i know her and I've known her my entire life and 90% of everything she is saying is a lie. After katrina her mom took her kids to help her out and she never went back to pick them up. im not sure she even graduated Mandeville high school. BUT she def didn't graduate college. she lived with me 11 years ago for about a month and i had to kick her out because i suspected her of using drugs. she did have a sitting business for the elderly but she stole all of their drugs. she stole morphine from my mother while she was on hospice. i called and told her mother too. she's been lying about having cancer for over 20 years so they date she said she had cancer this time was a TOTAL LIE. she held fundraisers to get money for a cancer she NEVER HAD. this is a very sad thing to see happen to anyone, especially a lifelong friend. Get help MONICA. its never too late to fix the mess you're in.

I’m a nurse in the substance abuse field. This is her addiction talking. She’s sick. An addict trying to convince themselves and everyone around them that they’re choosing this lifestyle and can kick their addiction on their own when they’re ready; is someone overcome by their addiction. Their addicted brain is taking over trying to rationalize their lifestyle and choices. Usually the more educated addicts are the addicts that have the hardest time finding recovery. They justify their actions, and feel like they can outsmart their addiction. They can’t. Her living children deserve better. Watching her live like this can’t be easy for them. Her refusing any type of treatment isn’t a good sign. She’s not ready to get better. I hope she hits the bottom she needs to hit to make her realize she deserves more out of life than this. Sending her so much love.

Wait, she had a baby at 19, graduated college at 19, ran a mortgage & real estate company and then did nursing care for 17yrs??? But now makes 6 figures in sex work? All while having 5 children & addiction? I can't keep up with this one.

She's not making $175, 000 a year. This interview was 90% lies ...things just don't add up. She's covering up her embarrassment. I wish her the best.

I’m a cop and I often ask people what lead them to the streets and a lot of it is untreated undiagnosed mental illness. Some are just addicts that love the drugs more than life and then there are those who life never let up on or gave them one bad deal after the other. There are well educated people out there who just need someone to reach out to them and pull them up. One of the ones I helped was a woman who was an Anesthesiologist and had gotten addicted after a car wreck. Last I heard she was doing well now and gotten married. Success stories are few and far between but they are success stories none the less.

Praying for her. Reality has completely been stripped from her.

She sounds like my bio-dad who has been a drug addict for decades. In his mind, he’s 8 feet tall. Bless their hearts.

The streets are full of pathological liars.

I have 37 years in recovery. I have worked with addicts professionally and personally. I pray this woman will get honest before it’s too late. If it was that good out there, nobody would ever stop using.

I'm sorry for Monica. A lot can be read between the lines. With all due respect, it's nonsense to say that heroin makes someone functional. Monica's appearance, her health speaks volumes and there are so many inconsistent answers... She desperately needs a break...

God please bless this woman and wrap her in your arms. This channel has really taught me to look past the outer appearance. Everyone has a story and most have a struggle. Thank you Mark for giving these people a chance to speak and tell their story.

Losing a child has to be the hardest. Heartbreaking.

It amazes me how drugs create an alternate reality in many of these addicts minds.They can spin a yarn better than many professional fiction authors.

My sister was an accomplished, well educated successful woman. She did everything right. She was the best of the best. Kind, caring, spiritual. She didn't deserve to die of a heroin overdose. Neither does this woman. I don't know how to save a loved one. I wish this woman could feel warm and cozy in her life. Survive 💛🌞💛

She is a great story teller , half of what she claims is questionable. Her drug addiction has clouded her mind . My head spun on this one . I couldn’t keep up. Good luck to her .

She’s a legend in her own mind. Bless her heart.

This woman reminds me so much of my Best Friend's Mom who died a few years ago. Just her mannerisms, voice & the way she speaks. God, I miss her! Thank you, Mark!

The FBI: you either leave him or we will indict you... I could be very wrong but I don't think things work like that with the FBI...

