I was high for almost 4 years straight...PART ONE

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Ай бұрын

0.00 Intro
0.22 Types of drugs
0.45 Getting help (see below for resources)
0.48 The drugs I used to get high on
1.41 Cocaine
2.49 Ketamine
4.34 Cocaine and Ketamine
6.14 Adderall
7.13 Xanax
7.49 Effects of Ketamine
8.31 Conclusion
What it's like getting high on combinations of stimulants, hallucinogens, sedatives, disassociates, depressants, and amphetamines. I got off drugs in October of 2023 after going to drug and alcohol inpatient treatment for 7 weeks.
I wouldn't recommend trying drugs if you can avoid it. So here is a look at what it's really like to do and mix illicit drugs, and what it can do to your life. This video talks about my own personal experience with drugs, this is not expert advice or guidance about drug use.
If you find yourself struggling with addiction, please visit any of the following links to get help. Much love :)
If you or someone you know needs immediate help you can always text or call 988, which is the primary suicide and crisis lifeline phone number.
Online 24/7 Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Meetings: virtual-na.org/meetings/
SAMHSA's National Helpline: www.samhsa.gov/find-help/nati...
AA Meetings: www.aa.org/find-aa
#addictionrecovery #drugaddictionrecovery #drugaddictionawareness #addictiontreatment #drugaddictiontreatment
/ @annabarram
About me
Hey, I'm Anna. I live in Portland, Oregon, work in branding/marketing, have a cool dog named Karl, and got sober in October of 2023 after almost getting taken out by my drug addiction. I was in rehab for 2 months when I got clean and have been sober ever since. Thank you so much for checking out my channel. Follow along if you want for updates on my life after getting sober.
Instagram: annatothebarram
Email: anna@lelo.agency

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@Slayer-7373 Ай бұрын

Killing it with these videos!!! 💪✌️

@annabarram Ай бұрын

Thank you thank you thank you so so much!!!! Hope you are doing well :) much love!!

@ShadesOClarity Ай бұрын

I've never been into drugs per se, but have been prescribed benzos. Never liked pot because of the paranoia and it never helped with my anxiety. I was never into stimulants either. I always wanted relaxation. That is why the alcohol has been such a problem and is at the top of the list. I never wanted to end up in sketchy situations with sketchy people. I never wanted to get out of my head or lost in a high. Great video, Anna. Glad you are sober.

@annabarram Ай бұрын

Thank you! :) It's so interesting to me to hear about what people are into or not into. Everyone is so different!! It's a good thing you never got into stimulants. And thanks for your support and encouragement, means so much.

@ShadesOClarity Ай бұрын

@@annabarram No problem. I enjoy it.

@TheWeekendYogurt Ай бұрын

“I was right, Yahtzee!” Love it haha

@annabarram Ай бұрын

hahahahaha yahtzee is such an underrated/underused word, lol...

@ZacharyRobinson-hj2hx Ай бұрын

🎉🎉🎉

@zackcraft7204 Ай бұрын

i didn't realize fake adderall that is really meth exists but why wouldn't it, makes perfect sense. glad you got out of all these habits, the up and down sounds like such hell

@annabarram Ай бұрын

I knowwwww, same! I found that out while I was in the thick of my addiction and still kept doing Adderall. Yikes. But I agree, it does totally make sense that pressed Add would have some meth.

@aronaeleven5574 Ай бұрын

Thanks for your support and for sharing your past awareness. I am grateful to be a part of your journey it is awesome 🖐😎

@annabarram Ай бұрын

I'm so so grateful that you are a part of my own journey. How are you doing these days?? Much love!! :)

@aronaeleven5574 Ай бұрын

@@annabarramI've had to change my wardrobe because of excessive weight gain and want to join the gym, but I need to build up the courage and strength. The price, including my interlock hire plus commitments, can be stressful. I need to slow down and take my time.

@Disappointingyourdemons 14 күн бұрын

I loved this video. I was never really into ketamine. I tried it once, did it wrong, and fell into the biggest K hole ever. And that was the beginning and end of my ketamine career. Cocaine and alcohol were my thing though. Alcohol being #1 followed closely by coke. With that being said, for the last 4.5 years, I was drunk essentially every day. Blackout every weekend and holiday and just normal drunk during workdays. It was a crazy crazy life. Thank God I am free from that now. Great video Anna!

