You’re just a misogynist. The only difference between you and the guy in the bar who drinks too much is that at least he doesn’t have a weird fetish.

You’re a male who is attracted to females. But you claim to be a lesbian. You should be ashamed of yourself young man.

Many lesbians are suffering because of guys like you.

There will be male lesbians around about the day we discover the moon is made of cheese and open white supremacists are leaders of Black Lives Matter.

You are not a lesbian. Sorry.

I detest the word cis it's a made-up word if anyone called me that I would soon correct them, politely of cause

Loving your video’s ❤

I can imagine how hard that can for you to have to go through this. I do a lot of research on psychology and the human psychic and I can understand that nobody would willingly choose this path to follow.

Yuri absolutely rule 100% percent thumbs up.

Hi Neyn, nice to meat you girl. I hope you don’t mind me sharing my strange and unusual situation. I know this is highly igregular from the normal transition story of a transgender person, but here it goes anyway. have discovered myself to be a true shapeshifter after discovering I am a, STARSEED/BLUE-RAY Pleiadians Anime Female warrior named Jujtoti from the Karelian Family from a multidimensional advanced technological hybrid alien humanoid anime all female Pleiadian world. When I had my awaking, I was a 54-year olde female from this world, but after the major awaking, I am known have the mind set and physical look of a 34 to 24- to 17-year-old Anime Magical Teen Girl Goddess. Since I had my major awakening on December 30 I’ve been doing with a lot of denial and many attempts to oppress and run from more authentic self and feelings. I still some time and time you were being ashamed and self-loathing because of what society thinks and even to ashamed to tell my family who I am. The only thing all this denial and oppressing my feelings and running from them does make this more painful and causes chronic pain mental and physical suffering that all most killed me. I feel so ashamed of being Anime Magical Teen Girl Goddess at times. I can't even tell my family because of how ashamed and self-loathing I deal with. I know that deep down inside this is painfully real because quantum multiverse as real as ever, but it still makes me deal with shame and self-loathing because of what society thinks. I happen be an inter dimensional being. I know my situation is unusual, but in the whole terminology inter-dimensional or quantum multi dimension universes there is no set rules that dimensions have to operate. Not all of them have to make sense? I happen to deeply resonate with what I’m describing below the sentence. I am an STARSEED/BLUE-RAY Pleiadians Anime Female warrior named Jujtoti from the Karelian Family from a multidimensional advanced technological hybrid alien humanoid anime all female Pleiadian world. I’ve got a lot more than a bargain before when I had my awakening to reveal things about my authentic self at times, I’m still struggling with it, defines everything this 3-D reality stands for in this world. It took a big major awakening for me to truly wake up to who and what I truly am. I know am no longer the Earth female I thought I was because I’m a dimensional Starseed/Blue Ray Pleiadians Anime Magical Teen Girl Goddess. I’ve lost my reality since I’ve had my major awakening on December 30 after I lost a tooth and making a wish to be a young beautiful female forever and have immortality. My wish got granted, and then this is when my entire journey started. For me, my awakening was not something I had planned or a choice as it happened, regardless of what I wanted or not wanted, regardless of whether or not, I was ready or not. Then on Dec30th going into 2024 when I lost a tooth, out of fear I Made a wish to be a beautiful female forever and have immortality. Then right away the kundalini awakening opened up at full attack and my authentic self said now you have the soul of an anime girl, and you are now a real anime girl inside. Ever since then I have dealing with a living hell or dream state, I am unable to wake from. Even my mind set, and body has gone into the age regression process to look more like an anime girl. That is what I see when I look in Mirror anyway. I see a cute anime girl looking back at me and I am like what the bloody hell. Is this Really happening to me and is this freakin real. What the hell happened to my reality. I Been dealing with these synchronicities from earlier childhood and it’s been using anime and anime girls as ways to get my attention even when I wasn’t looking for it or interested in it or you knew about it. Back then I was more interested in about finding a dream job. Having a nice car. Nice house making big money nothing else mattered back then. Even if I found out what anime meant back then I didn’t give a damn about it because I was more interested in what I mentioned above. Over time Anime revealed itself to in the form of synchronicities to me and told me what it was. It slammed me into the wall to make sure I knew what anime girls and magical girls were. Then over time the more I had to watch it off and on, I would start having fantasies and desires to be an anime girl living in anime girl worlds. For many years I was able to push it away and think it was nothing more than that. I don't know anything about the Magical Girl Part because she is from Puella Mgi Madoka Magica multiverse. I seem to be an unintended victim of forced contact from Kyubey to be a Magical Girl. I am sick of all this suffering on top of suffering on top of suffering. I don't want to be a Magical girl knowing the suffering they must put up with. Magical Girls are made to suffer. Please help me, because I don't know what to do any more. This is driving me into complete madness, and I don't want to end up in no dam Phy ward again. I had a bad traumatic experience. I was put in there over a deviated septum last year in Feb of 2023 for 2 and half weeks. What they did to me was just inhuman. I was having issues breathing and one day the head nurse and its helper came in the dark and ejected me with two syringes at the same time on both sides of my ribs. It felt like an alien abduction to me. Can anyone explain to me what type of shifts I am dealing with? I feel so scared, confused, broken and damaged goods. I hate dealing with the Anime Girl Body Dysphoria the most. I hate the fact that I can't go back and yet it keeps pushing me forward. I feel like I am a mental wreck, and I can't help feeling the way I do deep down inside! The more I Follow this Path the stronger the feelings of being a Anime Girl Gets. I Can't go back because there is only death and pain. Going forward drives me into feeling to be a true anime girl and live in an anime girl multiverse. The feeling is like being stuck in a dream state that I am unable to awaken from. This is why my dissociation is my best friend when I feel numb and in the void from any feelings and pain. I am sick of how people point the finger at me and say I brought this on myself. Why would I pick such painful and deadly path knowing that it could risk could be suicide and death. This is me in the world since I’ve been going my shape changing transmutation to being younger. The Post is my animal and then there is my anime girl soul family. I went to a psychic fair this week in Saturday and Sunday. I visit multi psychics for multiple different Readings, and they’ve all agreed that I am a Pleiadian. I’ve done a lot of soul-searching and everything and I know deep down inside I’ve been confirmed by others that I am a multi-dimensional being. I also have the soul of an Anime Magical Teen Girl Goddess, that’s also been confirmed by a large group of psychics that they felt this anime girl childlike present.

