took part. And I still didn't get it! I did't accept it until I met a trans-person IRL and explained her my gender identity to which she said: "to me this all sounds like you are just scared." Oh she was so right. It then became obvious to me that most of what dragged me down every single day was dysphoria.
@HansLemurson3 ай бұрын
It feels like there's a massive chasm between "Oh, that's kinda like me..." and "That IS me. I am that."
@colbyboucher63913 ай бұрын
Just realized this all by myself. All of the sudden I'm giving myself permission to give myself what I want. It's a wild feeling.
@HansLemurson3 ай бұрын
@@colbyboucher6391 "Wait, you mean I'm allowed to do things for myself? Not just eternally deny my desires?"
@Doyouvalue3 ай бұрын
This and social judgement cause boy i like males but only my friends know@@HansLemurson
@OliveLlama3 ай бұрын
Who here knows they’re trans but is here anyway 😂
@GoldBean27523 ай бұрын
me
@C_nite3 ай бұрын
Reallllll
@someonefromgalar3 ай бұрын
me
@angelicbeing.s23 ай бұрын
me
@tyranitararmaldo3 ай бұрын
Me!
@LyraLyraPantsOnFyra3 ай бұрын
theres this bit in the new matrix film, were Bug offeres new!morpheus the red pill/blue pill choice and says something like, (paraphrased): "by the time you get to this 'choice' the choice doesn't exist any more, because during the journey that lead you to this moment... you aleady made your decision." and I had to get up and take a walk around my flat at that because damn.
@AzafTazarden3 ай бұрын
I need to watch that film again.
@SteinsChoice3 ай бұрын
What a good (paraphrased) quote. I suppose we can really get in the way of ourselves and question the validity of what we're feeling rather than accepting it and moving forward. At least, that's what happened to me for a long time. Imposter syndrome can really make us feel the need to justify our own thoughts to ourselves endlessly huh.
@comfyphoenix3 ай бұрын
The Matrix is a trans allegory so yeah, i bet it would make you think
@SaHaRaSquad3 ай бұрын
Reminds me of the Oracle telling Neo "you didn't come here to make the choice, you've already made it. You're here to try to understand why you made it"
@Leona-yw3qmАй бұрын
@@AzafTazarden I watch it on nearly every flight.
@ScarletCharlotte3 ай бұрын
Biggest sign I missed, beyond the standard body issues, was, at 14, being in love with sci-fi that explored the idea that our bodies were not the definers of our identity, à la Ghost in the Shell. Took me another 10 years to connect the dots.
@dana_t0ebdot3 ай бұрын
I really liked that that anime because of a future where I could be like motoko, well took many years but well, eggs o be eggs maybe this year it'll go well
@towarzyszmarcin474Ай бұрын
Geez. Thats a sign? I watch that kind of shi every chance i got. Transhumanism aint quite the same still, tho maybe partially. But damn being trans in 2k20-24 is wild!
@Anaklusmos4229 күн бұрын
My first ever sign was my reaction to a cartoon episode. I was like 13 years old, when I watched a Kids Next Door episode, where it's litterally a war of the sexes where girls had a girlifying gun. I don't really know why, but I had dreams about myself being transformed into a girl, slowly. It didn't bother me in the dream though. When I woke up, I wanted to cling on that dream, hence the vivid memories of it to this day. Still, it took me a decade and a half to understand that it may have been more than just a lucid dream
@thatonespooder151312 күн бұрын
As a kid, I watched Freaky Friday and wanted to body swap with Lindsey Lohan and then just never repair the relationship and just live as a girl forever. What a good film, glad I’m 100% cis so that’d never happen.
@SuspiciousTemmie3 ай бұрын
Thank you for saying that questioning your gender doesn’t always mean that you're trans. I've seen way too many people saying that you have to be trans if you’ve questioned your gender, even in the trans community
@user-zk6nu7zl9u3 ай бұрын
Im convinced we have the same recommended. First I see you regularly on Splatoon videos, now here.
@SuspiciousTemmie3 ай бұрын
@@user-zk6nu7zl9u I mean, the overlap between Splatoon players and queer people isn't super small lmao
@Khotetsu3 ай бұрын
@@SuspiciousTemmie Queer people and Splatoon go together as well as queer people and FFXIV (there's a guild on my server called Flannel and Satin whose guild tag is just TRANS).
@lif67372 ай бұрын
I’m pretty sure 95% of Splatoon players are lesbians somehow
@spicysalad3013Ай бұрын
I questioned my gender for years and concluded I'm cis-spicy lmao, everyone should question their gender tbh there's no harm in it
@pjfett443 ай бұрын
For me, the greatest barrier was I didn't really care about gender that much, I think because I'm kinda autistic, I just knew I wanted to be more feminine. so I never felt like I was trans enough to start the process, but it was honestly seeing Finn coming out and seeing that you didn't have to be just a trans woman to transition to be more feminine and start hormones. I started hormones about 3 months ago, I've never been happier with where I'm going with my body.
