BPD vlog: finding myself & my relationship

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11 жыл бұрын

Hey everyone,
I am finally vlogging again! It feels really good. In this one, I talk about finding myself and what I want to do with my life. I'm also talking about love and my lovely partner. She might be in videos from now on.
Hope everyone is doing well and you like the video!
Love,
Bas
P.s. Just so you know the two of us have started a film review channel together. Just having loads of fun and it might be a nice distraction :)
Link:
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Music in the video: The song is Creative Commons and available for anyone to use. It's from CCmixter.org: 2025 by Astroglider

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@beckynetley5259 10 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for your honestly. Whenever I feel alone with my illness I turn to your videos.

@BE1NGWR0NG194 10 жыл бұрын

It's been a really bad day, massive anger, upset... Woke up now just after horrific nightmares but I know there's hope. I am at the most positive place in my life, I am kicking ass at University and I have a really serious and respected job. Makes me feel better when I feel so alone in moments such as this knowing that there are others who experience these same pains.

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

Thank you Effy. It's great to read these kind of comments :) You can send a pm if you want to. I'm trying to read and write to them but sometimes it takes me some time. Hope that's ok.

@BestAtNothing 11 жыл бұрын

I'm so happy you're in a happy place.

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

Thank you for your advice. I will do that :) Most of my ideas come when i do the dishes for example. No pressure, that's the best way.

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

Nowadays i get more and more how difficult it is to understand for someone else. Wish you the best!

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

Thank you! :) And thank you for your support.

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

Hi Alice, i was really moved by your comment. Next video will be that video you requested. Take care :)

@rachaelfam6073 11 жыл бұрын

I am newly diagnosed with BPD. Your videos make me feel less alone. Keep making videos;you're awesome!

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much! Such a sweet comment!

@kotathatsme 11 жыл бұрын

You're one of my rolemodels in that you talk so openly, honest and in such a down-to-earth way. (and you're Dutch too!) I'm so happy things are going good for you!!

@Livebreatheatsleep 11 жыл бұрын

AH! I am so Glad to see Amy. I have been SUPER worried about her. This made my day. So happy for the both of you!

@cosmicpolitan 11 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing, Bas. So happy you are doing well!

@sophiaahamed 11 жыл бұрын

I dont even have BPD and I love your videos! Always find them so useful! your so full of life Bas! Makes me happy to see you happy

@belladonnabakes 11 жыл бұрын

Thank you for continuing to make videos! I feel like it always inspires me to see someone else progressing on their journey with BPD. Helps me continue on mine.

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

Well, being creative means time for me and who i am. Finding and being myself. It is something i need and it makes me feel better and capable of handling things yeah.

@janissecabrera8569 11 жыл бұрын

Hey Bas! I've been watching your videos for a while now...I just wanted to let you know that what you are doing is an amazing way to share and help others understand what personality disorders are all about. I'm glad you are doing great! keep up the good work! PS: If you ask me, i would say you are an a great artist...take all the time you need to figure out what really makes you happy. Best luck to you!

@allieren 11 жыл бұрын

I've just started watching your videos. I also have BPD, and it is really helpful for me to see these videos because I don't know anyone else who has it. It's really inspirational to me to see that you're doing so well. Thank you for sharing your videos. :)

@disiluzhund 11 жыл бұрын

A very sweet video. Creative-wise, try to be patient with yourself. I'm a writer and it took several years for me to learn how to let the creative moments happen by making them. I used to think I need undivided time to do it and then I learned that you have to steal those moments.... at dinner, on a late Friday when friends are interacting... when your lover is asleep.... It will happen... be patient and be open to seeing those moments when they call to you.

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

I wish you all the best too! It's a struggle but we'll get there.

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

Thank you Rachael, hope you are doing ok with this news.

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

That's a great idea :) I'm trying to find out more and more how to combine it. I'll find a way.

@TheOtherHolly 11 жыл бұрын

First off, I'm always glad to see a video from you, Bas. Thank you for making it. Secondly, you two are absolutely adorable! Congrats on your relationship. And lastly, I can definitely relate to what you were saying about finding yourself, because it's something that I'm struggling with too. I wish you the best.

@earthlingmeow 11 жыл бұрын

Its good to see you happy Bas, I've missed your videos.

@ChacingBugs 11 жыл бұрын

Very happy for you! Finding an understanding partner is something all us BPDs can only hope for.

@mirandar2005 11 жыл бұрын

Heey Bas! Thank you so much for all your video's! I just found your video's recently, I am watching them all!! Please keep up the good work!!!! Keep posting!

@karrieyo8739 10 жыл бұрын

I am in that journey to find myself. I want to do things a good for myself. Want to have a change in my life: find therapy here in South America (almost impossible ), new kind of job, a better relationship, go traveling at last.

