Its Really Hard To Forget Somethings

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A Van A Dog And Myself

A Van A Dog And Myself

Ай бұрын

I truly hope you don’t me telling you about my life. In many ways I am grateful for you watching and all that have shared there life and experiences with me. Trauma from all forms of abuse takes time to overcome, the pain, grief and especially the betrayal we feel. Somethings are too hard to forget, are you supposed to try to forgive, how if you can’t forget?
I hope others understand this is life for many of us and the journey to recovery takes time. Be patient and remember to keep yourself going forward. There are many caring and supportive people out there in the world. 🌎
Trusting others won’t come easy but we need to keep ourselves safe and learn to trust again.

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@ruthwinnifred329
@ruthwinnifred329 Ай бұрын
Sending you love and prayers and hugs. My daughter has been raising her 2 boys and trying to keep her head above water financially and emotionally since her ex-husband became a "woman", the world has become a very twisted, sad place..You have been terribly abused, you ran for freedom and you saved yourself!
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
Thank you, love and support her, lm sure you are but she will be okay getting through it if she has that around her. Life is struggle enough without this happening. My heart goes out to her. 🙏🩷🩷🩷
@ginarodriguez6771
@ginarodriguez6771 Ай бұрын
I can relate so much with you it hits home . Being physical and emotional abuse I had lost myself for a long time
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
It’s saddens me to know you have been through this, healing takes along time but we will always protect ourselves now from that happening to us again. I hope you are doing okay now. Take care of yourself. 🙏🩷🩷
@joanponton3316
@joanponton3316 Ай бұрын
Your videos give me inspiration. One day at a time, healing continues. I've had a lifetime of extreme family trauma , yet here I stand. I'm a 73yr old work in progress 😊 thanks for all you share. Love and support hugs to you!❤
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
Hello Joan, it is one day at a time and l think healing is a long road. Trauma stays with us but we learn to manage, you are a survivor and obviously a very strong woman but we also know we are allowed to be saddened and hurt at times. Keep healing, you are important and l hope you enjoy the rest of your life as l am sure trying to do. Love to you lovely lady. 🙏🤗🩷🩷🩷
@jillconyers2710
@jillconyers2710 Ай бұрын
I feel your pain it's so hard when it's your family that hurts you ,when you need there love and support ! Well you have mine❤
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
Thank you Jill, l really appreciate your support 🙏🩷🩷🩷
@user-pb5vp8gf4z
@user-pb5vp8gf4z Ай бұрын
i can completely relate. Ive had to turn off my heartache and pajn to escape the abuse instead focus on self care and boundaries...With out those 2 things id be in a really bad place. I focus the little energy I have on keeping myself in a better place for my health/sanity, but mostly for my fur baby's, also been trying to find joy in life again. Its not an easy path, healing and moving past abuse is so hard. I'm trying each day to find myself, lift myself up and find that person that used to be full of life, self sufficient...not so broken. Now im just putting all my energy into myself because i deserve it and i need it. I hope you keep working on your path to healing and keep yourself safe from those evil energy vampires. Hug yourself, that wasn't kool what happened in the store but at least you were able too get away. Its horrible that person/those people needs to be so cruel towards you. ❤ send you some strength, you got this and its ok to cry, its ok too be overwhelmed but then its time to get focused and stay on your path of healing and enjoying the day the best you can...if even just a little for that day.
