forgiving my mother was one of hardest things i ever did, freed me from so much hate in my heart, even harder than quitting drugs, yet i still keep her at an arms length, leaving me as a little boy with my crazy dad, she never wanted me or loved me, and wanted me to be aborted, which both my parents even her told me, led me down a dark path, but through Jesus i found things change and was set free from so much hate, and anger and self hatred and self destruction

My story is the other way around. My dad physically and mentally abused me. At age 17 I moved out and never seen him again. It has only been a few years since I was saved by Christ ❤. I learned to forgive him, but the memories remain. And like you Cait, I learned that I have a heavenly father 🙏. It was that realisation that made me follow Christ.

This message was extremely powerful to me. Not because I have a father wound, but because of how the Father has worked in your life. You speak from the heart, with love, through the Holy Spirit. I have faith that you are 100% correct in knowing that your journey on this earth, through pain, suffering and sorrow brought you to our Father. In turn, allowing you to reap God’s grace in heaps with your earthly father. I pray the Lord tills the soil, opens your dads heart so his roots plant deep…knowing the way, the truth and the life. Your dad is in my prayers, as are you Cait. What a blessing you are…spreading our Father’s love and message of forgiveness, which is so needed in this chaotic world of ours. God Bless you, over and over.

This is so amazing to me. I have three children aged 18 to 22. After a horrifying divorce 12 years ago my ex wife has done everything she can to alienate me from them. I have almost no contact with them for the past several years. I have tried everything and I wish that my children would want me to be in their lives as you wanted your father in your life. Incidentally, I was adopted as an infant. I met my birth mother at age 36. In have never met my father as he had passed away six months earlier.

I am truly in awe of your testimony... not because I'm surprised by God's love because I know Him so very well. I can't put my finger on it, but I know that somehow the Holy Spirit in you is ministering to me in a way that is filling up my soul. God knew I needed to discover this fellowship. My story is not the same as yours but Romans 8:28 has always been one of my favorite scriptures and I see it play out in my life. Thank you for sharing our Father in such a loving and impactful way. You will be in my prayers, my sister. God made you wonderfully to build up His Kingdom!

So so good - I know I was meant to watch this because, even though I have an earthly father, my kids don't. I know the Holy Spirit will help me help them navigate the hurdles, but this story spoke to me immensely. Thank you for sharing 💛

I’m 41 and was never told that I am adopted. However I knew by how I was treated differently to my siblings. I was hated and not wanted, abused and neglected. Yet, even though I know from getting my birth certificate, the Lord will not let me ask family yet. So I am being patient as much as I can but it hurts. I understand that the salvation of my family is more important to me than me making them feel uncomfortable and prying. I want Jesus to intervene and speak to them somehow but I long to be mothered and fathered. I’m glad you have your relationship restored. Praise Jesus!

You are so strong. You, to me, are literally God sent. I haven't been in contact with my father for +10 years, and I've been praying and thinking about how I can forgive him. And yesterday, for the first time, I saw you pop up, and it was about forgiveness and now this. You are so strong for forgiving for doing all you've done and shering through Jesus. Thank you. ❤

At 20 years old, I had the same experience with my father whom I had never known because my parents divorced when I was 2 years old, so your experience seems completely logical to me. I lived in France and I thought he lived in Greece, because I didn't have an email address and I didn't even know if he was dead or alive. So I took the train from Paris to Thessaloniki, a two-day trip, without knowing if I would find him. After a week in a small hotel, looking for traces of his family whose name is quite common in the region, I found myself at a family tea time where the 50-year-old husband had the same name as my father -- but he was not my father... Finally I arrive at the International Red Cross which, after three days of searching, discovers where my Dad lives, not far from there. The rest is history. God bless.

I have a similar experience where I left my daughter at a very early age although we've been in touch and done many things we seem to have grown distant as she is approaching 21 years old. A lot of people say she will come back to me and I am anxiously awaiting the day that we can move forward and rekindle our father-daughter relationship I love her so much and miss her every day and think of her. But the devil also points to me as the failure the one that messed it all up but I have to pray every day for God just to make things right. I pray that God fills her heart with curiosity and love and most of all forgiveness and gives her the want to call and say I want to know you Dad my arms are wide open and my heart is pounding for the day when she wants to come home at least in my heart. Thank you for the beautiful video You're a gorgeous woman will the great story and I am glad to hear that You found Jesus and he has restored your relationship with your father. I'm hoping he does that with me and my daughter soon everyday is like an eternity waiting for the day.

Your story is so so powerful. I believe God is using you and your podcast for good❤

I LOVE YOUR STORY ,I HAD A ROUGH CHILDHOOD, I AM 50 YEARS OLD 4 KIDS AND WIFE.I STRUGGLE SOMETIMES STAYING INCONTAC WITH GOD,BUT I KNOW JESUS IS THE ANSWER

This is so so beautiful. Forgiveness is so beautiful! Such a sweet and understanding girl you are Cait. God has richly blessed you Cait!

