"getting out of bed and going to work in the morning is an act of sheer bravery." thank u, joe.

You're not alone. Thanks for reminding me I'm not.

Thanks for your honesty. Every time someone speaks out, it lessens the taboo a little.

This episode made me cry, I am almost 30 years old and struggled with anxiety, ocd and depression all of which feed each other. For so long I have felt broken and alone, seeing Joe talk about it made me feel just a little bit more normal. Thank you Joe. Sorry for poorly articulating my thoughts just wanted them in writing.

"Feeling normal is a gift" So true.

"I had no idea how wonderful normal felt" - I am 31 and I still deal a lot with anxiety... well, my triggers are different than yours but man ... this phrase got me so bad! I totally feel the same way ...

I have OCD and constant anxiety. I wish people were more open to talking about it. Thanks for bringing up the topic.

Jesus Christ, this is amazing. I thought I was the only one who gets those thoughts. They're literally terrifying

Takes guts to share this Joe. The sad thing with the stigma attached to depression and anxiety is that generally people that suffer have high IQ and EQ, are creative, thoughtful and empathetic. Yet it's treated as a weakness or failing by society. All the more reason people should share their experiences like you to quash this stigma. Good on you 👊

I have struggled with depression and anxiety for my entire life. It's actually been this month that I've actually felt normal and this video drove home everything I struggled with this year. Only cried a little bit. But it was happy crying. Thank you so much Joe. Your a good man

The part where u congratulated people who deal with this is my favorite part because it just made me feel a bit better thank u

Thank you for being so candid. The way you put your heart into your videos keeps me coming back, and I wouldn't be at all surprised to learn that others feel the same way.

You are one of the people in my list of "people i want alive as long as I am alive"

Bravely you passed through it and even braver that you shared it in such a wonderful way. So bravo

That feeling of tightness in the chest has been affecting me for about 3 years now. At one point I thought there was something physically wrong with me and asked my doctor to do a pulmonary function test and it was totally normal. Then I was put on SSRI’s and it slowly improved but lately the feeling has returned. Anytime I told someone about this feeling of constant tightness in the chest, they had no idea what I was talking about. I genuinely thought I was alone in this. Thank you for sharing your experience with us. It helps more than you know.

Goddamnit Joe you are wonderful. So well with words. Thanks.

Hi Joe. I had exactly the same thing. A constant fixation with death. I was on venlafaxine and a change in dosage took the feeling away. You're right it's a horrible thing. I still have issues now and I see a therapist under the UK's nhs service. Which we are lucky to have. Well done for talking publicly about it.

Hey Joe, great video man, I know what anxiety, panic and OCD feels like and it can be a difficult subject to talk about. When my panic was at it’s worst, I struggled to express anything about it in words, it was so intense. Thanks for opening up, being honest and encouraging people to talk about this. The more we do the more we can all help each other and people who are still suffering 👍👍

your symptoms remind me so much of mine. I remember the first time I ever felt it, I was a kid and my friend had just told me about how his friend had stockpiled a bunch of food and water to prepare for Y2K (yeah hahah silly to think about now) And ever since then, I have struggled with it. Any time I start a new job, you'll find me in the bathroom crying simply out of fear and dread, like everything was going to end for some reason. Any time I started a new relationship with someone, same thing. I've lost jobs over it, lost significant others, and probably missed out on a lot of cool opportunities because of it. Plain and simple, panic/anxiety disorder sucks. And what's worse is how people say "Oh It's just in your head." Of course it's in my head, that's why it's so hard to remedy. And that's why nobody takes it seriously, and nobody understands! This might be a strange analogy, but it was a real life realization I had a few years ago: I had an old jetta that had tons of intermittent electrical issues. I couldn't easily see what was going wrong, so I just said "it's got a bad ECU or wiring I guess" and I simply lived with the symptoms. But when my serpentine belt broke, I took one look under the hood and went "oh, there's the problem" and fixed it. THAT is our healthcare system and how it treats mental illness. You can see a broken bone easily, and fix it. But when it comes to fixing things you can't really see? I mean...bloodwork won't tell you why you have anxiety, an MRI wont show you what's causing it. So most people just give up, or simply try to treat your symptoms and not the underlying cause.

For me the idea that you will never be able to have any influence on anything ever again is what makes death so frightening.

