"there's a part of me that doesn't necessarily wanna get better" I can feel that way too hard

The worst part of being sad is pretending to others that you’re not. It is really frustrating. This world is so obsessed with “happiness” that forces you to show sort of a fake happiness. Hope you get better.

* virtual hugs * remember you’re not alone

“There’s a part of me that doesn’t necessarily wanna get better” that shit hits hard. Cuz like it’s so strange that some shit like this can become a constant in your life, to the point that you feel like living without it wouldn’t be you life And metaphor with the locker room and guys not being allowed to cry... that was really raw, and accurate.

Thank you for sharing this side of you with us because it shows that we don’t have to be okay all the time and that’s just part of being human. Sending love your way ❤️

I feel less alone now and you should too, I’ve definitely been here. In all of my relationships I feel as if I’m always the strong one, giving advice and constantly listening to others. Look I’m doing it now haha. It’s exhausting however it’s partly my fault for not opening up and being vulnerable. I also relate to you growing up and not being able to cry, although I’m not a guy I still grew up with it being viewed as weak and to this day I never cry in front of others. To me it’s one of the most terrifying things imaginable. If you’ve made it this far in your life journey then you can’t stop now, it’s hard. Like excruciatingly hard but keep holding on. We’re all here lifting you up and supporting you. Even on your darkest days where you feel the most alone you’ve ever been, you’re not. We’re here and we’ve always been here rooting for you. Sorry for the paragraph, I get carried away sometimes hehe. I’ll leave you with a well deserved and needed virtual hug. Good luck. 🤗

I love you so much, Joey. I’m going through a similar thing but probably not to the same degree because I’m only 15 and don’t have to worry about making a living or anything. The ending of the video and the part right before the ending, I can relate so much. The part where you said “there’s a part of me that doesn’t necessarily want to get better,” that hit me. There’s a part of me that just thinks it’s easier to not get better. I have no motivation to get better. And sometimes being not ok for so long, you get comfortable with it and it becomes part of you. So part of me doesn’t even know who I am if I’m better. I don’t know if that makes sense or not. Just needed to get that out.

sending you all the love

this really made me feel less alone. I've gone thru so much shit this year and hearing that someone else is going to an experience close to mine. thank you for expressing your emotions to the world. this is going to help so many people.

I don’t know how I’m feeling, I just think that I’m not capable of doing things. I’m so scared

sending prayers! God sees your pain and he loves you! Talk to him. I have struggled with so much this past year but God has been my one truth and defender!!

I have always thought I needed to explain myself to everyone about my emotions even if I don’t feel good doing it, just to be like them “happy”, that’s exhausting, I feel like I am in a roller coaster 🎢 trying to find myself in a dark hole. Now I am trying not to please everyone because that’s even worst, I am tired all the time, unhappy, I have also find myself saying yes to everyone, and on these days people take advantage from that and make me feel horrible because they use that against me, and if you say no they get mad at you but now I don’t really care, I have to put myself first before anyone and I have learned that from you!!! When I feel like that I like to take a break from my phone, I don’t respond to messages or anything and go for a walk to think about my life and how I can change my thought on some stuff. Thank you for sharing this Joey it’s ok not to be ok, hope things get a little easier for all of us !! Sending tight hugs 💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛

Remember: it’s okay to not always be okay. Embrace your sadness, cry, let it all out.

This is crazy. It's word buy word exactly what I am feeling now and what I am trying to promise my self. That this year I am going to get stronger and better. And it scares me. And I hate the feeling that when I was 23, I thought at age of 30 I will be this strong and confident woman in all aspects of my life. But I am almost 37, and I'm at very low point in my life. Hate that dark place and feeling a lot. Have to do everything I can to make life better, and it gives me major anxiety. Just Breathe. Thank you Joey, for being yourself and sharing your life. 🙏 Big hugs. 🤗🤗🤗 And greetings from Latvia.

a virtual hug from me ❤️ just know that you’re not alone. There’s a way to get better and you will make it. Thank you for being and staying real with us

I'm really resonating with this video. Thank you so much Joey for sharing and making it known that no one is alone in this. Sending you all my love and a virtual hug!!!💛💛

sending love💛💛 just know you’re one of the few people i feel like i can relate to and it makes me feel so much less alone so i love you so so much💛

*Joey you are such an inspiration for me and your videos make me want to always keep making videos myself so that I can help people like you helped me 💖* thank you for teaching me that not being okay is okay too and I hope that you will be okay

