Agoraphobia is like a muscle, you have to go out in public periodically to build a tolerance to it, but you also have to budget for recovery

Please don’t ever stop making such honest content (unless you need breaks, then definitely take them) because the anxiety disorder community has never been more seen and understood. You have a way of showing and verbalizing anxiety that allows it to be relatable and comprehensive by anyone. Thank you.

One of my biggest struggles is gaslighting myself. When I am having a hard time and I think ‘boy, life is hard’, then I start to think, ‘no, everybody else is doing fine, you just suck at life’. I hate when my brain tries to trick me because sometimes life is a challenge and its not just a piece of cake for everyone but me.

Ok. I have not even watched this yet, but I have to comment before I press play. I have not left my property since February. I left today for the first time and I just got home, opened KZfaq, and BOOM. This video. I’m so relieved I’m not alone in this.

"I don't want to talk to people, but I want to be around where the people are" EXACTLY! Having a conversation (including small talk with cashiers or ordering something)?? No thanks. Feeling like I'm a part of something and being active in life. Yes plz.

Diagnosed agoraphobic in 2016. At one point I didn’t leave my house for almost 2 full years. Today, I went to a PUBLIC outdoor vigil downtown in the bigger city next to my town, and I stayed for the whole two hours. i’m exhausted and had to use almost all of my tools from therapy. but i did it. it takes time and practice but we can do this, friend! Be gentle with yourself. be kind to yourself. doing your best is doing enough. Love you Elyse. ❤

My boyfriend and I are full time caretakers for his elderly parents so naturally we have a ton of medical gloves. We put them to use, and still do to this day, when we pump gas. Don’t feel weird or uncomfortable, just buy a box and leave them in the car, along with some paper towels and hand sanitizer and trust me, your anxiety will go down significantly. ✌🏼❤️

It’s comforting to read in the comment section how much people can relate to the anxiety of leaving your house. I am not happy about others struggling, but it’s nice to know I am not alone. I couldn’t understand why it’s 2024 and I still can’t return to my pre pandemic self.

As a library worker, I applaud your rediscovered love of reading! Also, maybe your local public library would be a good destination to try if you want to get out of the house. Semi-quiet/cozy reading nooks/staff will say hi but not bother you with questions.

YOU ARE A STAR for helping normalize how challenging it can be to leave your safe space when you’re feeling anxious. Your self talk in the car afterwards (“one day I will be able to do this and it will be awesome”) is exactly what I say to myself! We love you and we like you too! ❤

At 8:50 I started crying...I had never seen anyone else struggle like me with anxiety. I did not leave my house for a full year. I felt that "it's ok, it's ok" down to my bones. I want to hug you across the ocean and thank you for being this authentic. We are not alone and you are right, we will be ok. Much love Elyse!❤

Every time I watch one of your videos, my husband says “I really think you and her could be best friends.” I’m proud of you for doing something challenging. I am a new mom and find it hard to get out because I have a lot of anxiety about taking my baby out!

“Whenever I have free time, I’m so tired, I just want to be home.” My husband and I just talked about this today. So relatable.

My mental issues have definitely caused me to become more isolated. Its something I've had to consciously fight and grit my teeth through every moment. And I used to be extroverted!

I dealt with agoraphobia in my past. What helped me? #1). I wrote my anxiety a letter recognizing it's benefit to my life & it's purpose, but explained that it was becoming the very thing I needed protection from. This helped me put my anxiety into perspective that no longer saw it as an ally or an enemy, but something that had just gotten out of hand. #2). I just had to accept that if I die I die. I can't control every outcome, and I had to MEAN it. I had to be prepared to let go and let whatever happens happen. I had to realize & accept that living as I was had been worse to me than death. Once I made up my mind about that... the agoraphobia went away. Every now & then, when I'm under a lot of stress with an extreme need for control... I'll deal with a small set back, such as hyperventilation, but I just have to remind myself to let go of that control.

I really hope you see this. I suffered a miscarriage in the fall and lost my cat of 17 years, all within 2 weeks of each other. For the next few months, due to my overwhelming grief, I started suffering from anxiety and panic attacks. I even developed driving anxiety. I had to have the same exact conversations you had with yourself when you were driving in your car. I had to convince myself that someday it was going to be okay. After a few mounts of therapy and a lot of praying, I am now living a life that is panic attack and anxiety free. I say this because you went through a lot recently with your son having heary surgery. And that can be a lot for us mama's to handle. Give yourself grace and patience and have faith that you will get better. You're just healing your way in your time. I'll keep you in my prayers. ❤

8:20 oh sweet human, I FELT this drive home self-talk. I am proud of you for doing what you could. And you supported a small business! it won't be this way forever.