A legend in her own mind

She's convinced herself, of herself

I can't take it anymore. "I have all the best reasons to stop, but they'll never get me to". So many contradictions. Drugs will f you up.

I think she internalizes her pain. She mentions her hardships briefly, as if she would not like to openly discuss her abusive husbands, failed careers, surviving Hurricane Katrina, traveling often, the death of her children. A lot of people use to deal with the hurt.

Father had an air condition business, Skied, “played golf tennis, anything.” Rode horses every day, Was a “barrel rider, #1 in the state for seven years.” Graduated college at 19 yr old w/double major. A “perfectionist.” Photographic memory, Taking over and restructuring companies, Owned construction company, Owned mortgage company, Owned brokerage, Owned real estate company, Owned insurance restoration company, Money laundering for the mob FBI told her leave your husband or get indicted Travelled all over the world BSN-> 17 yr hospice RN Operated as “sitting service.” Ran 10 miles a day All whilst raising five children and NEVER LEAVING THEM WITH BABYSITTERS. Did everything right with her children. Brain adhesions and seizures, Rx cost $600-$700/ day, Used heroin as RN, living as addict for ten years, started using heroin in 2018, Leukaemia is 2015 Has a “gorgeous house on the river in Madisonville,” Has thousands in the bank(s) Makes $850/ day Banks 170k/ year Works as a prostitute to buy fentanyl (or heroin?) Finishing her PhD in history Still “going in and restructuring businesses.” Wow, such a busy woman. And we all believe every word.

I'm always curious about people who give out a resume before telling a story.

I lost my 24 year old beautiful daughter 7-5-20 it's excruciating I can't imagine two of them God bless you I know your pain

“Leave him or we’re going to indict you” does not compute.

I pity the poor woman. What a sad life she’s had. All addicts lie, including alcoholics. They actually suffer from low self-esteem and shame, and try to mask it with grandiose lies. They can’t think straight because they literally have holes in their brains. I admire Mark for respecting everyone.

She sounds delusional.

I legitimately wanted to believe her until “stress from Katrina” and “I started doing drugs in 2016”. Like I even Googled it because I really wanted to be wrong about thinking it was back when I was in high school in ‘05. That’s 11 years miss, I am confusion

This lady is sicker than she lets on. Her feet and ankles are tremendously swollen. As a nurse I'm truly aware of what serious illnesses this may indicate. I'v worked and 'LIVED' with Heroin and Fentanal addicts. They get to the point they act like they're not high. If you want to see abnormal behaviors see them when that don't have their drug of choice. There is no easy answer to these problems. We've been batteling this problem for centuries. I wish her all the best...🌄

She's a pathological liar. She's casually explaining things but not going into detail of it.

My mother was upper crust and was on and off the streets for most of her adult life and no one believed her when she shared her experiences of working at the Swedish embassy in NYC or the fact that she was a competitive horse back rider or that her parents owned an atelier in the south of France not one single person believed her. She was also addicted to drugs, didn’t raise her children (unlike this woman) and was an extraordinarily mean and hurtful person. Believe a lot of what this woman tells you. It doesn’t mean she’s not hurting or hasn’t made decisions you don’t approve of but it’s not for us to judge.

I know her. It's 99% lies. Her children never died. She's not a genius. She didn't finish high school. And she once shaved her head and pretended to have cancer. I don't remember how much money she made off of that before they caught her. Crazy as a loon.

As a heroin addict who struggled with addiction for 17 years and am now 10 years clean and sober I feel like I have to comment on this.." heroin addiction has a predictable pathway, it affects our minds and takes over our lives. The story we Tell around that varies depending on where we are in terms of time and loss from this path usually it's some form of denial and justification it affects us all the same because it changes our brain and takes over our lives. You can be really smart and intelligent and every other area of your life but when it comes to heroin addiction we need help to get free from it's death grip. I hope you find the humility to Free yourself and get your life back because the loss is never ending so it finally takes your life. My suggestion is before you lose any more of your precious time and dignity is.. go to treatment get medically detoxed and then get into na or AA or some kind of support group with others like you otherwise your chances of saving yourself are slim. I wish you the best because this is the struggle that will define your entire life. God bless you ❤️

Very typical grandiose behavior here. Full of stories galore. She needs extensive therapy. On the flipside, intelligent, beautiful and quite the thinker. She's been through so much. I hope she can get the help she so deserves.

