I feel bad for laughing-

@@officiallyme6490 dont worry lol

Well silence, it’s weird I guess, the one place where silence is for me is when I’m sleeping. It’s like another world, but that world is just a small, black room with no noise but, you can walk forever with no end to the room, yes it feels very small and looks like it if you have a tiny amount of light in it but, you can walk as long as you want with no end to it. It’s a dark room where you can’t see anything, and can’t tell where your are going. This black room of a world is peaceful but scary and dreadful. It’s peaceful because no one else is there to bother you. But is scary because there is no living human there besides you, only the monsters that lurk in the dark. And it’s dreadful because well, you’re there long enough, you can go maniac. You will become maniac because you are in a small, dark, room that has monsters that have no form or shape that appears, it’s kind of like a nightmare or worse but, these creatures or monsters are like your friends in the silence, like the small voices in your head. They usually stare into your soul or, disappear into the darkness of the room. Now, this is what it’s like for me but, it’s different for everyone. Now I know you just asked for how it sounds like but I decided to also tell you how it’s looks and feels. And I don’t know how I can see all of this when I’m asleep but I do. I hope this helped.

If I had to describe silence, id say its like looking into somewhere endless, like a room that never ends

the only way i think i can describe it is being overwhelmed and stressed and too warm at something like a social gathering, and then when it's dark outside just stepping out into the cold air and street light and it just stops. its emotions building up to be a huge wave and it crashes gently causing no harm. that's when silence is pleasant. sometimes it's an empty dark room that you wish someone would fill, because it's lonely.

It's loud. But nothing. Like you know when you look at a bright light and it's loud how bright the light is, but it's not audibly loud. Kinda like looking at the sun. That's what nothing sounds like.

Silence is where anything can happen. You can’t hear anything coming nor existing, and sound is up to what your brain thinks is there. For some it’s calming, but for people like me, it’s a threat Either way, plug your ears when you’re in bed at night and maybe you could hear it?

Thank you for having this as an option, I just got a text from a person who I told about my age reggression, and they said they think my eating disorder was a better coping mechanism than that. it really triggered me

@ idk I’m sorry! I hope you feel better soon and I hope things get better for you soon!❤️

This is the first time in a while that someone said "I'm proud of you"...Thank you,you jUST helped me get less self conscious🙂

@kanzi lefthand I’m glad I could help^^

You saying you’re proud of me just nearly brought tears to my eyes - I’ve felt so inadequate lately between my grades and other things. TW (vent)- My friend attempted last Friday. I have no idea how to help them. It’s not the first time, but they opened up to because they were really dizzy from blood loss when I texted. I don’t think there’s anything I can do to help, and my own mental health is so fragile. It’s a regular shitshow over here. Don’t get me wrong, I love them with all my heart and I’m not sure how I would live without them, but I’m not equipped to help. They need professionals, or at least someone who knows what they’re doing and isn’t fucking googling how to help. Yeah. So. Thank you. A lot. I hope your day is going well.

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4:52 I don't understand, I thought being the golden child meant you were treated respectfully and favorited over the others. 8:18 It takes a lot of courage to go up to your parents and tell them about your gender because you're afraid of the results. Are you trans/nb/genderfluid/queer/genderneutral/pang/2spirit/3rd gender/female/male?

@@2weird2be it means in this context you’re a really smart gifted talented kid

the therapist friend deserves a little- no, a LOT more respect and attention. they're always there for others, but nobody is there for them. they're human, too. im sorry you cried while watching this. its ok to cry, thats a normal human reaction. just let your emotions flow. the way your mom reacted to them leaving was absolutely terrible. thats not how parents are supposed to act when their child needs someone to comfort them. they're supposed to support and love them, not complain about online strangers. whoever that person you trusted and loved is doesnt deserve you. they probably left because you're too good for them ✨im here for you, dont worry. i may be another online person but i'll absolutely be your friend. if you need anything, you know where to find me. digitally. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I'm so sorry you have to go through this, it's tough losing a friend. Your mom should come and love on you not get annoyed and walk away. That's not what a mother should do. You are loved but you just don't see it, God loves you so much. You are his child and he hates to see his children cry. You are an amazing person, don't let anything bring you down. I am a therapist friend too, so I understand how you feel. But you just need to let your feelings out to someone. I will be praying for you to stay strong and get through this tough time.

