its understandable, if the implant was 9 months ago shes still getting use to sound, she was born deaf and went through her entire life without hearing a sound. this is unfortunate problem most adults go though when they get their hearing, they feel like they are a completely different person and everything is completely turned around. this is actually why most people get implants or hearing devices when they are babies or toddlers, not only for language and sound to develop but also to avoid this

I did a presentation on this actor. First Deaf superhero in the MCU, and in an interview she said that her deafness wasn't a challenge, but the ignorance of those around her is. Fucking legend

That look on her face, one of complete relaxation and joy, when she realized her world was silent again spoke more than words ever could.

My wife is an ASL interpreter. Cohclear implants are actually a taboo topic in the deaf community. When an adult gets one, they're often disconnected from their deaf friends as they're looked at as not being true to themselves and who they really are. When parents get the implants for the child, the parents are looked at as forcing a permanent life decision on their child. The implants do not make a deaf person hear clearly. That's a myth. Most of the time, it's like your ears being under the surface of a pool and somebody trying to talk to you. This becomes a struggle for a deaf person. The deaf community steps back from them because they have the implant, but the person also is disconnectd from the rest of the world as they cannot hear clearly and is still seen as a deaf person. It can be a very lonely world when you're a piece of the puzzle with rough edges.

My partner's brother became deaf soon after birth (genetic defect) and he got implants as a toddler. For him it was terrifying hearing people talk, for the longest time he hated wearing them because voices sounded like robotic screeching. This show is fiction but not far from reality.

For a potential comparison for people who can't understand why she'd want to remain deaf, I can only imagine it would be something like this: Suddenly colors and light are always blindingly bright, everything you hear sounds like the volume is at max, touching a warm mug of coffee feels like grabbing molten rock, going in a swimming pool feels like being in the coldest part of the Arctic Ocean, a mildly sweet snack tastes like eating literally sickeningly sweet icing straight from the tube, smelling some just expired milk is like being in the middle of a dump. And you can't turn any of it off.

I've heard of blind people getting surgeries to see and just freaking out because they aren't used to it. I guess it would be like an alien coming down and giving you the ability to sense electromagnetic waves like a shark.

I am hearing impaired. 80% Nerve loss since birth. I wear hearing aids. I truly understand and relate to this lady. Many times the silence speaks loud volumes!!! True in the heart and actions

As someone who is on the spectrum, even I still get overwhelmed when there is too much sound. So I can definitely understand how she is feeling. Even after 9 months, her being overwhelmed after living her whole life deaf is still going to be difficult.

This is kinda why I'm all about this kind of tech being used for restoration rather than endowment. If you've never seen or heard your entire life, adjusting to an entire new sense might be more of a problem than a benefit. Some people might dig it, others not so much, so it should be a case-by-case thing. And the ability to turn it off at will would definitely be a must for overstimulation.

Lauren Ridloff is an INCREDIBLE actress.

It's like culture shock. I would feel very thrown off if my autism and mental illnesses suddenly disappeared.

Honestly being able to hear when you weren’t capable of it, sound so overwhelming, like she said she understands the world in a different perspective. And it dosent have to be bad to gain this ability, but the thing is, we can hear and imagine a world without sound horrible because we are loosing something, but she never “lost” something, she just never have it. And gaining something new doesn’t mean you are gonna like it.

As a hearing person I may not be able to understand fully but I understand to a degree. As with sensory issues I wear headphones to limit or block sound. And suddenly taking them off and being able to ear clearly makes a sense of panic arise in me. Yes I can't hear well or at all with them all but I enjoy life through different means like feeling music through beats and vibration. You don't have to hear to communicate or enjoy life.

There was a Medieval physician whom, when he lost his eyesight, declined an ocular surgery: “I have seen enough of this world and do not need to endure a surgery to see any more of it.” I can imagine how the deaf women with the implant must have similarly felt about being able to hear for the first time.