You are very brave to talk about something so personal in a youtube chanel. Respect Joe! ✊🏼

I know this was broadcast three years ago but I'm going through this at the moment. The sadness is that comes with this 'state' can be and usually is unbearable, but we have to bear it. Thanks for the vid🤗x

Thanks for sharing this Joe, I am a person that suffers from severe anxiety disorder, major depression and acute agoraphobia, on the top of the list of my disorders. I used to be just depressed for a long time, like you, the infatuation with thoughts of death kept me under a cloud of gloom. Then at the age of 46 in 2008 I had a heart attack after a very stressful day at work where I told my boss, one more thing and I’m going to have a heart attack. That night I had to have my friend take me to the ER and when I was admitted my BP was 240/210 which got the nurse staff really excited and they rushed me to a bed and put me on a morphine drip for the pain I was having then the heart attack happened. Over the next 4 years the heart attack led to a panic attack which led to a series of panic attacks which led to a series of severe panic attacks and then one day right in the middle of my shift at work I finally snapped (and yes you actually hear a cracking sound) and had a complete nervous breakdown and blacked out for the next 12 hours, I came to in the middle of my living room partially paralyzed and blind in one eye, unable to walk to my bed. I had somehow driven 60 miles home been to the ER and brought home. The stroke like effects gradually went away but the damage I did to my central nervous system was devasting and severe. I no longer have the ability to be calm, I am stuck in fight or flight mode and because of this am permanently disabled and under heavy dose ages of psych meds and therapy. I locked myself in my room for three years terrified of everything, from being spied on by the internet to being poisoned by my roommate to not being able to open the mail or watch tv. Everything terrified except for one thing. My little puppy. My best friends gave me a puppy that they thought would help me he was so small and he needed me and so I focused all my energy into him. He is so in tune with me he never takes his eyes off of me and with proper training I was able to have him certified as my service dog. So I could now go outside and see my doctors as long as my dog Max, is his name, is with me. I was still fearful of leaving the house and I prayed for a miracle, I said God if you could send me a miracle I sure could use one, my roof has a leak in it and I can’t afford to fix it, I’m stuck in my bed everyday and I can’t get the energy to get up, and my house is so dusty and neglected but I have no way to clean it. And I went to sleep. I was soon awakened by the neighbors outside yelling and screaming and I got up to see what was going on, I called out the door at them and they said get out your house is on fire. Sure enough the entire back half of my roof was in flames. I had had a fire going in the fireplace earlier that day and a little cinder went up into the old cedar shake shingles and shouldered for a few hours and then burst out into flames. I got the dogs,there are three between me and my roommate and ran out and jumped in the car just as the fire department arrived. The flames spread through the attic and the firemen cut a big hole in the roof and ruched inside with the hoses. Nobody got hurt and a lot of things got soaked and the firemen broke holes in all the ceilings and knocked furniture all over the place. So to tell you, my prayer was answered, God really does do miracles, I had to have my house rebuilt which included an entire newly engineered roof, a crew came in and packed everything up in the house to clean and store it and I had to get out of bed and was moved to a hotel where I lived for the next year. At the hotel they had free breakfast every morning and on Monday thru Wednesday night they had meet and greet mixers with dinner served. I got up every day and started exercising by walking around the building with Max for a half an hour every day and started talking to people and wasn’t afraid of things like I was before, I felt grateful for being saved from the fire and now my entire house has been remodeled and is restored to its original 1950’s classic ranch style. It’s been a year now and I’m planning on moving to Texas and selling my house, I did lose my mom to cancer just after the house was finished which sent me back into a depression for a while but that’s why I’m moving because I’m not going to just sit here and be sad anymore I’ve been through the fire and the flood and I’m stronger for it. In Texas I can buy a really nice house and pay for it in cash from the sale of my currently mortgaged California house by the beach. And I’m looking forward to meeting new people and begin my retirement age with some peace of mind. I will take my moms ashes and have them made into a tree pod and plant here in my new yard where I’ll live the rest of my days. I know I’ll end up having to bury Max in the garden one day and that will be sad but his little spirit will always be watching over me and I will not fall apart for his sake. He basically has traded being a dog to being my companion and I’ll want to make sure his sacrifice was well worth it. I’ll probably have him made into a tree as well. And one day a new puppy will come my way. There’s still plenty of miracles left for me to see.

