Thank you guys so much for all the love on my OCD short film - it has almost hit 100k WOWOWOW! I am so glad it has been a good representation for our community & that I was able to combine my love for film & my passion for spreading mental health awareness into that short film. I wanted to spread that word on KZfaq that I am creating another short comedy film for my senior film! If you are interested in supporting me on go fund me or following our BTS social media account check out the links below ❤️ gofund.me/a0b9c9ba?fbclid=PAAabYEmfqzWMtiXIEj_lz1E-GjzfOhvH3PhsglzopF2Ogj317YN-J7Hb6d1U instagram.com/fixitinpost2023?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y= I love you all, thank you for taking the time to watch my film and create an open minded community in the comments ❤️

That cursing in your head when praying was definitely on point

this is such an accurate depiction of OCD. I hope more people see this so we can break the stigma that surrounds it. its so much more than ‘keeping your surroundings clean’ and ‘being organised’. nobody ever talks about the intrusive thoughts and how exhausting it can become. this was a really good film.

The frustrating thing is when ppl tell you it’s just stress or “OCD is over cleaning “ it irks my soul

Holy shit. This is 100% exactly my life. From the walking to the beat, and the praying and then thinking something 'bad' and then being scared that god heard that and thinks I meant it...etc. Wow.

I am shocked at how much I related to this. I am not diagnosed but this makes me feel like I should find out for myself if what I'm dealing with could possibly be OCD.

The last scene kicked the hardest. When you finally thought the feeling is gone, you start to worry were it is, and this worrying brings it back, which you kind of crave because it has become normal, but it isn't. Great movie!

As soon as he said "wanna know a weird fact?" I knew he was the OCD. 🥶

The guilt and stress and thinking you're a terrible person for even looking at anybody else while you're in a relationship is so real. My brain tells me I have to be rude and ignore other people at times because some higher being will see my thoughts and set them into my SO's head. It's infuriating and debilitating. I've never seen somebody represent that :( Everything here is spot on though, and I heavily relate to everything. Thank you for making this.

It’s so strange seeing something that perfectly represents what I go through everyday. It’s helped me realise I’m not alone. I love this short film, thank you !

I suffer from OCD and this is very very accurate. It’s an awful thing to suffer from and it’s definitely not cool. OCD is a bully inside of your head. To anyone else suffering from mental illnesses, I hope you get the help you need.

I had an intrusive though earlier, while I was slicing fruit, about cutting my eye with a knife. It feels so terrible.

This perfectly depicts the OCD. The intrusive thoughts like stabbing, turning car over ditch, falling of stares. Paranoid with surroundings and people.

Probably the best demonstration of OCD I’ve ever seen

This is the greatest representation of OCD. It’s always there with you no matter what and there’s nothing you could do to stop it. It’s an endless, vicious, nasty cycle bc the more you feed into it the worse it gets. This short film really shows the cruelty of OCD and it’s so accurate that it gave me goosebumps. Whoever made this is a genius.

Rebecca, congrats on making an awesome film about how OCD can really be. I have it myself; the intrusive thoughts, images, sensations, etc. It can be absolutely horrfic. OCD attatches to things and people you love, and having to live with it day in and day out can be exhausting as your character said in the film. Thankfully nowadays there isn't the extreme stigma about mental illness as there was decades ago. It still is out there, but peeps are becoming more aware of it. Thanks for making this video!

Well done Rebecca, I experience OCD and it starts bothering me when I tried desperately to identify with any reckless idea that I had in mind. It started with doubting my sexuality to wanting to hurt other people... But none of it is true. They're simply ideas and let them flow instead of reacting to them or saying to yourself "how can u think of such thing" "u're such a psycho...". I think the key to understand OCD is by welcoming those feelings and let them go instead of judging ourselves

Hello Everyone! The feedback I have gotten is incredible, I seriously cannot believe it and am so grateful for this community. I am so glad my team and I were able to create something others can relate too. I want this to provide a space for those who suffer with OCD feel understood, and people who want to learn, to learn in a different way.

"So fucking exhausting".... The snapping through the entire thing.... This was perfectly crafted, beautiful and sad and relatable. Thanks for sharing.