Wow. Just wow. I wrote my father a letter a few years ago, and he did not respond. I saw that he read it. I tried numerous times over the years, but he was unwilling. I prayed to my Heavenly Father about it, so now the ball is in my earthly father’s court. I’m 35, and very open to a relationship with him.

Hello Miss Cait. I recenty found your channel and am imspiredby your story. My dad was in my life minimally as he was an an abusive alcoholic. I only got close to him the last year of his life, as i ministered to him as he was dying. I am glad i was able to serve him that way. Now unfortunately i am shunned by my Mom and family, a really sad story i wont get into here. But it is a great sadness . I am inspired by your strengrh and how you seem to look for the best in situations. God bless you and all the best.

Oh, you dear, lovely girl! Thank you for sharing your story and God's grace! I pray that my son and his children will be reunited in such forgiveness and love!

I feel I was meant to watch this because I’ve been really let down by my father but it’s definitely more important that I forgive him than hold on to anger and resentment. I still pray for him everyday.

44:04 I'm in tears myself with how much of a servant's heart your dad has and your connection 😭

14:58 As someone who grew up in a single parent household, I needed to see this 💜 Thank you for sharing this 🙏🏻

I have a dad, he was physically present on weekends, but often never got birthday gift and never got Xmas gifts. I was not celebrated nor encouraged to do well in sports or school from either parent. My wounds runs deep, I know the source of my anger issues come from those critical times of development that were neglected. God in His mercy has saved me and is slowly changing me. My prayer is that I’m fully delivered from my anger issues and pain, the season of waiting is brutal.

Wow you got a great testimony.. I got five boys all married six grandsons one granddaughter and a great granddaughter on the way.. one of my daughter-in-law didn't know her real dad till she was in her 20s. You are great Godly woman.. Your friend always Jamie

One of the most hope-filled podcasts of all time.

We have similar story but my mom, whom I still haven’t met face to face.

You're a bigger person than I. You have a deeper understanding of forgiveness that is gracious and leads to healing and reconciliation. ❤ Big heart for you

That red card is citing some of my favorite scriptures in Psalms 139…very nice! And potently refreshing are your responses to scripture…God breathed. So good.

It is a miracle by its own that God has been able to work your heart while not having a father figure. I did have a father figure even tho he was only there physically. The pain of a father not being there at all, cant imagine that.

So touching!!! Not tired of hearing stories about your life ❤

I can only imagine what it must be like to have such a wonderful person like you, get in touch to say you are my daughter. Your dad must feel like the luckiest person alive!

God bless you sister much love from me Reticia in uganda.I thank God for your life and all the testimony touched me deeply I pray that God helps my parents to get along well and get saved with my entire family in God's perfect time

You have / been tested. You came through it all the stronger all your trials may not be over good luck your such a beautiful person in and out Stay beautiful

thanks for sharing, i can relate so much, especially when i would see my friends and their mothers always hugging them, and loving them and coooking meals and claning clothes for them, it was so hard i felt so long my mum left me with my crazy dad and never took care of me never hugged me or loved me was so hard to try and forgive her and myself after 10-15 years later

Even angels (not fallen angels) must have had their difficult times too, before arising with so much depth, so much understanding and so much compassion beyond imagination! That is what comes to my mind when I hear you talking to us. I cannot help myself, but I am still crying! How can so much hurt and pure refined beauty and maturity emanating from the depth of one’s soul be so tight aligned together like the other side of the same coin? I had and still have the best loving parents in the world one can imagine and a very beautiful and well cared childhood (of course, there where difficulties in my childhood too, but not the way you went through, and I really feel so sorry for what you've gone through…). But the way you talk about your childhood and now encounter with your dad, as portrayed in this video, with so much love, earnest, truth, understanding, consideration, compassion, warmth and forgiveness, makes me relive it too, as a shared experience that now further connects all of us humans together, that becomes part of all our souls too and help us grow together, elevating us and thus helping us to become better prepared to fulfil our divine purposes. These are very special times we are living in, where darkness has become so dark, but at the other side, the light is shining now so bright for all of those that turn their heart and faces to God, bringing possibilities of growth in our lives like never before. Thank you so much for letting us participate in your story and for sharing the wisdom you earned through your experiences by being so faithful to God! Yes, you are the angel I am talking about!

