I hope you guys enjoy the video. As long as I still can't play League I'm going to try and continue making more artsy/vloggy types of videos like this one. I saw a lot of people missing more personal videos ever since I made the switch to documentaries so I'm going to try and supplement my content with more stuff that's personal to me :)

I like how he straight up says "finding a woman that will love you" is a difficult task 😃😃 i feel you

Thanks for that, it's very uncommon to see someone actually defending the game and puting his finger on all the good it does, and you have a way of talking that always satisfies the ones that listen

I like how he included the clip of him eating a sock. the good old memories

Well, every now and then I don't play a league for several months. I don't really miss playing League, but I miss playing League with friends and that's why I'll be back. For me League is the best multiplayer player that has ever existed.

I’ll give League one thing: it helps you develop a thick skin. I’ve been called everything except my own Summoner Name. Oddly, I like to think I’m better for it because I know how to survive insult and opposition in the real world. Because hot damn, I don’t think there are chemical plants as toxic as silver elo.

Holy fuckin shit gbay. Currently struggling with a non-complying body not being able to play league and I connected so hard. The short montage at the end brought me to tears. Keep it up.

Totally understand this feeling. It is only when I left school I started to miss school alot. When I was in school I hated going to school but now I totally missed it.

I played league since season 1 and in the same boat going to diamond and staying their and grinding back each season. I stopped playing league last year when I just had so many things going on life and haven't looked back. i still miss it once in a while since it was such a mainstay of my life for such a long time. I still remember playing against your irelia in top lane and having a blast. I lost but still was a fun memory.

Although i like your documentaries, this introspective shit is my favorite type of content you make. Keep it up, man.

This kind of video is why im subscribed to this channel for the past 8 years

Honestly, thanks for the video gbay. I think one of the biggest things with league that people who "Hate" the game all the time have in common, comes down to they don't see the improvement and think they are better than they really are. like you said, targeted practice and the right mentality go a lot into this. most people aren't doing targeted practice. and as such they start to hate the game feeling like it's disrespecting their time and efforts. EDIT: This also is shown in the whole i play a ton of games i should improve mentality of most people, myself included prior to this month. I had close to 7k hours in the game. and couldn't improve. This is from someone who was silver 4 for 4 seasons straight, and climbed straight to gold when i actually started doing targeted practice and changed my mentality. even in losing games i had a lot to learn from, and the feeling of learning gave the game a lot of life back to the game for me. I started having the old fun from when i started again.

Moneyball is one of my fav movies and books of all time so i got super excited seeing his book in the background but then he also said it is one of his fav movies too. Man i knew Gbay was a man of class.

I used to play every single day, for most of the day, for like 8 years straight. I quit like two years ago and i don't miss that toxic cesspool at all. I absolutely loved the game, but after a while, it was just no longer the game we all fell in love with. I did miss it for a while, but now i couldn't care less about the game. It'll get better, in fact, you'll be happier.

Nice to hear that other people learned a lot about themselves with this game too. it teached me to overcome my own toxicity and focus on improvement and things you are in control of instead of complaining about the circumstances

Gbay, as someone in a similar boat, I know what you mean. I was diagnosed with CTS in my left hand and if I even type on my keyboard too much, my entire left hand goes numb and starts to hurt like hell. I haven't played a game of League in months. I wish you a speedy recovery!

I got way more emotional than I expected to seeing those clips of old GBay videos. I’ve seen each and every one of those and the excitement and emotion he put into his gameplay videos are still unmatched by ANYONE on KZfaq.

Those first few sentences hit hard, I’ve been playing since I was 13 and the only period of time I ever stopped was when I first left home for college and fell into a huge depressive episode. I didn’t play league for about a year (among a host of another things), and when I finally got better I started playing again, and I haven’t stopped since. As you put it, Not playing league of legends sucks

"I wish there was a way to know you were in the good old days before you actually left them." - Andy Bernard, The Office

I really feel you on this, Gbay. As somebody who's started to develop the early signs of Carpal Tunnel, I've been struggling with my love for League and had to take a month off. I think I'm a little luckier than you as I've gotten back to playing but still do regular exercises for my wrists and wear compression gloves whenever I'm using my PC. Essentially everything you said about loving League rings true for me. No other game has ever given me such a consistent competitive drive. I hope you're able to get that surgery and play again some day. Looking forward to more videos in the future.

"you are playing against other real human beings" to be honest I highly doubt that.

