Wait.. that's not _everyone's_ assumption?....oh dear :D

Hits close to home

My brain automatically goes to that place even though I KNOW they don't

@@alegria1813 same

its even worse when you know people are making fun of you

Where did you get your profile picture? It’s so pretty. Does it have a name?

idk bout ordinary lookin he kinda fly 😅

It's the reality most people have, they hide the pain so well, that one would ever expect it. Until you dig deeper and realize how awful they had it going. I know this feeling because it's how I live by daily. I act so natural that no one really thinks that I've gone through some heavy experiences until I mention them.

@@sirtangerine1465 I thought about this recently. In my country people share after hanging out for a while things that you wouldn't expect. Tragedy is everywhere and I hope everyone gets the healing they deserve.

I have the same issues this guy has... but im ugly af, my smile is horrible, social phobia, socially awkward... and no way i would have the guts to show me on a youtube video. This dude doesn´t look that bad in social situations just as me or any others who aren't the cute ones with the great smile many girls would get in love just like this dude... he is easilly at least an 8/10 looking

Same

Me too

This resonates with me alot lol.

The thought I always resort to that his comment seemed to be in a similar vein of was “I’m excited for other people who achieve life’s milestones or dive headfirst into their journey of fulfillment but I don’t know how to find my own fulfillment so nothing I ever do is enough.”

I’m a Caregiver for my grandmother and that gave me a sense of purpose until she passes someday (: Our fulfillments could be very little things, like parenthood, helping others/animals, adventuring, or something! Don’t knock yourself down, we have many days to live on this earth and we shouldn’t set fear/sadness for ourselves eventhough it’s very hard not to do sometimes! Do stuff you enjoy! It’s not a selfish act since others are doing it too!

Me too.. Not a gamer either

Me either... Why is this channel called health gamer I still wonder

@@slothochdonut3099 the guy is a gamer. The name has a ring to it though thats my opinion

its generally aimed at a gamer audience, using gaming terms and anecdotes/comparisons, and covering issues, illnesess and adictions for and in the gaming comunity@@slothochdonut3099

For those of you wondering he explains it once in a while It's called healthy gamer because he wanted to help people who he had felt are thrown to the side and the biggest group he found was "gamers" because he noticed how much society piled on people who so called themselves "Gamers" You don't have to be a gamer for his help to apply Maybe he has a video on it somewhere that explains it better

oh...the name makes sense now

@@ur-mom-gay its just a dumb name I thought of when I looked at my on-screen keyboard, where the key under the “Dock” key said “Fade” haha. it’s funny how everyone spells it Doc now haha

Lmao the nickname

Thank you for sharing your story Dock

Hey man, dr K isn’t doing his work to have a fun or relaxing time. If he wanted to have fun then he’d be taking a bubble bath instead of doing his job. So it’s okay for you to be ‘mana-draining’, I’m sure he was glad to listen or help you in a small way in your journey

Couldn’t agree more - I think having relatively “ordinary” people helps showcase the breadth of the issue and allows for most viewers to relate, almost as if they’re in the same seat talking with him.

Yeah, it's tough to relate to streamers who make 100k a month and have a perceived easy life

@@boggeshzahim3713 definitely. Not to say people with money do not have problems, but it seems like streamers often hover around the same issues.

@@boggeshzahim3713 it's hard to relate to their income, but that's basically it in my opinion. The issues are still the same as you in regard to social anxiety, etc. I promise you, making more money isn't a sustainable method of happiness and is short lived. I was essentially homeless before going to college and had less mental health concerns back then. I have a great job and own a business as well, the mental health concerns are as persistent as ever now. Mental health doesn't have a specific look or socioeconomic preference. It impacts everyone in the world. Cheers, brotha.

don't you guys think it would be more productive to have the guests not showing their face on stream like that? I feel like they get too self-conscious and can't relax properly to think through the tougher questions.

It may sound cheesy but I guess my jealousy for people with a "normal" family / private life has never turned into hatred, just ambition. It's something that a lot of people have talked to me about, asking if I'm very religious and similar because they don't understand how I am not a complete nihilist. I guess on the inside I am, on the account that I don't really emotionally feel much of anything anymore, but I still feel -something-, and I'll hold onto that for dear life. Thank you so much for your kind words, and sorry for the very late reply !

