I just want to say one last thank you 🙏🏼 It is only because this community has been so endlessly supportive that I feel confident enough to keep putting myself out there in this space. Let's move forward together. Oh, and don't forget to wish the floof a happy birthday!

Maybe grieving isn’t a step backwards, but rather a moment standing still, living in the moment. And perhaps a step forward. To grieve is to recognize our love for others and sadness when they are gone. Thank you Max for sharing your journey. You are truly a beautiful person. 💗

It is fair to say Max's relationship with Lee was on a level all its own. The years together, the way they spent their time together, how they broke up, and then her tragic death. He has handled it with such grace, grappling with so many what ifs, whys, how coulds, anger (yes anger), and of course pure grief. So much respect for Max. Truly. 💙❤️

I’m a retired therapist of 30 years. I just wanted to extend my condolences and tell you I’m so glad to hear you’re getting counseling. Suicide brings about a special trauma grief response for survivors of suicide. One has to process the trauma before they can proceed to the grief issues. There’s so much to let go of but it all takes time and help from others. We’re not meant to do this alone. I’m glad you found your support community and professional assistance. Also, Happy birthday to Occy. I’m glad to see he brings you love and joy

Grief is not linear. Allow yourself to grieve. It ebbs and flows, sometimes a gentle wave and sometimes a tsunami that knocks you over. Be kind to yourself. You're worth it. =^..^=(Happy birthday Occy!)

Grief never ends … but it changes. It’s a passage, not a place to stay. Grief is not a sign of weakness… nor a lack of faith… It is the price of love.

it's so brave to be vulnerable - crying out loud is 100% moving forward

Max, it's been over twenty years since my boyfriend committed suicide. It's one of the hardest things I've survived in my life. (And yes, I've survived a LOT.) The devastation is real. The heartache is real. As is the anger, the guilt and all the other scars that come with suicide. Taking it one hour, one day at a time, is the only way I've made it this far. You can do this. Every breath counts. Every blink. Every tear. Thank you for being brave enough to share what you're going through. We sometimes forget that we are not alone. Keep walking. Keep talking. Keep sharing. We love you. Lastly - happy birthday gorgeous Boy. Lots of sloppy kisses and warm hugs.

Max, I wanted you to know that your video helped me today. We buried my baby brother yesterday and i feel like I'm in a nightmare. He was in so much emotional pain and suffered from a deep depression... no one knew how very deep, until the police found him 7 days ago. You talked about being honest about what was going on for you, and I felt that i needed to do the same, as I know you know about this kind of loss. I needed to see how you are moving forward, because I need to know that I will be able to at some point as well. It's only been a week and I'm just trying to remember to breathe Can't seem to do much more than that right now, I did manage to take my first shower since I found out yesterday. I do have a therapist and she kindly has made time to see me the past 3 days. I canceled yesterday because I just couldn't talk to anyone. The pain comes in like huge ocean waves. When the wave goes out, I'm in shock and shut down Then the wave crashes down over my head, and the pain is so intense i feel like i c.a.n'.t b.r.e.a.t.h.e. as my body is wracked with tears that pour out from somewhere deep inside. Like you wondering about Lee, I wonder also why couldn't my baby brother see the beauty and love that does exist? I also wonder.. Why didn't he know his own worth? Didn't he know how very much he truly was cherished and loved? I just am lost right now , looking for answers as to "why didn't I know how deep his pain really was?" "Why didn't he reach out?" "Maybe I could of saved him" All these unanswered questions we are left to wonder about, I understand your tears because I shed the same ones. Seeing you in this video today was what i needed to see. I know you don't know me but Thank You for being honest about what you are going through since you lost Lee. Because your video has helped me know there is a light at the end of this dark tunnel. I now am on this journey with you 💔❤

Someone once told me that when we lose someone who has meant everything to us, it seems that the only way to ‘honour’ them is through our tears and grief, that to go on with happiness and joy is somehow a betrayal of what they’ve meant, a turning away from their loss. She asked me if that would be what they would want.... it was actually the loss of one of my heart dogs. Of course the answer was no, that the joy that they brought should be the thing upper most in our hearts and minds. It’s so so hard to put that into practice isn’t it. I think we just have to feel what we feel, knowing that it is as it should be. Time will allow strength and resilience is found through connection with others. How lucky you are to have such a cocoon of love around you. You will heal and you are honouring Lee every day by seeing all the beauty in the world for her.

