I know what you mean. I’m 59 and I’ve been drinking since my teens. For many years, I drank most every day, now I’ll usually take a couple of days off between drinking and rarely drink more than two days in a row. I’ve always drank because I’ve enjoyed it, not to hide from some problem. I’ve never been the type that can’t stop drinking, in fact, I have a hard time drinking past a certain point, though the experts would say that point is an unhealthy level of consumption. Lately, I’ve had some strange issues that I wonder if they could be related to alcohol: a recurring rash that seems like poison oak (i’ve been getting it for years and always thought was some irritant. I’ve come in contact from Mountain biking in the woods), and dry lips. So I’ve been wondering, what kind of damage I may be doing to myself, but at the same time all the info out on the Internet is so dramatically dire and seemingly biased. I’ve always stated my philosophy is “drink till I die but not die from drinking“. It’s been 7 days since my last drink and I haven’t missed it, other than missing the enjoyment of getting nice and relaxed, shutting down my brain, and watching goofy shows in my lazy boy. I don’t feel like I’m in a “quit drinking or else“ category here, but it seems lately all the “experts “ make drinking alcohol sound like we may as well be drinking nuclear waste.

Everything in moderation is not a great idea anyway, not if you think about it... falling off a cliff in moderation. How about holding your head under water? Drinking bleach in moderation? We've conditioned our brains to accept alcohol or cigars, for instance, in moderation. When viewed purely rationally, these things are quite stupid even in small amounts

Go to detox at the hospital.