@overfriedchikin33102 ай бұрын
I relate with this heavily. i dont really care about pronouns or gender but god i foam at the mouth at the thought of of hrt
@Slaaneshy_Concubine25 күн бұрын
Same xD I’m 27 now and kinda realized I might be trans. There were so many signs, but I never cared about pronouns. Even if people tried to insult me by caling me a girl or smth I got confused instead of angry. The prospect would be nice.
@Moni_Bunny3 ай бұрын
Personally, another huge thing that also pushed me over the edge... Was thinking if by the time Im old I'll look back on that moment and regret not transitioning.
@SuspiciousTemmie3 ай бұрын
Yes, this was such a huge thing for me. The idea of having my deadname be on my eventual tombstone terrified me
@GreenDu3333 ай бұрын
ME TOO !! i tought "if i dont do this and it turns out im trans i will regret it the rest of my life so might as well do it and regret it than do nothing"
@AzafTazarden3 ай бұрын
I look back to when I learned about hrt at 21 and felt like I wanted that. 12 years later and I do feel like I regret not doing it. And whenever I think 32 is too old to transition, I ask myself if I'll regret not doing it again 12 years from now, and I'm pretty sure the answer will also be yes. So yeah, this is a good way to think about it.
@Strein863 ай бұрын
I'm the same way. I'm 37 and non-binary. But deep down I'm wondering if I'm really trans (and NB). DRZPHD's channel helps with their trans videos including addressing those who transition when they're older.
@lessthantom23 ай бұрын
I think that thought process could be used for almost anything in life. It's your life, don't waste it :)
@Cassoosted_Fuper3 ай бұрын
Icky: “if you watched this video all the way to here, it’s at least 70-30 that you are.” Me: smiles for some reason. “Wait why did that make me smile”
@SunIsLostАй бұрын
Hmm
@PoklonsparklАй бұрын
Let's just say she looks and act very cute ;)
@aqqaluolsvig15643 ай бұрын
One thing that has been a sign for me was "falling in love" with some girl but I wasn't into her romantically. I didn't want her, I wanted to be her.
@Zoey--3 ай бұрын
Thats been my experience my entire life :D
@tek43 ай бұрын
Oh now, strong hands and fucking forearms. Still straight tho. 2 bros sitting in a hot tub.. wait. 3 bros bouncing on a .. wait. 15 bros and a camera crew
@matthewsnively98493 ай бұрын
Same here. It is unreal how similar certain things are across our group!
@jebkermen60873 ай бұрын
there has to be a word for this, I have this emotion for tv and movie characters. An affection but clouded with jealousy, A daydream of a different life, a different way to be. A touch of anger at the lack of change in my own.
@ik14373 ай бұрын
Autogynephiles and crossdressers unite under the trans flag!
@BernardoOne3 ай бұрын
getting this on your recommended tab is a pretty big hint tbh
@FrankieWilliams-kx9gp3 ай бұрын
Nah I’m just insane
@XF_Chaos3 ай бұрын
@@FrankieWilliams-kx9gp why did that make me laugh way harder than it should have 😆
@jebkermen60873 ай бұрын
@@FrankieWilliams-kx9gp same
@DJ_sub3 ай бұрын
Finns little "he he he" caught me off guard
@DJ_sub3 ай бұрын
@ville__ lol bro tried to insult me but failed miserably
@xandergillam92943 ай бұрын
@@DJ_sub its a bot lol
@DJ_sub3 ай бұрын
@@xandergillam9294 oh thanks lol
@akerholt_3 ай бұрын
i struggle with wearing more feminine clothes and doing makeup etc because i dont wanna be associated as "man wearing women clothing" so i just dont do anything because i dont want that for me i guess it also is scared of trying new things and failing
@michaelbondarenko46503 ай бұрын
This "man wearing feminine clothing" is such a painful thing
@akerholt_3 ай бұрын
@@michaelbondarenko4650 it really is and i hate that it is holding me back from actually pursuing trying on new clothes
@trans_Steph3 ай бұрын
I have a similar issue. I started wearing tighter jeans then tighter until I'm at where I am now and for my shirt I pick like gender neutral top and wear a black jacket over that or a purple sweater. My shoes are women's Nikes but it's kinda like a reddish or orange ish color. I'm 4 months into HRT so going to go thru summer this way but then next year I'll be 100% passable and can be myself so for now I'm wearing kinda femme clothes but not to much lol then next year I'm all out :-)
@Fabiundso3 ай бұрын
Just buy and wear the clothes you like, at least for you at home. I own multiple pieces, including a dress, a fluffy robe and some girly shirts (the shirts i wear actually in public). And i'm a cis man, i just like the the feeling of fluffy clothing and don't understand why only women get to have all the cute stuff. Also f*** gender stereotypes and wear what makes you feel comortable (and the dress i mentioned is comfy as hell, just saying).
@akerholt_3 ай бұрын
@@Fabiundso thanks! i do plan on perhaps hoping to get a summer dress that i can wear to my friends birthday party!
@captainnakou3 ай бұрын
i fuckin love how stupid it is that r/egg_irl cracked so many of us. like this mix of "i feel attacked repeatedly" and "i found my people" moment, it's so amazing for a silly meme internet board.