I newly discovered I have agoraphobia. It is crippling. I recently took a trip to the library to set up a library card and had a full panic attack at the thought of talking to strangers. It was the first time in months that I went somewhere by myself (without my husband or 2 kids). My brain is so good at making everything seem like a threat. At tricking me into thinking that everyone around me is staring and judging. I always feel like the stakes are so high. As if my slightest hypothetical mistake will end in absolute disaster. It is exhausting.

“Brave" & "vulnerable" are synonyms, not antonyms! 🤯Thank you for demonstrating a panic attack. 🙏 I have panic attacks too, but now I see how they're (likely) fuelled by our unrealistic expectations of ourselves or event. 🌸 Thank you Elyse!

I can not explain just how comforting this was. It sometimes feels so lonely with how I feel that I end up totally isolating myself because why would anyone want to deal with these feelings. Then the similar to your gaslighting thing happens where I wonder if these feelings are real or not. To know I'm not actually the only one who feels scared to go out in the world and just generally has a lot of feelings, it's nice. Tldr; thank you for being exactly who you are and where you are in your journey. I feel less alone. 💚

With the combination of the pandemic, and now also being **fairly** recently diagnosed with an autoimmune disease, I have become a hermit. I go no where. Ever. Outside with the dog, and that's it. I work from home, so I don't go anywhere. I hate it. I miss having real friends and a social life. I'm sorry that outings also cause you stress! I wouldn't wish it on anyone

“It’s not personal. Well it’s a little personal, but not for you…for me” 😂 I relate to this so much

What has helped me is not identifying with the term," I have anxiety." Instead, I started telling myself, sometimes I feel anxious. Also, reminding myself that, "I am not my thoughts" has helped. Retraining my brain with healthier thoughts which has led to feeling better. Also, yoga! Because at the time meditation seemed difficult, I started doing yoga and it has literally changed my life spiritually, mentally and physically. A creative outlet is also super beneficial. Our brains are weird. Take your power back!

I swear life often plays jokes on you with the amount of things that it throws at you! You did amazing not only leaving your house but also getting gas, taking pictures, going into the store AND filming it all! Then sharing it with us means a lot. Even though it did not go as planned or as hoped ❤ Seeing someone that is, in my opinion, successful in their career and as a mother struggling with very similar things makes me feel much less alone and not crazy. People who don't struggle with these things can't even fathom the possibility that what we are experiencing is possible or real which makes these struggles 1000X harder. Sending you all the love, Elyse 💖

it took me two full years of therapy to even enter a store after a breakdown. i’m proud of you for trying and im proud of you for the positive self talk, that’s essential to growth. keep trying, it will get easier over time

This entire video has me saying "yes" "exactly" "I know right" on repeat . Anxiety is an absolute b*+@# . My husband is very supportive but doesn't really understand how crippling it can be . Thank you for sharing the hard stuff.

Thank you for sharing your day especially the hard parts. It’s helping me to understand someone else in my life that I love.

I really appreciate your video and the honesty of each moment you shared. It was courageous! I can see so much of my own struggles with anxiety in this video. It reminded me of how far I've come in the last 20 yrs. I had my first full blown panic attack while driving alone in my car to an unfamiliar place. That set off a series of other anxieties that unfortunately escalated before getting better. It takes time but does get better if you keep trying to force yourself to confront the fears. If you don't, you end up living like a hermit, safe in a little shell, but never growing or experiencing all of life and the adventures that await when you face fear, and learn to live with it instead avoiding it. Good on you for getting after it! ❤ you got this!

Thank you. This was so validating. I literally had a conversation with my husband earlier about using the need to go to a FedEx store to also allow myself to stop by a tropical fish store (fishkeeping vids have been a recent hyperfocus here on yt) but I nearly had a panic attack at the thought of going to the fish store and being visible to anyone there. I want to go and see the pretty fishies, but I don't want anyone to acknowledge my existance and look at or speak to me, especially when I feel uncomfortable in my own skin. It's a b*tch of a struggle and it's SO HARD to explain to a mentally healthier person. It helps an incredible amount seeing a similiar struggle and it lessens that isolating feeling. I like you and love you and hope you are able to get that journal soon!

