Sharing my divorce story.
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Жыл бұрынThank you for letting my share my story of why I got divorced and the truth about my marriage. I never thought this would be my story but it is and my intention is to help anyone else who might be in the same position.
I want to make it clear that by no means was I perfect in this marriage. I would actually go as far as to say I had some really toxic behaviors as well. However, they stemmed from being with someone who was constantly disrespecting me and it was hard for me to continue to have respect for him. We all have things we could be better at in a relationship but please know that snapping a few times at your partner or not being super loving is NOT equivalent to adultery/infidelity, constant lying, manipulation, and sexual abuse.
I'm sending you love and praying for you, my friend.
Follow along on my journey: msha.ke/laurenemilyjuarez
Hotlines:
- www.thehotline.org/?...
- chatnow.org/
- Suicide hotline: 988
Books a.co/bX2ZO8z
Fight the New Drug (post in video)
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Marital rape studies and info:
www.btr.org/the-truth-about-w...
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www.ojp.gov/ncjrs/virtual-lib...
Learn more about porn addictions:
- www.medicalnewstoday.com/arti...
- pornaddiction.com/watching-po...
Emotion abuse info:
- www.healthline.com/health/sig...
- shorelinerecoverycenter.com/i...
Chapters:
00:26 - disclaimers + trigger warnings
02:00 - How we met + where things started
05:20 - married, moved Santa cruz
15:25 - moved to Ohio
20:00 - start of the end
26:30 - what happened right after I found out
31:15 - love bombing
32:20 - when I knew it was over
35:00 - on my own
35:50 - marital rape
37:05 - my testimony of faith
38:25 - praying over you
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@xoxox903 Жыл бұрын
I’m Muslim and in my community women tend to marry early and really idolize marriage until they face the reality of it. As women, we need to know ourselves better and work on our future before we get with someone. We need to know the guy as well and we need to stop being delusional
@TechOutAdam 11 ай бұрын
Most guys today are not worth marrying. Our society has a serious masculinity issue and women should just vet as hard as possible before even getting in a relationship or married.
@ardordeleon 11 ай бұрын
@@TechOutAdamthere's a masculinity problem and you are living proof of that. 😂
@DX-d 10 ай бұрын
@@ardordeleonno, you’re the proof of it.
@maxxrenn 8 ай бұрын
@@DX-dno it’s you who are the proof
@TheMonica82 6 ай бұрын
@ardordeleon If you are a mature man leaving a serious comment - you should take the juvenile "laughing emoji" off at the end of said statement; then your words would hold to be true...
@albertsonjenkins7046 Жыл бұрын
I'm an atheist but the prayer at the end felt really nice and really spoke to me. It's comforting to think that someone I don't even know would pray for my wellbeing.
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Albertson, this touched me so much. Thank you for watching this video with an open mind and heart. I truly am praying for you and I want you to know you are never ever alone! Thanks again for watching 😊
@rileywiebe3512 Жыл бұрын
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@Mrs.Rodarte Жыл бұрын
I'm Christian my best friend is atheist I hope that one day God brings you back to us. I don't agree with everything in the church either but I do know God is real there's a difference from religion and Faith @albertsonjenkins
@Mrs.Rodarte Жыл бұрын
And Lauren you are so strong marriage is hard for me and I'm 35 I could imagine at 18
@albertsonjenkins7046 Жыл бұрын
@@Mrs.Rodarte I appreciate the sentiment but I was never a Christian. I never believed in God. I was raised without religion and I will remain that way. I respect all religions but have no intention practicing any faith. But thank you for your kind words.
@SageSummits Жыл бұрын
My mom and I are going through something incredibly similar. Watching your story, it hits home. My dad is struggling with sex addiction and refuses to seek help. He's cheated on my mom hundreds, if not thousands of times. He's spent thousands of dollars on porn and meeting up with people from the internet. My mom filed for divorce this week and since then, he's been love bombing us... pretending nothing is happening. Its really tough to go through. The denile, the lying, the manipulation, etc. Its very abusive to not only us, but himself. Sending you a massive hug. Thank you for sharing your story.
@nataliafranco3471 Жыл бұрын
I pray your father finds Jesus and repents! The devil only has 3 intentions: to Kill, steal and destroy. He hated family and hates love. Try to bring him to church! I hope all will be well💕 and I'm so sorry you and your mom have been experiencing this betrayal for years.
@nataliafranco3471 Жыл бұрын
@@Rachel-yr7ch No, it's my job as a Christian. If you don't want to listen, then that's your decision, but I'm not trying to force anything. Just spreading the word. Jesus saved my life, and I know he can save anybody that allowed him to. I hope you have a great night💕
@nataliafranco3471 Жыл бұрын
@@Rachel-yr7ch It's not a cult, it's the truth.
@bearsofix.4678 Жыл бұрын
@@Rachel-yr7ch no one is forcing anyone into anything, they were being kind and clearly you are upset about it. Some people have religions ( including ) and no need to disrespect them! People like you are saddening
@P1llow.k1tty 6 ай бұрын
@@nataliafranco3471 exactly i personally don't believe in god but im not going to be disrespectful about it and call it a "cult" everyone has the right to believe any religon
@dreamy2209 Жыл бұрын
he had no business being a school photographer….