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
I’m so sorry you have endured what you have. Your right, it is difficult to just move on after the abuse but with each day that passes it will get easier lm sure. I to once was full of joy and self sufficient and lm trying to find my way back to that. Self healing and remembering to love myself is a daily thought. Thank you for your support and encouraging words for me, they are greatly appreciated and do help. Take care of yourself much love to you 🙏🩷🩷
@92Tulips
@92Tulips Ай бұрын
Sending love and a hug, I can relate in some ways, hard to talk about. Hope you find peace in the little things 😊
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
Thank you, it isn’t easy to talk about l understand. I will enjoy those little things and keep trying hard to move forward in my healing. 🙏🩷🩷🩷
@Hope_Faith_Strength
@Hope_Faith_Strength Ай бұрын
I’m a new Aussie subscriber x I want to move into a van to heal after losing my mum and daughter tragically in October 2016… nothing wrong with living in a van xx wish I could give you a hug… focus on the now, be present. We can’t change the past… 🙌🏻
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
I’m so sorry for your loss 🩷 most definitely be devastating to you and I understand your wanting healing. I hope you can get to do this as l know it is hard. I’m am grateful for having the van and your right, one cannot change the past, only the future. 🙏🩷🩷
@margereed9059
@margereed9059 Ай бұрын
Sending prayers and good vibes your way may you find peace of mind ✌️
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
Thank you 🙏 🩷🩷
@trynsurviven2440
@trynsurviven2440 Ай бұрын
I wish I could wrap my arms around you and give you a big ole hug cause sometimes that’s what we need to know everything will be okay.
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
Thank you 🙏 means alot to me . 🩷🩷
@LoriTorrini
@LoriTorrini Ай бұрын
I wish you were on the same continent as me so you could visit our ranch with your van and dog!
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
That certainly would be amazing Lori. 🙏🩷🩷🩷
@esteeb42
@esteeb42 Ай бұрын
So sorry Gaye, I am Nana to a 3 and 3 1/2 year old boys. Unfortunately my son is separated from his wife. He is staying with me right now so my grandson is with us from Friday afternoon till Sunday night. Every time I hear him call me Nana my heart just swells up. I do not get along with his mother and I do not keep any contact with her. Just yesterday I had to go to the UPS Store to return something and I thought I saw her walking into the same store. I debated whether or not to go in and soon realized it wasn't her. I know that feeling unfortunately and I'm very sorry you have had to deal with so much abuse. She verbally abused me in a way that nobody in my 61 years of life ever has. You are so right those kinds of things are hard to forget.🤗💐
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
Hello, you know being a mum was wonderful but being a nana was even better and l never thought that possible. Only a nana could understand that I think. I have such an issue being in a place where I feel unsafe from being attacked by my abusers now and fight for that anxiety to go away, just so l can live my life again. Like you l refuse to let them back into my life after what they did and neither we should, lm 64 and I lived my life taking care of their children, my grandchildren and was always there for them. It is sad to think that my grandchildren were the ones who in the end are affected by this. For me that is what breaks my heart the most. Some very disrespectful people out there. Thank you 🙏 🩷🩷🩷
@KaylaBuhdayla
@KaylaBuhdayla 19 күн бұрын
Sending you and the pup Lots of Love from Louisiana ❤
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself 19 күн бұрын
Thank you Kayla 🩷🩷🩷
@maura6375
@maura6375 Ай бұрын
❤ Prayers, Much Love ❤ And Happiness ❤ Alway Be With You.
