Omg exactly how I feel.

I totally get you I am the same way I happen to be smallish and broad shouldered enough that a loose turtle neck was like my main clothing choice for like ever cause I didn't want anyone to see and of me. With swimming I had to wear tanktops and shorts to the pool and still hated it... cause it made me feel like people were staring... I can't actually swim but there are so many hotsprings here and I rarely enjoyed them because of both of those things. I have bound a bit too tightly and I had a cold and screwed a rib up in class cause I took far too deep of a breath to cough... I'm not the most active on the best of days but for my health I'd really like to be able to get out and do things. My social transition is... kinda nonexistant... my family is Christian and super conservative so I'm not out to very many people and I haven't been in a situation to get a lot of what I need... :/ I am anxious too... I wish I could be invisible a lot and I did a lot of questioning cause I'm a bit feminine and I was told that there was no point of being gay and trans by folks which was unhelpful and forced to dress and act more feminine than I liked and was ok with... I feel like a ... LOT of what you were saying clicked with me except being muscular... I'm a weenie... XD gettimg better but I've gotten to a point of trying to be more accepting of myself and I'm trying to get the treatment I need and slowly come out to everyone. I'm really glad though that you have been able to get to a good point in your life lots of love