Reading this crying. I've dealt with depression my whole life but this... THIS is a whole nother level. I'm at the lowest point ever in my life and i don't know how long i will keep this up. I have a therapist but i think it's just too late for me to be "ok".

“It creates our own hell and we just sit in it.” I feel more understood than I have in a long time. Thank you!

I feel worthless and im so afraid to go to a therapist because i feel like i can't trust him/her with my secrets or deep emotions and im afraid of being judged or mocked at or even shame me because i come from a very preservative family/country and its hard. I wasn't raised to be open about what i feel or what i think of something

I honestly don't know what I would do without your videos. Thank you!!

I really appreciate that you made theae videos. I'm in Thailand and here people do not quite understand depression. They tend to think that it's just attention seeking behavior. Watching your videos really help me through some hard times. Thank You very much :)

I'm so worthless , I'll never be anything in life . this just weighs me down , everyone's judging me . I'm just too worthless to be loved or appreciated......by anyone

I could have written question 3 myself and I'm so happy you answered it. You're amazing Kati, thank you for not giving up on us and taking the time to care xxx

I could never go to the hospital again. It was one of the worst and most terrifying place I've ever been. I spent 8 hours ever day in a large room full of people who were much sicker then I was and I was traumatized by it. I was suffering from severe depression but most of the patients were out of control and it was terrifying. I will never go back.

Question 3 was so spot onto what I feel so often. Thank you to whoever wrote this, makes me feel like I'm not the only one 💕 Thank you so much for answering Kati! Truly made my day. Xx

I've been to a psych ward 3 times and have tried about 2 dozen antidepressants; nothing helped. I've tried so much more, it's too long to type; the only reason I'm still alive is because I'm afraid of what happens when we die, what if it's worse than my miserable, worthless existence now?

I was one of those people in question 3.. I believed things would never get better, felt so so worthless and thought I deserved to see no-one for wasting anyone's time even to have a regular conversation. Things have got better though and it will for you too. I thought it never would. But it HAS.. For me, it took about 2 years, but it's going to be worth it.. Stay strong and things do get better

I really identified with the person who felt hopeless. I'm dealing with similar feelings right now. I'm depressed all the time, but this past month has been really bad. I don't know how to change how I'm feeling, either.

I'd love to know if the person who wrote question #3 is doing better. It's been over a year now, and I really really hope they are.

Saving this video to replay it often!It's everything I needed to hear today. Thank you Kati, what you're doing is amazing! :) You have brought hope and have allowed me to find meaning in my life. I know with some hard work and dedication, things will get better. Thank you for all that you do!!! We all appreciate it! Xoxo

I know this was 5 years ago but you help me so much Kati and I truly love you and your work. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

I feel like a bad person. As if others have tried to help, but I just pushed them away out of fear of them discovering how sad and horrible I am. I feel like there was nothing wrong with my upbringing and my parents tried when I was younger to socialize me but I never thought there was anything wrong with me before and I was happy. But lately I have felt so unhappy and worthless and I feel like I have ruined things too much already. I was a good person before and kept my word and helped others and cared about them but lately I have been taking more from people than I have been giving. How do I get back to the way I used to be? I feel like I have been depressed for a long time but lately it has been worse.

Your so amazing Katie.. I hope one day that I can impact as many people as you. You have really helped me to realise that I have some problems and your videos have been so helpful :)

What you said in response to question 3 honestly means the world to me. Just knowing that you genuinely care really helps me so much and I can't begin to thank you enough

I have had a lot of losses in the past two years which had created alot of stress which created alot of distorted thinking. I just started counselling yesterday and I feel so much better. I've been watching your videos for a couple of months and I really appreciate your teaching. Thank you Kati for doing these videos.

thank you very much for that person who asked the third question.... It really helped me to take a decision to get better......to go to hospital.....

Your advice at the end made me cry (happy cry). Thank you for making these videos and dedicating yourself to helping people who so desperatly need someone.

Thank you so much for this video. It was so moving and powerful.

