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"the people who stick around only do it because they feel sorry for me. Would anyone miss me If I was gone?" I'm always thinking about this.

Powerful message, this is the reality of mental illness. If you’re struggling you are not alone 💗

Depression tells us we're not actually ill. This resonated so deeply with me. This pretty much sums up everything about depression. Thank you!

Wow, that was emotional. Couldn't help myself, tears just ran down my face. Exactly what I'm going through. Nobody understands me. It's like you're alone in a crowded space. Hard to explain.

I had depression as a child and I could not given it a name. There were just those feelings, that I think they're still buried deep there. But I have started my healing process and learned to have a good company by myself. I want to thank myself for having the courage to go inside, within my soul I hope someday I will fall madly in love with myself

It's a good feeling when you see someone told things you can't say out loud, Thanks for sharing.

That's the moment when I realised the doctor was right. I couldn't believe that I could have depression. I can sleep, eat, have hobbies and so on but I litteraly feel almost everything from your video. Thank you very much

I'm diagnosed with anxiety disorder and many thoughts are very common to me though. Feeling worthless, bad at anything..

I'm actually freaked out over how accurate these thoughts are, i think it's important for people to discuss their deepest feelings and emotions like this cause often we dont understand how we're not alone

I got depressions too, with other psychical illnesses... I cried while watching this video cause it's so true.

My depression sometimes takes adventage of me. That is kind of weird but sometimes I am thankful that I have it. It taught me how to appreciate life and take care of myself. Also made me able to ask for help. I learned to look at the smallest things in life, which makes me feel better. My illness won’t go away easily but still I have hope and support. Guys go to psychiatrist, if you think you might need that. Ask for help and take care. You are not alone in this suffering. Remember that I love you.

To all those out there who are going through various mental health issues, please don't give up. Life is long and full of infinite possibilities and don't hesitate to get help

There's 2 types of playlist... One that supports this train of thoughts and one that opppses it. One we feel it to our core and if any line doesn't match, we imagine it to be true. An added pain is never a burden but some kind of perfection of the state we are in. The other playlist is only to keep our ears boxed in public or when we do not want to listen anything. Thankfully the music of such songs are enough to do the noise cancelling.

How can this be so accurate? Perfectly resonating with my mind. I couldn't hold my tears while watching this.

This... actually described me truly. I still thought I'm just overreacting.. After seeing this video I'm still not sure about anything.. I feel like it's nothing it's really nothing I'm not in depression I'm just overthinking things and overreacting but in reality.. Maybe I am in depression

I hear all of these on a daily basis and it's heart wrenching

I am not diagnosed with depression and anxiety, but I know I have it. It took me so long to admit it… I was always brushing it off of my shoulder and telling myself it’s just a phase… the thing is, this phase of mine lasts long now. Too long. It is comforting seeing here in the comments that I am not alone in this, but at the same time I am so sorry that you have to go through this. Overthinking… I don’t want to do it anymore. You, don’t do it anymore. I should put myself on the first place for the first time in my life, so should you. I wish you all nothing but the best, and we can make it trough this all. Don’t ever give up on yourself. I won’t too.

I don't have depression but i have loved one's that have it so by watching your videos i fell like i understand them better , you are literally saving lives

I'm crying rn, I keep calling myself lazy, the more I try the more painful it is, thank you so much, I feel understood

it hurts to be going through this because im at such a young age. im so sorry to the people that feel the same, that are also too young for this. please, dont hurt yourself, please stay, and know, even if you think nobody else loves you, know that i care for you more than anything.

This is what exactly I AM NOW !! Sometimes I feel like I wanna ask somebody to help me out of this at the same time my mind would say "you are just making up fake scenarios!! Idiot" Your videos are my pills !! We are not alone💙

A tear rolled down my cheek as I heard every single thought that in my mind

it’s kinda scary how accurate this is (for me at least)

You always come through when we need you the most. Hope to become a member/regular donor of this channel soon. Thanks for all of your hard work 🌺

i'm so happy i found your channel, it finally feels like someone actually understands

I´ve been struggling with depression for over 6 years. It was built up slowly through the years and now it is a feeling I am used to. I don´t remember myself ever being happy or not thinking about what people think of me. You are not alone. This video proves it.

Kat I can't express how grateful I'm for your videos.

makes me cry how some have no worries or anything to be concerned about while I have to go through this

Very true...all these thoughts block our mind when we are in depression...I felt like worthless and not willing to live...it was like nobody will understand...I should not disturb them...

this video is well done 💚. i’ve been depressed my whole life but this year, my life has gotten worse. much worse. I lost 2 friends..The most recent one, my best friend ruben was murdered on 10/08/2021 around 9:30pm while he was on his way to work. I keep telling myself “it should have been me”, “he didn’t deserve to go out like that”.. he was supposed to move in to his new apartment on 11/01/2021…The other friend I lost, Grayson (girl in my profile picture), she’s still alive and losing her hurts a lot more than losing my friend ruben. i know, it doesn’t make any sense but that’s how i feel. or maybe i just haven’t fully processed and accepted that my friend ruben isn’t coming back. he’s gone. Needless to say, my will to live is rapidly going away. What sucks the most is that i’ve been looking for a therapist BUT because i don’t have whatever insurance they accept, i can’t get the help i need.. and i really, really do need help. i can’t exactly afford to pay out of pocket either since i quit my job and i have bills to take care of. i’ll figure it out eventually but, it’s frustrating. Especially because i just moved from LA to Denver last month and i have literally no one out here.. i mean besides my family but, i’ve never really opened up to them about my mental health and i’m not ready to.

