NICU Update - Part 2 of Birth Vlog (*Emotional)

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3 жыл бұрын

Our daughter was born October 17,2020 and she was 6 weeks premature. Thankfully she arrived really healthy for a premie, but she still needed to be taken to the NICU soon after her birth. Here is an update on our NICU story.
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Though this is my third child this is my first premie and the entire experience from start to finish has been different than with my others. The pregnancy was a surprise, Covid made pregnancy weird, plus my son was 8 months old when I discovered I was pregnant. Then I went into preterm labor at 31 weeks which has never happened to me before. The bedrest thing too... that was a first. With my first pregnancy my daughter was born at 38 weeks and my son was born on his due date. (There are birth vlogs of their arrivals too.) When this little babe was born we didn't know her name - that was also different. She has a name now though :) It is Juliette Dorothea. She is a little dream girl. Even though all of this has been unexpected and I am very emotional, there are sooo many reasons why I am grateful. Our health being top of the list, and then I am also just thankful for new experiences. I have been learning so much and my hope is that I will be able to take what I am learning and better support the families who view my videos. Thank you for your support & encouragement!
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@AlexesColeman 3 жыл бұрын

My sweet daughter was born at 26 weeks and 4 days and we were in the nicu for 87 days, it does not matter the duration of your stay it is still one of the most painful experiences as a momma. But when I tell you the nicu staff are one of the best groups of people around I mean it, they are all such amazing individuals and will do any and everything for your sweet child! My daughter is now over a year and she had no complications and she’s absolutely perfect! I pray this time will go by quickly for you and that the Lord will give you peace and comfort. That he will be present in every moment and work through the hands and feet of all the physicians that come in contact with your sweet little one. Your feeling are valid and normal and everything will be ok! God bless you and your sweet family !

@aileencitaaa 3 жыл бұрын

You’re glowing in the best way. Your fear and anxiety is valid! Jules is growing beautifully, it will be okay.

@samjanney645 3 жыл бұрын

Brings back so many memories. I had a 23 week and 2 day gestation baby girl. She weighed 1 pound and 1 ounce, 11.5 inches long... Stayed 115 days in the NICU till we finally got to bring home our miracle baby. Definitely one of the hardest experiences of my life.

@emiliehart-poliquin5411 3 жыл бұрын

Those are not just tears of not just fears, but they are the tears of a mother who loves their child more than the sun and the moon and the star s and just wants their baby safe and sound. You are VALID

@doreenperez4686 3 жыл бұрын

She will be fine! The technology today is much more advanced for premises! I was a premie 54 years ago! Weighing 2lbs 10oz! Sending prayers!

@Abigaellanai 3 жыл бұрын

As a previous 27 weeker myself and a NICU nurse my heart and prayers are with you + baby girl + your family!! So glad to hear she’s doing so well. The NICU is never a place parents plan for, so just remember whatever you’re feeling along this journey is totally valid! You’ve got this mama 💛.

@liliesinjune4334 3 жыл бұрын

I totally know what you mean when you said “I don’t know if I want to be with her”. Even though you love your baby, the feeling of helplessness sometimes when your baby is in the NICU is so real. I also cried daily when my little girl was in the NICU and had so much anxiety. Totally normal to cry, yet I didn’t want the nurses to see. My heart goes out to you Jess. You are such an amazing mama and such a beautiful soul. God bless you and your little one.

@emilycasciari7090 3 жыл бұрын

When you started crying it made me cry! You’re so strong and little Jules is too. Praying for you both and your whole family ♥️ And side note: I LOVE the owlet. My baby was full term but she was in the NICU in the hospital due to breathing issues. The owlet has given me so much peace of mind since coming home, we’ve used it every night since we’ve come home!

@budgetmomwifey8977 2 жыл бұрын

Went in 2 days ago and I am in labor but thankfully contractions come and go yesterday and today 34 weeks pregnant we are praying and staying positive she can stay put for another 2 weeks… Our fear is the nicu.. I am so sorry you are going thru this! Prayers to you guys! And that God puts his healing hands on her and you! ❤️❤️❤️

@hollyl5702 3 жыл бұрын

Everytime you apologized for crying, I just wanted to hug you and say "not at all." This is so much for anyone to experience at one time. Everything you feel is valid. ❤️ I am so sorry that you had to go through this.

