I wish you could be my therapist, I wish you would live near me. My therapist isnt nearly as emphatic as you are. You really seem to care and this video made me cry.

This made me cry. I will keep fighting. I'm just so tired of crying and being sad. I cant handle life anymore. But i will try to fight.

I came here expecting to get facts / statistics on suicide but this video really freaking hit me. I've never heard anyone speak with such passion and care. I never really thought anyone truly cared until I stumbled upon this video. I'm crying. I'm amazed. I love you and your videos. Thank you for everything you do, Kati x

The sad thing is I know I have people who cares. It's just that I don't. I've honestly gave up on myself. I can't get a job. Lay in bed all day. My body and brain hurts. It's just years on top of years. And one day I feel like I'm going to just do it.

I’m almost fifty years old and have suffered with depression for thirty five years.single and no kids and live alone most of my life. She is a great therapist and great videos for all of us.she seems to genuinely care.i spent years with the feelings of not having a purpose.went to so many doctors and so many prescriptions and none of it worked,to be honest made it worst.what worked for myself was to get a rescue dog.he has taught me what true unconditional love is and I had a purpose to take care of him.this may seem small but made the world of difference.yes I still suffer with depression but at least he helps me cope.he makes me get out of the bed on the days I don’t want to.i hope this may help someone

I tend to use suicide as a coping method when things get overwhelming it's kind of comforting to think , "Well I can always just kill myself and wont have to deal with this shit anymore."I bet a lot of people think that and those who say no probably have had at some point.

Death just seems more inviting than life..

Listened to this next to the gun I was about to put in my mouth. I didn’t mean to. My phone was on auto play. Regardless for some reason it changed my mind. Thanks Kati.

Kati Morton - an Angel in human flesh...

My dad commited suicide when I was 9 years old. I wish he knew how much I would miss him, how I still think of him, and how so many things remind me of him. He did it the day before Father's day and it shattered my heart. I have been able to talk to people battling suicide and tell them how I felt on the other side of the situation. No matter how hard it gets or how much you feel like you wont be missed..someone loves you! Know that. Im in my 30s and my dad is still on my mind. I'll always love my daddy.

I bet she is a really good therapist.

I would never hurt myself and kill myself, but now I am at the point where I wish that I won't wake up because I am too tired, just so so so tired of people that see only worst in me, while I was giving them last bit of my strength to make them happy. Left when I needed them the most, in the hardest period of my life.. I am thankful for people like you, its not eyes to eyes, but nice to see that someone is there that understands and giving us words of support instead of the ones that actually put you in these thoughts.

My favorite quote idk who said this “you’re track record for making it through the bad days is 100%” because it reminds you how much you’ve made it through and shows you how strong you are

People always talk about what to do when emotional pain is causing suicidal thoughts, but no one talks about what to do when it's physical pain. I have severe chronic pain and I don't have a cure. I need a break and it's hard not to be suicidal sometimes

I wish you were my therapist. I wish I had someone in real life to talk to.

I had to stop when she said...I want to get married, I want to have kids, etc. I turned 61 last September and haven't met any single or let alone women who liked me since I was at least 24 back in 1986. That was the end of an era when it was socially acceptable for people to meet and make friends during one's regular flow of shopping, sitting in the park, it was so much more natural back then.

Iam really glad ive found this community. Kati is so awesome. I struggle with Borderline Personality Disorder and recently my wife and I separated. It was an unamicable split. She took my Son and moved 15 hours away from me. And in the same year, the only friend Ive ever had in my life decided he didn't want to be cool anymore and when I asked him why, he said he got tired of me being mad and then cool with him like nothing ever happened. Thats when I decided to inform him about my diagnosis but it was to late. Just like my wife he moved on. I had a very tumultuous childhood thats why iam like this. I cant even sustain a relationship with my 12 year old daughter. Sometimes I sit alone in a room drunk, listening to kid cudi stairing at candles with the lights out. Thinking life is harder than death.....living with this disorder has ruined every relationship ive ever had. Now ive become so isolated and withdrawn because I feel inadequate and unwanted. I saved this video to favorites because this video will save my life. To everyone struggle with suicide and depression..... Dont ever give up. You are loved, trust me.....we can fight and win in life together. *Mike Davis*