This was definitely one of the most touching videos I've seen from kati!! Loved it!!

Wow, I really needed that third question. Thank you Kati.

The last question represents me. Thank you Kati.... I always watch your videos yo calm myself down.

Thank you so much, Kati! Another great video and advices that I love to hear! Sometimes it's hard to remember all of them, when oneself feels bad and hopeless. For that reason, I appreciate when somebody, in this case you, share beautiful and positive beliefs. Thank you, Kati. See you, then.

This is amazing katie like i m watching these and it just feels like free therapy

Kati you are wonderful. Such a powerful video. The love and support you genuinely have for people is amazing.

I’ve watched the last few minutes of this video over and over. Thank you so much for making these ❤️

Totally understand about question three I struggle with this so much but now I'm in DBT best decision of my life! Its helping so much I still have a ways to go but at least now I'm not stuck in a cycle of darkness! Get the help because things CAN get better

This is a very powerful video. Thank you so much Kati! (:

I just wanted to share that I watched a great video about emotions last night. I know people put me down judge me for feeling so deeply! But this woman said that we should embrace our emotions and not diss allow them or deny them, as they are our core "our soul" she also said that people who get told to stop feeling things have problems in intimacy! Yeap she broke this word down into... In to me see which to me is total trust honesty openness and communication. I've never had that!....yet

The third question was me six months ago. I had everything and nothing at the same time. I had "friends". That's when I went to the hospital and was sent to a crisis intervention unit. Seeing the people there, hearing their stories, and seeing how strong we are as people drove me to never look back. Since then, I graduated from college and I now have a job job in the real world paying my own bills being self sufficient. Yes, I struggle, but I embrace the struggle. It makes me feel normal. Suicidal and hopelessness thoughts are not okay. You can fight through them. I challenge you guys to improve one thing everyday. just one. By improving yourself on one tiny aspect of your life everyday in three months you will be a completely new person. Guys, I know what it feels like to be on the edge of suicide. Believe me when I say that you can get better. All you have to do is not quit. Quitting is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. XOXO I love you guys, and I don't want anyone dying that I know I could have helped, so please take action, and speak up! People will listen:D

I am so grateful that you do this. Thank you.

One thing that puts a smile on my face is looking back at my past work. I tend to forget some of the things I've created, and when I look back and see how much fun I had doing project X it cheers me up. Another good idea is to have a file with things that make you happy and look at one of the examples when your'e feeling down. I'll leave with one quote I found inspirational (don't know who said it though): “Forget all the reasons it won’t work and believe the one reason that it will.”

I think that last question answer really spoke to me thank you kati :) ur awesome.. I swear therapists in the UK are not as helpful.

When you get to 52 those feelings of worthlessness become who you are. I’ve been so disappointed by people that I’ve learned to rely on myself. I am my best friend and I love myself. I encourage myself and I don’t rely on no one.

I really appreciate your videos. Thank you for all the videos you made. I watched quite a bit and it has helped me in my own therapy.

Katy, I am almost 31 years old and have been suffering from eating disorders of some sort for the past 20 years. I am at a point in my life where I have no time or energy for this lifestyle, I drink to numb things. Then i dont drink to try and take thing head on. I need to find a happy medium that works for me Ive never though aboutt endong ending thing . I just have sso much I want to take on and accomplish but so many baf habbits holding me back!

Thank you for this vid. I have so often felt worthless and hopeless; actually, I feel a bit of both now, but it has been much worse. I can completely identify with the person who wrote in. I have seen many therapists over the years and taken almost all of the SSRIs, as well as several other meds. It’s a horrible thing to live with, and I frequently wish I had some other type of medical illness, something more “socially acceptable.” Despite the progress, there is still some stigma... I’d encourage the person who wrote in to continue, too, because there are many different meds and combinations of meds to try. It’s worth it to get some relief, however long it may last. I’ve experienced “poop out” many times, too. It sucks, but switching or adding meds can help. Also, keep your supporters close; they can be life savers. Sometimes members of your immediate family don’t “get” what you’re dealing with; they may even think that you’re “faking it” or other ignorant things like that. I have experienced this, and it can be very hurtful, painful. Those that have educated themselves a bit, may have more understanding and empathy. I know how very difficult it is. Please know that you are not alone and that there’s only one you; no one else can take your place.