Here’s the thing, there are celebrities that are a few pills and a missed payment away from being on the street. It’s not realistic to say someone with businesses and money can’t loose it all and end up like this. You know how many moms are in my addiction recovery group, getting on the zoom from the inside of a 5 bedroom or more house, President of the PTA and still at the soccer games with liquor in the thermos and or high as a kite. I worked a full time job, took care of my mom and went to a university all while taking oxy 30s every chance I got. I don’t know this lady so I’m not saying her story is true but I don’t know that it isn’t. Drug addicts live in denial we all believe we can quit whenever we feel like it right up until we do and those DTs hit. That’s not being cocky that’s being an addict. I used to say the same type of stuff cause addicts will hold on to any last bit of dignity they have. Nobody is more arrogant than an addict that hasn’t faced the fact their addict I can promise you that. I would throw the fact I had a high gpa in college around all while snorting a line. Trust me, her lips might be moving but the drugs are speaking for her. She’s not judgmental or cocky she’s just sick. Get some help queen! You deserve better ❤

It’s so so heartbreaking how trauma manifest in peoples lives 😢

If we talked to her family I’m guessing they would differ with her perceptions of reality.

This video is heartbreaking. Poor Monica is undoubtedly suffering so much, mentally and physically (just look at the oedema in her feet and hands) and all people can seem to do is throw judgement with their entrenched misconceptions that psychiatric illness is a character flaw and lifestyle choice. It is NOT! Psychiatric illness often leads to substance abuse and vice versa. Monica needs to be surrounded with love, kindness and support. I so hope she is. No matter how fantastical her story is, she is unwell and is suffering so greatly, and as a fellow human, it is painful to watch. I see through her symptomatic delusions and feel her pain, anyone who fails to, needs an injection of empathy. Is she hurting us with her disordered sense of reality and delusional perception of self? No!! Is she hurting herself? Absolutely. Whatever happened to #BeKind??? Some nasty, judgemental oxygen thieves in this world, judging a clearly very unwell woman from the security and anonymity of their respective screens. Truly the very worst of humanity. Stop judging the psychiatrically ill by your own 'sound of mind' moral standards and instead count your blessings that you are not walking in poor Monica's shoes!! No one truly knows what trauma she has endured in this life to have lead her down this trajectory of self-annihilation. Your health is your wealth and this lady is seriously poorly by the look of the obvious oedema in her feet. She desperately needs kindness that much is certain. It doesn't cost anything to extend a little compassionate kindness to those vulnerable and suffering in pain.

There’s a lot of pain, a lot of truth, and some big lies.

By the time she said she graduated at 16 I was like “how is she that accomplished, but she ended up here?” By the time she said she was restructuring companies I was like “oh, she’s just lying about everything”

Congratulations on the 4... million....love the channel from UK England

I can pick out an opiate addict in a full room just from hearing their voice. Can hear the opiate voice every time.

I think she’s lying through this entire interview. Hospice nurse? No way. We nurses get drug tested- especially hospice because you have access to incredible amounts of NARCOTICS.

She has lots of money yet lives in a shack? Her story isn’t adding up. Very narcissistic to think she can kick an addiction on her own. And very judgy for someone who doesn’t like to be judged.

I would love to know what Mark actually thought about this interview once it was done.

She contradicts herself from one sentence to another. More confident than those who have actually accomplished something meaningful. She is not someone I would want to get to know better. Or feel the desire to help. She seems totally satisfied with herself and her life. I wish I could say the same...

