how BEYOND MESSED UP is it that we live in a world where when you lose a pregnancy you still have to immediately go to work afterwards

My Mum had twin miscarriages before me, she cried watching this and wants you to know you're in her prayers x

As a teenage girl who plans to have children one day, I’m upset that they don’t teach us about this at school. They don’t teach us *anything* about miscarriages in health class. They really need to prepare young girls for what could be a a heartbreaking future. My heart hurts for you and I hope that you and your husband have a happy future! ❤️

Hey Erin, we don’t know each other but I just want to send my love and support your way. I know nothing can ever dull the pain of a pregnancy loss, but I’m rooting for you. Thank you for sharing your story, it’s going to help so many women going through the same thing. 💕

I’ve had 8 miscarriages. I miscarried alone, at home, every time. No one tells you how utterly painful and terrifying it is. No one explains the bleeding, the loneliness, the sadness. I wasn’t prepared for when they happened. I’ll never be prepared for a miscarriage, no one is or will be. We are so, so strong Erin! Never stop trying, never stop believing in yourself. Just trust yourself, trust your body, trust God. We are destined for motherhood, one way or another. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, lovely.

I had a total of five miscarriages before having a hysterectomy...the only thing that I ever took much comfort in was the Buddhist idea that babies who are miscarried or stillborn were just souls that had to be loved one last time before nirvana.

I did not have a miscarriage, however, my son passed away three days after birth and it was the most difficult and agonizing thing I have ever been through. Each year, it gets easier. We love you and you’re such a strong woman. Keep your head up.

My mom had two miscarriages, that's why they adopted my siblings and I. Every year she says "oh they would be this old this year" and it hurts me every time. She says "I miss them, I wish they were here, but then I wouldn't have y'all" She is the strongest person I know.

I’m a 20 year old woman who has never heard someone speak about this. Thank you so much. Keep speaking out for women and diminish trauma for so many

Jesus Christ. I am so sorry, I can’t imagine.

The ones who disliked this were crying so much they didn’t know which button was the thumbs up.

as much as this hurts, don’t give up. you WILL have the baby you’ve always dreamt of. i am so sorry.

"I recently miscarried our baby" ... NO! You had a miscarriage. You did everything in your possibility and cared for your child. What happen was out of your control and is not something you did. I'm sorry you have to go though this... but don't blame yourself. I know time has passed and you have worked with your husband to both feel better, but you did everything you could, and would of done more if possible, to handle this gift from God. It is not your fault

When u say you miscarried, don’t ever think it’s your fault. This is such a hard thing to go through and you are so amazingly strong to have to deal with this❤️ stay strong

I got pregnant with triplets during my sophomore year of high school. I lost two of my baby boys during my second trimester. When I went into labor my doctor said that it was two early. My third baby boy passed away 30 minutes after he was born. RIP, Hunter Jonah, Thomas Allen, and Samuel Robert. My heart goes out to you Erin and Matt. Also to all the moms, dads, grandparents, siblings and families that have lost like this. I pray for all the children’s souls who have left us to soon.

i’m currently going through this and dealing with it all alone. you are my voice,thank you.

How can people dislike this video. I can’t imagine why 😔

This is gut-wrenching. You are such a strong woman. The son or daughter you'll have eventually will be very lucky to have you as a mama.

I have never been pregnant or have had a miscarrage and I'm only 13 but my mum had miscarried a few times before I was born but all I can say is thank you for putting up this video and I thank god everyday that I can grow up in a world with women as strong as you. Thank you. You are in my prayers. Thank you

My mom had a miscarriage and when I asked her how she got through it she said that she would keep telling herself that, "God didn't realize how much he needed this angel in heaven and had to take them back."

You are so strong. This is going to help so many women.

I can’t imagine this pain. My best friend had many miscarriages and she just had her rainbow baby girl in October. Praying for you and Matt. God has a plan for you and he’s working for your family. ❤️

My sister has PCOS, and was unable to have a baby for 10 years. She just had her second baby! It gets better, have hope! I am sending you prayer and love!

We lost our first baby on Father’s Day... it’s been unimaginable and it’s still so new and painful... I’m still physically going through it. I had to force it, I had to take the pills and wait and wait and wait... I’m so sorry you had to go through this... it was the most terrifying experience of my life. Thank you for speaking up and sharing your story

I can't even imagine the pain you're going through. Big hugs to you.

