When a handsome young Asian with a degree is struggling in life, you KNOW our society is *FUCKED*

As a 41 year old truck driver who spends months at a time alone, I learned a long time ago that you can either be your best friend or your worst enemy. Don’t let the things around you pull you down. Keep that joy inside of you and learn to exist in your own bubble. Remember when you are alone no one can hurt you. If you are an introvert, embrace it. Don’t let society or social media dictate to you how you should live your life or what happiness and fulfillment is. Live by your own standards and no one else’s. Then and only then will you start to experience the happiness that comes with true freedom. Stay positive and take it day to day my friend and I remember even when you feel alone, your not alone because their are A TON of people just like you.

Consider it a blessing that you're coming to terms with this at a young age. I was you at age 23, crying in my car over this crushing realization. Accepting it and moving forward will make you a stronger man. Life will get better. Remember to pay yourself first, and extend your generosity only to those who deserve it (this will be exceptionally few people). Have no shame in putting yourself first in all aspects of life, because this cold world only cares about what it can take from you.

this realization comes in for many first generation kids/children of immigrants. we’re taught to prioritize others but in america /canada it’s best to build yourself first

This is something I learned from a long time ago. I was a “nice guy” my whole life because they say to treat others how you want to be treated. But then over time, I learned that most people are only in it for themselves and will take advantage of you for their benefit. I didn’t become less “nice”, but I stopped taking shit from people and letting people take advantage of me. When you learn to do that, people will naturally respect you more and know better than to step all over you. This is the advice I would give to young men like you who are struggling with this. Assert yourself or you will be used.

It’s always the most gentle, kind souls who get taken advantage of and taken for granted.

If you don't find a means of multiplying your money, you will wake up one day and realize that the money you thought you had, had been exhausted. Investment is a ladder to climb the financial wall.

Hang in there man. I'm going through something similar. It's tough. Call a friend. Listen to music that makes you feel good. Go for a walk. Reconnect with people. Or just cry. I find sometimes even crying helps. Just let it out. Nothing wrong with crying.

Bro you are literally not ugly. I can promise you that.

"I'm tired of figuring shit out" felt that man. How many problems can people tell me to overcome before it just kills me?

Dam...I resonated with this soo much especially the part where you spoke about having people's back and having the expectation that they'd do the same for you... but they wouldn't and that shit hurts to the core. Thank you for sharing this video and being vulnerable.

This video feeds my soul because you are voicing everything I have been struggling with for such a long time. You seem like a genuinely good, hardworking person and I hope you eventually have success in life and find people who are worthy of your company.

I hear you kid; I am almost 60 with a life dedicated to being a good and generous person; always giving and trying to help. Now here I am with cancer and nobody to bring me a cup of tea. But I have strength and I am still working. So, keep your head up and try to put yourself first.

It’s always the most beautiful people who perceive themselves as ugly. 😓

reaching this level of self awareness and understanding of the world is the first step to accepting reality and then making the best of your life which is yet to come. please realize this!!!

I just want to give you a hug. I feel you, I feel the same here. You’re not alone, it’s so hard to find a genuine person who cares. You just expressed everything I deeply feel. I’m Asian and introvert as well. Hope to be your friend to cheer you up. Please accept , love and value yourself, because you’re worthy.❤

There's a quote I will always remember: "Fake friends are like shadows: always near you at your brightest moments, but nowhere to be seen at your darkest hour. True friends are like stars, you don't always see them but they are always there.”

That girl that told you that you were ugly was really very ugly and horrific inside. You are more than enough, you're courageous, strong, smart and handsome. As a mom of 3 adult girls and 4 grandkids, I'm sending you a motherly hug. 🤗

Man the world don’t have enough space for hearts so big 😞 the struggle is never ending I feel you .

I feel this... Don't give up, it may not feel like it, but you're doing a good job... Just existing, just sharing something heartfelt like this.. just being human.. The way this world is set up isn't right or fair.. a lot of the wrong people are in power and its quite literally suffocating, stagnant and.. its just suffering. I want it to change, and i want to help it to change, but i dont know where to go or how to help to do this.. I'm sorry for your luck on friends.. I hope you find more people that click right.. thank you for being real

Sir, loneliness is at an all time high. People don't know how to value each other for who we are. We value superficial things and alienate each other in the process.