For Someone that Been dealing with this for more than ever, I know how you feel , my first video I ever watch about you. Was the one about anxiety and it’s crazy how I fell connected with you right after. I’ve been mentally,physically, emotionally abused and you help me with that. Tbh I don’t know If you the boyfriend I nv have or just someone who know how to connect with people. I don’t have the perfect life or the best past. My dream is to make sure people like me don’t fell like they going through this alone like ,the way you help me. It’s crazy how brilliant you are and you feel that way but at the end of the day we human. I’m not so good at relationships I am a mess when it come to that 😂😄but I learn to be okay with that bc none of those people deserve me. You can’t force yourself to be with someone who doesn’t even try to understand you or how you work as you. I want you to hold on. I maybe a fan but I have hear if you need one. Love lulu😄😇

Love you Joey. I relate to a lot of this. Especially when you said “there’s a part of me that doesn’t necessarily want to get better”. Thank you for this. Sending you a million virtual hugs

I can't thank you enough for doing these videos. I felt every single thing you said, it's so crazy but I did! You know this feeling of being lost and not knowing how to deal with your life... it's the worst! But you gave me the feeling that I'm not the only one, that I'm not alone in this. And that's what needed to hear. That it's ok not to be ok. Sending you the biggest virtual hug😚💗

Thank you Joey for this video. It's so important to talk about mental health. I really appreciate your videos about anxiety because it can help other people to understand and imagine what's going on in our minds. I've been dealing with depression and anxiety for more than six years now. Like you said, I want to be happy. But it's a hard work ..

Honestly thank you so much for these videos Joey! You have no idea how much they mean to me and how many things they have helped me get through!

You help us so much thank you

I really relate to this. I have been feeling like this for a while. It’s hard when you are feeling something that is on the inside trying to explain to people when it’s hard to even understand it yourself. Much love! 💙

Thank you for sharing this Joey. I see and hear you. I watch your videos all the time, but I'm not a person who normally comments. For whatever reason, this video hit home for me and made me feel less alone. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. Sending you lots of love ❤️

Took the words right out of my mouth on how I generally feel. I hope everything works out for you which I know it will because the first step to getting better is knowing what’s wrong.

I often have to keep remembering that this journey isn't a straight line/trajectory. Bad days, weeks, and even months are a shitty fact of life. Falling back down and spending some time in those feeling is OK as long as we don't get stuck there. From one guy having a tough time to another... I hope you get the resources you need for whatever comes next, and you get/got that virtual (or real) hug.

Needed this today

I feel You. Stay strong ❤

i know exactly how you’re feeling i was stuck in the same situation a couple years ago but things got better. what helped me was looking forward to things i’m excited for in the future. and doing everything that makes me happy. spending time with friends and family to distract yourself from thinking about the negativity shit

i needed to watch this. i’m someone who seems happy all the time and only have these break downs ever so often in front of people thinking that it’s not okay to be not okay in front of people. i also have those moments where i think about not so good things but i know that i’ll never do anything with those thoughts (probably doesn’t make any sense in the way i phrase that but oh well lol). the point is we know that we’re not only just by watching this video and reading the comments by people who are going through the same thing. you are hear for us and we are here for you ♥️

I feel your pain.. not knowing what to do in life and being sad ☹️ stay strong, pray and keep going and surround yourself with positive people

Thank you for always sharing raw and truthful videos Joey. It is one of the biggest reasons I love your videos. There are so many people who pretend they're fine and its just refreshing to see that you're a real person, because everyone goes through shit. I hope everything gets better for you as you work on yourself

Sending that virtual hug and love that way Joey💛

i so understand how you are feeling bc i have felt like that for years, but even though wishing the best for you!!!

I'm praying for you chico. I can completely understand where you're coming from and hope that you can find peace with yourself... and cook better food. 🙂 Be kind to yourself like you tell us all to be. *virtual hug*

I’ll go on this journey with you! Happiness is all I strive for, and I feel like I finally have a chance of reaching it, so positivity and motivation is what will guide me into the right path and I hope it will for you too. Blessings

Joey if you read this I love you. There’s been times where I wanted to give up and given to societal norms and you’ve help me through it, you’ve given me the strength to get up in the morning regardless of whether or not I really feel like I should........ I know you’re going through a really tough time and I want you to know that it’s going to be OK and that I love you and I always will love you. I’m also going through a very hard time right now my ex is causing a lot of problems for me but as long as I have your videos I know I’ll be OK. Right now I just want to give you a really big hug❤️❤️❤️

Joey you are the best!!! This was the video that i needed in this moment.