“There is a saying in Tibetan, ‘Tragedy should be utilized as a source of strength.’ No matter what sort of difficulties, how painful experience is, if we lose our hope, that’s our real disaster.” Dalai Lama

When I wake up crying, I try to focus on all the times my big sister made me laugh so hard. Which was a lot. And before I realize, I'm laughing. Hold on to the great memories. 💙

Occy, if you’re reading this, happy belated birthday!

Max, you are a real man. To show vulnerability like that on camera takes some serious cajones. Seriously bro, keep moving forward day by day, you are doing all the right things. Things will come right for you I'm sure.

Just an old lady here to thank you for sharing your personal journey. I think you are doing great staying busy and getting the help you need to work through the grief. I did not know Lee, but I thought she was a beautiful person inside and out. She will be gratefully missed. I am so sorry for her loss. Each day you will get stronger and will always have the memories you shared with Lee. Oxxy is looking great for 10 years old. He is so nice and fluffy. Love your van including the new panels on the back door. Looking forward to watching your future travels with Oxxy. Love your channel.

Grief is a process, it's different for each person, but, it remains a process that we have to follow if we intend to come out the other side. I only saw the news about Lee about a week ago, my heart goes out to all her family and friends. From one person to another, a complete stranger, feel the love and use it, ignore the negativity, it will always be there until all members of our species realise life is precious, kindness costs nothing. Huge respect Max, to show that kind of emotion on social media requires confidence, self awareness and courage, especially from a male. Lotsa love, remember, it's a process and it's unique to you, it's your process. I really felt the need to comment and acknowledge the loss of such a beautiful, kind and amazing person. Happy Birthday Floof! Better late than never.

Jesus, Max, that was courageous! Whether we all SAY it or not, everyone gets it to a certain degree. To SHOW it, here......really courageous. Thank you for daring to be so vulnerable in a medium that can often be brutal. It's the kind of transparency and truth that will help you and others heal. Isn't that what she was all about? :)

"weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning." Peace and blessings! You are doing just fine. Keep moving mate 🙏🙏

Max... my heart goes out to you. My husband killed himself in April of 2020 at the beginning of the Covid lockdown. The things you are feeling, the grief, the total empty feeling in the middle of your chest... I’ve felt it too... I’m glad you’re getting therapy. It’s helped me so much. Staying busy, candidly Sharing my story on line, and focusing every day on getting a little further down the road on my grief journey had really helped me to heal. For me... I had to shift my focus from the WAY my husband died to the beautiful life he LIVED! By focusing on the good memories, and pulling each and every one out to savor and remember, they become your treasures... your comfort... and one day you will get to a place where it’s not quite so painful... you don’t feel quite so gutted.... and the memories start to bring laughter again instead of tears. I’m praying for you... that you get the rest you need, and that you find those peaceful pauses and stops on the road of your grief journey.

“Death leaves a heartache no one can heal. Love leaves a memory no one can steal. “ Lee deserves to be cried over there is no shame in love’s emotions. You will be fine. 🙂

Grief is like a pressure cooker and crying is the relief valve.With great love comes great pain, unfortunately. That's the messy bits of life Max. Prescription for grief, cry when necessary.