I'm uncomfortable talking to a therapist, I just feel like my life is not going anywhere I don't feel happy

Great video. "How do you get through feelings of hopelessness?" I don't. It's one of the main things that puts me in the hospital and they tie me down for a week or two until my head is screwed back on straight. Thankfully it's rare that I feel completely hopeless. Usually there's something I can latch onto and think that my life will improve if it works out. I'm beginning to become cynical of those though. These days I've started referring to them as mirages. Just manic fantasies.

Thanks Kati! This was very helpful! :)

Hi Helen a I am very glad to here you feel much better now the cloud have lifted and the sun is starting to shine again for you I am sure you are a very nice lady good bless you thank you very much

Wow this was so powerful! I’m glad I found it!

Love your videos kati I felt like that too everything is hopeless and there is no point to anything just typical that find this video now when im better lol therapy really does work give it a chance

Thank you I know this video is 5 years old but the timing was excellent I'm going through a lot right now

Thank you Kati

I finde your chanel so benefit! Thank you💖

Shout out to the person who asked the question at 0:42. They were blatantly honest with themselves and Kati. Question 3 hits home really hard.

i have began watching your videos i know my depression and suicidal thoughts are effecting my fiance it makes him sad to see me like this ive been a cutter since i was a child now im older and recently cutt im scared and just feeling down

I'm just afraid that if I go to the hospital or a therapist they'll think it's just my teenage hormones if I am not diagnosed with depression(which I don't know if I am but I've had all the symptoms for a long time now.) It's affecting everything in my life and I need help but I really need/want people to take me seriously.

I like your videos. I have connected to your topics. I’m older and feel so stuck and not able to move. I feel my live is a failure. I don’t know how to move forward. It terrorizes me to talk to people. I want relationships but can’t talk. I want to be happy, have goals, and plan.

This video was so so so helpful.

I feel like this person a lot myself. It is as if I could have written that post myself. I feel like just giving up. I pray at night before I go to sleep not to wake up. You said it best when you said it is our own personal hell. I am on celexa and abilify. They seem to be working right now so my mood is stable. Not happy... Just existing. I take it one day at a time right now it is all I can do.

I can relate to what the person who asked the third question said on a very deep level. I'm not suicidal, but I do feel hopeless and worthless a lot of the time. I'm going to talk to my doctr about it in a few days, so maybe she'll be able to give me some advice on how to handle it and/or what to do next. I've tried therapy, but things have always gotten off track, and me and my therapist have always ended up talking about things that I think are completely unrelated to the reasons I started therapy to begin with. I know I can't handle this stuff on my own, though, so I'm thinking that if I can actually get a diagnosis, then my therapist might start to take what I say more seriously.

Thank you for ur videos....

Hi Kati, what I have to say is quite long and convoluted. Three years ago I had my first panic attack. In the past five months I have had four panic attacks. During that time, in June, I had very strong suicidal ideations (no plan in place). I won't go into what situations caused them, if I did I'd be writing a novel. Since August I have been in therapy and taking medication. Through therapy I have realized, looking over my life (from age 5 to today), that I have generalized anxiety, social anxiety, OCD (pure O), depression and dermatillomania. A lot of these disorders stem from my constant worrying, catastrophizing and intrusive thoughts. Underlying that is my unwillingness to accept any kind of compliments, praise or recognition because that in turn plays into my fear of success/failure and feelings of being unworthy. How this all comes together, for me, is that when I receive a compliment, praise or recognition I internalize my embarrassment and anger, and I begin to ruminate over my performance at work and around friends over being judged, if I made a mistake or due to the compliments, praise or recognition I will somehow not live up to expectations and therefore fail. This process increases my anxiety which leads to my obsessing over what others will think of me which then leads to being a perfectionist where I will not perform or procrastinate my performance and finally my picking my scabs on my skin so much so that my legs look like the surface of the moon with all of the scarring. When my anxiety gets really bad it leads to the onset of a panic attack where I'm jumpy, sweating profusely, trembling and jittery, feeling like my skin is crawling of my body and an inability to concentrate on anything. I believe some of what I experience in my mental health is due to my losing three jobs in as many years and having lost two people that were important to me (a friend and my mum) over the course of three years. I want to live my life as though no one was watching. To not care what others think and to be free to be myself. I am a gay non-op mtf transgender person. I want to be my authentic self but I am so caught up in the feeling of being judged by others that I will not allow myself to be free.Thank you for bearing with me. I know it is a lot.