@sophiawisneski3720 3 жыл бұрын

I just had my daughter back in July, she surprised us 7 weeks early. I can’t tell you how much I can feel and relate to all your emotions. Everyone kept saying that I was probably dying for her to come home, but secretly I was quite terrified and wanted her to stay safely in the hospital. I needed this video! Thank you ❤️

@LeaveNothingUnsaid 3 жыл бұрын

I had a 33 weeker and the NICU experience is so hard. Your feelings are completely valid. I had so much anxiety and postpartum depression from the time with her. You can do this!! You have inspired my motherhood journey so much and are so strong. Thanks for sharing your story!

@LizB1101 3 жыл бұрын

I’m 37 weeks pregnant with my first and I’m crying right along with you. I can’t imagine what you’re going through right now. Praying for God to wrap you in peace and comfort and wash away this anxiety. Your daughter is beautiful, you’re doing an amazing job.

@Han.Dunigan 3 жыл бұрын

I'm dying how he made ribs 😂 also I think aquarium is the cutest name for the incubator ever! You're an amazing mom, Jess!

@rachelgoldstein2202 3 жыл бұрын

Jess! You’re doing incredible. I had some scary complications when I gave birth six weeks ago and I kept apologizing when I’d start crying and I’d blame it on the hormones... I started to realize that those emotions were actually a gift. They help you feel deeply and honestly in these scary moments! Feel them deeply and don’t feel like you have to hide it. You are doing amazing and you are so strong!! And it’s also okay when you don’t feel strong! Praying for you and your sweet new girl!

@annarocha3254 3 жыл бұрын

You mentioned in one of your videos that you loved the verse, "blessed are the pure of heart for they shall see God". Your little baby has such a pure heart and Jesus is walking right beside her and the rest of your sweet family. Your anxiety is SO valid, but you do have so many people praying for you and the creator of the entire universe adores you and adores Jules. ♥️

@ryanm7249 3 жыл бұрын

Amen! Do you know what video she said that in?

@annarocha3254 3 жыл бұрын

@@ryanm7249 I'm sorry, unfortunately I can't remember the exact video. I believe it was a video talking about how she became a Christian if that helps.

@hollypulliam 3 жыл бұрын

Oh Jess you precious mama. When you cry, I cry!!! Oh man it really ignites the big sis in me. You’re doing SO GOOD in such a challenging situation. I wish I could hug you and cook for you and clean your house and help you care for those babies while you adjust to the new normal ❤️❤️❤️ Love you, friend!! You’ve got this.

@jennfortier6737 Жыл бұрын

It's ok to cry momma don't be sorry. My son was born almost 5 weeks early so I know how you feel. My son weighed 6 pounds 1 oz and was 18 inches long so our babies were really close in weighed. But momma dont apologize for crying we understand. Sending big hugs to you. ❤❤

@ronnaronna5916 3 жыл бұрын

Stay strong momma. I watched you while I was pregnant with my first baby. Your videos helped me feel more normal about my anxiety of birth and motherhood. I love how real and honest you are. 💜

@user-lg3sw8kq8u 3 жыл бұрын

My nephew was 6 weeks premature, very similar to your situation. He couldn't breathe on his own for a few weeks when he was born but now he's a healthy, soccer-loving teenager who's taller than me! Praying for your family, I'm sure Jules will be out of NICU soon!

@LaJuera25 3 жыл бұрын

Yep... you’re still crushin it. AND vlogging to boot.

@elizabethalbert5138 3 жыл бұрын

Hey, fellow NICU mom here! I just want to say that all of your feelings are so valid and relatable. Tears and all. I remember feeling super inadequate, like I wasn’t qualified to care for my baby, babies in my mind were already fragile but a NICU baby? It was almost like holding a cracked porcelain doll, hoping that you wouldn’t shatter it just by breathing the wrong way. I also felt an unbelievable urge to get my baby home (we live 3.5 hrs away from our nearest NICU). I knew that the best place for him was the NICU until he was stable but all I wanted was to snuggle my baby free from tubes and wires and be a parent to him. In a way, especially with the Covid rules and regulations, it felt like the hospital owned him and I was just a visitor. I really appreciate you bringing this to the table, it definitely helps me feel a bit more validated and I’m sure will be an immense help to other NICU parents out there. I’m also sure that you have a ton of support and you’ve probably been told this a million times but don’t forget to do a mental check in, or maybe see a postpartum doula that can help you unload some of the mental baggage that comes from a traumatic labour/delivery. Lots of love and light to you all 💕

@kimboslice1356 3 жыл бұрын

My son was in NICU on the CPAB machine and it was tough. Never been so worried in my life!! I TOTALLY understand the anxiety. You're an amazing mother with sharp instincts so please trust that, and you will eventually look back on this as a distant memory. My prayers are with you and your family Jessica. We love you girl!