It was so hard to see you hurt, without being able to give you a hug and support you, but it was so so needed too. I'm so thankful to you for sharing this journey you're on through life. Nights are hard, I feel heavy sometimes too, but you're right -there is so much beauty out there waiting for us to see it. We're growing together with you, this community loves you and Occy. Thank you 💚

Stay strong mate can't imagine the pain you're in.. you're doing amazingly well and nothing wrong showing your feelings mate.. Lee was an amazingly beautiful girl and bright light who touched everyone who watched her both on KZfaq and clearly everyone she met and I can't imagine the pain for you and her family and her close friends etc. Just TRAGIC, but you're All doing the right things and as someone who suffers this last few years with suicidal depression and anxiety, it's a daily battle mate I'm trying my best this last 2 years to try and end the stigma wrongly associated with mental health issues and illnesses and to raise awareness and prevent as many suicides as possible since I've been suffering as I know there's so little help and support available and often people do not know where to turn. So I applaud you All for raising the awareness and doing Lee proud in your efforts as she also tried to do before she tragically lost her own battle.. She will always be with you all for sure mate. Sending positive thoughts and vibes and moral support your way mate from London England 👍💪❤️🙏🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿

Max, thank you for your genuineness. Thank you for showing what grieving looks like. I don't think it's two steps forward, one step backward, friend. My dad died by suicide and honestly, allowing yourself to grieve, to cry, to yell, to FEEL the true extent of the loss, is moving forward even though it really doesn't feel like it in the moment. I can't speak for everyone, but for me, grief never really goes away because it's the recognition of the loss of love (or a loved one), it's a loss of something we had that we still greatly value. And it doesn't get easier, there will always be bittersweet reminders of the one we love and wish so desperately we could call up and just say "hi". But we do learn to live with it. We learn to experience life's blessings and joys, to laugh and smile, and to experience the sorrow when we're reminded of the one we love. I used to think that by continuing to have moments of grief, that I was somehow stuck or failing to move on. But now I know, it's a part of living. There will always be both happiness and sadness and it's okay to carry both in the same hand. Have grace for yourself. Continuing to send prayers for healing your way.

When I was struggling with depression, I found that having drinks in the evening and then going home alone made things so much worse. I didn't want to get addicted to not going home alone or to the numbness that alcohol initially provided. I finally decided that for myself, not drinking was the best short-term solution. I never really knew what a depressant alcohol could be.

It’s a strange dichotomy - being happy and experiencing joy often brings along so much pain afterward, because we just wish they could share in the happiness. Grief is love carrying on. Keep taking care of yourself, I’m so glad you’re around people who love you.

I'm so grateful for your vulnerability Max. I cried with you when you cried, thank you for holding space for us here to mourn with you. I will always be thinking about Lee and her beautiful light, but I will always think of you as well because you BOTH brought that light. Sending you all the good vibrations. 💓

In this online world that’s too often devoid of authenticity and the full spectrum of human emotion, you’re such a glimmer of hope. Thank you for sharing the highs and lows and everything in between with us. Sending virtual hugs to you and Occy 💚

I lost my son thirteen years ago, and that was after lots of loss in my life. Hang in there. It doesn't really get "easier", but it does get easier carrying the burden, and living life changed and different. You will grow, and learn wisdom and truth, and this is never easy. Thank you for showing your pain and for being truly vulnerable in the middle of the night, when the pain is inescapable and overwhelming. I spent many a year with nights like this. Sending a big hug from southern Ontario Canada. Glad you are getting therapy, and yes, keeping busy is how I got through; it allows us to slowly process rather than drowning in the grief. xoox

Just had to pause at 22:54, my heart broke for you and watching you become so emotional and trying to explain, I was crying as well, wanting to reach out and just hug you and let you grieve… grief is a tricky one, gets you when you least expect it but you need to allow it how run it’s course and never be embarrassed or ashamed to pick up the camera and share with us the good and the bad times… we’re here to support and encourage you. Never to judge or feel less of you for doing so. In fact, I am so proud of you for speaking up and admitting you need help, going to therapy and allowing us to see a small portion of what you’re going through. Thank you so much for trusting us! I know through experience, how precious my dog Shadow is to me, she lets me cuddle her, sometimes for hours on end, I have cried countless tears in her fur, she’s licked my face, hands, arms etc to wipe away the tears and provide sensory support when I need it, she comes up and rests her head on my lap, standing there silently, just making sure I’m ok before she lies down at my side, always keeping one eye out on me. So don’t be afraid to let Occy be your emotional support friend throughout I’m sure the supporting will be just as important for Occy to receive as well as provide. As always you are in my prayers and my thoughts. Virtual hugs are here for you 24/7!!! I know I’ve probably not written this out properly or I’m probably not making much sense, I apologise for that, I’m trying to explain the best I can… Love you both Anne (and Shadow - black Labrador aged 11 yrs young) Sydney, Australia Ooooohhhhh HAPPY BIRTHDAY OCCY!!!

