this video ends when i find a five star book ⭐️

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the first 500 people to click my link will get a 1 month free trial of skillshare: skl.sh/lexiakanewlynova04241 !!
hello. here is a video where i read until i find a five star book, which really is just a mask over what this video actually is: a chronicle of the worst reading slump so far in my adult life. the horrors persist but so do we.
love you guys 💘 thank you for being here and for caring about my silly little adventures ~ just you wait until you see me at full power
🍓s o c i a l s
• you might recognize me from tiktok: / newlynova
• hot girls also follow me on goodreads: / newlynova
• instagram: / newlynovabooks
⏰ t i m e s t a m p s
introduction/powerless 1: 0:00
tragedy strikes: 3:18
five survive: 5:28
skillshare partnership: 11:42
powerless 2 (electric boogaloo): 13:39
the five star !: 21:08
👒 f a q
• i film using a fujifilm X-S10 and edit with premiere pro.
• i am 23 and currently live in wisconsin. it is very cold here (most of the time. not right now though).

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@chitae8551 Ай бұрын

What if the five star books were the friends we made along the way

@generic_fish Ай бұрын

no truer words

@newlynova Ай бұрын

🧍‍♀️📕🧍‍♀️📙🧍‍♀️📗🧍‍♀️📘🧍‍♀️

@chloerowitz7547 Ай бұрын

“Life is tough and I am not, but the least I could do is take care of myself.” Is going to be my new motto in depressive episodes lol

@StorieswithNessa Ай бұрын

Bars!!!

@SassyCasy Ай бұрын

Put it on a shirt bc I felt that in my soul

@amandapanda5087 Ай бұрын

Same

@rachelspears5226 Ай бұрын

"The smile didn't reach his eyes" is my "she let go of the breath she didn't know she was holding"

@shehrezadsyed Ай бұрын

i just picture the 🙂 emoji

@paulnevius3453 15 күн бұрын

"The knowing laugh of a mother"

@reverie9358 Ай бұрын

My favorite recurring theme in the Lexi book vlog cinematic universe is the motivational speech full of triumphant resolve following the relatable depressive paralysis. It always hits when I need it most (every day)

@leslyminaya623 Ай бұрын

YES THIS 👆🏽

@RetroNoIX Ай бұрын

Paedyn.... Payton and Hayden thrown together in a particle accelerator

@rizzobeloved Ай бұрын

This made me smile for the first time today, thank you

@frontingmp3 Ай бұрын

PARTICLE ACCELERATOR MADE ME CRY PLEASE

@jessicar2609 29 күн бұрын

It' reminds me of a name a Mormon influencer would name their kid.

@karrieflint8136 Ай бұрын

I just wanna say I really appreciate the “Uncle Jake” picture being a permanent feature on the gallery wall. 10/10

@betsyreadsalot Ай бұрын

a polly pocket trapped in a blender while you're forced to watch as it crumbles is the perfect way to capture my essence in one sentence. bravo

@mallorygarcia6756 Ай бұрын

"paedyn" ⚰im taxing every fantasy author with an outrageous main character name going forward

@ToAllTheVoicelessOnes_ Ай бұрын

I've seen one with 'Galaxy' as their name. Gotta be one of the quickest times i shut a book😭😭

@icygubler Ай бұрын

@@ToAllTheVoicelessOnes_ Okay, but if you're talking about the one I think you're talking about, at least THAT MC goes by Alex instead, and Galaxy is meant more as an illustration of who her mother is.

@finaleclipse2110 29 күн бұрын

What about Mare from the Red Queen and America Singer from the Selection? I think those really made booktube history

@mallorygarcia6756 29 күн бұрын

@@finaleclipse2110 jail time, these authors need to be held accountable for their actions

@user-st2op9du9g Ай бұрын

the gasp i gusped when it said 1.5 months

@alem7224 Ай бұрын

Im so traumatized by ads that I thought that in 5:00 you were abt to do a better help add LMAO

@morganw4628 Ай бұрын

bruh deadass I thought it was, I just stopped being able to read for a minute there

@newlynova Ай бұрын

unfortunately i come by my mental instability honestly LMFAO

@LydiaTeeHee Ай бұрын

I’m glad I’m not the only one 😂 The IRONY it would have been!