Thank you. 🙏🏽

A pretty blue bowl helped me a lot in recovering from my eating disorder. Being aware of it is a good thing. Love and light.

I wake up feeling amazing, I start crying and cannot stop. Because I am loved.

I don't want to be here anymore. I don't feel human. I never connect with others, and when I did, it was a mistake, fake friends, fake girlfriends... no one was ever true. Insted of straddling to get "better," aka, convincing me to stay here. I'd rather take the easy way out. It's been on my mind a long time now.

What if a kid is feeling this way??(10-13 years old) I feel like things are really getting worse for me..

i feel like i'm chained i can't do what i really want to do i'm 20 and i feel like my life is over like i'm 50 yo ,i feel hopeless and alone so alone , i feel unimportant and irrelevant compared to everyone else ,i feel invisible ,i feel like there's no one in the whole world i could call or talk to rn and tell them any of this because it's not fair to put this on them and i'm so very very tiered of being the sad friend who always ruins it for everyone else, i feel selfish and self centered , i feel exhausted , all the time i just wish i've never been born ,i feel guilty all THE TIME , i feel like no one would want me in their life , a failure a burden a disappointment

I recently stopped taking my medication and I was afraid of feeling the way I did before I started it. But in my case I feel like it helped me get out of the pit I was in and I did some really hard work and made some good progress with it. So if there are people thinking I don't want to be on a medication for the rest of my life, you might not need to be, it can be temporary and still help. And for the question of how do I get through feelings of hopelessness..usually my cats :)

what if you don't know exactly what your situation is? such as you aren't suicidal, but very depressed. I know of someone who is on medication, but they're too tired to take it. they put up with getting in trouble with their parents constantly for not doing anything, and they're just tired and don't want to do anything.

6:15 Damn, this hit home big time. I have just wasted so much time and screwed up so many opportunities... It just feels like I don't have time to salvage a happy life anymore. I turn 40 this year and I am so behind the 8ball that creating a happy life at this point seems impossible. Please, don't waste your youth people.

I want to share this video because I am so desperate for sympathy and compassion right now, but I also don't because it's too honest for me to admit connecting with. :'(

The third question, same :(

I was given SNRI and holy crap I wish I had taken it looong ago. The stigma has kept me from trying medication. I hope this encourages someone. My life has been so much better since.

Kati can you do a video of where does self doubt comes from and how to improve

I have been feeling extremely depressed and don't feel like I will ever be better. I have had 4 hospitalizations this year on psychiatry. My brother in law says don't go back to the hospital and how frustrated he and my sister get because I am given coping strategies and they don't feel I use them.......

Thank you Katie, your truly a gem in this world full of chaos

thats why i went to youtube and i found people who do care about what i have to say and i created my own new friendships and found people who care about me that way like CTFxC and you ksic and his brother brownie i know john green loves my comments as well as many other youtubers thx for this awesomely ha bisky Q and A i love all of your videos so much i learn so much from them

, this is exactly how I feel inside of my life something tragic happened to me over 20 years ago and I have not able to get it over it yeah tomorrow is my 37th birthday and I'm afraid that I will not be able to get over that but some of the teachers that did this thing to me I thought about getting some deadly weapons in finding these teachers and getting cool revenge on these teachers I don't know what else to do please help