I know a lot of other sufferers have been saying the same thing, but this depiction is incredibly accurate. I suffer from ocd, harm specifically, and can totally relate to this. My compulsions aren't as obvious because I don't really do patterns such as tapping or knocking, but rather I have the urge to call my parents at night to hide their knives since I know the code to their house, or to change their code. My worst compulsion that I take part in is actually staying awake all night, because "nighttime is when my family is asleep and most vulnerable and if I try to sleep I'll be alone with my thoughts and what if I give in and go hurt them. I have to stay awake until I know it's during the time they would wake up for work/school so that I'll know they're not vulnerable anymore and I won't be able to hurt them". Living on my own has made ocd that much harder to deal with, especially since it's isolated me from making any friends, but honestly this video helped in an odd way. The way you added the girl's voice to her obsessions is incredibly accurate, because we can see ocd as part of us and sometimes it feels like we're the ones telling ourselves these things. Hearing it in the boy's voice instead of hers helped me think of my own ocd that way, and that makes me feel better. Next time I feel a panic attack coming on or my obsessions get bad, I'll try and think of them as somebody else's voice or as if they're someone else spinning these images into my head. That way I can separate them from me. Maybe it'll help. Either way, thank you so much for making this film. You did a wonderful job and we appreciate the support for sure.

I'm speechless at how accurate this was as someone with OCD and intrusive thoughts. It hurts to see it on screen so accurately. Amazing work.

This is Crazy, this is the same suff I go through everyday. Very well done.

I hope to all people experiencing this ..I hope you get better

As a severe OCD sufferer, this brought me to tears. So many times I tried to explain to my family how bad ocd makes me feel but they can never really understand. I want to show them this video. Thank you for making it.

this gave me chills especially the cutting the apples scene because that is something i used to be ashamed to talk about. thank you for spreading awareness and making people feel seen because ive heard people say things like they wish they had ocd so they could be a more tidy person which really shows more people need to be educated about ocd because it is a struggle to cope each day without facing hurtful comments and stereotypes. really well made by the way the filming. acting and background voices are amazing :)

As someone who struggles with OCD, I really feel to thank you for making this video. Seeing such an accurate representation of the disorder is rare, since everyone seems to be focused on the usual harmful stereotypes. I think my favourite scene ever is 7:35 and I'm really saying I FELT IT. Such a simple but hitting way to describe the difficult to separate intrusive thoughts from you. Oh, and mentioning religious-themed OCD is something I personally appreciated a lot. Thank you so much. I wish there were more content like this when we talk about OCD.

Hi. This film made me cry. It is so relatable, and it’s so much more beyond the film. I’ve been suffering with this for years. Since I was 7 or 8, the steps, the way I walk and excessive tapping and all that started, I’m 18 now, and god it’s 100 times worse. It’s escalated terribly where I can’t even have my hands drape free. My mind tells me that I’m pointing or putting my middle finger in the direction of a funeral home, cemetery or church. My minds goes “Are you cursing at them? Do you want to end up there” and I live next to a funeral home, and I have an alter in my house, so you can imagine how stressful that is for me 24/7. I haven’t sat in my living room for 2 years because of this (alter is in my living room). The intrusive thoughts also cause me severe migraines, because when I try to take back the intrusive thoughts it’s a fight with myself and my body starts to physically hurt. I can’t even pray or live my life because my minds tells me that I mean what I say, it makes me think that what I say is coming from my true thoughts and that God knows that this is the real me. I believe in God, intrusive thoughts are just overpowering that it makes me question what thoughts are mine. Another thing is that every action I do, my mind makes me believe that there is a consequence. What cup I drink out of, what pillow I sleep with, everything. If I don’t do this or that, my mind tells me that () will get hurt, or this person would have something bad happen to them. And it could be a person I don’t even know, but idolize. I can’t even read the words relating to death, my mind goes “You want that? You want that to happen to someone else?” If I even see such words, I already know what’s coming and the mental strain I’m about to go through to take it all back. It’s only getting worse. I even think about ending it sometimes, but then I have intrusive thoughts about that as well. It’s draining and I don’t think it’ll ever get better. I try to “not care” and “ignore it” hoping I’ll get used to ignoring it. But those attempts only last for 2 minutes before my mind goes crazy trying to take back everything I didn’t even say. I’ve had a migraine about everyday this month. I’m stressed all the time and I don’t really tell anybody. I’m just helpless. But I really connected to the video. It sucks that we go through this. I wish there was a solution.

It is exhausting, especially the fatigue at the end of the day

Sums up my whole life. People always associate OCD with just cleaning and orderliness, thank you for showing how hard it is to live with intrusive thoughts

This is really good. I have problems with intrusive thoughts myself and It’s a living hell… they are not you.