The conversation in the therapist's office (there are moments when it focuses on the doctor so things get missed) Tori: Why won't you tell me what's wrong?! Margot: You don't want to hear it! Camera loses focus Tori: But what? Margot: I get angry. Tori: I support you! Margot: You like to remind me... Camera again Tori: I'm trying, but I'm tired Margot: When you do something for me, you act like I'm weighing you down. I'm not a burden! "Why do you want the implant?" Margot: I wanted it for you.

when I finally got my hearing aids 6 years ago after struggling for a long time, I felt like a different person so happy and my confidence grew, an implant is an option for me but to be honest I'm terrified! ....as long as my hearing aids let me hear I'm happy sometimes I feel overwhelmed by sounds especially outside....retiring to bed removing ha's reading a book, can be bliss 😏

I like that they covered this very realistic topic, there are a lot of deaf people who have gotten CI's that have really struggled with it, and even hated it. But it really doesnt seem like they did any research on deaf culture or cochlear implants for this episode outside of knowing that this is an issue.

I hate hearing everyone's crap too.

She doesn't need to remove the implant. She can remove the external microphone. Without it, the sound processor can't stimulate the auditory nerve in the cochlea.

Beautiful moment at the end when she wakes up and there is no sound 💗

Well I guess for someone who has lived in silence for most of their life and suddenly able to hear sounds they never had before, it would be scary, uncomfortable and an awful experience to have. Probably why they always try to install those implants when they are children. I don't blame this character for not liking the ability to hear. It's the same for anyone who has have hearing all their life and suddenly unable to. It's not for everyone. Deafness is an identity, not a disability.

This makes sense if you think about it. I was born with the ability to hear and it's scary to imagine a life without that ability. Someone who is born deaf or been deaf for many years would face many struggles in adapting to hearing for the first time. Also, the therapy session was well written and it scared me lol. The therapist was basically warping into my therapist in front of my eyes with those questions

As an ASL Medical Interpreter, physically, this is far more common than one might think. Many times when an adult gets a cochlear implant it doesn't work as well because they have already finished growing. You will find far better results with children. Also, in general, it is a LOT more difficult to have cochlear implants removed. In fact, a lot of people who want them gone have to just take the outer piece off, so the implant is "disconnected", but they will have to live the rest of their lives with it. Many times the only way they can get the surgery approved by insurance is if they are in danger medically because having it put in is considered a "quality of life" sort of deal - like an amputee getting a prosthetic, but taking it out is considered an "elective" surgery. It's ridiculous, I know, but sadly that's the way it is. As for emotionally/mentally, this is also far more common with adults. By now, this woman has already integrated into the Deaf Community where there is a huge stigma about cochlear implants. Many people in the Deaf Community take pride in being Deaf - as they should - so seeing one of their own getting an implant is sort of like getting stabbed in the back. You chose to join their world and leave ours, the one you were born and raised in. In serious cases, some people have literally been shunned from the community all together. Now, this isn't true for the entire Community, of course, but this is New York we are talking about. They are very close to one of the largest and strongest Deaf Communities in all of America: Rochester, NY. That is an old and strong community where Deafness is a *huge* thing. It is *so* important. The Deaf Community has gone through hell and back, and they still have to deal with so much discrimination, especially in the work force, so they are very tightly knit. Everybody knows everybody, or at least know mutuals of everybody. I can understand the shock this woman must feel, the anxiety and overstimulation, all of it, but as Dr. Frome briefly mentioned, there is that sudden disconnect from her entire culture and by extension her identity. This show actually represented this situation incredibly well and I am even more surprised that they got the ASL down pat! It was incredibly accurate and in the correct grammatical structure and everything! Also, I just recently read that they are bringing an actual Deaf Actress into the permanent cast! She is incredible and will be a surgeon. Sandra Mae Frank was in the Deaf West Theater group, too - think Broadway, but Deaf. I am so excited for the Season 4 premier this September!

gotta love the kid just banging the rock against the tree for no reason xD

I totally get this. I'm deaf in my left ear due to decades of horrible migraines. It happened so slowly that I didn't fully understand what was happening. It just felt like the music in bars was louder and my friends spoke more softly. I'd scream, "what?" and we'd move on. I started seeing a neurologist because I developed nerve damage in my thigh.she ordered a brain MRI scan as part of standard care. The amount of gray matter in my brain was epic. I do have c-PTSD but she said this was excessive for even the most engaged case of PTSD. She sent me off for a hearing test and I found out that I was deaf in my left ear. We all assumed that this deafness must be holding me back in various ways. I was about to defend my PhD dissertation and finish my final case studies and medical rounds for my ND, DO. But, I found it impossible to study, read, focus or fully connect with my patients because of the hearing aid I was issued. During the middle of facilitating a therapy session, I yanked the hearing aid out because not being present and connected with a therapy patient is simply not okay. I've tried putting it in a few times since then and it sounds like the world is crashing around me. It literally makes me anxious and so frustrated. Depeche Mode was correct: Enjoy the Silence.

