*RECOMMENDED READING LIST (Nine Books)* Please purchase and research at least six of these recommended books: they are some of the best resources out there, and they will help you reclaim the clarity and sanctity you deserve. FOUNDATIONAL: Dark Nights of The Soul by Thomas Moore Spiritual Emergency by Stanislav Grof (editor) The Stormy Search for The Self by Christina Grof and Stanislav Grof INTERMEDIATE: Trials of The Visionary Mind by John Weir Perry Swamplands of The Soul by James Hollis Suicide and The Soul by James Hillman ADVANCED: Dark Night, Early Dawn by Christopher Bache Changes of Mind by Jenny Wade Embodied Spirituality in a Sacred World by Michael Washburn

My brother just took his life only 2 weeks ago. He lost a long battle with his own demons and my sadness is beyond anything ive felt before. We had no real idea it was coming, although somewhere, deep inside me i had the fear. I have been in transition for going on 3 years now and this has given me enough of a foundation to not lose myself completely in grief and existential sadness. My heart aches for humanity as a whole and the pain people feel and is broken to pieces for my brother. Thank you for this timely (for me) information as I continue my journey to true emotional health and some kind of enlightenment...that's the goal anyway!!

*Postscript:* I made this video for the person who is suffering. I can’t speak about The Dark Night of The Soul and not feel the loss of my friend who didn’t survive his mental health crisis, or the multitudes of frightened people who reach out to me during the worst moments of their lives - we need better support, and that's what I'm here to offer. In truth, this was an emotionally taxing video for me to plan and shoot. I've experienced several waves of anger and grief these last few days (and it shows in my camera presence), but I nonetheless wanted to provide a clear, concise and structured path for your self-healing. I’ve done my best to curate what I believe to be an accessible yet comprehensive study guide for anybody who is struggling through this very difficult period of time. These teachers hold more wisdom and guidance than anybody on KZfaq, and they are all worth your attention. It’s taken me five years to find these nine books in the pinned comment. *Please stop scrolling the comments and purchase the books.* You'll get through this, but you have to study. Jordan

When going through my first Dark night 12 years ago I had nobody to talk to, no resources, nothing that could help me. I have no idea how I pushed through that. I am so glad that now people going through it will have resources like this video and won't have to do it on their own. I feel like following your example I could someday contribute to others' lives in that way as well. But for now, I am just thankfully enjoying your content. Day after day remembering what hope feels like.

Is it insanity? I feel like I’m going insane when I look at myself reflected back in the eyes of friends and family. Untethered lost and alone. I cried as I listened to you. My family hasn’t wanted to see me in over a year. So I know that it’s me. I’m defective. I’m trying to pull myself out but I’m stuck. I love life. I love this world. I’m not suicidal. I’m an INFJ and an empath. Now this. It’s all too heavy to carry alone. I’m spinning in circles digging deeper into a pit. I’m desperately searching for people who understand. 💙

I agree so much with your points about grounding yourself into reality. Making lengthy physical contact with Earth's dirt, mud, natural bodies of water, and plants is very useful. This practice strengthens my sense of not being identical with my negative emotional experiences and helps me to know, and feel, myself as an observer, experiencer, and sculptor of them and as someone involved in the world again productively. Thank you for your excellent work.

I started watching your channel a few weeks ago and I have started reading some of the books and it IS making a huge difference already. I don’t count myself amongst some of the worse off in this journey I have been suffering and these perspectives on my pain HELP. Thank you for these videos and I’m sorry for your loss.

Man I'm so happy you mentioned the gym and being outside. leading up to my Mother's passing doing this exact thing, studying the spiritual world, working out and grounding in nature. Please spend time with your body in this soul work phase, it can save you. It does something to the mind body and spirit when you spend time pushing through. Through mindful connection of the body and Compassion towards yourself will literally save your life, it did mind. Thanks for sharing about your friend, I'm sorry you had to go through that. Thanks again for such an incredible video.

