losing some when you have bpd absolutely sucks balls ,i hope that you are especially kind to yourself in the next wee while and let yourself have a big cry,grief will come and go and it is probably the toughest emotion i have ever faced as well,i have found finding a lovely song that lets you grieve it out helps but just acknowledge that you are grieving is the best thing and it is ok.

I struggled with losing my Grandfather, my BPD meant my emotions were out of control. I had nightmares and my OCD went overboard. But the intensity of that did not last, i kind of crashed and burned, and gradually, It eased off. You are in my thoughts and prayers, after watching such a 'real' video, showing raw emotion, i wish i could give you a big hug. As a collective, us BPD sufferers are good at raw emotion, just terrible at dealing with it. Sending my love to you and your family at this time xxx

Bas....you are not alone my friend. I just found your videos and love your work. Your Grandmother and Grandfather would be proud. Count your blessings...you have family and friends...many of us don't.

Just discovered your channel. I have a family member just diagnosed with BPD. Your channel is helping me understand and I've mentioned your channel to them. So sorry about your Grandma. Our family recently lost Grandma too...she was 93. We miss her. She had an interesting life and shared many stories about it with us. So nice to have the wonderful memories to look back on.

Losing my grandmother was very tough for me. She was the only grandparent I had ever known, and her absence left a void I couldn't replace. I don't think I processed that grief well, some 9 years ago, but we, too, did all we could and it was time. I still dream of her, and I wake up thinking she isn't gone. I think the best advice I can give is to just allow yourself to feel whatever emotions come up. Feel them, and let them pass when they have run their course. She will always be with you, in how her memory lives on in you.

Keep well, Bas :) You nearly made me tear up with this video, I can tell you're holding back those tears. She's at rest now, if she's already gone. I lost my grandmother to pancreas cancer as a 10 year old boy. I still miss her, but I know she's better off.

You reminded me that I got to kiss my grandma goodbye. Thank you. I didnt have this memory since then. Im sorry for your loss, really. You are right about everything you said.

im sorry this happened to you. i lost my mother at the end of september and it has been incredibly difficult for me to deal with. i appreciate all your videos on bpd, they've helped me a lot. you're a good person.

Thank you so much for your courage and everything you have done to help me and others through your videos

Thanks so much for sharing. Just stumbled across your videos today. BPD is something I discovered about myself a few years back. You are so genuine and sweet and it shines through my screen. My grandmother is the family member I'm closest to, so this video hit close to home. I'm sorry about your loss. I hope you are doing well. Bless you

I am very sorry about your grandma. I recently (4th of April) lost my grandpa, actually, but it still hasn't sunken in yet. I still haven't realized it yet, that I'll never get to see him again and so on... But he was old and told us numerous times that he just wanted to go to sleep... It'll take time, for the both of us but that's okay. Don't rush anything and take care of yourself! Cherish the good times, the great memories - our lost loved ones will always be a part of us.

I recently discovered that I am QBPD.I came upon your videos by chance. I like them and it is helpful to me.I have a hard time sharing how I am feeling because it is a lit that. Feel.I lost my bestfriend,my father,and a good friend Jim. All in the last 6 year's.I have grown numb to the loss of people.

So sorry to hear about your grandmother. I lost my Grama in May. God grant you peace & healing!!

Love to you and your family.

We are here for you.

Hugs for Bas

Good luck! Yes losing someone is never easy and I can't imagine what it likes for someone with your condition. However, I watch your videos alot to help me understand a close family memeber with BPD. Although, I wish I could give you a hug and tell you everything will be ok I can only say this: trust yourself you are stronger than you give yourself credit for and you can get through this. And your gram's where ever she is can be proud to have a grandson who does so much good in the world!! My sincere condolences!

Bas, I'm so sorry. When I found out my twin sister who had terminal cancer was in a coma, I was in a very bad place. I can relate immensely to losing someone. Stay brave, keep courage and stay close to your bro. My prayers and positivity are with you!

That's so tough Bas I'm so sorry, sending good vibes your way xx

Awwww I'm Soooo Sorry For Your Loss. I Have BPD & I've Lost People & It Is Extremely Emotional & Difficult But The Way I Think Is To Always Live The Way They Wanted Which Is To Be Happy & Enjoy Life xxxx

I have been watching all your videos. I have bipolar but your videos has helped me understand my feelings when I loose a friend or end a relationship or someone i know passes away. thank you for your courage in sharing the hard moments in your life.,

I feel you. :( I lost both of my grandparents in 2012. It took me two years to (somehow) recover from that loss.

I'm sorry your going through this. I understand what you was explaining, I think about it often about my family and my anxiety levels go up so bad. It's seeing people you love around you continuously and then suddenly they have/ will be gone. I would like to believe that there is a place after , even tho I'm not religious but I do carry that idea of a place with me.

I have to say that I cannot handle death. I lost my mother last year...my grandpa and grandma many years back...and I still cannot deal with it. It is something that happens every morning when I wake up. It never heals. But it does get easier. What I have done is searched within myself to find the beautiful pieces of them that were instilled in who I am as I grew...I have taken these qualities and shared them with the world. I have allowed them to dominate who I am. because everything good in me came from them. And I want the world to feel their love as I did. Even if I am broken, I can still help. I am really sorry for your loss. And I hope you are ok. I am here if you need someone to talk to. I am very good at listening and sometimes I even give excellent advice. You're an amazing person. You have helped change my life. Keep the faith.