@Grimmsborith19923 ай бұрын
Oh yes, i agree that it is fantastically stupid xD For me it wasn't excactly being attacked repeatedly but, "How do "those People" know my inner most thoughts and secrets?!? I have never told anyone anything in my Life about those thoughts and feelings and now there are my exact thoughts written out and put into Memes!?" I felt so... exposed and observed... "as if an egg or cocoon broke open". Well. It got me moving, instead of vegitating in a single spot in life. Now i am already 2,5 months on HRT. Best decision of my life. Period. :3
@wrenfrances3 ай бұрын
My family did their best to shelter me from all things queer, so it took me so long to figure out that you didn't need to start as a child, so I started at 28. 32 now, 2 years HRT, couldn't be happier. At first I definitely didn't feel good that so much of my life was "lost", but that feeling quickly went away when I started actually experiencing my present for the first time.
@colbyboucher63913 ай бұрын
I'm about to turn 28 and only just realizing I can give myself what I want, but age is such an easy excuse to keep depriving myself. Thanks for this.
@DJ_Bonebraker3 ай бұрын
Same here, but with the complication of essentially being forced to join the military in my early 20s (it was that or starve basically) when "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" was in full force. I didn't even realize that there was a word for having one's gender identity flip from male to female & back until I was 34 when I happened to stumble upon the "bi-gender" article on Wikipedia during one of my random ADHD-fueled wiki-walks. It took the pandemic for me to finally act on transitioning... In my case, that is pretty much solely getting facial electrolysis done & trying to find a voice coach. I'm 2 and a half years in on the former, still looking for the latter.
@wrenfrances3 ай бұрын
@@colbyboucher6391 good luck on your journey, just remember nothing good happens overnight and to trust the process. be as patient with yourself as possible and do your best to fall into community if that's something available to you!
@wrenfrances3 ай бұрын
@@DJ_Bonebraker COVID what the first time in a LONG time i sat with myself and was like "who am i when i'm on my own?" and a lot of thoughts and feelings i had when i was in my teens came back, at that point i knew it was something that needed to be addressed and that i needn't resign myself to being miserable due to living as my birth gender. but yeah, everything comes in time, and i hope you are able to meet all your goals!
@comradefriendship3 ай бұрын
Still cis tho :3
@know_how_games3 ай бұрын
3 words necessary to hold my life together
@neo-giu3 ай бұрын
@@know_how_games shut up woman
@JeniOnly3 ай бұрын
So cis of you 🤪
@CodyCLI3 ай бұрын
No one is stopping you from being cis.
@cmin37833 ай бұрын
@@CodyCLI its a meme ffs
@JoyfulWoodenSled-je2in3 ай бұрын
Sitting here in a skirt, with a Blahaj, still need this video to tell if I’m trans
@wet0wl3 ай бұрын
If it helps to hear from another person, you’re trans. :)
@LillyIsabellaGirl3 ай бұрын
Sitting here in a dress wondering the same thing 😅
@gardevoirdreemur89113 ай бұрын
How does "you're a good girl" make you feel?
@SunIsLostАй бұрын
🥚
@mr.joshua204Ай бұрын
Are your balls hanging out?
@Legendforged3 ай бұрын
You specifically mentioned it, but it is almost funny to me as generally confidently cis identifying, that I ask "Does the average cis person even question if they're trans? Probably not but I'm not a mind reader" But exploring those kinds of thoughts has at least helped me realize I'm bi so that's nice
@squiishei94873 ай бұрын
One thing ive realized after the years ive socially and medicaly transitioned is that now i feel normal. I no longer feel out of place when im at socials events and when interacting with people.
@BlastOffer3 ай бұрын
Oh... My god... This did it for me
@Aura-Of-Syrinx3 ай бұрын
My egg cracked, and as the bits are starting to peel off I am noticing a lot of stuff that has been there forever...
@dolson273 ай бұрын
Congratulations, and good luck on your journey! ❤
@Aura-Of-Syrinx3 ай бұрын
@@dolson27 thank you so much! I have only really started and im excited!
@Richie_Alpha_Rabbit693 ай бұрын
I LIKE CRACKING EGGS!
@_Keikoo0003 ай бұрын
goodluck! And congratulations.
@rebeccasam34343 ай бұрын
Yeah, it's been happening to me too. In my case, I came out at 14 (when I first learned trans people even existed), then repressed as hard as I could for YEARS. But it was right under the surface and slipping out all over the place.
@kana_namiryu3 ай бұрын
To add my pov about the "denial phase" I don't think it is always happening As autistic I have difficulties to deal with emotions, I have to analyse stuff to understand them and even if I have female clothes, that I loved to wear since more than 10 years.... I just didn't realize I was trans because I just didn't analysed it... and well at the second I turned on my braincells it became obvious but I never thought at any moment "no it's not me" So... yeah, based on who you are and how you deal with understanding yourself it can be very unique path for everyone (anyway good luck everyone about whatever you're dealing with! ❤)
@colbyboucher63913 ай бұрын
I think the denial phase has a lot to do with how you were raised. I'm autistic too, definitely thought my way through things, but I also lived a life where I internalized the idea that I couldn't be my whole, real self, not morally. So I stuffed it down and forgot about it, for too long.
