Thank you for listening ❤️❤️ - Chels

Proud of You Chels! -Dad.

Thank you for being so open and vulnerable with your story. As a psychiatric nurse, I see so much value in you sharing your experience. This is providing people great awareness and also making those directly experiencing the same thing feel less alone!

Thank you so much for being open and honest about this! So many Christians have told me that having mental illness just means you are not faithful enough to God. Which is actually so damaging and incorrect! Taking care of and addressing your mental health is top priority! You CAN take meds, go to therapy AND have a close intimate relationship with God. Anyone who tells you otherwise or puts judgement on you needs to get educated. Thanks so much for this video Chels!

I’m bipolar as well and this is 100% how I felt when I was manic, I never knew when I was manic.. I’m happy that your making a video on this and show what it is really like. Bipolar isn’t easy.

My mom has gone through the exact same thing three times in the past 26 years. I thank God her medicine is stable now. It’s super hard seeing someone you love turn into a different person. The brain is an amazing and powerful thing. Thanks for sharing!

Thanks for being so transparent Chelsea❤️

Thanks for talking about this! It’s really good to hear your story because I’ve been struggling with mental health a lot recently.

Wow Chelsea I’m so proud of you. Both my brother and I have bipolar with mania and depression. My brother took his own life in December after 9 months of a rollercoaster of mania and depression. I needed this.

Thank you SO MUCH for sharing Chelsea. Let’s just say this has been super encouraging for me🤟🏻🙏🏻

THANK YOU for being so real. I've watched you for years, and this completely changes the way I will relate to you (in the best way possible).

Such a good conversation to have! My younger cousin was diagnosed with bipolar disorder last year and he had an episode that really shook my family. It was hard to understand at first, but now watching this video I have such a greater understanding for what he was going through. Thanks so much for sharing Chelsea! 🤍

I admire you for your openness! I’m just coming out of a five year journey of anxiety, depression and OCD and can relate to a lot of what you shared. Thanks for having the courage of sharing!

Thanks for sharing this xx I remember just before your first video about this and I was so confused about what was going on from your previous video and then you made it and I can't even explain how honest but also helpful your video was and this one will be too. Glad you're in a healthy place xx

I appreciate you talking openly about mental illness. It's so important and hearing you speak openly and honestly about your story is really helpful

Thank you for sharing your story Chels! I appreciate you!❤

I think it’s crazy that we literally grew up in the same town and were quite literally going through the darkest parts of mania almost at the same time. I hope you’re doing well and thank you for sharing this. I can tell it was difficult for you to do. I can totally relate to reaching out to people and regretting it later, and the people not wanting to be your friend after this. I have people that I don’t even know what happened but they just blocked me and stopped associating with me at all. It’s hard. Thank you so much for opening up about this. I’ve actually tucked my whole situation away too… like to the extreme of redecorating and throwing everything away from prior to my hospital stay. I just hate being reminded of that time of my life.

Thank you for sharing! You are helping so many people that may not comment. And you are working to break the stigma surrounding Bipolar and mental health. I think lot of people just think people with Bipolar are crazy, and TV shows like Maid did not help with the stigma. But by opening up and showing what a kind, loving, passionate person you are even though you have struggle with BP helps show people that people with mental health concerns deserve love and understanding and support. Keep up the awesome work and I’m so happy you have a good support team 💕

I really appreciate you talking about the issue of not trusting your own emotions or not trusting whether or not a feeling/thought is real or just an effect of something chemical happening in your brain. No one talks about that enough, but I think even people without manic bipolar who struggle with other stuff like ADHD/anxiety/etc experience the same self-doubt. Like me, I doubt my emotions sometimes because I don't know if my excitement, love, interest etc. is real or if it's hyperfocus. It feels so good to hear I'm not alone in that.

Thank you so much for sharing your bipolar disorder with us!! It’s very difficult for siblings to watch alone one suffer from this disease. I greatly appreciated your perspective on your experience & your growth with bipolar! Prayers for your continued recovery❣️🙏🙏🙏

wow, the way you explained bipolar mania and your experience was so well articulated. i haven’t experienced mania, but i have and still do sometimes struggle with other mental health issues and it’s always a comforting reminder to know i’m not alone. thanks for sharing!💕

Thank you for sharing your heart and your story with us ❤️ I appreciate this channel and you and nick so much!!