This is the best depiction of OCD that I've ever seen. That nagging voice inside, though it's not someone else's voice.. it's your own internal dialogue and it never shuts up. It is exhausting.

wow I never seen someone use the same analogy as me when "personifying" ocd. a different person yet alike all the same. "I am you" is a line I distinctly recall hearing within myself when having the same conversation. it truly is an exhaustive crippling experience, especially with the character judgment based on said intrusive thoughts cause your brain perceives thoughts as an indicator of who a person is

Yes this is exactly what intrusive thoughts are

When she thought about stabbing someone, accurate

We are not alone

This is so cruel, but so real. Thank u for this, you represented exactly my OCD

"wave back and that dog gets hit by a car" i hate having to decide between a perceived negative outcome and the thing i know is realistic.

I'm sobbing on my lunch break watching this. I've never related so much to something so horrifying and isolating. Thank you for making me feel seen.

As someone with OCD I cannot tell you how accurate this film was. OCD is always there whether you choose to acknowledge it or not . always nagging. It’s such a struggle that not many people keep attention to

I loved how when Harlow wakes up in the morning and she looks around thinking all is well, but then immediately "he" comes into frame, throwing off all peace and zen. That literally gave me a stomach punch of anxiety, because artistically that depiction was so accurate. You wake up after feeling peaceful for a night, then immediately anxiety hits you and honestly in my case it has made me want to just disappear. Going to bed without completing rituals trying to be a champion over anxiety, then waking up the next morning and immediately dreading the day. Terrible stuff

Hey,my boyfriend had OCD and sometimes it's hard for me to understand what he feels like, especially when he opens up to me about thoughts OCD causes him to have about our relationship. This video helped me see things from his POV, so thank you very much and congratulations on your amazing work!!

Excellent. Thank you very much for doing such a great job at capturing and portraying what living with this disorder is like. I have OCD and found it very relatable and accurate, including toward the end during your internal dialog when you had the same thoughts I have - that I won't get better and that "Every thought, every action has a consequence". That is a particular phrase and concept I struggle with which results in me overthinking everything and catastrophizing and ruminating over everything and anything. Currently struggling with depression related to OCD. Thanks for making this.

This is the best video about OCD I have seen so far. The presence of the man represents the presence of the disorder every single minute. It is made in such a genius way. Even his finger clicks represent the constant noise of words in the background of the mind. Such a masterpiece. And I had goosebumps when she prayed because I actually have this exact intrusive thoughts whenever I pray. And I do the exact same thing as she did, immediate apology to god and then the feeling of guilt.

Commenting again to say how amazing this is. So much effort and heart went into this and I’m so happy this gives comfort to others, as well as accurately showing what ocd is like. Bringing more awareness is so important and this truly was so well done.

this captures the out of body intrusive feeling so well, of feelings like your thoughts are from someone else. i relate to this a lot for my anxiety and feeling like you won’t escape and constantly having thoughts that i don’t want to think. very well made 👏

I can’t believe how accurate this is. Thank you for this.

omg this is amazing. related to the entire video, this is perfect representation of how OCD doesn’t mean to be organized or keep your room clean. it’s the intrusive thoughts over the things that have such little value. thank u thank u thank u

This is the best representation of ocd i have ever seen in my life. It really does feel exactly like that. I am very impressed of that video, it should get a lot more attention, because it’s so accurate. Very good job!

Thank you for accurately depicting OCD. Those intrusive thoughts in prayer and prayer compulsions are something I went through and still struggle with today. I'm working through those praying compulsions in therapy now. I hope everyone on this thread who has ocd are able to get the help they need. Awareness for this disorder is soooo needed! The stigma keeps suffers in the dark. Awareness can truly save lives! You have done such an important thing making this film! Thank you! The media needs more of this.

One of the best representations of OCD through film that i've seen. As a person who suffers from ocd and can relate to the things happening on the film, this is really meaningful for me. I really hope that this can be seen by more people and spread awareness of what this mental illnes really is and what causes to a person. Thank you for this, you did a very good job!!

All I can say is THANK YOU FOR THIS.

A great piece of work presented indeed by young actors!

So accurate. Thank you for sharing this, it can really help others understand what ocd is like.

Ugh this made me cry so hard. This and so much more is what I go through every single day it’s so exhausting.

Wow. I had such an emotional reaction to this. Very anxious - because of how much I empathized with you and understood what was being displayed. The scene in the bedroom near the end just brought me to tears.

crying because you’ve perfectly captured what ocd is to a tea. Thank you for making this so we don’t suffer alone, you deserve so much more subscribers wow.

This is one of the most accurate depictions. I don't experience some of these as often anymore but others go rampant. Thank you for making this, you sometimes forget that this isn't you but just something within itself.

