Your story reminds me of my 'dark night of the soul' experience. Follow your heart. What are your feelings showing you inside? What makes your passions alight? Go with what brings you joy with ease & grace.

Here's the thing. I'd rather have the feelings you've expressed at your age than at mine (which I have and sometimes still do) because you have time to course correct and I don't. I hope and expect you'll figure it out.

I found this relatable. I do get the blahs on occasion and feel that I have come up short compared to others at times. I believe that the grass is greener on the other side of the fence because the BS is deeper. Nice monstera plant!

I left my full time, well paid finance job to become an entrepreneur and luckly it paid off, I made a ton of money, and yes its exciting but also exhausting with very little time to focus on my peronal life ...consistency and patience are key, but be careful what you wish for, there are trade-offs.

Life is like a box a chocolates. Some pieces are really good, and others not as much. But at least your alive to eat em.

re: lighting; indirect is best. Re: life; trust your gut. do not seek or depend on others for validation unless you know each other well. I am old(er) and quite detached from the local gay community so I come here on occasion because our values seem similar. Be well. Best regards, Rich

Maybe kevin it’s time to start your own company and be your own destiny.yo are still young so give it a go my friend ,stay strong mate. You can allways ask for advice

The lighting is lovely but please be careful of time/light intensity exposure. I feel like many who use those, use them for hours which is awful.

Most people who feel like they have a calling and are discontent with their job/life end up turning to spirituality. However it seems like this is hollow too because they don't have anything to work with other than what the church says. I think spirituality should be a completely personal and unique experience. You need to find things out on your own without being spoon fed by some church or cult which is where most people go wrong.

Just a thought... rather than going back to college have you thought about taking online courses of subjects you enjoy? That would be more cost effective and help in your evolution.