Sending lots of love and prayers Erin. There’s so many of us here with you.

My husband has wiped my butt. He's seen everything there is to see about me. Blood, tears (both), sweat, vomit and poop. You'll get there one day...keep trying for your miracle baby.

I am so sorry. My niece passed away at 34 weeks due to a rare brain condition, my sister in law had to have a medically forced miscarriage as well. When I saw the way your sister reacted it made me cry because I reacted the exact same way but then being told that my sister in law lost the baby broke my heart and I was sick with grief. There isn’t even a word to describe a pain like this. Stay strong and know your baby will always be with you.

Anyone else sat crying because I feel for you and can’t imagine your pain

I have PCOS and went through this recently myself. I found out in early February at my 20 week checkup that my baby had passed away 4 weeks prior at the start of January, nothing prepares you for going to your 20 week checkup to be told your baby had died a month before. I ended up having to go into induced labor which lasted almost 2 days. Nothing prepares you for the feeling that you get when the baby passes... that instant reality hit kicks you right in the guts in a way nothing else can... to make matters worse, decay had started to set in so my child was discoloured and parts were swolen that shouldn't have been, the sheer level of pain I felt at seeing what had happened to my child I will never forget as long as I live. I ended up having to also go in for surgery because the placenta didn't detatch from the wall and it took me almost 2 months to stop bleeding after it was all finished. We had an autopsy performed to find out what the cause of the miscarriage was and there was nothing physically or chromosomally wrong with the baby but I was under a lot of extreme emotional stress at the time, which more than likely ended up being the cause of the late miscarriage (15-16 weeks) according to my doctor. My due date was actually supposed to be at the end of this month and today I wrote a poem to help me deal with the emotions of loss i'm feeling right now, writing this helped me process some of my emotions (I actually wrote this less than an hour before I came across your video) and I hope it can help you process some of your emotions as well. The winter winds blow hard and cold, Bring with it it's frozen embrace, The warmth from you I will never hold, Forever and ever the case. I feel so lost, hollow and broken, As though I have shattered inside, Missing the words that will never been spoken, Always searching for a way to hide. To hide from the pain that tears me apart The wound only a mother knows The pain that comes from a broken heart Try as I may It still grows. Another day the darkness creeps in, The pain so intense that it burns, Another fight I don't know I can win, The heart of a mother that yearns. The breath from my lungs freezes mid breath, At the thought of you not being here, Of you being taken by death, The loss, the pain and the fear. But as each hardship, each battle, each race, Has a beginning, a middle, an end, All things pass with time and with space, For life must go on in the end. The stars in the sky now hold you close now my love, Keeping you safe and warm, Letting your spirit soar high like a dove, Safe from the pain and the storm. Forever my child, my love and my life, Forever come Hell or high water, Forever a part of my very own soul, Forever my darling, my daughter.

i cant even imagine. Im so deeply sorry that youre going through this. Sending love and prayers to you

I also had a missed miscarriage with my first after over a year of trying and when it ended it was one of the hardest part thing I’ve ever gone through. I still find Comfort in talking about my loss with people

I know you may not want to hear a bunch of “i’m sorry’s”. i understand that can be overwhelming and at times, even annoying. i am not going to sit here and act like i know your and your husbands pain. i do, however, want to send my sympathy and prayers to you. you are so incredibly brave Mrs. Erin!! brave for sharing your story, brave for putting it on the internet, and brave for pushing through. your darkest days will always be outshined by your brightest. you are strong. you are beautiful. and you can and will get through this pain. you have to open yourself up to it and let it in. with time it will be easier to think and talk about it. and then once you finally feel you can breathe, god will bless you again. i love and respect you so much.

You don't "get over" losing a child honey. You move forward with that grief. God is with you and Matt. As a fellow "missed miscarriage" survivor, I too am #withyou. Hugs and prayers from Greenville,NC.

I cried watching this. I can’t even imagine what you had to go through. I send out all my prayers to you and stay strong❤️

Wheb I saw the title I started tearing up and then when she started talking I lost it!

I related to this so much. Saying sorry isn’t ever enough. I was diagnosed with endometriosis at 21. Found out I was pregnant at 24 & miscarried at 8 weeks & 5 days. I lost myself for a while because I didn’t have a great support system like you have. My endometriosis doctor said that at least we knew I could actually get pregnant & that was half the battle. I found out I was pregnant & had a healthy baby boy Nov 19, 2018. God has a plan for you, Erin. You may not understand it now but He is going to bless you abundantly! Lots of prayers for peace & blessings for you.