@bluecollarlit Жыл бұрын
Oy! I thought this to, right away.
@bluecollarlit Жыл бұрын
too
@ellie__101 Жыл бұрын
I'm 24, not married (yet), but your story taught me so much about the reality of marriage. Thank you for being open and brave enough to bare your scars to us. I'm so in love with your energy and overall style (cottagecore is my go-to aesthetic when it comes to dressing up). May He continually bless and heal your heart as the time passes! ♥️
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for watching ♥️
@isabelmahr8746 Жыл бұрын
Dear Lauren, my heart actually kind of broke a little listening to your story. I'm so sorry you had to go through all of this and equally I am so inspired by your faith and by the fact that you're still holding onto God and his promises to you. May He strengthen you and bless you abundantly. Much love ❤️
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Hi Isabel. Thank you so much for watching and hearing my story. Jesus has truly been so good to me and has helped me during this loss. I appreciate you and I am so grateful for you!
@TooCoolForYourMom Жыл бұрын
I also just went through a divorce as well, this past August, still in my 20s, after three years of marriage. The similarities to your story are almost haunting. The many tiny lies, the pornography, the half-finished book on how to salvage the relationship, the shame, the stress signals my body was giving me that I ignored, being told he’s no longer attracted to you, the cheating with an older woman but claiming it’s not “real” cheating towards the end of the relationship…seriously. You and I could probably talk for hours, lol. From the bottom of my heart, I wish you the best in your journey forward. You are NOT alone, and I mean that in both the sense that God is with you and that others have gone through similar experiences. I felt like an alien going through my divorce, unwanted, and a failure to boot. Time has given me so much clarity and peace already and I’m sure it has for you as well. A friend told me (when everything was still so raw) that someday she hoped everything I was going through would be seen as God’s mercy. That day came faster than I ever could’ve thought. Good luck. ❤
@melindawhite347 Жыл бұрын
every single aspect of your story resonates with me. it’s so crazy that so many women have dealt with this. thank you for sharing.
@annie_patota Жыл бұрын
100% on the same wave length minus the type of person he cheated with. But so undeniably spot on.
@panashejoy7071 Жыл бұрын
I have not had this experience myself, but I’ve struggled with pornography. I’ve never gotten to the point of addiction but it was something I turned to occasionally when my hormones were raging and I should have been crying out to God or reaching out to other people instead. I knew in theory that it was harmful to me but refused to believe it was harmful to anyone else. Seeing what happened to you absolutely broke my heart. I broke down crying because I can’t imagine ever breaking someone’s heart the way yours was broken. I don’t want to let it get to that point. I’ve been growing more and more disgusted with pornography and I thank God for that. But this is that extra push that’s made me decide that I will not let myself get into marriage with a porn problem. I will not do this to another person. God bless you for sharing. You’ve helped change something in me.
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
This is so brave of you to share. Your words are going to help validate what many others cannot say but are struggling with. I’m so proud of you. Thank you for listening to my story ♥️
@virginiaraine2207 Жыл бұрын
Discovered your channel through ig today and listening to just the short I was fully invested to hear your story. And , my heart has been broken, and shifted in many ways watching your story, I feel so deeply for you and the women who have gone through this - you are loved and supported by so many of us hearing this. Thank you for sharing but also allowing a space for others to speak and think on these things and just have a catharsis. Keep speaking , keep being you and keep healing you are light for so many 💜
@OfficialBluebird Жыл бұрын
I completely identify with being within the first few months of marriage and things suddenly becoming awful. I got married at 21 and divorced at 26. I knew within the first few months - but I stayed for 4 years.
@jimbowumbo Жыл бұрын
Girl our story is so similar. I’ve been there. Got married young, divorced at 22. But got away, thank God. Now I’m married to the most amazing man and blessed with a beautiful baby boy. I’m praying for you and thankful to see I wasn’t the only one who had to experience this.
@GGVanilla Жыл бұрын
I watch a short clip on Instagram of you dancing by yourself and I fully expected to dislike you and thought you just wanted “attention”… but I watched your entire video and I have to say you’re such a sweet, caring and loving person. You’re literally so beautiful inside and out and I’m so proud of you for being so young and brave. I believe you were the victim of a serious narcissist (possible sociopath?!) and he discarded you and thank God he did. You had no option but to let go (and that’s a huge blessing for someone with a heart that’s a bottomless well of love). I think the biggest lesson for all us discarded by narcissists is exactly that, we shouldn’t love people endlessly. We should stop and evaluate and make sure they deserve that love because it is the highest quality gift that you can give and not everyone deserves it. You’re so young and have a whole life ahead of you and I have no doubt you’re going to lead a life full of self love, self discovery and most of all resilience. I send you so much love and god energy. Take care of yourself and your kitty !!!