“There will be a day that you can say you’re ok and mean it” -dodie Clark

The other night, I was driving home from school late at night when all of a sudden, two bright lights were right in front of me, and I realized: This is a car. This car is coming straight at me. That car is going to hit me and we both may die. I swerved into the median and managed not to hit the car, but the car kept going. Kept driving down the wrong side of the road, going maybe fifty or sixty miles per hour in a 40mph zone. I didn't hear a crash, but I started crying. Not because I was scared I was about to die, or in anger that someone had seemingly tried to hit me, but because I was so concerned for the other person's wellbeing, both physically and mentally. I've never met that person. I have no idea who it was. But I know they must be hurting, and I know there was a possibility they were trying to hurt themselves. I am not angry with that person. In fact, the only thing I feel for that person is heartbreak, because I don't know what their story is, and I don't know if they think they're loved, but I love them so much. I don't want them to be dead. I've never met them. They almost hit me. But I love them regardless because they're just as human as I am. They're just as worthy of love and recovery as I am. So, if you've read this, please know: I love you, whether I know you or not, whether you've done some bad stuff or not, regardless of who you are or where you come from. And I am always available to talk. YOU ARE SO LOVED.

“It’s not just a regular journal”. My bRaIn: “it’s a cool journal”

Crying because I love Kati so so much. She's such an inspiration

I had to battle severe depression and anxiety and strong suicidal urges mostly on my own. My parents don’t believe in mental illness, my friends thought that I was just looking for attention, and I couldn’t find a therapist that worked for me when I needed one the most. Every day, I would be just one wrong move away from actually committing suicide, and it took a tremendous amount of inner strength just to get through every hour. As the months passed, my reasons to stay alive became less important to me. Eventually, I was left with nothing, and the only thing keeping me alive was routine. I believed that life was so boring, so predictable; death seemed more interesting than life. But I knew that I was being irrational, so I made a new reason. That reason is so I can see where the rest of my life goes, to see what the future had ahead of me, and to see what the rest of the world would look like. I still had hope that conditions would change, and I was interested to see what would be different. And it turned out to be true. Now, I look back on my decision to stay alive, and I’m in awe that I wouldn’t have known about this pandemic had I committed suicide before now. A new motivation for me to stay alive is to emerge from the pandemic as a survivor. I don’t want the last thing I remember of earth to be that it was filled with difficulty and terror. I want to leave earth feeling like I lived my life for a good reason, and that I experienced all of the things that are unique to every person, such as love and a connection to God. Even if you don’t believe in the same things as me, having a curiosity for seeing the future is a good reason to stay alive. Hold on tightly, there is still hope.

I have a problem with the list bit since I don't have any goals and that's what makes it so much harder for me. It's that there's the thoughts of wanting to die and not wanting to be here, and I don't have anything to look forward to or aspire to either because I have no plans for the future. The only reason I wouldn't kill myself is because of the mess and disruption I would leave behind, I'm just existing for other people.

I'm not an expert at all but if any of you scrolling through the comments need a stranger to talk to who will just listen, please feel free to message me at any time.

I cried when you said "we need you around"

I don't want to hurt the people around me. I just want to stop my own pain.

I know this is from 10 yrs ago, but it was exactly what I needed today! I don't Have an eating disorder, but depression/anxiety have taken over again. Too much, loss, sickness, etc. I just saw my personal therapist and got an emergency appointment with my psychiatrist for later today. I want you to know that what you do matters, and what you did 10 yrs ago still matters.! Thank you!

I'm having a terrible evening, I'm in tears. A year ago or so many of my friendships ended, these were people I got in fights with. And quite often, it was because of me. I dwell too much on the past, I can't let things go. And today I tried to apologise again, thinking that things would be okay if they weren't left badly. And they said they never want to see me again. And whenever there are fights, I seem to be the only one who gets hate for it, even if others did the same thing. That doesn't condone it of course, I was horrible, but why am I the only one who gets the consequences? I have no idea what I'm doing with my life, j have helicopter parents who I can't stand, and no matter how hard I try at shook, I'm never smart enough, or organised enough. I procrastinate, my future is in my parents hands. And I'm basically lost. And I'm having suicidal thoughts, I'd never act on them but I really hate myself right now. I don't have control of anything, and my life is falling apart.

We as human beings always talk about "right's and freedoms" yet we can't don't have the right to leave a world that we may not be suited to? That really pisses me off.

I really needed someone to say me this. I'm crying so much.

IF you want to die, you have the right. You didnt ask to get brought into this world

i was feeling better today and it scares me and now i just want to die. I dont understand why... because i was feeling okay. But the idea of not being depressed makes me so scared and alone.

To all people who are suicidal, you can get through this. You can do it ❤️

When I'm suicidal, I force myself to lie down and tell myself my good qualities and what goals I still have to achieve. I repeat them over and over until I feel strong again.