I’m 17 and ofc not ready for children, but I bawled my eyes out the whole time. It’s so crazy how the most beautiful souls can go through the worst experiences. I’m so sorry. Also- screw the content take the time away that you personally need. If you’re broken and feeling down don’t try to force happy content. I’m sure your subs can understand completely

me and my husband were so excited for our first child, one night i had a feeling something was wrong, i made him rush me to the hospital, they ran all types of tests, did an ultrasound, and ended up telling us that the baby was healthy and there’s no sign of nothing being wrong, the next day i ended up miscarrying, nothing can ever prepare you for the emotional and physical pain you endure, healing is so challenging.

I am so sorry you went through this and my heart is with you! You are so strong and God bless you are your Husband❤️

When you said you could have 15 children and you will never get over it, I felt that. I lost my first baby too. It was a little boy. It’s been almost five years and I still cry.. sending love your way❤️

This makes me wish our medical system wasn't so broken. Women shouldn't have to go to their homes to deal with something that is such a traumatic experience without the assistance of medical professionals. I am so, so sorry Erin.

Oh Erin! I’m so sorry! Praying for healing! 💛

So sorry for your painful loss, Erin. We are here fo you! Stay strong

Things will get better. We’re all here for you. Sending love.

Hi Erin... went through something similar at 20 weeks pregnant, it was a little girl... 30 years ago! It’ll get better, I promise. But it’s true that it will never leave you. Allow yourself time to grieve and talk about your experience and your pain. You are going through a traumatic time in your life and you cannot act as if everything is normal. BUT this does not define you... you will get through this and you will be able to enjoy life again. Just give yourself some time, you need it.

I’m SO unbelievably sorry❤️ I went through the same thing 3 times, alone, at home-& you never to forget, you never do completely get over it, but it does get less raw & acute over time. Hang in there❤️ sending love, hugs & prayers❤️🤗🙏

Thank you for sharing this for everyone who needs to hear this. You are such a strong woman.

Stay strong Erin, my mother had 4 miscarriages before she had my brother and the me. She made it through and I am so blessed to have her as my mum. You can make it through this, ill keep you and your family in my prayers x

“The baby is just not ready，he/she will be back to you soon.” That's what we said when a woman miscarried her baby. I am so sorry for your lost. 😢

I’m so sorry you went through this, keeping you lifted in prayer.

I went through this same experience in March. I understand what you’re going through, and I want you to know you are not alone. It is so painful and heavy to go through. Thank you for sharing your story.

Miscarrying is my biggest fear. I'm 11 weeks, and I get scared every time I feel slightly different. Hearing that heartbeat was the most amazing feeling and I'm scared itll be the only time.

I can’t even imagine the pain you feel. You guys were so excited 😭

Sending so much love and strength your way. It’s so important to talk about these experiences. You are so strong and so appreciated 💗

sending you so much love, my heart is so broken for you & for everyone who goes through something like this. Stay strong love ❤️

I’m so incredibly sorry, not only for your loss, but for everything you went through while also experiencing your loss. 💔

Erin I had 2 miscarriages in 2019. You can get through this. It is also an amazing sign you are willing and able to talk about this openly it helps in the healing.

I can't imagine how that must've felt like or the amount of pain you must've gone through but I pray that God will heal your heart dry your tears. Know that he is always there for you in good and bad times may God bless you and be with you and your family 💕💕

You’ve always been my favorite from clever. But honestly Erin your amazing💕. I’m not a girl and I’ll never understand the pain and struggles you went through. But I so highly appreciate that you were strong enough to share such a dark time in your life. It’s truly inspirational and you are just amazing. Hope you keeping getting better and staying strong.

I read that title and screamed “noooooooo”

The loss of a child at anytime is unimaginable. My daughter passed in my arms at 6 days old. I feel your pain and you are not alone. God bless you.

Thank you so much for sharing!! I’m heartbroken for you, sending so much love your way 💕💕💕

This rips all my heart strings ❤️ so much love to you and the hubby

This is the most honest thing I've ever seen. Bless you and your husband 💛

Oh my days, Erin. I'm sitting here bawling my eyes out. That anyone has to go through this breaks my heart. I hope you can feel the love and the prayers that people are offering up for you and your husband right now. There is nothing but love and God that can take this pain, and even then, it might not all go away. I hope you find comfort and peace and that your rainbow baby comes and helps heal your heart.