Hey Jordan , I can’t imagine your loss , but I do understand pain . Please do know that many stand with you 🙏 ‘Dark Night Early Dawn ‘ particularly called out to me. Till a few years ago I used to say this often ,that it’s only when I actually hit rock bottom , that I realised to my horror that rock bottom has multiple basement levels. I have not been able to read anything last few years , the last year being excruciatingly quiet. The lyrics ‘ silence like a cancer grows’ coming to my mind now. Meditation is still my only solace. Swamplands of the soul Dark night, early dawn ( both are in my Amazon cart) Love and Light Ps : thank you , as always 😊

Another excellent video. Great books...I have all but 2 in my collection. Love the clarity that Michael Washburn brings and the way he integrates East and West. Washburn breaks regression down into 2 phases, which I found enormously helpful. One layer is experienced as unresolved grief and trauma from this lifetime, the ego's karma if you will. This is symbolized by a lake or turbulent river and many other symbols. One no sooner finishes this level and there is a false reprieve that lasted around 1 week with me. Then, one gets some bliss, past life memories come up, the revelation that one is an evolving soul, and some light comes up. One thinks "great...I'm done...I've reached the other side!" Wrong. Then one finds oneself on the shore of a turbulent ocean. This is what Washburn calls "the Dark Night of the Spirit" or "regression in service of transcendence, phase 2". What dies is the false self sense complex (which is identified with shame, guilt, fear, rage etc) In all, it took me 22 years to "bottom out", land on solid ground, and swing upwards into "Regeneration in Spirit". Here, the authentic ego is fully integrated with the Soul Core..or Divine center..or Self. The higher energies are just as challenging as the lower hell like experiences. This phase begins to calm down and one becomes more and more integrated. You are absolutely right...working out, getting into the body, and staying focused on work and one's responsibilities is paramount. Trusting the process is essential. Heavy meals like Spaghetti and meatballs help enormously too! Sorry for long post.

‘’To have access to other people who have been there, and write about it very eloquently, it’s comforting. It’s comforting because information itself can be clarifying, illuminating, and in that illumination, it’s a little less dark.’’ 7:07 A beautiful and simple quote of yours that would do wonders to encourage and rejuvenate people into reading more books again! Thank you for these videos 🙏🏼🌲

Thank you for the recommendations ♥️ I’ve recently come out of my dark night of the soul and my faith has been retrieved, but the integration process is confusing to wade through. But I’m thankful to have my strength back and ground it in. I experience that buzzing feeling a lot, like all the energy is lifted around me. I feel this was my sign to really take my physical health seriously and make the pivotal change. The physical balance is what I struggle with the most, but I know it will be worth it. 🙏🏻🌹

Man, I am sorry about your friend. I can feel your anger from over here... ❤ But... if it weren't for you, maybe others would have done it, too. Who knows how many lives you saved by only mentioning these great books? Cheers!

Keeping fit and active is the first step to getting grounded it’s saved me many times

I appreciate your humbleness and your intentionality. I appreciate the minimalism of this video offering yourself, your experience, and your years of research. This is a gift and a half to have come across your channel. Thank you for your years of study that culminated into this outpouring of all you have learned, so that anyone watching can find the information required to move forward. There is so much content out there, but this resonates on a deeper level. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. ✨

I had a friend commit suicide over 30 years ago, I still think of her regularly. I'm very sorry for your loss in such a tragic way. Thank you for all of your dedicated work X

I bought the book you’ve recommended (“Mysticism” by Evelyn Underhill) and I’ve been really slowly and consciously reading it the last few days. I’m in tears almost every evening when I’m reading it because it’s so full of soul… The amount of wisdom is incredible. Thank you so so much for this book recommendation, I feel so much healing regarding my past and so much hope for my future. And peace in the present moment. I can’t thank you enough for your work and for sharing this wisdom. What you are doing is so precious.

Thank you for sharing. The topic is crucially relevant. Sorry for your loss. 🙏🏻

Amazing jordan so True It's about the balance Swap heavy energy for physical energy I think every you say is groundbreaking well done and thanks

I just discovered your channel and I cannot be more glad for it. So helpful already. Thank you, Jordan!