After 61 years of mental and physical trauma, I've had it. Positive beliefs lead to broken dreams

suicidal people are very special and need alot of love and compassion. if you are suicidal just know that you matter very much and you are worth saving. you're a wonderful person and its so nice to have you with us , you are a blessing to us all. I have so much love in my heart for all of you and to see you get well soon. you are wanted and you are needed in this world its so good that you are alive that's a real good thing. you matter so very much.

some people just dont have nothing no family no friends no possessions, nothing

even if it's a stranger, it always helps me to hear that somebody wants me to be alive. i've gone through many dark times, and there always ALWAYS is someone who will reply to my post, who will offer to talk, or will send me a cute cat picture because they don't know how to help... i owe so many people whose mere recognition of my existence pulled me back from the edge, from friends to spontaneous passerby, being told that my life matters makes a difference, it reignites my hope, how people so far from me with nothing to gain and alltogether separate from my vices and virtues would still extend a hand, my number one reason for staying is to show my gratitude by maybe, just maybe, doing that for someone, i know first hand that much might be enough

I've been feeling intense things lately and isolated in my thoughts from everyone else in my life. Watching this is definitely a step in the positive direction. Thank you for all your videos.

Thanks for making this video. On New Year’s Eve 2018, I made a serious suicide attempt .I made a self inflicted knife wound in my stomach, I was rushed to the hospital and put in the psych ward for 10 days. Now all of that darkness is behind me and I’m in a better place mentally, and these videos do help. I just wanted to share that there are many things you can do to recover. Reach out when you feel the darkness taking ahold. Most importantly , you are not alone in your darkness. Wishing everyone well and sending out positive vibes🧚🏻‍♂️🧚🏻‍♂️🧚🏻‍♂️

25 years old, drugs and alcohol as a coping strategy for a neurophysiological disorder. I've been experiencing a lot of chaos in my young life, and have developed agoraphobic traits. Yet, somehow. This video makes me want to take the second step and accept that a neurological disorder can cause psychiatric phenomenon and illness. As well as immunology, although this is another topic. Thank you very much for your kind words, I will spend the early morning hours, although somewhat sedated watching any videos you have regarding mental health and strategy. You're awesome Kati! You've gain a new sub from the most easterly point of North America ! 😁

Ma'am you are so sweet and empathetic🥺 you really made me cry within 1 minute. I'm never going to be able to afford a therapist but your videos alone makes me feel understood 😭thank you for being you❤️

The worst thing about being mentally ill is the feeling of being worthless. When you can no longer support your children or even yourself it is truly terrible. If it were not for my children I would be gone already.

I just put down the blade after watching this. Thank you

YOU have so much strength, that's why you're still here Doesn't matter if it's been a struggle that's irrelevant. You've gone through everyday since the beginning of all of this, including today! I love you ❤

When she said ur worth it i cried

I’m at the point where no matter who I love or what I do, I just don’t see hope and I don’t feel the need to continue being here. I have no motivation. I have no purpose. I am just done and numb.

Very good video...the one thing that keeps me going is not only videos like this. Its the horses (i cant live without them) When i get to the stables every morning, all 3 of them whinny at me, makes me feel wanted. The smell of them (sounds weird) brings me piece. Those horses are my world and im eternally grateful to them

Thank you so much for this video. I wish I could give it a million thumbs up, but instead I logged it into my favorites so I can find it when I need it again.

im ten and i can relate. please don't do it and the first step is to probably realize how amazing and special you are :)

5 years later and I just saw your video. I cried throughout the video and am still crying. I can't think of any reason to live. I can't find any motivation to recover. I attempted suicide several times already, but why am I still here? I don't have anyone to talk to either...

MY PAIN GETS WORSE EVERYDAY EVERYONE THINKS I AM AN ATTENTION SEEKER BUT IN REALITY I WANNA BE HELPED I DONT WANT ATTENTION AND I DID SELFHARM BEFORE AND I HAVENT DONE IT IN TWO WEEKS AND I AM PROUD ABOUT THAT

I needed this. My case worker was discussing journaling with me, but I'm always scared when starting something new. This was a good way to jump start my journaling that I would like to turn into a good habit. I told him that I've been watching your videos and he told me he would give em a shot too!