@riv3rw4ter3 ай бұрын
Lmao autistic as well, I didn't have any denial I will was privileged enough to be in a very accepting environment, as soon I was introduced to the concept of non binary, that being one of my friends transitioning, I was just like oh you can do that? Oh wait that's me. Cool. And I haven't had any doubt since I first thought that, 5 years ago
@badcaseofstripes3 ай бұрын
By the time I was 21 I felt like I was 'running out of time' to try transitioning and that I needed to hurry the hell up or else I'll be in this horrendous body forever, and balding. I was afraid of transitioning but even more afraid of taking too long, and deciding it's right for me when I'm older and irreparably masculinized, and never taking the chance at being able to look how I feel living with no hope. I expected VERY little from HRT but oh boy did it change literally everything. Just know it's never too late to try to live in your authenticity and HRT is as close to magic for your body and soul as you can get.
@paIlando233 ай бұрын
icky is really an inspiration to me. Ive been thinking of transitioning lately and like its so awesome to have this on youtube
@enjoyeanyway3 ай бұрын
Whether you do it or not I wish you all the best :) I am doing it right now and it's prettyyy gooood
@paIlando233 ай бұрын
@ville__ trolling? like why are you even here
@paIlando233 ай бұрын
@@enjoyeanyway Thank you!
@woofie39173 ай бұрын
Honestly for me, before I knew what being trans was, I pushed down any feelings of being a girl, because "thats impossible" and never acted feminine because "that would be gay" My egg started to crack when I looked up if men can get titties, and if I could get them My egg fully cracked when I found OT's r/traa series
@pedroff_13 ай бұрын
Surprisingly relatable. To me, there was also the addition that I actually am a bit offput by people being overly feminine in some ways. But I started with "well, I want to have boobs anyway so let's go for HRT" and now I'm a relatively masculine trans woman.
@xymaryai82833 ай бұрын
OOOO TTEEEE he he he
@XF_Chaos3 ай бұрын
Remarkably similar story here. I just happened to get recommended OT's videos a couple months ago, and I was scrolling shorts one day at work (40 feet off the ground, on the roof of an old lumber mill we were tearing a hole in, funny enough) and one of his r/traa shorts popped up and bitch slapped me, and now I'm trying to work out what it all means to me
@musenfyr25873 ай бұрын
same, my egg also cracked from watching OT's stuff
@SophieFox9473 ай бұрын
Oh my god OT's r/traa series... There's one of his videos where he says "more cis men should wear nail polish to confuse the boomers" I tried it for new years, which promptly showed me that that sentence was *not* in fact, applicable to me
@iana67133 ай бұрын
Oh my life... The "Icky Lore" theme song! This video goes really deep, and as someone on the outside, I love how your content gives me some insight into what trans people experience as they come to realise who they truly are. You are so good at explaining this stuff from your own perspective.
@umbranex92743 ай бұрын
As someone who knows for sure they are not trans, these videos are still very informative to help understand trans people and their struggles. Thank you for sharing your story :D
@ThespianGamr3 ай бұрын
Agreed, I have a lot of friends who I knew for 2 decades before they came out and it really helps better understand a fraction of what they might've gone through
@AzafTazarden3 ай бұрын
I've always wanted to be a girl instead of a boy, but the first trans thought I ever had was at 21 when I saw hrt timeline pictures on 4chan and felt like I wanted that for me. Sadly I remained in denial for another 12 years, but hey, at least now I finally feel ready to embrace it and I don't think I've ever felt better in my life.
@LucyNA633 ай бұрын
Watching this video and hearing you say you started questioning at the same time as me is difficult to hear. Obviously everyone has different circumstances and moves at their own pace, but I can’t say it doesn’t hurt that I’m still not able to comfortably be myself after “questioning” for 4 years. …..Still cis tho.
@tek43 ай бұрын
I started hrt Dec 15 2024. Mtf. I knew at 5. At 7 torture. 30 years hid. Now groped at work today
@AzafTazarden3 ай бұрын
@@tek4 is this... gender affirming sexual assault?
@Fruitylunar3 ай бұрын
@@tek4what? Are you ok
@jebkermen60873 ай бұрын
@@tek4 "I know at 5. At 7torture." what does this even mean? this sounds like the evil satan endgame boss is about to activate his doomsday device.
@sacrificiallamb45683 ай бұрын
@@jebkermen6087 She started at 35 but knew at 5. It was torture starting from age 7 onwards.
@jonkeathegamer3 ай бұрын
Cis dude here, just really love F1nn and Icky content. Sat though a good chunk of this video then had a thought like, "With how much of their videos I watch, KZfaq may start trying to brainwash me into becoming trans," as a joke to myself. Right after that, Icky goes, "That's my indoctrination for this week. Maybe I'll try and indoctrinate you more next week." The timing really couldn't have been better lol
@mycenaeangal93123 ай бұрын
ahhh don't worry about it. Everyone else is trying to brainwash you into being cis so a little in the opposite direction isn't going to harm you. You're just having a balanced gender indoctrination diet. They'll cancel out and whatever is left is just you.