Wait did she say "I got 170k in the bank," but lives in a room with the bathroom 3 houses away? 😖😂😂 She's a mess! I couldn't get through this one.

I couldn't finish this one. I am such a big fan of Soft White Underbelly. I know that something healing lives in Mark and his cameras. I know that if I got a sitting, I would not spend it telling lies.

There are some holes in her narrative. Lying, or disassociation from the reality of life is common amongst prostitutes, it's a coping mechanism. You build a wall to protect yourself from what are often pretty awful circumstances by creating an alternative reality, usually a mixture of invention and truth, the problem is you can get lost in the created persona. I was involved in prostitution from a child, so I'm talking from experience. Its not easy to find yourself afterword but its not impossible. I hope she does.

Jeeez o why did I break my fast from Soft White?!!! thank you for shining light, Mark.

Im from New Orleans and this is on par for the crazy stories someone in addiction here will tell you. You can never truly know what part is true and which isn't.

For prostitute having been her label, she didn’t say much about being one except that she hates it (min 22:15). She also implied she’s got plenty of money (including a fancy house in “Madisonville on the river)” so one would assume she doesn’t need to do it. At her age, this wouldn’t be a huge source of money anyway unless she’s got some crazy tricks she didn’t mention . Then she said she’s never ever ever giving up heroin, but didn’t really explain why she’s doing it. Most people who never give up doing heroin are doing it to get high and as a result have ever increasing habits that become increasingly difficult to manage (and pay for). However, she explained she strictly manages her heroin habit. So why is she taking heroin? One must assume it’s not to get high because she would have to be taking more and more of it to get high. Is she managing some sort of pain with heroin? She doesn’t explain this conundrum. Smart lady but a lot of hanging facts. Too bad because a lot of what she said makes a lot of sense and a lot of what she said is very true. It’s very unsettling when the truth is mixed with things that are hard to believe. Makes you doubt the whole thing.

people in general are very easily fooled by charm, charisma, high levels of narcissism & psychopathy. it's an endearing trait that the psychopaths 'in charge' of this world have taken advantage of. it's how the world got into such a sad state, morally and socially. there's a difference between unconditional love for all beings and being dangerously gullible.

She's talking left right up down and in circles. Can't really tell how much of her statement is true. I hope she can accept help soon.

She said "God doesn't judge me". Huh? He judges us all.

Not entirely believing her…she contradicts herself so many times.

It's incredible how easy it is to spot bs when it comes....maybe not for everyone but if you've only lived a little bit you can. Some people just have that need to story up the reality reason or not, it's pathology

These interviews are riveting. I love listening! Thank you!

I hope this women gets honest with herself soon. I believe about 10% of her interview/ story. God bless her.

Congratulations on 4 million subscribers Mark!

So delusional. I feel for her. She needs to recognize the addiction is why she's doing all this. She has the potential to get clean if she will admit the problem.

Well, she’s the cleanest, well put together addict I’ve ever seen. Whatever her actual story is, she makes sense and can string a sentence along. I enjoyed listening to her. Definitely not in a position to judge anyone and their journey in life.

I have known a lot of heroin addicts in my life, and so many of them are liars, but she is like the queen of liars! She’s had a lot of time to hone her craft!

Bottom line, she likes being a drug addict and doesn’t mind to Give away her whole life to continue her drug use. Notice how much she mention big houses. She wishes she had better living conditions but she prefers drugs.

She has a lot to learn! A 6 year habit is just getting started!!! She isn't strong enough to quit what makes her think she will be able to handle withdrawal and the mental anguish that comes with it! This woman keeps saying she's "humble" and then immediately starts to virtue signal and talks about how much better she is than the people she lives with and is just like!!! I'm calling B.S!!!

The most humbling interview. She is wise. Not sure she is 100% honest with herself about her addiction but she said a lot of true things about life. Great interview Mark and congrats on 4m subs!!