Jordan, I am very sorry for your loss. Life is a very complex journey, I believe with divine purpose. How fortunate ur to have the ability to focus enough to read copious amounts of books. Having been diagnosed with CPTSD, mild depression and anxiety this is something I have struggled with for years which is difficult as I am an avid booklover. For the past 3 years I have been navigating the "Dark Night of the Soul", what a fascinating process, I have never experienced such spiritual enlightenment, darkness, pain and suffering all at the same time. I am grateful for all content on utube concerning this and related topics, it has been a great way to delve into areas of interest whilst staying focused enough to allow the information to resonate on a deep level. Being an individual who suffers from memory loss, brain disassociation and cognitive dissonance this has been very helpful. Your perspective and coping mechanisms are very insightful. Thankyou for sharing your personal experiences, for me it really does help the world to feel a little less foreign.......

I don’t want to repeat myself all the time but I’m just so grateful for your work and your presence. The wisdom you are sharing (and the way you are doing it) is so precious. Thank you so much. Wishing you all the best.

Discovered your channel only very recently (bless the algorithm!) & immediately subscribed as I sense I have much to learn here, if I dare. I don't typically comment but am making an effort today, not having even finished watching the video, as the timing is impeccable. Simply want to offer my thanks for your content. I'm also a bit raw and proceesing some big feels having just came out of a counselling session (have been doing IFS work for several months now) where I had the insight that perhaps the regression & suicidal ideation I have been experiencing lately may possibly (hopefully) have been the descent into darkness that I need in order to spiral upwards once again. I can also see how I could use this as an excuse to continue a downward spiral. My younger brother, after decades of struggling with opiate addiction, the recent loss of his partner to an OD & forced severance from their 11 year old autistic daughter since the OD (she's currently in the care of a relative), was seriously contemplating suicide yesterday. I felt/feel powerless to prevent his actions for better or for worse, and unable to provide any clarity for him to help him pull back from the edge. So I want to offer my condolences for the loss of your friend recognizing that clarity is often accompanied by great suffering. I appreciate the lack of pretense in your delivery & the rigour with which you are approaching these difficult subjects. Now I shall return to watching the rest of this video and hopefully will find the time to read from this list. I'm certainly familiar with many of these authors/titles and the ideas they represent, but have neglected the hard work of reading them for myself. Your video is challenging me to step up and take this healing journey more seriously. Thank you.

My first exposure to your channel and even thinking about this experience as a process. The Dark Night of the Soul. Wow. I’ve never heard it expressed that way. Years of struggling. Thank you for those two areas of focus. Knowledge and Body. Your voice is soothing. You have a gift, and you’ve given it to me. I wish you a full lifetime of purpose and meaning.

I went through it 5 years ago and emerged out in a state of Enlightenment after dying to me flesh. Its worth getting through it…

Jordan you are an absolute gift, finding you has brightened my life

I'm very sorry about your friend. It's hard to lose someone but especially in that manner. Perhaps your videos will help some people overcome the internal states that can cause it. Thank you for sharing your stories, insights, and research. I can't wait to read Dark Night, Early Dawn and Embodied Spirituality. The first one is at my library. Dr. Nicole LePera (The Holistic Psychologist) talks about naming your ego to notice your true self versus the part that is trying to protect your identity in the world. It seems to make sense. I'll call mine by a nickname from my teen years and see how that goes.

This might be one of my fav videos of yours so far! Sensitive topic, well executed, really necessary for the whole (myself included) :)

Appreciate the rawness of your videos

Fantastic video. Thank you for recommending these books in such an order, as well as mentioning how we can go through this process multiple times. Perhaps this is what is happening to me again. I appreciate your knowledge and insight, and your taking the time to share it with us. 🙏

I’ve found there have been layers of ego death (mainly precipitated by my kundalini awakening). I’ve come to recognize aspects of when it is happening and do my best not to introduce resistance though it can be frightening and is sensorily disconcerting. I keep up with all my practises including grounding and trust it all to rearrange itself as it always seems to do. I don’t ascribe outwards to books and have tried to keep my experience really innocent. I panicked the first time and got some comfort from research, but my preferred m.o is definitely intuitive in nature and allowing the path to unfold. Thanks Jordan.