@annabarram 13 күн бұрын

Oh damn, yeah our stories sound pretty similar! I really haven't met a lot of people who were into cocaine like I was. So it's always helpful to connect with people in recovery who have a similar story or struggled with cocaine. Yeah k holes are crazy. I don't blame you for never wanting to touch ketamine ever again if the first time you did it you k holed. I can so relate the being drunk every day too. Alcohol was so just part of my daily and hourly life at the end there. Same with cocaine. How long have you been sober and how did you get sober from everything? Thank you so much for commenting, it's so great to connect with you!

@Disappointingyourdemons 13 күн бұрын

@annabarram great to connect with you too! How'd it get sober from everything... well, I pretty much almost drank and drugged myself to death. Realized I didn't want to die and surrendered. Begged my higher power to take the obsession away (he answered and he did) and then changed every aspect of my life towards my path of sobriety. I got back into AA, reconnected with my sponsor, got into therapy and removed everything that might make me want to relapsebl from my life. I am currently 94 days sober this time around. I had 7 years of sobriety back in the states before moving down here to the VI, before going on my 4.5 year bender. So I knew there was a solution. Now im living it.

@canadianpeasant3490 Ай бұрын

Im not in active addiction and i have many compelling Reasons for maintaining sobriety and i am successfully doing so today, all Day

@annabarram Ай бұрын

That's great you're still sober!!! Supporting you from Oregon :) much much love!!!

@canadianpeasant3490 Ай бұрын

Yeah I'm a 'dry drunk' crackhead, I'm staying sober for my loved ones, and my loved ones are giving me a great home life that thankfully Makes staying sober pretty alright. Knowing it isnt worth doing Drugs to hurt my family is enough and Works for me, but doesn't remove the désire and i deal with IT daily too. Once you smoke coke especially the Euphoria is incomparable and Theres a big memory and reward association in your Brain that you have to subjugate and reason against continually. Like grieving that feeling and painstakingly rewiring your Brain Over months and years to overcome anhedonia and feel Pleasure Over normal things is really a lame thing to go through but its better than the alternative of losing family.... Like its that real.

@annabarram Ай бұрын

Thanks for your in-depth comment and insight on this. Super interesting and makes me feel very understood and affirmed, and like I'm not alone!! I'm glad to hear you're doing ok and staying sober, even though it's really hard to do so. I'm supporting you!!!

@canadianpeasant3490 Ай бұрын

@@annabarram Yeah dawg I support you and am following along Feel involuntarily sober sometimes because my family won't accept me as an addict but loves me for who I am 100 So I'm being lovable because end of day, every addict on the street in cheating on their loved ones with dope

@canadianpeasant3490 Ай бұрын

Every active addict is hurting their family and it sadly is low key sadistic being able to take any pleasure in that and every active addict is also out on the street compaining that they miss their family Like bottom line of life its pick one drugs OR love, not both

@canadianpeasant3490 Ай бұрын

@@annabarram Love and relationships or drugs can't have both

@lukejamieson1267 9 күн бұрын

My thing was Adderall to get up, Ativan to sleep repeat, for years this was my life honestly, I'm surprised im still here

@annabarram 9 күн бұрын

ohhhhh yessss I feel you on this. Not having Adderall is tough. I was doing the same thing. Every morning Add and cocaine then alcohol and ketamine at night to sleep. I don't think I've really met anyone like you with a similar addiction...vibe? Idk what to call it.

@lukejamieson1267 9 күн бұрын

@@annabarram The hardest part of Adderall withdrawal is trying to go to work when you feel so weak and exhausted

@annabarram 9 күн бұрын

@@lukejamieson1267 oh 100% I actually felt like that last week and it was terrible. Very triggering. Hope the rest of your weekend was good!

@lukejamieson1267 9 күн бұрын

@@annabarram It was, im in australia and it's winter here so i just stayed in, also i dont really have any energy to do much

@annabarram 8 күн бұрын

@@lukejamieson1267 oh nice, are you like traveling or are you from Australia? I get it on the low energy thing. Been feeling that way a lot every weekend these days. Hope your week is going well so far :)

@canadianpeasant3490 Ай бұрын

Question, Do you think addicts have a high or low pain tolerance, as both active addiction and sobriety are high pain experiences for drug addicts

@annabarram 17 күн бұрын

Sorry I didn't respond! Just seeing this now. I do think that addicts and alcoholics may tend to have a higher pain tolerance yet simultaneously are very emotionally sensitive. So that may result in using because the emotional pain experienced in life is too much to handle for many, but the physical pain of using is less painful and makes the emotional pain subside. What do you think?