Well made and true to what goes through our minds. That last section of praying was a heavy reminder of the years I spent in constant loop apologising for small things leading to apologising for every thought I had. Thankful for films like this as it really helps individuals realise that thoughts are passive and don’t define us.

I go through many similar things. I remember as a child thinking i was absolutely crazy, and deserved nothing because i was so weird, especially struggling with intrusive thoughts because they are horrible especially when you don’t know what they are. I didnt know how to talk to people about it, and I think its awesome that this video exists solely so that people who are struggling know they aren’t alone. A huge weight lifted off my shoulders when I found out i had this. It’s okay to have ocd, you are not alone and you’re not crazy

Thank you for creating this. ❤ The compulsive imagery felt very accurate to what I experience during a bad episode. Love to everyone who experiences this struggle.

Rebecca, thank you. Thank you for showing the pain and torment that most people won’t. I have been recently diagnosed but have lived with this for so long now. Your portrayal helps to put a face to those thoughts and to try and set boundaries. I really liked the portrayal and the narrative. Please keep going. There are some many things about thus that people don’t realize. I’d love to be a part. Of this or something. I just feel I have to get it out there. Anyway, awesome job.

This was such an amazing and eye opening film! Spectacular job!!!

This is amazing! So so relatable and honest. Thank you so much for creating and publishing. 🤍

its so accurate that its scary....but i loved it great job!

Who else could relate to this? A million times I thank you for coming up with a such a great Film on us.

Hi Rebecca, I think I have OCD and I can relate myself. Also as a fellow film maker I think you did a fantastic job and nailed portraying the disorder very well. Good luck with your future projects and I hope you achieve all the success in the future!

Really blowing my mind here I always thought OCD was keeping things neat or in a specific place but I have these exact thoughts. Every time I talk to someone I'll literally pick it apart when I'm alone and end up feeling like I said something that the other person is going to judge me on. Then that leads to anxiety and makes me not even want to be around other people, really educational video thank you.

As scary as it is to venture deeper into treatment with my OCD, I kinda feel like I finally found "my people" - as varied as the content of OCD can be, deep down we all have the same thing. Thanks to all for making this film and helping push OCD more into the public eye. I feel that these past two years a lot of progress has been made and I am very appreciative of that.

Its crazy how in your ours heads we can get, living with ocd and believing we are all alone. Thank you for reminding me that its okay and that I'm not the only one. I really related to the shower, because that where it can be the worst for me. Thank you for representing it so well and bringing beauty and understanding to it.

Oh man, ironically i rarely comment on things because of my ocd but i HAD to comment on this, other videos would hit certain things but not EVERYTHING, this almost made me cry because its the most accurate thing I’ve seen about ocd, I’ve always described it as another person, someone that never leaves me alone and prevents me from doing regular everyday tasks, and in the end that “person” will always come back, this was amazing, thank you for making this.

Wow, this is really well done. It is hard to watch as my mind goes through what she is thinking. But it helps to see OCD presented like this and to know that other people understand it. Thank you for making this.

I've just gone down a rabbit hole of OCD short films and I have to tell you that this is the most accurate depiction I have seen. The kitchen scene, the thoughts in the park. I am almost in tears of comfort knowing that others experience the world as I do. So thank you very much for using your skills to create such moving work.

I am just now begging to identify and understand my own mental health. I completely relate to these violent and twisted intrusive thoughts and it felt like you were in my head watching this film. Its scary and confusing dealing with these thoughts, but seeing this comforted me knowing I am not alone.

Amazing, incredible, inspiring, love to see it! not from the way of perspective of OCD, but anxiety, really similar. Absolutely identify with the video and gonna see it a lot of times. Great editing and scripting! as I said, inspiring. Hope people will see and check those mental issues as soon as they can. IT CAN BE SOLVED

Thank you for making this film dear it portrays ocd very well and exactly how it is for me keep going and let everyone know that therés hope for recovery❤

THIS. *THIS* This is such a Great Representation of what I go through! While I don't necessarily engage in compulsions (thinking it might be Pure O OCD but I haven't gone to get diagnosed or anything so it may not even be that), the thoughts are always there, chipping away at even the smallest of things. It hit me with the scenario of stabbing someone popping into mind and fearing you would accidentally give in to those urges, the walking to that invisible and silent but OVERWHELMING beat where it feels like if you don't walk in time with it you might as well be falling down the stairs, and having to repeat prayers over and over because for some reason it feels like you're saying it wrong and you have to get it right. And the exhaustion -- my god, it's so hard to try and keep afloat when you glance at something like a pot plant and think of all the ways it'll explode and ruin the room it's in. Overall, ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC. ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL, you captured this all so well and AAAAAAAA you deserve like, an award, a whole bunch of awards :D thank you so much for sharing this masterpiece

i have been living this way trying to fight my thoughts every moment of every day and i never understood why i wasn’t allowed to chose what my brain said to me or showed me sometimes… but i always joked and said “i feel like i have ocd” i never ever thought these thought could be a product of that until now… i feel like you just changed my life forever.

this is spectacular. thank you.