@lexi_barely_lives Ай бұрын

💀 Help, I clicked on this timestamp and it cut to a better help ad 💀💀💀 they're listening

@cls3282 Ай бұрын

Laying on the floor with "divorce tier list" on the board behind you is iconic. Also, I have absolutely been there haha

@kate.b97 Ай бұрын

I need "life is tough and I am not, but the least I can do is take care of myself" merch pls. I am sending all the good vibes your way though Lexi really sorry you're going through it 💚

@newlynova Ай бұрын

🫶🫶🫶

@ketterdamned Ай бұрын

You’re such a comfort watch for me. You make reading seem more human, more manageable. And I really appreciate that you sprinkle in your critiques in a way that isn’t at all malicious, just more curious on why certain decisions were made. The way you talk about your loss of motivation is something I, and it seems like many others, relate to deeply

@newlynova Ай бұрын

🫶🫶

@emma.dessureau Ай бұрын

HUZZAH LEXI CONTENT TO GET ME THROUGH FINALS

@Turtle20305 Ай бұрын

FR I was running out of videos to rewatch

@sarahclegg7548 Ай бұрын

good luck on your finals!!!! we're gonna ace em! :D

@newlynova Ай бұрын

GOOD LUCK 🎉

@suppleleo Ай бұрын

“I’m not Mr. Rogers. This is not my neighborhood.” Is going into my personal lexicon. Thank you 😂

@madisonjoy4616 Ай бұрын

I'm so happy someone else feels this way about Powerless - I took a 3-sentence paragraph from one of the chapters & ran it through an adjective-finder because it was SO painful to read. There were 15 adjectives in that section alone. I had to DNF.

@newlynova Ай бұрын

we are few but we are strong

@jessicar2609 29 күн бұрын

I finished it purely out of spite and will read the next one JUST to see if the writing got better now that the author is older and hopefully learned more about writing and world building.

@Abby-jc2hp Ай бұрын

I haven’t seen anyone else point out the weird alliteration lists in powerless THANK YOU I was losing my mind over this 😭

@abiade9614 Ай бұрын

It’s reminding me of the Shatter Me series I can’t 💀

@Abby-jc2hp Ай бұрын

@@abiade9614 I never read that series, but I DNFed the author’s other series specifically because of the writing 😭

@lolathecoconut Ай бұрын

every time a reading montage hard cuts to lexi crying hysterical, snotty tears, i sigh and add another book to my to-read list

@GaryMcSnail Ай бұрын

"It's hard for me to wake up every day and choose to see humanity." That alone, I think, just answered this angry state I've been in for the past month, at least. I've been very black and white about people lately and largely bitter about people in general based off what you said about pouring out kindness into others who have shown to be undeserving/not appreciative. And with my seasonal depression coming with summer, it's been getting harder. I will be replaying this part of the video several times because you flawlessly managed to put such puzzling feelings into words. And with that, I can hopefully start to feel less like this ❤❤❤❤❤

@newlynova Ай бұрын

🫶 it isn't easy, trust me i completely understand... when i am overwhelmed i like starting small with the people i love. forgiveness in small places helps you work up to forgiveness in big places.

@taylornpickle Ай бұрын

thank you for being transparent about your mental health. needed that reminder that bad times pass and reading can be self-care (which is why its so difficult to do when we are in a low period not wanting to take care of ourselves) you are not alone!

@piper_bruns Ай бұрын

please do more recaps of books like you did with credence and twisted love. I LIVE for those, they’re amazing.

@newlynova Ай бұрын

i just put out another one early this month 😎 i need to let my serotonin levels recharge for like three months in between each of those odysseys or my brain will rot out of my ears. a dangerous game.

@icygubler Ай бұрын

@@newlynova Honestly, fair. WATCHING the recaps cracks my brain, so I can only imagine how making them feels.