@waveofthoughts 11 жыл бұрын

you and me and everyone else, is here for a reason..to learn,express,and help others.to find our identity. listen and learn,forfill your dreams and desires and let not the head make the final decision..let all your important thoughts filter through your heart,,cause the heart never lies..humans do. and when a weak thought comes in catch it and toss it away.You've got better things to do.

@TheMaxine101 11 жыл бұрын

Aww! You guys are a cute couple! I'm happy for you two, and I'm glad things are going good with you.

@Livlovfallaughmoveon 11 жыл бұрын

Ah! I'm so glad you are back! Ur vids are the best

@Rainbowzz1 11 жыл бұрын

Yeah cool :) I'm glad to hear you are doing well, too :)

@tankgirl79 11 жыл бұрын

Hey. I really like your videos. Great that you are into doing creative stuff, I find it really helps me too. Good luck finding your path. Very sweet at the end of the vid! :)

@mariaclara0384 11 жыл бұрын

REALLY happy for you!!!!!!!!

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

That's fantastic! Really happy to hear that things are going well! :)

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

Thank you!!

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

Yeah it took some time huh :) Glad to be back!

@Ikimification 11 жыл бұрын

Good to see you! I am glad you are happy in your relationship. I hope we all find ourselves this year. I know what you mean I think. Hugs from Canada.

@cameronblaze92 11 жыл бұрын

Geweldige video Ik heb ervan genoten!

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

Thank you, we really are :)

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

Thanks! :)

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

Yes, she does.

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

Aww thank you :)

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

Glad to hear that the videos helped. Hope you had a nice easter :)

@clover12oli 11 жыл бұрын

This is so great!! So good you're doing well. :)

@NotFamousKid 11 жыл бұрын

It's good that she understands it then ^^ great video Bas proud of you

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

Thank you :)

@Rainbowzz1 11 жыл бұрын

THE END WAS ADORABLE!!!!

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

:) thank you Kate

@bandgeek96100 11 жыл бұрын

So happy that you're doing well :)

@surrendersweet 11 жыл бұрын

Oh and it's so awesome that you're with Amy!! I've been wondering how she's been :)

@VIK_1903 11 жыл бұрын

Gosh. It took a lifetime Bas! REALLY glad you're back though.

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

:) thank you!!

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

Yeah, let's do it together!

@remymom 11 жыл бұрын

I am very happy for you...sometimes when you least expect something to happen it does and you meet the love of your life...life is funny that way...we need to remember that when things are not going good....something could happen tomorrow that will change me forever...

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

I get you. It's hard. I'm trying to write songs but the thing in the way is (only) me. Hope you're doing ok.

@surrendersweet 11 жыл бұрын

Bas, you're awesome! :)

@waveofthoughts 11 жыл бұрын

the older you get the more you realize how short life is.i used to be lost in my emotions,went to therapy and read a book that explained the ego /emotions/and how i let a quarter size area of thought,control my life.we are unique..only one fingerprint.according to quantum..nothing is solid..emotions are only needed for protection,love fear and only for that time. not to be used on idle thought. look to the sky..no worries,no lables no expectations.and neither is your soul,that lives inside you.

@cherrybelle7956 5 жыл бұрын

I love your videos your really good and doing great xx

@sing365bytwinklytus6 8 жыл бұрын

you both so cute! thanks so much for sharing, that takes so much courage to be able to share so much, thank you ! :-)

@TravisTi 11 жыл бұрын

Great Video! Glad things are getting better for you and congrats on your new relationship! Your videos have always been a great inspiration to me. Maybe in a future vlog, you can talk about your girlfriends view towards your bisexuality. I know many girls, at least in the states, have a huge problem dealing with that and I would be curious to see what yours thinks.

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

I am happy yeah :)

@disiluzhund 11 жыл бұрын

@sophiaahamed My sentiments exactly!

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

Awesome!! Congratulations :D

@xxILoveSpencerReidxx 11 жыл бұрын

Hi there, I really love your videos. I find them really helpful and comforting; it's nice to see someone who has BPD explaining things on a more personal level. I watch your videos a lot and have even recommended them to my friend. I hope to talk to you on a more personal level sometime-get different suggestions and stufff. Stay safe and well!

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

Thanks man :)

@MeAndMyBlackTable 11 жыл бұрын

Yeah ofcourse i remember :D great to see you again! How have you been?

@at0micuniverse 11 жыл бұрын

youtube ate my comment. Basically: did 180s in my life. Switched gears every 6 months and realized that was exhausting. Accepting where I am and doing DBT. Accumulating positives regarding my affect on the community. I feel the first step to disc. who I am is liking my affect on those around me.

