Ive never been good at asking for help but I always found myself helping others and when I finally broke down myself. I was so in shock how friends and family couldn't be bothered and were actually annoyed with me for not being there for them. I had to re evaluate my priorities and focus on helping myself, turn off my heart from the pain I was feeling from being abandoned when I needed them. I was so good at hiding the abuse, pain I was in and that I was falling apart from it all...that when I finally admitted what was going on by that point these people just had abandoned me but thats ok, because I learned about self care and boundaries. They have been the 2 things that keep me going, im grateful for my resilience and strength to keep holding myself up, keep my chin up. All the things I did for everyone else I was finally doing for myself and although I hide the pain about how I feel towards these people, im so proud of myself for putting me 1st, getting away from the abuse, shitty friends and family... a few golden people have shown kindness and understanding towards me,..just acting like I exist and hearing me means the world. Even though I'm very guarded now, im soooo grateful for them. Im glad you had a few good people in your corner, because its so hard when you've been stripped down to nothing left with an empty tank, too just have a safe place to be... To breathe, too gather yourself can be life saving. Im just glad ive held onto my sanity throughout the madness and its a new day...what can I do for Danielle today. ❤ Thanks for sharing.

Hi Gaye, I am so looking forward to your upcoming van trip showing your area. Your environment is in such contrast to my desert environment the ocean and woods will provide me with a refreshing change. Thanks for all your sharing. It's always wonderful having you visit ! ❤❤ sending hugs and healing love to you, Griffin and your family.

It’s always a pleasure to be in your company 💕

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American actor W.C. Fields said long ago two things you should never work with live….children and animals. I guess he figured out early neither will act the way you want them to when you need it most. It’s good seeing you again. I can see a difference in you since you have been letting some of this out. It’s good to see the progress.

I understand you so much, I can feel your pain. Thank you for being so brave and sharing your story ❤

Wish I could jump through my iPad and give you a massive hug… you need to forgive yourself sweetie for all the mistakes you ‘think’ you made… you are on a journey and we all make the choices that are right for us in that moment.. I’ve found the best way is to just love and accept yourself no matter what. Be your own bestie, your own soulmate… so glad you are going to renovate your van.. hope you share the journey ! Much love, Annalise 😘😘

Griffin knows when you are emotional…I have a saying from a book called Walking on eggshells….I did not cause this. …I cannot fix it..and literally move on…

Thank you for sharing this story Gaye. It's often difficult to see anything clear when trauma takes over but it was wonderful you had that support system around you even at the time it didn't feel like it was helping. I wish you, your friends and family all the best in your healing journeys. 😊

No need to apologise for the dogs.. it is what it is … x