@yourbiggest1fan 6 күн бұрын

What is the 3rd recap you did? I'm so excited! But I have a hard time searching through your videos

@icygubler 6 күн бұрын

@@yourbiggest1fan a beautiful disaster by Jamie Mcguire

@sarahbrown958 Ай бұрын

I feel like we are besties because im invested in the ✨book gossip✨

@corinna_maybe Ай бұрын

I need some details please (to distract me from my own personal drama, thank you very much)🫖

@christianvalentine2724 Ай бұрын

"she let out the breath she didn't know she was holding" may be a cliche as a phrase, but the feeling itself is so relatable! i constantly forget to breathe for many seconds when i'm very focused on something, and then i make a deep inhale and let out a long exhale that apparently sounds like a heavy sigh because it has become a meme for my friend (i usually don't notice it, but he asks "why are you sighing?" "i'm not?" "ah, you forgot to breathe again.")

@sarahtarr557 Ай бұрын

i don't even read books i just come here to see what lexi is up to and i always leave feeling supported in my mental health journey

@barbararowley6077 Ай бұрын

Notes on an Execution sounds exactly my jam. I love it when characters are properly three dimensional and allowed to be multiple things at once, just like real people are. No one is wholly good or wholly evil. Thank you for being open about mental health issues. It’s so important in removing the ridiculous and undeserved stigma around them, and undoubtedly helps more people than any of us can ever know. I hope this current better period lasts as long as possible for you.

@izzyborn8917 Ай бұрын

The way my soul rebelled when you gave your powerless review 😭

@newlynova Ай бұрын

i am so sorry HAHAHA

@rosaliereadstoomuch9 Ай бұрын

“heres some parallels! look at parallel this is” absolutely killed me. Put me down after that passage cause what 😭😭😭

@colbyreads Ай бұрын

"life is tough and I am not, but the least I can do is take care of myself" immediately subscribed.

@aestranha9290 Ай бұрын

seriously the way you talked about your ups and downs, and also how reading is so competitive right now, it was almost healing to me, I've read 8 books this year, it's not a lot, but for me is such a big deal, you've become my safe space on this couple of months that I know you

@newlynova Ай бұрын

🫶 i am proud of you, it isn't easy to find time in life to slow down for things that you love - keep it up 💘

@chloev8132 Ай бұрын

omg i'm on book five. i see u n i hear u lmao

@evrbeen2tx Ай бұрын

This was such a cathartic video. I got laid off at the end of last year and have been in total crisis ever since. It has been so hard to do anything that isn't scroll or play Stardew valley lol. Reading started to feel so scary, and it felt like all these books were piling up that I "needed" to read. Thanks for making this and making me feel less alone.

@newlynova Ай бұрын

🫶

@1ofthedawn749 Ай бұрын

omg, the exam week(s) just finished your videos are my little treat

@itseIv Ай бұрын

mine just started😔 enjoy your time! hope you have a relaxing time

@1ofthedawn749 Ай бұрын

@@itseIv thank youuuu💞 good luck with your exams, i hope it all goes well:))))

@newlynova Ай бұрын

congratulations

@emma.dessureau Ай бұрын

I’ve also been in the pits these past few weeks and seeing you talk about your experience makes me feel so much better about mine. I actually picked up Project Hail Mary at your recommendation and it cured me lol ❤️

@brookessss Ай бұрын

Omg yes thank you for that Powerless review 😭 EXACTLY how I felt

@user-eu2zv7yc6u Ай бұрын

Um thank you for the pep talk and sharing about the rut you’re going through in the beginning and for admitting you haven’t been reading for a month. I also just barely finished one book on April (which I actually started in march). I just couldn’t fathom how much I just did not want to read. I was so stuck. Honestly, couldn’t even really do much else. Playing random games and immersing myself in reading random Reddit drama is also how I have numbing my gotten through the past few weeks (months). Anyways, I just wanted to share that I really appreciated you sharing that you’re are also susceptible to this period of “can’t do anything. Can’t move. Can’t concentrate.” I hate that we all go through but I like that I am not alone ❤ Here’s to better days full of reading many books for all of us!