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
These words mean the absolute whole world to me. The fact that you didn’t make a snap judgement and watched this whole video to assess your feelings and thoughts about me just shows how intelligent, kind, and mature of a person YOU are. Your comment is SO validating and SO needed for me to read, especially when you mention stopping to assess the love we “should” have for someone. You have been a blessing to me today. Thank you ♥️
@Lealea883 Жыл бұрын
You expected to hate someone over a dancing video. Really sit with that thought…
@backseatxbroadcast Жыл бұрын
@@Lealea883 my thoughts exactly tbh
@kweenbrook Жыл бұрын
@@Lealea883 that’s so weird
@mim-rw1ts 4 ай бұрын
@@Lealea883right? that’s so weird
@santiaarreguin4730 Жыл бұрын
Your video has me sobbing. We literally have basically identical stories - except I stayed longer and things only got worse. I am still recovering 5 years after divorce. When you said “I loved being a wife, I want to be a wife” I felt that. But we loved hard and tried our very best. I still cry sometimes. Hugs bb.
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Oh love, I’m so so sorry to hear this. My heart breaks for you that you have also had to go through this. Stick with me because we will heal from this ♥️
@garcia46j Жыл бұрын
It’s insane that I came across your insta account. I went through something very similar but I wasn’t married just living with him. I’m so grateful I got out of that situation… life is so much better. And you look like you are glowing! Thank you for sharing your story! ❤
@vanora5294 Жыл бұрын
I'm so proud of you for getting through this!! That is unbelievably hard to go through this with the person you thought you would grow old with and I will always be in awe of how amazing you are and how far you have gotten
@HannahB. Жыл бұрын
I had been really uneasy this week as I learned that my dear friend who just recently turned 18 is now engaged to a man who has cheated and lied throughout their 10 month relationship. I believe that in the church, young girls often fall into these situations because self love is not focused on, and many outdated ideas of a woman’s value have been perpetuated. I think we encourage grace to a fault when it causes young girls to fail to stand up for themselves and their boundaries in these sorts of relationships. I am truly sorry that this is your reality and I am praying healing over you. Peace be with you ❤
@pastelmatty9614 Жыл бұрын
I went through such a similar thing with my ex boyfriend I remember how stressed out I was during that time my body was screaming for me to get out, once he cheated on me I finally felt free cuz I finally left. Praying for our healing💕💕
@lynleyserrano4557 Жыл бұрын
Literally got chills when you prayed for all of your viewers. Thank you
@BougieAshr Жыл бұрын
I’m so sorry you had to go through that at such a young age. I’m the same age as you and I couldn’t imagine having to deal with that kind of stress. When you talked about worrying about doing things alone and for yourself I actually cried because that isn’t something you should have to worry about at 20/21 years old. I can see you’re in a better place than you once were but I hope God continues to heal your spirit and heart.
@Tvj_films8452 10 ай бұрын
#1 don’t marry straight out of high school.
@mirandahenkel550 Жыл бұрын
I’m so sorry to hear about the pain you went through. I can’t wait to see what is in store for your future 💕
@emilyfields8581 Жыл бұрын
Lauren, I just found your Instagram and saw your post bearing your soul about your divorce and journey to self love. While I haven’t dealt with things like this in my marriage, I have had a friendship which had some of these emotional abuse tactics used almost daily. So while I don’t know all of what you went through, I do know a glimpse. And I know God brought me out the other side. Keep going girlie. “She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.” Proverbs 31:25 NIV You’re a beautiful soul. And I see the joy of Christ shining in you as you work your way through this tough journey. From one sister in Christ to another, I love you.
@reecehudson8868 Жыл бұрын
I’m so sorry you had to go through this ordeal, and all these situations. Love is supposed to be a beautiful life experience, where people care for each other & navigate life together. I hope you find the strength over time, take care of yourself, heal from this & go on to love & life your life the way you want & deserve ✨ 🌻
@emmasmiddy572 Жыл бұрын
Lauren, I am so proud of you. Not only have you had to go through such a difficult time, but you had the strength to share it with us. This is such a vulnerable topic/situation and it seems you have handled it so gracefully. You also have helped me see some of the similar issues I have seen within my own relationship. Ones that I have been trying to ignore. So, thank you! I also feel the need to remind you that, God works his hardest in our most darkest times. He is working so hard in your life right now, and though some days may be tougher than others He is ALWAYS by your side. I’m praying for healing for you and anyone else going through something similar.
@xoyouaremysunshinexo Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story, Lauren! I just found your IG reels last night and something about your spirit really touched me, so I followed. I’m so sorry that you had to go through this 😔.
@keilouise Жыл бұрын
wow okay thank you so much for this. abuse doesn’t always have to be visible, and this really made me think about my own experiences with past relationships. i’m so glad i’m in a supportive and loving relationship that gives me motivation and love and life, and i would wish that with everyone. i love you lauren, you don’t know me but i love you and you are so strong for this. thank you eternally 💕
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
You are 1000% right. Abuse doesn’t always look like a black eye or busted lip. Sometimes it’s very quiet and invisible like you said. I appreciate you watching ♥️♥️
@bloopityboop8434 Жыл бұрын
Hi, Lauren! Just popping in to thank you for sharing your experience. I'm a 30 year old lady currently nagivating the breakup of my own long term relationship. It's easily one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, so I can't imagine going through it at your age. I'm so happy for you for being able to find so much strength and wisdom and for being able to find so many chances for joy among the difficulty. Your content has been a great comfort for me the past few weeks - it makes me feel like I'll be okay, too. You are wonderful, and you are doing amazing. Whenever you see this, I hope you're having a good day. 💖
@LydiaTifuh Жыл бұрын
I am going through a separation/ divorce right now. Hearing and watching this is encouraging
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
I’m so so sorry to hear that. You are not alone at all!! I’m so glad that you found this video and it could be helpful for you 🤍
@osnapitznormii Жыл бұрын
needed this, going through the same scenario. thank you Lauren.