I love this take on League. It has been an unwritten rule in our community to hate on the game and it’s flaws. I’ve always been a believer that League helps people to learn to learn about life. Understanding optimal build paths teaches us how to be economically efficient. Understanding matchups teaches us that in life there are always certain “win conditions” to overcome hurdles. Understanding laning teaches us that in any action we do there is always a tradeoff. Thanks for this interesting perspective Gbay :)).

This video just reminded me of how many times I've gone back to watch your old Road to Diamond videos, the energy and excitement you exude even when you lost was just so infectious and made me so happy. I hope you make it to the point where you can return back to league and enjoy what you once had. Much love

Good to see you're still about and doing things. Remembered your voice from back in my college days listening to your philosophical transitions from "The art of war" into the league and watched on and off through my ups and downs in seasons 3-6. Glad to see even without league you're in good health and still promoting intuitive and positive thought provoking content. Keep at it. Best wishes. ^_^

I been watching every vid since the AF documentary, really enjoy your content.

yay it's finally here! that ending worked out so well

I love seeing your content transforming.I remember watching your ranked tips videos back in the day.

Hey there Gbay, been following you since 2012. Have not been disappointing once with your content. I'm turning 24 this year and playing league since season 3. This video hit home and I hope we can see other games if you hands can take it. Much love from a Lucian in Wisco.

Couldn't agree more! Loved the video. Thank you for sharing this

I can't wait for people to joke about gbay99 being a masochist or somekind of abusive relationship.

I’ll always remember the time when I was 15, watching your streams on twitch. Asked a question in chat, and you actually answered it. I’m now almost 21 and you were one of the reasons I kept bettering myself and self reflecting in my own gameplay, and I just hit diamond myself

Hey gbay, Really loved the Personal style of this Video. I started playing this game and watching you around season 2 and i can deeply relate to some things you say. I am also just as emotionally invested in playing. Going through that rollercoaster of emotions is in my opinion the thing that makes live worth living in general. Just a month ago I broke up with my girlfriend and eventough it is one of the lows you can have, it makes you feel alive, just like feeling pain to know you are still alive and kicking can be positive. Really wishing you all the best, hope that everything goes up for you again and keep on making Videos that fullfill you.

Shoutout to Infinite Jest on your bookshelf. I read that one a couple years ago and probably only absorbed about 40% of its contents. Great book though, been meaning to reread it ever since.

Honeslty would love seeing gbay go on the broken by concept podcast and talk with them

Just enjoy listening to you talk man. Most league related content is quite highly produced when most of us just enjoy talking things from strategy to e-sports with our friends. Hope you keep making stuff like this and man I could totally see myself listening to a weekly podcast or video with you talking league in this style.

A lot to relate to here, great video! I hope your recovery goes well and really appreciate your openness on it.

I wish i had never played league. Just a coop where everyone is toxic to each other and the only reward is someone to say hi after 5 matches where people only inted.

The only time i've ever broken a phone was when I threw mine across the room playing solo queue, so I guess the extreme emotions point is true

I love the documentaries you make and the professionalism to the. But these kinds of personal videos makes me keep coming back for more of your content. I hope to see more of these types of videos :)

Well, you can always reminisce your glory days thru this channel and watch yourself rage and get hyped. It's hard to believe it's been 10 years since I've been watching you, since your "ELO Hell" video. thanks for all your hard work over the years and I look forward to what you have in store for us in the future!

I don't have this relation to league, but definitely to programming. Almost everything he said - complexity and never being able to see everything, going through hardships and beating your goals. The only thing is that there's nothing zero sum about, but I like it that way so yeah

I stopped playing league and gaming in general because i just got tired of it, i more or less switched it out with the gym. I miss always having something fun to do when i get home but my quality of life was so much worse lol. it was toxic.

Loved the Video Gbay, You captured well a difficult feeling to explain, that people both love and hate LoL, people feel the same way about every sport they play and I think framing it more as a sport than simply a video game makes it much easier to understand why it's so hard to give up. I hope you find the surgery you need and will have a meteoric return to diamond in the LoL solo-queue scene.

Nice vid Gbay, I love your content. It's nice to see these type of seemingly 1 on 1 videos where you talk to the camera

yeah.. thats weird, i dont play league anymore, i also feel like i want to play league, but when i play, i feel like an old man, and i just dont have the brain to do it anymore, but tbh league taught me so much soft skills i realise i still use a lot in my business, how to act towards a toxic person is funnilly one of them, as you said in the video.

the ending :(

I really appreciate this format, very good video! I hope your wrist gets better soon so you can enjoy the amazing environnement of solo q again

I love the comparisons you make and the deep comentary on the game. So true and i love it

"I've never felt the despair soloq brings me in any other area of my life" - Gbay99

could we maybe get a book recommendation video someday? you have some great ones on your shelf!