@newlynova Ай бұрын

🫶 we do what we need to do to survive

@lucyb.2865 Ай бұрын

Our thoughts on Powerless are IDENTICAL lol I feel so validated! I literally thought so many times "she really thought she did something with that line..." I do agree that it's ambitious and impressive for her age. And I will probably try book 2 since a) it will be trad pub, b) it has potential to grip me more based on the ending of book 1, and c) hopefully she's been honing her craft a bit!

@TalkBooksWithBri Ай бұрын

“Life is tough and I am not”🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🫠🫠🫠🫠

@AHotLlama Ай бұрын

the more unhinged you get (less hinged?) the better the videos, 1 minute in I can tell this is a banger

@user-cq3wo9rm8k Ай бұрын

I swear I was watching one of these videos and my mom walks in and she listens for a sec and she’s like “my gosh she talks so fast” and I was like YEAH that’s why I love her, she moves at the speed of my attention span😂

@nk-62782 Ай бұрын

lexi! what timing - I checked out like 10 books at my local library yesterday (hadn’t been in years) almost solely based on your recommendations! I already almost finished Hell Followed With Us (which as a trans person myself is SO intense but SO good) and I just wanna thank you for giving me fuel to seriously read again after so long

@newlynova Ай бұрын

yesss i am so glad you loved that one 💘 the author dropped another that got even better reviews that is on my priority tbr rn (and i think has another coming out this year??) i love him lol good luck with the rest!!!!

@emilymazz5787 Ай бұрын

5 stars are scarce and sacred. One of the 3 I read this year was off of your suggestion (Seven Days in June…fire). Now I have a new possible one to add to my list! Great video Lexi!!

@jonreads366 Ай бұрын

I also went through a slump recently (also because of rough times). Hope you are doing better, be kind to yourself 🫶

@pati351 Ай бұрын

This video came right at the perfect time. I struggled with that depression paralysis for weeks now, haven’t touched a book, didn’t do anything I liked, because nothing felt worth doing. Thank you for sharing those moments with us, it made me feel way less alone. ❤

@newlynova Ай бұрын

🫶 we do what we have to do to make it through the day

@fireworksforme2 Ай бұрын

20:39 Hail Mary project, cerulean sea, AND under the whispering door?? the taste is immaculate

@ChemicalPenguinn Ай бұрын

I have had back to back two star reads, so this video is very relevant to me

@moeshrooms385 Ай бұрын

Just wanted to say that I really appreciate your brutal honesty when it comes to your mental health, not because you have to or anything, but just that it offers a sort of comfort seeing someone I look up to also struggle with this whole being a human thing

@TabithaMoody-pw2rb Ай бұрын

Finally someone who agrees with me about powerless

@newlynova Ай бұрын

we are few but we are mighty

@charlottew1938 Ай бұрын

Yes! Notes on an execution is one of my favourite books of all time, I’m so glad you read it! The prose is just so exquisite, almost every passage is like a gut punch in its own way.

@kate.b97 Ай бұрын

not me taking the "tell me every thought you have" to heart every single video. this may as well be my own personal live stream

@Meghan-gq5vn Ай бұрын

notes on an execution added to the tbr... your recs are unmatched!!

@emgrmc Ай бұрын

This felt like a mutual therapy session

@ashvander7864 Ай бұрын

i've been a reading slump myself and yet have like 3 or 4 books around my desk i keep moving around and never opening up but this video not only made me feel less alone in that slump, but it's really helping motivate me to actually open up these books and try to read again!!

@xochitljasmine7886 Ай бұрын

You conveyed so perfectly the experience of reading Notes On An Execution- I adore that book; I think while it is difficult, and uncomfortable at times, it brings up important topics with nuance and some level of objectivity. The final chapter as well as the epilogue made me weep ngl, it was so emotional, and it's stuck with me.