So weird seeing Lauren on TV, me and her share a cousin, I haven’t seen her since 2015 at our cousin’s wedding, but I remember hanging out with her two adorable sons. I wonder if we’ll ever see each other again.

Cochlear implant’s are a great invention, device to help people hear. But it is up to the individuals, obviously all of the noise of the world would be frightening for someone who has never heard anything before. We always hear the happy stories of implants, and this storyline obviously shows the opposite. Brave to subject yourself to surgery to get the implants, then to a second to have them removed.

I'm really sensitive to sounds for other reasons. That one scene on the bench was way too relatable. Sometimes noise just presses on you and silence is a relief.

I totally get why she made the decision she made but I’m wondering are there options to gradually ease into it? maybe it would have been helpful to use noise canceling ear muffs and gradually go down from hearing nothing to hearing some sounds until she adjusts. This has got to be so jarring for someone who can’t hear anything to hearing it all at once.

I'm pretty sure there are implants that can be turned on and off somehow similar to a hearing aid, which the doctor was about to bring up, then the show conveniently ignored it. Then she could just use it when she needs or wants it, such as approaching a railroad tracks. It would be absurd to reject the option altogether.

I worked with the coolest guy ever. He was born deaf and his parents forced him to get the implants. He absolutely hated them and the noise. According to him they just didn’t want to learn how to sign. As an adult when the doctors told him he would need another surgery or the implants wouldn’t work anymore he chose not to it. Still think he’s awesome.

The silence at the end was amazing

you know i can understand a bit. I get so overwhelmed when there is -to me- too much noise, even if for people it's normal amount and they don't notice it. this is why i hate being near place where there is lots of people. sound hypersensitivity sucks can only imagine how much worse it must be for someone who only ever heard silence then be forced to hear everything at once, it would drive anyone nuts

This is how I feel about my eyesight. My fiance keeps trying to push me to get corrective surgery, but I completely refuse. I was born nearly completely blind in my left eye. I grew up with it called a "lazy eye," and only recently discovered that was incorrect. My left eye is a copy of my right in every way. They both look the same outside and inside, and both are healthy. The issue is my brain. My brain never developed in the womb for sight in my left eye. From birth, I have only ever been able to see from a small sliver in the very left corner. My sight there is blurry, so I can't discern the shape of objects, people, etc. It's enough for me to still be safe on my left side, to not be completely "blind sided" by danger, so where's the harm of not having sight? My right eye sees perfectly. I do have a stigma, as does literally everyone in the world anyway, but I'm able to easily function with my sight and glasses. There's no pain or lack of health based on the mythological "strength" of your eye that's been proven false. So why would I need to change something about myself that I don't feel is an issue? If it doesn't impact my life in a negative way, why change? There is no benefit to seeing with both eyes, anyway. You'll still see the same amount, which is only what's in front of you. I don't magically gain eyeballs in the back of my head to gain full sight around me, so why care? You should never feel like you have to change something about yourself just because some people claim it's an "advantage."

That was beautifully and sensitively done. In my opinion, it goes to show, once again, that there's no standard, cookie-cutter decision that fits everyone. What sounds right and natural to a hearing person may not work well with how a deaf person chooses to experience their world. Very well done indeed.

Can we just give credit to the amazing acting in this! Wow, bravo!

Cities are loud places it must be strange going from quiet and nothingness to loud banging children screaming, and cars and people yelling whether good or bad.

I have been able to hear my entire life and I flinched at what Margot was hearing from her implant. Each individual deserves the right to determine how they live their life, including how they handle their disabilities.

Tyler Labine has come so far since BREAKER HIGH as Jimmy!! (1998) 😅😅😅

I think if you've never heard sound before, it'd be better to stay in a rural area for a couple weeks. You could adjust more slowly, you'd have to have the vacation days from work to do it so that's a downside, but it'd be better than going from nothing to city noise.

I like this perspective!