My whole life has suffered because of panic and anxiety. I avoid everyone, especially the ones I love. My pay check suffers do to my history of not handling things well. I'm crying right now. I can't even tell you how this video is affecting me right now. I can't even say anymore other than thank you Joe Scott.

This video makes me want to give you a big ol' mom hug. I've been there. You are not alone anxiety/panic sucks.

I think that's a thought process that we all come back to from time to time. For me, I found my enlightenment through this process. I came to the conclusion that if nothing matters and everything is temporary and fleeting...then all of a sudden everything matters so much more. Each moment is all we have and no moment past this is promised to us, so be kind everywhere to everyone

I know I'm a little late to the video, but Thank you this video helped me so much

Thank you, Joe. I haven't felt normal in many years, and it's killing me.

"Life may actually be a big pointless joke. So we might as well laugh at it" hahaha Good one

I don’t fear death for personal reasons. But I was a Dallas cop for 10 1/2 years. I was diagnosed with major anxiety and depression. I appreciate your honesty. I ended up on meds and I resigned last year and started a new life.

This video may be a few years old, but it will always be relevant. I have lived with severe depression, anxiety disorders and horrible panic attacks for about fifteen years. Talking therapies and CBT did nothing to help, and I spent years trying those things as well as being prescribed various medications by a string of clinical psychiatrists. About three years ago, we finally hit on the right combination of medications to treat my symptoms well enough that I can now function reasonably well day-to-day. Thanks for sharing your story, Joe. Anything that shows the world at large that ANYONE could be living with mental health problems, and that they shouldn't be stigmatised for them, can only be a good thing.

This is so true. I have a friend that had a horrible childhood. There was a lot of abuse, both physical, substance. She constantly says, "I'm the one that gonna stop this shit." She says it's a reminder to herself, if she doesn't put a stop to the problems of her families past, her children will have to bare it as she has had to. She is the strongest woman I know.

Complex PTSD here, baby! Woot woot!!! It's hard to be a glitch, but it's not as unusual as it once was, and the push to destigmatize mental health issues is super positive. Covid did a lot of harm, but this was one of the positives, for sure. Hugs from the monkey house!

Once again, Joe, you hit the nail on the head with this one. I feel like you're reading my (and tons of other's) mind. Thank you

This is what's behind your statement, "to be kind" ... gratefulness. Cathartic.

You making this video helps more than you probably realise, half way through hearing your story and experience my first thought was "ah so it's not just me" not so much having to come to terms with death and what that means but I had some pretty bizarre worries through my youth that didn't make sense to a lot of people that I opened up to but felt like it messed with my entire life. I would fixate on these worries while my life passed me by. I had panic attacks in the work place which was so much "fun" but one day out of the blue it just stopped. It went away and just as you say in the video I'd almost forgotten what normality felt like. My advice is talk about it. Even if people don't understand it helps to keep that "closet" open and aired out. Looking back I still put it down to I'm just a sensitive person. Anyways thanks for this upload Joe

Thanks for this video. It's always helpful to know there are others who have struggled with these kind of issues.

We love you Joe! Everyone struggles with mental health issues at some point in their lives. I survive anxiety and disturbing thoughts every single day, I've had panic attacks in public, sometimes for reasons I don't understand. But I survive, I push on. I refuse to be brought down and I try and bring as much love and light with me everywhere I go. I find talking helps, and I won't ever allow myself to be embarrassed by something that I fight with every day. I doesn't take balls to speak up, it takes heart and brains. Thank you Joe. Huge fan. ❤️

Mind, body and spirit... Anytime there's an imbalance it affects us. We can't leave the mind behind, but a lot of us do. Great video Joe.

So honest and touching... I myself been struggling with this precise issues for years now, but thanks to you exposing your personal battle, just gave me a little more air and a real hope that someday i'll feel as a normal person again, as myself again... Sometime soon... Due respect to you, my good friend.

And Joe, you are an amazing person, everything you say affects me :) I find myself just randomly wondering how you're doing. You're a great guy, keep smiling!

this is a topic that really does need to be a nation wide conversation. thank you for sharing your story. I personally feel like the topic of mental health needs to be more acceptable to talk about so people can be proactive about treating and maintaining good mental health.