Feeling like your not built for this world is how I feel. And I'm pretty sure a lot of people feel that way. Edit: already 4 days with 1k likes. Makes me smile and sad at how many people can relate with this type of feeling. At least we're not alone!

A lot of the stuff you said resonated with me. I'm 23 & have had my family completely cut off for a few years now. When you grow up poor & don't have the luxury of decent supportive parents, it puts you at such a disadvantage in life. I moved 1-2 times a year EVERY year once my parents divorced (around age 7 or 8) when I was a little kid, so I never even had the option of making friends. Whatever friends I made, I'd have to leave them behind when I moved. I was bullied so much growing up for a variety of reasons. My anxiety and depression came at such an early age and took over my life due to not being able to have a stable home or friends. I was blamed for my grades plummeting, even though the curriculum in each school I went to was completely different. My mother never helped me with homework, and I was blamed for all of what I went through. My father was an abusive alcoholic that I didn't see often. The only people that showed me any level of warmth or kindness were hundreds of miles away online. For years, the internet became my sanctuary and life. I escaped in videogames and online people. I was groomed by sickos online as a kid, because I was so easy to take advantage of due to the lack of support & love in my life. My intentions were always to just find friendship & love. My family & the school bullies also attacked my appearance. I have been called ugly, and 2 of my older sisters have attacked very specific features of my face. I hate myself and I hate how I look. I do my best to blend in with makeup, but I know deep down I will never match up to the beauty standards society has set. I always felt alienated growing up. I failed academically. I was shit at sports due to my size & scoliosis. I was blamed for not being able to physically do things everyone else could do, before AND after my scoliosis diagnosis. When you come into the world with a big heart & have to go through so much hate and trauma early on, it fucks with your head so much and sticks with you. You ask what you did to deserve any of this. You lose faith that the world is worth living in. I always felt misplaced, like I was some malfunctioning person put on the wrong planet. I've grown to learn that there are others who feel the exact same way... there are so many good hearts beaten and bloodied by the world's cruelty, and it makes me cry just thinking about it. I just hope that you can find the very few people out there that genuinely care. The ones that don't want you for anything you might be able to give them. I found my people at the worst points in my life when they had no reason to stay with me other than unconditional love. Even when I tried to push everyone away, they never gave up on me. Finding those true gems in the world will reignite your big heart. There are people out there that deserve your love, and I truly hope you find them and never let them go. As sad as it is that my only source of love and comfort has been through a screen all these years, I am lucky to have found that comfort at all. For men, I feel even more sadness for, because men simply need more people to care about them as a whole. I watch videos of Dr. K and Dr. Aditi Nerurkar about the epidemic of what men have to go through in today's society, and it breaks my heart listening. While I hope society eventually makes steps to change this, I know it starts with each individual, which is why I'll never let a man in my life feel he has to bottle things up or constantly be strong. I'll never let ANYONE in my life feel that way. I hope others will do the same. I love my men, women, and everyone else. Sorry if this was all over the place. I know walls of texts can be cringey, I just wanted to comment letting you know that you have a right to be upset by all this, and never to let anyone tell you otherwise. Sometimes privileged people don't realize that not all of us have a bright side to look at. But I sincerely hope you find better people to surround yourself with. You deserve it. Sending much love. 💝

You speak so much truth brother. I am here to listen and enjoy your videos. I have prayed for you. No matter how terrible you feel about life or yourself, God sees you and loves you. All the best, Lewis

A lot of young men are feeling like this. We’ll get through this man, I love you.

i heard an old guy say"the irony of life is that the ones that care can't help and the ones that can help don't care." you are on the right track, keep going bro..

Though we are total strangers, It was heartbreaking to hear this from you. You deserve so much more, and you deserve happiness. I hope you will get there someday and soon. Good things eventually happen to good people.

I feel the same as you. you're not alone, I cherish you for being so vulnerable. Thank you for your strength.

I'm a black man, and with the exception of a college degree (didn't finish college), everything you said I *definitely* can relate to. The inconsiderate and selfish friends, being tired of having to solve problems after problems with no breaks or reprieves, the job market not hiring you, parents that put you down with demeaning words. *EVERYTHING!!* All we can do is keep our heads up, press forward, and hope for a brighter tomorrow. It gets better later! Never forget that! Edit: Also, I forgot to add in. Having a hard time getting women, and when you finally get one, she's a trifling cheater. I can relate on that, too!