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
Thank you 🩷🩷
@PamelaHawkins-nc4sk
@PamelaHawkins-nc4sk 22 күн бұрын
My heart goes out to you, my dear. You have a heart of gold. I can that, especially by the way your animals love you. You are empathetic and kind and that is why those abusers hate you. They sound like very malignant narcissists who made you the scapegoat. I understand your longing to be part of your family, but, honey, they will never change. My mother and her sister and nephew (especially the nephew) made me the scapegoat. He told a bunch of lies on me and started a smear campaign against me. My other first cousins believed all the lies and never gave me a chance. What I have learned is that these people, even my mother, were never family. Blood counts for nothing in these cases. You can never go back but that is a good thing really. You are away from their evil. You are safe in your van with your dogs and your new KZfaq friends. You can and will make it. The prayers and love from many of your fellow survivors, including me, are with you. Family does not have to be blood related. God bless you. You are strong.💪 💜❤🐕‍🦺🐶🙏
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself 22 күн бұрын
Pamela, thank you, you are so right. l was to blame for their behavior and yet everything they said didn’t and couldn’t make any sense to me. I felt like all l was doing was trying to make them feel something for me, find some empathy in their hearts. I realized they didn’t have that and why they could do what they did. I was certainly in their eyes the one at fault, but when others challenged them they started lying, though no one believed them, it was their excuse and still remains their excuse today. I’m so sorry that you have been through such hurt and betrayal yourself. I know you have been heartbroken by who you feel should be the ones you can turn to. It’s not the way it should ever be. I am fortunate that many saw and knew long before I did myself what my child was like. I guess l didn’t want to see it. I see it clearly now and yes, l can’t go back there. I’m so grateful to have connected with others here on KZfaq and appreciate the support I have received from many and yes, family they are and will be. 🙏🩷🩷🩷
@MourirSarin
@MourirSarin 4 күн бұрын
We adore you and pray for you always! 🫶🏾💕
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself 4 күн бұрын
Thank you 🙏 🩷🩷
@Jane-lx1nr
@Jane-lx1nr Ай бұрын
Hello lovely lady. I walk a similar road. I feel it all. My brother's last gift to me was asking me to wait for him at the hospital until he arrived as mum had just died. After hours of waiting he lived 10 mins away he told me my dad wasn't my dad, he'd died 5 days previously! 23 years later i still wonder about that low blow as I will never know the answer. Your relationship with your birds was amazing, upset me to think he used them as a tool against you too. X
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
My heart goes out to you, that would have been so heart wrenching for you to be told at such an already heartbreaking time for you. I understand how your left feeling and some people are incapable of any empathy for another’s feelings. A similar road we travel for sure. I hope you had a wonderful life with your father no matter the truth. 🙏🩷🩷🩷
@mmmmlllljohn
@mmmmlllljohn Ай бұрын
So very sorry that you have been hurt so deeply, over and over again, Gaye. I just found your channel and have subscribed. I also am a nana who has suffered much abuse by my only son and his wife. This has happened in other areas of my life and often happens to very kind and unsuspecting people. Being the scapegoat plays out again and again. It has left me with PTSD and I would guess that is what you have as well. You can find out about roles we are put into by parents at a young age. I have found understand by trained professionals in person and on KZfaq. Thankfully, we can learn at any age … to be cautious about whom we let into our circle. May God bless you, protect you and uplift you. Love from Ontario Canada. ❤️🇨🇦🙏
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
Thank you for your support and sorry to hear you have suffered yourself. My daughter and her partner were both very abusive and l was constantly berated for not being able to live upto what they felt I should. I spent my life giving to them, trying to keep them happy but I was still told l was worthless and they’d be better off if l just died. Yes l do suffer PTSD and have been seen by a professional who explained many things l thought were just how it was as it had been years but the abuse did get worse and l had to get away. I’m finding my way slowly and appreciate your honesty in sharing your experience, it truly helps me. Sending my love 🙏🩷🩷🩷🤗
@mmmmlllljohn
@mmmmlllljohn Ай бұрын
@@AVanADogAndMyself ❤️
@gustavogabrielaguirre5092
@gustavogabrielaguirre5092 15 күн бұрын
Tu confianza es mi confianza sabes queda entre tu y yo sabes y te miró
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself 15 күн бұрын
🙏🩷🩷
@meloearth
@meloearth Ай бұрын
I'm very sad that you don't have your birds. I hope you can oversome your challenge. You are not alone.