@lisalee5423 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for this video. I was feeling lost and frustrated at who I was and what my life had amounted to but at the end of the video, I felt at peace, loved, and encouraged. God is good. It also brought a friend to mind who is also struggling with trauma from a previous toxic relationship. I want to be there for her, and this video was really helpful. I’m grateful. Sending love and prayers. Your courage and strength is inspiring.
@littledevil8351 Жыл бұрын
I'm so sorry Lauren. Your strength is inspirational and I know you'll continue to be a beacon of light in this world. I'm proud of your courage through this process. God #1 and yourself #2 know more about yourself than anyone else. I wish you the best that this life has to offer and God bless you and your family
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Hi Ethan, it's so good to hear from you! Thank you for watching this and for listening to my story. You say the beginning and from an outside perspective, hearing what was really happening myst be strange in some ways. I appreciate you listening and saying this!
@scrubmommy4634 Жыл бұрын
Lauren, thank you for telling us your divorce story. I'm feeling so many emotions at once after watching your video that I struggle to find the right words to express them. But if I can say the least -- stay encouraged to spread the word and talk about that which is usually overlooked when we talk about women's position in marriage. Thank you for including all the resources, studies, and links. I pray that the person who watches this finds the courage to listen to what their heart is telling them. The way you've told this story with grace gave me so much hope for healing in this world and I'm so genuinely happy to see you heal and learn to trust, love, respect, and value yourself. That picture in the white summer dress truly says a lot about what a beautiful, talented, creative, kindly smiling, valuable part of this world you are ❤And thanks to the most merciful Lord who's helped you see that in yourself at the right time and place. Sending hugs your way xx
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Hi Ana. Thank you so so much for watching and hearing my story. Your words hold so much value to me and truly encourage me so much. I am so blessed to know you and call you my friend. Thank you for being so supportive and rooting for me
@taylor6494 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing. I’m so sorry you went through all of this. I see your strength, it’s very empowering to see. ❤
@createtess9708 Жыл бұрын
Watched this because I saw one of your TikToks, I am also a believer and got married really young (19) and my heart goes out to you for everything you’ve been through already 💛 Thank you for opening up and sharing and being a place for others to feel welcome
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Wow. Thank you so much for coming over to watch from tiktok. It has been so incredibly hard to navigate this but kindhearted people like you, supporting my journey and cheering me help me so much🤍thank you again for watching
@ellastephanie7893 Жыл бұрын
Lauren, I am so sorry you experienced that. 😢 I know the heartbreak is horrible, but I am sure you will understand one day that you dodged a bullet. Stay strong!
@rutheaton2668 Жыл бұрын
I know how hard this sharing must have been for you. Your raw honesty is refreshing but my heart breaks for all you have been through. So thankful that you have learned to lean on God for your strength and healing. I will pray for your continued healing. I love you sweet girl. You DO deserve to be treated well and cherished like the wonderful young lady you are. God has someone that is right for you - wait on God for him and pray for that person even before you know who it is!! You are special and you are loved!!❤
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much Nana! I love you and appreciate you praying over me always
@kaelynnelsonvideography4073 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story in such a loving and truthful way. I’ll be praying for continued healing and I hope you’re doing well
@bernadetteduran9383 Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for sharing. It’s been years since I watched a KZfaq video from start to finish. You’re an inspiration and good luck on your journey ❤
@ellona3645 Жыл бұрын
The amount of grace you showed him. 💕 He will eventually realize what he lost. Continually trust the Lord & glad you got out of this toxic relationship! Stay strong
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Hi Ellona! Thank you for watching this video and listening to my story. Jesus works in mysterious ways and Im truly grateful he has stayed with me this whole time and wont ever leave my side.
@nicoledoubleyou Жыл бұрын
I am not sure someone that's so toxic will ever realize what he lost, but that's probably for the better, we don't want him trying to get back into her life
@autsesameseason4023 Жыл бұрын
Lauren, thank you for your faith and courage. I've had similar things happen in my marriage and this video was unbelievably helpful for me. I wish you all the joy and I know God will continue to bless you for your faith and kindness ❤
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for watching and for sharing your story ♥️
@anastasiashenkova7971 Жыл бұрын
I'm not the one to comment or even watch a 40 min long video, but you literally had me from beginning to end. You seem like such a sweet caring girl, I cannot believe everything that's happened to you. I wish you lots of growth and happiness in the future, you truly deserve it ❤️
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Wow. This comment really got me 🥺🤍 thank you so so much for saying that and taking the time to comment! I appreciate your support so much!🤎
@H--B Жыл бұрын
Everything happens for a reason. Imagine finding all this out later in life with children involved. You dodged a bullet and will be much stronger going forward because of this, thanks for sharing
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Exactly. Thanks so much for watching and listening with an open mind and heart
@simonewaithe7162 10 ай бұрын
Your testimony really helped me. Thank you for having the courage to share your story 🙏🏾
@LaurenJuarez 10 ай бұрын
I appreciate you watching so much and I am so glad this helped 🤍🤍 Jesus is moving.