Do u feel at peace when numbing out ??

@@OurWonderland Well jealousy is normal when i lost my mom and seeing older women than my mom with their kids I would just cry and say, why do they have their mom and I don't. Like i would talk to GOD and tell him am i that un lovable that you took my mum when I am 23 and everyone having their mum at the age of 50 or 60 but after 1 year when I accepted her death that mindset looked foolish but that was my wounds and hurts talking.

Every sentence I was just going "hahaha ha ho, oh, oh no. Dear God it keeps getting worse"

​@OurWonderland sometimes I feel like there are people who have no resilience, and people who have high resilience. And then I'm someone who has an incredibly high resilience to having low resilience. Like I don't have the gritty determination kind of resilience where I keep on going, unhindered in the face of overwhelming adversity. I'm the guy who got easily beaten down six years ago, and am incredibly hindered and overwhelmed in the face of overwhelming adversity. But I don't give up, I kept going after being beaten down by life, kept going despite being down. Like, some people resist getting knocked down by life and go headlong into the storm both feet firmly planted on the ground. I got knocked down almost immediately and then in that knocked down state I am crawling forward. Barely clinging on, but still going. I'm repeating myself because it's such a hard feeling to convey properly. But I feel like it's the difference between someone who has 100 hitpoints and can completely resist the first three hundred damage they take, and someone with 100 hit points who can resist 500 points of damage _after_ they got easily knocked down to 1 singular hit point. Like you can hang on a long time but you're clinging to that last single hit point on the edge somehow despite getting half the world thrown at you every day, and you're still just there with 1 hitpoint despite it, rather than shrugging everything off everything going on at a full undiminished capacity with full health until they get knocked down. I envy that, because even though I might have gone through twice as much as them and am still hanging on, I did it at rock bottom scraping my face along rock bottom pressed into the ground. While they made it through the first half at full capacity and feeling good about it, and enjoying the challenge rather than suffering from it. Ya know they broke after doing law school in two years and burning out. And sure I survived twice as much, but I'm here like "I took two classes this term, and I had enough energy to brush my teeth and form complete sentences". Some people are getting to burn the candle at both ends, I was melted and heated at a high temperature without oxygen so I just kinda sat there as a sad puddle decomposing into carbon without the cool double hot flames.

I’m glad you have that perception of me, thank you !

@@OurWonderland I think there’s a very important lesson to be learned in life. And that’s How to not let others opinion influence your self worth. Being open, question your actions, calibrate yourself through interaction of others. But your self worth is separate from that. Constantly trying to remind myself to that. I can relate to a lot of things you said. Und ich bin auch als Ausländer in Deutschland aufgewachsen. Hab viele Marokkanische Freunde, aber marrokaner können oft auch sehr unangenehm sein - vor allem Männer 😅 das interessante ist, auch wenn du dir vielleicht alleine vorkommst, es gibt Millionen von Menschen, die ne beschissene Kindheit hatten. Will sagen, Du bist nicht allein.

@@OurWonderland Seriously man, it's incredible how much you went through in your life, how much suffering and hurt you had to endure and yet you haven't grown bitter and joined the dark side, but you are clearly full of kindness and love even if it's sometimes hard to feel. And you very apparently have enough hope inside you to actually be brave enough to try to heal, so seriously, if anyone has a right to feel proud of themself it's you. I have so much respect for you and there is clearly a light in you that no one managed to put out. I wish you the best luck in life and I am 100% convinced somebody with your balls and resilience will find an exciting main quest and live a life worth living. Viel Glück und liebe Grüße nach Deutschland aus den Schottischen Highlands!

@@OurWonderland You are one of the strongest and kind-hearted people I have ever seen. Stay strong brother.

He got a lot of bad RNG but also got a very good one - he had a sister that he had to take care of and protect. He has a very high sense of responsibility, sometimes unhealthy (like if you blame yourself for almost everything bad that happens) but still very admirable and desirable than having that whiny victim mindset bs. RESPECT. You are a Survivor, a Warrior. You live to tell your tale. But live the fullest by playing your main quest. You will leave a dent in the universe, no doubt about that.