“At what cost?” ☠️ I really felt that. DietCoke time shouldn’t be messed with.

I'm AuDHD (Autistic + ADHD) and I always relate to everything you do/say/think so deeply. I often show my husband your videos just because I get so excited to see someone who is so like me! Even the videos where you have found something hard; of course it's sad to see someone upset, but I still feel a little bit happy because I feel less alone to see someone who has difficulty with the same things as me. Thank you for being so open and honest.

Thank you for just sharing your thoughts and feelings and being vulnerable because it’s very relatable and helpful to me personally.

Thanks for sharing Elyse. I’ve been struggling with the same fears of being in public. I’m a very outwardly expressive charismatic person like yourself and people don’t understand sometimes how paralyzingly experiences can be. I’ve been saying the same things to myself “your ok, everything is ok, they are just people” . I think everyone is traumatized and scared right now and it’s important to share and let people know they aren’t alone. Love you Elyse

when i used to spend most of my time in fight or flight, i would sometimes default back into a version of myself that was very young, and very overwhelmed by what was happening. i've found that the best way to pull the adult me back out of hiding is, like. "____-year old me does not deserve to be handling this for me. it's not safe for her to be here right now." like its love that gets me out of it. eventually. i just thought i'd mention it, in case it might be helpful and i wanted to say, the work ur doing with your window of tolerance is incredibly inspiring. its been an honor to learn from you as you go and to be witness to all of your bravery and progress

Thanks so much for sharing your vulnerable moments. But also don't feel like you can't take a break when needed. You help me have more compassion for others.

You really do have a gift for editing your small moments together to make something beautiful. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your life with us. It helps to feel seen and understood when I can’t even talk about this level of anxiety with my friends.

I sooo get that frustration of something you know logically shouldn’t be a big deal, being absolutely debilitating. For me it’s humiliating and hilarious and heartbreaking all at the same time. Seeing this made me feel less alone. Thank you for sharing it.

Totally do the journal thing. Love buying them; barely use them. All paper products are my obsession.

Thank you for being so vulnerable and real. I struggle with agoraphobia and chronic anxiety - it makes me feel less alone to see someone I admire so much bravely fighting through it. You're so strong!

Girl you are so transparent and your awk is just so relatable. Thanks for putting this out here!! ❤

Oh man. The gaslighting yourself out of allergies hits too hard. I do that with my food allergies. “You’re fine, you were over exaggerating, don’t complain just eat what you’re offered.” Then a bit later I’m a mess of hives and can’t breathe. Dang it me! You knew this! 🤦🏼‍♀️

I live in Benson. If you ever need someone to go with you, but not be with you, I can definitely do that. I haven't been to many of the stores in Benson because I'd probably have to go by myself. While I like being by myself most of the time, sometimes I need someone to do stuff with. The Holistic Expo was last weekend. I had it in my calendar, so I would remember. But when it came around, i just didn't feel like going.

Thank you for being vulnerable. I am coming to terms with accepting myself and you help me feel a little less alone.

Sending you love. Thank you for being so vulnerable sharing your anxiety. I hope you are working with a great therapist. It's helped me tremendously. (As well as medication.)

Elyse, almost everything about this video resonates with me. From hyping yourself up to go out of the house, to making a random purchase and gtfo during a panic attack, to the momentarily ignoring you have sensitive skin. I can relate so hard. Thank you for the time and effort you put into sharing your life with us! I feel you. And you sharing your inter-monologue going through these moments really helps me to know I need to start saying it out loud. Also, I feel like we would be friends if we were in the same area.

i really appreciate you showing the drive back, i always have to repeat to myself "i am here i am okay i am now i am here i am ok i am now" to keep from spiraling, so so so similar to you. I also get anxious hwen i go to far somewhere unfamiliar. thank you for sharing!!!

Just want to thank you so much for being so willing to be vulnerable. You help validate so much of who I am, struggle with, am happy about, am upset by. Seeing so much of my own struggles, discoveries, feeling of inadequacies, embarrassed by things I do, find joy in the little things all in your videos...it helps so much to laugh, cry, smile with you knowing I'm not alone or crazy. You & your precious family deserve all the happiness in the world.