They say that you have to walk through your pain, to get to the other side. Not that you will ever forget but life will get easier. I lost my son at 9 days old. No matter how a love one passes, the pain is unimaginable. Keep feeling, Max and remember you have an angel (Lee) watching over you. God Bless. Happy Birthday Occy 🐾🦴🎂

Max hang in there. I lost my son when he was 16. I will never forget hm and I will always love him. It took quite a while but life came back. There were so many tears and even 17 years later there still are. But some how life comes back. Keep your eyes on the horizon, you have people who love you and some day life will be better.

As a survivor of suicide myself it's a unique kind of pain that burns and aches and makes you angry all at once. It's like part of you gets dragged to the other side. So you're only part of who you once were. I can say, after being many years out from the initial blast zone, YOU will come back. Slowly. With more tenderness and patience, you will feel life again and it will mean even more to you.

Grief is like the ocean. Sometimes it's calm and sometimes a big wave comes over you and you feel like you are drowning. Just keep trying to take those steps forward and allow yourself to feel whatever it is that you are feeling.

Dear Max. Please don’t get down over Lee. When your depressed there is nothing that will stop some people from ending it. Not even their own child. Lee made her decision even though she was loved my thousands. Your break up with her must also hurt you badly. What Lee did answered everything. It should relieve you instead of dragging you down. All those people that knew her keep on posting and continuing their lives. You have wept and been sorry. Now look up to the sky when your sitting on your surf board waiting for the next wave. Just smile say hello be at peace with her decision. Catch the next wave and ride into the rest of your life.

A number of years ago my fiancé died suddenly of a life-limiting health condition. It took me a long time to come to terms with it and grieve for him, but one thing helped me cope: knowing that each tear would not be shed again, that each time I cried I was finding just a little more peace. I now remember him with love and happiness, not the pain and confusion of his sudden passing. I don’t know if this will help someone, I hope it doesn’t harm anyone. Best love

Grief is different for everyone. Be patient with yourself. Thinking and praying for your journey. So very thankful for your realness. We all carry a story and we all need to honor and come alongside as we walk this life.

Picking up the camera when you’re crying is completely genuine. It’s a genuine emotion. When you are so vulnerable, you’re giving permission for others to be so.

One step at the time and time outdoors with Occy, who doesn’t care about KZfaq; just cares about you ;)

Yes, Lee left a big hole - I'm still crying whenever I am reminded of her.

Thanks for sharing, Max. Grieving isn't a nice, linear process. There is no "end result", except learning to live with the hurt. Your heart needs to make new room for the pain, and to fit it in with the joys of your life. It takes big heart, and you've got it. And your heart will grow even bigger. Hugs to the Occ, and to you. Take your time.

I needed to cry with you. I lost my best friend to suicide. This was 4 years ago and I can still find myself crying in the night. I hope you feel better soon. Take your time. It is ok. I send you lots of love from Germany!

It's been 3 years since my son committed suicide ànd it was so hard and still is😭 life is changed forever. Glad that you are going forward and you can still see the beautiful things in the world. I still cry for the loss of his beautiful life and know l always will

Hi Max! I just wanted to say 1) Happy belated birthday to Occy. 2) Grief is real hard. I know losing a dog that is by your side every moment of the day is not the same as you losing someone who was a human partner that shared so much with you ..........love.....intimacy, travel and years in a van. But when I lost my dog Sully (pictured in my profile), it was the worst time I ever had with dealing with grief. I know the pain you feel. The loss of my constant companion for only 12 years from cancer made me want to just curl up and die. Sully and I traveled all over the world competing in agility and it was like he read my mind. We were inseparable until that day that I had to help him cross over. I have lost many over the years. My Dad....and I was a Daddy's girl, other dogs, friends, relatives, lovers.....and for whatever reason although very sad, I was able to deal with the grief. With Sully it was just different. Everyone experiences grief differently and those times alone and at night can be the hardest times because your mind just goes there. I wish I could do something or say something to ease your pain but I think you are processing it and I do think you are moving forward in your healing journey. Hugs to you and Occy and know that people care about you and YOU do make a difference in the world. YOU matter. LOVE, MJ