How is your cystic fibrosis at the moment? You seem to cough less. Do you have diabetes type three?

Estrogen is in most people, even men, just in lower amounts

I also use weed as a means of escapism from reality and weed addiction or dependancy is also highly subjective depending on the context your in

In my early years of transition I experienced quite a lot of internalized transphobia. I didn't even know what internalized transphobia was, and only in recent years have I come to terms with these early feels. I wanted nothing to do this the trans community and I desperately wanted to be seen as a cis woman. Once I realized I was struggling with this internalized transphobia, and got deeply involved with the trans community on twitter I've completely turn my own thinking around. Now I'm deeply politically involved in the fight for trans rights, and I have come to love my transness to the point where I'm glad I'm not cis. I've been following your vids since before your bottom surgery and I love how open and honest you are. There never are any final answers in life and being trans is far more a process than a destination, and it's always great to share in your journey to self-realization, Brynn. Thanks for another great vidoes, and thanks for sharing :^)

She took awaybthe things that made you happy! So pleased gor you now. Beautiful lady xx

You look like your astrological sign is cancer!

You're gorgeous! 😍 Thank you so much for this viseo very helpful.

I'm a born woman and I love your channel, I wish I knew transgender girls because you all seem so lovely and I think would be great friends ❤

Brynn, your message was really uplifting and encouraging ^_^ i appreciate the deep and genuine perspective you shared. Hearing stories like this really fortifies my faith in the human society ❤ Always stay true to yourself and god bless the universe 🌌 peace ✌ on earth 🌎 🙏

Your videos have always been very affirming for me. You opening up and sharing your story has helped me really in my transition. It's so beautiful to see you living so authentically. Thank you so much for sharing your experience.

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so cute 🌹

Hi Brynn nice to hear ur voice again... i didn't understand a blind thing 'bout trans-mammas or about ur philosofies on existance but ur a nice bloke - now THERE'S an old-fashioned English word for u (meaning a man, probably working-class & "Salt-of-the-Earth" type person) oh yeah & also a bloke is masculine & possibly rugged-looking🤣 Ha-Ha however I like ur looks as they are mate!.. It's funny isn't it how a boy must not be effeminate, but however for a girl , showing boyish traits is not so bad... I was a right Tom-Boy (2 older brothers) & wanted to be a cowboy 🤠, but on hitting adolescence I turned boy-mad lol Glad to see u r keeping well on all fronts. Ciao from Italy where we have just voted AGAINST an Act of the EUROPEAN Parliament which will offer less discrimination of the LGBTIQ+ Community (I say "will" coz only 9 nations out of 29 voted this way); along with Italy the others voting against r from the ex-Soviet Union nations such as Czech Republic etc - most Italians didn't expect our reppresentatives to vote this way seeing as Italy is an extremely democratic country & altho it's head of the Catholic Church Same-Sex Marriage is legal (+ adoption) & there is little harrassment of "different" sexually-orientated folk PS don't suppose u Yanks even know where Europe is😂

13:07 i felt this so hard......the pain that our parents inflict on us runs deep...but we deserve happiness 😥

im a trans woman who has never even considered bottom surgery or had bottom dysphoria :o thank u so much for sharing ur thoughts with us! also ur extremely cute omg

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Interesting thank you for sharing hope you have a wonderful day too

Bryyyyynn! My fave!

Thank you for your honesty in sharing all of this. It's normal to acknowledge our feelings and that things can be hard. It's very interesting for me to see your path from identifying as non binary and then identifying as a woman (possibly in addition to some form of non binaryness). I'm on a similar path too.