I don’t think you realise how much of a blessing it is to have this mindset dude, majority of people are asleep, you’re experiencing pain cause you see through the façade of life. Breath take some time to yourself and channel your energy into something you love; a passion that allows you to escape the bullshit of the world for the time, a lot of people are in the same boat, but they’re scarcely scattered across the world

The saddest thing about life is the we can relate with are the one's that's hard to find because we're miles away. It's hard to open up emotionally and find the right one's, instead of being open minded to the wrong people who makes us feel this way. I understanding and late to this, we just need to stay strong and I will do my best to support your channel. 💯

Somehow YT recommended me your video and I decided to click on it cause my life been a bit on a road block recently. I could relate to some of what you've been through and I'm 34. I just want to say I appreciate your video and the last bit about life is hard but we gotta keep pushing. I've had thought about leaving this world early a few times because I was suffering through a skin condition that I knew no one else could ever feel and was just so defeated by the pain. I'm glad I'm still here and I glad you are too. Just keep pushing my friend, everything will be alright.

Don't give up on life young man. There are LOTS of good, caring and giving people out here. Painful lessons. Do not waste time, money or effort on the ungrateful.

Your tears sent me back forty years to my own. I was also often told (usually by pretty girls) that I was ugly. One girl at school sneered at me, "Why are you *weird* ?" and all I could say in reply was, "I don't know." In my case the answer, in my thirties, turned out to be Asperger's syndrome. But I married a lady a few years older than me, and we've been married 30 years now. I came out of school with low grades and didn't pursue higher education. At age 52, I finally achieved my life goal of publishing a BBC audiobook based on their TV series "Doctor Who". Hang on in there, friend. The good people are there---it's just a matter of sifting them out.

I remember that one time a girl told me something similar. It was my freshman year of high school. She just turns around one day in class, and says “Tommy, you’re so skinny, all the girls can beat you up!” That really shook me, and I felt weak and worthless for a while. I felt I was ugly and vulnerable. That summer, I started working out in my basement, using her words to transform me into someone new. I was less than 100 lbs. My dad taught me the weights and the workouts, and I taught myself too. Years later now, I only was able to gain about 20 lbs of muscle. I’m a senior now. I realize I didn’t do enough to get really big and look “normal”. Now, I have a goal to just become an average weighted man by the end of college, since it’s hard for me to gain weight. Don’t look so far into the future like retirement and death. Make short term goals for yourself and that may lead to bigger and greater goals for the far future. That girl told me something that sparked a light inside of me to pursue something not too large, but not too small, I just wanna be normal too, you are not alone. Let’s make some goals together.

Bro you went in on this, you spoke the truth from start to finish. God bless you brother! This western world is exhausting, i struggle everyday with it.

I'm 71. Dear, you are not ugly. You're a very handsome young man. You tell the truth as you experience it. People suck. That's true. My advice is to do what you enjoy. I promise you things will get better. Don't worry about what people say. You're a survivor, a champion 🏆. I wish you peace and aloha from Hawaii 🤙

“I don’t feel built for this world.” I feel like that on a daily basis. My life has been no cake walk. It seems to only get harder as the years go on. You said exactly the things I’ve been feeling in this video. I’m 33 years old, and I don’t know how much longer I can do this for. Everyday is a constant struggle, and I feel like I can’t get the help I so desperately need.

I hope you’re doing good man. Want nothing but the best for you, and for everyone who can relate to this.

Hello, as a 25 year old female, I have been through a journey filled with struggles and pain that have shaped my perspective on life. The weight of feeling like crap has burden me for many years, starting from my younger days, and following me into my adult hood. It wasn't until 2023 that I started breaking free from the Cain's of caring to much about what others think or feel. I traversed though a dark and tumultuous mental landscape far to long, where my thoughts of ending it all clouded my mind day in and day out. Countless nights were spend in tears, as I grappled of being a people pleaser and the fear of not being accepted. I started to question my own sanity, of "What did I do wrong?" all the time. But through this journey I decided that I was going to stand up for me, myself and I. I had a very hard time loving myself and it took years to finally to learn how to love myself, and self acceptance. This wasn't easy in anyway shape or form. While the scars of my past still linger, I am now on a path of heeling, and self discovery. I am learning to prioritize my own well being and happiness and try to embrace my uniqueness and imperfections. My struggles have made me stronger, more empathetic, and more resilient. I am working in progress, and every day I strive to be kinder to myself and to live authentically, apologetically, and without the burden of validation from others. I know what it feels to not have a loyal partner, I had someone I loved dear to me but he wanted to keep cheating on me again and again, I was 20 ish at the time was young and very naive, I kept taking him back even after he destroyed my heart and trust. He blinded me by his BS, his control, him making me seem like I was the crazy one, and ect. I have been a loner since I was 4 years old, that is a different story for another time. But the amount of times I hear this line "your so mature for your age!" I still don't know if that is a compliment or a insult? Being an introvert is something I am 1000% of, I also work as a security and have to deal with people, who has high social anxiety. But since 2023 I just start to figure out what I needed to do for myself, because who else is going to?