@Ravetheguitarist 11 жыл бұрын

Bas...it's been like two years or so man. What are the odds I find this video :) Idk if you remember me, but that's not important. I'm very glad you're doing well and making videos again. Used to watch your channel all the time (You also had another channel but I won't talk about it haha). Good to see you again :D

@Ravetheguitarist 11 жыл бұрын

Good good! Because of YOU I worked up the courage to go see a therapist. Really help me figure out myself as well as my life. So thanks :)

@NotFamousKid 11 жыл бұрын

Happy

@martinfarrelluk 11 жыл бұрын

hehe iv just watched 17 of ur videos 1 after the other lol im addicted 2 u. x

@waveofthoughts 11 жыл бұрын

okay..your up in space looking at earth.up here, no emotions needed.! but JOY IN THE HEART. no i'm serious.when you feel good i'ts when~?? your not thinking about the bla bla in the head. stop keeping these toughts alive and start doing life.i am you and you are me..we are all one.most of us has the same fears worries etc.they just control it better on the outside..then go home and beat..well you know what i mean

@NotFamousKid 11 жыл бұрын

Has your partner got bpd aswell? Happy for you Bas ! Love from Scotland :)

@Crazyladydarcy 11 жыл бұрын

You seem like such a lovely person :) xx

@Rainbowzz1 11 жыл бұрын

Do you find that your BPD is easier to handle when you are allowing yourself that creative space? That's what I find - one of the first connections I can usually make when I'm not doing well is that I haven't been putting time aside for being creative. So I kind of believe that when it comes to many people with BPD, that creativity is cathartic. I'm considering vlogging myself but am still working on self confidence :)

@JohnRed 11 жыл бұрын

I have a lot of things I want to do. I want to sing, play guitar, play piano, draw, act, voice act, go to gym and learn more languages. Choosing between what I want to do is impossible, and I am not good at any of the things I listed. It's depressing when you put all your effort into something and just fail at it.

@xxILoveSpencerReidxx 11 жыл бұрын

how does one send a private message via KZfaq? I've never done it before. And thanks for your reply! : )

@NotFamousKid 11 жыл бұрын

Does your partner also suffer from bpd too? I think you mentioned in a previous video

@NotFamousKid 11 жыл бұрын

I also have bpd and my partner struggles to understand it and hates it /:

@HojoOSanagi 10 жыл бұрын

My friend is dating a girl with BPD and he feels that things are moving too fast and doesn't know how to slow things down without upsetting her. If he doesn't spend every day with her she gets upset and freaks out thinking that he isn't interested in her and he doesn't know how to show that he is interested in her but needs some space to himself. Do you have any advice?

@4EPBEH 10 жыл бұрын

I do have an advice! Tell your friend to leave his girl ASAP! I am serious on that one!

@MsCalypsoStarlight 10 жыл бұрын

I have an even better advice: what about trying to openly communicate with her? It seems like he wants something, but doesn't really tell her what's going on. No wonder she's freaking out, I think even "normal" people would...

@4EPBEH 10 жыл бұрын

Calypso Starlight, it is very likely that a BPD sufferer will interpret an "open communication" like this differently and it will trigger their abandonment fears. BPD sufferers split. They idealize and devaluate. Their anger is overwhelming. And they are abusive towards people who care about them. Why should anyone who has a little self respect date a BPD sufferer on first place?

@MsCalypsoStarlight 10 жыл бұрын

It's kind of strange to say that all BPD sufferers behave in an exact same manner and see the world around them the same. Also, not all of them are abusive towards others. I think that the OP's friend should at least try to express his feelings openly. Lying and covering the truth doesn't help anyone in the end, especially when dealing with less mentally stable person.

@4EPBEH 10 жыл бұрын

All I say is that abandonment issues; idealization and devaluation in relationships; splitting; black and white thinking and unappropriate anger are main characteristics of BPD. I have never said that "all BPD sufferers behave in an exact same manner and see the world around them the same". And I have never said anything about lying, did I? Maybe "covering" (yourself from your BPD ex partner) is important and "the end" is too, but I didn't say a word about lying.

@Livlovfallaughmoveon 11 жыл бұрын

Also if u have a lot of interests then maybe try to combine them. I mentioned filming and animation stuff. Maybe try to work with animated films?

@solinaclaire48 9 жыл бұрын

Hi I I've been watching your BPD videos for yeah 2 yrs and I want to say that Thanks it helps alot. I also want to say: did you ever try neurofeedback with BPD (my boyfriend who's BPD has tried it all and this new things really seems to be working (even his co-workers seems to notice a change but they don't know he's doing this.) So yeah just wanted to put it out there for people to check out.

@vannafaye7546 5 жыл бұрын

Ohhhh wowww I watched ur video so nice and adorable.. i realky like it..I wish theres still a man like you...I am woman searching for a soul mate for life time partner...Im also trying my luck here on you tube...I wish theres another you....I mean a man like you too..

@waveofthoughts 11 жыл бұрын

these thoughts are just rambling on in your head.catch yourself thinking..who is it thats thinking theses thoughts? the ego..start living your life now..and do it from the heart.look at your reflection..it you were your son,how would you help him?.we all have sufferings,our parents are not us..if you were in the ground now laying there for awhile, you'd reflect the life you were given,hmm i guess it wasn't that bad...dam why did i let that shit affect me? you are what you believe...