I’m so sorry you had to go through that. Sending you lots of love! Stay strong!

I’m so sorry you went through this. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your story. You are so strong 💜

I saw a comment once where they said “a wife loses a husband and she’s called a widow, a husband loses a wife and he’s called a widower. A child loses a parent and their called an orphan, but when a parent loses a child, there is no name for them. You know why? Because no one can describe the feelings, emotions, or pain of losing a child through one word” that comment always stuck with me since I’ve seen it. The loss of a child in anyway is unbearable, i just know you will get a chance to see that beautiful baby and give them all the love you have. Maybe not in this time, but definitely the next.

My mom miscarried after me and went on to have three more children. She said that she got through it by thinking God decided the child wasn’t ready for this world just yet. Not sure if your religious but I thought I’d share ❤️

I’m so sorry for your loss, my heart aches for you and your family. Thank you for being a voice and resource for others when it clearly isn’t easy.

I honestly have no words. I cannot even imagine the immense amount of emotional and physical pain you are going through. All I can say is thank you for sharing your story. I am beyond sorry you are experiencing this right now. So beyond sorry. Sending you hugs and positive thoughts during this time.

Erin, I went through the exact same thing in June of 2019. It’s ok to be sad, it’s ok to NOT be ok, it’s ok to not be strong, it’s ok to angry as hell. Time WILL heal you, time WILL help. For me talking about it openly with friends and family and having this amazing support system around helped so much. Now 1 year later, it is still sad and it’s still gets me crying. But you will have good days and bad. Keep your chin up you ARE amazing you ARE good enough.

I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I had a miscarriage in May of 2019, and it was so incredibly hard and painful, it was also my first pregnancy. I am currently 23 weeks pregnant with my second pregnancy. When I did the math, we had actually conceived the day before my first pregnancy’s due date. My heart is breaking for you, but you are strong, and great things are coming your way.

So incredibly sorry for your loss. Praying for you and overall hoping that you are able to heal you are so strong and can get through so much.

I’m so sorry that you are having to go through this. I couldn’t imagine going through that. You are such a strong woman! You don’t have to try to please anyone! You don’t owe anyone anything. Do whatever makes you feel like you can keep going. We are here for you forever and always!❤️

Stay Strong Erin during this difficult time

My mom had a miscarriage before me and it’s almost been 19 years and it still hurts and even tho I wasn’t born yet it hurts knowing I would’ve had an older sibling but it’s ok god is up there playing with ur baby and taking care of the baby til u are up there with them

Sending love and lots of virtual hugs. You are so loved and I’m so very sorry you had to go through this 🥺❤️

I’m so sorry for your loss. Sending love and healing your and your husbands way 💛

When you said "I'll never forget my baby" that hit me. My mom for years told me about the babies she miscarried before and after me. I never too much about it. I am so sorry.

This is so brutal I can't even imagine. I knew miscarriages were traumatic but I had no idea they could be like this. I'm so sorry Erin

Erin you are such a wonderful mother, and you’ll be reunified with your baby in heaven. ❤️ sending love and prayers your way, I’m so sorry for your hardship.

this is the first video i have seen of you and i can tell you are so incredibly strong and i cannot imagine what you have and are going through. words cannot express my condolences for you. sending so much love and prayers your way. everything happens for a reason and i know good things are coming your way. stay strong. ♥️♥️♥️

Erin, I’m so sorry y’all have had to go though that kind of loss.

Erin you're not alone. We're here for you and we love you. Through this storm you will get your rainbow. I am 1 in 4, sharing your story does help others. I lost my first son at 35wks pregnant then had a healthy baby the following year and between 2008 and 2015 I had 16 early miscarriages and in 2016 I had a missed miscarriage (babys heart was gone at 7to10 weeks and carried and physically had my miscarriage at 12 weeks) then finally in 2017 I got pregnant with our fourth child and had our second rainbow baby. I Am 1 in 4 my journey has been hard and emotionally draining. I have a strong feeling in my heart you will have your rainbow baby soon Erin. I LOVE YOU ERIN. My heart is with you and Matt.. With love and positive thoughts from New Mexico ❣

Omg I’m so sorry you had to go through this 😞 you and your family are in my prayers. 💛