YOU ARE beautiful Chels! THANK YOU for opening up and giving a voice on mental health or anything that people can get diagnosed with. I have what’s called “underlying depression” and severe anxiety so thank you from the bottom of my heart for being a voice. And I’m so sorry about ur diagnosis but gods got you and your positive outlook is encouraging!!❤️

Well done Chelsea! May God bless you and guide you in your journey and decision making around bringing richness and integrity to the internet♥️♥️

Chelsea thank you so much for sharing your experience! I also struggle with bipolar and I appreciate you being so open!

Thank you so very much for sharing Chelsea. You can never know how important this was for me to hear and see your reflection on this super important topic . I feel like mental health in general is going to really be preyed upon by The Enemy in these end times so it’s important ground to talk about and look at in a Christin perspective. I’ve been praying for a breakthrough and some insight on how to move forward and I believe you have given me that. I thank you so much for being some light for me in a dark and lonely place. I would love to be able to hear from Nick on this topic about what he was seeing when you were going through that episode. I think it would give us important perspective on what to look for and steps to take in helping those around us who might be suffering from mental health issues. Thank you once again Chelsea. You have been a big blessing. 💗

Thank you so much for sharing! Our society is beginning to talk about anxiety and depression more, which is amazing, but there are still so many others that aren’t talked about or are still viewed as taboo. My dad was diagnosed with bipolar disorder when I was 14 and after 16 years, I still find myself hesitant to talk about it with other people. The fact that you are sharing this is so encouraging. Thank you for your vulnerability.

Thank you for opening up & sharing. I don’t have bipolar, but I do deal with anxiety/OCD. It can be hard to share but I thank you for your courage❤️

Oh my gosh. You put into words (almost) exactly what I went through in College that I recently came out of. Especially about the mania. Thank you for your vulnerability 💛

Hi Chelsea thanks so much for sharing this part of your story! It's really not easy to talk about experience with mental illness, but I'm really blessed to hear your sharing, and I believe many others will be blessed by it too :)

Hi, Chelsea! I'm from Brazil and I am loving to watch your channel. My dad has bipolar disorder and also schizophrenia. You speak about the disorder with such vulnerability and sensibility inspire me to search more things about the mental illness that my father has. And for that I thank you :) Keep going, for the glory of the King

Thank you for sharing!! It's always nice to hear other believers' experiences who struggle with mental health and the less known/understood sides of it. I have OCD and on the journey to getting better. Dealing with mental health as a Christian can be so tough sometimes so thank you for the encouragement!

Thank you for sharing something so personal Chelsea ❤️

Thank you for this video. I truly feel God moving through you sharing your story and empowering and encouraging and uplifting people.

Thank you for sharing something so vulnerable. I lost a loved one with bipolar to suicide and my brother has bipolar mania. My brother has a similar story to yours. He had a manic episode when he was 19 and hasn’t since praise god. It has been hard for him to go through the stigmas that others have about bipolar. I’m grateful you are bringing more awareness! 💕❤️

As someone majoring in social work it was wonderful to hear your story. As a suggestion for where to go next in the series, maybe you could interview other people who have personal experiences with their mental health?

Chelsea, I appreciate you making this video. I don’t have bipolar mania myself but I do have depression and anxiety as well as ADHD and I feel like I defiantly have those moments of feeling super excited and energetic and also moments of feeling low, defeated l, and fatigue. I do agree that mental illness is not talked about enough in videos and should be talked about more.