You have been in my thoughts. I didn’t know Lee but found her to be so engaging & her death to be a loss to the world. I respect you for taking the time & space you need. Take care & know I appreciate & enjoy you videos. Thank you.

Don’t think you realise how your honesty and wisdom will help some many. Keep the love and fight going. Hugs to you and Occy.

My heart goes out to you Max. Keep doing whatever is helping you. Sending hugs to you and Occy. X

You know it’s an authentic and beautiful KZfaq video when I was crying at the end. Max- you are an incredible man. It takes courage to do what you’re creating here. Love you

Max, it's okay to be sad just don't stay there. I got suck in a deep depression after loosing my husband of 40 years to cancer. I just quit life and no one could reach me. It's so hard to pull yourself out of a deep sadness but guess who brought me out of it...a vanlife amazing couple and their beach loving dog. You guy's just loved life, each other and adventure and I just loved your channel. I'm forever grateful.

Sharing your true grief is not a step backward, but two steps forward to healing, if we all understood we don't have to stay strong, we need to stay together and care for each other through times like these. you are a true example for all of us to do that.... thank you

You are a very gentle soul, dear Max and such a courageous man. Happy Birthday Occy! And off he goes like a five year old on the beach.....

Hi Max and everyone. My feeling about what Lee has left us is a beautiful connection. Max, at your best or darkest moments someone will always see your posts and be here for you and you are an anchor to all of us. Check in now and then and be well.

The day my brother took his life it was a beautiful sunny warm day. I just kept thinking how he didn't see that and that he had so much more living to do. I know now that it was so dark for him he couldn't see any other way out. Thanks Max for sharing with us. You are helping us understand grief and pain something all of us have or will experience. It is part of life. I am glad you have support from your family and friends and also have reached out for professional help. Thanks for the link, I am going to look into it for myself. Keep doing what you are doing. The grief doesn't go away we learn how to manage it. Happy Belated Birthday Occy! You look great for 10! Keep having fun!

Hang in there Max! You're doing fantastic. I've never commented to support anyone because I always thought it won't be read, but with you I just can't help myself. Things will ge beter, don't feel rushed. These things do take time buddy. Much love.

Showing your grief on camera was not disingenuous but, true. My heart goes out to you.

CRY, FEEL SAD. It’s a process. It will get to a place of tolerating your pain and being able to move about with life. Life is feeling. All feelings of good and bad has a moment in time. Don’t be so hard on yourself, it takes time.

Max, I can’t imagine how difficult it must be to publicly go through your grief. I believe what you are showing is important for many people. I’m glad you have Occy with you. Nice to see some ‘post COVID’ sights like getting together for live music. Looking forward to getting back to that. Happy Birthday Occy! I hope he had a great day! As you said, there are so many beautiful things to see. Your whole lifestyle is so inspiring to me. I wish you all the best.

You’re a very brave bloke, max. You should be proud of everything you have done and doing. Everyone is missing lee but I can’t even imagine how you must feel. She did see the beauty in the world and you should feel honoured that she was able to share it with you. It would be great to see you catch up with eamon and bec and be able to talk about all of your fantastic memories. I wish I could be able to do something to help with your pain. Keep talking about your feelings, it will get a little easier.

My heart is just breaking for you. But seeing the beauty in the world and being able to weep are gifts to hold on to. Happy birthday hugs to Oc. Thank you for being so honest and kind. You will never know how many lives you impact.