It would be great to see a show with these characters and Dr. house

Cochlear implants don't cure being Deaf. They don't make Deaf people hear sounds like hearing people hear sounds. It all sounds very robotic and is hard to learn how to tune, especially if you've never experienced much sound before(not all Deaf people have total hearing loss, but getting the implant actually takes away all your hearing completely). The part of your brain that is meant for sound isn't active for interpreting sounds, usually it will take up the job of another one of your senses. So its no wonder why a Deaf woman who has been Deaf her whole life hates the implants because she's getting bombarded with robotic, scary, loud, and unintelligible sounds. It probably would cause lots of migraines too from the brain being forced to experience stimuli that isn't isn't wired to handle. Also, as others have said, you can just remove the outer device (its a magnet that attaches to the metal plate in your head)to disable the implant, you don't have to have the implant surgically removed.

she also HATES being in a zombie apocalypse with her sister.

I found this quite easy to understand. I experienced sensory overload the first time I visited Bangkok, Thailand. It was the kind of discomfort you could live with for a while, but with time it became maddening. Not "angry" mad, but "insane" mad. I had to get away.

I thought that if you had one of these, all you would have to do is take off the external unit. The Miss America winner who was deaf, who got one of these after having children joked that if they were being noisy, rambunctious, or irritating, she could just turn the bloody thing off and poof, instant silence.

The problem is she lives in a busy city area and probably constantly bombarded with noise. Even regular people go through this, I can’t imagine for someone who was deaf

cochlear implants can be disabled without having to be removed. You can just turn it off. Why get rid of the option?

This reminds me of my developmental psychology class. Going through the critical period in your development (birth til around 23-25) without being able to hear makes it very hard to adapt to being able to hear for the first time.

Can we just agree what a gorgeous, gorgeous actress she is. I wish we could see her in many more productions.

I love the ending how everything was silent

I like the choice of keeping it completly silent near the end- to show how she (doesnt) hear.

she plays the deaf character in twd too, she’s such a good actress

This reminds me of my own experiences, although I am not deaf. Was diagnosed with panic disorder, general anxiety, ADHD

I never thought of this from this perspective before.Very in lighting.

the sound of silence

i’m crying violently

LAUREN IS SO AMAZING

It surprises a lot of regular hearing people, but most people that are deaf don't want to be able to hear. Most of the time, they're fine with being deaf because that's the only thing they've known. Its normal for them.

I am not as profoundly deaf as this lady but, I am often happy to have days where I can shut off and not have to where my hearing aids. The brain needs to calm down from sensory overkill.

Sensory overload! Nobody knows it until they know it... and for Co hlear you can't wear noise canceling anything. You can only take the magnet off and deal with the beeping.

BLISTFUL SILENCE!! AHHHH

most deaf ppl don’t really see deafness as a disability it’s understandable that she’s uncomfortable and doesn’t want to keep the implant anymore she realized that it’s more of burden and isn’t rlly helping

On a much smaller scale, this reaction comes with new hearing aides. When I take them out it feels like someone put a heavy blanket over me. And I have always been able to hear; I can’t imagine having never heard at all and suddenly being thrown into the cacophony of city sounds.

As some one who deals with loud noise causing panic attacks I get this

Gaining a sense can be as shocking and world-spinning as losing it.

if you wanna know what it's like to have an auditory and/or sensory processing disorder, the scene with her in the park hearing every single sound at once is very accurate. cochlear implants aren't just internal though, they have an external piece that attaches to a magnet placed under the scalp that transmits the sound to the internal receiver. if you've ever seen someone, especially an adult, wearing headphones in public, or if you've ever wondered why noise cancelling headphones are so important for autistic people, it's because unlike with a cochlear implant, we can't take our ears off or turn the volume down on the world. when I was a kid, I used to wish I had been born deaf because all I knew was that the world was too loud, it made too many sounds. now I know it's both an auditory and a sensory processing disorder, I can't filter out "unimportant" sounds like the sounds of traffic or the fridge being on or the person texting in the seat next to me. seeing someone else experience the same thing I do, however temporary, would've been HUGE for 8 year old me to see

This is me, even tho I was born hearing I wish I was often deaf. This world is too noisy for me and I live in one of the biggest cities in the world. 24/7 stimulation

My great grandma got hearing aids after her hearing became week. She hated them. I tried them to find out the issue. And goddamn it everything was so loud and overwhelming no wonder she hated them. Her brain got so tired separating the sounds.