Thank you for sharing your story

Sounds like a point in my life. I worked through it by moving into my dads house and a peaceful environment is what helped bring me down from it. I have been more kind to myself and let myself change as I go. It’s ok for family to help and it’s important to talk about it with family and just stay balanced in life so you don’t go from one extreme to another. God bless 🙏🏼

Thank you so much for sharing!. Your testimony is truly an inspiration. I am dealing with a similar situation with my boyfriend right now and am consistently praying for discernment on how to go about this topic. I love the biblical light you shed on this because this kind of depth is very hard to come across on the internet. Keep doing you Chelsea because Jesus and I are loving it! ❤️

Chelsea, this is something I have personally wanted to talk about for YEARS. You sharing your journey and talking about your story will give so much validation to others that may need to seek help and feel ok about doing so, or just giving others that have family members or friends feel like they’re not hopeless in trying to help those they love. My father was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder (and ADHD and Anxiety & Depression), and has been in and outpatient since I was 3. I’m 27 now. He has gone through an incredible journey of acceptance, knowing that his illness is a part of him and not something to be ashamed of. This was something he learned from almost 30 years of continuous counseling and routine medication. Growing up in a household like that though was EXTREMELY difficult from such a young age, but I was able to learn so much alongside my dad’s journey despite the difficulties. Being an advocate for mental health (especially for youth and adolescents) is huge and I applaud you for being so vulnerable and open about it. There truly is a mental illness stigma still associated with these that make it so hard for others to feel comfortable talking about and recognizing. The more the mental health community advocates these illnesses as simply being a part of you, and not an inner demon or “disease”, the more likely the mental health community will be able to effectively help those that really truly need it. I am so thankful for you telling your story because you’re able to break that stigma and maybe help those that really need it. I’ve been watching you since you started KZfaq, and the journey you have been on is incredible. I see my dad as a hero, and you are too. Thank you ❤️

Thanks so much for sharing this and raising awareness ❤️

Thank you for sharing Chelsea!

My mom went through something like this a couple years ago. It caused me to go into a deep state of depression and it caused my parents to get divorced. Its really serious and while we all understood that she couldn’t control it, we did what we had to do for ourselves too. Thank God she is doing better now. She still isn’t the same person she used to be but she’s much better

wow thank you so much for sharing - I have never been close to anyone with bipolar but its opened my eyes to be aware of what others are going through nd empathise with others more !!! that's so tough that you went through but I'm so glad you're seeing the good God is brining from it ❤❤

Thank you for sharing your story! 🤍

proud of you ❤️ Ive watched you since you started and I had no idea!!🥺❤️

Thank you so much for talking about this in the way you did

Thank you so much for sharing what you did. God definitely used it to speak to some areas of my life that I’ve had tucked away for years, things I’m afraid to think about again. Been blessed by your videos for many years Chelsea! God definitely chose you to bring him glory on KZfaq!

i am not bipolar but i am diagnosed with depression and anxiety (social but i'm convinced it's morphed into GAD), so i enjoy watching this type of content and getting a peak into someone else's mind. we're around the same age and i grew up with you on here, so while your other content is fun to watch, topics like these should be normalized and talked about! i would not mind if you kept on uploading things like this if you're comfortable doing so :) thank you for opening up and sharing your story! :]

Wow, you’re describing what I went through basically, I also have bipolar, loved watching this

Thank you for sharing Chelsea. It's a very brave thing to share your story and it allows others to share theirs and know they are not alone in it. ❤ I really feel God is speaking life and truth through you.

I don’t have bipolar or any other mental illness, but I still really appreciated this video and found it encouraging. Thank you for sharing.

So coureagous of you to share your experience ❤️ you indeed feel so free, empowered, mature and healed 🤩 that is so encouraging and hopeful 🙏 you are so strong! I am sure the world needs this empowered way of sharing about mental health, there are soooo many hidden and lonely struggles, and experiencing shared humanity can be really comforting!!! 🥰 I am so happy for you that you were able to build such a wonderful life and wish you can continue to find safety in your creative flow🙏

pop off. I sobbed listening to this. the Lord is good

Thank you for this💛

Thank you so so much for making this video because finding other Christians who have this diagnosis is nearly impossible. I started tearing up when you were explaining your mania because of how much it related to mine. I’ve been diagnosed with bipolar 2, so my depression is worse than my mania but I have been having manic episodes since I was almost 18 (I am about to be 21). My last one sent me in the complete opposite direction that yours did, I ran from God and wanted nothing to do with Him or the life I had. I ended a 2 year relationship and flung into meeting random guys etc. I ended up being hospitalized for my depression which led to me being on an anti depressant. This was when it got really really bad. I came up with this grand idea to get pregnant at the same time as not wanting a relationship… so here I am 8 months pregnant with a man that has completely different morals than I do. Although I am doing much better and definitely in a stable period, everyday is a major challenge. I can say I have lost something in me and I don’t know how to get it back.