@fernandatak Жыл бұрын
Thanks for sharing this, Lauren. I can’t even imagine how hard and painful was pass through this relationship. I got so emotional when you talked about deserving someone better because I had a similar situation with my ex boyfriend, I accepted a lot of things that wasn’t good for me, I exceeded all my limits and values just to not lose him, until it got to the point where I lost myself. That's when I went back to church and I felt in my heart that he wasn't for me and that God is separating someone better for my life, so I broke up with him. But it’s still difficult because we are in the senior year of high school and have to see each other every day, but I know that I’m not alone, God is with me, such as he is with you. So thank you for your vulnerability in sharing this online, I appreciate how strong and brave you are. I hope that God continues to bless your life and always believe in his plans, even if you don't understand them now. P.S. sorry if the grammar is wrong, I'm brazilian 🇧🇷 and please keep making videos here for youtube! I will love to see them ❤️
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Wow Fernanda. This touched me. Thank you so much for sharing a part of your story here. I know that me as well as others will be really encouraged by what you said. I am so glad you also know Jesus and know that he will always be with us in times of trouble and throughout our everyday. Thank you again, for watching and for sharing this.
@alekpotter9071 9 ай бұрын
I followed you on Instagram a while back, but asked for a divorce this weekend. I’m not on social media right now, but I wanted to seek out your story. Thank you for sharing. We need more content around this- getting divorced young can be so isolating.
@LaurenJuarez 9 ай бұрын
I am so sorry to hear this. This breaks my heart. Through this, I know you will find new strength and the wound will heal in time. I will be praying over you tonight.
@alekpotter9071 9 ай бұрын
@@LaurenJuarez thank you 💕 your story is so full of hope. I hope someday I can share mine.
@ErinIsSoPosh Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I am praying for peace and continued healing for you. 💙
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
I appreciate you so much
@rimamartens Жыл бұрын
Let this be a lesson to other young Christian women getting married young.
@AlwaysAsher Жыл бұрын
Mmm, let this be a lesson to other young Christian women about getting married unequally yolked*. There’s nothing wrong with Christian couples getting married young.
@steviedawks Жыл бұрын
This hit home. I was in a similar relationship from 2008-2016. I resonated so much with your story! God is going to send you the most amazing, loving, trustworthy man into your life one day. You walked in obedience and you are helping so many women by posting a video like this. When I was going through it, I felt alone. I couldn’t think for myself, I couldn’t do the most mundane things without him and I had to start my life completely over as a woman and mom. Sending love and hugs! God bless you girl ❤
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
I am sorry to hear you have had to go through something similar but I am so glad this video resonated with you
@lenadacca Жыл бұрын
You are so so brave for sharing this, thank you. I feel less alone hearing your story, though mine is different in many ways. When you said you realized you were worth more than the situation you were in I nearly started crying because I have felt the same way before. Also, when you shared that he said he didn't find you attractive my jaw literally dropped. You have such a delicate and feminine beauty and style, and a gracefulness about you that I envy- and I mean that wholeheartedly. I also teared up when you prayed for us. Thank you Lauren. Our God is truly the best mender of broken hearts and truly does reap joy from tears.
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Lena, this touched me in ways I cannot explain. Thank you so so much for saying this. Wow, that is just so incredibly sweet and kind of you! Thank you for watching this and listening to my story. Jesus really is the Prince of Peace and i feel so much comfort knowing he will never leave our side!
@emma-liames383 Жыл бұрын
Lauren, thank you so so much for sharing your story. My heart breaks for you ♥️ You are so strong and such an inspiration. Your testimony that God was by your side through all of this, has been such a comfort for me, as my relationship with God has been rocky. Thank you for sharing your story and I wish you all the best as you go towards the wonderful life that awaits you
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Hi Emma! Thank you for watching and I am so glad that this was able to encourage you and bless you in some way! Please remember Jesus is always here with us and just wants to hear from us. He is a father and a friend and loves you so much!
@keniavallejos2867 Жыл бұрын
Your video helped me release so much pain. I’ve been separated since march 2023, but I’ve been holding back because it’s too painful to think about. I was also with him 7 years, lived with him for 5. I lost my job too, I feel so lost. Luckily I have my parents and friends and the Lord never abandons us. You are sooo strong for sharing your story, being vulnerable. You are really helping me. Thank you ❤God bless you ❤
@sparkiy Жыл бұрын
You are so brave! Thank you for telling your story x
@katherinerichardson3876 Жыл бұрын
Thank you Lauren for sharing your story. It’s truly making a difference, helping those with similar stories and reminding us that we are not alone. ❤ So proud of how far you’ve come and know that you will do great things.