I'm not saying I want to be deaf. But, if my entire world had been silent for most of my life and then suddenly it wasn't anymore, I think I might feel the same way.

I loved her in the eternal movie

So I just watched a video about Cochlear Implants after watching this (link at the end). As it turns out, they aren't perfect at replicating the sounds of the real world. They aren't good at replicating pitch and timbre, so all it's really good for is interpreting what someone is saying in a 1 on 1 conversation. They aren't very useful when multiple people are talking in a crowd either. So her experience with environmental sounds and her complaints about singing and music among other things totally makes sense. They work very differently from hearing aids. Link to the video by SciShow: kzfaq.info/get/bejne/ouCXhNV5q6qyfHk.html

I read the comments, I understand the point of view of the deaf woman in the video, but I still find her strange. With some effors and concentration she wouldn't think of other people's thoughts as "distractions". This love of silence is at a whole new level.

It's like suddenly getting a sensory processing disorder.

Wow 🥺🙏🏻

I have a vision impairment and I can tell you this much the sounds I hear drives me nuts. I had eye surgery and I one person say that I should not hear as much as I do. I told the person it helped my eyes not ears. Sigh I understand how she feels because the sound is an overload to her system

I know this is nowhere near the same but my grandmother went through this when she got her hearing aids. She's a very nervous person by nature and I think that, as frustrating as not being able to hear as well is, it was overwhelming when she was able to hear better again. She usually only wears them at family gatherings or meetings now because just being able to hear everything around her stresses her out and gives her even more anxiety at this point.

Ok. I would like to say, I am a hearing person. I have always been a hearing person. To me it seems like a mix of sensory overload and a panic/anxiety attack. (I have had all three so I understand those feelings) It doesn't seem like the other can understand what she feels in those moments. It seems like it becomes too much and she can't take it. I feel bad for her in those moments.

Hey it’s connie, last time I saw her, she saved a baby from the whisperers and walkers

So happy she was able to go back to her herself and her life ❤❤️❤️ Kind of a medical question: but would there be a way to turn off the implant or disconnect it without going back under the knife? To get her relief ASAP and to minimize risk? Or at least a minimally invasive option?

DAAAH I KNOW THAT ETERNAL SPEEDSTER 😀🤣

I couldn't imagine not even being able to hear myself breathe and then all of a sudden that nerve ending turns on. You know your body. I know being pregnant ever is not safe for me, she knew that living with the implant let on intrusive thoughts she couldn't get rid of.

I remember her from The movie Eternals and The Walking Dead

Poor girl she wanted it to hear to be with her and for her… But in the end sound was too much for her to bare and she couldn’t do it… it had to be horrible to all the sudden just hear things like I can’t imagine it… she must have been scared

That's connie from the walking dead ❤

I don't think people understand that there's more to it than just being able to see or hear someone who's never experienced it in their life would have a really hard time adjusting to everything and they might not view things the way that we do it can really have an effect on the person's mental health and they might not be used to it I'm not against people getting their sight or hearing restored if they wanted but sometimes these things do more harm than good people don't realize the impact that something like this might have on the person it's kind of like being asked to suddenly work at a job that you have no experience in it can be an outright terrifying experience for most people I think people need to realize that there's more to it than just putting on hearing aids or getting a surgery to have sight restored it takes a lot of time and energy and it can have a tremendous effect on someone who's never experienced these things before I wish more people understood this it should be up to the person and what they want

The show is trying to present a sympathetic view of someone who reacts badly to the ability that the implant provides her. The implant has not changed who she is, but she is unable to express it in another way. As an adult, she is entitled to conclude that she does not want the implants. I had a patient in my practice who is deaf and received implants as a young teen - and did just fine with them after an adjustment period. The implants are not perfect - they let her hear sounds but she still had to lip read or use American Sign Language. She communicates in ways that make her feel comfortable; it is my hope that others in personal and professional settings will accept her. A colleague of mine was tortured, ridiculed and driven out of a pediatric residency program in the 1990s because the residency director, an amoral and arrogant jerk, decided that people with disabilities should not be physicians.

