Oh wow, I hope you feel some relief soon. I'm beginning to wonder if I'll ever be okay. There are some good days but mostly it's a struggle. Keep us updated!

@@KristyLeeVlogs I have a stubborn husband of 42 years who is just now accepting that he needs to stop pushing my buttons because it is killing me. He did not understand or care to understand how I needed to be treated and would say hurtful things to me. I will no longer take that and he knows it so he is changing in leaps and bounds lately. :) It has been a long road and I am at the point now where I only allow very few people into my circle who treat me with kindness and respect. I no longer will tolerate friends or family members pushing my buttons to try to get a rise out of me because it’s just cruel. But it took way too long to get to this point so I am urging you to set up boundaries with people and explain to them exactly what you need from them, what they need to overlook and what hurts you. It looks like you are doing a good job of this and for that I am so proud of you. It is hard to be vulnerable and show the Harsh side of Anxiety and depression, But you are doing it. I just wanted to let you know that I’m thinking about you and I understand what you’re going through. I also wanted to let you know that I am sending one of your videos to my adult son to tell him I feel exactly like you do. I don’t often show how I’m really feeling inside, so people don’t realize how sick I really am until I blurt out a horrible comment to them or don’t show up to a wedding. So thank you for showing yourself on a bad day because that’s very difficult to do and so very brave. I have not seen my granddaughters for four years because my daughter-in-law is rude to me, which I do not tolerate from anyone let alone family members who should understand to be more gentle with me. So even though I don’t get called Nana anymore, I still feel like one and I’ve always loved being around young people because they don’t judge as much and accept me for who I am. Thank you again sweet girl. Love, Nana

Nana, I am so proud of you for standing up for yourself! I still struggle with it at times but I am so much stronger than I once was! I'm also very happy to hear your husband is softening and becoming more understanding, it's a HUGE deal! Thank you so much for your kind words and loving support, I'm so glad to have you here!

@@KristyLeeVlogs Hi sweet girl, just wanted to check in with you. I had my 8th Ketamine IV Treatment yesterday and the Dr bumped up the dose. I am having a great day today. I have hope, but have had hope before, only to have the meds “poop” out and stop working. But I will enjoy this day and go in my art room and paint! I hope you are feeling the sun on your face today. Love, Nana :)

I'm so glad you're having a great day and I hope so much that it continues to work for you! I know what you mean about the meds losing their affect. And it sucks. But hopefully this will be different!