Dude, you’re not even ugly at all. Just because you’re different or one person says you’re ugly doesn’t mean you’re ugly. People are assholes in relationships, friendships, and coworkers. It takes error and trial to find genuine people. I have no friends and I’ve accepted that long time ago, I’m just 30. 😢 but I hear you homie. You’re speaking facts. Sh!t I’ll be you’re reference if you need one.

I understand the feeling. My father used to tell me "You can't control anything until it is your fault." It took awhile for me to realize how true that is.

Bro you need real family and real friends holy shit poor you. You re such a genuine guy, I really hope you meet that one friend thats gonna make you see what its like to really not be alone. Hearing you say you re tired breaks my heart. You deserve so much more

You seem like a great person man, keep your head up, yes the older you get the more you realize that generosity unselfishness and overall indifference is prevailent. Be strong man, and not everyone is like that.

25yr old guy here, yeah the 'no-one gives a shit' lesson is one of the hardest to learn and accept. What I've learned is, only give to those who are interested in giving back. If you give or share a part of yourself or things with people through principle it's a one-way ticket to get exploited. Best of luck to you bro, you'll get there eventually

"Once I solve a problem here comes another problem" Felt that 💯

Hey man, I just saw your video. I’m 43, I’m married to a great woman and we have two Sons and for that I am very grateful. I understand how hard it can be, I too have went through toxic relationships over and over again. Too many times I ended up with women that weren’t loyal and didn’t value anything but how THEY felt, all the while I kissed their asses and went out of my way to be “the nice guy”. No matter what I did it always ended with me being alone. Even before I became an adult my life was one of being alone. I grew up in the middle of nowhere in Pennsylvania, and this was the days when “long distance phone calls” were still a thing….so I couldn’t really call anyone that I was friends with since I went to a school that was over 34 miles one way….so it was “long distance”. My house was past the county line so that had to go to a school further away rather than the nearest school which was 7 miles one way. I had some friends in the nearest town and I could sometimes call them, but I didn’t go to school with them and I grew up poor so my parents rarely had enough gasoline to drive me to town just to see my friends in town. I had to grow both comfortable AND accustomed to being my own friend. My upbringing was chaotic at best and the only reliable anchor I had was my father….he and I grew to become best friends. There is so much I am omitting since it would be a thick book if I wrote my life story. Suffice to say it does get better….but it also gets harder in different ways that only the person experiencing it can understand as each of our lives and circumstances are all different. I lost my father when I was 35 and even still my soul is crushed, I am rudderless as he was the wind that would oftentimes direct me with his wisdom, and other times he would confirm my suspicions about various things. All that is gone now. Growing up I was bullied alot, beat up all the time….even my 1st grade teacher physically assaulted me. I didn’t finish kindergarten so when I went into first grade I didn’t even know math existed…so I didn’t understand the concepts being taught. Long story short she picked me up by my hair and slammed me into the front of a large metal desk in the main office. Of course it hurt, and it didn’t help that it made the bullies even worse. Eventually I grew up and joined the Army and learned to be stronger mentally. I know my story is all over the place, but so is my life. I’m 43 and outside of my wife…..I haven’t had a friend in over 20 years. It can be tough, but I will survive. Finally, let me just say, I don’t even know you and I care about you. Truly. I value human life and good people. You aren’t alone friend. Always know that.

so sorry that you had to go through experiences like these i feel your heartbreak and understand the disappointment hope you’ll meet some great kind generous people who would appreciate your kindness and be good friends to you wish you luck and finding the girl that deserves you and will treat you right!

A man once told me "life's a bitch, then you die". I learned this and lived better after that acceptance. Life didn't get better, but I lived better. Life can get better but it doesn't happen for everybody.