Grateful for your time and energy and the necessary grounding of the work in the body. Sorry to hear of your friend. Untethered is a difficult place to be, your words have been the weight i needed to hear. With thanks and courage.

Thank you very much for your sharing. You are a shining light, a lamp of warmth and clarity in this dark, turbulent journey. I am grateful for your work.

Your voice is so comforting

tysm for the book recomendations going through this since the beginning of this year

Showing the body a better way of being by opening it up to feel fully again in the love and guidance of our life we give for it. The body as our ally and friend and a commitment to win it over and change it’s attitudes and disposition no matter what it’s been through or what kind of early life parenting it had. It really does start with grounding and re-mothering our body with nature so it can begin healing in feelings of security with us and away from all the ways bad mothering gave it the wrong messages of our worth and value.

Thanks a lot for your channel and for 5he recommandations. And your presence/charism/voice are very southing and comforting.

Appreciate your humility, honesty and sharing your own process. Your encouragement to live grounded and disciplined in study and understanding is clear. Body awareness, nature walks and yoga help me. Of course diet care that smoothens and detoxifies also. Thank you for your videos...helps to know many need this.

This is my second DNOTS following my second awakening and I am grateful that I know what to expect now and that it is worth it (not like I have a choice though). I always feel very disenchanted by spirituality when I go through DNOTS. I guess I am disenchanted by everything at the moment. Your recommendations are truly appreciated.

Good job, Jordan! Yeeeears ago, when I was in my early 20's, I challenged myself to read/study the works of Allan Kardec. It's about spiritualism. Understanding the origin of my spiritual being, helped a lot when I was navigating my soul's dark nights. Re suicide: there is a movie - "What dreams may come", with Robin Williams, that I usually recommend ppl to watch and interpret it from the spiritual realm.

I knew I was going through the the dark night of the soul instinctively when it happened. I tried to Google to find out more but didn’t come up with much. After I started coming out of it (through power walking) I had a friend kill himself. We were born on the same day and I’d known him for 45 years. I knew it was the dark night of his soul that killed him, and I said so to the crowd at his funeral (I’m a minister). I had no way to explain what it meant, so thank you for this topic and book recommendations. Losing the ego is extremely disorienting and uncomfortable. Everything changes. Stick with the discomfort, EXERCISE and the reward will be freedom, authenticity and fun! What? Yes, fun!

Thank you for this … very helpful and informative ❤

Jordan thanks for your amazing research---more alluring titles!---& for your amazing synthesis. I'm already torn up from watching your video on healing the father wound earlier today. I might be overdoing it, or going too fast. Always deeply moved to hear about suicides, and the surviving loved ones. A child can be thrust into that darkness, i know all too well the lure of death. I found many reasons to not kill myself. When i acquired 10, i thought i could write a pamphlet, then found 3 more. Staying alive happens beyond the realm of reason. Good to highlight the physical body

Thank you! You are not alone! Love and light. 💕

Thank you for this. I'm so sorry for the loss of your friend. I have vowed to myself to never give up. I'm going to get more serious about making myself do my morning workout. No more messing around 🙂

I think your views are great. I'm not a reader, I can see that it's good to point people in this direction though. Well done for helping people onto the path of understanding themselves more.