You were probably already my favourite youtuber. Now though, some of your older videos are popping up in my feed and they are all just filling in a picture of Joe Scott which I like the look of. This video is just great. I have anxiety. I believe my father has had anxiety on and off his whole life.My wife suffers from PTSD and has both depression and anxiety. She was held up at gun point when she was a bank teller. It's a real and quite widespread problem. As you said it can have an effect, not just on the sufferer, but of course everyone around them. Thanks again for your excellent work on youtube.

Thank you for opening up and making this video. I think all of us have gone through episodes similar to what you were describing - some longer and some shorter - but it’s always a challenge. One thing that you now should know is that by making these videos and creating this channel, you have made a difference in so many peoples lives, and that difference will outlive you.

Anxiety re: kids happens to me ALL THE TIME over my two daughters. Sometimes damn-near total freakout anxiety. Stigma sucks. Thanks for speaking up. Everyone who does helps everyone else. My thing is depression, but sometimes anxiety is a side effect. I'm lucky enough to have a wife and some good friends who have my back when the shit hits the fan (which has happened kinda majorly twice in the past few years). Therapy helps... the stigma for that needs to go away too. Seems like a good chunk of people who have therapists can't talk about it without making self-deprecating jokes about going to therapy, myself included (and my therapy/depression jokes are too dark for most people's taste).

When I was on vacation in Germany, I was just laying in a tent and minding my own buisness when it hit me. The realization that I'm actually alive and that I will return to the void at some point. I just grabbed my head and screamed, the other propably thought I was a freak. After that one attack, I had to keep myself constantly enternained for a really long time because when I got bored, it was game over. It got progressively better over time and I didn't have a single panic attack in about a year or even two years (I don't know how long something took if I don't write down the date, everything just nerges into one in my head). It was so bad that I was scared of that fear itself. At first, I couldn't even sleep. I was just doing anything I could not to be left with my own thoughts and could fall asleep only when I was completely exhausted. The fact that every piece of media talked about the afterlife or death didn't help. Even jokes could trigger a panic attack. Some people would propably become extremely religious after that kind of experience, but the thought of living eternally TERRIFIED THE SHIT OUT OF ME. It was even worse that returning to the same state "I" was in before birth because at least you don't feel anything in the void. I noticed that it started going away after some time so the only comforting thought I could come up with was "it will be over soon". I also want to mention how weird the panic attacks were. At first, I was getting more and more scared, then the same feeing I had the fist time took over and sometimes I had to pull out some of my hair or hit myself to make it stop. After that i felt weirdly peaceful and didn't care. My brain went straight from self harm to "so what if I die?". To be honest, if I could choose between returning to that madness or getting horribly tortured, I'd choose torture. At least that pain would go away after a few months at max. Sorry for any spelling mistakes, I' too tired to look this up and my phone decided it would be a good idea to lag like crazy. Shift doesn't even want to stay pressed.

Sir I can’t tell you how much I respect you for sharing this. I’m a disabled vet who struggles with survivors guilt. Which comes in waves over the years. Love the ending thoughts, time and family are a gift.

Thank you so much for sharing. I kinda feel envious when people say they cry, because I cannot really cry. It was absolutely forbidden thing for me to growing up and now I physically am unable to cry. I think physical health is also stigmatized as a weakness but when you have a broken leg, at least you have something to show for. There is a visual excuse. When it is mental health and say, you cannot cry, you look cold and heartless because no one can see that your tear ducts are proverbially sewed off (my parents used to threat me to do that whenever I show any sign of tears) Videos like yours is so important because this is how we can show our pains. Thank you so much again for an amazing video

Dude, this was one of the most heartfelt outpouring of true feeling. I know where your coming from, only once though. Thank you for sharing. Much love dude.

It’s nice to hear someone say things I felt I was alone in.

I love how your authenticity manifested itself through the lack of eye contact at the end. If you gave the camera more eye-time, you would have cried. I feel you loud and clear.

Dude thank God you and KZfaq exists!!! I've had the same type of childhood. And honestly you are a role model to a 26 year old x heroin addict, I felt living I'm on borrowed time for almost my entire conscience life. Maybe since I was 4 years old... Thank you Joe💯

Thanks Joe your message really touched me, I have severe social anxiety and mild depression and its nice to know someone understands what its like.

This vid just popped into my feed today. I appreciate it. Anxiety and Depression have impacted my life too. Thanks.

Dude I swear I get the same damn "pointless" feeling of life and existence along with panic and anxiety attacks. I know how u feel man. Much love and prayers for all the tortured souls out there! Amen.