Bro, you're good looking. I'm a dude, and I can say that. Trust it. And there are good people in this world that will care about you no matter what. Those people that told you those things are not your friends. Find better people. Seriously. Don't let other people change the goodness in you or have you doubting yourself. You are a light to this world, my friend. Keep shining bright.

Man... I sorry you are going through this. I am 43 now and I felt the same way you did back when in my late teens early 20's. It takes a long time to get were you want to be in life but we all experience this. You are not alone. I hope you are doing better and keep your head up.

Holy cow I wanted to give you a hug watching this. Felt this in my heart. Your story hits home for many, you'll be alright as long as you trust yourself ❤

Kids often are the most honest they’ll ever be in their entire lives. This is what Adults want to say to each other but are too scared to say due to the consequences in society. But yeah, most people are selfish, unfortunately.

You seem like a genuine, smart introspective and good guy. You are NOT ugly , you have value , and you impacted a lot of people with this video. you have a purpose, everyone does, and it WILL get easier. Rooting for you brother

This hits so hard.. The feeling when you stop being "Beneficial" and you end up as like the "Backup friend".. this is me, been more or less friendless for 1year as when I started struggle and having a hard time mentally, everyone suddently got "Busy" and never had time and so on. Hope your doing better now, and thanks for sharing :)

you are not alone brother . We share the same feeling even though we are from different countries except for parrent things . Thank u bro for your braveness to reveal this ,so that other people know about it.

As a 24 year old, I understand your struggle. And I’m sorry this is happening to people so young, going through depression and anxiety is not easy. Hoping everyone can find a way around this global problem. Take care y’all.

Real crime in life is that " just because you treat people the way you want to be treated doesn't mean they have to do the same" You're not alone in how you feel. You seem like a real genuine dude, a lot of people would be fortunate to have you as a friend!

This has to be one of the most real videos I've watched in a long time. Something that's always helped me put into perspective why people come off across callous and selfish is "People are not against you, they're for themselves." I have realistic expectations of what to expect from other people.

You made some incredible points that ive been saying for the last 20 years . Sry to say things havent changed much . I wish i could say ive found a way to overcome to same issues. Yet even tho this is the struggle we men deal with . Its also up to us to change it . I definitely feel ya pain brother, dont give up man . The world needs good people like yourself

I’m 25 and I came to the realization that life is a struggle. What really matters is friends and family. 80% of your life will be mundane and boring that’s ok. Even for billionaires it’s the same. But that 20% where you laugh dance and enjoy conversations is worth while. Find joy in suffering, put yourself through challenges and you’ll see yourself grow and the world around you become easier to navigate

This was the first thing that popped up for me this morning and it’s exactly how I’ve been feeling. You’re not alone. Society today sucks

Hey man, I’m sorry to hear you’re going thru a lot right now. Life is pretty hard to navigate after high school and university. Finding friends, even 1 good friend is difficult, I agree. Finding steady income is not easy either. If you can get connected to a community I think that really helps. Men’s group, small groups, meet ups. That’s what really helped me. Personally, finding a purpose in my faith as a Christian really got me moving along in a better direction. God bless you man, I will pray things get much better for you. You seem like a very genuine thoughtful young man.

You kept it 💯 bro i needed to hear this. Im glad im not the only one who feels like this life is pointless.

I feel you man, growing up in narcissistic family and then trying to find love and not be reciprocated is devastating especially when the same people you are selfless with are selfish in your time of need. Trying to find some truth in a fake world.

As a 21 year old man, I relate to this mindset bro. Don't give up we in this together 💪🏽

Thank you for being so honest …. I cried my eyes out when you cried … I feel your pain and so relate …I needed someone to express what I feel inside right now (alone, sick and poor etc) tired of being used and abused on top There’s nothing ‘wrong’ with you …, it’s the way things are ….life can’t be super crappy 😤 Especially when no one spends a mmt to get to know you and connect with you for who you are inside - rare I identify with everything you said 🌸 Authentic people like us feel deeply

Lots of love to you brother. I feel a lot of what you feel. Sometimes it helps to get out of the world sometimes and see life outside of society. It hurts when you are so protective of yourself and think you finally meet someone you can trust and they betray you. It sends you back in your shell. Away from danger. Sometimes I find love in nature. Sometimes just talking to someone on the bus I've seen for years but never spoke to. It's the moments that matter. The past and future will be what it will be. The moment is what you have control over now. And sometimes that's enough to get through the day. Thank you for video. I hope where ever you are you have a good day.