Same man

same here too

same

Y'all need Jesus

i think you can have bad days, but its important to always love yourself as you are (and still be able to tell if you can improve and better yourself, i dont think its conflicting, you can do both at same time)

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@@starwarfan8342Best comment😂

Those types of teachers don't deserve to live to begin with

Everyone has different perspectives,we can't always understand.their behavior. Trauma can shape us into ugly people.

My uncle did this to me while my dad(my abuser) was dying. Yea my dad wasn’t that great but it didn’t mean I wasn’t going through hell.

As do you, thank you man it means a lot, truly

It’s because God has put it in our heart to reach out to Him for prayer and justice. Thank you for your comment. I pray to God for his healing and for all blessings for him and for you as well in Jesus’s Holy Name, Amen. 🙏🙏

This is nice :)

@@OurWonderland they definitely do

Nice profile picture

true.

100% agree. This is more like a real session and actually the first one I watched beginning to end. very likeable guy and I felt alto of compassion for his story. its seems like a great achievement he became such a genuinely nice person even though all his role models seem to have treaten him poorly

@@schigeraXD i think you are being too harsh here, you can still have problems while being rich

@@schigeraXD aight, can see where ur comin from

I wish I hadn’t been so nervous, I think i was talking pretty fast so I’m sure many people had trouble listening at some point, regardless, I’m glad you feel that way ! :) I try to tell my experiences in a way that almost disconnects it from me so it’s more enjoyable to listen to rather than just uncomfortable so it’s good to hear it’s working (until I cried haha)

@@OurWonderland it was great to hear, crying did not detract from how you presented yourself at all

@@OurWonderland Thank you for telling your story here. It might sound a little weird when I say inspirational, but I found it interesting. Lots in common, it took me about 10 seconds to guess that you only grew up with a mother. I come, also from Germany. Same, past, traumatic experiences, except that I wasn't confronted so strongly with death. The urge to help others and feel responsible. The feeling of playing a different person in front of others in order to be more compatible. Good to know that there are more chameleons running around.

@@OurWonderland Congrats bro, you´re a real survivor and you should be really proud of it (I think all of us think the same). Keep it up!

He was so good that in this episode Dr. K actually spoke very rarely, I think I never saw Dr. K just listening for so long. Usually people need some additional questions for them to tell relevant information, but in this case Dock knew what to do

That's interesting. I have a thing where I can start desperately babbling too, especially when I am tired or nervous etc. I always imagined it being "afraid of silence", even thought I didn'treally know why, but the way you describe it sounds more accurate. Trying to throw everything in there all at once in the hope that they will find 1 interesting thing in there. Which means that I'm already expecting that none of it will be interesting. That explains some things for me, thanks!

@@YesJellyfish i guess there’s some truth to it either way. like, when you’re afraid of silence it’s not the silence itself but rather the thought of ppl - during this silence - realize you’re boring. so u fill the void with just anything to not let that happen.

@misterduke yea you're right. Even though ironically it makes the conversation more superficial, when people don't get a second to think about what we say. Not sure what to do about this yet, but I guess awareness is the first step!

@@YesJellyfish damn I've written an answer before but it got deleted for some reason, so let me try again: currently we're more and more living in a world in which people are eager to tell you how great they are and lack listening skills. to make yourself more valuable try to train yourself to listen more and answer only the needed amount that is necessary and try to filter out all the fillers that u might use. if someone asks you how you are , you don't for example respond with "yeah well I'm okay I guess, just yesterday my mother said ...... " followed by a long monologue about your past couple of days and your thought process to kind of "explain" why you didn't say "I'm great". but rather you answer with just how you feel at that moment. and btw, it's totally okay to wait a few seconds before answering so you notjust babble whatever comes to mind but you really think about how to respond. the more you say as a filler to fill the silence, the more you "present" yourself to others and the more you "give out" to others even tho nobody asked for it. what this does? it undermines the value of what you say. ever had a friend who never really opened up in a conversation and just said the bare minimum? you might feel you want to know more but you don't get that info so you're eager to keep on trying cause it seems what this person could tell u might be interesting. the reverse way is, that you might know someone who talks like a waterfall and what that sometimes does to us is like "oouuukay well, nuff said, let's try to make him stop". so they aren't that interested in what you have to say anymore. hope that makes sense to you. :) btw. ppl fill the void usually themselves with stuff. when someone is lying to you and you just respond with silence and look at that person, chances are they explain further and further cause they don't feel comfortable with the silence. try it out.