For a long time now I've had a lot of resistance to reading. Even when you urge us so clearly to actually just read I have all these judgements about how reading can just be intellectual bypassing, and how there's a greater value in what you're presenting that enables us not to have to read as much as you to glean the same benefits and insights. But I know deep down that the reason the prospect of reading properly again is triggering me is because I know how impactful it is and how much my avoidance of it is simply that there is a depth of work and subsequent transformation I'm afraid of.. that the point I'm at is like the regression described where I'm kind of skimming and fragmentedly engaging/evolving/practicing but not really committing to this work for fear of what it means for my ego, identity, typical ways of being and doing. Interested not committed as they say, and I hear your frustration with this because (what I'm hearing is) you know this is what saves lives. I know how significant certain texts and practices have been to me and that deep engagement with them is only possible through reading/notetaking/paraphrasing and following with journalling or practices. Yet I'm still at this sore point where I can't seem to truly commit to this work. I have compassion for the fact that I'm in a big life transition period and only starting to settle after a lot of change and upheaval, which in itself has (gladly) disrupted my life and all the strategies stories and stresses that stymied the transformation that's been banging in the doors of my coffin lid or cocoon walls, so to speak .. and that past ego tendencies towards masochistic or action-faking type regimentation (and intellectual /spiritual bypassing) disguised as self-improvement make it hard to find a sweet spot or balance. I was really glad you mentioned physical grounding because that piece of the puzzle precludes the possibility of heavy reading being a form of intellectual or spiritual bypassing. With compassion and acceptance I also acknowledge that I've had a lot of resistance to physical activity that priorly helped.. Likely again because in the past it veered into regimentation, ignoring the body and my feminine cycles and intuition around this, basically forcing it into certain routines, leading to metabolic shutdown. Anyway I hope my sharing this offers some insight to resistance and how we might say we're on a healing journey but feel stuck or perpetually flitting back into old patterns, albeit with awareness and compassion, and how - whether to reading or moving or whatever we know will help us - this resistance can be acknowledged, held, then ultimately redeployed. I say this too because I viscerally feel this resistance as similar - in heart-pang / gut-disgust vibe - to that general life and self-denial sensation in body that mind attempts to problem solve with its domino effect spiral into inertia, freeze, and suicidal thoughts. Sending strength and compassion to anyone else encountering regression or resistance 💖💪✨ and thank you again Jordan for urging us to commit to this work.. I have heard it loud and clear

Thank you!

Spot on.

Looking for my next steps to get me through whatever this is and asking for guidance and this video pops up. I’m sorry about your friend. I’m going to start with the stormy search for the self and spiritual emergency. Thankyou Jordan.

Excellent

When you told the story of your friend touching your book and not taking it with him, my heart clenched. I ordered 'Spiritual Emergency' while listening to this. I have wanted to commit twice this month, and feel I am in a deep, deep darkness. But I don't want to give up. I want to get stronger. Each morning I awaken with less past on my shoulder. But the future holds no sway.

Coming out of the dark knight of the soul, got dumped and then saw another person committ suicide and it has been horrific been going for 4 months now

Thank you so much. Brilliant reading. And i'm sorry about your friend. Crushing!!! Death is sad enough, but it's the violence of suicide that obliterates us. I found great help in therapy. I'm old now, and glad to be old. It was over 20 years ago that i recognized i was having flashbacks. And the immediate subsequent recognition was: I've been having these all my life. Violent family, i had my midlife crisis when i was one. Actually i call them "flashblacks", because there's no visual. Rather it's kinesthetic, i described it as a black wind blowing through me. The absence of visual provides a clue as to the youngness of when the trauma occurred, before the brain can register visual memory. So painful to recognize i was hated by persons who claimed to love me. One takes that hatred in, as if it were my own. Unless that belief of self-hatred is dismantled, which takes time, help, and imagination, threat of suicide is everpresent. The feelings recur. Awful how feeling suicidal, i believed i was thinking rationally, like this is a great idea. Now i can say to myself "Whoa, i'm in the trance". That provides a shred of detachment, to patiently endure and detour from self destruction. I love your reading list! I have a friend struggling with suicidal feelings, the trance metaphor was helpful. She's unable to read, though. I suppose it takes some serenity to be able to read. There's a painfully great book on the topic, Night Falls Fast, rats i forget the author. But there is a pattern, where a sufferer, having lived in numb denial for so long, experiences a little bit of loving help. The result, like tearing a scab off an unhealed wound, is a renewal of despair, and the person at that point is at ever greater risk of suicide. My father🥀. This sounds like your friend, the gesture of reaching for the book, knowing help could be found. The pain became overwhelming, like hemorhaging. The demons don't like success. It's my belief that these poor tortured folks would not want us to feel responsible. Peace

I see it as diving into the darkest depths then coming back up (eventually) with the gold..

Thank you. I’m not sure if I could have saved the 4 people I’ve lost to suicide (including my Daughter’s Father) over the past 20 years even with this knowledge, but I will read your selections for myself and perhaps those future souls in need along my journey. This video very much affected me and I feel a sense of urgency to read them now.