Im not deaf but when i was 16 i got diagnosed with Chronic Bilateral Uveitis (Uveitis in both eyes), I only noticed it when the sclera of my eyes was was as bloodshot and red as a stop sign, i could barely see a hand in front of my face and it felt like my eyeballs were on fire and about to fall out of my head, stepped out into the sunlight and i was closing my eyes so hard it felt like my eyes were going to be pushed into the back of my skull and my eyelids were going to curl in on themselves.. The symptoms got brought under control but usually if you get it once, you WILL get it again. In my case I already have a compromised immune system so there is nothing that can be done but treat the symptoms. Because of the light sensativity I effectively changed my circadian rhythm, Slept during the day and was awake at night. I am 100% blind during the day, cant even open my eyes if the sun is out but at night time? I can see everything. When i was 20 i got the opportunity to get laser surgery to get my pupils off of my lenses i thought i would go back to normal but everything seemed so dull and lifeless, it was like i couldnt see color anymore, i couldn't see shadows or contrast (Which is pretty big when you really enjoy painting and drawing) when i was 22 i had another flare up and I instantly knew that because when i woke up i could suddenly "See" again and my dad said he knew something changed because it was the first time he had seen me wake up with a smile on my face in a long time. going on 12 years and i refuse to have surgery again. To me the best way i can explain it is to take a bowl of fruit and shine 30 lights on it from every angle, thats how i saw things with corrective surgery, almost colorless, no shadows to speak of. now take away 29 of those lights so there is 1 light shining on it, all the sudden you can see the color in all of its vibrance, you can see the imperfections on the surface of the fruit, the shadows, and the shapes. Don't do what you think you should do for other people. Do what you think is right for you.

Im hard of hearing. My school offered hearing aids when I was a kid. I hated it. It made it harder to focus on what the teacher was saying because it made EVERYTHING louder, indiscriminately and you cant filter it the way you can with natural hearing. Its hard to explain but its not the same as hearing regularly.

If your born deaf, I can fully understand why someone would be against having an implant. This just shows how different experiences give a different perspective.

I can understand this but to a fraction of it's severity. I have mild hearing loss but it's bad enought that I need hearing aids especially as my hearing is uneven so without hearing aids it's quite dangerous as I can't hear the direction a car is coming from for example. When I first got my hearing aids I was utterly shocked by how loud the world is, even though in reality I was only hearing marginally better than I did before. Even now, 2 years after I got my hearing aids i still physically cringe from bus breaks, the alarm at crossings and (my absolute least favourite) the sirens on emergency vehicles. I often have panic attacks due to being in environments that are too loud and sometimes choose to wear noise dampening headphones rather than my hearing aids when i'm out with friends so I know that I am safe. I don't really know if people who have had healthy hearing their entire life can understanf since there isn't really a clear comparison

Give her special noice cancelling headphones She is now an anime character

I was feeling discomfort at the end when the sound cut out.

I was born with almost 72% hearing loss. I was eight or nine when I finally received hearing aids after a test at school sent me home with a note that said, and I quote, "Why doesn't she have hearing aids?" It's because at the time, they didn't do hearing tests. They thought I had anything from autism to mentally ill markers. I wasn't progressing the way I should. I didn't speak other than mumbled and inaudible sounds. When I finally had them, an airplane passed over my house and I was on the floor in fear with some thought that maybe we were under attack. I had anxiety leaving my house and going to school. I'm 29 now and wear hearing aids, and can speak clear sentences. Some days are still hard. There are some sounds that make it feel like there's a bomb going off in my head -- but I love being able to hear my nieces and nephew's voices; and hear my cats purring. It's different for everyone.

It’s Connie from the walking dead! 😮 she’s such a great actress I need to watch her in more stuff. Honestly saying this actor is what made me click on the video lol. This is how it feels when I become overwhelmed with sounds with my autism.

I know nothing about the implants, but it seems like a volume setting would be usefull so they dont need to be removed when they are too much

My stepdad lost most of his hearing dye to and infection absolutely never used his hearing aid....he says it's the worst and not the same as hearing naturally.

Patient: ugh I’m hearing everything Me towards the end: Omg did my speaker blow out I’m hearing nothing !

I’m not deaf but I have an ex boyfriend who was born deaf. His parents got him the implant and he would cry a lot because as he explained “ the sounds are too much for me to take in, it makes me have anxiety attacks “ 😕