Oh Elyse! I love you! I’m sorry you struggle some times, but you make me smile every time I watch your videos. And to me that is a magical gift! Thank you

I really love your long-form content. I feel so much better knowing that others are also struggling with the same issues as me. Thanks for making me feel like less of a failure ❤

I'm caught in that, I stay in the house 🏡 alot, cleaning 🧹🧼, crochet 🧶 knitting anxiety 😔 triggers around people.

thank you for sharing this ❤️❤️ it can feel so deeply disappointing and lonely to have a brain that just decides to be afraid of something when you logically know it isn’t actually dangerous. it genuinely takes away the ability to enjoy life, even something simple that I truly love like being outdoors on a walk can flip if my brain decides it’s going to freeze because of something like someone sitting in a parked car and I imagine them staring at me or having to walk past someone. it can be exhausting. you have made so many people feel less alone ❤️❤️ also that salad looked amazing wow

I have the exact same experience and it's so nice to see someone have the same thought processes! Plus the grieving of when the things we view as simple used to come so easily and how we took them for granted! Well done for going anyway. I am proud of you. And lots of love to everyone also going through this !

Elyse, sometimes I watch your videos and I just see a mirror. Thank you for making me feel seen. ❤

You did it!!!! You went in! You did the thing!! I’m so proud of you!! ❤❤❤❤

I relate so much to being so excited about the day in the morning, having a full-fledge breakdown midday, then being a tired child the rest of the day and then purely enjoying a salad and packages by the end of it - thank you so much for sharing, and for being you! You've helped me through so much 💖

The shots you set up, the edits, the music, the insertion of the photos you took in the rain...it's like a deep sigh after so much short video consumption. Had myself a few little cries watching this, ty.

I just love this videos so much. Thanks Elyse, these vlogs are like hanging out with a friend.

I loved this, Elyse ❤ it feels so good to have you to sit with. You are so kind to yourself, it's really incredible and so healing to see.

Elyse, watching you in long-form style is a blessing. I love watching you find joy in small things. I can count on the comforting relatability of your struggles. Thank you!

Thank you for being so real and raw Elyse! I just love watching your content especially your long form content because I feel so seen and it feels so nice to know I'm not the only one that deals with this kind of anxiety. A couple weeks ago I decided to go sit at a coffee shop and sat in the parking lot for over an hour trying to convince myself to go in! I eventually did and was really proud of myself. Grateful for your presence in the world, you're helping a lot of people just by being authentically you 💜

I have lived with agoraphobia for 15+ years now and some years are worse than others but I have and do live a very full life and have three of the most lovely humans I’m lucky enough to call my children and an extremely supportive partner so I get your anxiety and fear but please don’t push yourself out of comfort because it can, for me at least, make revisiting those places even harder. But agoraphobia is so different for each individual, just be kind to yourself and remember you stronger than you know and you have helped me and so many others so much. Sending you and your beautiful family much love💛

#1 you are the MOST beautiful "natural beauty" I've ever seen!! AND when you bare your soul & talk about your quirks or you grin uncomfortably or something I just want to hug & comfort you like you're one of my daughters!! 😢 So YES you are special & so is your outfit, ALL the time ❤❤❤

You just made my day, Elyse. I loved this whole video. I love it that you took us along with you on your day just as it was. I can’t express in words the gratitude I feel to have found your channel. By the way, in case you have any doubt about this, you are enough and you are worthy just as you are. You are outstandingly human. You rock.

thank you so much for these videos Elyse! they are, of course, entertaining, but also I feel not alone facing with mental health issues, while watching them. Especially "feeling like a child", I felt this one so hard, while struggling with OCD and having fears about things, that are absolutely ridiculous and feeling lots of the time "like a child" and now I feel not alone with it. thank you so so much ❤

I love how she films. Its not forced. It feels like just sitting down and hanging out with a friend.

I love your vlogs. You're so relatable. Keep pushing yourself to face your anxiety and fears, but be kind to yourself.

When I was 22 years old, just had given birth to my son and was diagnosed with agoraphobia , general anxiety and depression. My psychiatrist just said it so matter of fact and sent me on my way with meds at too high of a dose. Turning 39 this year and it gets more manageable. The good days come more often and the hard times are easier to manage now. I walk onto my porch everyday, even if i dont go anywhere. That act alone has really helped me. I push through the initial anxiety and feel stronger for it. Even if its just for a moment. You're already doing the hardest part, pushing yourself to try. Such a great job! You had so many stressors before going in. Its totally understandable that it became too much . Was very impressed that you got out to take beautiful photos after dealing with the drive . You should be so proud of yourself.