I believe dogs and cats can see spirits! I'm sure Lee still is giving tummy rubs to Occy!! As we speak! And he's loving it 😍

I lost my brother to an accidental drug overdose and the nights are indeed the worst. But like you said, the pain gets easier to carry. Lots of love to you, Max. 💚

Awe max you have such a beautiful soul .. a good cry is healthy and we are all here for you and sending you goodvibes 🙏🏻 bring up your beautiful memories as often as you feel the need ♥️.. 🐾happy birthday buddy 🐾

Be happy, be sad, and be everything in between. Just be in that moment! You are so lovely Max!

I started listening to piano music, when my husband passed away. I finds its the only thing that helps me relax, and I'm able to breath again.

Sending so much love to you and Occy. One step at a time, one day at a time.

Omg Max. It’s breaking my heart seeing you going through this. That was very very brave of you. Sending hugs & love across the miles from the UK ❤️ xxx

Nights are so difficult when you are grieving and it’s a difficult process I thank you for sharing, it’s really hard to be vulnerable sometimes... thank you for that

Don’t knock medication either. It changed my life. There is no shame in it but it is important to stay with a therapist as well. I do telephone sessions for the last couple years and look forward to it!

I lost both my parents to cancer in a short space of time and the grief felt completely overwhelming. I didn't see how it would ever go away or get better. Someone very helpfully told me that grief is like a giant red button inside a box, with a ball bouncing around inside the box. Every time the button gets pushed it's a wave of grief and sadness. The ball can start bouncing around for no reason or because something sets it off - a smell, a photo, a memory just popping up... Over time, the ball is jolted less and less often so the huge waves of grief and sadness start to become less frequent. In more time, a green button joins the box and this is the ability to remember that person (or people) with a smile and fondness instead of pure loss. I found it a bizarrely helpful way to think about the grief process when I became overwhelmed, and eventually the green button popped up and it's stayed ever since. Now I remember my mum's laugh with a laugh of my own instead of pain. Thank-you for being so open with your own feelings and I hope you can move through to where you need to be.

Happy belated bday Occy! Happy to see you guys. You're inspiring and we are all sending you virtual hugs. Keeping pushing forward, her magnetic energy is still pulling you forward.

Glad to see you back Max and a happy belated birthday Occy, still looking like a young pup!

Thanks for your return Max, we have all suffered dearly and waited patiently with you. Please carry on, move forward and never forget how much support you have. 🙏🙏🙏

Happy birthday Occy sending our love and prayers. We are here we understand deal with anxiety and depression daily . Glad to see you both

Thanks so much for being vulnerable enough to let us see you cry, Max. This last year has been the toughest of my life and I have been having way too many of those moments, which I never ever let people see. It really helped me to feel a little less alone. Thanks for being who you are ❤

Max, you are a gem. This feels like such a deeply scary time for so many of us. Thank you for your raw honesty, your vulnerability, and your hope. You and Lee deeply touched me. Never doubt that you are having an impact beyond what you can possibly know. And the ripples continue beyond you through all of us. It is the best chance for this world.

Max, this is raw emotions you need to have. I didn't find it disingenuous at all. You loved Lee so very much and were able to spend some wonderful times together. I am sending you all my love and strength. Thank you for keeping it real with us.

THANK YOU MAX! (and Occy) for leading the way and speaking so openly and truthfully about grief and mental health. These conversations are so important... so important...and your openness gives others permission to share more openly... this is one of my favorite wisdom bits, I hope you can relate to this "every feeling fully felt, leads to love"... feeling deeply is a superpower...

Hi Max (and Occy) - thank you. I’ve been dealing with some issues the last few years and seeing the truth of your struggles along with dealing with them was what I needed to see today. So again, thank you. And happy (very) belated birthday to Occy.

Dear Max and Occy, My heart goes out to you. You are walking a very difficult part of your life journey. Continue to lean on those who love you, your friends and family, and of course, Occy. I wish we could all learn to embrace our tears and the soul gripping sadness that comes with the loss of a loved one. They come from a place of deep truth. May you find peace and healing.