I didn't meet my father until I was 18 turning 19. I always wondered who could do this to someone, abandon their own? I wouldnt wish fatherlessness on my worst enemy. I had to learn manhood the hard way. Nobody to play catch with me, or do father son stuff with. All i knew was that I wanted to be the man he never was. He was everything wrong with the world. And when I first called him I was gonna let him have it. Tell him how weak and pathetic he was. But when I heared him by the grace of the Lord I could only respond with forgiveness. I never chewed him out. In a lot of ways I still look down on him. Not for no reason. But I just pray that he gets to know the lord so he can actually understand what it is to be a father. I'm 27 now, I've been there and you arent the only one whos been through this. Anyway I'm glad you've found the healing. Blessings

My mother was stricken with cancer 6 months after my parents divorce. She had cancer in her uterus and nearly died. She moved home with her parents in her late 30's. I think she had gone thru something similar. She was going to church with some of her old friends from highschool, she met her old neighbor after years who used to walk her to school. He was divorced and over coming addictions , they ended up getting married and her cancer never came back, I baptized her myself during covid 19 restrictions.

I'm very glad God has blessed and healed you and you have overcome so much. I've been through a lot in my life as well.

The calmness that you showed in telling your story was amazing

Well said Miss! Well said!! I am 52 and I sincerely hope my daughter forgives me for my wrong doings, but is also wanting a relationship with me! The problem we have is, she remembers some things, but not everything. It's that blank space in her mind that I beg God to restore. I am thankful God is using you to reach the many! Bless You Cait!

Incredible testimony! praise God for what he has done in your life. It make me cry to know how blessed I am to have my parents with me, even tho I know acknowledge that all the time, but sometimes we take by granted what we have. I’m going to be praying for you and your family 🙏🏼

I know exactly how you felt, I haven't ever met my dad, but I met my mother when i was 16, I know all the emotions that come with meeting your parent. May you continue to be blessed. And may your ministry grow in the mighty name of Jesus Christ. So be it. 👍🙏🔥

AWESOME SHARING AND TESTIMONY! OUR GRACIOUS LORD HAS GIVEN YOU A KEEN AWARENESS OF WHAT IT MEANS TO LIVE IN AND WITH GODLY RELATIONSHIPS! I RESPECT DEEPLY YOUR COURAGE TO SHARE YOUR HEARTFELT EXPERIENCES! THIS HAS ULTIMATELY HELPED ME AT AGE 74 TO HEAL MORE FROM THE ABANDONMENT OF MY NATURAL PARENTS! YES! I ,TOO, HAVE FORGIVEN THEM AND IT, TOO, BROUGHT ME ADDITIONAL HEALING IN AND THRU THE MERCY, GRACE AND FORGIVENESS OF OUR LORD AND SAVIOR CHRIST JESUS! IT IS A GREAT BLESSING TO KNOW YOU THRU YOUR VIDEOS AS A LOVING CHILD OF GOD AND FELLOW SISTER IN THE LORD! THANK YOU JESUS! THANK YOU CAIT!❤❤❤

You are So precious!!! Love your Beautiful voice! Keep sharing your story, you are helping so many people😇

Wonderful testimony - Glory be to the Most High God.

I am so touched by your story !!!! You are so beautiful ! Thank you ❤

"God can bring beauty out of ashes."

Thank you for your story! You are a very strong and special lady!!

It is so refreshing to hear from a woman who is so deep in her faith walk, especially someone around my age (I'm 22) who also grew up in a single-parent household. I relate so much! At 12:12, I think it's totally okay that you didn't FaceTime him or see his face right away so that your first meeting could be special. ❤ When I was 13, I started asking questions about my dad, and my mom had many meetings with him to vet him out (to make sure he would stick around and be a good human being) before introducing us. Sometimes, in the church community, the Enemy lies to me, saying I do not belong because I didn't grow up with two parents, the siblings, the dog, etc. But that is so, so far from the truth. 🙏🏻

Wow so beautiful, thoughtful, and a powerful testimony. Praise god!

U can, some people that may be confused by the simple, plain as day kind of things, refrains from crossing barriers with all respect. No matter how bad they want it too. Fear of rejection or accidently causes hurt by what was good intention, in fact, didn't end by the same expectation or high hopes and plans of good.

I can attest I dont have that with my dad, he was a harsh disciplinarian in the home. We understand the purpose as adults. And while he has softened in his old age, he is not ever one where we will have emotionally intimate or vulnerable conversations. That upbringing will not allow us to see that kind of relationship. This is a great testimony and I hope that he is saved, if he has not made that decision as it is what really matters.

❤🇬🇧 beautifully told lovely to have the scriptures inter woven too.what a journey you had .I estranged from my dad for many years but one day God made the way for reconciliation and i was sooo nervous at meeting him but God worked it out and I am forever grateful,he passed now but I was able to be there when he needed me most God is amazing ❤

Cait you are outstanding! I am so smitten with your connection and vision with the most high father. Blessed to find your podcast. To God the glory and bless you my dear in Jesus name 🙏🏽💯

Thank you Cait, for helping to heal even deeper my father wound. God has done a mighty work in you as he has in my story. Your telling, your sharing has drawn out the humanistic and spiritual perspectives in a very rich way for me.