The story is beautiful and I love how real you are. The freedom God gives you to be authentic is completely going to bring freedom and help others gain that same freedom.

Heyy chels, thank you soo much for sharing your story with bipolar, cause I got recently diagnosed and have been walking with God through the healing process of also having to deal with bipolar and this just gave me a lot of hope because at times I worry how am I gonna live with this and looking at you 5 years forward and it shows that there is hope for me too to succeed and move past the guilt and shame!! God has been really good to me and showing me more of His love and provision through family and friends. Thx again for sharing Im looking forward to more of your videos and to continue watching youre family grow and prosper for God’s glory!! Love ya, God bless you :)

My dad has bipolar disorder and i never really understood it at all, but this really helped me understand him so thank you so much

Thank you for sharing this story. It’s more common than people talk about. We were going through this around the same years which is wild to me. God is so good! You have NO idea how much light you’re putting on this topic. I agree about only being able to talk about it in “spurts” because that’s where I am right now also. Again, thank you and thank God for this perspective 🤍

This is crazy, I used to follow you in your beginings (so I was like 13) and I used to really enjoy your videos and your enjoy but I lost interest in your content but there's this video of yours that really stuck in my mind over the years (it was a how to get ready for summer) and I weirdly think about that video a lot and watch it every few years. Anyway I came across it again today and I thought I'd check out where you're at. Big surprise to me that you're married and have kids (if I am correct?) ad I'm very happy for you, from what I've seen you've always had such a kind heart and deserve hapiness. I was scrolling through your videos and fell upon this one which really surprised me because I also suffer from bipolar disorder. Anyway there's not really a concret point to my comment but I just wanted to share with you my gratitude because your videos help me a lot when I was a young teen and I am so so happy to see that you're doing so well. Alix Grace xx

Thank You for sharing! We appreciate you! :)

I really appreciate you making this video. As someone who struggles with mental illness at a disordered level, I want to thank you for sharing your experience. Society has only scratched the surface on mental health awareness and this content is important. Not to mention the fact that there isn't much mental health awareness and discussion within the Christian communities online. Keep doing you Chels! xo

Thank you for sharing your story, Chelsea. As someone who struggles with mental illness and currently in a mental hospital, it was very encouraging for me to see that I am not alone and there is hope. God bless you and your family! 🙏

I had no clue. Thank you so much for sharing ❤️

Thank you for your vulnerability, this brings so much perspective to mental illness. I have mental illness in my family and I went through depression myself. My brother recently was diagnosed with bipolar. I love that you mentioned that mental illness happens to us, but it does not define us. Mental illness is a medical issue that can unfortunately affect our thought processes and behavior, but it is not who we are. I love your faith in God, who can help us through our trials. Thank you for your openness and willingness to have a voice for those who struggle with mental illness. Blessings on your journey ❤

I'm so glad you shared this because there's this girl in my Bible study with bipolar that shared a story of her walking through the highway and although I knew she had bipolar, I thought she was also socially inept in someway to think that was ok? Idk, it's hard to explain because I kept telling myself as her story progressed, "Michelle she's saying its because she's bipolar." I guess I just didn't understand that people with bipolar really will do intense things like that. She is extremely open about her experiences so I will share with the Bible study my thoughts on how this is really what it does to you because I feel like maybe they are thinking weird things about it as well.

i used to watch your videos when i was younger when you made makeup vids and i randomly decided to search your channel and this is your most recent video and i’m currently in the process of being diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder

thank you for sharing your story Chelsea. ♥️♥️

Bipolar runs in my family and I did see it in a negative light, but now being older and not feeling normal. I can look back and see some parts of my life that weren't me, but high intensive thoughts and energy... My everyday life is very affected. So, this might be a sign to get some help.. I have watched you since Beautyliciousinsider.. I love your content. Thank you for shining a light on a topic that isn't seen as normal..

