My dad used to be awful towards me, and now he's being nicer it makes me feel worse. i want to be hurt so I feel valid.

2:45 me after hearing "The desire to be sicker, to prove that you are sick, itself is indicative of sickness. A well person doesn't desire to be sick."

here's a rough draft of a song im creating: tw gore and a sense of weakness and dread isn't livin a suicide mission, im feelin livid, cuz im just a random weirdo you shouldn't care about. why can't i cry why can't i shout, why is nothin comin out? feelin happy was a short spout, all the people say is "stop dont pout!" you should realy know know im in a dark place where i feel displaced i would feel good if i could susan, please shutup please stop talking i can't think rn, but i would never say that cuz i don't deserve respect, so cut me open cut me up, oh please rip and tear out every bit of gut, cuz i suck. burn me alive, make me starve, make me scratch out my heart, get rid of my brain eat up my eyes like they're little pies. cuz i guess based on this no one can hear my desperate cries so there's part of it for you

honestly idk if ill sound mean saying this but ive stopped venting to people because my therapist friend yelled at me about how annoying i am coming to her all the time and how i never let her vent but every time i asked if she was okay or if she needed to talk she said that she was fine, i was trying to help. and she said she didnt mean it after but i still dont want to annoy her or anyone with venting anymore cause i feel like ill get yelled at again

I was having a mental breakdown (still am actually) and i felt like it was a good time to let my friends know that they mean a lot to me, two of my friends who i hold very dear to me gave me plushies, and so those plushies always remind me of them I texted them both saying how those plushies help me feel better when im having a mental breakdown and one of my friends responded, and it made me cry even more because its like 2 am rn and this man still cares to respond and ask if im okay

why does bluey end up being so relatable that i end up crying bc of an animation with its sound 19:27

Im doing really good right now but i know as soon as school starts ima go back to my old habits

27:18 no but I was hanging out with my friends and she made me into a tellitubbie with my hair and we were hanging out near one of my crushes and she fixed my hair for me and literally said “ur hairs so soft” AHHHH YIPPIE

The only one i got sad or cried at was the cat one... I miss my Daisy. She's been in my profile picture for years. Sweet baby girl i hope if there's a heaven, she's there waiting for me. I found her just like the artist did.

Vent I haven’t seen my mom all summer and she finally made plans for me to go over but last minute she called and said she couldn’t come and pick me up because work which isn’t fair her boss is understanding so if she asked if she could leave early or take a different shift he would’ve said yes but she didn’t and now I’m here on my bed in tears

You are a god send for cutting out the outros of tiktoks I love you

I'm sorry to vent here but, this video seriously touched my feelings so I want to share my experiences My whole life I've never ever gotten any therapy or proper counceling for my crude behaviour towards myself and others, sometimes I felt invalidated by others just because I prefered to be alone and just draw by myself, in the end I'm just touch starved, I want someone to talk with, someone to hug me with proper feelings, until this one same classmate girl with glasses decided to be close to me and have a nice chat during lunch break, before we never meet again, she told me that I shouldn't be too hard on myself and put too much efford on others just to be validated, told me that I should treat myself better because not everyone is nice in this school, I still remember the things she told me and the things we talked about with each other, but too bad good things had to end, we've graduated together, just never meet again. I miss the good memories and I'll cherish her advice for life (Oh by the way I'm also a girl, with glasses. Just like her too, but our glasses were different) None of my classmates were this close with me. Boys, girls, anyone of any gender, they just don't. Except her. I miss my friend a lot, and I wish her to have a good life and future, I can't thank enough. She saved me from self harming situation that could lead me deeper down. Not even my mom and dad would give me this advice. I had so much to vent for but I think this one just resonates in my memory a lot more. Thank you good friend, I appreciate you.

3:19 literally my entire life

when i was a kidi have a really long hair but i dont remember how,me and my best friend got into a fight and she pulled my hair after that i thought that the problem between us is alrewdy done but in class when i was asleep she cut my hair a bit and my mom has to fix my hair and now my hair is short liks a boy

.POV:.your mom didn't come to your graduation..But its not a POV anymore..

4:10 I’m always left out in conversations..like..I never get to talk..I just wanna spend time talking with friends,instead I can’t talk to them at all and be left out. And I still love my life..

This is actually pretty good thanks :)

Seeing stuff is cool 👍 Edit: in my sleep :)

0:41 I am that friend and I can’t open up if I did that would be the look on my friends faces who only know be as that happy,loud and bubbly friend

I always give my friends my school lunch, it's better than throwing it away, then I'm wasting food, but my friends already have food, so technically I'm wasting food either way, but i can't seem to bring myself to eat it. The only thing I'm able to do in life is waste my mom's money, gosh I'm the worst

There was this one time in school. I was this close to trying… and I swear this girl saw right through me and just hugged me. I didn’t ask… but she patted my back and said, “you know it’s not good to hold in tears…” and right after that I just sobbed-

My dad looked at me and told me that if I came back he would send me back home to moms and never talk to me again........I love my dad sm

How's everyone feeling today ??? Sad ? Depressed ? Happy ? Vent here or just talk about your day !