@haleygoins6308 28 күн бұрын

Really grateful to see someone who I consider A Reader acknowledge that sometimes there are weeks where you cannot read and they suck and are awful but also happen and it’s ok. Your intro pep talk will be something I come back to when life is hard because it was the perfect inspiring mix of this sucks! And let’s go! Thank you for sharing this vulnerability and I hope life eases soon

@SleepingFlowerx Ай бұрын

I too am in such a reading slump. Hopefully this video helps me get out of it too

@kierstensanders4211 Ай бұрын

20:02 that text popping up on the screen with the rest of what she was saying was HILARIOUS

@alyssaweaver202 28 күн бұрын

Thank you for being a reader who talks about the life slumps that get you out of reading - not that you lost the luster for books, but life is just so in the way that your stress level cannot allow you to calm down enough to read a book. The amount of times I pick up a new book after not finishing the last one is astonishing, but I tell myself one day I'll get back to them and hope to find one that grips me from the beginning and reminds me that life doesn't have to be all about what we've accomplished, but instead what we've learned and felt and experienced.

@celiajohnson7366 Ай бұрын

"it's a little bit silly but I'M a little bit silly" my daily affirmation as I continue stacking life crises atop each other like cards

@sarash8002 Ай бұрын

I had a lot of the same thoughts about Powerless. The ending really saved it for me though.

@themission137 Ай бұрын

i am glad you found the 5 star book only 2 books in but i am sad we couldn't hear you review more books. thanks for chronicling your struggle to start reading tho, it was so real and i never hear anyone talk about it

@madelinedupon Ай бұрын

You know its gonna be a good day when Lexi uploads Hoepfully this gets me a 5 star book sdded to my tbr 😭

@DataSoong101 Ай бұрын

Me:*sits down with bowl of soup.* Lexi: *gifts me with 30 minutes of entertainment*

@helenaoreilly-finnie142 Ай бұрын

Hey Lexi! I’m an anxious-neurodivergent girly going through it rn too :,) Ur videos are a spark in my day and make me wanna read more ❤ Ty for being ur hilarious self always!

@courtneyyy496 Ай бұрын

you’re amazing 💗

@user-ol4pc6dz3w Ай бұрын

When i tell you I kicked my feet when I saw the upload i mean it. The book slump is absolutely murdering me but my online parisocial relationship book besties will carry me through.

@nicoleedwards5708 Ай бұрын

i literally love u so much lexi never stop making content

@sativadivaxo Ай бұрын

i LOVE seeing your videos pop up on my homepage. you’re one of my favorite booktubers

@ainokenttala Ай бұрын

i got so happy seeing a new video from you! loved it like always 🙌

@reynajo669 Ай бұрын

This was so goooood!! I love these kinds of videos. I now am looking forward to reading your five star rec, I simply cannot wait

@elsajeann Ай бұрын

glad you’re feeling better lexi, much love

@_eternaleclipse_ Ай бұрын

i was literally just thinking about you!!! im so happy when you post

@MA3CY Ай бұрын

Lexi I just want to thank you so much for your content and for your openness about your feelings!! I love your content, and I'm really grateful you posted today :)

@Astilbethehobbit Ай бұрын

You’ve become my favorite booktuber ❤ Seeing you post makes my day lately

@SolarRox21 Ай бұрын

I love watching your videos & hearing your thoughts - you have such a talent for this! 😊

@evahill7830 Ай бұрын

I love the journeys you go on in your videos. I’m glad you’re back from the slump!

@PippenThePenguin Ай бұрын

I literally love you and your vibe so much. I've binged the absolute shit out of so many, and I'm STOKED that you did this!!

@indiethebindi Ай бұрын

Girl, I've missed your videos so much! I hope you are feeling a bit better!

@ZombieMoon2 Ай бұрын

I love your videos, they have something that other booktube hasn't hit for me. Not sure what it is but I know that I like watching every single one of your videos and I skip around with others. Also I got back into reading this year half because I stumbled on your channel! So thanks

@girIinredenthusiast Ай бұрын

i love watching your videos lexi!! i read tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow because you recommended it and it's now one of my favourite books, thank you so much 💗💗

@eleven.eleven. Ай бұрын

Thank you for fearlessly representing your mental health struggles. It means a lot as a neurodivergent woman to see someone else just honestly vibing with it. That is what keeps me watching!