Thank you so much for sharing, Chelsea, so incredible hearing also how you’re holding onto God’s calling and knowing you don’t need to live in fear ❤️🙏 you’re so pretty too ☺️❤️

Thank you so much for sharing your story!

I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and spoken word performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my KZfaq channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙

Thank you for sharing this!!!❤️❤️

I’m praying for you x

Thank you for sharing your story & letting others know that they are not alone! As someone who also has bipolar disorder, I am really looking forward to watching your upcoming series! God bless you & your fam!💕

I’m bipolar and I have bpd. Thank you for opening up and talking about it

I relate to this a lot. For about a year now, I've suspected that I am Autistic. I got evaluated and they said I wasn't. I had to appeal the decision. I've always felt different than others and the more I learn about it the more I understand myself more. It's crazy that I've gone 38 years without knowing. It's amazing the community I've found that does believe me, even if the so called "professionals" didn't.

Very informative, thank you. ❤️

Thank you for sharing ♥️

Your manic episode sounds just like mine. This is my first year that I haven’t had an episode in 4 years and I’m so happy and grateful. The lord told me I wasn’t going to have an episode this year and he told the truth. But the episodes really do effect the people around you. But I’m glad that you are doing better. Are you off of medication? I’m going to try and get off of mine and handle it myself with creating a routine life that is healthy for me and my mental health.

Thank you for being open and vulnerable about your struggle with BP. I was raised by a mother with BPD. My cousins also with their parents related on ny mum's side. It's been a lot of suffering for all of us. . Please do your best to treat your BPD always because of the trauma BPD can cause your family and kids for life. I honestly believe those with BPD should marry each other and not have kids if possible even for their own sake we love you still 💕.

I love your channel. 😊

Thankyou for sharing❤️❤️

Chelsea, you're a brave girl to tell this story. I am over 60, and my mother was bipolar. I also have dealt with severe depression periodically in my own life (non-bipolar). I hope you will hear me. I beg you not to shun modern pharmaceutical intervention. The type of chemical brain disorder that is responsible for your situation does not heal. It is a life-long responsibility - both to youself and those around you - to be realistic about it and take care of it. That means not deluding yourself into thinking you are somehow above it, and don't need help anymore. For decades, my mom went on and off, and on and off, medication, because she always convinced herself she didn't need it. Well, believe me - SHE DID. And she did damage to her life - to her own ambitions and possibilities, to her children, to her marriage - that she can never erase or take back. My mother has said things to me that would make your hair stand on end - and she doesn't remember. But we do. We all do. It is forgiven, yes, of course. But not forgotten - some wounds you never get over. Your little boy is new to this world. It is up to you to ensure that when he is 30 or 40 , he looks back on a mother that was kind and giving - and that he doesn't have the type of terrible memories that I and my siblings and my father do. Now, my mom STAYS on meds, and it took her years to come to that, unfortunately. She is wonderful, and happy. But her children struggle daily with the scars she left, and the obstacles that we have in our lives because of what she did to us all those years. You don't have to be like that. But you HAVE to be realistic about your situation. You believe family, and Nick would tell you if you needed help. But Honey - would you listen? In a manic (OR depressed!) state of reality would you think they were wrong and all against you? YES. It just isn't as simple as them telling you when it happens. Will it happen again? I believe it will - true bipolar disorder is lifelong. I do believe that Jesus can do amazing things, as well. So who knows. But as they say, God helps those who help themselves. Jesus put you in a world and in a country where you have medical help. It's up to you how you use it, or don't. Your generation tends to think "healthy" means no medications. But healthy, when you talk about mental illness, means you medicate what your brain is not able to do naturally - SO THAT YOU ARE HEALTHY. That's all I'm going to say, Sweetie. I felt compelled to speak out, but the rest is up to you. You know what is best for yourself, of course - but you are extremely young and new to this life. I'm speaking from a many-decades-long perspective. Make sure you never delude yourself - at the expense of your own quality of life and the happiness of your husband and the sanity of your children. Take care of the boulder that God put in your life as a challenge. Don't just walk around it and pretend it isn't there. EVER. God Bless and I wish you all the best in the world for your future. PS: One other point: BP can feed creativity as well. Look at the lives of Tsaichovsky, Van Gogh, Hemmingway, even Lincoln is thought to have been bipolar. Being bipolar can give you gifts and sensitivity beyond what you would have with normal brain chemistry - because your mind can soar higher, your colors more vivid. As you have indicated, you do understand that with that gift comes the challenge to not allow yourself to lose control over reality.