It’s actually nice to hear and see a video like this feeling similar.x I hope you start to figure it out.xx

Dude felt this entirely ! I’m not a hugger or physical touch guy either but I’ll send a *virtual hug* your way . Yeah the no crying, I can relate and it sucks. Because we are adults and still have that mindset. Like that message plays over and over in our brain not to cry . Wish you the best thanks for being ylu

I am sorry that you are going through so much at this point. I do hope that you are going to get help in this situation. Remember that this is just a temporary problem that with the help you can get through this. Much love to you.

Sending 1000 virtual hugs 💔💗💗 we are all here for you! We love you soo much and thank you for everything you do. You help so many people out there including me, thank you so so so so so so much for everything. You are truly amazing and I can't express how grateful I am for you and your videos. Just, thank you 💕

I absolutely love these raw and wholesome videos because it’s so pure and real, so thanks Joey for posting stuff like this♥️

you are not alone man, 2019 was really shit for me too, totally life threw me out of balance and i had to realize and then follow what i've meant to do for some time but i denied it to myself for a long time. I started going to therapy this year and it's going good. I feel what when you say that you wanna do a lot of things but you don't know how to go about them and who to reach and i would say that having this platform is great, you can just reach out here and ask for suggestions and network. I send you the best vibes and i hope for all of the people watching this that 2020 is at least better than last year :)

“There’s a part of me that doesn’t necessarily want to get better” I relate so hard. I’ve suffered from an eating disorder, anxiety and depression for quite a long time and I know that people around me want me to get better and recover and all of that. But I don’t recover and feel the need to lie to everyone around me because I don’t want to get better yet. I’m not ready yet. I need time to figure out the situation I’m in and then when I am ready to get better. And especially during all of this COVID19 shenanigans its especially hard as being stuck at home with my own thoughts is very hard. And I can’t just leave the house when I’m having an anxiety attack either

you’re very articulate in this video and i love hearing about the real stuff from you. it sucks, feeling like you want to be happy and you should be happy but you’re just not? i relate a lot and honestly it’s like you’re speaking exactly what i’m thinking a lot of the time. always love your content, you’re so honest! sending happy vibes your way and i hope for both of us that we can find happiness someday soon.

Wow, I’m so inspired by you! The things you say really help me with problems I personally struggle with. I just wanted to say that it's okay to ask someone else for advice sometimes. You do not always have to be the one to know it all because you can’t, nobody can. Working on yourself includes have a breakdown once in a while. I believe that's the way to understand more about yourself. **Sending virtual hug✨**

Mental health is a struggle I totally understand , your not alone , seeing this helps myself know that I’m not alone and it’s okay

Sorry you’re going through this. I can relate to feeling lost and not knowing what the next step is. Hope you find your way.

Wow. I’m glad you made this I’ve been going through a period of constant rage as well and it’s nice to know that happens to other people too. Thanks Joey.

I felt this way today and its something I have been struggling with for a long time, it's good to see it put into words. It's scary to acknowledge that some part of you doesn't want to get better. I continue to wrestle with that day to day because I haven't surpassed that to ask for the help I need, I hope others are strong enough to figure out the answer quicker than I.

Always here for you Joey! *Virtual hug all the way from England*

I understand you, I sometimes get so scared of myself because I am angry, sometimes I am without reason. I also do not cry because I grew up that way through my past. I don't know what to do either, my head is a rollercoaster and I can't help it. there are only a few people why i am still here. I would love to live without worry. I don't know what's going on, my life is okay but my head is a mess. it's so hard to live with the fear of doing something very stupid against yourself (if you know what I mean). i also felt when you said that you are always the one who gives advice. I want to be happy but a part of me is so normal to always be sad so I have become a kind of 'addicted' to it. it sounds weird but i hope you can understand what i mean.

Sending virtual hugs!! Hope you feel better soon. I really do. Also it’s okay not to be okay

That’s the most frustrating thing. You see all the success you have and how well you’re doing, so you don’t know why you aren’t able to be in the moment. The want to be successful, but not knowing what to do to get there. This video has helped me just to see that I’m not the only person dealing with a lot of these thoughts and emotions. I understand wanting to sit in your feelings, and seeming like you’re being fake if you get better. Sometimes just talking about what’s going on in your head or journaling helps process everything. I love your channel because of how genuine you are online. Okay, I was just kind of rambling but basically; You are not alone in feeling this. But it takes another level of strength to show others what you’re dealing with.

As as therapist and as a human being, i am so proud of you! You are such an inspiration to me personally. I aspire to be so open and so real as a person and as a therapist...

The anger is the part of the picture that is least talked about and the part I struggle with the most. The only way ive found I can process anger is by exercising it out. Don’t be afraid to ask for help, I’m so feeling you on this one!!