This is such a heartwarming and powerful story as well as a testimony of receiving first only God's perfect and unconditional love for ourselves, not having unfair expectations towards people in our lives. "We cannot give away what we don't have" (Andrew Wommack)

What an amazing story, thanks for sharing

I was kicked out of the house by my mother and stepfather when I was 17 years old, I've always worked since I was 15 years old, I studied and I didn't have any problems with addictions, and all this after I worked for a year to build the house. After that I converted to the Gospel, followed Jesus and was reconciled with both.

so heart touching sis🥺🥲

Farther wound. So insightful.

💕such a beautiful story. You a have a wonderful gift and ability to share your faith that is blessing me and so many others💕

YOU KNOW WHAT I LOVE TO SEE ❤😊

This is extremely beautiful! Only God could pull this off!

Thank you,Beautiful Soul. Love from Norway♥️🙏

Dads instill identity, which is why you struggle(d) with identity. And your dad rejected your mom and by proxy you prb felt rejected too. But good to hear your wounds are healing.

Jer 29:11 "I know the THOUGHTS that I think towards you, THOUGHTS of PEACE and not of evil, to give you a FUTURE and a HOPE. Our God works in mysterious ways.

There's a lot of healing ministry's in this chat that your heavenly father will use you mightly..healing ministry's are allowed to go threw many.. either 1 betrayals 2abuses3.abandonments3.rejection..4hurts.which ever you have experienced its part of preparation for healing ministry's healing gifts heal the broken hearted

You are just amazing God bless you ❤

You're awesome to forgive. Thanks for sharing

I'm excited to hear this story...didn't know there was more.....especailly want to know how you healed your father wounds.

Thank-you for sharing this. I really wonder if the night owl thing has any relation to trauma because I too am a night owl and have desired to not be in a sense but alas.... in some ways I find the evening peaceful because there are less distractions and the world is calm down/sleeping/more quiet... I have many reflections on this and hypothesis but all the while I still find it challenging to get to bed early, consistently! :) It's hard though when you're a night owl, who also desires to be up early! haha

Praise God !!!!!

I was never very close to my dad and he’s gone to heaven now. So being g with a dad for your whole life is not the deciding factor.

So, quickly, while I’m thinking about it, I can see some commonalities between you and I, even though we come from completely different world and different situations but innocent, I can relate, as I’ve been a non-custodial dad for the last 14 years or so one of the hardest things, in the past, was hearing my children, called their stepdad. Dad, when I was, in fact, their dad. And it was, and can be, difficult to go visit them, and their mom and stepdad, and see all the things that have my stamp and fingerprint on it stuff that Was a part of my life 14, 1516 years and now is incorporated into their household, and not into mine. And, it was not who left, it was my wife, who separated and divorced me. And the thing is, it seems that bitterness, resentment, sadness can cause exist with love and compassion in some weird way. I guess for me, I don’t feel like the loosen have been tied up yet. Probably, for her to apologize to me, to understand what all that did to me, Even to give me a hug, that would mean so much to me! And you need to understand, there are no romantic feelings at all whatsoever, I’m past that. But, to my point, I guess, being in someone else’s household, that in someway should be your household,feels weird. Feels like you’re a part of a Multiverse, and you are in the wrong universe. Anyways, I appreciate your videos! I will be watching the rest of them!

Tremendous!

Wow!

Wow, God is Good. Wow!!!!!!

I AM WITH THE MIND OF GOD THE SUPREME CREATOR OF THIS UNIVERSE ❤😊

"You are the apple of His eye."

God bless you sister and forgive me please ,also pray for me

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The sound is not loud enough on your 2nd video. I have not been able to watch it.

Will you feel led to talk about how to tackle mental health issues as christian?

2 Corinthians 1:3-11 KJV

U are breathtakingly beautiful inside out

😢😢😢😢😢😢thanks for sharing your testimonial child of God Almighty Father, God Almighty Son Jesus Christ our Lord and Saviour, God the Holy Spirit. The God Head Divine Holy Trinity love u child unconditional ❤ with an emess love child 😊😊😊

34:02 I can relate to that Cait, 1000%. 🩷 Whether it was seeing photos of my dad with my little sister across his home, or photos of my cousins at my dad's parents house but not me yet, it can feel so hard... like not wanting that gap of time to make a difference and yet it does.

You are such a beautiful person and so genuine!.....:)

I LOVE YOUR STORY ,I HAD A ROUGH CHILDHOOD, I AM 50 YEARS OLD 4 KIDS AND WIFE.I STRUGGLE SOMETIMES STAYING INCONTAC WITH GOD,BUT I KNOW JESUS IS THE ANSWER