@annatheadventuress Жыл бұрын
Love you Lauren 🥺❤️❤️ My heart is broken hearing about your story. So proud of you for sharing and how far you’ve come- and most importantly how much you look to and lean on God ❤️
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Anna, I truly wouldn't be where I am right now without you. You have been such an answered prayer to me and I am so grateful to know you
@kelsiefairbanks3059 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story! I am so sorry this happened. You are fearfully and wonderfully made (psalms 139)
@bhavyakhattar3520 Жыл бұрын
Hi Lauren! First of all, I know it might took a lot of strength for you to share your story with us but I bet you are the strongest and bravest person I’ve come across on social media. What you’ve gone through is very difficult to even understand. When you mentioned that you could not find any support groups for help, you created one yourself! I pray you get blessed with all the happiness, peace and love in the world! You are truly worthy of it! Lots of love to you!!!!!❤❤❤❤
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Thank you so so much for watching and listening to my story ♥️♥️
@loafy7794 Жыл бұрын
I was in a relationship that ended when I mentioned my ex’s pornography obsession. He tried to justify that with depression. I really thought he was the one, so it was really shocking for me. For the past two years I have felt so alone wondering if I was the problem for feeling insecure and uncomfortable with him watching those kinds of things. Your story really opened my eyes- I feel so relieved that I was definitely not the problem. Thank you for telling your story, and I’m praying for your continued healing ❤️
@priscillagarza9233 Жыл бұрын
This video is a big eye opener❤️ I’m so proud of you to know your worth! I hope you find a nice gentleman that’s going to treat so much where you don’t have remember this…
@linabmjb 8 ай бұрын
Lauren you are SO STRONG like wow, I hope you know how much all of this made you grow and into who you are today. I wish you to find true love, but first love within yourself. Much love
@LaurenJuarez 8 ай бұрын
I appreciate you saying this so much thank you 🫶🏼
@brittanyjones8656 Жыл бұрын
I just want to give you a big hug!!! I’m sorry you went through this.
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
I want to give YOU the biggest hug! Thank you for watching ♥️
@alexessnow0318 Жыл бұрын
You deserve so much love 💛 you seem like such an amazing, loving, and wholesome person. I’ll say a prayer for you and I wish you nothing but happiness and healing in your life. You’re beautiful inside and out and I’m proud of you for everything you’ve overcome.
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much ♥️
@lostinmydreams4561 Жыл бұрын
Lauren...thank you. This unexpectantly hit home for me. I am so appreciative to hear your story. Watching your healing journey on reels etc, I feel like I am right next to you as I try to heal myself too
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Wow. I’m so so glad that this resonated with you and that we can heal along side of each other 🤍
@mads597 Жыл бұрын
I don’t understand thinking it makes sense for teens/early 20s to marry and role-play adulthood when they’ve not matured or learned who they are yet. It’s a huge disservice to young people that early marriage is still pushed as a realistic or ideal decision. People deserve the time to grow up before committing themselves to be a life partner. They owe it to themselves AND their future spouse to get to grow up.
@amandatran4207 Жыл бұрын
Lauren, thank you for sharing
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for watching Amanda ♥️
@GirlySam1982 Жыл бұрын
I felt every single word. It tore my heart apart! I wish i could give u the biggest hug u ever received. I can relate.. divorced.. 3 kids.. ex has cyber-sex addiction..
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
I’m so so sorry to hear this. You are so strong though. Thank you very much for watching ♥️
@priskamagdalenasinem7032 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for opening up, you're so strong! I believe God will heal your heart and your testimony will bring a lot of hope and healing to others too. Please don't give up on God and Hope.❤
@hafsaayub2956 Жыл бұрын
I was also 18 when I got married in 2021 and got divorced august 2022. He made me feel like I was wrong for having opinions different than his as it didn't align with the "home values" he shares w his family. The relationship became toxic as he wanted me to change only and to do whatever his parents said and listen to his brother's verbal abuse, including to not work, stop my education and have a baby asap; it was a joint family system. I'm so glad my entire family was supportive and I got out in time. I'm now studying, working a government job and hanging out w my friends. I miss having a partner but this is better crying everynight wondering why I was just so unhappy and heartbroken. Stay strong girls and guys
@nicoledoubleyou Жыл бұрын
How didn't you know this was the kind of person he was before getting married. With the person in the video, it made sense cuz these were things that he kept hidden. But with stuff like his family and values, that doesn't make sense
@emafrederico4165 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story 🤍. You are an encouragement to me, and I’m thankful for your courage and strength 🤍🤍
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Ema, thank you so much for watching! I appreciate you listening to my story and leaving a comment
@ceciliadavlatov3361 Жыл бұрын
Your story made me cry. I’m so sorry!
@Brynneanika Жыл бұрын
Lauren, you shared with such grace. It was never supposed to be this way, but I know God is using you to be a light to others who are going through similar situations. You are brave, resilient, kind, and beautiful inside and out. I love you pal🤍
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for watching this Brynne and for being here for me for so long. You truly are a friend that I feel so grateful to have in my life. You are a part of my healing journey and I couldn't be more grateful for that!