I totally get that about not knowing just how much an area of dysphoria is effecting me until I do something to solve it. That's how every step of transition has been for me. At first it's like "eh, maybe I can live with this", but then after solving an issue I'm like "oh my god, how did I put up with that for so long! No wonder I was miserable". Now I'm just really hoping I can get lazer hair removal for my face one day. I can barely pay my bills, but I HAVE to figure something out. It's just effecting me way way too much. Anyway, end of story time. Haha. Love hearing from you as always. Also, I love your hair!

Thank you, Brynn. I made it to the end! ❤🏳‍⚧ This one hit home for me. I am a survivor of parental narcissistic abuse and was raised to believe that emotions are a sign of weakness. I have lived my life detached from my feelings and avoiding human connections because of my crippling fear of rejection. It sounds like you have had similar experiences. So glad to hear that you are healing from them! ❤

It's great to hear an update again and that you're doing well 💜 I love the earrings btw!

Really glad to see you back making videos Brynn! So much of what you said has really resonated with me. Especially talking about intellectualizing your emotions and dissociating as well as like being insecure about your transness. As someone who’s transfem and genderqueer, and pre hormones, I’ve struggled a lot because of my bottom dysphoria and also growing up in a religious household w/ rigid gender roles.

Such variety, so many ways to think and be. I am definitely not, and never was, a man, but am not a woman, or enby. I'm just trans-feminine. I'm me. 🖤🤍💜

Hi Brynn. Thanks for posting! It's always good to see a new video from you!

I'm in a difficult place rn where dysphoria is slowly taking over and I don't yet know how to deal with it since I never acknowledged it in the first place :/ It's manageable when I'm feeling well but when I'm down or had alcohol (like now), it's quite bad. Hearing you helped me relax and take a step back. It will get better I'm sure. Thanks Bryn💜

Thanks for this, Brynn! This was helpful for me. I was just thinking about you, yesterday. So, I was delightfully surprised to see you post!

It’s always a pleasant surprise when you post a new video! So good to see, that you are doing well! Yes, it’s hard to learn to let negative emotions just be. Without searching for a reason or a solution. It’s something I also trying to get better at. I have always been a people pleaser and never could handle silence when I met people. Always trying to diffuse the awkward silence with the silliest joke.

I've found that I am able to relate with your experience of gender in a way that I haven't with other trans feminin people so thank you for sharing your experience it makes such a difference in people lives.

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thank you for this video! also your rings really are gorgeous!

i am not joking when i say your story made me realize i've always been a lesbian. this is completely hitting me out of left field, lmao

Still binding? Top reduction surgery? Are you perhaps thinking about detransitioning? How is your life today? Hope you doing well. Good luck with everything!

hi Bryn! found your channel this week and wanted to say thank you because of how much i've connected with things you've said. I was a later egg crack (happened at 27, starting HRT at 29) but I always knew I was pansexual. I also had this preference and emotional investment in lesbian relationships, even though being with a woman as a "cis man" was distressing for reasons i couldn't put my finger on. Realising I wanted women to see me in a different way is one of the things that accelerated my thought process around my own gender, and I also then realised that the reason I was awkward about my attraction to men was because I didn't identify with being in gay male relationships, but could identify with being a woman in a 'straight' relationship. ....all that is to say that I'm glad I found your channel, and thanks for sharing so eloquently, because it's been comforting for me to listen to <3

It's really funny you've added an "n" back into your name cuz I've been doing the opposite thing for the past couple years and I'm about to legally change it!! I'd been identifying as non-binary when I changed it the first time, and so I chose Kaelan because it's relatively neutral, but I've switched to Kaela pretty thoroughly for a couple years now. I'm also about to have bottom surgery (for the second time, I had only done a limited version at first because I wasn't ready yet) so I'm probably going to rewatch your videos about that. I can only hope that I have some of the experience of connecting back to that feminine part of me that you mention after my own surgery, because I think I'm still having a bit of an internal block similar to the one you described due to that certain body part.

You didn't know that women didn't have to fit in the stereotype YOU had of women in your mind. Sounds very unintelligent and like what you now do is autogynephilia. Hope you doing fine pshycologically.

Made it to the end, I really appreciate and find it very insightful the way you discuss your journey and experiences. It helps me reflect on my own identity and ponder my own feelings around my gender journey as well, which always a work in progress lol You were also a huge inspiration in me starting feminizing hormones almost 2 years ago now too 🤗 sending you peace and love Brynn ✌🏼

We adapt to avoid rejection... sounds a bit like autistic masking... Im trying to untangle all this.

Lovely earrings

I am going to be a transgender woman because I need to be a good girl people can call me a ma'am and barbie sexy Doll and get my body change into the FEMALE wearing my black tights with black skirt beautiful wearing shoes big girls with plastic surgery DDD cup bra BBL lift up to get my vagina pierced with rings 15