I love my grandma. I don't know if she looks at me the same way. Not based on how she threatens to tell my secrets to other people, tell private things to distant family, yelling and cursing at me, or bodyshaming me. I feel bad because she's my grandma and she basically gives me things (clothes, books, etc.), it looks like I'm exaggerating to myself.

I didnt think I had a lot of trauma till I started watching these

Me when my childhood trauma doesn’t feel real so I deny the fact I might have D.I.D

If you’re getting better it’s A GOOD THING seriously you don’t have to keep yourself bad for ANY REASON there is no reason to get worse it will NOT HELP even with community or validation the happy you will find all that AND MORE the best things are yet to come it doesn’t matter what’s going on with OTHER PEOPLES journeys if you’re trying to get worse just have a self-awareness talk and think what’s going to happen and that is NOTHING HELPFUL

Me with more than one person every day: "Oh, I don't have anything to talk about, I'll just tag along!" "Just tagging along..." "Just tagging along..." "Oh! I have something to say, but other people are talking, I'll just wait!" "Waiting..." "Waiting..." "Perfect time! Say it, say it!" *someone starts a long conversation* "Oh.. Ok! I can wait!" "Waiting..." "Oh wait, I forgot what I was going to say, heh" "Tagging along" "Tagging along" "Oh wait! I remembered it! Let's tell it to everyone!" *gets ignored/nobody cares* "Oh..." *"NEVER TALK AGAIN"* *"NEVER TALK AGAIN"* *"NEVER TALK AGAIN"* *"NEVER TALK AGAIN"* *"NEVER TALK AGAIN"* *"NEVER TALK AGAIN"*

0:11 Legit me😊 0:28 Y e s . 0:59 I used to cut my thighs but got lazy, i can relate 1:27 I was too scared to ask for comfort for this exact reason 1:34 R e l a t a b l e, i barely eat. 3:18 4:01 4:10 4:19 The time my mother was with her ex Luis…. She punished me for every little thing that i commonly did….. I thought she hated me… 4:55 5:32

I can't stop thinking about it. My mum isn't even going to live to see me graduate...

The first one is so real

find your safe space, scream it out, cry it out, maybe find a new hobby that will let you express yourself, im not gonna say it gets better bc ur problems wont always magically disappear but i really hope it does drink some water, if you cant get up try counting to 3 and getting up or holding your breath until you get up You can do this.

Daily reminder. Your skin isn't paper so don't cut it Your body isn't a book so don't judge it Your body isn't damaged so don't hate it Finally Your life isn't a movie so please don't end it. Remeber you are loved and please don't hurt yourself. Love you!!

27:04 and just imagine you only shared a tiny bit of your past, thats when it hits hard

0:59 i'm 74 days clean. not because i *want* to be clean right now, but because everytime i have urges again and say i'm gonna, i end up being too tired to go through with it and sleep instead 😭 or i've just been distracted

3:44 this hits me hard sense I’m the youngest and when I was younger I always wanted to leave with my siblings bc we lived in a toxic household my dad is an alcoholic and my mom just had to watch while we all go hurt and as the youngest yes I am a bit spoiled but I have ptsd trama depression anxiety/ social anxiety and trust issues and I’m only 11/12 and all I want is care and love….

I HATE THE RANDOM MUSIC THAT IS NORMALY IN THESE COMPS!! ITS SO ANNOYINGG.

5:23 after hearing the life is strange sound, it brought me back to when i played the game😭

Seeing my cousins videos in these is weird. It’s weird how he’s kind of famous, and seeing ppl repost them is strange.. that’s off topic and I love the video.

6:41 so true but instead I hugged a stuffed animal and cried myself to sleep or I use my cat cus he knows I get broken easily

Wait…is seeing and making up demons that’ll comfort me more than other people..not normal?

Okay so this is only if you want to read it but I need to get it off my chest so here's a vent from when I was either 9 or 10 years old, TW: Abuse, fake friends. So one day I was playing some Fortnite with my brother, we were playing trios with his friend, we'll call him Adam, anyways Adam was very toxic and wanted me to die even when I did everything to be his friend, I even started to say "Yeah! $uck !t" when I got a kill in the game, just because he would say that. anyways back to the story, we had just finished a game when Adam had to get off and do something. My brother (14 at the time) Asked if I wanted to play box fights with him, I said yes because I didn't want to play alone. So we started playing and I kept "phasing" through his builds (AKA lagging through them) and that made him extremely pissed, so he threatened me by saying: "Oh my god stop! If you don't stop I will come in there and sock you in the face!" I laughed because I didn't think he was being serious. We played one more round and I phased through his builds again, I heard him slam his desk and then he stormed into my room and punched me HARD in the face, to the point where my headphones got knocked off. After a few minutes went by my sister came into the room (she was 12 at the time) and she asked me what happened, because I had tears streaming down my face. I told her that my/our brother punched me in the face, she said that she would go talk to him. (she had also brought me two quesadillas for lunch because I had asked her to) When she got back she just said something along the lines of: "Yeah he seemed pretty pissed off, sorry about that." But here's the thing: She didn't even hug me like, she just stood there, not even a single pat on the back. So yeah anyways, that was just a day's worth of trauma. Thx for reading, I've never really vented before so yeah. 🥲

One time when I was five my dad started beating up my mom and I didn’t know what to do so I just stood there until my sister heard but by that Tim my moms finger was broken and he had left I will never know why my dad started fighting my mom ,they still fight and I absolutely hate it I just feel like I wanna die and start a new life when my family’s NORMAL….