This is literally the exact thoughts that runs through my head and I'm completely lost and don't know what to do to stop feeling this way.

Thanks for my parents and my sis i just gotten depressed once after that nvr i love them ❤ edit: ( if my parents and sis didnt support i would still be depressed they taught me how to love myself ) Ps. I can listen to your voice for 24/7 its soo soothing and calm i love it + editing and production has been on another level now ❤❤

I am so glad that there is atleast this one person who made this video understands what's it's like to live with a mind like mine

Beautiful video You are amazing I love your videos God bless you

I love yours videos so much! It's unbelievable one soul can catch all the feelings I am not able to say in all of your videos. Thank you so much for showing me and anyone who suffers that we are not alone and we can be understood. ❤️

Sometimes I feel this way, but I free myself of this feelings with anger. I become angry on myself for not carrying about myself... I found out that the depression is when your ego is killed. Your ego needs attention from yourself. To become alive again the ego should be feeded with this attention and once awaken will initiate an energy impulse to get out of the depression.

Brought me to tears after a month of numbness

Very well explained awesome once again. Helps a lot to hear it from someone else, dont know but probably start thinking of my own issues. Thank you

If this is what depression tells you, then it's official! I'm depressed! It's so weird how you can feel this way and then to top it all off, your brain tells you that you're NOT depressed and that you are just lazy or somehow weaker than everyone else so you deserve to suffer. This video stole every thought that I have had for as long as I can remember. Is it even possible that I've been depressed for over 10 years and didn't know what it was? Holy cow...

The first line hits so hard. I denied for a very long time that I can be ill. That have depression. I realised that and accepted that just after I started to heal.

I have a depressed friend that means the world to me. It’s a struggle whenever she’s in a depressed state, because I know there isn’t anything I can actually do to help her other than just being there for her. It sucks how her kind, caring, funny personality ends up becoming just apathetic during her depressive moments. I just want her to be happy, but it’s been getting worse for her recently. I haven’t heard from her in two months, but I’m always thinking about her and hoping she’ll respond, telling me that she’s gotten out of the depressive loop, and that she’s okay.

This is so much true. Depression is a real disease. It gives you fake negative assumptions

very well narrated.. More power to the brave survivors ❤️

Hey, if someone reads this; I want to say that you are amazing. Don’t stop trying, you are not alone with your feelings. There are people who loves you❤️ --------- Finally someone understands how I feel. Some mornings I just can’t even get out of bed. I love your videos

Thank you for telling me that it just my depression 💚

now after decades of having depression, I'm feeling numb.

I wanna say thank you. Really. I've been crying the whole video. All these phrases... It's funny but it resonates with me. Not just emotionally but physically. I got goosebumps.

"if everyone else is fine,why can't i just happy?" damn i feel this all the time💔

this is literally me 100% hope we all can get over this soon ❤️ sending love and hugs. Take care ❤️

the best thing you can do when you have depression is ask for help from other people... The worst thing you can do is lock yourself in a room with the very monster that is beating you up. I used to have depression and anxiety and i totally understand what that feels like.. Its like going on a first date every single day, but 10 times worse.. and its being spaced out inside your own mind and having harry potter dementors whispering nasty stuff in your head and telling you you are worthless... but guess what, that boogie man you were so afraid of when you were a kid only disappeared because you told your parents about him and they shined the lights where you thought it was and you would fall asleep without nightmares! Depression is the same, you gotta open that door you shut so tightly so other people may shine their light in! only then will your depression start disappearing. and one more thing, depression is all a illusion, and you are all freaking good enough, every single one of you! :) all it takes is for a little bit of light to shrine through for it to spread.

Sometimes depression doesn't lie, especially when u see that u have and never had any real friend or person you can count on

Shit I just realize in the few days ago , I’ve been there like what she’s talking about every point I was there I felt pity for my self now. Right now, cramming all the homework that I didn’t even know they exist 🙃 but thankful enough that I saw this video . Thank you very much.

This is completely relatable and emotional This is what I am going through every day. Nobody understands me. I feel tired ,loneliness and hopeless.

I choose to believe that everyone is here for a reason. Why would we have the capacity to feel like shit for no reason? Capacity to think, reflect, make choices, understand, not understand. Everything has to mean something. And everything matters.

I can't really thank you enough for shariny the thoughts and show me it's not just what i feel and make it understandable for me Also thanks A LOT for the yellow subtitles i really appreciate it 💗✨ God bless you

but even if I do something right depression whispers into my ear:"yeah but you could have done it better."