@mashpotatosauce35669 күн бұрын
As someone who may or may not be a cis dude as of yet(🥚) I cannot give a reasonable explanation as to why I watch her.
@LockBits-ts6eo3 ай бұрын
I'm CIS, a big bruiser and quite content with my masculinity Ashley, but I watch your content because I want to see how other humans muddle through life. You do a lovely job of helping me understand some of the challenges other humans face in life and it helps put my own travails in perspective, thank you (and Fimter), you are both lovely people.
@Aquatendo3 ай бұрын
Sometimes I still think “maybe I’m not trans”, and I’ve had SRS lol. Except now that thought is lack of body dysphoria motivated instead of doubt motivated. So I just ask my brain “do you want to go back?” and it shuts up real quick (the answer was HECK NO!)
@lampjaded3 ай бұрын
Honestly I watched that part of the brain through my own journey and the two modes are like radio silence and HELL NO :) I kinda had to learn that to get a proper answer to something, I had to imagine being barred from it. Bottom dysphoria hit hard at like 28 months and then during the wait I was like hey, do I really want this? And then someone delayed some documentation and I freaked. It's funny how that works!
@raegan_10183 ай бұрын
the thing that finally helped me overcome my fear to transition was that even if i was afraid of transitionting and being wrong, i was even more afraid of not transitioning at all and then being a 40 year old man who never transitioned and feels massive amounts of regret
@Horror-Man3 ай бұрын
As a Muslim man who lives in a very conservative Muslim country, I just want to say that I think you are an absolutely beautiful woman.
@mashpotatosauce35669 күн бұрын
As a very deeply closeted trans girl (🥚) this comment lowkey made me very happy and gave me a little more faith. Its nice to know even people with conflicting faiths can accept others, especially after seeing so much transphobia online. Even if this comment is a little chasey lol.
@talaahahmed84105 күн бұрын
HARAM
@plastictouch67963 ай бұрын
Finn is right, your partner will tell you. Even if neither you nor they themselves know you are trans, they will say things to you that will make you realize sooner.
@h8uall663 ай бұрын
This was very informative. Thank you. I liked that you focused on certain commonalities of trans experiences as it seems like more and more every day there is a flood of media attempting to "explain away" trans identities and experiences as illegitimate.
@silverdragon43443 ай бұрын
I'm 43 and I took about two weeks seriously thinking and researching about what it was to be transgender, and thinking good and hard about my whole life up to that point, after someone pointed out that I have a tendency to play female characters in video games before I actually decided to officially open up about it. Now I'm 3 years into HRT and am happier then I ever was.
@lampjaded3 ай бұрын
It's funny to see the hands shoot up if you pop into a transfeminine support group and someone asks the video game question :) Glad you figured it out! That's a great 40th birthday present, that :)
@florenmage3 ай бұрын
When I was a kid maybe 5-6 years old I remember sitting in the living room watching The Little Mermaid. It got to the song where Ariel is singing about wanting to go on land. I think the song is called part of your world. Anyways I felt really uncomfortable during this song. Because Shes singing about wanting to live a different life and change her body. This triggered something in me and I left the room to go cry. I think that was when I knew I was trans. I didn't have the word trans to go on back then but I knew something was wrong with me and a boy should not have these feelings. For years I tried to convince my self that I hated women. I didn't really hate them though. I was jealous of them. I would see a really beautiful woman and there would be a feeling deep inside of me that made me say this. "Why can't I be like her." That scared me because I had a very conservative religious upbringing. When I was about 14 I realized that hating women was not the answer. It was not helping me it was just making me an asshole and so I stopped. A few years later I got an internet connection and started googling random stuff. I found my self on Wikipedia and discovered what trans people were. There was not doubt then.
@tolstoy213 ай бұрын
I’m 100% Cis, and have absolutely know without a doubt that I’m Cis for more than 50 years now. And yet, I watch a lot of this content because I truly want hear the perspective and understand life journey of people not me. Thanks for sharing.
@laurenemilykoster73622 ай бұрын
I think when the voice in your head keeps questioning, but instead of doubts you have the desire to push these thoughts aside and ignore them, that for me was telling. Like, you're mind has accepted who you are, so your coping mechanism is to just ignore the feelings but not deny them. Also, when it becomes natural to think of just 'getting on with life ' and transitioning as one thing, then you know you're ready.
@NevermoreIQuoth3 ай бұрын
I’m AMAB and grew up in the 90s. I questioned my gender from when i was around 6-8 years old and often wished with birthday cake, wishing wells and shooting stars that i was a girl or could dress like a girl. Back then there was no recourses apart from shows like Jerry Springer so i hid my thoughts and only crossdressed occasionally. Now at 36 i feel i am more nonbinary but really regret not being more open from a younger age as i know my family would’ve been accepting.