ADHD

also made it "ok" for him to cry with his own fake drying tears with the tissue. dr. k is a bastard lol.

@@oscarlohens8586 you really need a therapist lmao.

@@telmobrito519 he’s got some major trust issues lol

I completely agree

yes

We all are in this earth together and we wanna find out who we are besides the influence of people. If you are different than average we are so ashamed of ourselves. How are we suppose to be authentic when I know me being me won't be accepted.

@@randomshots2023 There will be someone who likes you the way you are. And the other are maybe not your group of people and it is okay. Same here. And I know many people, men and women, like this.

And I hope so have you, I also have come to associate negative outward emotions with alienating behavior so it’s hard for me to not dissociate when I feel them coming. I wonder if you’ve experienced something similar (I.e. not wanting to cry or even appear sad or upset because you know those around you will not know what to do and get uncomfortable)

​@@OurWonderlandI know exactly what that's like. Your uncle sounded just like my aunt. And I had another experience where I was alienated by people because I talked so much about my worries and traumas. But, you need support. So, it's important that you have someone you can be honest with and communicate that to without fear of abandonment. I was fortunate enough to find someone like that in my life. I hope you have someone like that too.

I had that. Then it was eventually proven to me that I am the least desirable. Don't know why... I thought I did well :( I also think that they really are just pathetic apes. Nothing that wrong with me.

Wow that statement really resonated with me. I'm actively working towards just enjoying the moment and loving life rather than being too scared to enjoy anything. Its hard to do after having so many things feel as if they just left to the wind. Well stated 👏

All we have is the moment. It’s hard to accept

That sounds like a lot to deal with. You're right though. It's not your fault. Thank you for sharing

Keep going strong, man, you’re incredible

My father was also murdered when my mother was pregnant with me. My mother commited suicide last year. Didn't think I'd ever see someone with a similar story.

So sorry to hear that

@@shinjite06 why was he murdered

I feel like it would be much more productive to NOT have the person on camera though, just the voice sound. I believe the guest would feel more at ease and would be able to relax more, for the tough questions or meditating sections that require focus. The doc need to see their face though, to read their reactions of course, but just don't show their face on stream. My two cents anyway, I could be wrong

@@FeelingShred I feel like it kind of depends on what you mean by productive. Because for the interviewee, it may be "more productive" for it to be offline. But as an audience to be able to see and connect a reaction and the emotion. I would suggest try both only listening to an interview, and watching one with focus (not multitasking). I have done both and found value and understanding in being able to see there face.

@@FeelingShred Well if this person didn't want to be on camera, im sure he would've asked to not be on camera

Streamers know they still have an audience so keep their facade to a noticeable (to me) degree. The last handful of steamers have revealed very little of anything truly vulnerable unless it’s couched in something like, I’m so busy with my successful endeavor and it’s causing issues. Pretty admirable problem in capitalistic society so it doesn’t count

Normal is relative to your perception, remember that.

they visited me every day and instead of just offering to talk about it and making things awkward, they treated me just like they always would, they'd ask about what happened and how i felt but they wouldn't go out of character for it, and they wouldn't stop being themselves, they brought normality into my broken daily routine and really saved me from the darkest of thoughts, I will write their names on my grave, I'm almost crying as I'm writing this, I really love them, you're right haha

@@OurWonderland thank you for putting yourself out there, your courage to tell your story on here has changed my life and many others, sending a virtual hug your way

Imagine if you're wrong about him, where does your courage to judge fellow man come from?

It's not that deep

Do you talk of your struggles with your head held high and a loud voice? If so, you are special. Most people have trouble talking of their struggles.