@kadencehooper7412 Жыл бұрын
You are such a beautiful person inside and out. Thank you for sharing this, I needed to hear this. I’m so happy you’re a believer and you’re doing well. I hope to see another video from you soon 💕
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
You are so so sweet thank you for watching ♥️
@carolineshort9433 Жыл бұрын
You are so so strong and brave Lauren. My heart breaks for you. But truly thank you so much for sharing. You’ve actually taught me a few things about a current situation I am going through in a relationship. So just thank you. Lord, I pray for full restoration and healing over Laurens life. I pray that her faith continues to grow. I pray you give her peace. I pray that you heal her of any health issues she has come to struggle with in Jesus name. God keep Lauren wrapped in Your arms. That she never forgets she is a LITERAL princess! She is Your daughter. The daughter of the King. She deserves a life full of true genuine love and happiness, nothing less. Amen❤️
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Hi Caroline! Thank you so much for listening to my story. it definitely was a lot to go through but I know Jesus will use this story to help others which is just what he does best!! That prayer means more to me than you know. I don't know if I have had anyone pray for FULL healing for me and that is what I need after all of this. Thank you so so much
@angelachen4760 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for being so raw and honest, you have helped so many girls out there. You are amazing and strong and beautiful ❤
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
This comment means so much to me! Thank you
@eva.parani Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for sharing your experience, my heart broke listening to you recount experiences that should never have happened to someone as loving and kind as you. I was in a similar situation to yours a few years ago, although we were never married, in which my partner was addicted to pornography and sex, and as a result I experienced rape several times as well as cheating before I decided to break it off. I thought I was happy with him, when in reality that was one of the darkest times, in which I felt so insecure, inadequate and lost. He actively encouraged my depression and eating disorder, and I am still unlearning the self destruction he taught me. I hope you come to see yourself as we all see you, a kind, caring, patient, empathetic woman full of potential and light who has a future brimming with possibility, and that you are perfect just as you were created. You deserve all of the goodness in this world 💗 In the words of the prayer of st francis "lord make me an instrument of your peace, where there is hatred let me sow love, where there is injury, pardon, where there is doubt, faith, where there is despair, hope, where there is darkness, light, and where there is sadness, joy"
@kristianaia Жыл бұрын
I am so unbelievably proud of you
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much Kristiana!
@FabiolaSuarez Жыл бұрын
Wow Lauren. This is very hard to watch but thank you so much for having the courage to share. Rooting for you always, okay? ❤
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Thank you for watching Fabi. I appreciate you being so supportive to me for so long
@rachaelwray9206 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story Lauren. There are so many similarities in your story and mine. My H and I married in 2019(both 20y/o) but we’ve been together since 2017. I relate strongly on the topics of pornography addiction, hysterical bonding, emotional abuse, etc. My H has physically cheated multiple times, and so I relate on stress materializing into physical sickness. Fevers and all for me. I have two beautiful kiddos and I’ve been a sahm for years, so leaving is very challenging for me (mostly financially). I so hope that one day I will feel free, and feel myself again without all the anxieties, fear, and hopelessness. One day.. It breaks my heart that so many women have such similar stories. For now, I’ll live vicariously through watching your videos and getting excited with you for this new chapter in your life. You’re beautiful, and so very brave. May the Lord bless you and keep you. 🫶🏻
@AshleyLCoffey Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for being so bold to speak out about this! Thank you for sharing your story along with your faith. I love seeing how the Lord uses people to help others in this way. Prayers going to you!!
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
I appreciate you so much
@renee359 Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for sharing this 😭 its comforting to know I'm not the only one it drove me crazy
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
You definitely are not alone ♥️
@kaylenalessi1787 Жыл бұрын
personally for me this is insanely relatable 💘💘💘 sending love , I’m 24 years old now , healing will happen ❤️
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Thank you for watching and listening to my story Kaylen
@PeanutsPlants Жыл бұрын
Thanks for being so open and sharing 🙏🏻 I know that if I ended up getting married to my long term boyfriend when I was younger I would 100% ended up in divorce. So glad God got you out of that situation. Jeremiah 29:11 ❤
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much Sarah, this means so much to me. That verse is my lifeline!!!
@abicbalog Жыл бұрын
Looked up this verse and went into tears reading it..very empowering 🙏🏼
@eshitanirwan Жыл бұрын
You’ve inspired me so muchhhhh in my healing journey
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for watching and I am so glad this video could help support you on your own journey!
@Love-dw6ry Жыл бұрын
First, I am so sorry you suffered this way -- and for so long. Thank you for sharing your story and helping others! One lesson for all viewing this is to walk away with the first major event. Your time is precious -- valuable; don't waste it on fools. "When people show you who they are, believe them the first time" -- MayaAngelou.
@Mformaddii Жыл бұрын
I’m so proud of who you’ve become, and you owe it all to yourself. You are and always will be more than just a romantic partner. I hope you treasure yourself while continuing to heal ❣️
@catmaylie27 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story. You are so beautiful, inside and out, and I’m so sorry you were treated like this. God has given you so much strength and resiliency, and it’s inspiring! God’s got this! Can’t wait to see how your story continues!
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
You are so sweet thank you for watching 🤍
@eliza.a9153 Жыл бұрын
I resonate with how trusting you were towards him. (In my own experiences) We keep giving them the benefit of the doubt even through the countless times they've lied, gaslit us and manipulated us, because we have so much love to give, so much so, that we take the love reserved for ourselves and give it all to them. We make them our entire world and just like you said, they make you feel like you'll have now idea how to live without them. I'm so sorry for all that you've been through, but I'm so glad to have found you on IG. As a 19 year old Christian, who's dealing with depression, boarderline personality disorder (as a result of failed relationships and friendships) and anxiety, I've truly found peace in seeing your posts, not just for myself but for you too. You're really an inspiration and I pray that nothing but love, joy, peace, acceptance, comfort and strength will come out of what you've faced, in Jesus' name. Thank you for sharing your story with us.❤️
@esteracz4763 Жыл бұрын
Girl we pray for you and your future - I think you can help many people by sharing your story.. you’re strong, brave and loved 🙌🏻 Bless you sister and wish you 100% recovering and healing from the difficult things you’ve went through. 🙌🏻
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Oh wow. Thank you so so much for saying this and praying over me 🥹♥️
@sandraduran2322 Жыл бұрын
Oh sweet lauren 😭 i’m so sad thinking about how heartbroken you felt going through this. I’ve gone through something similar with an ex bf (he used to watch a lot of xxx videos) and I understand how it can affect your self esteem 💔 I love you so much and I’m sure god has a greater plan for you. You deserve all the love and peace.