We love you soo much!!! You’ve changed the way I feel about myself and I’m sure you’ve helped so many others! Thank you for being you girl!! ❤❤❤❤❤

Keep lysol wipes in your car so you can't forget them. Wipe off the pump handle before you use it. Not only does it help you, but it leaves it cleaner for the next person.

I so appreciate your raw vulnerability. I watch as much to enjoy your content as much as to hold the space for you so you will know that there are people out in the world who care about you.

Thank you for sharing this. I’ve definitely cried in my car so many times battling my anxiety and it’s so isolating and sad. I’m glad I’m not alone

I felt this in my soul. Ty for being so open and honest and transparent. Along with agoraphobia I also have mad allergies and other chronic conditions so when I’m having physical symptoms it triggers my anxiety.

"You know what's going to fix my life? A new journal," I say as I stack the new one on top of the other 10 sitting in my office. But guess what? They are pretty and there if I need them! Also just wanted to say since I'm here early that I'm really enjoying your videos! As an elder millennial I really miss the original days of YT and long form content and there's only a handful of creators I still watch on here. So glad to see your videos every time you post! For real. It's like hanging out with a friend :)

I feel your pain! From a 20 minute drive being too long to turning right instead of left, panic attack/tears after going to the new store (for me it’s not finding the lemon juice and by the time I ask someone, if I ask someone, I’m in tears) and being allergic to everything. Thank you for sharing your day with us, including the hard times. I love your sense of humors and your eyes when you smile!!! Your videos are literally the only videos I watch on ‘normal speed’ because I enjoy moment. Everyone else gets 1.5-2, hahaha. (And I never leave comments, what?)

I have to second (third, fourth, etc) the comments of feeling seen. Thank you a million times over for sharing the way you navigate through life. It is such a comfort to see someone going through some of the same thoughts, emotions and fears. And it’s equally comforting and amazing to watch you overcome or pause and reset. SERIOUSLY. I’ll never claim to know what you are going through (experiencing) but I see myself often while watching your videos. I feel less alone. Thank you. ❤

I know this day was hard and a lot was going on but it was so comforting to see someone else go through similar situations. Thank you for being brave and putting yourself out there also I couldn’t stop laughing because I felt like I was watching myself and it’s my default reaction

This video is so relatable. I feel like we have so many things in common. I'm a mother, 30 years old, diagnosed with ADHD and GAD - with a big emphasis on social anxiety - and very sensitive skin. Going out, going into stores, is an incredibly overwhelming experience to me and I regularly freeze and am not able to just do what I went there to do. It's really frustrating. I appreciate you sharing your experiences so that I know I'm not alone. I'm also so proud of you for all you did, even though it didn't turn out as you hoped.

Elyse, you are such a lovely and good person. I want you to have only good things happen to you. Try to keep getting out, even if it’s scary. I’ve found that Ativan can help stop a panic attack, and carrying them with me, knowing they’re there if I need them, makes me feel safer and more able to do things. 💛💛💛

I’m so grateful for you Elyse. I want to make content, but not being perfect and aesthetic always deterred me. You have shown me that being yourself on KZfaq is something that can be done. Thanks for posting!

I love you and I like you too! I really appreciate you being so vulnerable and making us all feel like we’re not alone ❤❤.

I appreciate your honesty and bravery for sharing a piece of yourself to us. You have no idea how much I can relate about how tough it is to go outside and navigate the world. We got this Elyse, we got this 💪🏽

So proud of you for going! It isn't going to be this way forever, but while it is, know you're not alone. I felt all of your anxiety at that intersection and then the panic and self-talk in the aftermath. You really aren't alone, and so many people here totally get the difficulties of leaving the house. There's a cafe attached to the bottom of my building that I'm irrationally too anxious to go in. It looks lovely. I have been to cafes a million times. But every time I think I'll go, I just can't. One day, maybe I'll go, and maybe it will be okay. Sending so much love and so many thanks for you sharing these things ❤

Thanks for being so real! Some days be like that! We’ll love you for exactly how you are! And then things change and we still love you. Thanks for being an amazing human!