Alaine Rook Kitsunev If you talk about anything with a loud voice and a "head held high" you're fucking special lol

@@LordFakmorIII He told us his entire life story in the video.

not advertizing or anything just giving my opinion - Try Healthygamers coaching , my coach calls me bro :D we have great proffesional relationship + it works :)

@@Bibituu can you tell me a bit more about the coaching program? I do have a therapist so idk if I’ll actually sign up, but I just want to know your perspective as someone who uses it :)

@@Bibituu I would be interested too. I was thinking of signing up for coaching for couple of months now

I'm not doing well nowadays, going through a rough patch in my family life once more, so I went back to this video to read through the comments, and yours made me cry. Thank you, I can not see myself like this but it still felt good to read. I notice now, more than ever, that one of my biggest problems is that I seek for approval constantly, but fail to accept or internalize it when it is given. So many people have been so incredibly kind to me in this comment section, you especially, that part of my brain sees it as a fact that I have likable traits, but it's like there's another part that simply denies me from being able to actually believe it on an emotional level.. Sorry for rambling, it just felt good to type it out haha, I hope you're having a wonderful weekend, thank you so much for your kind words!

@@OurWonderland are you doing fine? Has things got better?

@@OurWonderland Dock, I hope you're doing okay and hopefully still in therapy. Please know that even when things are rough, you are still a valuable person. I hope that you recognize that, just by being present here, by being vulnerable, you likely helped a great number of people who watched this, helped people realize that they can get help, that there are others like them with "unbelievable" stories, and know that someone out there understands. Your willingness to be vulnerable is an act of kindness in and of itself. Please take care and I wish you the best

Yeah he looks like a chad.

@@OurWonderland ich hoffe es geht dir besser, ich war schockiert wie viele schlimme Sachen hast du erlebt. Ich hab gemerkt du lachst immer wenn du erzählst über Menschen und Situationen, die dir am meisten weh getan haben. Das ist so zu sagen nervös Lach, wo du versucht deine Emotionen zu unterdrucken, anstatt zu weinen. Allerdings ich wünsch dir alles bestens, ich hoffe du bekommst Hilfe, die du brauchst. LG

yeah, same. i don't relate to his traumas but other problems he mentioned felt so close to home. i hope everything always will work out for him.

What am I supposed to do to escape this abyss of despair, self-hatred, darkness, loneliness and depression? I have no escape, no paths out that I can see. I have been TRAPPED in a hell for at least the last 5 years since high school ended. I have nobody and no purpose. I have nothing going for me, no career, no prospects. I haven't had a romantic relationship since high school and I've lost everyone I ever felt feelings for, and they don't care about me remotely. I feel hollow.

@@dawn-blade No joke, reread your comment, if this is what you are thinking, that is the first thing you need to change! You are still young, friend.

Being bullied is definitely your own childhood trauma, dear commenter!

@@dawn-blade Turn to Jesus Christ. I'm serious here. Faith is the only reason I didn't go mad yet. God has everything under control even when all is falling apart around us. I got bullied, infatilised, have health issues which render me useless at times and yet, thanks to Jesus, I can still have hope. I can keep on going and living my life regardless of how worthless my issues make me feel. I don't try to force the faith on you, I only ask of you to at least consider to try. Believe me, you'll lose nothing and honestly you'll gain more than you may bargain for. May Jesus Christ bless you! Hope you'll live a good, fullfilling and happy life.

FACTS!! I actually laughed out loud at this 😂

I agree without a doubt but why not both? That way we see the sheer amount of exact same problems, whether rich, mediocre or poor money earner ^^

@@simonshura9144 Thats why I said "more" and not "only" :)

Fewer

guess what lol

He's not that useful if you don't want to join his religion, join his online cult, then buy his lead pills.

Girl get up. Do better. He has all the resources available

Breaking down your mental hurdles with a sledgehammer made of words

Sometimes therapy is quite analogous to surgery. Sometimes you have to get cut open so someone can fix what's inside, and it takes a bit to recover, but in the end it's for your betterment.