@meaganvillone2253 3 жыл бұрын

Jess, you're doing so great. I know that emotional feeling... My son is 5 weeks and I spent the first 3 crying all the time over every kind of emotion. Your daughter is perfect! 💙

@sammarino9063 3 жыл бұрын

Aww Momma, I had a surprise baby 7 weeks early, totally get where you are coming from. Its so hard to see your baby on tubes and in an incubator. Mine had a machine breath for him. The whole experience was overwhelming. He is now an amazing 13 year old, and never stops, has the energy of five people. I will never forget all the nurses and his doctors, they saved his life and took such good care of him. Im praying for you and your sweet little Jules. ❤

@findingtreasurepodcast 3 жыл бұрын

Didn't know how emotional this would be for me watching! I had my first baby back in May and she had to spend a month in the NICU and come home on a feeding tube. The trauma of it all was so intense and difficult to process while it was happening... I am still working through it almost 6 months later! Thank you for sharing this -- praying your baby girl home soon!

@paisleyrae207 3 жыл бұрын

Jess, you just seem like the warmest, sweetest, most beautiful human being ever! ❤️❤️❤️ Everything is going to be great momma! Congratulations! I’m so happy for you guys.. you’re family is so beautiful!

@viola6562 3 жыл бұрын

Your feelings are absolutely valid. Your beautiful little Jules will develop even more every day and grow strong and healthy 💞 Sending you love and prayers❣

@heatherstrandquist6789 3 жыл бұрын

Oh Jess, I'm sending you SO SO MUCH love. Your fears and anxiety are sooo valid. You have been through so much with Jules in such a short amount of time. You are an AMAZING mom. 💜 I hope that your sweet girl gets to come home soon, and I hope that having her home helps with your anxiety a bit.

@kelseylambeth2299 3 жыл бұрын

No need to respond, but I hope you see this. I found your channel when I was pregnant with my first this time last year. I had an amazing pregnancy, very healthy. However, my little boy came 10 weeks early during covid and spent 39 days in the NICU. I was the only parent allowed to visit which was incredibly difficult for both my husband and I. I totally understand where you are with anxiety, but as all NICU parents will say, remember to celebrate ever cord/tube that comes out. Your little one will be home soon! Praying for health, anxiousness to go away, and happiness.

@martinebraamsmusic 3 жыл бұрын

I am soooo proud of you, Jessica! I almost wanna say I love you, even though you don’t know me. But I think you’re doing great. That you’re a wonderful mother and a wonderful person in general! You can do this 🙌🏻

@aieshahuss1282 3 жыл бұрын

Oh honey ! Your doing so well !! Hang in there - praying for you !! And any mothers in the same situation ( currently 32 weeks pregnant and - sending you so much love ❤️

@danijohns4000 3 жыл бұрын

Jess, soon you will look back on this time and know that God put you there for a reason. Your path has already led you to truly helping moms and dads in such a real raw way. Though you could have never guessed this was the next step in yours and baby girls journey, it’s one more tool in your momma toolbox to help even more families. Of which you are just absolutely amazing at! Allow yourself some grace, you’re doing a great job, as you always tell us ;) We love you!

@Frakkintoaster6 3 жыл бұрын

So much love to you.

@kelseyteter7217 3 жыл бұрын

I absolutely adore you and I SO relate to the feelings. I had my first baby (a boy! Colson! He also had no name til 2 days old. 😂😂) in August. Covid had such a strange affect on everything. My son was in the step down unit (secondary to NICU) for 13 days and was also growing and doing well but MAN. How do you even attempt to cope with that!!! How do you ever see them all covered in cords and think you have the capability to care for them properly!! It was the single hardest experience of my life so far. My heart is with you ALL as you get through this. It’s wild once you get them home and you just figure it out. You’re SUCH a FABULOUS mom. You and your newest little girl will thrive. And so will your other littles!!! And the hubs!! Thank the Lord for good men. I would not have made it without my husband. Thank you for sharing your experience!!!!!!!!

@ashlyndavis1345 3 жыл бұрын

I have never commented on a youtube video, but couldn't not for you. You are so strong and doing great! NICU babies are hard and stressful but bring so much love! You can do this, and the anxiety will go down. Hope everything goes well for you and your wonderful family. Thank you for your light and beautiful presence here. Thank you! Just an add on: I had my first baby in June and she was 6 weeks early and in the NICU as well. I feel for you. One thing that got me through it was knowing it was just for now, not forever. She had many of the same complications but is now doing great and healthy. (We just hit 4 months!) Soon after, I ended up in the ICU and wasn't allowed to see her (she actually beat me home!). I ended up with severe anxiety but it did calm down after a while. The away moments from baby are always hard. Just remember how wonderful it is to be with her and it will help. I could not imagine doing this with two other kids at home, you are a rockstar!