My missed miscarriage 9 years ago sounds almost identical to yours. I got the same excitement of my pregnancy, got gifts and furniture from family and friends then had to find out my baby wasn’t living and body didn’t want to let it go to remove it. I was also told if I didn’t get it out it could be very dangerous. I had a D&C and went through a lot of emotional, physical and spiritual pain like you did. I am glad you are willing to talk about your story and help other women feel they are not alone. I am hoping you and your husband may indeed have a full-term pregnancy soon. I am still waiting for mine. 🙂

I also had a medical miscarriage at 23 weeks pregnant. My baby girl had a rare defect called anencephaly, underdeveloped brain and an incomplete skull. She had zero chance for surviving outside the womb. Then my own health started to deteriorate, so I made the hard choice give birth at 23 weeks. It was very emotional and made a scar on my heart.

My heart goes out to you. I've had infertility issues and many miscarriages. I was certainly not prepared. A lot of women have infertility and miscarriage/infant loss. thank you for being brave enough to come forward. It's such a hard thing to talk about and experience. Wishing you well. I hope you heal as quickly as you can and mourn your baby in your own time. Also hopeful that when you are both ready, that you carry your rainbow baby easily and without complications. Im so sorry. I'm so heartbroken for you both.

I am so so so sorry, this is one of the most heartbreaking videos i've ever watched. Sending you hugs. I hope you are able to get through this and make us a video someday with your new born baby. Stay strong!

My god Erin I’m sooo sorry for your loss that’s absolutely heartbreaking. Sending you all the love in the world ❤️ love you x

I’m sorry for your loss just isn’t enough. Take care of yourself.

Wow, this hit home like a lot. I too lost a child three years back to a miscarriage it didn’t happen in any worldwide pandemic, but I’m just my immediate family my life was falling apart. The same weekend of my miscarriage I caught my at the time fiancé with another woman in our house and so I was struggling there and then also my parents told the family they were getting divorced. I was utterly alone in a sense. I had no one to turn to and went through it myself. Alone. It was the darkest point in my life feeling the loss of something you have waited your life to be able to do. And then for your body to reject the child growing inside you on top of being rejected by someone you planned to spend forever with. And then not being able to turn to your family because of feeling guilty and hurt and so much more. God got me through a spot in my life that I will never forget. I miss my child every day and I alone celebrate that he is in heaven and 100% ok. Erin I will tell you the pain and ache in your heart doesn’t go away. The wondering and thoughts of where life would be if they were here doesn’t go away, but it does get easier. Easier to think about the journey you had and the wonderings of cute toes and soft skin. Next month my angel son will be 3yrs old. And although he can’t be here to celebrate. I celebrate it for him. on his would be birthday I send one single balloon up to him with a note written on it. Just so he knows I’m here and His mommy loves him very much.

I just had a missed miscarriage in May. I had to have the D and C procedure done at a surgical center and they couldn't get me to stop bleeding and had to have me transferred to the ER at the hospital across the street where I had to have a blood transfusion and another procedure done to get my body to start clotting on its own. This was my first pregnancy. It was a miracle pregnancy. Thank you for sharing your story. Know that you are not alone, 1 in 4 women suffer from miscarriages and not many people speak up about it.

My heart is with you 😞 I ve gone through the same thing in February this year. It will get easier but our babies will never be forgotten ❤️

This is so gut wrenching and so sad. I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry you had to go through something so traumatic. I’ve never experienced that or had anyone I know go through something like this, so on that basis, thank you so much for sharing your experience and information on this. You’re so right in that women are never told about the specifics of what this experience is like and what you see and feel. So thank you for this video and videos in the future on this issue for sharing information so that it will be less of a blow and mystery of this does happen to someone after watching your videos. No one talks about this issue as it’s so sensitive, but it kind of also works against everyone because it’s such a mystery as to what really happens so it can be a struggle to feel like you don’t know what the hell is going on with your own body and knowledge is always power.

I miscarried two weeks ago... I am heart broken. I keep finding myself rubbing my tummy and when I remember theres nothing there anymore the pit in my heart gets bigger 😞 I'm sorry for your loss x

I can't imagine how much pain you're in right now, and what you're going through, but I want you to know that I'm here to support you 100% and you'll be in my prayers❤ Thank you for talking about it, and helping other women through difficult times like this. I hope you come out stronger, and I can only wish you all the happiness you deserve from now on❤

Matt is a king and I’m so thankful you have each-other especially in that time. I’m praying for you 💜