@@ZephirumUpload that's a wonderful analogy

Algorithm overlords knows you better than anyone alive. I ended up here for the same reason. Heil Algo 😂

Same here 🤷🏼‍♀️

❤❤❤❤

He is in his healing journey though. He is good

Kenn ich leider.

I got the sense it was very important to Doc that people could relate. I also got the sense he didn't believe people would be able to relate. I think that is drastically untrue. "laughing through the pain" is a great example of something people would be able to relate too.

Extremely uncommon among reptiles

@@aokiri3064 You. I like you.

Same here and I hate how obvious defense mechanism it is but I do it automatically :d

I felt the same way but maybe Dr. K. was worried about him completely dissolving so they couldn't continue the conversation. I don't know.

Or maybe he could tell that he would feel uncomfortable crying based on what he said earlier. Like he said. He didn't expect him to say yes, but maybe Dr. K was thinking, "im going to give him the option, even if I think he will let it happen."

I felt the same but Dr. K. is just a human being like us and sometimes you are overwhelmed by the situation. Dr. K. is a very smart, great person. A great Dr with a big heart, I think that's what makes him so valuable. ❤

I mean, that comment right there sounds like a humble brag, which i guess can be narcissistic

... my mind is very unhelpfully supplying "but making them happy makes me happy and fullfilled so im selfish no?"

@@moonsaer the good kind of selfishness, we wouldn't seek relationships if they didn't give anything back to us. Those aren't friendships if it's only one way give take situation.

It's not a matter of less or more self awareness at that point though. He has heavily biased self awareness, not objective self awareness. Which still translates into Lack of self awareness

it does kind of come off as a brag, but I think self awareness is as much as curse as it is a blessing.

You put that really well!

Frrr

Exactly!

She made her choice, and we know what she wanted. Should we hate the murderer? I don't know. Because it's a giant morally grey area.

@@lumberluc you would hate the muderer of your mom

@@lumberluc why should we hate murderers in general? I think hate is not the right emotion for this

Sometimes it’s hard to.. I’m not really scared of coming off as weak, as much as I’m scared that if I get too negative about these things at times, people just won’t want to have me around anymore haha..

@@OurWonderland It's you who is injured and in pain, it's you that needs to be taken care of not us doc. It's you who needs to be treated gently after all the trauma you've been through, it's you who needs a big hug and a good long cry. None of what you've been through was your fault, it could've happened to any of us here. But look at you, you're worried that your trauma will make people feel uncomfortable? what about you? feeling uncomfortable is the least of our worries when YOU doc went through all of that. Some of us wish we can share some of your pain to lift a bit of that heavy weight you carry. The way you feel about your sister, the way you want to take care of her and protect her is what you deserved too. How beautiful it is that after all of that pain and trauma you went through you were able to still be there for your sister and your friends. Not only did you survive but you were still able to provide and protect and be the father to her that you never had. I don't know if you realise how beautiful you are doc, you're a beautiful human being. You're like a gem that's been carved from a stone by all the hardships of your life. Sorry for being cheesy lol. But that's honestly how I feel. I hope you realise how precious you are. You already are a gem, you don't need more hardships and carving so you should enjoy the second phase of your life.

Danke dir für deine lieben Worte, ich weiß meistens nicht wie ich auf so nette Kommentare reagieren soll aber ich schätze sie ungemein haha

Deine Story hat mich echt berührt! Ich wünsche dir auch das aller Beste! Du verdienst es!

Hey UnderDock, ich fand es auch voll cool deine Story zu hören, gib uns mal n Update wie es dir jetzt geht.

Grüße aus FFM

@@OurWonderland ganz liebe Grüße auch von mir. Wurde auch für mich emotionaler als ich dachte. Danke für teilen und ich hoffe dir geht es gut!

they probably came sooner but it felt like an hour to him. this is his subective memory, after all.

@@aednil I’m the one being interviewed, police theoretically arrived 15 minutes later, however they didn’t believe me and thus only sent a standard patrol car, when they saw corpses in front of our entrance, they drove back and sent more police men with the big guns.

@@OurWonderland ah, ok. thanks.