@joycedhoore1275 3 жыл бұрын

I love how honest you are. Don’t ever apologize for being emotional. You’re videos made me realize that it’s ok to cry even when you’re happy and you love you’re newborn but can’t help but feel a little off. You made me believe in myself as a mother ❤️

@kaseyingersoll49 3 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for sharing! I too had a preemie just a few months ago, born at 32 weeks. Love the owlet, gives such peace of mind. My baby had a similar problem of the heart rate dropping and apnea, ended up being severe acid reflux that we still manage. But he grew out of the vasovagal response, hope things a go smoothly with Jules! And so glad that your experience happened at the hospital. My baby Argos dropped and he stopped breathing just a few days after being home and we had to call 911 and do CPR. Lots of healing, but preemies are fighters and so much stronger than we give them credit for!

@candacemeadows3370 3 жыл бұрын

I hear you mama! My daughter had a very similar situation and I had ALL THE SAME FEELS! I was terrified for her to come home and something happen but so ready to have her back with me! Having to go to the NICU is emotionally and physically exhausting! Im sending all the love and prayers for you guys! Your doing amazing and I cant wait to hear about how well she progresses!

@allyhubbell2334 3 жыл бұрын

your vibe and presence is such a gift to other mamas like myself! I'll be praying for you and your family and your sweet baby girl!

@carriewilliams5179 3 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing your anxiety with us. I had so much anxiety after my first bean arrived, even though it wasn't logical (she was healthy and loved and thriving). I knew that, but I couldn't shake it for months. It's really validating to hear other moms talk about their own anxiety with fresh babes. Sending your family so much love and strength, and praying your anxiety is eased soon.

@songsfromabove1134 3 жыл бұрын

❤️❤️ I feel you Jess, I became a mom on the 17th september. Her life is in the Lord‘s hands and she has strong guardian angels that always have an eye on her whenever you as her parents aren’t around. God is great 🙏🏼 She will grow, prosper, be healthy and fulfill her destiny that Jesus assigned for her in Jesus Christ name. Amen 🙏🏼

@mandamcawesome 3 жыл бұрын

This year has been so crazy. I found you at the very beginning of the year when I got pregnant with my first baby and I needed guidance on how to fill the shoes of a mother. And you were such a great role model. Then all of the sudden I find out you are pregnant again right alongside with me, which is so amazing. I was due October 15 and you were due obviously when you were due in November right? But life is so crazy you had your baby two days before me because I had my little boy Indiana James on October 19. I just want you to know that I am a ‘feeler’ and I can feel all your emotions so strongly. I can’t hold back tears when I see you cry during this video. You are of the very few people on KZfaq I keep up with, and I think of you as someone closer than a stranger on the screen. I pray all goes well and right for your awesome family. All my love, Amanda

@kristenlee5051 3 жыл бұрын

Your anxiety is so valid and makes so much sense, especially given her coming early, having to deal with a NICU experience, and with covid. Keep care of yourself, too! Going to counselling after all of this in relation to the NICU experience may likely be very helpful. You are a great mom. I'm a mom of 3 (3 under 5 when the 3rd arrived) and it is very hard to meet all of their needs. Give yourself so much grace. You're one person and only have two hands and they will be great and loved.

@thefluffymarshmallo 3 жыл бұрын

She's so beautiful, Jess! Take it one day at a time. Every little thing is gonna be alright. 💕

@xashleyj 3 жыл бұрын

I just had my daughter in August and she was 6 weeks early as well due to undiagnosed preclampsia, placenta abruption and velamentous cord insertion. The morning she arrived was one of the most traumatic mornings of my life. Sparing the details, we absolutely thought we lost her, but God is good and she came out PERFECT. She was a whopping 3 pounds 6 ounces and spent 33 days in the NICU. We had many of the same hurdles that Jules is going through - her feedings as well as bradycardia heart rate events. On top of that, we weren't allowed to take her home until she reached at least 4 pounds because of carseat laws. We felt that the days moved so slow, and she kept having these hurdles to get over, but all of a sudden she turned a corner and everything started to look up. Her heart rate events quit happening consistently and became less and less. She ate more consistently all of a sudden without the support of a feeding tube. When she had 5 days free of events, we took her home. I was a nervous wreck. This was our first child so on top of not really knowing what we were doing, I felt scared for her - what if another event happened? But no events happened. It's been a month and a half now and she is almost 9 pounds, and is as happy and healthy as can be here at home. She is starting to learn her routine, sleeps well (thanks to the NICU for setting her up for success in that regard!). It was emotionally so so hard, but we got through it and you absolutely will too. I saw the silver linings in all of it - I was able to recover fully from an emergency C-section at home while the angel nurses took care of our precious girl who we visited ever single day. She was on a consistent feeding and sleeping schedule because that's how they do it in the NICU. Praying for your family and your sweet, perfect little daughter in the NICU. You've got this. You are so strong. I just want to hug you!!