I feel I am having my own DNOS and have had my own inner guilt turned on me by others and feel helpless to defend myself and been through so much that I am feeling at or beyond the edge but don’t want to leave here with my friends I love thinking false things and can accept my real flaws and can peacefully leave once I know I am leaving who I am and not who someone else tried to make me look like. I badly want to leave this life, but feel trapped waiting and hoping I get my chance to finally be able to leave the imperfect but loving and best person I could be despite my imperfections, addictions and guilts. I miss my loved ones and my wife more then I think I can ever recover from. I want peace and can’t see ever having that again in this life.

Hi Jordan I am a listener of a few weeks too your videos and I'm glad to say not in the category where I've not yet gained one of your book recommendations I have one ordered 'Born to Serve' by Susan Trout whom graciously emailed me directly after I emailed her site to explain am in cusp of an elated bi polar episode receding and exploring a career change into mental health peer support work. I'm working through another book purchased on amazon Theory of Positive Disintegration and find it very illuminating! I've managed to find three books recommended above on e book apps so I've got the samples downloaded.... That's my morning sorted! Finding your KZfaq channel was divinely guided I feel, though I apologise if that's outside your teachings, am working on being more grounded now 🙏😊

My dark night lasted ten terrifying years. I wish I had found books like this but I was completely alone in my journey. Luckily I had my children to keep me from losing hope. Transcendence is bliss! Now all I want to do is guide others through it. The pain is real but it’s not true. We can do this together. ❤ 🤩

Why are you so under rated? This is brilliant. Im a muslim from pak and trying to research this. You are so helpful.

My brother took his life a year into his dark night, we started awakening around the same time I’ll never forgive myself for not going over there, he is part of my soul group too🌹that was 2019, I started 2018, honestly the last 6 months it’s been looking good I’m so tired of finding the fire to keep going.

I’d love to hear you go into other types of spiritual rituals with grounding/energetically releasing in your body such as yoga/stretching breathing dance running. If the gym/lifting isn’t something that’s meant for everyone I’d love to hear your knowledge on the different types/forms/routines of exercise that give spiritual and physiological benefits.

I feel you 🙏

Stay Blessed...Soul Grateful 🙏

Thank you for this. I have just ordered emergency spirituality, of course i wanted to jump straight to the end, but I withdrew ! I wondered if you would consider a video on limerence? As a deeper exploration of betrayal trauma and those associated links. The nature of how this trauma comes around seems to be on the incline, for various reasons as discussed here on this channel. I think in society there seems to be a lack of understanding around this trauma, even within professionals themselves. Which can also cause further trauma.

Thanks 📚💚

Thank you i found your channel

Thank you kind sir for this channel and your recommendations of all these extraordinary books. I shall purchase what I can afford or procure what I can from the local library. It's time I committed a deep dive into Mr. Jung. Born into a chaotic hippie commune with a grip of unsavory characters practicing new age abuse and terror, I suspect I disowned my rage and my shadow is rather looming. Perhaps these books will assist me in deviating from the path of a wounded, curmudgeonly organism, who stumbles, writhes, and lurches (all the while gripping a copy of the Tao Te Ching ) and seeking tranquilizing elixirs, a quiet room, and horizontal position. Sadly, I just tore a ligament in my knee so I'll have to pass on the squats :( Fortunately the natural world, combined with a few reasonably evolved and genuinely benevolent allies has kept me in the game. Forgive me if that was a bit long winded. Thank you again! Perhaps you have read "Darkness Visible" by William Styron? I found that memoir of madness to be comforting during many a dark night...

I have no idea what you're talking about but I could listen to you all day long 😅

I gained a lot from your videos, thank you so much for the incredible knowledge 🙏. In my healing journey I like try every tool that can be helpful, a few months ago I went on an Ayahuasca retreat, and so far it seem to be one of the greatest healing things I've done. So I'm wondering why you're not talking about psychedelics.