@@fruityfrenchfries2808 thx this is the most support I have had in a long time thank you

@@alittlenobodydoinalilnothing No worries, God will always be there for you. I will pray for you to get better. I'll also pray that your mother can see you for who you are and love you and care for you like a mother should.

@@2weird2be thank you idk why but people online are nicer than the people ik irl even though there are some trolls in here I barely ever find them but I do find support and I'm happy people like y'all are so kind

Glad it was helpful ❤️️

Hi! I don't know if this really helps but, even if others have it worse, doesn't mean that your feelings are not valid. You're valid and you can express your feelings. Even if u think they're not really worth it to tell, it does help to let them out. Hope your day is going great, take care and feel free to vent if you want. Hope everything gets better!

You are not selfish, you are an amazing person. You can't see the way others see your smile. God loves you and that's all that matters. But you should not feel selfish, you need to love and care for yourself too, everyone goes through tough times, it doesn't matter if someone has it worse than you, your problems matter. Don't give up, you should open up to the person you trust or find a pen pal and just write your feelings down to them. Hey it doesn't even have to be a pen pal, you could just write a diary. I will be praying for you to stay strong and to get through this. You need to see that you are amazing, you matter, and that you are loved, even if it's by someone you don't know.

*thank Trixky_Annika for this* reason’s to stop sh: Family Friends Small talk with strangers The happy moments that only last a few seconds The smiles from small children The memories with animals Eating you favorite food The excitement of the fairs Vacations with your family Getting your first car Graduating highschool Getting into a good college Graduating college Starting your new career path Birthdays The smell of winter Hanging out with friends Job promotions Pumpkin Pie Thanksgiving Dinner Halloween Black Friday Movies Sleep overs Catching your dreams Binge watching on Netflix Homecoming Prom First Date First Kiss Christmas Morning Fireworks New Years New Discoveries Flowers Rainy Days Blankets coming out of the dryer on a cold morning New relationships A nice cup of tea Reading a good book Drinking coffee on an early morning The joy of being sarcacstic Hidden talents Small acomplishments Adeventure The mystery of the fog The fantasy of going to never land Baby showers Weddings The big blue ocean Inside jokes with friends Family reunions walking around with colorful fuzzy socks Being able to wear whatever you want around your house The comfortable silence between two people Doughnuts snow ball fights The tooth fairy Jumping over waves The pure laughter from someone Star gazing Being weird Being diffrent Being unqiue Being Yourself Listening to you favorite song Singing in the shower Being a complete goofball with your best friend Having a good personality The calm before any storm The sound of thunder Looking up at a full moon Imagination The feeling over proudness Baking The smell of coffee in the morning Writing Stories 2-3am talks with someone Rollercoasters Cookies Completing a hard task The sound of the fire cracking on a summers night Naps Walking in the words on a spring afternoon Jumping in leaf piles Climbing trees The moments when you say " Did everyone see that? Cause I am not doing that again" The feeling of wrapping yourself in a fuzzy and soft blanket The look of a made bed Watching the leaves fall Long warm baths The smell of fresh fruit Waking up to no alarm clock Never giving up Seeing a double rainbow Making one with your demons Seeing the sunrise Proving people worng Being able to take risks Being the light in every room that you walk into to, because no matter what people tell you you're amazing in every single way possible. Baby.. please don’t give up on everything and one Darling please dint go.. Please don’t Sh or starve or K!ll yourself.. It’s not worth it.. There’s people that love and care for you

KZfaq blocks the videos because of the music sometimes so I have to replace it 😕

@@G0RL, aw dang Do they block covers? You could try that

Nvm i found it, it's in the description "crushing weight"