Thank you for adding ROCD in there 💕

I don't have OCD but I do have intrusive thoughts as well. I think it has something to do with either my anxiety or depression but this made me realise that I am not the only one that is experiencing this type of ordeal. I hate when my intrusive thoughts are about me killing people or people killing me or anything about killing and death in general. It's hard to go on with your life but we're trying. I hope you are well, dear friend.

Finally... I think I'm gonna point others to this video when they ask what my OCD is like. This and another video I've seen recently are spot on. Well done.

This is extraordinary!!!

Powerful! I would also like to see the development. Things that help (even though it will be different for different people). Bravo.

The fact that this vid is so surface level to explain to those who don’t deal with it and it’s still just enough for ppl to label us as crazy is just beyond me.

this short is incredible. ive discovered i have ocd and this made me cry and feel anxious, just becuse i recognize it so much. i cried when the girl said "this is exhausting" cuz it fucking is. chills. never saw such a good short about ocd in my life before

All I can say to describe this film is amazing. Truly one of the best short films I have ever watched, I am just amazed how accurate these depictions of OCD are. As someone who has experienced symptoms of OCD I can not tell you enough how much I relate to this film, I was actually scared how similar I am to the girl in the film, with some of the rituals and other intrusive thoughts the girl had .

This right here was one hell of a film. The way you depicted what it's like to feel like you killed someone close to you gave me chills! I didn't know I had OCD till this year when I did research about the things I've been experiencing and there was a point in time where I couldn't look at myself in the mirror anymore I was afraid and it all started when I was 5yrs old I saw a very vivid picture of myself beating my mother to death with a shovel. I dropped the shovel, ran away crying because I didn't want to hurt anyone and the intrusive thoughts got worse and worse to the point where I couldn't trust myself around anything sharp. I was genuinely terrified that one day I'll hurt someone or myself, but having a good relationship with God really makes a difference and understanding that they are just thoughts in our heads nothing else, they can't take control and bend our will to do bad things we are in full control we just have to ignore the thoughts. What works for me is music, dancing, writing the thoughts down and how I feel about them, there are different ways to cope and I hope this was helpful, but truly what a masterpiece of a film. I would love to see an entire movie about OCD.

This is exactly how it is, it triggered my intrusive thoughts but I am so so so happy that I’m not the only one who’s going through this and there’s a billion more people who are living like me ! I’m not crazyyyyy

This was pretty good! I was suffering from ocd for quite a while and it really affected me for quite a few years. It's such a crazy time for me to look back on as I'm doing so much better now! Thanks for making the video! It's all depicted real well and I believe it shows a side to OCD which those who are unfamiliar with it may be unaware of!!

Thanks for this you depicted pure obssessional ocd very well

Thank you for this video.

Good job, and thank you for this

This was amazing ! I love how the guy represented the heaviness and annoyance of how intrusive thoughts feel in your life. I could Relate to the boyfriend scene especially it makes me feel soo angry and frustrating. The fact I am not alone makes me feel better. I feel anxious everyday mine started in lockdown but I know it will get better soon. I have faith for us all ❤️

Brilliant little short about OCD. Could not have made it better! This is exactly what OCD looks like!

Thank you, Rebecca. I have nightmarishly battled intrusive thoughts all my life. It's gotten so bad that I can't even trust my own childhood memory anymore. It's a blessing that people like you can make short films like this one to help raise the awareness that is so seriously needed. Happy New Year.

This gave me more stress thanks

Finally a perfect description of ocd. Intrusive thoughts are a living hell. Thank you for this. The less power we give our ocd, the stronger we get. One day at a time 🙏🏻🦋✨

I just diagnosed with OCD and I can relate every single things in this short film. The images, urges, sensations and false attraction too. This is very good to watch at school to gain awareness about OCD since everyone thinks it's all about being perfectionist, neat and tidy

This is really well made as i have ocd myself. I don't know what else to say except this.

I have ocd, anxiety and depression and recently it’s been so bad that it’s a struggle to get through every day. But this makes me feel better to know there are others like me out there going through the same things