@newlynova Ай бұрын

us silly brain girlies gotta stick together 🤝

@user-gj3ey8vc7o Ай бұрын

I really love your channel

@yohotek4540 Ай бұрын

The premise of Notes on an execution looks sooo interesting! Definitely goes to my long long long tbr list; love your video(as always) ♥️

@user-ql8zt6tg8p Ай бұрын

Thank you for being so real. I'm still at the start of your video, but I've been having a similar experience and it feels good knowing I am not alone in this. I hope you found your way back into feeling joy with reading and that you are feeling better now.

@maliha3921 Ай бұрын

Finally!! I’ve been waiting for a video from you 🥹!!! You’re so relatable and funny hahha . Whatever you’re going through, i hope and pray that you feel better. Love you 🤎

@ncreads Ай бұрын

YES ANOTHER NEWLYNOVA VIDEO!!! My day has been made ☺️

@randystein12395 Ай бұрын

This is the most relatable content I've seen on the Internet this year. I've been having so much trouble reading because of my mental health too, and hearing that I'm not alone in that means so much. We're in it together. Thank you ❤

@kuromi_xo Ай бұрын

I am obcessed with ur channel! It's making me want to read new stuff more! I used to be very into the the book youtube and tumblr scene in 2014 but then kinda fell off so i'm glad to have found someone to keep me up to date with what the kids are reading nowadays

@konotton Ай бұрын

I've been going through a bit of a slump recently and hearing you talk about how you make it through yours made me feel more confident in myself in return, so I just wanted to say thanks! Also, your channel has rapidly become one of my favorites on the entire site; there's just something magical to me about how you talk about things that scratches my brain LMAO so thanks again for that :)

@rebeccadiv Ай бұрын

Yet another of your videos that validates we have very similar reading tastes! I appreciate your vulnerability throughout and it is always wonderful to watch your videos in any and all forms that you show up in ❤

@abyvo 23 күн бұрын

i've absolutely adored watching your videos and it was both so heartbreaking and comforting seeing you on this journey of reading :') im glad you found another book that impacted you so severely

@edencarassai6689 24 күн бұрын

I just found your channel and just the first part of this video makes me really like you. I loved how real you were and I completely relate on the struggles I been struggling off and on for a longggg time and what u said kind of stuck with me!

@luisebein37 Ай бұрын

I couldn‘t relate more to your powerless review! I was in a reading slump for like 1.5 months and had such high hopes for it. Stopped at 50% and did not pick it up since :( the plot wasn’t plotting but the cringe did indeed hit hard…

@AllyRenea46 Ай бұрын

I’m genuinely glad I found you on TikTok. We all love & appreciate you & your reviews. Take your breaks when needed!❤

@emiilyrose Ай бұрын

i loooove a lexi book vlog with little anecdotes about depression, finding what makes you happy/interested in the moment, taking care of yourself, and ending triumphantly with a stellar review of a good book. as someone in a reading slump/depression episode rn, i really needed this video!! excited to add notes on an execution to my TBR!!

@vivis.5432 Ай бұрын

So proud of you for powering through ur slump bestie girl!!

@dontaecrowder7952 Ай бұрын

once again, Lexi gives me knowledge of a book centering around themes i have soul-deep necessity for this year. my sincerest thanks oh wise one

@auroracarminati578 Ай бұрын

I can’t tell you how excited I was to see a new post from you!!! 🥰🥰🙌🙌

@sofialand0_ Ай бұрын

i’m struggling a lot with something similar to what you’re struggling with in this video and i honestly really needed this right now. thank you for this. you are massively cool and inspiring in ways you probably don’t even realize. new comfort video wooo

@newlynova Ай бұрын

🫶 keep your head up

@odeofpoets Ай бұрын

wishing a better week for you lexi! hope you're doing better, it's really a slow climb and I'm just convincing myself it'll get better day after day 🫶 this video was great too as always

@viktoria7349 Ай бұрын

Thanks for your videos, Lexi! I love the way you do reviews with mid-book updates and honest reactions. Have read some of the same books as you but your perspective is still always interesting and makes me re-think my own opinions. Really appreciate them ❤😊