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
Oh how l wish l had them in my life, very much missed and I will keep fighting to get them back at some point but when lm stronger to do so. Big thank you for your wonderful support of me 🙏🩷🩷🩷
@MIGHTYRIVERS19
@MIGHTYRIVERS19 Ай бұрын
You are such a lovely lady , stay strong , time heals and domination, control , abuse physical, mental, emotional , manipulation, intimidation is not the will of 'GOD' but it is of the devil . The Lord bless you and keep you safe and give you peace . Love your little dogs , playing in bed , so sorry about your budge , the wicked shall perish. Lots of love
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
Thank you 🙏 I am slowly healing and we will only become stronger with staying true to who we know we were before the abuse and control started. I just say to myself I will not allow them to take away from me that caring and loving person I know l was. Somewhere along the way they did or possibly never had it in their hearts to begin with and one being my child it saddens me and always will. I do have my dog, he brings me joy everyday and only because of having a dog l am able to get up and start the day more often then not with a smile. Thank you for your support 🙏🩷🩷🩷
@DoeA-Deer
@DoeA-Deer Ай бұрын
Dear Gaye. A new Aussie follower here. I feel your pain (obviously in my own way). You have touched my heart (and many others) so very much. How people can hurt others (family, life long friends and those we have cared for and loved) is so very confusing. Healing Trauma is hard. I will watch ALL of your videos. So far they have touched the core of my being. You have so much wisdom to impart. If I could hug you I would. However, I offer love to yourself and others, on our individual journies. To a very beautiful, and sincere Human Being. Thank you for sharing. Deb X
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
Hello Deb, I’m lost for words as yours have gone through to my heart. I’m going to get through this, no matter the days of stress and struggles I have. Everyone has been so kind to me and that has given me faith that there are many beautiful people out there. Your support l truly appreciate and love look forward to hearing from you again. Much love to you 🙏🩷🩷🩷
@valeriemearns3367
@valeriemearns3367 Ай бұрын
Thoughts from Scotland ❤. Anxiety is very real. Wishing you ongoing happiness with Griffin.
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
Thank you Valerie and yes, anxiety is real and I wish it would stop. 🙏🩷🩷
@cateb5920
@cateb5920 Ай бұрын
Hey hun. Please let me know what area you are in? Sending love & healing vibes xo
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
Hello, lm down South, South Gippsland way. Thank you for the love and healing 🙏🩷🩷🩷
@sherryl1275
@sherryl1275 Ай бұрын
😢😢 u saud ur not here to teach or create things for ppl just your life...but ur teaching many of us single or thinking to leave ppl more than u ever know...our kids cut us the deepest an i promise theres so many of us that are exactly you an may end up just like u.... please sweet lady leave a light on for us comming your village an home is comming before u no....❤❤❤❤
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
I just wanted to share what has happened to me and that it may be tough, no really hard to move away from people who are trying to destroy us. I never doubted myself but l do now due to the abuse, so now l try to fight that doubt. Losing some of the people I loved was the hardest but l would not have survived if l stayed. My light will always be on for those that are struggling as l was and though not my plan, l do hope l can now how others going through what l did. Sherry you take care of you and be kind to yourself, that’s what lm learning to do right now and l will be here to reassure it is okay to do that. Thank you and sending my love and support to you. 🙏🩷🩷🩷🤗
@blueskies00
@blueskies00 Ай бұрын
Forgive me did i miss something, not understanding. Was this your son or a love interest? Just know you're lucky gaye I have no kids and will likely die alone. U have family that will be with u. U seem like a nice person
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
My daughter’s partner. Yes l am very grateful that l do have children that l love dearly and they love me. I’m thankful for that everyday. I hope that there will be someone that you will have there with come that day. 🙏🩷🩷🩷
@betha3558
@betha3558 Ай бұрын
Yes, you were abused. Not sure of your laws. But here in the USA you could have gotten the law involved. Sue them for your pets and money. It's ashame that family would do this. Prayers
@AVanADogAndMyself
@AVanADogAndMyself Ай бұрын
I spent months going to court getting orders just to get my personal belongings. I was not allowed to enter unless the police were present. I ended up getting the domestic violence unit involved who finally tricked them into allowing me into the house as they were prior that everything of mine was theirs. I surrendered my animals as l couldnt go there to take care of them that whole time. I was a mess worrying if they were okay. I could have had them charged for what they did but by the end l was mentally exhausted and just wanted to leave and never see them again. I can’t get any further away then l am right now. Thank you for your prayers 🙏🩷🩷
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