Thank you, for this. If it is true that depression tells you that you are not actually ill, then perhaps i am a fool. i am diagnosed, but nowadays even when things are truly at the worst, i cant bring myself to believe i am depressed. i am always thinking, i am just lazy, just faking it for an excuse, because i dont feel the sadness that most people feel, and instead am numb. that i dont deserve any help because clearly it is all fake and i am useless and therefore deserve to die. it is,, rather refreshing to know that i may be only convinced of something that could be untrue. rather than the ultimatum of 'if i clearly am not ill and i can barely do anything and dont have a want nor the energy to do anything, then i am lazy and will never contribute to society. for that i should die so as to never become a burden on anyone ever.'

Oglądając to popłakałam się. Dziękuję Kasia 🥺❤

My depression tells me that I'm not worthy of anything and that i shouldn't ask anyone anything, it tells me that each day i ruining more and more my life, it tells me that my family would be perfect without me, it tells me to get rid of my own life so everyone would feel peaceful again

I wanna my parents understand and watch this video

next level, good summary and this atmosphere this video creates. As if I am watching into the mirror and realize my own thoughts

OMG, I relate so much, thanks for sharing this awesome videos 🤍

I don't know how but every single video you post and I watch I can related to everything and my family has no clue what I am going through but good thing I'm home alone when I have a break down cuz I try to hide everything.

i'm happy that i'm not alone

That's absolutely what I'm going through!! I was pretending that I am fine , but I'm not💔

I am binging your channel for the last 3 days

I actually could argument why I believe every single one of this sentences... Lately every experience that I've experienced (? Ahaha has demonstrated how right I am. But I am ill so I have to somehow force me to believe otherwise or I would be gone by now, the only problem is they I'm living a lie

This is life , after storm there is a calm ❤

i needed this

this is exactly what I feel since 2 years now

Now.. Like literally NOW.. I understood.. That I am depressed. ಥ‿ಥ

I started crying after the first 5 seconds

Thank You

Those apathy inside, it kills everything i interact with.... The void, empty abyss inside of me, it kills.... I can't feel anything, everything feels temporary relive, and then only the darkness inside i see....

When we get to a step we're faking that smile so nobody will say why are u ruining our mood, when u start to feel numb and nothing literally nothing is meaningful, when u can't even get up of the bed wash your face or brush your teeth, when everyone tells u that u shouldn't be acting like this get up and go work or do anything stop being lazy you're the laziest person o' earth, when u study so hard a'd sacrifice so many things to get an engineering degree and then your parents won't even say good job when no matter what u do isn't worthy what more can u do apart from ending everything

So damn true

Why is this so relatable 😣😭🥺

Wow the thing about attention really hit home. Bc I truly feel like I’m pretending

deppression tells us we're not depressed it's who we are

How the acual heck do you always post when I despretly need something to reletable? This hit home right in the center. Like I feel like you spied on my life and put it in a video🤔😂❣

I am new and i am already in love with your channel

Depression tells us that all it says is true, even if we know it tells lies.

You described my life

Yep kind of i know and i feel like this.

I was watching and crying simultaneously

This video is very powerful and I believe that it shows the most common thoughts that someone could have while depressed...but why do we say "I have cancer" but if you are depressed you say "i am depressed "? What I want to say is that you have depression, but you are not depressed...depression is a temporarily condition that don't characterize you. You are not your depression...it is a feeling that will pass. So, when you hear in you that voice saying "it won't change...it will never get better...what's the point to live a life like this..." don't listen to it, it is the biggest lie. There are lots of different treatments to try...don't ever give up. I know sometimes the sky could be overcast, but remember that over the cloud, the sun shine. God bless you all my friends.

I only have a few "visible" symptoms of "mild" depression! but i feel all these feelings!!!! i even think that a psychologist will only laugh at me or even get mad at me for wasting their time (because other people who really have depression need them more than me! so I don't even seek help! "I ve gotta get it together I ve gotta make it on my own!!

I want closer to midnight podcast back ! Thank you...

Yup, exactly

That is all the things I tell myself. I just want attention I hate myself I’m a horrible person I get angry other stupid things. All my friends pity me. Sure I know my family care about me but honestly there’s no point in asking for help. Im overreacting like always I need to punish myself for being a horrible person. Those are all the things I tell myself And the worst part is it’s true. I deserve everything bad that happens to me

0:06 Miodrag Tošić: So what can I do now "Dalibor", u must do 4 ur self alone 4 it!!!!!! 😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥

When it first started I felt that I'm dying, I'm getting destroyed, no one understood. But now well I feel that I'm already lost and dead, like I have no soul, no purpose, just a walking grave overthinking reality, and I can't have help! But hey life is good!

Depression makes me weak. But I don't know how to come out of it. I'm forever drowned in it.

This is exactly how I am feeling

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It's so wierd seeing my thoughts word-for-word written on the screen. Not even a small difference. Scary how we think we are all different but one illness makes us think in exactly the same way.

Kat your a way life free beautiful and sometimes get lost along the way

It’s like your reading my mind..

This video described me.. My depressed self..