I just paused it at the spot where you talk about your death obsession. I'm almost 40 and I'm there right now. Thank you for sharing your story. now I know I'm not alone.

I found you through Isaac Arthur's channel. I've only been watching your videos for only a couple of days now but this video made me a subscriber. That you can talk about things that are so personal like skin cancer risks and this - you are awesome! I live with anxiety and I do know these feelings. I have lived with this feeling of despair that everything is meaningless for a very long time but you put it into words so well - Thank You!

I've been there too man, it is a relief to talk about it too, also love your channel started watching back around December. Keep up the good work.

I was watching your videos randomly, and this one came up. I have been having the anxiety and panic terribly coupled with depression. I needed this video today. Thank you Joe.

I might be four years late to the party here, but thanks for this video. I struggle with mental illness a lot, particularly anxiety, panic disorder, and OCD, and I'm grateful for creators like you who try to bring more attention to it. And I'm not gonna lie, once in a while its nice to have someone acknowledge that its hard to do this every day. I think most people who struggle with mental health issues consider it a weakness, and rather than realizing that every day we make it through is a victory, we just ask ourselves why each day is so hard for us when its so easy for everyone else. So thanks, and keep making great content.

I feel you. I have terrible panic/anxiety disorder & I hv a fear of sudden death, like if I just stop breathing while I'm asleep. I've been on anti anxiety meds 4 yrs bc I've had 2 many panic attacks that landed in the ER. It's the worst. on top of that I have ptsd, ocd, ADHD, germaphobia, clostriphobia, & extreme fear of the dark & snakes :/ Thanks for sharing & opening up. Def agree with u on this topic 110%!

As a kid I struggled with GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder), I tried medication, and therapy, I had to dive in and confront everything that triggered me to finally move past it. Now as an adult, I struggle with PTSD, avoidance is still an issue for me, the 4th of July, and New Years are still the days I blackout and find myself dry heaving. Wrecked with body shakes, aching muscles. yay explosions... :I I understand the getting out of bed thing, Joe, keep it up. Now matter how dark it gets, there is always light, no matter how dim it may be hold on to it.

Well said Joe. The silent majority need a voice.

Joe, thank you for making this video. I have been dealing with PTSD from military service since the '90s. Anxiety is one of the big symptoms I suffer. Thank you for sharing your experience, and your support for others going through it.

Holy crap, buddy! I’ve been watching you for a while. I love the channel and the content. I didn’t know this about you (until I saw this video, of course), but it might make sense that something we have in common attracts me to you (not in that way, bro). We have other things in common. I grew up in a small town in Texas. I currently live in your general area. I don’t remember the last time I felt normal, but I remember feeling normal on a road trip I took with a buddy from Texas to Daytona beach. I remember that. Your obsession with death wasn’t something I personally dealt with, but I get it. My temporary fixation was that of a delve into solipsism (spoiler alert: it’s a dead end). I felt like Neo in The Matrix, except that I thought that I was “The One” in charge. After having given that up (which strangely had been a brief source of comfort), the anxiety returned. And it hasn’t fully subsided, despite my reaching out to family and professionals. I’m not sure that you’ll see this message, but since we are in reasonable geographical proximity, I’d love to meet you and talk over a beer or coffee. You have my number. Text me.

Thanks, I've been there before and sometimes catch myself falling back into those feelings. It's a great struggle to be this way and not have an outlet. I can truly understand how/why people turn to drugs/alcohol or dangerous behaviors. Thankfully that has not been my journey.

"Life may actually be a big pointless joke. So we might as well laugh at it." Such a great video.

Wow Joe. I think I was meant to see this today. I've been dealing with this sort of thing since being medically discharged from the Australian Army nearly 20 years ago. Back then, especially in my work environment, this was NEVER talked about, as well as depression. Thank God it's changed now. Anyway, this has been a particularly bad week and then I saw this incredible video and was taken back by how open you were and how genuine the whole thing was. I think it's time I let my Dr know there is more going on than pain and depression. THANKS JOE... P.S. All your videos RULE.

thank you for this video and the info it just saved my life

4:35 and cue panic attack. Sigh. 7:22 and cue tears. I'm just trying to get back there.