She lost a son, yet doesn't want to go home to the son who is asking her to come home.

Whether it's truth, lies, her perception of her reality, our perception oh her reality, there is value in her telling her story. And I am still able take something positive from her interview.

Sorry, don’t believe a word she says.

I found Monica one of the saddest stories of all. She is very unwell but unfortunately she doesn't have a true reality. I wish her well in every sense.

I get Dennis Reynolds vibes from her. Nothing she says seems like true and it feels like she sees herself higher than everyone else. Also I feel like in real life she tries to manipulates everyone she is in touch with.

so sad...she has repeated those lies so much...she believes her own lies!

Monica is one of the most interesting people I've ever listened to - this was extremely impactful.

I hope that telling this story makes her feel better about herself. I find her to be a very pitiful being. I often wonder what makes us the way we are. I doubt she could be honest enough to tell her real story

Liar lair, pants on fire. Her body language is telling you everything.

My life would be so easy if I had delusions of grandeur. Instead I walk around self deprecating everyday of my life in complete awareness of reality.

Hard watching her lie to herself. The first step to fight addiction is to be honest with yourself.

I don't know why people think she is making everything up.. I did a very quick search on the first thing she mentioned she did which was being a champion barrel racer. And there she was! She speaks intelligently and eloquently and has a lot of specialized medical knowledge so I completely believe she was also a hospice nurse. I feel so terribly for her and where her life has taken her. I really hope someone can help her turn the corner on this avenue as she clearly has so much to offer and will not last much longer in this lifestyle at her age and obvious vulnerable health.

She's pulling in $175K/yr but chooses to live in a dump because it keeps her humble. Right!!~

This poor woman is so lost and I suspect has been for most of her life; I think she could live in her own head forever. She is exhausted, physically sick, and really believes what she is saying makes sense. What a damn sin.

The lies she tells herself are ridiculous. She needs someone putting all of that to rest.

Thank you for the interview. I wish you the best future in life. I am sorry for how you got here.

Ego...what a trip. Thank you for sharing your story...there were a lot of lessons in what you shared. And what an incredible life! I could absolutely relate to it in my own story. I think you are remarkable...again. Thank you.❤ And Thank you Mark for all these amazing interviews!

I love this channel ❤️

“I started using prescription drugs after Katrina hit.” Katrina hit in 06. “So I started using prescription drugs around 2016ish.” I don’t know, she’s a little all over the map with her stories. Don’t know if I believe everything she says.

I am 100% sure she was taking meds off those dying hospice patients. 😪

I learned more from this video than most others. Thank you, and thank Monica.

She’s delusional

Being an addict and taking care of sick people is a scary thing! Who are our caretakers today? Insane!!!

I love Mark’s voice…. I want all my audio books read by him!!

"DENYING THE TRUTH DOESN'T CHANGE THE FACTS "

Lies after lies literally drop out of her pores - sad, and disgusting, esecially when constantly praising oneself in such grotesque form. Probably borderline / severe reality-dissociation.

To all the people in the comments..... In 2018 I was in New Orleans and down on my luck. I met this woman and she was the kindest woman IVE ever met, she let me stay in her beautiful home for 3weeks while she stayed in a one room studio in a bad part of town She also gave me 500 dollars when I left. So she's not lying about having money and a beautiful home

She’s too good to go home to her son.. she’s rather be on the street to her “people” addiction got her for sure

the swelling in her feet has to be a sign of something serious going on .

For someone that doesn't judge this was a strange interview to watch.

I seriously have no idea what to make of this.

I like her. This is what type A, perfectionist who was not treated well throughout life and in extreme grief looks like. She needs love. Deep, deep love for a looooooong time. That’s what she desperately needs. All this is just to avoid talking about her grief. I wish I could hug her. ♥️♥️

I really enjoyed this interview. What an interesting woman.