@@OurWonderland hey man appreciate sharing this overwhelming yet moving story you had to live through. Hope the rest of your life turns out great.

i was in detroit and i called the police and i got no answer, so yeah some places are just fucked, still love detroit though but you cant count on police for nothing here

I know exactly what part you're referring to, without clicking the timestamp. What an incredible moment...

man i felt pain and happiness at the same time. like a wild river that was so fun to float on

I'm fairly new to these videos, and it was this moment I said to myself, this guy is a genuinely good person. I liked him already but this moment really spoke so much about who he is for me.

Yeah, it sounds more like superiority complex to compensate for feelings of inferiority.

@@bombkangaroo how to not feel guilty when i feel good, and develop real self steem/self worth

@@bombkangaroo thats literally called vulnerable narcissism though

@@j.2512 he doenst strike me as a vulnerable narcissist, he doesnt seem to envy other people or having them in their life with toxic behaviours

@@j.2512 Even if this comment is a few months old, I'm going to put this here as I am one of the people who relate to this video and has had this being a theme going on in my life In my opinion and experience , this isn't a fair, and possibly damaging thing to just resort to Narcissism as a disorder whether vulnerable or grandiose has a single common element, being a disregard for other people I've found that some people are very quick to assign this label without actually knowing anything about what is going on. And if you have a low self esteem you're less likely to defend yourself and it just perpetuates when these people make up their mind and see you as a monster Ironically with little regard for the person who has been assigned as a manipulator This is the exact reason it should be left to a professional

I kind of do the same thing. Even my "emotionless" relatives see that as abnormal

is Dr. K a chiropractor for your emotions? lol

@@therearenoshortcuts9868 ?

The sad thing is he doesn’t hide it for himself, he feels compelled to hide it so we’re not uncomfortable.

I actually done this in therapy all the time to the point my therapist told me she had to make a note not to laugh along with me. She kept catching herself wanting to chuckle along before she realised it was just enabling a defence mechanism I had of laughing off bad shit. She said she still struggled sometimes because it can be infectious and instinctive to want to smile and laugh back. I think, for me, even if I’m open about how awful I feel, part of me wants to laugh about it to keep others comfortable around me.

Human love is overrated, in real terms it has less value than dog shit. Instead you should love material things. The dire circumstances of my birth, and subsequent experiences have toughened me up to the point where I don't need human love, all I need is IMMENSE wealth and possessions

@@PSYCHIC_PSYCHO Then I feel sorry for you.

@@adventofknowledge It is YOU who needs sympathy for being EXTREMELY mentally weak so as to need human love.

I can really relate with everything you said. I have a plan on how to try to climb out of this hole, I just hope I have the strength and resolve and courage to do the things I must.

@@PSYCHIC_PSYCHO a fitting username if nothing else. Let us know how that works out for ya. Trying to feed an endless pit. Word of warning though... its never gonna be enough. All that wealth, those fancy cars, lavish homes, the adoration of your lessers, respect of your peers, acknowledgement of your betters. It will never be enough. It'll all disappear into that endless pit of a soul you've dug for yourself as a defense mechanism. An endless hunger that'll end up consuming you. If I were you (and I kind of am) I'd go for the heart of the issue. Long ago you were deprived of that human "something" that we all need. So you convinced yourself you were above it all. (You're not) "Fancy Stuff" isn't a replacement for it. I get that it's scary to open up and trust someone else after being hurt and betrayed before. But what other choice do you realistically have? The enternal grind of wealth isn't really an option. Because it doesn't end well

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that caught me off guard as well 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Beautiful comment 💚

beautiful way to put it

Technically they responded in about 10 - 15 minutes but they immediately retreated the moment they saw the corpse, I’m guessing they didn’t believe me and came unprepared, then sent a new team..

@@OurWonderland I can relate so much to how you are and how you have been shaped. I have same very naive male attention focused mother, my father a bit violent and narcissistic. Not even close to what you've been through, but i came out very similar - I can't really find a goal except of kind of service to others and such a deep hole of being unlovable. I need some follow up - please let us know how you doing!

I’m from Brazil. There it could take more. Unfortunately only in America I experienced police showing up fast