I'm SO GLAD you're in therapy! I've lost several family members to their mental health battles, nearly lost myself and friends to it. I was 11 and inpatient in a mental hospital I was just so suicidal and now I'm turning 40 this July. I don't think anyone saw that coming, I didn't. You matter, people DO care so keep fighting anyone struggling, you're so not alone

Seeing your pain is so relatable and so helpful. Makes me feel less alone. Thank you! Good luck on your journey

I don't know about anyone else, but I do not think poorly of you if you never respond to any comment; you need to take care of you, and being kind does not require a response. I just want you to know I am praying for you, and for all of Lee's family and friends. She was a beautiful, shining light, and I know she is missed beyond belief. Sending love and hugs to Lee's family, to you, to Lee's friends, and to all those touched by her beautiful soul.

I lost my bestfriend just out of highschool from his mental health. Watching these videos brings a lot up for me, but mostly just the love and appreciation I have now for the time we spent together all those years ago. I still think of him daily. We are not ourselves, but the mark we leave on others. Max, thankyou for being open, you are leaving your mark on so many - just as Lee did x

I just want to send you big loving thoughts. Grief isn't linear and I've seen others comment it that grief comes in ebbs and flows and I agree with them on that. We're here for you and thank you for allowing yourself to be vulnerable. 💗 I know how hard that can be. Also, Happy Belated Birthday Occy! You are one lucky pup! 💗💗

Max - amazing video, thanks for sharing what you are feeling. I’m sure that’s hard to do knowing you have such a large audience. You’ve been a great role model to me for a long time, and now even more so. Keep up the great work!

All I could say is continue living for Lee for yourself, you both love being adventurous. Write your thoughts on a journal at night, the more you do that the less pain you feel. You are doing a great job moving forward Max please give Occy a big hug for me.♥️🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

It's all very normal my friend, it literally just takes time, you don't forget, but the gaps in between the sadness get wider, until it no longer consumes your world and the memories become a smile xxx

Good to see you back ❤️ thank you for opening up to the world 🌎

Happy belated birthday Occy! And sending a huge hug and lots of well wishes to you Max ❤️

Grief is like Ocean Waves. Sometimes your emotions & pain are tiny waves & some come crashing over your head. But keep paddling & reaching for shore. You will survive this.

Thank you for your courage in sharing your heart and soul with this community. The loss of Lee is a brutal one, your grief is appreciated, your honesty on your mental health journey has brought so much value to myself and so many. Sending my love to you and occy.

It’s hard to live in a world knowing your friend has passed on. God has an amazing plan in place for you. Praying for peace.

Happy Belated Birthday to you, Occy! Glad you had a good birthday! I know at nights is hard when grieving as I have been there. We all get together and have our support. Thank you for sharing this video, Max.

Max, thank you so much for opening up and showing how things really are when things must be super hard right now. Sending so much love. We all love and appreciate you, don't forget that. You're taking huge steps to ending the stigma in leading by example and talking about your feelings and I hope it gives people (especially guys) the confidence to talk. Sending love from the uk, ps Happy Bday floof xx

Lee , would want you to heal and go in with your life too , please know that . She didn't mean to hurt others , even her most loved ones . better help sound amazing . Thank you for sharing that .

Heartbreaking. I feel so sorry for the pain you're feeling. Just so you know, Max, it will never go away but it does get easier with time. I lost my husband after 25 years together and it still hurts after 12 years without him. I spent eight years before I went a full day without a tear being shed. Now it is sometimes weeks. I pray your healing will be swift.

"I also listen to classical now" this made me smile. You're so cool Max! Keep up the great work. Much love

Sending you so much love Max, one day at a time. My heart goes out to you and anyone experiencing grief like this, the nights are the hardest that is for sure. We all love you and Occy and are here supporting you. Lee would want nothing but love for you and all the people close to her. 🤍

Wow, I’m amazed at how strong you are Max. I know it doesn’t feel that way at times but you really are. It’s not easy talking about one’s emotions, especially to a large community of people. You are also very lucky and blessed to have such good friends/family and Occy to see you through. Continued blessings to you and yours. 🙏🏽

sometimes someone looses someone that is still here and they never move on. been lonely and depressed for 20+yrs. my kids and now grand kids was, scratch that, is the only reason i move to the next day. be strong brother