@fochti3 ай бұрын
The "Icky Lore" jingle killed me lmao
@jeaned50553 ай бұрын
out of all the short comings of western culture (and also the fear mongering and making things seem a bigger problem/issue then they are on mainstream media), this comment section is pretty wholesome. truly a beautiful silver lining that some people who otherwise would have been/felt alone their entire lives get to experience meeting someone like you. Im very cis and was raised in a Christian conservative home. Growing up I loved finding knowledge about random topics. But some I couldn't get my head around, (I couldn't come to a satisfying simple conclusion). I think its because of how abstract certain problems are and well my brain was underdeveloped lol. Sought structure even though I hated it and questioned authority (be it silently in my head) constantly. Im 21 now and 14 yr old me would definitely call me a lot of slurs for leaving a heartfelt message here. So I guess maybe I've been on the right track for longer than I give myself credit for. Anyways this isn't about me, but truly glad to see people not be forever burdened with an abstract invisible crushing weight on their shoulders.
@Elshiki3 ай бұрын
Kudos to the editor! That Icky Lore bump is so cute, and I wouldn't mind if it came back in the future
@azzyx88703 ай бұрын
Icky I'm sure you're already aware but I wanted to say it anyway. You, your existence, and all that you do is so valuable for the younger generation. It's far too late for me bc I'm old now but for the younger people questioning themselves you provide so much help and support. Had you been around 20 years ago my life could've been very different. Keep doing you, you're an angel and I know there's so many people out there you're helping that are struggling with their identity. You're amazing.
@sapphosgirlfriend18 күн бұрын
@@azzyx8870 it’s never too late for you darling, may you explore and have all the experiences you long for- all my best wishes to you xx
@Ace-nq4cp3 ай бұрын
7:18 "Because you became a person". this ECHOS into what has been the most eye-opening part of my whole be-ing-myself-around-others gender journey. I have regularly thought "I don't know if I ever really had a relationship". It was all like "I have to get the perfrmance right to have a helthy relationship". Then I started being me around others, and "WOAH. *THIS* IS WHAT FRIENDS FEEL LIKE?? OH GODS I'VE NEVER ACTUALLY HAD FRIENDSHIPS.
@V01X33 ай бұрын
Honestly, a great video to come out for me right now I've been socially trans for a few years now with online friends (And Have come out to a few of my friends IRL) and I've been wanting to try and go forward and get gender therapy this summer, or just therapy in general to figure out more about myself, and to do that I have to communicate with my mom. I wanted to push and move forward DAYS ago but I keep hesitating and doing more research and doubting myself. I like just recently yesterday thought about "Am I Actually Trans? Or is it some other problem I'm going through that I haven't figured out yet" or "Will I regret being trans?" So many questions, but this made me feel a little better- Thanks Icky!
@CoronaBorealis023 ай бұрын
i dissociated for years and kinda knew at the back of my head but it took someone else to point out all my issues and ask me why i felt that way to actually realise i was trans
@anferrr3 ай бұрын
"because you became a person" kinda hurts for now T.T
@WonderSparkPuppets13 ай бұрын
The editing on this vid is super slick. Thumbs up editor!
@richardellis45833 ай бұрын
This is so important! Any label you identify with is up to you x It can change over time! But if you're looking for it and researching it... then maybe 😅 You got to explore it, or don't...that's up to you. But it's there x And that's okay! It's okay to be you 💕 And it's your choice and you are in control x
@Furin_3 ай бұрын
Thank you Icky, last few days I was thinking "Maybe I'm just getting it all wrong and I'm just a really feminine man". Now I feel more confident about my decision ❤
@DrJaneLuciferian3 ай бұрын
I knew things were wrong, and that I felt very different from my male friends, but back in the early 80's there was literally no available info, unless you already knew what trans was. But in 85, at age 15, I read my first newspaper article about a trans girl's transition. I must have read it a dozen times in a row. From that day to this I've known categorically I am trans. And very happy about it, too.
@ConQuestie3 ай бұрын
I came out to my dad today, and he asked basically when did I know, and I explained it like, it’s like someone is following you, there not really threatening or anything but far away, you know they’re there, but it’s not really an issue because they’re always far away, then one day, for a moment or two, there just a few people behind you in the checkout line, then it goes back to normal, with them being really far away, and you don’t think about it, then boom! They jump out from behind a wall and start talking with and it turns out it want another person at all! It was you, as your correct gender
@colbyboucher63913 ай бұрын
Mhhm. Unfortunately I think for some of us we only say hi when the fear of aging as someone we're not kicks in, despite noticing ourselves in the background for years.
@TRANWRECK8 күн бұрын
I knew for sure when I was 2. Because of society, I waited until I had the resources to transition smoothly. I’m glad society is ready for us now.
@Tyler-hk4wo26 күн бұрын
I'm not trans. I just found you wanting to learn more about what being trans is about. There's so much misinformation and misunderstanding when it comes to trans people. I wanted to sort these things out on my own. Trans people reading this... You're valid. You're a good man/woman.
@ZosoLU3 ай бұрын
Oh crap.. you said something and it hit me HARD. "Everything becomes normalized, and that's where all the best parts of life come from, WHEN YOU CAN START FOCUSING ON OTHER THINGS." Crap. I've been focusing on this since (longer than comfortable admitting.) Oh my god.