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Sandra thank you so much for watching this. I am really sad to hear you have experienced something similar, its so painful to go though and makes you feel confused and unsure of the future at times which can certainly feel disorienting. I am so glad you are with a sweet husband now who cherishes you! Thank you for being here for me for so long.
@hannahs1467 Жыл бұрын
I’ve not finished this yet, but I just want to say I love you and I’m so proud of you
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Hi Hannah! I appreciate you watching so much!
@kellycoach Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story. Here’s a recap of mine so hopefully you can relate. I was married at 22 and divorced at 28. Not including marriage, we were together for over 7 years. He was my everything. We were the best of friends. But one day he came forward and told me about his porn addiction. It was something he’d been struggling with since before we were even together. He hid all of it from me. I saw red flags, but like you, I brushed them off. It crushed me, but I was willing to work through it. But unfortunately there was more. He then felt the need to completely come forward. He told me about girls, lies, deception and manipulation through the years. It was completely horrifying. At the same time he didn’t want me telling anybody about our issues. So I remained silent (which was the worst thing I could have done). I was miserable for months until my breaking point. Once I finally reached out and started talking to friends and family, I realized I wasn’t crazy, though my husband at the time made me feel that way. Thankfully it was an amicable divorce. And GIRL! Changing your last name again is the worst! Anyway, it’s been 6 months and I’m starting to feel more independent and healing more each day. I hope you focus on yourself and start healing as well. ❤️
@fami345 Жыл бұрын
I’m sending you so much love, you deserve much much much much better. You are strong, you will be absolutely fine on your own, I am certain of this :)
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Wow thank you so so much!!
@lyricketika4978 Жыл бұрын
I can feel the strength in you, you are so deserving of everything beautiful that God has to offer! God bless, definitely going to be keeping up with your journey 💛✨
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Wow Lyric thank you so so much for saying this and for watching ♥️
@Sparkleandshine79 Жыл бұрын
thank you so much for sharing your story. i stumbled across your instagram page through reels, and as a christian who is getting engaged really soon (he just asked my dad!!) and will be 19 or 20 when we do get married, i was curious as to what happened. thank you for sharing and giving me more confidence in my future husband, and i am so sorry that this was your experience. i pray you can find a man who loves and honors God with his whole heart.
@AMC97 Жыл бұрын
This sounds too familiar to me. I went through a very similar experience. I feel like people who have been trapped in a relationship like this know how hard it is to leave, even the outside perspective makes it seems like such an easy choice. I look back and wish I would have left sooo much earlier, but was constantly tricked and lied to. It’s refreshing to hear your story and how life continues on after an experience like this. I am so thankful everyday I did not get married to the man that made me feel these same feelings.
@lbocc809 Жыл бұрын
Same! With my ex bf I was hoping he would break up with me so that I could get out of the relationship. The emotional abuse and manipulation is real. Thankfully we did break up, and I met my now husband 9 months later and I’m happily married to a good man.
@wanda7989 11 ай бұрын
Lauren I m so sorry you went through all this. I m glad you were strong enough to leave your marriage. Yes you deserve better. Your are right on self love.. i m so glad your parents moved closer to you & your sister.. May you continue to grow stronger & know what you will & will not except in your relationship. And know that you are worthy! Always keep God close by.. also not sure if you forgave your x for what he put you through but in time you will .. Just take care of yourself !
@eleanorwatkins6832 Жыл бұрын
I'm not Christian but wow did I feel emotional with your prayer at the end. Thank you for this, for sharing and talking and being brave, for showing that it's possible to exist on your own. I wish you so much love and peace xx
@riversworld5794 Жыл бұрын
i think it’s a sign :))
@sashatrejo2845 Жыл бұрын
its not on our own, its with Jesus ❤
@arathireddy7677 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story. It will help a lot of women to recognise signs and to be extra cautious
@LaurenJuarez Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for watching! ♥️ i Appreciate this comment!
@tokyolover86 11 ай бұрын
You made a clean break. Feel the pain and sadness, but allow yourself to feel the relief too. You’re young and wiser now. 💐
@_light2 Жыл бұрын
Hey, I really thank you. I hear your story because there is a lot of similarities regarding yours to mine. I don't want to share my story but I can really relate to you and I can say I was comforted and also encouraged to move forward. Not looking back. God is ahead of us, right?
@adellewoods98 Жыл бұрын
God bless you Lauren. God is doing something beautiful and powerful with you and through your testimony. My prayer is that God continues to guide you and strengthen you, and that He heals you fully and brings you endless joy. You are truly amazing and worthy of so much love 🤍
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