This one hits me hard. I recently came back to league after almost a long hiatus for many of the reasons you mentioned. But I also noticed something interesting. I play with alot of my friends, but I'm one of the only ones who still genuinely ENJOYS the game. They play as a social activity. I'm one of the only ones who actually likes playing, and attempting to improve. But the one thing I never realized until now is this all ends at some point. I'm going to cherish the time I have left playing this fun and silly little game. Thanks for the video, Gbay.

Love all your videos. thank you for keeping on and doing what you love, been watching since before road to diamond. Keep up the good work.

when he said "good luck in solo queue" i felt that

MORAL OF THE STORY: dont save for a house, dont look for a wife, dont go to school. Play it safe and use league as a placebo for any real fulfilling life experiences XD

I really feel what you talked about in the video, I don't play league just to pass time, but it is a hobby where you can devote time to improve at a skill where you can fight others in an online arena testing your abilities. Love the content as always, keep it up!

Dude this is why I have been subscribed to your channel for the past... Idk like 6 or more years. That outro at the end made me teary, I'd hate if I couldn't game anymore. League itself is the game i have played the most, the one I have stayed with for the longest time and I have so many fond memories. I hope you can recover from this and get to play league once again from time to time.

Well now I wanna play more solo q, thanks Gbay

Not Playing League of Legends is AWESOME. I haven't played this toxic game for like 2 years the only reason I'm still subscribed is because I don't like to unsubscribe from channels that I've been following for a long time

I actually love this video, It makes me appreciate the game so much more. I feel with all the points you made as I want to make esports my career one day, and this video just blew me away, I love it, I absolutely love it.

Those final minutes leading up to the end really struck a chord in me. Good job Gbay, Keep up the good content man. Hope your hand gets better/fixed.

You look happy Gbay. Stay away from League you'll stay that way

Im Not playing League anymore and im happy with it Edit: I think it depends on, whether it was your free decision to stop playing or not

This actually puts into words what I've been trying to say about league for years now. When I say to my friends that I love league they always think I'm insane or smth but its really just like this, it helped me a lot to become a better person for how cheesy that sounds. I became better at finishing my goals, learned how to deal with all types of ppl and other things I had difficulty with all in a relatively safe environment. Thanks for this great video Gbay, I hope you can get your arm fixed soon, I want to watch your streams again :)

This is my favorite type of content from you. Please keep it coming!

"there's no other games that do this like league" Counterpoint: Dota does this too

✍️ Appreciate ✍️ Eating ✍️ Socks ✍️

I got chills when he said his old outro. And I barely even play League anymore. I lost motivation once and I've fallen so far it seems unclimbable again, thanks for the luck Gbay

Got to say I have been watching you for many year Gbay and this is one of the best and most sincere videos I have ever seen from you. I would love more videos like this.

Banger shirt, Gbay! Always love your taste in shirts 🤝🏾

I feel like the league community both needs and deserves this video. Personally I love league, even the bad games. The only thing that bothers me is how bad the new Ryze rework is.

One of the best videos talking about why many of us (myself included) started playing League and still play it to this day. The level of competitive drive and focus you have to output to get results in this game is insane and no matter what rank you're at, that drive to improve motivates you to queue up again and again. League of Legends was the first game I really got into at this kind of level and I can 100% without a doubt say that I would not be the same person or have the same life as I do now without having played it. Thanks for making this.

This honestly hurt to watch, but in the best way. I really miss watching your solo queue videos, and hearing the classic "good luck in solo queue, and have a wonderful day." and seeing the small clips from your old videos man. I dont really play league of legends either anymore just simply due to the fact ive grown off of it. But i still love the game. Its incredible, and so unique in every way. Just like your videos. keep em coming man.

Gbay used to be a LoL player like us until he took an arrow to the wrist :(

Quitting something because you're ready can be a very life changing experience. Being forced to quit due to a larger issue on the other hand doesn't have the same effect. I've been playing for close to 10 years and now that my grind has reached quite high I'm starting to experience wrist pains and discomfort of my own. Hope you heal with time, keep up the awesome content!