Thank you so much for sharing

I needed this video💛 I’ve kept up with you on and off over the span of your KZfaq career but this is in fact the first time I’m learning about your BPD. Thank you for sharing this with us. I’ve recently hit a rough patch in life and it triggered what I believe to be some sort of mental breakdown. I went from suffering from anxiety/depression and panic on and off all my life to this intense episode back in n November that I am still recovering from. I’ll be seeing a doctor and hopefully starting medication soon. I believe what I went through was a wake up call from the Lord (that’s a whole different story). But with the intensity of my situation, I fear for my future and so I’d like to know more about how you felt in the beginning with Nick in regards to your mental health, did you fear he’d give up? Did you think you weren’t worthy of him because of what you were experiencing? How did you handle. How did HE handle and support you? I fear that no one will ever see me as worth it enough to persue, let alone marry some day after this mental episode I’m coming out of. How did it affect pregnancy and parenting? I fear for my future children as well. I used to Ling for kids some day until all of this now I’m scared I’ll mess them up because of MY issues. Sorry, I know it’s a lot. If you’ve read this far, thank you💛

I remember ur first video about this!!! I feel old

My boyfriend has bipolar mania and I didn't know what it was and how I could help or act if he had a bipolarity crisis. He gets irritated, a great sadness (sometimes he gets depression for some days or one day) and also feels a huge feeling of hopeless...I love him so much. I'm trying to know what bipolar mania is to know how to act if he has some bipolar crisis. Thank you for sharing this, Chelsea!❤😘❤

I'm a new subscriber and congratulations with your KZfaq channel

i thank you for sharing so much. i remember seeing your face for so long and i genuinely am typing this with tears. i’m so beyond thankful for hearing your story i feel so stuck i relate so much to you thank you. thank you chels. i just want to enjoy life again.

Thank you for sharing that. I went through a year of my life in an imaginary world kind of. I was going through a lot I had just gotten arrested at 18 years old with a meth addiction. It did take years for me too finally coming to a normal way of thinking. Jesus saved me from my craziness I've been married now for 5 years and have a 4-year-old little girl and my life is blessed so much. I really appreciate you!

Thank you 💕

Thank you for sharing I think there is an additional taboo that if your Christian you can't be bipolar or have anxiety etc.

Thank you thank you thank you :)

How did pregnancy and baby affect your moods? I know that sometimes the drastic hormonal and life changes can exacerbate mental health. People who don’t normally struggle, may find themselves struggling, I can’t imagine what it’s like for those who do struggle.

Thank you

A couple of years ago I felt extremely alone. Not sleeping, barely eating, extreme stress, and a new medication all led to a psychotic episode. Everything you talk about: the pain, shame, guilt, blocking it out, they all resonate with me. For a long time my anxiety-brain would bounce back to the few moments I could string together from those days. It took so so long to not feel embarrassed or hide from it all. It took even longer to feel secure in my body; I felt as though I couldn't be trusted, that my own brain had betrayed me. I still feel that way quite often. Today I felt like that, and I decided to check out KZfaq and saw this video. Thank you.

Something very similar happened to my brother abound 8 months ago he was diagnosed with schizophrenia and had to be hospitalized 2 times. So hard for all of us