This got recommended to me and I felt compelled to watch it and I wanna say that you seem like a deep thinker, a good person and sensitive to the world around you, which is such a good thing! And you are NOT ugly. There are so many out there who feel and think the way you do. Stay true to yourself and never let negative people turn you bitter. That's what they want. Don't let them win. Life is so much more than just school, work, die. Forget all that bs and just live how you want. Life is way too short to be concerned with what society expects from you. Us introverts think too much. Take a break sometimes, take it easy, look after yourself, don't stress so much. And fuck living for everyone else. Live for yourself. You weren't born to live for them. It's not a bad thing to put YOUR happiness and sanity FIRST.

As hard as it is to accept right now, what you said is 100% correct, coming from an older guy. I used to volunteer, work for free, and pay the company's wages with my hard work, and they one day decided to kick me out for the most trivial reasons. Yeah, they liked it when I was doing something for them. But then I realised how easily I could be replaced. I was chucked to the curb after paying their wages for a year. Then they washed their hands clean of me like I was nothing but a piece of shit. Welcome to reality. Now, I don't believe in volunteering or helping people any more. I live for myself, do what I want, and guess what? I've never been happier. No stress, nobody "expecting" anything from me. Fuck these selfish arseholes. They are actually infinitely more selfish than I am.

I understand you, young man. I've been that way all my life. I was a child. I would always give cookies and juices and give and give. Because it made me happy to see someone smile. When you're down or out with nothing, not 1 person will even say Happy Birthday or even pick you up flower or even get you a card or create a card and think about you. This birthday was the worst birthday that I've ever had in my life. Not 1 person. And I've always been out there for those who birthdays. Come and I always make sure that they're taking care of the ones that you think that care don't care when you're down-and-out with no money and I understand I'm still going through it right now and not one person's picking you up, not even the ones. That you think I love you so be strong and know the fact the best way to stop this as you just stop. If somebody can't be your friend and give to you freely without anything's in return, that is the one that will be your best friend or even a girl that will give you for what she has and she's not looking for anything in return, people need to be kind and I know exactly what? You went through and what you're going through. Please be my friend here. Because I would love to interact on what you're going through. I will also be ASAP scriber. Take care, thank you for sharing your story.

After I hit thirty I think I finally started to stop caring because it does suck. That being said, the key is finding the right people and not befriending the toxic people; they’re out there.

Hang in there dude. Life can really suck, but without all the suck you won't appreciate the good as much.

You are a wonderful, beautiful person. And you're not alone in feeling this way. You speak for so many people. ❤️ Hope you find your happiness

It’s true I felt this … I been that person sucked dry … and leave me down broken used .. just having a genuine heart, life teaches you fast that there are people out here that know how to get what they want and leave

Brother you're not ugly. People are fake as fuck in this world. I've been through the same shit as you. I never fit in, I had to put on a facade and adopt a group identity countless times until I started being myself. I was always the one supporting everyone, and when I was down, my closest friends never reached out or gave a fuck about me. I called them out on that shit, and some have changed for better and some have left my circle, even after 10+ years of friendship. One thing I will say for certain, you will find genuine people out there. They are rare but they do exist. I've found some myself and they will always embrace you no matter what. Work on yourself. Go to the gym and build your body. Strong body = strong mind. Spend some time sitting in silence and meditating, focus on quieting your mind and filtering out needless bullshit that detracts from your inner peace. For me it was meditating on God, but I appreciate that not everyone has the same experiences. I do all this myself and it works. You have to appreciate the solitude, as an introvert it recharges you considerably. The reason you feel like you dont belong is because you have a way bigger purpose. You're not meant to be as fake and NPC as the people around you. You just have to figure out what that is and you'll find your place in the world. I'm still on the hunt myself, I'm tired of looking too. But its not gonna find itself bro. Only you can do that. I can say for certain that if you are starting that journey or are conscious of that you're already in a better position then where you were. We lack lack purpose. Thats why we're miserable. There's more to life than living paycheck to paycheck.