@shuit299924 күн бұрын
every single minute, i think "maybe im not trans or im just confused" and then i remember im watching an icky video
@ToiletSprinkle21 күн бұрын
😭
@macieg40523 ай бұрын
I'm not a trans person but I love Ickys videos and I love how candid and honest she is about her journey. I always like the vids to help the algorithm because I just hope that her videos show up on the suggested feed of a young trans kiddo who feels lost and alone to remind them they don't have to feel that way
@carlkeane25493 ай бұрын
As a cis individual, I really enjoy your content. Both because you're an awesome, entertaining person and because this particular kind of content helps to inform, challenge and reinforce different opinions of mine.
@rokzavrl84113 ай бұрын
I would but i can't because i would lose everything because of my parents
@newlenmediaКүн бұрын
I'm a cis, white, hetero, male who is almost 60 years of age. He, him, his pronouns. I have no questions about my own gender identity. I am watching this video because I'm actually doing research for an original character I have an idea for for in my own comic universe. She has a lot of questions about her gender identity and her sexual orientation. I'm not going to get into why and what that has to do with her character's abilities and that sort of thing. But I will say her abilities do play a role in her questioning herself. What I LOVED about this video is how you talk about what you had been thinking about and some of your "aha" moments on your journey. I really got a lot out of that. So thank you for sharing this part of your journey. This really helps a lot. I've watched many transgender videos and this is the first one that gets into this. Perhaps i haven't watched enough of them yet. I also myself had not asked the question, "How does one know if they're transgender?" As a cis person, why would I ever think to ask that question? The answer is, I wouldn't because I've never had that question about myself and no one I know has ever come out to me as a transgender person. So, it's only through research I'm able to learn about all of this. I find it all quite interesting. I also wanted to applaud you for being courageous enough to share this information. This topic, I've learned, is quite misunderstood by many. If one hasn't ever gone through this journey themselves or known anyone who has, how would they know much about it? That said, it seems many people find it easier to hate or deny what they don't understand rather than try to learn more - which is really sad to me. All that to say, thank you. I wish you much love and success on your journey. Thanks again for sharing. P.S. First time watcher and now new subscriber to your channel. 🏳🌈🏳⚧
@ACallToReason3 ай бұрын
I've been on HRT for nearly a year now, but I desperately needed this affirmation and reassurance today 💕 I especially loved that last bit about when it all just becomes your new normal, and you get to finally live as a woman and not as a man trying to become a woman. That's the struggle I've been living with lately, but I can't wait to get through it and settle into my new life!
@user-cj1oe5gi5l3 ай бұрын
I needed this so much ❤️ keep up the good work
@MintyStrawberry073 ай бұрын
im trans... but idk i have a lot of imposter syndrome
@wolfgangbudde27373 ай бұрын
Great video! I'm really excited about this: the calm scene setting, the playful and beautiful animations, your voice, you showing so much self-confidence and resting within yourself, a perfect shot! Thank you 🫶
@bluepomegranate3 ай бұрын
I think the moment it all clicked for me was when I thought to myself, “I would use she/her pronouns if I could, but I can’t because I’m not feminine enough” and all at once it hit me that what I had just described was dysphoria
@Learn_The_Cube3 ай бұрын
This is targeted transgender advertising
@Aura-Of-Syrinx3 ай бұрын
wait, there's another cuber here? o.o
@ArbitraryCodeExecution3 ай бұрын
@@Aura-Of-Syrinx cubers unite
@Aura-Of-Syrinx3 ай бұрын
@@ArbitraryCodeExecution This is the trans community I did NOT expect but am here for!
@liamwatts85973 ай бұрын
"EGG CRACKED!" 5:38
@TheGoddessArtemis3 ай бұрын
I just spent like 8 hours on r/egg_irl and I’ve been thinking I’m trans for a while now, and after looking at all of the stuff on there and seeing so many of your videos I think I’m starting to see myself and understand myself more, so thank you so much for helping me figure out more about who the person I’ve been so desperately been trying to be, myself ❤
@SurrealRandomThings3 ай бұрын
Came out to my mum yesterday about being transgender, she is incredibly supportive :D Thankyou Icky and Finn your videos helped me get through some rough times
@posercraigkid3 ай бұрын
I'm just a gynosexual male here to support and learn :) I've had my own journey of discovery to get where I am at this point. Crossdressing was a part of that for awhile, thoughts of transitioning, and genuine interest in feminine things and activities. But all that helped me understand that I am just a guy who loves females and femininity (Gynosexual) Anyways... enough of me rambling, I'm just here to say that I support ALL of you in your journey, wherever it may take you.
@Hakaimono2 ай бұрын
Bruh everyone disassociates when looking at mirrors, wdym?
@kailashbtw91033 ай бұрын
SO glad you make such supportive content
@brennanb2803 ай бұрын
That Icky Lore graphic thou 🔥
@robinrising18343 ай бұрын
Did you click this? I have some news for you
@tufo093 ай бұрын
why am i watching this... why am i doubting myself????? im def cis...