Thank you so much for this video. I am going to start with the first books on your list. I’d love to get your feedback if you have some time. I realize this is a bit much, and perhaps too much for a brief KZfaq comment, but I figured you can let me know if that’s the case. So, basically as a result of my spiritual emergency two years ago, my entire self died and everything in me just collapsed, along with that came this part of me that is terrified of doing anything that will bring me back to life, afraid of eating, afraid of moving, going outside etc. any time I try to do anything like that something in me just collapses and I feel compelled to just curl up on the ground, and trying to do any of those things makes me feel like I’m inside out, like my energy is split, like I’m rebelling against myself. Because I completely lost my persona I cannot move about in the world anymore or interact with others, hence going outside is supremely difficult. I lost my general rhythm and ability to be ok in the moment, I’ve completely lost my grounding in this world. I’m curious since you mentioned you’ve worked with folks going through DNOTS if this is anything you’ve encountered before and if you’d have any recommendations? Thank you so so much.

Thank you for sharing your Knowledge and experience 🙏 It's very helpful. And damn i was wondering what kept me focus while listening to this , the content or your blue eyes that burn to the back of my head. You should try hypnosis 🤣. Keep on👍🏽

i experienced a dark night of the soul and it was horrible i felt so afraid and didn't understand what was happening i lost the most important thing that you can lose faith hope in yourself or god that he will save going through things like this make you humble and understand that you have to be brave and makes you understand how important truly is self belief cause self belief or god belief and courage is what will save you in a dark dark time like this

I’m on my third DNOTS in 6 years 😩 Things just keep coming up that need to “die”. This third one has really made me question reality and my sanity!

I am so sorry for the losses mentioned here. My dad committed suïcide due to bipolar disorder. I get that energetic marker too. Also the diagnose. I have had mania but woke up in 2020 , fifth dimension and had downloads. I think i am in a dark night again or depression. It is hard sometimes.

I’m very sorry about your friend 😔

My night dark of the soul was really really tough I spent 4 months in bed can’t tell if I’m dreaming or someone is dreaming that I exist till i reground myself again

Ahhh, I gave up on the gym years ago , when I meditate I get so hot 🔥 like really hot and sweaty! When I'd do weights or work really hard(literally try and break my body) it feels like that "energy" has somewhere to go, like I heal myself so fast I'm sort of invincible? Might sound strange but yeah this is me and I want to use it to be of service... getting there, thanks for the lessons today bigdog really appreciate you brother 🤙

Hi Jordan. So glad I found your channel, its been very helpful for my clarity and focus. I have a friend who I am trying to introduce to spirituality. What book do you recommend as a good introduction please? 🙂

what do you say after hearing this video?...I guess first off, it's very true that moving your body does make a difference in how your body processes energy, for lack of a better word. i'm not a gym buff, so for me it's resistance training, cardio, stretches, dancing, something to get you aware of your body, aware of muscles you never would've known were there otherwise. and being off the internet for a couple days helps a lot, especially with dream recall. These are just what help me get out of my own head better. That's all I can say now, because I don't know how to say anything else about this.

The path to enlightenment is not an easy path. You'll feel much pain along the way. This is impermanent and will not last forever. After the dark night of the soul always comes the dawn light of the awakening. If you choose to take this path, there is no turning back. Keep going my fellow travellers, we are all on our own journey back to our true selves and oneness with everything!

St John of the Cross Dark night of the soul is a great book also Enlightenment the damnest thingby Jed Mckenna, but first and goremost your own personal expirence which compares to no read. Well done to all who have crossed this path and it is an ongoinv experience that gets easier through time ❤

PS what keeps me going MUSIC in particular the song 'Lost in the Echo' Linkin Park, profound lyrics for the healing.......

After your review I want to read Spritual Emergency and Stormy Search fo the Self by S.Grof.

You sound like Henry Cavill

I drove around looking for somewhere to jump from…I had 2 little kids. Multiple times I was in the process of committing suicide it’s a lifelong struggle I’m sorry and hugs to you all trying to find the strength to keep on.