I played the last part of this video twice and I see the pain in those eyes and I felt it too. But as you've said, you do know what to do and what advice that you need. So, it's just a matter of when are you gonna start doing it. J, your happiness is out there and it's just waiting for you. Be happy and choose to be happy. And remember you are not alone. Tight hugs for you. 😊

I have the same feelings that you feel and I am not gonna say why you are sad but all I wanna say that you're strong and every body goes thorugh this and become strong you are strong and can go through anything also it's saw that your friends are looking for money I wouldn't do that bc If i love someone i love him/her not their money so If i was your Friend I would for sure be there and help you however, not all the ppl are nice and not all the ppl will always be there for you and who's not he/she is fake I don't mean smthg wrong bc here you notice who's gonna stay for you also I hope you feel better and I wish I was your friend so I could help you out... and thank you, Joey for sharing this w us!💙

Sending you all the love and virtual hugs 💛 Also, I really love your green hoodie, looks hella cosy 💛

You are so loved. And many people including myself understand what you talked about. It’s so scary to feel unsure about life, but you aren’t alone. Please be kind to yourself and patient with yourself. I’m here for you.

I relate. And this video came at a perfect time. And I’m giving you a virtual hug.

Joey. Everything u just said. I feel exactly the same. You have no idea how much this helped me to see im not alone and there’s more people who feel the same. The worst is not knowing the reason why. Nothing makes sense to me. Nothing seems important. I am always sad and angry and tired. Im just i don’t know. Empty. And it doesn’t get better. Sometimes i feel like it never will. And if i get better for a while it feels fake af kind of happy like i force myself into it. I hate it. And everytime i am around people or family a just fake everything. Im so unhappy with myself.

I wish I could just give you a big hug. I'm going through something similar. I feel kind of stuck, like I'm moving forward but not fast enough and feel like I want to be living in a different life/ the life that I see myself living when I think "I've made it". And lately I've been having bad anxiety attacks. But I've been just taking it slow and giving myself permission to have space and do what I need to do to get through the anxiety. Oh my gosh thank you for posting this! I feel way less alone. Today I felt extremely tired and unmotivated and felt like I didn't accomplish anything, so I don't really feel proud of today. Even though I had a ton of espresso. But I know the past few days were a lot so maybe I needed a resting day? But then a whole day to rest and not really do much? I feel like 'stuck' really describes where I'm at right now. Like I know I'm moving forward slowly but I still feel stuck...

Do you like/know NF? Hes a Artist that gets me through days / Moments like this. Hes incredible

Sending a virtual hug. I've been there before, and I'm sure I'll be there again. You've got this. All of the prayers and good vibes heading your way!

I do understand you feeling this way, because I feel the same way. I have found that when someone just understands how you're feeling that alone helps you feel ok. So, here I am to tell you I really do understand how you feel and I wish I could be there for you and do something to help you. "A hug makes everything bearable" and I truly believe in power of hug. Sending hugs to you Joey and who ever needs it 💛❤ You're not alone in this.

Wow, I needed this, I understand, I get it, you’re not alone

Joey you are not alone in this. Sending you virtual hugs and love .🙂 Joey it ok to not fell ok , to not be happy , to fell pain but please don't keep your fellings botled up because it's the worst thing. 😔 finde someone who is willing to be there for you and listen to you and give you hugs like your girlfriend , mom , or just someone you trust the most and I know its hard but forget what everyone told you that it's not manly to cry , or you are week if you cry. Just let it out and you will fell a little bitt better. Stay strong and lot's of love. 🙂🙌🙏🥰

wow i came across this at such a perfect time... i really needed this

Just seeing you hug your dog made me smile

I’m here for you Joey and love and appreciate you so much. I really really wish I could give the biggest hug ever so sending a virtual one your way. ❤️❤️ stay strong, you can do this. 🥰🥰

I'm proud of you Joey. Taking that first step to take care of yourself is very difficult and I could tell that that was very hard to talk about. Loading virtual hug now...🤗

I live for videos like these, joey! You are so real, honest and there's no clickbait or anything it's just you.... you being you helps me so much

Dude your emotional vulnerability is insanely intelligent ❤️ I hate when people give advice to me too, Id much rather get a hug! Coming from working as a mental health nurse and having my own shit along the way, the way you speak out is amazing, and your pain is real and I feel you ❤️

hope you find peace and healing.love you joey!☺

Joey, I feel for you. I also want to put on a brave face for the others around me. I just want to left you know, as soon as you find someone you can finally cry around, they are the one. Once you can let yourself be truly and unashamedly your raw self around another person, they are the person you are meant to be with. And consider this your virtual hug from us.