@tarasimpkins7381 3 жыл бұрын

Oh jess she is beautiful! Its ok to have that anxiety i did too when my guy went to the NICU. I am glad she is doing ok. Keep those positive thoughts momma you're doing such a good job holding it together! You are going to be the best momma of three when she gets home. You will figure it all out, you can do this!

@RebekahSBryan 3 жыл бұрын

Jess, I don’t ever comment on videos but I just came to say that you are doing an amazing job. Living in this pandemic is hard enough... I can’t imagine giving birth and navigating all the trials that you are facing during this time but you are handling it all with SO much strength and grace. Jules is lucky to have you as her momma. Praying for her recovery and for you as well! Ps. As a fellow NICU baby, I can say that we grow up to be strong willed women who love and adore our moms who give so much of themselves!

@Missmarmolade 3 жыл бұрын

I can’t tell you how much I admire you and your pure heart 😭.I feel nothing but compassion for you and your babes. You’re an inspiration and such a role model and I feel like you’re handling everything so incredibly well . I’m sure it’s hard to feel that way , but just watching you I’m in awe of your mom/woman skills at handling life . Wish I could give you a huge hug and help you somehow . 🥰 keep being so strong and putting one foot in front of the other . Love to you and your fam and babes. 😘🥰

@chinazellers2987 3 жыл бұрын

Your feelings are so valid! You’re doing so amazing mama! Let yourself feel what you’re feeling, and don’t fight how you feel.

@krystalb6700 3 жыл бұрын

I can’t stop crying!!! Thank you for sharing your life and being so vulnerable, you sweet soul!!! God bless you, your husband, and your sweet babies!!!

@mirnaureno8517 3 жыл бұрын

You’re amazing and doing a great job momma! Thank you for sharing your journey. I hope all this anxiety passes soon and you can enjoy your baby at home! You deserve it.

@KarolinaSays 3 жыл бұрын

My heart is breaking watching you cry. You are so insanely strong. You’re an amazing mother and the feelings you’re feeling are so completely normal and it’s okay. You will be great with 3 children, you’ve got this. Like you said, your hormones are crazy right now it to mention your baby girl is in the NICU. I wouldn’t even have been able to do this video without ugly crying the entire time. I’m praying and rooting for you ❤️

@kmsevero1 3 жыл бұрын

Sending you loads of love and hugs!!! I have a seven week old at home and have been watching your channel since I became pregnant. You've brought me so much peace and joy and I only wish I could send that to you now in return. You're right - having a baby during COVID really isn't fun. This is my first and we've had no help because of covid which has caused me to have loads of anxiety and feelings of overwhelm. Of course you are super anxious right now! Any sane mother would be scared to bring home a baby under these circumstances. Please give yourself lots of grace and self-love and don't fight the anxiety - its normal (even though it sucks!). Sending you and your precious Juliette loads of love!!!!

@Anna-tu9zp 3 жыл бұрын

Being in the NICU no matter how good it is or how well baby does, is traumatic. Especially during Covid. Can't not imagine doing nicu alone without husband. You are so amazing to share all this! And don't feel guilty at all for focusing more on baby girl than the other kids when she comes home, or for spending more time at nicu than at home. You are teaching your kiddos by example how to care for a fragile family member and how to live through a hard trial, leaning on God. This is invaluable lessons their little hearts are learning. A family story that will be with them forever. Do what you want your daughters to do someday if this happened to them! I say this from experience of being at the NICU 7 weeks with baby #5 and not being able to come home once because we lived so far away and I had to pump/deliver milk around the clock. The guilt still creeps in 2 years later, but it isn't helpful and my kids today say how much they are glad i focused on getting their brother home, alive... and that they were fine. For when you are home, lean on people to take your kids, make you food, and clean your house. Wish I knew you personally as I would sooo bring you all food and offer lots of babysitting!! Lotsa love.