You are the BEST Elyse, just amazing. We feel you and We all need you! 🥰

Elyse, the reaction you had seems to me like the reactions I started having after I was in a good and safe place in my life for the first time. It was weird to me how life could be so good, but i had this problem dealing with normal stuff. It was PTSD. I hope you have a really safe person you could talk to about it. You may or may not remember the original trauma that particular situation reminds your heart of, but your body senses danger somewhere. It doesn't know it's only in your mind. Healing is on your journey dear sister. God bless.

I'm so sorry you're struggling. Self anxiety soothing through stuff like this is heavy business. I am also at these levels often. I hope it gets better for you soon. 💙

Elyse, thank you for sharing all of this with me! I struggle with just daily tasks .. fetting in the shower can take days! Gi to the community birthday dance in my hous8ng complex? Nope. I used to go..but now? I really appreciate that you shared the trip to the stationary store! You did it! You went in and purchased something! Im so proud of you! And thank you for sharing the self talk after the trip. "It's okay. Its not going to be like this forever..." I needed to hear that. So often i forget to reinforce or congratulate myself for the little steps. And i definitely forget to reassure myself. Thank you! Thank you!

your videos are just so aestheticly pleasing and clean 😍

When you’re post partum and hormonal and so tired all the time, be nice to yourself! I’m also in the same place and I got so scared today to go to the vet even though I knew I don’t even have to go in, they come, get my dog, treat her, and then bring her back to my car. I was nervous the entire way there.

I always appreciate how real you are Elyse, your content always feels comforting, warm and honest. I completely understand the wanting to be around people but not interacting with them, like I want to just exist and not have to speak to people. Also, cool shirt - I have the exact same one and I love it!! x

I will continue to thank you for bringing your authenticity to youtube. It's raw and real and relatable. And your humour brings me so much joy!

I’m loving your longer videos ! Your amazing

I am so proud of you using positive affirmation and self talk to remember “ it’s not always going to be this way”. I love people, I have rare panic/ anxiety attacks. But some things are just hard. Like ordering food- I’m like embarrassed I’ll get it wrong or take too long or not pay correctly. And I didn’t know that I had anxiety doing that. Hard to admit out loud too. I’m just really proud of you.

It’s so lovely to spend the day with you! ❤Those magnet plants on the side of the fridge!! So cool

Thank you for making these! We like you and we love you too. I hope you’re doing alright. I can’t imagine having to deal with all the drama you just went through. When (if) you’re ready to come back, we’ll be here 💗

I just found your channel today, and I'm so glad that I did. I was diagnosed with ADHD, OCD, and ASD almost all at once at the start of 2023 after years of not having access to decent mental healthcare. I'm happy to finally have a diagnosis, but ever since I've been having the roughest time trying educate myself, examine/unlearn behaviors, figure out what my brain needs, adjust to therapy, etc. Every day is so hard, but today felt a little less so. I found this vlog today and I cried watching because I've never felt so seen. I also struggle to leave my house. Even going out to get the mail can be overwhelming for me. I also have trouble touching things in public spaces. When you said "up to the elbows," I teared up because I know that scenario all too well. I saw myself so many times in this vlog. It made me feel less alone. I felt seen. I felt understood. This vlog made me feel HERE, and I'm super thankful for that. Your channel is amazing. Your content is a comfort, and I know you don't know me, but I want to tell you that I think you're doing a great job. You truly made my day today. Ty ❤

Oh Elyse you are so loved !!! From 11:41 - 12:17 I giggled because i would do the same thing and be just as frustrated. And the why question is so valid!!!! Also the trip (though it didnt go 100% like you would've hoped) was brave and wonderful. One day at a time, one trip at a time, one outside adventure at a time. You will conquer this because you believe in you and thats more than enough to do it. I like you and i love you too!!

This was so eye opening ❤ thank you for being so open you are such an inspiration! My aunt suffers from agoraphobia and as someone who doesn't this was extremely insightful I hope you continue to heal and thank you for being the best part of my day today ❤

I’m in near tears because my anxiety is so bad I barely leave my house - I didn’t used to be like this, and then I had a kid 6 months before the earth shut down due to a pandemic and nothing has been the same. I stay home with her all day every day and you share everything I go through with so much bravery that I aspire to be. I know you do it scared… and with your influence in my mind I do it scared too. I cannot thank you enough for being so honest and true and genuine in your videos. You help me to remember that I’m gaslighting myself too, and it’s ok to feel everything I’m feeling. You just bring so much perspective and genuineness to everything you go through and I… just… thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you for being wholly and wonderfully unfiltered you.

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