You're not alone, joey. I've been feeling very similar to you recently. I appreciate you being so open 💛

Joey I seriously know how hard it can be to not be happy with yourself and how hard it can be to deal with your problems. This past year has been so hard for me I lost 2 people so close to me in 2018 and it has never been the same. I started going to a psychologist to talk about how I feel and why I find myself not happy. Dealing with Mental Heath is seriously no joke and if you can go out and talk to someone because that has been the best thing I could have done of myself surround yourself with people that make you happy and you can be yourself around them Sending you love and a big hug from Ottawa♥️♥️

I've been feeling that way for a while in the past months. I would feel fragile and weak and there was no way i could get over it. then something happened. i don't really know what, just i decided i wanted to get stronger. and i did. not saying i'm the strongest person but I'm building toughness and i like it. remain sensitive but be strong don't let those emotions control your life or even think too much. God bless you

Hey Joey. Im so sorry you are feeling the way you are. Right now you probably cant see past the next five minutes, and I know you feel like this is the last time you will post about feeling like this, but I think its really cathartic to talk about how you feel and helpful to so many people to share how you feel so that other people can understand that it is not just them and they are not alone. Its helpful to know that these feelings are not rational, they dont always make sense, there is not always an obvious trigger, it just happens and thats ok, its called being human. At one time or another or lots of times we all go through these dark time and at the time it feels like you will never get through it, but you will, just hold on and know that we are there for you. You are needed in this world Joey, you have a purpose even if you dont know what it is right now. hang in there. Sending much love and the biggest virtual man hug you can take. x Tony T.

I don't know of anyone else posting content like this. I really appreciate it. Aside from being able to relate strongly to the kinds of thoughts and feelings you express, it also forces me to reflect on my own thoughts and feelings and really acknowledge them.

Sending you a virtual hug! ly Joey and remember you can get throught this :)

This is the first time in a while where I've watched and truly connected. Even though it was one something "sad", it was honestly refreshing.

We will get through this. All of us who are in this deep hole right now. It’s okay to feel not good, and I finally accepted that, after beating up myself for a long time. And I’m still in a place that’s pretty dark - maybe even darker than ever- , for every question my answer is just “I don’t know”, because I really don’t. but I just don’t care anymore... I will figure it out... We will figure it out.💛

I am giving you a million virtual hugs!! I love you and so do so many other people! 💕

I'm gonna record myself to just look at the video after when i really get better and happy even i'm done with being stuck.. i hope you will get better soon 💛

Joey, you are not alone. Half the time, I am not okay too. I know though that there Re times when I am, where I will be and everything I am experiencing is for me to help other people. I keep going

Your not alone❤️ youre just in a season and it will eventually pass, and you will feel so much stronger once you overcome it.

Joey, I've been with you on and off for like 3 years, I've seen so many of your posts and I used to relate to them. You're right about what you said, it's not about the money and it's okay to feel lost and not have any guidance. But this is your chance to steer your life in a way that you want. I guess you already know that. Maybe venting to youtube has worked out for you for so long but you need to find healthier way to cope with your feelings. You need to start inculcating your life with things that you want. The things that you like. You've been going with the flow for so long it's time to take charge. You have unconditional support of so many people. What's holding you back?

I can feel you. You are not alone. It's ok and normal to feel this way sometimes. Life is not about being always happy, but to learn how to deal with all our emotions. Everything will get better. Get some rest, don't overthink, take a deep breath, and get up again when you are ready. Hugging you from the distance ♥.

Joey, your fans are with you 💙 stay strong and irresistible Giving you the strongest hug !

I love you and you are so not alone in how you feel.

Every time you post a video of yourself breaking down, it just makes me want to give you the biggest hug and just tell you that everything is going to be okay in the end

I needed this right now

I wish I could help you Joey. You're such an amazing person. 💗 This breaks my heart that you're not okay.

Today I was feeling like total crap the whole day ,not motivation, not happy either, I also know why and know how to work on it , put some part of me is just pulling me down ,bc I kind of dont want to get to clean my mess up cuz I would take alot of work then there is the work if keeping it from getting messed up all over again ,i was so unmotivated today that when I walked in my room and saw how messy it is i had no strength to clean it and I get anxity when it isn't properly clean that when I knew I hit the bottom ,and then you my savior said at the end of the video it's time to f...ing do it amma work on my self and I immediately felt like it's time, in conclusion am in shoe and am sending you a virtual hug and telling you this will all be a memory and you will get 100 times better ❤

I wish you the best! I really do hope you'll find at some point the answer you need.