@alyssafoegelle1605 3 жыл бұрын

When you started crying, I cried. You are such a wonderful mama and all your feelings are valid. My cousin's first son was born a couple months early and now, a year later--he's the biggest boy and totally healthy, amazing--everything is unknown but I am praying hard core for you, your family, and that strong little baby Juliette

@elizabethengstrom1978 3 жыл бұрын

I am still trying to process having a 34weeks/5days baby and 4 weeks in the NICU (I slept on the little couch next to him the whole time). This past year has been the hardest of my life. What helped me go from feeling crazy emotional to blissed out mama, was holding my baby. I even felt relief watching you hold your sweet pea. My baby also did way better when held, all the beeping alarms would go silent and his numbers (oxygen saturation, respiratory rate, and heart rate) would be perfect. Please share the real raw stuff you feel comfortable telling us . . .it's helping me! I want to send you love and encouragement, you got this mama!

@lorinicholson9345 3 жыл бұрын

I cried through this entire video. I had my second back when COVID was just starting and a few weeks later we were admitted for kidney problems. At this point no one was allowed there but me and the overwhelming, isolating & helpless feeling along with postpartum emotions and also being happy about the baby was the most crazy but horrible mixture. I feel for you SO much. It gets better quicker than you think, but looking back & remembering how I felt during that time is still hard. Thinking of you & your family, you will get through this 💕

@mandystewart4076 3 жыл бұрын

You are so strong and brave. I felt the same way after I had my son. I felt like I couldn't ever catch my breath and so anxious. Almost 15 months later and I'm still suffering from ppd/ppa but day by day. My son doesn't feel like walking either. Also the owlet was/is so wonderful. Piece of mind for a first time mom was so helpful. Sweet Jules is so beautiful!

@meganmiller2273 3 жыл бұрын

I love you, Jess! You are an amazing mom. I am crying with you & sending so much love. I feel so blessed to get to be part of this journey together

@jessat4655 3 жыл бұрын

So good to hear positive updates about baby girl even though you are (so understandably!!!) struggling emotionally💕 praying for you, your heart, your family, and continued progress with Jules!

@89hadarg 3 жыл бұрын

You don't need to apologize! I am so glad you are sharing about your anxiety and crying because I felt that way too when my son was born, so you are making me feel normal.

@ashtonpatton7014 3 жыл бұрын

Ugh watching you struggle with this whole situation is just heart wrenching!! But thank you for sharing it and being so honest and real ❤️ you are doing an amazing job and it is so different from your other births and babies so of course it’s going to be anxiety inducing!! Hang in there, sending tons of prayers and love your way!

@alexisstirmel5412 3 жыл бұрын

I wish I could just reach through the screen and give you a hug....giving me all the feels this morning. You're always telling us on your channel that we are doing so great, so sweet Jess, YOU are doing so great! Its okay to be emotional and be scared and feel all the feelings. I'm pray for you, and sweet little Jules and your family. Love and hugs❤❤❤

@HannahElaineStudio 3 жыл бұрын

I just want to give you a big hug ❤ Thanks for the update. Anxiety is so hard. I had it postpartum too (and just in general). Praying for you and your family! ❤

@smashandcreate 3 жыл бұрын

You're such a good mama! All your emotions and more are so reasonable! I hope that as time goes by you can all settle in and things will get easier. Thank you for always being so transparent. Its so relieving to see other moms talk about all the ins and outs of motherhood! God bless your family. 🙏🏻

@abigaildwayne1044 3 жыл бұрын

You're such an amazing mother! I can't imagine how hard it must be on you to go through this but you're family on KZfaq is with you in prayer and love! God bless you. He knew you would be able go through this with Jules better than anyone so He gave you the job! Stay strong you got this! ❤️

@briannadiluzio 3 жыл бұрын

Just know we cried together during this❤️ admiring your strength. You have so many supporters praying for you and your family.

@wyllymarshall1863 3 жыл бұрын

Beautiful Momma- YOU are doing SO good!!! I love your mentality and positivity. The aquarium thing was so cute. I like that better than an incubator. Your baby is a mermaid!

@pattygiron-jones6930 3 жыл бұрын

Thank you for sharing your experiences, you don’t have to do this yet you do. Appreciate your vulnerability and honesty. All feelings are valid 💕

@irene9062 3 жыл бұрын

I’m thankful for you Jess 🤍 I’m getting emotional just watching this....still newly postpartum- I can’t imagine how you’re feeling and going through. You are so strong. Thank you for showing your real, raw emotions and feelings. You are beautiful inside and out; so is Jules 🤍🤍🤍 Prayers!!

@lanmca 3 жыл бұрын

Praying for you and your family, Jess! Sending so much love!