Listening to your story, it's like we lived the same exact life. For the first 18 years of my life, by best friend was my cat. Everyone hated me in school. And my dad beat me every week. And when he wasn't beating me, he'd tell me how I ruined his life, that I'm useless, constantly that he'll kill me, and every time he looked at me, there was so much hatred on his face towards me. My mom told me "when you turn 18, you leave and never come back". Every night, I look up at the stars and wonder "when will this suffer end?". "This is my life?" "Why is this happening to me?". I had no esteem because I got beat at home and was alone in school. Teachers didn't like me. It was just so lonely. It's a pain so deep and endless, I thought no one could possibly ever feel this pain. I'm also chinese, the only one in my grade. There were chinese that were grades above me or grades below but not in my grade. In school, I was the quiet kid that sat there hoping so desperately that someone would come talk to me and be my friend. That never happened. And without being in any friend group, everyone else used me as the punching bag or at worst, I see on their face the expression of disgust whenever they saw me. One guy even blatantly says my face is "flat and ugly", "that I smell bad". There was field trips where the teacher passed out sheets to write down who students would like to be with and who not to be with. And out of my peripheral vision, I could see my name on their paper for "who not to be with". Imagine the loneliness. I'm feeling the "sinking tingles" of loneliness as I'm writing this out. And like you, I cared about everyone and I cared so much. This was 12 - 20 years ago now. I'm 30yrs old now. But college happened, and it changed my life. I got my first best friend in 1st year of college: Kevin, and 12 years later, we're still best friends. And then as I lived more, more and more best friends came into my life. And then 12 years years later, I realized I have multiple best friends. That I no longer need to define what a best friend means. I would die for any of them. In middle school, I got beat up by these guys. And the others say I would never be good enough for a girlfriend. And unfortunately, the constant bombarding trauma of that era still affects me as a 30 year old today. I've never had a GF. And it's my fault. It's not like a girl hasn't liked me, but the moment I start liking them too, a switch flips within my "soul" and such an ancient overwhelming self loathing activates and I end up backing out immediately before the relationship even begins. I'm still trying to overcome this. My subconscious still thinks I'm unworthy. I went to medical school partially to propitiate the piece of my soul which bears that weakness. And years and years off feeling useless, I built an interior that resists all the weariness of this world. I can turn emotions on and off. I've mastered self control. Right now, I'm a 30 year old in medical school. I had a dream as a lonely beaten child in middle school. Looking up at the night sky, and the infinite potential of the universe, I realized....if I just lived long enough, I could outlive all my bullies. I could outlast all my problems. I could eventually one day find peace. And so I decided I wanted to cure aging and extend my lifespan to out live all problems and that some solution would appear someday if I just lived long enough. Those long nights of wondering about the future.....time flows slowly for a middle and high schooler. And the suffering and loneliness felt infinite. It took the thought of infinite lifespan to allow me to overcome that. Now as a 30 year, I have already spent over 20 years of my life trying to research and extend lifespan. 7 years in biotech. And I'm almost done with medical school. I will be a doctor. And I will research aging and take care of patients. And along the way on this journey I've invented for myself, I've made the bestest of friends who I see as family and I would die for. I'm finally no longer lonely even though many of us are now countries apart, it almost feels like the world is my friend now. So my advice from a fellow lonely and hopeless child, is to create a singular purpose for yourself based on the motivating aspects of loneliness. As einstein said to paraphrase, "be a loner, that gives you time to wonder and search for the truth". An then live that purpose. Follow strength of your conviction of your purpose which sprouted from loneliness and you'll make irreplaceable friends along the way.

I decided to go to college later in my life. Because everybody called me a nobody and everybody would say. You're never gonna bound to be anything. You're always sick and it wasn't that I was sick. It was that I was beat down to nothing, so I went to college. Got a degree and the first things that I got a degree is performing arts. Because I do love music. But people won't accept you if you're older and music industry. Or they look down on you so I know exactly where you're going through. I even took up criminal Justice. That is my main strength. Because I was a victim being bullied and put down pushed around. I'm not accepted because I was different. Sometimes I believe now that if you're different you are unique and you have more power and more spiritual guide. I still to this day. Endure these kinds of pains. Because not even your own family was there. Not even. On my birthday, not one of them called me. It's a tragic thing. How people cannot care and give back or give freely without returning anything in favor that's what's wrong with the world. The world is just about themselves too many narcissistic. People out there and think that they're all are in charge of the world. They need to show love. This world needs to be a better place and needs to give out freely. Go out and take somebody to lunch just because. Not for anything or any return, just know. The fact that you know how it feels to be that type of person that's been put down, pushed around and not accepted and all my life, I had to earn my own living. I had do my own things. Not 1 person on my family was there when I was down-and-out with nothing to this day. I'm that way down-and-out, but I do know one thing the universe will be by your side. You will have more power and energy within you than you've ever known.1 day it's going to change that will be.Your purpose as the power of strength and inner being you're a bright young man keep going.Don't pay attention to those who have no heart.No soul, no dignity.No humanity I am now a subscriber

Hey young blood, hope you're doing well. Your bravery speaks volume w/ your truth. You're reaching the world w/ your relatability. You got it in you to be something big. I can tell. Much props. Stay up. God bless.