I know how you feel Gbay and i'm sending e-hugs. 😇 I slowly got incredibly ill and was diagnosed with multiple life long medical conditions. All of which have made my main hobbies of gaming and drawing incredibly painful. It's taken me 3+ years to finally get back to League of Legends. Even with my pain medications and numbing gel it can be too hard to play most days but i'm really happy I can get back to playing. There's so much joy in getting better at the game, carrying inting team mates and making new friends via the game. It's such a blast! I hope you can get back to enjoying LoL again too and wish you the best while waiting for your surgery. Your videos are often viewed while i've been stuck in bed healing from my own procedures. GLHF!

man at the end, you almost made me cry

Just play fighting games, exactly the same feeling.

Hate it or Love it. despite its obvious flaws and broken system. League is one of the best games ever created.

weve been with you with the good times. wel be with you through the bad times. videos like this are why you re my favorite youtuber.

I'm not sure if is the fact that I can relate to you almost 100%, but I simply LOVE this video. I've watched it all with a nice smile on my face. Thank you Gbay99.

hello yt algorithm, please be happy ! Engagement wohoooo !!! yeah ! Give our boy Gbay a little boost pls :D thx

My strange addiction

You just sold me on picking up the grind again. Thank you gbay!

ngl I really like this kinda video, it's really interesting. I tend to listen to A TON of youtube videos while doing other things and this video was perfect for that. Appreciate the cool content man

Breaking: Gbay99 retires from League of Legends due to AD Champ syndrome

I remember being addicted to this "League of Legends". It's the killer of friendships and wrist... r34 community doesn't help.

I've been playing since s6 but really started taking the game seriously at the end of s10. I've been studying the game and grinding out games everyday, play at least two a day all the while juggling work and school. My parents don't think that its something I should be putting my time into, but I've really been trying to grow as a player and a person with the adversity this game puts you through. The last time I hit plat was s8 and I finally hit it again this season, and am on the way to diamond. Even though I am a one trick I am making steps to become a top laner and just overall better at the game. Your video really ties my thoughts together, thanks Gbay.

I sympathize very much with this. Currently have a torn scapholunate ligament in my right wrist (probably left as well, plus R TFCC tear, & cysts in multiple fingers). I use the computer for my work and so continuing to play games after work just doesn't work. It's hard to accept when you want to do something but your body won't let you anymore. I wish you well mr Gbay, hopefully you can get a surgery scheduled, I hear carpal tunnel release can help greatly. Still waiting for my surgery and it's gonna be a long hard road to recovery for me. Sending love

Should give DnD a go. I feel if you spend the time to find a good group, you'd find a lot of these same feelings and joys, that requires nothing more than an active imagination.

i miss it until i play a game, then i really really really don't miss it.

@gbay99 I miss you man. I'm sorry that you can't do something that you love (hell even I love/hate), but somehow have such a positive introspection about. I'm glad your doing well, and enjoy all your new content, but still miss and love your old content. I hope you get this surgery and are able to make it back on the rift brother. Keep being an awesome youtuber and person in general.

I would watch you just talk about your thoughts everyday. This content is more enjoyable to me, as a subscriber since like 2013, than the long form content that's been on your channel lately. Its enjoyable watching Gbay being Gbay.

I have recently quit playing league for about a month now. Even though I play with my friends I am simply not having fun anymore. It's very frustrating to not win the game while knowing WHY you didn't the game. It's not easy but recently I've been playing apex legends and I'm actually having fun again after years of forcing myself to play league because that's the only game my friends play.

well i quit league one year ago and i dont miss this toxic game

I have been thinking and going through very similar thoughts lately. For me handling it has come to the line from tag. "We don't stop playing because we grow old, we grow old because we stop playing. This doesn't mean you will always play the same thing. Sports and certain hobbies die or become unsustainable. The key is finding new ones that you can do. I lost rugby since I am no longer going to college. Some of my favorite and proudest moments are from that sport. We just gotta put our head down until we find the next League for us. I always have loved your content and loved watching it when I was a solver/gold player, encouraging me to finally climb to plat and beyond. Watching the end of that video was so strong since that feeling I have felt and still feel to this day. Keep on going Gbay, we hope you continue to succeed.

I remember running into you a couple of games in ranked. It meant a lot because you are such a staple in the community and I remember the first league videos I was told to watch were yours back in 2014.

that shirts fire Gbay

I quit league, and everyone is happy for me till they find out I now play Fortnite xD

Amazing video, loved every minute and related to so much. Thanks man :)

100% feel you with the arm pain and having to stop playing League. For me personally, it took a few years, but I'm in a much better state where I can play some what regularly again. I still have to take breaks and stop playing at times, along with a lot of maintenance to ensure my arms stay more healthy, so keep at it! Not playing is much worse than being able to play the games you enjoy.