YES WE ***DO*** HAVE TO SUFFER ALONE, BECAUSE LITERALLY NOONE CARES

I have found my will to live to be weak. I have been “guilted” into remaining in this life. I have medical issues, my dog, my main companion, died a couple weeks before Christmas 2023, my divorce was final December 19, 2023. I transitioned out on my own last July. I had 3 deaths in the family within a years time. My estranged mother went on a ventilator twice and had 3 strokes. She is paralyzed on the right side. I had a little bit of closure with her because I told her that I forgave her over the phone. She has been in and out of ICU many times now. I feel like I am losing everyone and everything around me. All that I have once known. I had to give up my home of 15 years. I am disabled and don’t work. I find no pleasure in the things that once excited me. I watch your videos to try and gain some hope. I feel helpless most days. I recently got help because I wrote a final note. It was the closest I have ever been to ending it. I had a med change and have since had some good days. There are days I wake up and feel on top of the world while other days feel like the bottom of the barrel. Thank you for your videos and how you tackle some of the hardest things as well as topics that people are really struggling with. Your videos have helped me. Thank you, Kati! Please continue posting!

It doesn't matter how many swimming pools, Jacuzzis, tennis courts, private cinemas, or mini bars you acquire, if the foundations of your house are falling apart.

What if there's nothing you want to do. What if there's no goals or desire. I like you and have watch many of your video's and your very intelligent. I'm still looking through your vidios to find something anything because I feel that I'm done.

I survived two suicide attempts one at 13 and 39. I guess you can say I failed even at that. What keeps me going is a network of family and friends. Mental illness is no joke. My biggest issue i have not found one doctor who cares all they do is drug you. I go to my friends now for help with my depression forget the professionals I have had no luck with them and it gets costly. I tried therapy and they canceled on me so I laughed it off and never attempted that again either.

I don't have an ED but I started watching your videos a few weeks ago and they've really helped me. You convinced me to tell my therapist about my self harm after almost a year of hiding it. I also have pretty bad depression and, sometimes, suicidal thoughts. I'm going to start a recovery journal now. Thank you so much.

Katie, I know you published this 7 years ago, and I believe that the heartfelt information you gave was so helpful, and saved lives, as well as minds. Thank you for that. When I was younger (mid-twenties) I had suicidal thoughts and even tried to drive into a semi truck at great speed. As I did so, I realized that my 4 year old daughter was with me and that she would die also, or be left in a very bad way in so many accounts. Obviously, I got back into my correct lane, and didn’t do what I set out to do. That was my wake up call. She was my light in a very dark and painful world. Since then, I have (and still am at 69 years old) finding ways to be my on light, or seeing light in others. Now I have had the untold pleasures of seeing her grow through her life: college, teaching, most wonderful husband, and 2 college girls! I would have missed all those milestones, all those very special people and sharing in their lives. I don’t put her on a pedestal, but I do share my love with her, and tell her how much I love her. Three years ago, her 15 year old daughter went to her parents and told them she needed help NOW, as she had been so depressed, self-harming, and suicidal. They got her help immediately, and although she still struggles with life at times, she’s no longer suicidal. She was hospitalised for a few weeks, then in group therapy for a length of times, and has been seeing a psychiatrist for her meds, and a wonderful therapist since then. She’s an amazing young woman. I know I’m wordy, and I’ll close this post with a question. I’ve been told by several people that if you call the suicide hot line and say the words “I am suicidal” or “I have a plan” they have to send someone to your house. Is this now, or has it ever been true? Thank you for sharing your wisdom, knowledge, experience, humor, and so much more.

what about for middle aged people ? what do we have to look forward to? medicare?

I suffer from BPD and am often fighting suicidal thoughts. I just watched this video for the first time today but am putting it on my favorites to play whenever I'm going through a particularly rough time. Thank you so much Kati, you know just the right things to say to help push me back on the right track and remind me why this life can be worth living. Thanks :)

Today was a really rough day for me and what was going through my mind scared the shit out of me. I've never had such vivid thoughts of suicide. Thank you for all that you do. I'm glad I clicked on this video.

I'm so grateful to have found your channel. I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts because of past traumatic experiences and recent life struggles, but I know they're just thoughts and that doesn't mean my life will never change. I find this very soothing to know that I'm not crazy and I'm not the only one. Wish you all the best.

I can't do all of these things. I'm so tired, Kati.

My girlfriend was my whole world my hopes and my dreams and my everything. The day she committed suicide she destroyed my world my hopes my dreams my everything and unless your God and could bring her back there is nothing you can say or do to help me or people like me and writing in a journal is not going to bring her back not now not ever.

I broke down in tears. Thank you Kati. You seem so loving and caring. Wish I had you as my therapist :)

I've watch this video so many times whenever i feel like giving up and it always makes me cry ... thank you so much for posting this video Kati xo

I have been watching your video's for at least a year now...I have never made a comment before, I had a brother....the kindest most gentle soul. I still grieve 15 yrs. later. Thank you for making this video...

this made me cry. Thank you so much for all your videos.