Firstly, please accept my condolences, I hope you're doing well. Secondly, I just wanted to say that I believe you found your reason for existing and it is to help, inspire, give hope and ultimately save lives of Borderline Personalities - namely my own life...all the way across the world in Trinidad and Tobago. I'm 32 years old and was diagnosed last year after a very traumatic breakup and while I was grateful for finally understanding why I was not resilient like everyone else I knew or why I was "overly emotional" and why I felt like my world ended at the mere thought of rejection/abandonment by someone I loved, for as long as I can remember, I didn't know what was the cause of my BPD. I started DBT but stopped after a few months because I was functioning well again and did learn a lot from it but thought that I would've been able to live the rest of my life with the limited skills I picked up and not thinking about the cause of my disorder. After a very recent start up again and subsequent ending with the ex, I was once again thrown into the exact state I was in the last year. This time was actually worse as I did some things I am not very proud of. Today is one month since that trigger and I am finally feeling like I will make it through. This is in part due to my discovery of you and your videos. They have helped me more than I can express and I am now able to say resoundingly, why I suffer with BPD. I felt like I needed to reach out to you to say thank you for what you are doing. After looking at your videos I decided to restart DBT and Iike I said, I feel as if I am finally back on my road to recovery, with new found knowledge, understanding and love for me. This comment is already extremely long so I'll stop now but again, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!! Appreciative more than you'll ever know. P.S. Just wanted to say, your english, both written and spoken is quite well :-)

So many thoughts I send you. I use writing to help deal with the death of my father. There is a hole in the world where he isn't. But I have his spirit in me and he comes along on all my healing journeys. He was quite a person. Also BPD I think, and I think my healing helps all parts of his spirit in everyone. Your healing helps heal all the dear ones whose spirits you hold. I sit with your spirit. For my spirit will never be without you now that I know you. With mush gratitude.

As a grandmother myself, I can only hope that my grandchildren will show the same devotion as you and your brother. You are brave to stay in a place of emotional stress to help her. I'd hug you if I was there. Ganny

Prayers are with u. U have helped me so much with ur videos. I lost my dad last April so I know the struggles u are being faced with. Good luck and hang in there. Hope u can find times of comfort and peace thru this difficult time. Hugs.

Im so sorry for your loss. Remember that she will always be alive inside of you, in the memories and everything bshe thought you. Thanks so much for sharing with us. Stay strong. Blessings

Dear Bas... I hope you are okay & I have been thinking of you through your journey. I have lost both parents so I know what you are feeling. I wish you well

Your video's are so amazing and so needed.

I'm really sorry for your loss, Bas. I wish nothing but the best for you.

We would love to see another vid from you when you are feeling up to it. We hope you are in a good place. I have lost my daughter & I know the grief & pain associated with losing someone close to you. I hope we see a vid from you soon. We miss you. Take care Bas. Greeting from Melbourne, Australia

Thinking of you Bas at this time. Crying is healing & cleansing. Take care Bas

Hope you are doing fine Bas. It's hard but you are right, she's in a better place now. They would be proud of you. I know that being able to say goodbye is better than saying nothing at all. (hugs)

I prayed for you and your family Bas.

...so sorry for your grandma.....wishing you strength and courage....xo

Thanks for sharing... sending lots of love to you and the family!

Sorry for your loss.

Dear Bas; you did things right and that will help you have some close with your Gramma, but it will take time for the pain of losing her to lessen. And maybe more time than some, due to the bpd, but remember to be good with yourself and know your feelings are valid, and OK. Talk with us whenever you need, it's always nice to see/hear from you. Much love, Kim.

Bas my heart goes out to you and your family. My father died last year and I did not travel to say goodbye to him. It still breaks my heart, even though we were never close (he was still my father). I still to this day have not dealt with the emotions that arose from his death. Stay Strong Bas, you know there are a lot of people that wish you well. Paul Lee

I am really sorry, take care.

*Hugs* Bas. I will keep you in my thoughts.

Sweet Bas, als eerste heel veel sterkte en kracht de aankomende tijd. I will continue in English now. Losing someone is our biggest fear and then actually losing someone puts me into a crisis. My dad past away 15 years ago and I'm still not used to the idea that he is gone. Keep talking about her if you have the feeling that's what you need to coop. Keep strong my friend. Big big hug!

I'm sorry for your loss, Bas. I will respond to your inquiry when I can put some cohesive thoughts on the matter together. Just wanted to be another voice to say I care.

endings are always really difficult things for anyone to deal with, especially those of us with BPD.. be gentle with yourself :)

You are lovely, sharing this.

Gecondoleerd! Knap dat je er nu al zo over kunt praten, en ik hoop dat het een mooie begrafenis/crematie wordt! Heel veel sterkte en liefs

I understand your feelings, I too lost my aunt who was 87! Your in my prayers Bas! :@)

I just came across u tonight. I know its been 4 yrs ago but I'm sorry u lost ur granny. I found this video to be very touching. :') I hope ur doing well~ 🌬🙏🏻💗🙂✨

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

We miss you Bas! :(

Bas I really hope you stay strong of bless

Lost my father in February. It's still very surreal. He was Alzheimer's and didn't know me at the end. I have a lot of guilt because I didn't go around much. Dad remarried after mom died, and I was on "eggshell" terms w/my stepmother most of the time. In the last year, an argument she and I had was my excuse for not going to see him anymore. So I'm dealing with this as best I can.

Oh no :,( I'm sending you hugs from Canada

Hey. nice video. Hard to find real feelings expressed sometimes but this helped with that. Subscribed. merry Christmas

I lost my grandma 2 days ago to cancer and i was there in her final moments and it hurts and I can’t make it stop

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I hope u r doing ok :-(

my son lost his father two years ago and his grandma 3 months ago...

super soldier i thinking.

I freak the fuck out! First of all, i am going COMPLETELY numb and empty so i am ready to help, if Somethings up... And then my feelings go COMPLETELY crazy! FREAKING crazy! Uncontrolably crazy!