Oh my god... I know this! I go through this- i go through how many people hate me- like I think of all the people that just don’t like me- stuck! Panic. I totally get that! Feeling normal IS A GIFT! God bless you! I have paid out of my own pocket years of therapy, on and off for 20 years- I didn’t want a relationship or a family because of those feelings. I wasn’t going to pass that onto anyone. Now I’m good. You are right about the presence just leaving. I remember feeling better. I understand organized sports now! I love baseball! Everything was so awful for so long. I barely made it. I’m new to this channel so thank you for this.

"Feeling normal is a gift" I totally understand what you mean. 100% true. Thank you for sharing. This is a very brave video.

Frodo: "I wish the ring had never come to me. I wish none of this had happened." Gandalf: "So do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us."

That was beautiful

omg i'm crying. i'm currently going through this obsession with death rn and can literally feel my heart pounding when i think about it, and it's precisely why i've been watching your videos before falling asleep every night for the last couple months. thank you for this omg

you will live forever in youtube. and be remembered as a grate teacher . thanks

Anyone watching this, please look up "Pure O OCD" that is what he is describing here

Human life is pointless, so what? Why should there be any hidden meaning in anything? What you see is what you get, do what you want of it.

I've suffered from anxiety for 25 years. There is definitely a stigma around mental health issues. Thanks for sharing. Now on to black holes!!

Thank you for sharing your story. I’ve dealt with anxiety and panic attacks for years and it no longer cripples me but it did and knowing other people have experience the same is meaningful. I love your channel, thank you.

“I had no idea how normal felt” Hit me hard. I suffer with bipolar disorder and I remember when the lithium kicked in. The fire in my chest went out, i could sit still and be calm. As you said, feeling normal should never be taken for granted. Thank you for sharing, you shared a genuine and empathetic insight and it’s encouraging for you to speak out about it :)

hi people, I just want say how much I appreciate this video. It takes a lot of strength to bare your weaknesses. It can feel like the more you think; the more you suffer. but the suffering is caused by thinking we feel these things alone. I look forward to your stuff every week Joe, cheers mate.

3 years later here and you made me tear up this morning. Knowing you’re not alone-that our collective consciousness can mean THIS sometimes too-is somehow morbidly ;) reassuring. So, thanks, Joe.

I feel you. I know it took a lot to put this part of your life out there for everyone, but thank you for doing this. It means a lot to many many people.

I love this. There's nothing more powerful than utter transparency like this. Counter-intuitively, vulnerability is powerful.

Been a huge fan of yours for a while Joe and this has only increased my respect for you and your work. Kudos .

You've got a lot of heart, Joe. Keep doing what you're doing, and be well!

I’m so glad to see this video. This was really well discussed and you brought this issue up in a really good way!

Just watched this...4 years late. I got turned on to this channel because of my love of science, specifically space. I stayed because I actually have been going through a similar ordeal with anxiety and this channel has been a light in the storm for me. Thanks for being you, Joe.

Two minutes into this video and you literally summed up my life for the past 3 years.

Dude... I've been watching your videos for a while now and love your content more then words this couldnt have come at a better time in my life. Thank you.

It never gets easier, you're just getting stronger!

Thank you for sharing your experience with me/us Joe. It takes a great deal of courage to open up in such a way. Keep up the great work! I always look forward to your next uploads! :)

this is great man, it's awesome to know others have struggled with this

Thank you for this. It feels good to hear someone who seems to have it all together talk about it this way. It feels less lonely.

Your obsession with death in your early 20's almost exactly mirrored my experience. It was very frightening and I never sought any counselling or treatment for it. I obviously wasn't alone in feeling this way, so thankyou for sharing your experience. I wish no one had to go through that!

Thanks for your honesty Joe! It’s nice to know that existential angst isn’t so uncommon. I wish more people would talk about it.

Dude. You're a big man for doing this kind of video. I've dealt with depression, and an actual panic Attack. It's medical, it's non-voluntary, and this public stigma that it's the individuals fault, or they just need to 'get over it' needs to be overhauled. Thank you.

Thank you for sharing B!! I've been dealing with that on and off for most of my adult life some some times it's harder then other so thanks a lot for your thoughts and for putting it out there. And thanks a lot for all your other vids I don't just enjoy them I enjoying sharing them. Keep it up and may the force be with.

Even though this video is a few years old.. Thank you, this video is extremely helpful, it warms my heart to hear how you managed to go through all this, and helps me realise I can go through my issues too! Thanks for sharing your story ❤️