@woofie39173 ай бұрын
🥚
@SethStacyLetsPlayКүн бұрын
currently 6 months deep on HRT, MTF, and in therapy to deal with coming to terms with it. Definitely needed this video in my life.
@marklean87073 ай бұрын
The icky lore transition is hilarious
@MarcusAsenlund3 ай бұрын
Me: Genderfluid 🤟🏳️⚧️✌️
@Aaron-dw4fr3 ай бұрын
I've accepted the fact that I prefer she/her pronouns for myself, but I still struggle to actually think of/call myself a woman? Does anyone else feel like this?
@lampjaded3 ай бұрын
I did - it took just over a year between that and actually internalizing it and that's with a pretty late coming-out. You'll be surprised when it hits. There's almost no warning.
@Shrooblord3 ай бұрын
I got a spur-of-the-moment idea to buy plane tickets and indeed come see both you and Finn on Sat...! But someone I care about invited me to their birthday already that day; so I'll have to see you both some other time. Be there in spirit...! Thank you for everything you do. Have fun!
@CrownPrincessofLunaria4 күн бұрын
I knew I was different for a long time, but I only really learned what I was after turning 13. Been in transition for the last year and a half now, and am in the process of prepping for the surgical side and getting everything cleared, and sorting out the prerequisites. I used to have some chronic depression, but now, I am much happier with my life and will not regret it. I have lived as a woman for the past 5 years. Best of luck for anyone going through this kinda thing, and remember, be yourself. If you feel you cannot be yourself as you are, ask yourself why? if your current gender/sex is part of the issue, then you might just be trans. For me, it played a significant factor, the only question I had left to ask myself was, am I just a femboy, or am I actually trans? I had to ask myself a follow up, can I be happy with what I have now? The answer was no, I can live with it, but not happily. That answered my question, I am trans. Questions like that helped me decide to pursue my transition. That has been my experience. Love your skirt ICKY
@aprilTechno3 ай бұрын
When she said "and that's where all the best parts of life come from, when you can start focusing on other things (...) because you became a person" it hit really hard.
@Brookelium3 ай бұрын
The advice that I always give is to not worry about the question of whether or not you're trans, and to instead just think about specific things that you do or don't want, and then just do that. Ask yourself if you want to do HRT, or laser, or voice training, or FFS, and then do or don't do them. You can spend decades obsessing over the question of whether or not you're trans, and still not come to a conclusion, because you don't fit the narrative of the trans experience that you've been sold by unaware cis people, about what the trans experience actually is. I spent many years wishing I was trans so that I could be a girl, and worrying that because I wasn't "trans enough", HRT would give me reverse dysphoria Being MTF isn't playing with Barbies as a kid, or trying on your mom's clothes, or something you can infer based on your personality or interests, it's the discomfort you feel around having male features, and wanting to have female ones. You don't need to hate your genitals to be truly trans, and nobody really "feels like a girl", and doubts are very common among true trans people. We often doubt our transness because a "real" trans person wouldn't hesitate to start HRT, or would feel worse than we do, or would have known earlier, or wouldn't feel embarrassed to talk about it, but these aren't really true, and are very common doubts If you want to do HRT, you can just do it. After you get past the initial hurdles of getting HRT, it just becomes your new normal and it's not scary at all, and you wonder why you didn't just do it earlier. You don't even need to use the "trans" label
@loboranto3 ай бұрын
The setup in the end looks so cool!
@portvert23012 ай бұрын
You and your videos have helped me so much mentally and have really helped me feel comfortable and confident in transitioning!! Thank you so so much I owe you my life and happiness ❤
@Nakkepude3 ай бұрын
Love the bloobily bloops in the transitions
@musicandpoetry_8Күн бұрын
My thoughts and fears for being trans: being hated in the world for it, Hating myself for it, not being able to find someone who’s going to want to be with me
@Ironnerd63sChannel3 ай бұрын
The tiny "avenge me" xD Edit: I went back to rewatch what she said. F*ck I'm trans
@Ocean-tail-3 ай бұрын
every single time i look at one of icky i become so extremely happy! keep it going icky, love you!!!
@Nyaalexi18 күн бұрын
I was gonna say "I already know"... but you basically said the same thing. I also spent a good chunk of my life not knowing what dysphoria is, but when I was around 18, I figured it out. I actually started off thinking I was an enby, but around 2 years later, I realized that nope, I'm trans. It's a tough thing to go through for sure, but it's good when you have supportive people in your life. My voice came to me pretty easily, I didn't really have to train. So yeah, you basically said exactly what I was thinking.
@druurae3 ай бұрын
Idk if you know just how inspiring you rlly are
@zebra13273 ай бұрын
This channel is a god given gift for a cis dude like me, who has transgender brother. Really interesting to hear about this and how people realise it
@TheWrendre3 ай бұрын
okay.. "I thought it was normal to dissociate when you look at yourself too long in a mirror".. that hit me hard.
@jerryford10123 ай бұрын
Your summer hair looks amazing you should keep it all the time ❤jerry