Hang in there mate. I'm 60. Yes life sucks, but trust me the good things in life will come...you just have to work at it. Please don't give up. Take care because I do for you.

bro you cant expect everyone to be pure hearted like you, not everyone will be there for you when you need them, sometimes you have to go at it alone

I know times will feel hard but I can tell just by watching you, you will be one of the wisest people when you are older. Stay strong, keep moving forward, spread the love but also know how the game really is. Much love Brother.

felt that bro. life is rough, you'll get through it though. if it feels like the world is against you and no-one cares just there's at least one dude cheering for you. Sincerely, i believe in you. God Bless.

Man I saw this early this morning and it's been bugging me. As someone who was suicidal from 18-27 I wish I could say the right thing but no one could tell me shit back then. Bro please keep going you seem like such a good dude my circle would love someone like you around.

it hurts my heart to see you down :( i resonated with everything you said word for word. i wish i could show you the heaven on earth ive found inside despite the nightmares ive been through. ppl like you are rare gems in a world where being sociopathic is the new norm.

Keep your head up bro. I can promise you there's still good in life, still good out there. It's true, life is definitely a struggle. I spent the last 10 years digging myself out of debt in part from job losses, stupid financial decisions, and student debt. But I kept my head down, and came out the other side. There will always be another challenge. I feel your tiredness, for real. I care about you and I hope you can find something worth fighting for in this life. I wanna see you happy homie. I may not know you, but I genuinely hope you find your way. You deserve it.

I've been in your place a few times. I empathize. I got tired of "doing everything everyone else is doing to try to "fit in". I am 48 now and working in manufacturing. I like to build things. I quit a higher paying job to do what I enjoy as opposed to what is going to give me more money. The key is to live within one's means. Seriously, don't go to malls and buy stuff to "enhance your image". You are good the way you are. The world has become more narcissistic (lacking empathy and caring). Know that you are not alone. I used to cry thinking I needed someone. Yes, friends are nice to have, but YOU are the only one you can trust. A wise person once told me..."we come into this world alone, and we leave this world alone". It's true. Although we spend even 9 months attached to our mother, we are INDIVIDUALS. Every negative experience you have helps you grow as a person and builds your resiliency. Most importantly, as you age you will "come back to yourself". You realize that the love of Self is important. Yes, the world can be a lonely and cold hearted place. But you are not alone. We stand with you, Brother.

Cold world we live in.

The comparing part hits home smh… when i point out how other parents are doing better, they blow up on you or how they didn’t bother to teach you one single thing, apart from being a obedient good boy.

Keep doing videos bro. This is what you’re here for. You talking facts to a bunch of people in the same situation as you. ❤

I'm nearly half a century old, and I remember that life sucked until I was... probably 40. Life gets WAY better. Give it time.

My guy is spitting facts for this generation, absolutely spot on, mental health, declining economy, loneliness, everything is bang spot on the bullseye. Now we all just drift through life and just don't even know where they stand in society. Now we just play *great asset* to relief the pain.

People that go through this clearly have a higher calling, listen to your self, this things had to happen for you to be this deep and eloquent. You have a gift

I just had a chance to see this, and here's hoping this guy's doing much better now. Cheer up, dude! You're not ugly, you know. You're like a precious human, so be happy.

I can relate to this video on another level, from friendships, to relationships, loneliness, the feeling of worthlessness, everything.

Brother you’re not ugly. You have a great heart. Keep going bro

Great message ❤ keep your head high king! Life is tough, but there is also a lot of beauty! Cherish every moment and I promise that good things are coming your way 💪👑

You're right! That's life. We have to be strong and tough to survive.

I wonder what kind of a day this guy had that brought on this rant video. I cried through most of it, I feel his pain and it hurts me that I can't really help him.

I relate to everything this guy is feeling. Life does suck and every year is harder than the last. Like a horrible dream some days.