I sat on the floor doing homework and cried watching this.

Kati I teared up at this video. Thank you so much. For everything. My biological family does horrible things to me and it makes me wanna die always. Your words have given me so much strength. Thank you. I love you. Thank you for helping me today.

Thank you, Kati, for this video, you are sweet and amazing. You have helped me so much!

This is an awesome video and some great ideas.......saved to my healing playlist :) thank you Kati ♡

I can't put it into words how much of a wonderful person you are, this made me cry so much. I'm really glad I found your videos, they are amazing and they've honestly helped so much. Thank you.

You are the reason I am still alive Kati, I haven't been able to leave my bed for as long as I can remember.

When I felt suicidal, I made a bucket list. :)

this made me cry. saved the page and tbh your better on youtube than half the psychologists ive seen in person. thanks Kati!!

I kind of aimlessly chose this video to watch and now I'm crying, this video helped me so much. Thank you.

I’m tired of people who get angry, saying you are not getting enough accomplished, but as soon as you say you are suicidal, people say it’s ok that you don’t get much done. If you just get out of bed, that’s enough.

No motivational quotes. They all seem unrealistic.

😞...☹️...😕...😐...🙂...😃... thank you 😊

I liked the thumb nail she looked so sad, then when you touch it she breaks into a big smile.

I’m crying so much right now. Thank you I just haven’t felt needed in a long time

what if there is nothing that you want to do anymore? like literally nothing, then what?

But what if the suicide is based on real circumstances? What if you’re not crazy?

The last minute made me cry my eyes out. Thank you, Kati.

Almost three years ago i stumbled upon this video and it was my first step towards recovery. I remeber i cried so much my whole face was hurting by the end of this video. I seeked help, therapy, friends, family... and now i am fully recovered. Life may be hard but it is worth living and when you let yourself believe it you will start seeing many many many reasons to stay alive. I wish i had kept the page i used to write the reasons to recovery from this video so i could remember what i wrote...

I just love how you say we instead of you (:

Kati: Just one thing... when you're utilizing all the resources, therapy, meds, everything - but you're treatment resistant with no remission. Thinking about what you want in life is painful, not motivational. That intensifies my suicidal ideations. This could be helpful to promote trying to recover, but otherwise, it's harmful.

She had me teary eyed saying things like "people will miss you". I let that sink in because I can see the sincerity in Kat's eyes. 👀 I wish the critical part of my brain would take a permanent vacation!

this video made me cry just when it's about to finish. "you can do it, you can recover" just hearing those encouraging words means a lot. thanks kati

I wish I would've watched this video before I tried to end my life two months ago. God, I wish you were my therapist :/

you make me feel so calm I love watching your videos on bad days they give me a sense of hope for myself

The fact that this is 10 years old video and it showed up on my youtube page as a recommendation.

When I had attempts , my father just told me to get over it, don't look back and move on.... I don't have an understanding family... After my husband competed suicide I firmly believed that the only way my baby girl will have a life is if Im dead... I thought I couldn't take care of her alone.... But I did hold on and some one said something to me and I was in hospital for 3 weeks and watched a lot of kati Morton videos.... My girl is my life and I lobe her!!! And I will not leave her like her daddy did....

Wow.. thank you so much for this. I've never felt like I was worth recovery or strong enough to go through with it. But this, made me feel like I am worth it.

I wish I knew what I did to end my suicidal feelings permanently. Id like to be able to explain it to others to help if i can, but it doesn't make any sense. One day when I was just completely down, I suddenly thought "I want to be happy, not dead. And I'll never be happy if I'm dead." And that was it. a decade of horrible depression and suicidal thoughts vanished instantly. I still have depression, but thoughts of suicide just left utterly. Its such an obvious thought though, I must've had it a hundred times or more before then. but it just clicked and that was that. But I don't know why.

I watch this when I feel bad. It's been a long while since I last felt suicidal. Oddly, having consistency by adding episodes to my KZfaq channel made me feel like I could have additional resources for support. Like this channel. Thank you for caring Kati. I appreciate it.

When I was 40 and going through divorce with 2 very small children, I was in psychoanalysis. I talked to my doctor about .suicide . “Don’t do it,” he said, “your children will never recover.” With that knowledge, I was able to quickly find help while the dark cloud passed over me. When we end our life, we pass the pain on to others. Not fair to them.