High for almost 4 years...PART TWO

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Ай бұрын

0.00 Intro
0.33 Cocaine is my Achilles heel
0.57 Ketamine and loss of body control
1.26 Different types of Ketamine
2.05 Dangers of buying, doing, and mixing illicit drugs
3.13 My glorification of drugs
4.02 Date rape drugged on accident (GHB)
7.51 You never know what's in the drugs you buy
8.26 I had my own little drug set-up
8.53 Allure and novelty around doing drugs
9.10 The diminishing return of drugs and alcohol
9.35 How easy it is to get addicted to drugs and alcohol when you're vulnerable
10.15 Conclusion
t's really easy to be drugged with GHB which is better known as a common date rape drug. Especially if you have a substance use disorder like I do and use illicit drugs bought on the street like depressants, stimulants, sedatives, hallucinogens, disassociates, and more. Drug addiction is difficult to overcome but it's possible. There is hope in addiction recovery.
Crashing on my bike while high on Ketamine, getting drugged (I think?) with GHB (gamma hydroxybutyrate) which is better know as the "date rape drug". These are some of the sad stories I have of getting high on illicit street drugs that are incredibly harmful. Drugs bought off of the street also have God-knows what in them.
These are the lessons that I've learned from being high for almost four years straight.
If you find yourself struggling with addiction, please visit any of the following links to get help. Much love :)
If you or someone you know needs immediate help you can always text or call 988, which is the primary suicide and crisis lifeline phone number.
Online 24/7 Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Meetings: virtual-na.org/meetings/
SAMHSA's National Helpline: www.samhsa.gov/find-help/nati...
AA Meetings: www.aa.org/find-aa
#addictionrecovery #drugaddictionrecovery #drugaddictionawareness #addictiontreatment #drugaddictiontreatment
/ @annabarram
About me
Hey, I'm Anna. I live in Portland, Oregon, work in branding/marketing, have a cool dog named Karl, and got sober in October of 2023 after almost getting taken out by my drug addiction. I was in rehab for 2 months when I got clean and have been sober ever since. Thank you so much for checking out my channel. Follow along if you want for updates on my life after getting sober.
Instagram: annatothebarram
Email: anna@lelo.agency
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@pedxing Ай бұрын

I'm also a HUGE fan of bikes. one big turning point for me was one day going to meet a friend for a bike ride at 7am, still obviously drunk from the night (let's face it DAYS) before but for some reason I thought it was a good idea. Failed to navigate a corner and completely threw my face into the asphalt head over handlebars. I'm thought I was on the ground for a minute when I noticed my phone was ringing. got to my knees and answered it and it was my friend wondering where I was. I laid it out flat and told them I crashed and where I was and they just said "don't fucking move, I'm on my way." I picked up my bike and started walking anyway. they caught up in their truck pulled over in front of me and just said... "get in". no judgement, didn't give me a hard time, didn't tell me what a piece of shit I was, just scraped me off the ground and took me home and made sure I got inside. I mean, I was barely able to function from being drunk in the first place but now I was bloodied, scraped all over my face, pants shredded, and bruised in more places than I even knew. Later looked at my phone and saw that they had been trying to message/call me for like 12 minutes. I had just been laying in the middle of an intersection for 12 minutes. I live in a rural town and it was a sunday at 7 so I lucked out there. fast forward to 2024 and I have talked/texted that friend every single day since then with very very few exceptions. That was over 5 years ago. the road was long, there were certainly bumps along the way, but without a bicycle and a friend like that I would have landed in a landfill a long time ago. They were an absolute lifeline that I didn't even know that I needed. You can never repay a friend like that of course except by changing your mind. While I never want to see someone suffer the way that I did during that time I know how important the simple acts of availability were to me and my recovery and I will be there every single day for someone else now that I know how. so ehhhh yeah. I like bikes. and I like your videos. thanks for posting. =)

@annabarram Ай бұрын

OH MY GOD!!!! What a tale this is!!! I'm so happy that you're OK!!! And thanks for sharing your story. That's remarkable that nothing worse happened to you, seriously. The bicycle story resonates hard with me too, seems like we have a love for bicycles in common!! :) And it's really cool to hear about the friend who helped you. That makes a big difference to have friends/family or even just one friend who will show up, help you, and support you no judgement, no questions asked. Truly an incredible story. Thanks again for watching, commenting, and sharing. I love it. So so much love :)

@zackcraft7204 Ай бұрын

i never did ketamine but i once rode a bike for like 100 meters on DXM and it was incredibly harrowing lol

@annabarram Ай бұрын

Oh damn I bet that was harrowing!!! riding bikes on anything is like not a good call...neither is doing drugs so I guess at the very least my bad choices have been consistent?

@ShadesOClarity Ай бұрын

I have never done cocaine or Ketamine - it is not my DOC. I think I mentioned that I don't like stimulants. That is why I stay away from the street. Yes, Fentanyl is in everything. Please stay sober.

@annabarram Ай бұрын

Good call staying away from street drugs and everything that comes with that territory. I think people underestimate how easy it is to buy drugs that have Fentanyl or really anything other than the drug they think they're buying in it. Because I did that for a while too. Anyway, 8 months sober today and keeping it moving. Thanks for your support and for watching and commenting :) I appreciate you! much love :)

@canadianpeasant3490 Ай бұрын

Theres a reason why drug addicts exist, its because that high/Rush feels so good, and also that insane Manic Euphoria doesn't exist or Ever happen otherwise in real life. There is a definite Costs benefits assessment happening in an addicts head at all times. When you make that Choice to relapse, at that point you're willing to deal with the withdrawal and negative consequences in advance of and in anticipation of the high, and the devil always fronts and prepays on that first high regardless of the payback Being a bitch. And thats the shitty/scary part in recovery, is dealing with all of the mundane, daily arches and pains of normal life, not expecting or looking forward to any analgesic or euphoric reprieve from the life train making no stops. The pains and lows of drug abuse are no doubt worse than the pains of sober life, doesn't compare either, but Theres more or less continual pain and malaise in both addiction and in sober life too. Except in sobriety There is no pain avoidance, so no break from that, or Pleasure seeking bc the sober Pleasures dont compare and aren't as compelling, Ice Cream cone can Never be a cr@ck rock and bowling w family Will Never be as fun as conversing w a Bunch of euphoric idiots (myself included). I Mean that is sick but IT is what IT is But choosing to Forego the party to be present with m'y family in all of the lower back acheing daily Grind is a reward on a much Deeper and profound spiritual Level that Also in its own right and league doesn't compare to addiction. Sober life is rich in love, care and concern, and careful management of Gods resource of life itself Sobriety a sacrifice of love and how fucking Much our familles love and need us is the only cure Am still in the middle of a drawn out prolonged post acute withdrawal phase and, still find myself occasionally jealous of the homeless bum in the Alley whose life completely sucks, but they still get to feel euphoric for maybe a couple or few hours a Day regardless of what that looks like to the outside world Who has no experience w Its ex

@annabarram Ай бұрын

WOW I got so much out of your comment. I don't even know where to start. You really nailed everything I'm feeling about addiction, euphoria, and the pain of doing and not doing drugs. Nothing will ever compare to the euphoria of being high. Nothing. But at the same time, nothing in my sober life could ever be worse than my lowest point of my addiction. You're a gem, my friend. Thanks for sharing and connecting with me, I appreciate it more than you know :) much love lemme know how I can support ya