Hi Katie and everyone else,I identify pretty much with that person in the 3rd question!! For the past 2 years, especially the past 6 months, my financial turmoil has WORSENED!!!! I only work a part time job!! I've been trying to get at least a 2nd part time if not a full time one, I've tried working through staffing agencies who had assignments that were supposed to be temp-possible hire but wound up lasting 1 or 2 days!!!!!, I've tried to make money online but it hasn't happened at all in 6 months!!, I've had job interviews and keep getting rejected, and even some jobs that I didn't get interviewed by responded back saying they're NOT going further with the hiring process!!!!! I have a long, good work history so I just don't know why the HELL I'm having it this DAMN HARD!!! This often DEmotivates me to keep trying and want to GIVE UP!!!!!Things just WON'T GET BETTER, no matter WHAT I DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And what if I've done inpatient treatment twice, outpatient once, been in therapy 20+ years, therapist is the only person who gets me, estranged from family, have no friends, only time I see other humans is medical professionals, been on 30+ different medications, etc. Then what? Sometimes nothing works. I just continue to get worse because I'm so alone, but nobody wants to be around me and I don't blame them. I used to feel ashamed of my suicidal thoughts, but now they have started bringing me so much peace. I have BPD, CPTSD, MDD, GAD, agoraphobia, etc, as well as other medical conditions that cause non stop headaches, vertigo, chronic pain, upset stomach, etc. I literally do nothing but take up space.

thank you

I have been feeling hopeless and worthless sometimes. My confidence isn't great at the moment

#KatieFAQ I have Bipolar Disorder Type 2, and, despite my meds, I still have some hypomanic symptoms, namely high energy, a flight of ideas, rapid speech, restlessness, irritability, and insomnia. My meds are still being stabilized, so, I'm wondering if there is anything I can do in the meantime to lower my energy level so I can get more sleep to avoid a huge crash. I've been awake for nearly 17 hours and am still not quite ready for sleep. Help!!!

My 30’s have definitely been my darkest decade. I just turned 34 and I’ve been in question 3 for a while. Slowly I’m trying to get the courage to seek some help. Deep down I know or I’m telling myself that there are better days ahead.

hi there you are so wonderful I find your videos are so helpful. please help me. I am completely burnt out. If I do anything like go out, or see someone I feel ill afterwards and it lasts for days and often weeks. I have had psychiatric help for 10 years and I am on really strong medication. I am suicidal, I self harm, binge eat and I am only here for my wonderful dog. he keeps me alive and he is my sole purpose. my psychiatrist has said that he can not give me more medication because, I am maxed out. I have had several years of therapy, both 1-1 and specialist group therapy for self harm. cbt does not help. if I go out I'm ill. if I see 1 person or 3 people, I am exhausted, I sweat, my limbs ache, I self harm more and it goes on. I can not carry on being like this I am only here for my gorgeous dog.

Doctors told me there isn't anything new they can try with me so I feel it's the end if what I'm on quits working I'm terrified. What can I do if my meds don't work?

Kati- I don't THINK I feel worthless, but people at work say that I am always putting myself down. I have been at my job for 2 years now, and I still have a hard time doing certain tasks at work. Because I am and never have been afraid to ask for help with learning things, people at my job think I am always putting myself down and that I don't have enough confidence in myself. I will admit that I am unsure of myself, but I don't think that makes me feel worthless. after listening to your video, though, I do seek approval with the work I do. At my job managers and fellow employees never really say to one another that you (meaning me) are doing a good job. I do wish they would do that. I don't know why I feel it is very important to me especially at my age (57) that I need others approval in my work life. I was a slow learner as a child, I struggled in school, but when I had teachers that really cared and took the time with me, I achieved a lot in school learning things for example math was very difficult for me, I had even failed 3rd grade but the next teacher I had, was such a great teacher, I achieved so much I ended going into trigonometry in high school. This is beside the point, but anyway how can I not worry about other's approval???