@RaqLang 3 жыл бұрын

We love you Jess! You have so many people that are praying for you and your family. You truly are the most amazing woman I have ever encountered. Have faith and be true to your emotions. You give me strength an courage every day. You are a gift to all of us. God bless you Jessica Hover.

@KristanShuford 3 жыл бұрын

As a premie /covid mommy myself I can totally relate to how terrifying and overwhelming it can be. My little girl was born at 36 weeks this past April (I had to be induced because of pre-eclampsia). You and your little one will get through this and it is totally okay and normal to feel scared and anxious. I remember feeling guilty that I couldn’t carry her longer, even though it was completely out of my control, and also mourning the last month of my pregnancy / feeling really upset that the birth didn’t go the way I had hoped. Its okay to to feel all that stuff. You are doing so amazing ❤️

@beckyw5877 3 жыл бұрын

Praying for you and baby girl. I had two of my 4 babies in the NICU. It is so hard, a blessing , but hard. She is gorgeous! Hang in there mama.❤

@melerwin1 3 жыл бұрын

I wish I could give you a virtual hug! I can't imagine the level of anxiety and mixed emotions involved in a NICU stay. As you would tell us, you've got this! I wish I could also get you that smoothie you wanted.

@zulfiyaburkhanova3723 3 жыл бұрын

Cried watching this. I wish you and your daughter to stay strong and healthy! Praying for you! It will be okay. She will do great!

@Kingatje 3 жыл бұрын

Warmest hugs to you and your sweet family Jess. Thank you so much for sharing this experience, my heart goes out to you. Parenthood and delivering a baby, let alone a premature baby, are so challenging, and then there is covid on top of it all... My sincere admiration to you, you all, who go through this. You're heroes.

@DeviledMeggy 3 жыл бұрын

Your videos gave me so much encouragement through my first pregnancy. You are such a delight, and you brought a little hope and light into my world when I was terrified of motherhood. My little girl is almost three months old and I love her so much! Im not religious but you are in my thoughts and I hope for only the best for you. YOU are amazing!

@LexieJaguar69 3 жыл бұрын

Jess youre my motherhood guru. I look up to you and i relate so much! Thank you for documenting this hard journey. Youre amazing and youre such a resilient being, i am so intrigued and amazed with how you keep pushing on & keep going. YOU are what got me thru my first months of motherhood. Your videos inspired me to be the mom i am right now. Thank you, keep your head up, youre doing great

@ingvildstokke4690 3 жыл бұрын

Thank you for being so honest and vulnerable. You are truly an inspiration to me!

@hannahinjapan7087 3 жыл бұрын

I went through a really really similar situation, and now I have a super healthy big 10 month old!! The trauma and the fear/anxiety is starting to fade for me now a bit which is a big relief! I just wanna say that you are doing so good, and thank you for showing the reality with the emotions!! Baby blues on top of a baby that needs extra help is no joke for the mama!! You’ll get through it, but it’s so so hard! No denying that! All my love 😘

@samanthab4926 3 жыл бұрын

Jules is absolutely gorgeous. My baby was also in the NICU, and I just wanted to thank you for being so honest about the NICU experience. I am sure this is going to help so many new mothers. I discovered your channel during the first few weeks of my son's life, and your video about how you didn't always like being a mother helped me immensely. I just found out I am 5 weeks pregnant with my second this morning! I am so happy that i will be able to enjoy your videos during my entire pregnancy this time around!

@ryanm7249 3 жыл бұрын

Congratulations! May God bless you, your new baby and entire family!

@samanthab4926 3 жыл бұрын

@@ryanm7249 thank you so much ❤ God bless you and your family too!

@JessicaBates-re8nb 3 жыл бұрын

Sending so much love! You are going to do amazing with all 3 of your kiddos at home once Jules can come home, you’re such an inspiration to me as a mother! 🥰

@shelbydalton3924 3 жыл бұрын

You’re such a beautiful soul! I’ve been watching you since I was pregnant with my first child. (3 years ago) I’m now pregnant with our second child and she’s due November 20th, very close to what your due date was I believe. I love your videos, I admire you and your family’s love for Christ, and I’m praying for you, the baby, and the rest of you guys. Thanks for keeping it real and showing the non glamorous side of things. Even without meeting you I can see the strength God has given you. It’s been so helpful when I feel like a bad mother or am tempted to throw myself a pity party because of all the trials of motherhood. THANK YOU Jessica! 💖💖💖