A concerning amount of these resonated with me- Uh-

I have a wonderful family however horrible mental issues. Why? School. Not just actual school, the people. I have suffered since kindergarten just for living. Everyone had always hated me no matter what I did. I was never good enough for people.

1:29 anybody know the song name?

“ womp womp “ if someone ever said that to me, they should be happy im gonna be dead tomorrow .

first one hits awfully close to home

“Genuinely what’s wrong with me and why people don’t play or talk with me” SO F*KING RELATABLE LIKE REALLY

9:10 there was random music lol

4:52 waiting for someone to even DARE to talk about this so i can express the same disgust to the person that thinks SA is "hot"

when i was a kid like 6 y/o befo i started to go to a new school because i transfer my only goal is to make 100 fiends or more but instead i got ghosted by everyone at school and have been lonly for 7 years. its been.. quiet since..when i finnaly have true friends now it feels so weird and i dont know how to communicate with them and its been hard

Mention of SA,SH AND SUICIDE My life isn’t even that hard. I just question why I’m like this. I bottle up feeling because I was told to as a child I still haven’t told anyone about my SH or SA experience with my geography teacher. I can’t and know that if I tell anyone it’ll spread like wildfire because That’s what always happens and I have to be the therapist freind of my group when I’m ripping to shreds myself but I always put them after me because I need them. I just don’t know anymore so uh.. I might attempt ig idk tho

the fact i was laughing abt how much of this i relate to honestly can be kinda scary, i don't want a panic attack but i don't wanna lie. what do i do?

13:43 gives vi and powder vibes

I don’t know what to do with my life anymore.

4:47 dude, I used to have a friend who did a really similar thing when I talked to her about my PE teacher SAing me, she literally went "I understand that what he did was shitty and disgusting but if a female teacher did that to me I'd find it hot"

i was watching this to try to get me to overthink and cry because I heard its hard to cry while listening to gangum style and I wanted to test it to see if it was true 😂

(Vent )Tw!: SH When im nervous i pick at my lips or ears until they bleed, i've been trying to stop doing it because I WANT to stop and its dangerous for me to do...

8:35

35:48 and 39:00 is the thing I relate to the most rn. My friends make fun of everything I do and they treat it as a joke. They make fun of my height my weight my hair my face and they call me dumb. Like what the hell am I supposed to do. They don't take me seriously because I guess I'm the so called "crackhead", so whenever I make a mistake they call me stupid and dumb autistic dead in the brain, and they laugh at that! Whenever I make a joke that I think might hurt them I apologize but they never think to do that! I want to stop being friends with them but if I do they'll hate me and I have no other friends to go to. I'm so desperate for friends that'll actually understand me, anyone relate?

37:25 i was 6 years old i was never the same after

0:07 how should I answer to this?

OMg the 5:41 scean is smth that I'm scard my toxic friend will do If I try to leave, I'v been thinking about cuting them off, but I don't want to do it for "no" reson (I can give more context if you want)

17:34 prob the one that can relate to the most people

3:23 anyone know song name?

26:07 same

1:13 "...I don't find u funny😐"

I thought I was alone.. I thought bo body had these issues. I'm not alone... I don't know if that's good or bad but I'm not alone

16:53 same

I genuinely have no idea what is hell is wrong with me. Why does no one like me. I'm always told I'm nice. I smile at people. I'm not racist or homophobic. I'm kind to new people. So why does everyone hate me. And yes everyone, I hate myself too. I haven't been clean, just hiding the cuts with bracelets claiming "it's for fashion" no it's because it's too fucking hot outside to wear a hoodie.

I fucking hate my life. But no one sees that I'm suffering! Im the therapist friend so of course Im fine! When I try to express myself there will always be excuses. And if I let it all out I would be in a mental hospital with my ED too. All by friends are skinnier and I look after my sister who has body image issues and not myself. I'm to scared to SH but that feels like the only way to numb the pain. Whats wrong with me?

3:20 I swear I’ve been looking for the same audio all day and I still don’t know the words from someone please respond. I don’t know where this is from. Someone tell me!

at 1:57 is that true you cant be a doc if you have them because thats sad

There’s random music in this video

32:58 ima lost child aren’t i

Is it bad that I’ve seen most of the videos in here 😅

19:02 I have to get an adhd test according to my teachers and others

9:08 random music?

No random music huh? Funny

1:50 Help i have the same problem 😅

4:46 is absolutely disgusting

4:10 song name?

I cut my hair and i still remember😢😢 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝕚 𝕙𝕒𝕥𝕖 𝕚𝕥

Not mebeing the funny loud bff

…no random music my ass-

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