Hello! I’m quite new to this Channel, but feel its calming to listen to what you have to say. Question: I was told that because of arythmia there is less options regarding medication, the was really only one ☝️ option.. taken it for about 8 months and felt like it was helping, but now it doesn’t, what can I do? Ps the amount I am at know is max...

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I know this is an old video, but this is how I feel pretty much everyday. I am not suicidal, because I think even that pointless and a waste of time. My sister asked me the other day if I want be happy. I replied with; "What's the point?" That is the big question. I see no point in happiness or anything else. If I have to make my own purpose and meanin, then there is none. Why bother? As for medication, I don't see it As a bad thing. It can be a good thing. If I had to rely on it to enjoy life, then how am I not the broken waste of space I feel that I am. Other s can manage. If I can't, why not just call this life the failure it is, and be done with It?

I dont want to self diagnose but if #3 perfectly describes my feelings do you think I have depression?

Ashley Elizabeth sent me to you. Thank you so much

I used to cut when I was younger because it was something I could control, I now do not cut because I found a substitute for cutting, I look people in the eye and greet them good morning, how you doing. Yes I don't cut anymore.

Kati, I need you help. I haven't felt good for over a year now, including SH for the last months. But I'm really afraid of searching for help. I think, that this whole "mental illness"-thing isn't really accepted in society in my country, and I don't think, that anyone will take me serious. I really don't know what to do. D: (please excuse my terrible english^^)

Hi Kati, could you do more videos about Avoidant personality disorder? Xx

If you can't change the situation, then all the therapy and all the drugs aren't going to make anything better. The misery that someone is experiencing - the junk that is causing these biological reactions - has to be addressed. If it isn't then you aren't fixing shit. Because the hole is still there, the body knows it and the drugs are just trying to hide the fact from your awareness. That's why the dosages have to keep increasing, that's why the depression keeps crawling back. The situation has to be fixed. And sometimes that isn't going to happen because what needs to be fixed is beyond your ability to adjust.

i honestly feel the opposite... why do i not want to talk about my problems but i feel worthless and helpless??? My friend asked me if i wanted to talk about what i am feeling but i refused because i don't want to feel like i am looking for attention. Is it common for someone to know they need help but not want it????

I‘m in school again and depressed again, life seems so pointless. -.-“ I don’t want medication, I’m contemplating working out to release hormones, or doing adrenalin releasing stuff because life seems dull and boring. Or connecting with people but I‘m not fun to be around. Feel like a burden.

and I barely sleep and suffer with depression

I know this is an old video so no one will read this, but maybe it does not matter. I like your videos alot, been watching them for a couple of days now. One thing I have never understood is the expressions "Im worth the fight", "Im important" and so on. If I were so needed or liked, why dont anyone wanna be with me? I dont think I have ever heard anyone explain what they mean with "you are important". I can be the first one to admit that I have not always given my everything to be liked. But I have once, to a girl I liked and I thought this is what real happiness is. I gave it my everything. Then she threw it away just like that and found someone else. Im not important, Im not even rememberable or worth anything. She saw it, just like everyone else does. Apologies for my poor english.

What about ptsd where it is neurological and anti depressants make me manic so i cant take them every med has made me feel worse. New drugs its been a few yrs etc ppl keep saying this to me, I went to outpatient 9-3 every day i did the CBT program...and like all I do is start acting start listening and helping others. I cant do this.

I am horribly depressed almost all the time I feel so alone I put on a mask of happiness when I get to see my old friends once every 2 weeks only my girlfriend knows how I am that I cut myself I promised I would try to not self harm for 2 weeks. this is week one which is almost to an end and it is so hard because have have not found a new way to deal with all the things I feel. can I get some advice or something im not sure what I am looking for maybe just something to make me smile because I almost don't make it through some days.

I've apparently been very sick for a very long time. I've isolated myself so much and for so long. Are there videos or resources anyone stumbling upon this six year old video can recommend for coming out of that? I'm trying to take my own steps, but knowing there are Lilly pads out there is helpful. I don't really know how to word this. It's literally been years since I've spent time with anyone.