@annacatherine4962 3 жыл бұрын

my heart

@karamason7605 3 жыл бұрын

Please please please ! ,don't ever think you need to apologise for crying. From one mumma to another who has had their beautiful, gorgeous, adorable little miracle in the NICU. These are the days where you are allowed to cry, scream, laugh, cry some more and feel however you feel. My ( not so little anymore Jennifer Kember is almost 16 yrs old in 4 months ) baby girl spent 2 month's in the NICU, and I when I had to leave the hospital after being in there for 3 weeks myself. They were the hardest steps I had ever taken, well that's what it felt like. I also was torn as I had a 2 yr old son Thomas Oliver at home. Thank God and my husband for giving me strength and wisdom to know swhat and where l was needed the most. But the days l spent at the NICU were 16 to 18 hr days. I look at them now and think that was just a short season in our lives, and thank God everybody made it through it. You are strong, brave, courageous, smart, a beautiful mumma inside and out, caring, nuturing, positive, funny, helpful, comforting, a great mother and wife, loyal, friendly, loving, supportive, playful,full of llife but most of all YOU are YOU. One peson with many many roles or parts to attend to each and every day. STAY STRONG, stay POSITIVE and AMAZING. You've got this Jessica 'll be praying for your family and sending positive wishes from Perth Western Australia. 🤗💕💙💗💞💝💘🖖🤗👐

@Cartoonandanimelove1 3 жыл бұрын

I never rushed to a video faster. Stay strong. Baby Jules is beautiful. You will all be home together and well soon. Sending prayers your way.

@SuperLauraLoca 3 жыл бұрын

I'm praying for all of you 💛💛💛 you're so strong Jess, thank you for this videos 💛

@stephanieritchie3667 3 жыл бұрын

Just wanted to say you are doing such a great job, Jess! Thank you so much for sharing your story. We are all with you and will probably all cry tears of joy when your family is united together! Take care of yourself. Thinking of you even though we are strangers *virtual hugs*

@meganfaithnam 3 жыл бұрын

Thankyou for being the most realist KZfaqr/Instagramer. I appreciate your heart and attitude in the way you do your life 🤗 Blessings!

@tubilatingtubilation 3 жыл бұрын

I know exactly what you are going through!! My first born was a 34 weeker. He was in the NICU for a month. He had a host of issues, it was always one step forward, two steps back..a roller coaster ride. I came out of that with postpartum anxiety. Weirdly enough..I now have 3 kids, my oldest is almost 4 and he is still the only kid I have anxiety about!! It's a very hard thing to go through. Take it one day at a time! I should also add, my son is a completely healthy and happy preschooler now. You will get through all of this ❤️❤️

@21stefari 3 жыл бұрын

My first baby was born in June via emergency c section and went straight to NICU. While it's nothing compared to what you and your fam are facing, the pain and fear of not touching my son for the first 12 hours of his life is one I can't imagine ever forgetting. Sometimes on really hard days, I see his smile and mourn what I've missed and will never get back. Covid absolutely made everything more complicated. Hugs and love to you

@crystallara1300 3 жыл бұрын

Your feelings are valid Jess! We are all sending you positive energy your way..we love you and stay strong. We all appreciate you sharing this💞

@yelenarozhkova9895 3 жыл бұрын

You a great Mom!!!!! Jules and you will go through difficult time together! She s so lucky to have you as her Mom! Keep you All in my prayers 🙏🏻

@estrellita2912 3 жыл бұрын

You’re doing such a good job Jess. You’re a fighter, and Jules is too. Love you 🧡

@avasavealot 3 жыл бұрын

You’re amazing and so strong! Ur baby is sooo precious and I’m praying for her quick recovery so you can have her home with you finally! Your anxiety is totally normal and how you’re handling it just so inspiring for me as a soon to be FTM. You got this! Good luck!!!

@sarahwedmaier216 3 жыл бұрын

I have never wanted to hug someone I don't know in person soooooo much! You and your beautiful family are in my prayers jess ❤🙏❤🙏 your so strong and so are you babies. Bless your family!

@jessicafalke3749 3 жыл бұрын

It may not feel like it but you’ve got this mama!! Congratulations on your beautiful family ♥️ I found out I was pregnant with my first 3 days before u posted u we’re expecting. You are the reason I’ve gotten so far with so much strength. Your amazing and this will pass. I am praying god holds you while you deal with these uncertainties!

@nadinesutherland9629 3 жыл бұрын

When you said having a baby during Covid... That hit home. Having had a 28 weeker (630g) this year - had to do it allll alone. My husband could only visit once of all the 84 days she was in ICU. He wasn't allowed for the birth. Being a mom and being a NICU mom are two very different things. Stay strong :) *hugs*