Reading and studying depths of human psychology, tendencies, paterns and functions often can be dangerous i think, and i would really like to hear your thoughts on this topic. As someone understands his shadow and his fuctions its really dangerous for him to put those conclusions into his ego, and that can easily become a fragment to his development. As you discover more and more your brain-soul and your fuctions in depths that knowledge can easily go against you and sometimes even reach a schizophrenic battle and for sure many obsessions in the most cases. I have had many of those experiences and i understand that this has to do with an immaturity of some kind too. My question i suppose, (and i hope that i don't say just obvious things with no meaning because of my difficulty of English language), is how do you use psychology and philosophy of human consciousness as a knowledge and as a tool without going mad or obsessed with things, because i understand that it has a very small line that sepperates knowledge and practical use. I feel the need also to thank you with great honest for your work and give you real credits for that thing you are doing because its really hard to find real and useful information of that kind on the internet and your are honestly a gold mine. You've helped me understand many things and i would dare to say that you've opened my consciousness a bit more. Keep believing to what you 're doing i am sure i am not the only one.

While watching this video, it just „clicked“. I suddenly understood in my felt experience what I‘ve read so many times: that my ego, my thoughts and inner images are not reality. How can they be?! I recognized how I live in a „split“ the whole time. And simultaneously found that there‘s a silent, gentle, intuitive way of quasi-thinking, decision making in my body. I felt slightly panicky, yet my perception is very clear. I now wonder what would happen if I‘d surrender to that fully, letting that soul-like intelligence guide me. I had to share this. I think also because you, once again, pointed out the importance of reading. Through that advice I started deep diving into the works of Alexander Lowen, and I think the epiphany I‘ve just shared came through reading this. I can feel your grief in this video. I hope that someone who is in deep need watches it, and through your advice, has epiphanies and changes like I just had, that reaffirm their will to live.

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The key problem with your advice solution -‘ to go to the gym and get into nature ‘ doesn’t hold up very well . Almost all SAS SBS Commando trainees who have been in the woods under intense physical and psychological pressure at all stages,go through ‘ the dark night of the soul’ when they question their very identity and capabilities. Those that come out , survive, don’t give in and pass through. The very point of this training is to put the candidates through the dark night. The gym they’ve done .😅

Weight Lifting Iz 🗝️!!!

I’ve been having a hard time finding so many of these books, why are they not more available?

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@jordanthornton do you do distance one on one sessions with people?

I don’t know how and why i read whole of this book. Then can i understand why i created..

I tried to digest the Stanislaus book about 30 years ago and I honestly couldn't grasp it. Much like trying to understand Michel Foucault. Maybe if I tried again I would do better.

Are you the next Peter Kingsley

What do you do when nothing works? Endure I suppose?

For people who can't go to the gym because of chronic pain & CPTSD, fibromyalgia etc For titration purposes, I recommend Qigong. It's excellent for grounding & shifting through energies. Look up Yoqi on here - Marissa, she's lovely. Squatting exercises can induce trauma release, especially with your back against a wall in seated position. Shifting the flight/fight energy in the legs then it rises through up to the cervical spine. This advise comes from David Berceli. Part of the dark night of the soul is not being able to release these traumas from the body & subtle energy field. I've been working with a chiropractor & it's brought up past life trauma. Things that have affected me for years now make more sense. Although my chiropractor doesn't understand the past life aspect ofcourse.

A lot of the books you recommend are not on Audible 👌 hahaha you probably prefer it that way. I bought two of your recommendations. I'm currently reading Embodied Spirituality in a Sacred World. Deeply soothing... and also technical in a way that my left brain likes. My first 3 years of "awakening" and I had no clue what was happening to me. I actually feel very fortunate that I did not discover the cliché material until my 4th year into the process. New Age Clichés and spiritual grandiosity 🥸 were kept hidden from me as I was going through my major "dark nights". I'm happy my process was more organic and not tainted by dogmas. I still consider myself in a "dark night" phase in a lot of ways. I'm separated from meaning and purpose.... still chewing on this material and coming to an authentic expression of what I know to be true. I feel closer to the butterfly stage 🦋. Thanks for this content 🙏 Also, sorry for your loss. I had something similar happen to me several years ago. Your videos are thoughtful, inspiring, and courageous to share those vulnerable pieces